#all of them make me ashamed to say i liked bts at one point they’re all so far up jimin’s ass i stg

[yunkisunbae]

twitter army think critically challenge failed

[kpoptarotvibes]

Not gonna lie Namjoon is great at a lot of things but boy oh boy does he have his shortcomings. He has a lot more passive personality than we realise. To me there’s this big paradox with him that I can’t get over, which is he has undoubtedly the deepest thoughts and questions about life and all things beyond this earth but at the same time is so obsessed over the Grammys and money to the point where HE SEEMINGLY to us old fans DID NOTHING to prevent the group from losing quality and meaning. I am honestly ashamed to say this but can I just admit that I am not looking forward to their 2025 comeback?!!

Like there is potentially still a chance that they find what they lost but it’s not going to be the same, cause let me tell you ain’t no way from now till 2025 some scandal is coming out or even marriage lol. I felt the same with Yet to come they tried to create this nostalgia but failed to do so since you can tell they are acting like what they used to be not what they have become. I am mostly looking out for the solos but I am still afraid they’re going to try to make it commercial in some type of way. Jimin and Jk are already out of reach from fans and my guess is it’s not going to get any better, they are done. They are living what their teenage selves couldn’t. Only Tae is active with fans and in the industry and I’ll give him that, he is the only one that I feel tries to keep up with fans and seems to care more than just doing it for the promotions.

I am a little side eyeing the rest to be honest, like okay I see you, now that you don’t need us you act like we never existed..seriously though Jimin and Jk GET IT TOGETHER….

I hope you can share your thoughts on some points I made cause I really feel like us old armys are numbered in these streets. Please make it as long as you wish!!!

Whew! Old Army is a dying breed out here in these streets.

I mean you hit the nail on the head for me about this paradox with him. On one hand you deep af and the other your selfish and almost obsessed with money and awards. Like he is so passive to the point where like almost anything goes with them and what the group has to go through. To us old fans it looked like he said yes to everything and lets try anything without even being mindful of what there brand was and is. I personally think he really enjoyed feeling his fame. That he was either blinded or didn’t care what that was doing to to the group image in the long run.

I don’t know I’m still holding out hope that they would at least pull a good sounding album and comeback in 2025. Because I was losing hope then they came out with the ON album and I was like okay we back on it again. But then everything after that wasn’t what it needed to be got back off track. But you are right it might not be the same because again we are facing the everyone putting all the songs at #1 so they don't know what to put out. They lost thier sound.

I’m so nervous one of these stupid reporters is going to go on the news and lie on one of these members of BTS. Making them have scandal like they did Big Bang and ruin them. Because they can’t defend themselves well in the military. I swear I’m not believing nothing from Korean media. If anything comes out. 

I agree with the Yet To Come the whole thing just seemed off. Like if you were going to say goodbye just say goodbye. I also felt like that whole song when you look at the lyrics was a little hypocritical. I think thats why it had a hard time sticking too. Because they were saying they didn’t care about the achievements but your fans did and was literally fighting everyone for it. So…

These solos are going to be interesting because one each member had no chance to develop there own style and brand. Its also seems that they are not that great at promoting and managing the members solos either. So this is going to be very interesting on how this is going to go and turn out. 

Honestly do you blame them for being out of touch with these unrealistic fans. When it comes to them all common sense leaves. I would be done too. The way they have acted with Jimin and Jungkook demanding things and being mad if they are dating someone. Being in this Kpop system at such a young age not being able to enjoy the basic things of our youth that we take for granted. Yeah I think they deserve to be out of reach living they normal lives. 

I have noticed with Tae was he has a real attachment to the fans because I remember what he was saying to Jungkook in In The Soop. How he had a hard time not seeing the fans and being alone. I think there are things about fame he has gotten attached to. And I think thats why he tries to stay connected with the fans. 

Look LOL! Let Jimin and JK have they time away from the spotlight everyone needs a break… The Kpop lifestyle for idols is not easy. It's not for the faint hearted.

[oftenderweapons]

Not sure if this counts as a Drabble I’m not really familiar with it sorry! So you can ignore if you want but maybe you can do a list of BTS and the OC’s favorite kinks

[A/N: this took a very long time coming, mostly because it was a lengthy job. Sorry for the wait nonnie, I hope it’s worth it 🥴😉]

Okay! I sort of assembled this as a mix of short headcanons (there are six to eight each — also I got carried away with Jk, he’s got eleven but some are like, are more lowkey). They’re divided couple by couple and I’ve tried to be as realistic as possible, which means that some couples have some kinks in common, especially since I stayed on more well-known kinks and fetishes that represent each couple’s go-to. I do think they explore less popular kinks other than the ones I listed, however they might not go there that often.

You’ll be seeing some of these soon ;) [ILLICIT AFFAIRS WON I AM CRYING]

Uhm. Obviously there’s a lot of stuff I have to include in the trigger warnings, so bear with me. 

This is obviously 18+

TRIGGER WARNINGS: discipline (brat taming, sub training), impact play (spankings, paddle, flogger, riding crop; both on ass and breasts), marking, dirty talking, choking, masturbation (male and female receiving; mututal), squirting, several fetishes (uniform, shoes, feet, voice), cock worship, breast worship, powerplay (DDLG, daddy kink; domination; mommy kink; Primal/predator-prey dynamics, pet play), orgasm control and deprivation, role play, food play, cum play/cum eating, pain kink, sensation play, temperature play, edging and overstimulation, phone sex, cyber sex, bondage, torture play/forced masturbation, tickling, anal play (buttplugs, strap on, rimming, penetration), degradation kink, corruption kink, voyeurism and exhibitionism, outdoor sex, cockwarming, oral sex (male and female receiving; facefucking male receiving; mutual), sex toys (nipple clamps, dildo, vibrator)

Not exactly kinks, more like attitudes: experimentalism, intimacy, sapiosexuality

Check out my masterlist here 

Enjoy 💜✨

Namjoon and Vixen

Daddy kink; brat taming

I think it’s sort of a given, but it also needs to be included. Vixen’s first relationship was when she had just turned nineteen, with a man quite older than her. They were together for a couple years and he significantly shaped her needs in terms of intimacy and sex. Her parenting figures were really weak and she grew up with a nanny who taught her her second language, French. Namjoon — being always a very responsible very nurturing figure within the group, and somehow having the role of a mediator — is used to stubborn, hot-headed people and would probably be a bit bored with someone incapable of giving him a bit of attitude. This said, it comes quite natural that Vixen (although she is a very smart, very elegant young lady) looks for guidance in her partner, and after the responsibilities that come with her career, she looks for someone who can take decisions for her and even control her private life a little, like check that she eats and what she eats, or pick what she’s going to wear for the day. On the other hand, Namjoon likes being taken care of in other ways, namely cuddles and homecooked meals, which Vixen offers profusely. Her childlike, unconditional affection is exactly what makes Namjoon baby her, and such behaviour on his behalf encourages her to rely on him even more, letting him pamper her and spoil her. And in terms of bratting... Well, Vixen likes seeing him lose his cool — because a sick part of her (she knows it’s sick) gets horny seeing Namjoon angry. And Namjoon in returns gets even more cool and composed the more she gets feisty. He calls the shot, may she like it or not. The point is that with some cuddles, soft words (and a few good spanks) he always manages to tame her.

Spanking

Vixen likes getting spanked. And Namjoon is obsessed with her ass. He is an ass and thighs man. Fight me on this one. Nothing turns him on more than seeing her flesh quiver after the impact of a good spank. Vixen likes it simply because it condenses three of her favourite things, discipline, punishments and pain kink. Spanks are delivered both as a reward and as a punishment, and Namjoon knows how to make a distinction between the two cases, although he much prefers delivering them as a reward, since he hasn’t got much of a pain kink, and painful activities are a soft limit for him, both in terms of giving and receiving. He approves that kind of pain that is simply aimed at enhancing pleasure. Vixen really likes spanks delivered with the bare palm of a hand, since those are the one that she perceives as the most “educational”; however she also likes the paddle, the hairbrush and other more tricky devices (that you will discover soon *wink*).

