#aaaaa its so seamless!!

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...............hmmm ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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MERA, THAT NEW TREY FIC HAS TICKLED MY BRAIN SO GOOD LIKE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! ヾ(≧▽≦*)oヾ(≧▽≦*)oヾ(≧▽≦*)o

Surreal horror has always been one of my favorite types of horror because of the unsettling atmosphere and the reality-bending and you wrote it so well! You did amazing when you wrote the dream sequences in DRU, and now to actually read a whole dang fic with the theme?? With Trey of all people???? OTZ OTZ OTZ You've unlocked so many new possibilities with his Doodle Suit, truly the Gaslighting King of all time 👑👑👑

AND THE SYMBOLISM!!!!! please please please please ramble about them if you want-- I'm having so much fun rereading this fic again and again. The Violet Butterwort caught my attention cause isn't that a carnivorous plant? 👀👀 Trapping insects in its leaves like a certain grass-haired man??? 👀👀👀

Anyway, all I'm saying is, Trey is not the only chef around cause you definitely COOKED with this one 🔥🔥✨✨

( ≧ᗜ≦) AAAAA OMG OMG THANK YOUUUUUU!!!!!! ✨ ✨

I'm so happy it tickled your brain! I adore surreal horror in film and writing. There's just so much potential for the craziest of things to happen! Dream sequences or sequences that feel like dreams are some of my favorite things to write. The ones in DRU are also just as surreal. <3 I originally wanted to write this concept with Jade (Kalim was second on my list), but I decided upon Trey in the end because I think he suits the surreal horror vibes so well! Doodle Suit + the power of seamless gaslighting........ what a terrifying combination.

I wanted the story to feel obscure and almost like a trip with the imagery and descriptions. Sort of like the vibes in Alice in Wonderland. Just,,,,, utterly bonkers.

👀 you are very right about the butterwort hehehe!!! As for other symbolisms/details, these are the main ones in the story! I left out some of the symbolisms of various lines or words because that would make for such a long analysis of my own work. ^^;;;

It is under the cut due to length (forgive me)! A warning for mentions of sexual assault and drugging!

✧ the binary can be translated into messages. :)

✧ the feeling of itchiness - feeling as if you don't fit in your body after it's been violated. Feeling like something (trauma/blocked memories) is beneath your skin and you can't get it out no matter what you do. Also, itchy as in discomfort.

✧ grass - this is meant to be Trey. It's how Reader views him throughout the story.

✧ violet butterwort - as you noted, it's a carnivorous plant that traps insects! It's also a symbol of resilience and a common charm used to ward off supernatural evils.

✧ birthday cake with 20 candles - the plot is that Reader and Trey are/were in a relationship and on Reader's twentieth birthday Trey drugged their tea (chamomile) and had his way with them when they were half-conscious. Thus, Reader was never able to indulge in their birthday cake because Trey took it all. Cake can also be a metaphor for Reader's body.

✧ the line "it will take twenty more..." is in reference to the healing process and how it's going to take Reader time to heal from everything.

✧ xylophone chimes/broken glass - the juxtaposition of something sweet-sounding with something jarring.

✧ the white rabbit - a sense of innocence/comfort lost.

✧ "Soups are easy to eat. Easy to slip special sentiments in." - a reference to drugging.

✧ "Soup is what becomes of your brain when your body is too itchy." - disassociation during something traumatic (in this case, sexual assault).

✧ the hedge maze that never has a true exit - the feeling of being lost and trapped and never having a real escape.

✧ the grass bow around the white rabbit's neck - the obsessive and unhealthy hold Trey has on Reader. How he can't let them go.

✧ static - lots of noise and amidst the noise there's Trey, whose own voice is sometimes static and other times soothing enough to cut through the static.

✧ the sequence of "it's here and then there and then here again..." - an allusion to the Cheshire Cat from Alice in Wonderland when he's giving Alice directions, but they're all over the place.

✧ every time the grass whispers or speaks - things Trey told Reader when he assaulted them.

✧ "In and out. Out and in. In and out. Out. Out. Out. Incessant itchiness. Get it out." - double meaning for breathing but also the act of sex (thrusting).

✧ the questioning of "that didn't just happen, did it?" - how Reader feels in the aftermath. But also just a general question in response to gaslighting. A consistent questioning of one's reality.

✧ Reader's association of the word "gross" with cake (especially birthday/confetti cake) - it ties into the above and also the part in the story about favorite foods and memories.

✧ teeth falling out - usually, in dream interpretation, this symbolizes a recent loss or mourning of something lost.

✧ hyperdontia - the horror of having a mouth and a voice but never being able to use it because it's so clogged with teeth, so no one will ever listen to or hear the things Reader desperately wants and needs to say.

