#actually actually most realistically i think this happens between revolution and flux

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we have MISSED OUT on 13 being jealous oh my god 12 is SO petty imagine IMAGINE if someone had shown some interest in yaz. i dont even know if yaz would notice but the DOCTOR oh my GOD she’d be INSUFFERABLE

bonus points for ryan totally noticing and repeatedly trying to catch yaz’s eye like ??!?!!!! youre seeing this?? are you seeing this yaz good for you good for you

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revolution of the killer pepperpots thoughts under the cut

CANNOT get over how this episode was the fallout of so many things, first of all, like, not just acting as a coda for series 12 and wrapping up Ryan and Graham’s character arcs but also?? this new years’ special being a direct consequence of stuff that happened in the previous new years’ special?? this was a nice touch. i was watching this with one of my brothers and his partner in the room and we all agreed that the “angling for prime minister” politician character was painfully on point

EXTREMELY fucked up about 13′s decades spent in space jail, INCREDIBLY fucked up about how this came right on the back of the events of the Timeless Children, ASTONISHINGLY fucked up about how this absolutely had a knock-on effect on her ongoing identity crisis and that she comes out of ALL THAT through being broken out by Jack and then lands IMMEDIATELY in a situation that allows her to relapse straight back into what i can only presume were tactics straight out of the Time War. like literally as soon as she started a sentence with “no weapons” the inside of my brain was whispering “*the first thing you notice about the doctor of war is that he’s unarmed*” and i was RIGHT to have a Concern!!!!! 13 watching a dalek out of its casing kill a man for no reason other than because it could and going into a full-on Tranquil Fury Thousand Yard Stare as she defines “the Doctor” as “the one who stops the daleks” is gonna h a u n t m e. (THE TRICK SHE PULLED WITH THAT POOR TARDIS TOO?? MURDERED WITH AN ARMY OF DALEKS INSIDE IT????? EXCUSE ME!!!! love how the mood abt the Doctor in this episode is “i am extremely sad and hurting for 13 but also kind of terrified and wanting to yell at her at the same time”)

really liked Jack offering emotional support to Yaz about being a companion/being separated from the Doctor and sharing the wealth of his experiences like.......... this was such a nice moment between them and i’m glad Yaz got to have that, particularly since she clearly TRIED to pull a Rose-in-Parting-of-the-Ways for 10 months (TEN MONTHS?! YASMIN!!!!) but was stymied by not knowing that it is possible to hot-wire a TARDIS by cracking its heart open like a cold one with the lads and just snorting the full force of the time vortex like a line of sparkly gold space drugs

also really liked how again, this episode continued the trend of 13′s era not shying away from consequences? like, 13 gets back to her fam 10 months later than she wanted to and while she didn’t MEAN it the outcomes of that are very realistic. like this is most obvious with Ryan especially, how he’s processed the idea of losing her and moved on and is ready to stay on Earth and be there for his friends and family, he’s grown and matured so much and i am SO in love with his arc. i think one of the best moments of the entire episode was that conversation between him and 13 in the TARDIS, where she tries to pick up like nothing happened even though she’s had like 90 years in prison and a whole ongoing identity crisis and he’s had 10 months where he accepted the idea that she probably died on Gallifrey, and Ryan just......... has none of it and forces her to have an actual proper conversation lmao. i love all of the fam’s dynamics but Ryan and 13′s is just....... i will Miss It. (also the fact that she actually admitted some of what happened to her on Gallifrey to him??? Ryan asking her how she felt about it and 13 admitting that she’s ANGRY??? god. *god*. Ryan Sinclair truly out here winning on the “make the Doctor talk about how they actually feel” challenge, Donna Noble would be proud). ALSO LOVE how this was the conversation that really sets up Flux, with Ryan encouraging 13 to go out there and find the truth about herself and who she is, and like - giving THE DOCTOR a bit of a Doctor-y speech about how things change and they have to?? goddddddddddddddddddd

i’m v emotional about how the fam, assuming that 13 was dead (with the exception of Yaz who is......... Yaz), pulled together to try and investigate and solve the dalek issue before 13 and Jack showed up............... this was v good. they’re so very good

i also love how Graham was clearly still up for doing a bit more universe travel but ultimately decided to stay behind for Ryan’s sake because he wants to be with his grandson and knows that THIS is what is important, this is what truly matters to him???? themes of family REMAIN strong i see. i also love how we end what we see of Graham and Ryan bookending the very first thing we saw of them with the bike, with almost identical (maybe even exactly identical??) outfits, like...... what a good way of showing how far they’ve both come on their travels and how much they’ve both grown as people and their relationship has grown, i got SO emotional in that final scene

im also full of emotions just generally about the final goodbye with the fam (13 watching Graham and Ryan leave with actual tears in her eyes and then ACTUALLY LITERALLY CONSIDERING GOING BACK AND CROSSING HER OWN TIMESTREAM TO CHANGE THINGS SO SHE CAN HAVE MORE TIME WITH THEM???? 13?????? NO????????) and Yasmin “just spent 10 months refusing to let go of the Doctor” Khan telling the Doctor that “it’s okay to be sad” about them leaving?????? rip me