Marking

Namjoon is crazy for marking Vixen. He is very jealous of her and their relationship staying on the low means that he can’t actually claim her publicly. They both try to protect their relationship for as long as possible, and I can quite see him deciding to keep it private until he’s been married to her for a while. But he’s gonna mark his baby, especially in spots that are only his and hers to see. His absolutely favourite spot would be her hip tattoo, of course, where he always places the first hickey of the night; next her inner thighs, her crotch and her breasts (lovely tiny cherries, he loves them the most). When she allows him, he also leaves hickeys on her neck and chest. Obviously her butt too. He also likes biting, especially her ass (until he leaves bruises and/or actual indentations) and her inner thighs — the softer parts. Vixen also marks him when he’s not on a schedule, when they’re on vacation and they can let loose a little. He especially likes it when she leaves scratches on his back and shoulders, but he also enjoys hickeys on his chest and thighs when she’s on her way to giving him head.

Sapiosexualilty; dirty talking

We all know these two have filthy tongues. They’re sapiosexuals, so they’re turned on by mind games, smart use of language, verbal sparring etcetera. They’re both readers and intellectuals, which means they enjoy a polished, often obscure use of language. They’re the most likely to send each other texts (or even emails) where they simply wax poetic about fucking each other. They can literally send a text at nine am about some spicy play they intend to do later that night, let excitement build all day long and — as soon as they get home — they wait and see who’s the one that surrenders (spoiler: usually Joon because Vixen is a brat and brats are tough eggs to crack). In bed, Vixen loves listening to Namjoon’s voice, no matter if he’s talking about how good it feels to be inside her or if he makes romantic love declarations in midst of a rowdy fuck. Also they might argue while they have sex or pick stupid fights just to release some tension (totally the type to start a discussion as they choose the mirror for the bathroom, Vixen picking round while Namjoon picks rectangular, embarrassing the shopping assistant as they get into hard bickering heavy with sexual tension).

Choking

This is a new one, to both of them. Vixen had never toyed with it before, since she risked drowning when she was a child so she’s not a fan of anything that involves breath control. Still, she didn’t imagine she could be turned on by choking her partner. The first time Namjoon grabs her wrist and brings her hand to his neck she freaks out a little, but then she gets a grip (haha) and realises that seeing him that fucked out, and hearing him moan like that is something most definitely turning her on. Namjoon has a sensitive neck and chest, so having Vixen touching him there makes his soul leave his body; furthermore, the level of trust required leads us right onto the next kink.

Intimacy

I realise this is not exactly a kink, however it is a necessary condition for things to get sexy between these two. Namjoon and Vixen need special closeness for things to work out. Talking, flirting, but also sharing physical closeness and affection, occupying the same mental space. They don’t need to be making love for things to be very emotional. Even the angriest, rowdiest of fuckings to them is actually a very fond way of saying ‘I love you’. I think that out all the kinks this is the most difficult to explain. I suppose this is what makes them incredibly talented even at good ol’ plain vanilla.

Mutual Masturbation

I think these two just do that a lot. They’re extremely comfortable with having the other watch as they touches themselves. I think it started with Vixen being her shameless, teasing, kinky self and Namjoon being incapable of holding back, and then it naturally evolved into both him and her openly touching themselves for the other to see. I think they learn by watching so observing the other and seeing how they do it is how they master their technique.

Lingerie and shoe fetish

Namjoon is obsessed with Vixen’s sexiness, how she carries herself, how much charisma and self confidence she can muster when she is almost naked. I’ve always seen Namjoon extremely attracted to Vixen’s body and seeing it there, with the bare necessities covered by expensive and lush lace and silk, or even in funny cotton drawers with innocent prints is a ticket to Nirvana for Namjoon. I bet you can imagine Vixen lounging on the bed, provocatoriously clad in black lace as she reads a book, and Namjoon entering the room, ready to pounce on her with predatorial intents.

Jin and Angel

Cockworship

We all know that Jin comes from several vanilla experiences, during which he always kept his basest instincts at bay. Once Angel gives him the green light, he’s not letting go. Angel loves celebrating his virility in all ways possible, showing how much she appreciates a part of him that he has felt ashamed of, in some ways. And Jin gets extremely turned on by the simple view of Angel kneeling before him, looking at him as he touches himself, begging to touch and/or kiss his cock. He gets wild with it, especially if you sum that up with Jin being especially interested in discipline. Watching Angel worship his cock with her hands, mouth, tits gives him that sense of power and authority that enhances his dominance and turns him into a cocky, power-hungry beast, ready to do anything to quench his thirst, fulfill his desires and almost entirely ignore Angel’s needs — don’t worry, she actually gets off to Jin getting what he wants on whichever terms he deems necessary.

Power play

Jin likes having power. Being more powerful than Angel is one of the mental tricks he uses to keep himself from going vanilla. The powerful position is what allows him to call the shots, choose what to do and actually claim what he wants and needs. Watching Angel kneel in front of him, with her eyes low until he calls for her attention is one of his biggest turn-ons. And Angel is way more than okay with this: watching Jin take control and knowing that she is pleasing him, that any activity they’re getting into is bound to make Jin loud and messy and fucked out, is the strongest aphrodisiac. When in a vanilla mindset, Jin can’t quite understand (yet) what pushes Angel into pleasing him and how much his pleasure means to her, as they’re still at the beginning of their sexplorations. The more they get familiar with each other’s roles and needs, the more Jin finds pleasure in ruling over Angel and watch her stare at him with her big, beautiful, hungry eyes.

Orgasm control/deprivation

Jin’s need for power manifests in different ways. The fact that Jin comes from several years of vanilla and self control, and Angel has gotten used to their calmer approach to intimacy and sex, makes them both quite good at sexual deprivation. He can easily deprive her for weeks, or deprive himself: when he’s depriving her, his favourite activity is having her kneel on the floor, naked and touch himself until he cums on her breasts; when he’s depriving himself he likes eating her out for at least two or three rounds, until she’s begging for him to fuck her, completely desperate and on the verge of tears when he denies her. Regardless of who is being deprived, when she gets whiny and emotional, he always makes sure to reassure her and remind her when the period of deprivation is going to end, telling her what he plans to do to her as soon as he allows himself to. About orgasm control — Angel needs training. And a very stern one at that. She is not used at that level of control, mostly because she’s used to a very loving, very attentive Seokjin who wants her pleased and pampered all the time. Orgasm control is most definitely the thing she hates the most out of all her training; the only factor keeping her from truly hating it is how Jin turns soft once she manages to complete a task successfully, praising her and letting her have more control — either turning the scene into vanilla lovemaking or letting her turn the tables and ride him until she’s happy and sated.

Role play

Jin sometimes needs help getting into an aggressive, authoritative mood. Luckily, he is a great actor and he know exactly how to get into character. He would often assume a role out of the blue, letting Angel choose what position to occupy — although his all time favourite is teacher-student. It allows him to get into the strictest, harshest forms of impact play, having lots of fun watching sweat, drool and cum stain Angel's uniform, or watching her breasts burst out of her schoolgirl blouse. On a minor note he loves using a paddle or a riding crop on Angel, making her bend over the edge of the bed and flipping her skirt up, spanking her until she's begging, only to sit on the bed and put her head between his legs, tugging at her pigtails (but never letting himself go too deep — he has no interest in seeing Angel gag on him, it's his own hard limit before being hers). Other types of roleplay he likes are doctor-nurse or doctor-patient, landlord-maid, pilot-hostess and obviously chef and waitress, which leads us right to next prompt.