✧ Frozen Charlotte dolls - Victorian era dolls that could float in the bath. They were also baked into cakes. They're called Frozen Charlottes based on a folk ballad called "Fair Charlotte," which tells the tale of a young girl (Charlotte) on her way to a ball with her lover (Charlie). It's dreadfully cold out, but she frets over the fact that wearing a coat will prevent everyone from seeing her pretty dress. She freezes to death on her way to the ball and arrives in her carriage as a frozen corpse. I think these dolls are fascinating and so cute, so I just wanted to compare teeth to Frozen Charlottes. The description of having a dozen tiny dolls stuck in your throat made for unpleasant imagery, so I wanted to write it!

✧ "A black rabbit blinks up at you with its milky-white eyes. Its nose twitches. Once. Twice. Thrice. A loud gust slithers through the field in which you currently observe, surrounded by decaying greenery and wilted wildflowers. They sprawl endlessly, clawing at the horizon beyond with broken fingers. You watch monochrome tones sway, dried petals flaking off like scabs against a battered, bloodless sky." - this is the same paragraph as seen in the beginning, only certain details have been changed. It's a hint at some sort of cycle that Reader's just only beginning to see. Idyllic beauty is no longer so blinding now that Reader sees what they didn't notice before.

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Doctor Who Tagging Game

Tagged by: @theaussietimelord

Favourite Doctor: 12. No contest.

Favourite Master: Misssyyyyy (but, to be fair, I’ve never watched any classic episodes with the Master, so I don’t have the full range of choices)

Favourite sonic: Eleven’s! I like the green and the coppery casing, it’s a bit steampunk :0 but also the sonic specs because they are the coolest, and 12 is an unhinged rockstar

Favourite companion: Bill! Or possibly Martha… but if we’re counting classic then Romana for sureee (but also Sarah Jane… and Ace) I love them all :)

Favourite Story: HEAVEN SENT!!! I love it so, so much. The aesthetic! The music! The concept!!!! Also, it’s all 12, and I love 12 sooo (he’s such an incredible actor, just carries the damn episode all on his own, his speeches are just so, so aaaaa)

Favourite Soundtrack: Surprise, it’s Heaven Sent. Probably Murray Gold’s best composition on the show, so many incredible tracks that give the episode such a distinctive, sombre mood. Favourite track goes to The Shepard’s Boy. I also really like 13’s theme and the different variations on it throughout series 11 and 12 (Segun has a new instrumental spin on it nearly every ep and its seamless and amazing!! Also love the way it weaves into the fam’s theme too)

Dream Actor For The Next Male/Female Doctor: Got no idea really, I just love to see new takes on the role!

Dream Composer: I don’t really know many composers, but the Bioshock soundtrack has a special place in my heart, so I guess Gary Schyman?? He does magical things with strings

Dream story: Don’t really know. Something dark :p I love a good time loop too, something that messes with your head

A Companion You’d Like To See Back: Martha Jones!! She’s still around being an awesome Doctor with her husband Mickeyyy, and I really want her to meet 13

An Enemy/Alien/Creature You’d Like To See Again: Maybe this doesn’t count, but I want Vastra and Jenny back (for the gays)

Would love to see the Dreamlord again, or something similarly dark/psychologically targeted (anything that forces metaphysical dream sequences/hallucinations, like House or those wack lads in Can You Hear Me)

Also Dhawan!Master def needs to come back

If You Could Travel With One Of The Doctors, Which Doctor Would It Be & Why?: I want to say 13, but I would be a gay disaster the entire time :)) sooo

8! I love him, he’s so enthusiastic and funny and he fearlessly toes the line between Edwardian gentleman and rugged ex-rocker going through a mid-life crisis, depending on the era. Also, he has the best TARDIS! Steampunk is my aesthetic

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@iamscrewedinallways submitted: Okay, so, I found your blog through this drawing specifically. I just want to say that 1.) your art is beautiful and I can only dream to draw as seamlessly and naturally as you can and 2.) this drawing of Inasa is just so… satisfying. How he’s drawn, I could just stare at him for hours. The fluff around his color looks so soft but seamless, like you manually took clouds and kitten fluff and strung it with your pencil lead. The angles and shapes of his head are so sharp, but also so smooth and soft, I can almost feel his cool growing warmer from all his hot bloodedness. All around, your art is the kind of art that makes me feel like I’ve been thrusted into a 4 foot thick layer of blankets and pillows with a box of Cheeze Its and a cold Sparkling Ice or soda, which I live for.

HHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH !! thank you for taking the time to write this out and send it to me; that was rly rly sweet of u and i am CRYING. i will read this every day for the rest of my life and think abt it any time i open my sketchbook aAAAA . words cant describe how you just made me feel !! im so happy and fuzzy inside ahah wowow thank you so much idk what else to say :””)

you are so incredibly kind and i hope you have an awesome day omg