Food play

Angel loves Jin's cooking. She loves watching his wide shoulders in front of the stove, she loves hearing him hum when he tastes something good, she loves him leaning over the table and offering her some food from his fork. She especially likes seeing him so passionate and dedicated, and she loves showing enthusiasm for a hobby that is so dear to him and on which he puts so much effort. Food play is mostly a way to set the tone for passionate, steamy lovemaking, where he worships every inch of Angel's body with his lips. Angel has developed an involuntary reaction to seeing his special cookbook on the small prop by the stove. Wetness coats her thigh as soon as she sees his messy handwriting on the page, signaling that he is indeed preparing a sauce or cream for kinky play. He really likes playing with frozen fruit and ice cream or watching Angel squirm as chocolate sauce tickles her while dribbling down her breasts. He is wicked. And also awfully gluttonous. Angel spoils him and is spoiled with this specific kink of theirs. It was the first kink they explored even when their relationship was still vanilla.

Pain kink

Not much explaining to do. Jin goes absolutely wild with riding crops and paddles. There’s nothing more exciting than watching Angel push her chest towards him, trying to convince him to remove her nipple clamps as she writhing underneath him.

Cum play

There’s nothing more exciting for Jin than watching his cum stain Angel’s breasts, or pulling out at the very last second to cum on her belly. Another thing he loves is to jerk off and make Angel wait with her mouth open, ready to welcome the head of his cock as he finally reaches his climax and spills inside her, telling her not to swallow and open her mouth to show him how much she loves the result of his pleasure before closing her mouth and swallowing, and showing that she took every single droplet of it.

Yoongi and Kitten

Sensation play

Kitten is a bad bitch. She gets off at having Yoongi moaning, squirming, whimpering and groaning underneath her. And Yoongi is so sensitive. It would be a shame not to toy with that. She likes giving him head and edging him, putting him through the absolute worst. He gets weak whenever Kitten blindfolds him, pours warm massage oil on him and procedes with the most relaxing touches and caresses. He gets whiny and desperate whenever she chooses to bring ice cubes to the bedroom and he gets absolutely wild whenever her bullet vibrator is aimed at him instead of her. Kitten is a menace — and maybe a bit of a sadist — but it always feels so sweet once she finally offers him release. Yoongi might consider it torture, but in the end he really, really loves that.

Choking kink

There’s not much difference: choking... being choked... both are okay with giving and receiving. Kitten has a sensitive neck and chest, which means any action there is a huge turn on. Her sensitivity there means she usually covers her upper torso, since it being even slightly exposed makes her feel vulnerable; plus she often needs to hide hickeys and bruises anyway.

Oral fixation; face fucking

Kitten loves giving blowjob, Yoongi loves placing his mouth anywhere on Kitten, especially on her lips, her chest and between her legs. Yoongi has given hints about... Uhm... Oral skills. I think he'd be glad to spend hours between Kitten's legs, and since she wasn't entirely confident with receiving oral sex (her ex was a prick), he is more than happy to take things slow and help her rebuild enough confidence to literally have her climb him while he's laying on the bed, and unashamedly sit on his face and ride it.

Voice fetish

When Kitten and Yoongi met, both were attracted by each other’s voice and throughout courtship and dating they both loved listening to the other talk. Yoongi knows his voice is attractive, and he is incredibly attuned to Kitten’s slightly deep, very soft and quiet voice. She has a velvety timbre that is so relaxing and exciting at the same time. He could get wild at her whispering in his ear, feeling her lips graze against the shell of his ear. However, Kitten would be equally weak if he did that to her.

Phone sex

Since they both enjoy listening to each other’s voice, and since Yoongi travels a lot, they are really into phone sex when they’re too far apart, or when Yoongi needs to stay at the dorms or if they feel extremely needy in the middle of the day. Even when he’s on tour, they prefer phone sex to kinky video calls.

Breast worship

This kink, paired up with Yoongi’s oral fixation, Kitten’s sensitive chest, and cumplay just explains how much exploring there is toward this direction. There are no limits: sensation play with ice cubes or warm massage oil, wax play, food play, boob jobs, a lot of nipple teasing… Kitten is open to experimenting and Yoongi is more than aware of what could feel nice and what would be utter torture. And he wants to try it all.  

Cumplay and Cum eating

Yoongi is not afraid of things getting messy. He likes having Kitten’s juices all over his face, licking them off his lips and fingers: he doesn’t need her to taste like watermelon or smell like rainbows and unicorns. He wants a woman, real and messy. He loves the salty taste on his tongue, and he can tell when she’s close to her period for how the taste of her changes. Plus, he loves cumming on her breasts, especially if his semen accidentally marks her pretty, lacy bras. 

Hoseok and Giggles

Handjobs; squirting

Hoseok’s hands are a blessing. But his fingers are a gift of the devil. They were made to sin and torture. Giggles is very sensitive on her own account. That paired up with Hoseok’s skills makes for wild nights of soaked sheets — luckily enough they buy an impermeable blanket pretty much at the beginning of their relationship.

Impact play; flogger

Not only Hoseok’s hands are a blessing, but those wrists are stretchable. Fluent. They’re perfect for cracking a whip. Or a flogger — he is a bit afraid of using a whip, and it takes a lot of space… However, floggers? He smiles wickedly whenever Giggles gets close to him on Thursday or Friday and casually sits on his lap, hooks an arm behind his neck and leans in close. “I don’t have my Monday shift… Do you think we could… Play with the flogger?” She asks, a bit insecure. He usually plans scenes for Saturday night, so he can have all the aftercare equipment ready and he can spend all Sunday taking care of Giggles. If he can comply to her request, he hugs her close to him and reassures her as they start planning more details.

Bondage

By now it is canon that these two have taken lessons, that they have personalised ropes that Giggles had to prepare personally. Although she’s more precise and diligent in knots, Hoseok is also very attentive and prepared; they often discuss bondage scenes, even over dinner, talking about how the scene will play out, which types of knots to use, how to secure the rope, et cetera.

Experimenting

As I said, they are both absolutely okay discussing stuff they want to try. It isn’t uncommon for them to be watching a movie and suddenly something appears — even something as banal as a clothespin or a makeup brush —  and suddenly one of them is going: “We could use that in bed”. It isn’t uncommon for them to discuss kinky stuff during the week, planning scenes over dinner, or while they’re chilling, or whatever.

Torture play; Overstimulation; tickling

Hoseok likes seeing Giggles writhing and tossing underneath him. He likes torturing her with overstimulation, giving her orgasms back to back or making her squirt so many times that she passes out — it only happened twice and he made sure she drank almost two litres of water afterwards to make sure she didn’t get dehydrated. He also loves her laugh and her nickname comes from the lovely, happy sounds she makes when he coaxes a laugh from her. He loves tickling her to tears, her silvery voice erupting in chuckles that fill his heart with joy.

Shifting positions; multiple rounds

Hoseok has stamina and flexibility. He can go for three rounds without even blinking. He’d manoeuvre Giggles in and out of positions, directing her, helping her put her body in place, following her movements as she shifts. She’s not always happy with all the moving around, especially when she finds a good position and Hoseok decides he wants to change it; however, he can be extremely convincing and he happens to remember all her favourites, putting them in a smooth, easy sequence whenever he wants to reward her — which is at least twice a month because Giggles is the most perfect little bubble.

Jimin and Princess

Exhibitionism

Jimin lives to be watched. His mannerism and elegance make him a performer, even in the plainest tasks. When Princess is watching him, he only exists for her eyes and her eyes only. Nothing gratifies him more than the loving, passionate glances she throws at him when with their friends, or the obscured and raptured ones when she’s dominating him, or the desperate, imploring ones when it’s his turn to call the shots.

Pet play

Jimin is a huge switch. He likes following his whims and is overall a brat, who just does whatever he likes. So, when Princess comes out of the bathroom before bedtime and finds him lounging on the bed naked with a pair of cat ears, his collar and her riding crop waiting on her bedside table, she knows exactly the kind of treatment he’s trying to get. Nevertheless, when in that mood he turns into the most obedient little kitty, so vulnerable and frail that Princess knows she shall treat him with velvet gloves (haha). Literally.

Edging and overstimulation

Princess likes it when Jimin gets messy and whiny and loud. She likes listening to him whimpering and whining while she uses her vibrator on him and makes him cry. It makes her feel powerful. It also makes her ten times softer afterwards and she just loves it when he hits subspace so bad he starts calling her mommy and begging for her to make him cum.

Anal play

Both Princess and Jimin are okay with giving and receiving. Princess is especially in love with double penetration. Jimin is very okay with rimming and putt plugs.

Spanking

Jimin has never really had the courage to try getting spanked before. He had his first experience with Princess, directing her thought the scene. He had learnt basic directions in case he ever needed to teach his partner, but he never thought it would actually happen. From there he and Princess get more comfortable with spankings and get even more involved in impact play, still spankings stay Jimin’s favourite.

Degradation

When in dom mode, Jimin can be vitriolic in his remarks, praising Princess with the dirtiest taunts. Some name calling happens, but Jimin never lets that get too deep. He usually opts for a patronising behaviour that questions Princess’ ability to live without him, and usually avoids anything outright insulting.

Breast worship

Jimin loves Princess’ chest. He likes touching her breasts, more than anything else, but this doesn’t mean he won’t slap them, suck them and fuck them every now and then.

[Sorry if I didn’t write much, honestly I’m still figuring these two out. I think it has a lot to do with Jimin being just so... mercurial. I can’t find another word. He is the least “steady” character in my head. I don’t know. I’ve always had problems with understanding Libras. He’s just so moody and so... It’s frustrating. I just have so many vibes coming from him it’s too much.]

Taehyung and Lace

Voyeurism; exhibitionism

While Jimin lives to be watched, Taehyung is all about the art of watching. Taehyung needs to watch Lace. It doesn’t matter if she’s putting on her lipstick or washing the dishes or brushing her teeth or sucking his cock. He will study her like a painting hung in a museum until he can close his eyes and imagine her exist like a hologram in his head. He loves watching her during sex and he indirectly loves being watched by her too. Lace has never felt so beautiful. 

Outdoor sex

I think they wouldn’t mind trying outdoor sex: the lack of available locations in Seoul initially discourages them, but as they start going on holidays together, geographic remoteness and private outdoor spaces start becoming characteristics these two actually look for in their ideal resort. Yes, they’re the type to fuck against a tree in the woods — or maybe on the beach, under the stars (with Lace taking the utmost care in making sure nothing goes wrong in terms of safety both to their healths and Taehyung’s career).

Cyber sex

With Taehyung travelling because of his job, it isn’t uncommon for him and Lace to become cyber sex experts. Not only he has videos of her safely stored away in a memory card he has basically stitched to his skin — he is hyperaware of it and they are extremely careful of anything that could possibly link the video to the two of them — but he's more than willing to plan videocalls where they can get carried away in front of the camera for the other's viewing pleasure.

Cockwarming

There’s nothing more relaxing and intimate to Taehyung and Lace than being physically connected after sex. After being so close, so together even for a rough, brief quickie, it is traumatic for them to part too suddenly, so usually Taehyung stays inside her for at least a bunch of minutes.

Oral fixation

Both Taehyung and Lace like putting their mouth on the other. Lace could live with Taehyung’s cock in her mouth, while he especially loves to bite her flesh, pretty much anywhere, or stare at her face while he suckles her breasts like a little boy. He could literally fall asleep while they’re facing each other, on their sides, suckling at her nipple while she handcombs his hair, the pressure slowly decreasing until he lets go completely, sound asleep.

Foot fetish

Both Taehyung and Lace are new to this and they're more than willing to explore. Expect Taehyung to grow increasingly addicted to them playing footsie underneath the dinner table, but also to get exceedingly turned on by having Lace's feet laying on his lap or crotch.

Squirting

Taehyung knows exactly how to touch Lace, massaging her after a long day, relaxing her whole body before his fingers end up inside her. His strong, sinewy fingers seem to be programmed to please her. Nevertheless, he is not prone to use this as a form of torture; he'd much rather use it to amplify Lace's sensitivity and help her reach further states of pleasure.

Anal play

I think Taehyung aims at possessing every inch of Lace's body, and of course he wouldn't mind one bit to rim, finger or fuck her ass. He'd be absolutely fine with buttplugs and double penetration. And don't think he would mind wearing a butt plug himself — I think he's the most likely to wear a tail-buttplug, probably. I also think he is by far the most comfortable with the idea of getting pegged: he knows his power and he knows it could never be undermined by Lace fucking him with her strap on.

Jungkook and Candy

Predator play

May it be playful or absolutely ruthless, Jeongguk loves hunting Candy inside his apartment. He loves playing hide and seek, he loves the rush he feels when he spots a hint, and he loves even more the adrenaline coursing through his body when he chases her down the corridor and picks her up, throwing her body over his shoulder — oh, and most of all he loves ripping her clothes off and taking her whenever he manages to catch her.

Corruption kink

Jeongguk’s predatory instincts get even louder when Candy is acting innocent, being her happy, playful, bubbly self. Go figure when she’s sleeping and her face is so soft and young and she has a slight pout and squishable cheeks: Jeongguk can feel his blood flood to all the right places, arousal and adrenaline mixing up, while his brain tries to stay calm, wake her up gently and ask for her consent.

Marking

It’s not that big of a thing to him, he might leave hickeys down Candy’s chest, but that’s mostly it. He’s shy and he’s not all that comfortable with other people seeing them. However, I decided to place this kink right here because bunny wants to be marked. He loves indentations and scratches coming from Candy’s medium-short nails. His all time favourite are scratches down his back, and small crescents on his shoulders and ass. Also lowkey scratches down his abs and thighs. He might go crazy the moment he’s not promoting or shooting and he can finally let Candy cover his chest in hickeys.

Degradation

When absolutely fucked out, Jeongguk starts rambling the most saccharine, degrading sentences to Candy. He has a rich collection of dirty pet names, sometimes with a patronising or humiliating undertone. He doesn’t do it coherently, he’s just not thinking and it feels that good. Of course he always apologises afterwards, but Candy has no shame whatsoever. He might apologise for calling her his fuckdoll, but she’s not ashamed of it, that’s exactly what she is. Hearing him speak those nasty words always gets her going since it shows how fucked out she’s getting him.

Praise

Jeongguk wants to be praised. His ego bursts when Candy praises him, openly or not. Candy whining while he hits the spot is one of the strongest praises she can offer him. He direly needs to be praised when in sub mode, matching the encouraging words with soothing touches and loving glances.

Mommy kink

Yes. They’re exploring a few things after it turned out Joengguk wanted to try. Apparently he’s enjoying way more than he expected. Especially when he’s playing chase with Candy and she grows tired, stomps her foot to the floor and gets her harsh tone on. He starts obeying in seconds. Overall a well.behaved baby, if a little lively and energetic.

Breast worship

Another great fan of boobs. He really loves fucking Candy’s tits, especially while she’s laying down and he’s sitting on top of her, straddling her ribs. His obsession worsens once she gets a nipple piercing: it becomes his favourite place to put his hand on before sleep.

Oral sex

Candy is the absolute grandmaster of blowjobs. She’s the non plus ultra. Blowjobs become Jeongguk’s favourite reward, especially when paired up with her cunt grinding against his face. He could die a happy man like that. After helping Candy get rid of her insecurities about being eaten out, Jeongguk decides he’d do that at least three times a week, almost planning a schedule to make sure he didn’t skip a day. He lowkey asks Yoongi for tips, trying to find new positions to test Candy’s resistance.

Cockwarming

Jeongguk gets very emotionally vulnerable after sex. He needs to talk about his insecurities and doubts, since he always feels so connected to Candy right in the aftermath. At the beginning, cockwarming is actually a consequence of him not realising he hasn’t pulled out as he rambles about everything that is going on inside his mind; however, as he gets used to that, he begins to do it willingly, feeling too naked and cold without staying inside her.

Multiple rounds

Jeongguk has a very high stamina. He can last two to three rounds — four if he’s going wild —, then go for some food, some water and/or a nap and be ready for more in a few hours. Candy is absolutely okay with it: he’s usually the one moving her like a puppet, so even if she’s exhausted, she doesn’t need to worry, he’ll do all the work.

Rough/animalistic sex

Jeongguk is not exceedingly into powerplay: any kind of power imbalance comes naturally, without any kind of planning or negotiating and what the others express in more niche activities, they simply express in very rough, very intense fucking. Especially when Jeongguk has just come home from the gym. Rather than using fancy toys or sophisticated practices, they much rather jump each other bones and fuck like rabbits (haha).

[krreader]

BTS scenario → dating an “average” girl.

pairing: bts x reader fandom: bts  warnings: / genre: angst ; fluff  word count: 1.6k+

a/n: let me start off by saying that I really don’t like to use the word average, because I think everyone is special in their own way. now, I wasn’t sure whether you wanted this to be angsty or not, but I decided to mix it up and throw a little bit of both in there, which I hope you enjoy :)

kim seokjin

“I don't think I'll be a good work-out-buddy, Jin,” you nervously looked around, “And besides, people are looking at me.”

“Hey,” he quickly grabbed your chin and made you look into his eyes, “You pay attention to nobody but me, okay? None of these people here matter, only you and I do. And you work out as much as you can and once it becomes too hard or you don't feel like it anymore, you'll stop.”

You had often complained to Jin about your body, but had been too afraid to go into a gym on your own. So he had offered to go with you to one of the private ones that a lot of idols often used and to help you with the exercising.

It was a good deal at first, but now that you were actually here, you began to realize that you knew jack-shit about working out and that you'd probably make a fool out of yourself.

However, the moment that you started, you forgot everything around you.

Jin made this day extremely fun and every time you 'messed up', your boyfriend turned it into a funny situation that had you laugh and not blush from embarrassment.

Others were probably judging you, but you didn't notice.

All you could see was this man in front of you, loving you unconditionally the way you were now, but wanting to help you on your journey to self-love in any way he could.

min yoongi

Yoongi had once been so worried about what would happen once the media would find out about you and him, especially because of your previous hatred for yourself.

But you've worked on those issues. You've worked hard to love yourself the way you were, to accept that you'd never have that flat stomach because – surprise – your organs had to find a place somewhere in your body. To accept that you'd forever have acne scarring, which now reminded you of the hard times and made you appreciate the current, good times.

So whenever there was yet another blog post of a jealous fan bashing one of the things that you used to hate about yourself, you just nodded to yourself and said: “They're probably going through their own struggles right now. One day, they will get over it.”

Jealousy was a bitch, you've experienced that first hand.

But as you've finally come to accept yourself, you've realized that you had no reason to be jealous of others anymore.

You were happy with yourself.

Yoongi leaned against the door frame and watched you put your phone down, then grab your cup of coffee and watch the rain pour outside.

And all he could think of was: “You're the most beautiful woman on this planet. Thank you for finally having realized that yourself.”

jung hoseok

Hoseok walked into the living room after having taken a shower and found you scrolling through your Instagram, liking pictures of several girls that he was sure you had never seen or met before.

All girls that looked a certain way. ‘Perfect’, as you used to call them.

With a heavy sigh, he sat down next to you and said: “We talked about this. You don't need to look like this, you're pretty the way you are, you know?”

“I do,” you smiled at him, “But I still think they're pretty. And I know how important it is to tell someone they're beautiful. You never know what they’re struggling with about themselves at the moment.”

You've come a long way.

Two years ago, you would have looked at these pictures and beaten yourself up over it. You would have gone on a diet the next day, the hairdresser the day after and the dermatologists soon thereafter.

But now? Now you could look at these pictures and leave compliments under them that the original owner of the photo always liked and thanked you for, because as you said, you never knew what somebody was struggling with about their appearance at that time and something as simple as a compliment from a stranger could mean the world.

“I'm so proud of you,” Hoseok whispered and pulled you against him.

“Me too,” you grinned happily.

jung hoseok

Once upon a time you had thought that if you wanted to date Kim Namjoon, you had to be some sort of prodigy.

But, newsflash, you weren't.

And while you had been more than upset about this years ago and thought that you were not worthy of being with him, you had now come to accept that you were normal.

And normal was good.

Normal, was what Namjoon loved the most about you, after your kindness and your warmth that you had for the people you loved and cared for. He didn't need you to be special by playing some instrument perfectly, because you were already special enough for him for just being you.

And as you were lying in bed and he was running his fingers through your hair, he whispered: “I love you more than I can say.. you know that right?”

It surprised you, but you still smiled, “I do. I love you too. And..-” you pushed yourself up a little to look him in the eyes and chuckled, “I love me too.”

It was a little inside joke. Something that Namjoon made you say over and over again when you had troubles accepting yourself once again. And now, you could say that sentence and honestly mean it.

And man, he was so proud of that.

park jimin

It really wasn't easy being with him when he was this perfect specimen of humanity and you were – in your eyes – the worst it could offer.

“You look gorgeous,” Jimin smiled happily when you walked out of the changing room, but you weren't quite as happy with yourself.

“It doesn't fit properly.”

“Hm, I think it does,” Jimin got up and took a closer look at it, “Zipper is up, straps aren't too tight.. I think it's good!”

“No, I mean.. this,” you pointed at your belly, “I told you I can't wear a dress as tight as this, I don't have your stomach,” it came out a lot more spiteful than you intended for it to.

But he didn’t take it to heart, thankfully 

“And thank god for that,” Jimin let out a laugh, then grabbed your chin and made you look at him, “My stomach reminds me of the nights in which I had to starve myself to look like people expect me to look. Your stomach reminds me of how healthy you are and how I don't have to worry about you.”

You looked into his eyes for a moment, then you let out a sigh, your shoulders dropping, “Sorry, I shouldn't have brought it up..-”

“Don't apologize. If anything, apologize to yourself for always being so hard on you and always finding an imperfection that isn't one,” he kissed your forehead, “You're so beautiful, angel,” he whispered, nearly making you cry.

kim taehyung

Taehyung could feel that there was something wrong today just from the way you texted him back. You didn't put any of your normally used emoji's after your texts, your answers were short and the amount of time it took you to even reply, was suspicious.

At first, he had thought that maybe something that he had done had upset you, but the more he thought about it, the more he came to the conclusion that that couldn't be. When re-reading your goodnight message from last night, everything was normal.

So it must be something else.

Once his break started, he decided that he'd spend it at your place and see what it was that was troubling you. He hadn't told you that he'd be coming, so you were looking at him, not in surprise, but shock.

“What are you doing here?!” you immediately turned around and scurried back into your apartment, leaving Taehyung to close the door behind himself with furrowed eyebrows.

“What's wrong?”

“Nothing, just.. I don't have a good day today, okay?”

Your boyfriend placed the bag of take-away on the floor and then walked over to you, gently turning you around by your shoulder to look at you, only to see that issue seemed to be something so trivial, that it made him let out a heavy sigh.

“Really, (Y/N)?”

“It's so ugly. I couldn't stand it anymore, so I just.. popped them. And now I look even worse than before and I hate it!”

You've been struggling with your skin for a while, had often gone to dermatologists that Taehyung had recommended to you, but while it did get a little better, you didn't have the skin that he had. And that is what you wanted. A journey that would take longer than four months, however. And... well, you were impatient. 

“How many times do I need to tell you that pimples are natural? That having acne is nothing to be ashamed about?”

“Easy for you to say, looking like your skin was made out of glass.”

“And you know how much I need to do for it. How many times I need to get treatments,” his hands slid down until he could hold yours, “You're still beautiful to me. Pimples won't change that. But popping them isn't good for your skin, it's only going to make it worse. You need to let it heal, as hard as it is.”

Again, this was easy for him to say and not so easy for you to do. You've had this conversation before and you were sure that you'd have it again and again.

But you were glad to hear these words. Because at that moment, it was what you needed to feel a little better.

jeon jeongguk

It wasn't hard to figure out that you never wanted to come to these dinners because you were uncomfortable around the other members' girlfriends. They were, what society would consider, 'the standard'. They were, what women were told to look like. They were, what people thought idols’ girlfriends should look like.

And every time you joined these dinners, you realized that you were none of these things.

You weren't the perfect woman, unlike the others.

Or so you believed.

“You're home early,” you stated as you closed the book in your hands, “Wasn't it fun?”

“It was,” Jeongguk nodded, taking off his shoes, before falling onto the couch and placing his head in your lap, smiling as you immediately began to brush your fingers through his hair, “But being here with you is better.”

He could spend his days trying to convince you that you were what he wanted, exactly the way you were now.

Or, he could simply show you.

And he opted for option number two.

[honeypwark]

[ Studio Intruder ]

  ↳ Crown era

       ↳ Kiryoung gets caught by a label mate. He offers his help. He becomes very fond of her.

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✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Some nights, when Yoongi is working late, coffee is the only thing that sustains him. It’s not like he even needs to be here this late; they just released an album and are in the midst of promotions. He actually probably shouldn’t be here because they have a music show in two days. But sometimes it’s impossible to go home when you’re working on something, tunnel visioned on completing your idea before it escapes you.

That’s why Yoongi is in one of the company building break rooms at two in the morning getting his second cup of coffee that night. He puts the lid back on then leaves to head back to his studio. As he turns to do so, he sees a small figure farther down the hallway, hood up, head down, and walking quickly.

His immediate thought is that she might be a fan who’s broken into the building. Somewhat against his better judgement, he begins to follow her. She doesn’t go much farther and Yoongi stays hidden behind the corner when he notices she’s stopped in front of a studio door.

When he checks again, he sees she’s unlocking the door and stepping inside. He walks over to the studio she entered. “Adorable Trap” is displayed on the door of Adora’s studio, but the girl who entered is too short to be the studio’s owner.

Yoongi knocks on the door.

He gets no response. He enters slowly, looking around for the girl he’d followed here.

“Hello?”

He steps fully into the studio but finds no trace of the girl. He knows this is the studio she entered because the door was unlocked, but where could she have gone? It’s not an enormous room by any means, so unless the small girl had shoved herself under the desk-

Yoongi looks at the desk.

He walks over to it slowly and takes hold of the desk chair. Once he’s pulled it out of the way, he can see the girl is curled up under the desk with her backpack hugged to her chest, aggressively avoiding looking at him.

“Stand up.”

She does, crawling out from under the desk to stand in front of him with her head hanging.

“What are you doing in here?”

Her voice is so quiet her can hardly hear her, “They won’t let me schedule studio time so Soohyun unnie lets me use her studio.”

Yoongi doesn’t understand anything about what she just said, “What?”

The girls reaches up and tugs her hood off.

“The company won’t let me use a studio so Adora lets me use her studio without them knowing.”

Yoongi blinks, somehow more confused now that he realizes the person in front of him isn’t some random girl or crazy fan, but his fairly recently debuted junior, Kiryoung of TXT.

“The company won’t let you use a studio?” he summarizes.

Kiryoung ducks her head and speaks like she’s ashamed of the answer, “They said that it wouldn’t fit with the image they want me to have.”

Yoongi feels disproportionately angered by that.

Kiryoung suddenly looks up at him with fear in her eyes, “You’re not going to tell anyone, right? I’ve already been scolded when I tried to help with recording the English version of ‘Cat & Dog.’”

“That’s so stupid,” Yoongi says.

“Please don’t tell anyone!” Kiryoung begs as tears gather in her eyes, “I don’t want to get in trouble!”

As Yoongi has been getting angry at the company for not letting one of their artists’ pursue their interest in music production, Kiryoung has been getting more distressed at being found out. Yoongi realizes that without a promise that he won’t tell anyone about her and Adora’s arrangement, Kiryoung is ready to start crying.

“Hey, no, I’m not going to tell anyone, it’s alright,” Yoongi assures her. “Please don’t cry.”

“I’m sorry,” she says pitifully, using her hoodie sleeves to dry her eyes.

“It’s okay,” Yoongi tells her, “You’re fine.”

He reaches out to hold her arm and attempt to comfort her but stops. They’re not close by any means; the only interaction they’ve had is when their groups have been together. He puts his hand back at his side.

For only being a girl he’s said probably a total of five words to prior to tonight, Yoongi’s emotions seem to be all over the place. First he was angry at the company for telling her she can’t make music and then he was sincerely worried about making sure she didn’t cry.

Kiryoung sniffs, “I should probably go home.”

“Aren’t you going to work on something?” Yoongi asks.

“I... feel awkward now.”

“Don’t.”

“I’m literally always awkward,” Kiryoung admits.

Yoongi chuckles.

Kiryoung winces as she realizes what she said, “That makes me sound so lame. I’m sorry. I should go.”

“Hey, wait.”

Yoongi steps with her towards the door.

“If the company won’t let you pursue producing, then I can help you.”

“...what?”

“I can help you with producing. You can play me some tracks and I can give you some pointers.”

“Are you serious?”

“Yes. Only if you want to, though.”

“Yes!” she says too quick and too loud.

She shrinks back in embarrassment. Yoongi chuckles again, growing more fond for Kiryoung and her awkwardly shy personality the longer he’s in her company.

“Okay. We can work in my studio.”

“Okay,” Kiryoung agrees happily.

Kiryoung follows Yoongi out of Adorable Trap, locking the door behind her then walking with him to his own studio. He pushes the door open and steps inside. Kiryoung hesitates over the threshold.

“You can come in,” Yoongi says as he notices her hesitation.

“I, um... Are you going to get in trouble? For helping me? I don’t want you to face repercussions from the company...”

Yoongi laughs at her concerns, “What are they gonna do? Fire me? I’m not Jin hyung when it comes to disobeying the company, but I think I’ll be okay if they find out. Now come sit down.”

Kiryoung walks into the studio and shuts the door behind her, taking her backpack off her back as she sits on the stool Yoongi pulled out for her.

“And if they give you any more ‘you shouldn’t produce because it doesn’t fit our image for you’ crap, come to me and I’ll figure it out,” Yoongi says. “Open your laptop.”

She does as he asks, logging in then handing the device to him when he hold his hand out for it. He begins hooking it up to his desktop computer. He opens up his preferred production and editing program, saving what he was working on then exiting out to make a new document.

“Why are you being so nice to me?” Kiryoung asks softly as he does this, her curiosity winning out against her shyness.

Yoongi glances at her briefly then continues opening files on Kiryoung’s laptop to bring to his computer.

“I guess I kind of see myself in you.”

Hearing those words from the member of BTS Kiryoung admires the most? Euphoric.

“You do?”

“Yeah. They wanted me to be the grumpy grandpa member for so long but that’s not really who I am. I’m not bright and sunshine-y either, but I’m not a scary person, despite people always perceiving me that way.”

“I don’t think you’re scary.”

“You almost started crying when I found you earlier.”

“That’s because I thought you were going to tell the company you found me!”

“I’m a lot of things, but a snitch isn’t one of them. Your secret’s safe with me.”

Kiryoung looks at Yoongi gratefully, “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.” He points to his screen, “Which track do you want to work on?”

“Um, that one.”

“‘Crystalline Teardrops Flow Like a River of Grief’?” He glances beside him at Kiryoung, “You’re a little poet, aren’t you?”

“I convey words better in lyrics than I do in speaking.”

Yoongi smiles fondly at Kiryoung when she says that, the girl bashfully refusing to look at him after she does. He double clicks on that file and opens it in the producing software he has open.

“Anyway, about the company’s image thing, don’t let them control who you are. It’s hard enough being an idol already, don’t let them make you play a character as well. Don’t let anyone control who you are.”

Kiryoung looks at Yoongi with so much respect that he is the one to look away.

He plays it off and swiftly changes subjects, “Let’s listen to what you have, shall we?”

[pendragaryen]

The things that stay with us...

This was supposed to be my last BFSN-post while the show is still airing - the last BFSN-entry right before the series finale. But now it’s just... a FSN-post? Call it a Big-Hug-post. A Hug-Gratitude-post. Or whatever you prefer. Though in my heart Bellarke will ALWAYS be canon (and nothing can ever change that): They didn’t give it to us in the actual show (a show, whose narrative clearly told us otherwise all this time, but well.. whatever...). It’s too much honour to grace such a disappointing last season with a BFSN, dearies. (Or... even more so now? ;P ) So, call it what you like i guess! ;). Honestly, i didn’t want it to end.. just like that... without any last words to you, the kindest, most tolerant and beautiful minded fandom i’ve ever been (proudly!) a part of since 2016. (The selfie lies. It’s not current. I’m sorry, i can’t show you my face these days.. This is from the day just before it all went inevitably down with this season: BB’s death. So... enjoy: That smile’s for you, fam! ;) 2nd pic: The tattoo i got almost two years ago now, on Sept. 22nd 2018, and that never fails to remind me of my emotional support person and the fact, that after every “down” in life there will come an “up” again <3<3<3 )

What makes the whole experience of this last ever season of The 1OO for me so incredibly sad is.... Well, please bear with me if you will... My english STILL isn’t the very best... But i’m trying to put my feelings into words:

Last year, when we got the news that S7 would be the final season, i DREADED this moment. I was AFRAID of this last day (and the hours) before the actual finale. And why so? Bc I am a person, who’s an incredible loser when it comes to let go of the things i love so dearly. Like The 1OO. I... in times i was OBSESSED with it, with the story, with the chacracters and the way they’ve been written, so credible, so tangible in their actions, nothing was just bad or good and even the villains actions had been understandable to some extend. It was amazing! I felt with almost every character! I LOVED it. (And to be very clear here: I’ll never STOP loving The 100′s 6 seasons, that are still existing for me!)

But what i wanted to say is: I dreaded the moment when l would have to let it go. THat inevitable moment, when this show with all its storylines and characters, that have been a part of my life for the last years and that i love so dearly, really ends. Forever. It would end and i wouldn’t be ready to let go, bc it means the world to me. Bc it changed me in more than just one way - no, even better, bc it made me want to change myself! “To do better...” *ugly crying...* THis show SAVED me in a way and in a time, where i was in a very dark place in life, in a very dark mind space (constant illnesses, termination of my job due to these illnesses, an ugly lawsuit etc. pp) , this show and its actors, especially one Robert Alfred Morley (yes), who helped me to look at myself and my mental insecurities and illness from a whole new point of view. I wasn’t ashamed of myself anymore. I felt... relieved. Understood. I even felt kind of loved for what i am, even with my anxieties. (There may or may not come a point or even a person in everyones life, that helps to develop this new kind of view on themselves. And for me this person was and always will be Bob Morley. And whatever happens, i’ll always love him for his open- and kindness and be thankful for his inspiration. I still call myself lucky to have talked with him a couple of times. I treasure these moments. Always.)

So, i was AFRAID of this day, when this all would come to an end. I KNEW it would wreck me, i would be devestated, i would be so incredibly sad, that i won’t be able to put it into words.

And here i am now. I AM sad. I AM devestated. But for so very different reasons that i could never imagine in my wildest nightmares... This last season... Season 7--- no i won’t start again. Not AGAIN. But... just that: What they’ve been creating for us here... it really overshadowed my joy of watching this show throughout this last season, yes even BEFORE that horrible murder of my all time fave and comfort character. I take back whatever i said about S6 or even S5. THIS... S7 was the season, that didn’t feel like the show i fell in love with anymore. Though changes CAN be refreshing and exciting... these changes haven’t been that for me.

Look. The thing is: Even WITH Bob’s request for time off and everything... There would’ve been PLENTY options for the writers to actually make it all make kind of sense! THEY COULD’VE DONE IT BETTER! If they’d really wanted to, that is... And here’s the point: I think they didn’t WANT it. For whatever reasons, whatever happened bts, they decided to do it like they did. And no-one’s able to understand their choices or the characters anymore - those characters we used to know so well, these characters i felt with over the course of so many seasons - who i could understand! EVEN THE VILLAINS! And now... look at the thanks we got. I can’t understand shit anymore when it comes to S7. Bc nothing makes sense. When i see even the GREATEST meta-writers among us surrender in their posts - than it’s really sad times for this fandom...

It’s not even just about Bellarke anymore. Sure, i AM disappointed that they’re not canon now. But then they shouldn’t have arranged the whole story around these two! “The backbone of the whole story”!!! I am laughing. In that case S7 was SPINELESS! Let me tell you. Everyone’s just... flailing around... great little side storylines, but somehow... disconnected from each other and all over the place. That’s how it felt for me to watch this season. And i’m feeling so exhausted by now... I never stopped hoping... I always thought, at some point it would make sense. I’ve read all your great metas AND I WANTED TO BELIEVE! It made perfect sense! (I seriously felt like Fox Mulder from time to time this season... and the lack of sense in the storyline as well as the complete absence of my personal faves (yes i include Clarke (Eliza) here, bc heck, she was so sidelined this season too, self inflicted or not) - all these things had been the “UFO’s or aliens i was hoping to see” one day... Guess i was wrong.)

I’m babbling... Sorry. But it will be for the last time in that kind of form. Promise.

At the end of the day (at the end of all things.. sigh, Frodo... i see you... *blinks back tears*) I am so glad that you’re all here with me, in the same boat. That I’m not alone feeling this kind of lost and baited and betrayed. Bc whatever you like to call it: The narrative promised us otherwise. Did JRott OWE us canon Bellarke? NO. Of course not. But HIS STORY did. The story he’d been telling us for SIX GD YEARS! THAT is what makes me so mad. But most of the time (and despite the selfie above) i’m just sad. Sad and disappointed. I know it will pass one day. And that i’ll find joy in watching S1-4, even S5 except for a couple of scenes, and certain episodes of S6 again. But now is not the day. Even IF they’ll give these characters a “happy ending” in some transcended form or whatever, in the afterlife maybe,... S7 is ruined for me. It wasn’t even a bliss for me before, but it was certainly ruined after they killed “The Heart” - pointlessly (THIS is what will haunt me even years from now..).

Today is the day for saying goodbye. It aches my heart, that we’ll have to do it the way we have to now. But at least we are together. So let’s raise a glass in honour of all the hours of joy and excitement this show brought us over the years, maybe even the tears and laughter, let’s raise a glass for the outstanding performances of the cast and the great storylines some writers developed for us. I am thankful beyond words. Let’s raise a glass to this awesome, talented fandom! I’ve met and talked to dozens of you guys througout the years, and it had always been a pleasure! I hope we’ll stay in touch! <3<3<3 And last but not least: Let’s raise a glass for Kass Morgan. This is HER baby in more than just one way. Without her vision... there wouldn’t have been a show. Or even Bellarke. CANON Bellarke, that is! ;) And i LOVE it!

These are the things that stay with us, these are the things we will remember.

So, have fun with the finale tonight guys! Or should i say: Good luck? ;) I won’t watch now. I haven’t watched since 7x13, and i won’t start again tonight. Not even for the finale. BUT... i’ll probably do it some day in the future. I’m still kind of curious after all. And there are still some characters i want to know how it ends for them. It‘s just... i don’t want to support any ratings. I don’t want to support JRott anymore. But i’ll probably get back to it - if what y’all will write about it afterwards looks promising or not... ;)

See you on the other side!

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[supop]

I dont like to waste my time sending vent anons to people. I like to think that I've grown from that, but when I see someone trying to tear another person down by making fun of their insecurities and rubbing it in their face, it triggers the hell out of me. And you are one of the worst I've seen. I hope you can heal from whatever anger you have towards BTS, because these "exposés" are truly a waste of your time and everyone else's timeline.

Talking is one of my specialities, if you haven’t already noticed. It takes little to no time for me to respond to my asks. Every post I’ve made has been a response. You don’t see me going out of my way to make actual posts do you? Conjuring up new ideas and discussions? Thought so. The people ask and I answer. Simple. Don’t complicate it. I could do this shit in my sleep. It’s why we have functioning brains.

“Tear another person down by making fun of their insecurities and rubbing it in their face.” Lol thanks for admitting Jimin is truly a vile and insecure human being. There’d be nothing tearing him down if everything stacked against him wasn’t straight facts. He should be ashamed to call himself a member of BTS, much less a diplomat. “South Korea’s Pride”? An ironic title given that he’s such a shameless person.

You know what’s even funnier? If you go to my earlier posts you’ll notice how all the idiot jimin fans went from cursing at me and blabbing on and on about how I’m posting lies, to going “post an exposé no one cares.” They’re always so fucking loud for no reason. Then once presented with evidence it’s suddenly mute and “leave jimin alone”. Make up your minds bastards. “Waste of time”. Yet here you are. On my blog. Reading my posts. Clearly you find them somewhat entertaining, and if not, YOU’RE wasting your time sweetheart.

Do you know what’s truly a waste of time? The millions of ARMYs that keep up with every single thing BTS does and treat it like like their side jobs. I mean it’s not like they’re getting paid for it. It’s not like HYBE is sending all fans personal thank you notes. All these 7 men have to do is get on Weverse for 5 seconds and post “I love you ARMY” next thing you know everyone is in a frenzy talking about how much BTS loves them. Now that’s a waste. I wish BTS could just focus on making music like the artists they are instead of BigHit treating their careers like one big reality show strewn up across screens for ARMYs to feast their eyes on. And then we wonder why the fandom has suddenly become about ships and accomplishments that have absolutely nothing to do with music.

I couldn’t even begin to fathom dedicating a large chunk of my time every day to human beings who have no idea I even exists. Then again, that’s the whole point of a parasocial relationship. HYBE and BTS take your hearts, minds, souls, and money. And in return all they have to do is give you heartfelt words, subpar music, and OH RIGHT, LOTS AND LOTS of “ships” and “we are a family” content. If BTS disbands ARMYs are going to be so devastated. The dependency is strange. No one wants to talk about it. No one wants to talk about how most BTS fans get more excited about the members holding hands than they do about the members releasing music. Whatever. Whatever keeps the whole fan economy running, I guess. From a purely economic standpoint, if worked at HYBE, I’d keep releasing shitty content too with the knowledge that fans eat it all up like starved children.

“Heal.” If I had some sort of trauma that would probably make my whole “villian origin” story more interesting right? Like I already explained. The truth is, I simply have to much time on my hands, and stupid bitchass dumbass useless worthless jimin idiot cunt stans happened to trigger some of that time in his direction. Whoops, sorry for all the curse words. Perhaps I am a bit still angry about that.

Like I’ve said before:

If I could say all this shit to Jimin’s face I would. Seriously, I’d love to pick his brain and find out how he could be so disgusting behind the scenes. Yet smile and giggle at the camera like he’s the sweetest person you’d ever come across. It’s scary. He’s scary and so are his delusional fans.

[apriorisea]

BTS Imagine Series: Don’t Leave Me, Pt. 4

Hoseok x You

“I can’t believe you guys have to go back already,” you say, wrapping your arms around Hoseok from behind. “I think you need more sleep.”      He finishes brushing his hair and puts his hands over yours with a sigh. “More sleep?” He smiles as he meets your eyes in the mirror. “I almost slept for 20 hours when I got home.”      Planting a kiss in-between his shoulder blades, you say stubbornly, “You still need more.”     “So,” he says, twisting to face you and locking his arms around your waist, “You’re saying you’ll call out from work and I’ll call out from work and we’ll spend the whole day together again?”      You frown. “You know I have to go to work.”      “Me, too.”      “But I didn’t just spend 3.5 weeks on the road,” you dig-in. “And---”      He leans down and kisses you softly. “Angel, it’s okay. We won’t have much to do today. And I’ll try to be home early.”      Accepting defeat, you hug him tight, burying your fact against his chest. “....I have an idea.”      “What?” he laughs, unable to interpret your muffled words.      Tipping your head back to look up at him, you put on your best persuasive face and say again: “I have an idea.”      He eyes you suspiciously but nods. “Go on.”      “After I leave work, I’ll come to you and we can get dinner,” you say slowly, “And then we come home and cuddle all night.”      The perfect happiness that fills his face makes your heart squirm. Reaching out to cradle your face in his hands, he kisses you once. “That--” twice “sounds--” three times “amazing, angel.”      You squeeze him tight, satisfied. “Perfect. I’ll text you when I’m on my way over, okay?”       “Sounds good.” His gaze goes to the clock on the bathroom wall. “Oops, little koala,” he teases. “Time to let go again: you’re going to be late for work!”      You look at your watch and curse at the time. “Okay,” you plant a quick kiss on his chin and then pull away, grabbing your purse off the counter as you go. “See you tonight! Have a good day!”      “I love you.”

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As you enter the company building that evening, the first person you’re hoping to see is Namjoon; instead, you nearly run right into Jimin as you get off the elevator on the practice room floor.      “Hi!” He says your name excitedly and wraps you in a quick, tight hug. “How are you??”      You smile, trading places with him as he releases you but holds the elevator doors. “Good. I missed you guys!”      He grins back. “Us, too. You’re heading to the rehearsal?”      “Oh.” No wonder Hoseok hadn’t answered your text; you hadn’t been aware that they would be rehearsing again so soon. “Um, yeah. Where are you going?”      “Just a quick trip downstairs and back,” Jimin winks. “I’ll see you soon!”      The doors close before you can answer, and you turn to head down the hallways alone.       A rehearsal? So soon after returning from tour? Your stomach feels uneasy. Normally, an added rehearsal from some of the most hard-working men in the country wouldn’t be anything to wonder at, but now...after this week....       Even though the two of you had spent a total of 36 consecutive hours together and things had been fine, you couldn’t shake the feeling that something was actually off. But anytime you had tried to bring it up, Hoseok had shrugged it off with a smile, a cheerful answer, and, usually, a kiss.       What aren’t you telling me?       You push open the door to the main practice room and the strains of familiar music wash over you. The six members (minus Jimin) are running through the choreography again, though not full-out this time, and soon after you enter the room, the choreographer stops the music and makes them return to the previous 8-count.      You sidle along the wall, coming to stop next to one of the bodyguards that you were most comfortable with. “Hi,” you greet in a low voice, your eyes still on your boyfriend.       He grins. “Hey there. Good to see you.”      “You too,” you say honestly, looking over at him quickly. “Did you have a good time on the trip?”      He pulls a face that makes your heart sink. “It was all right. Not the best, not the worst.”      Calm down, you remind yourself. At this point, you were pretty sure you were just paranoid, looking for mountains in the tiniest molehills. “Oh? Glad to be back?”      “Definitely.”      You smile and turn to watch the practice again. “I didn’t realize they’d have a dance rehearsal so soon after coming back...”      “Yeah,” he sighs. “They just got the word about a new music show promotion this weekend, so they’re doing some touch-ups.” He frowns slightly as he watches the members go through the movements. “Honestly, I think it’s too soon,” he confides without prompting.      “I agree,” you say, studying each of the guys’ faces. “They must be exhausted still.”      “Well, yeah,” he agrees. “But especially in light of Hoseok’s recent troubles, I would’ve thought they’d wait a few days.”      Your hands go cold as your stomach sinks to your shoes. “T-troubles?” You clear your throat, turning to look at him.       He glances at you briefly, then refocuses on the rehearsal. “Yeah.....look, I haven’t told anyone else and I obviously won’t, but I figured since it’s, you know, you, it doesn’t matter.”      It hurts that you can’t agree with that sentiment. “Um..yeah. Could you...could you just tell me what exactly you’re talking about?”     “Of course.” He lowers his voice and leans a little closer to you. “Well you know he had that problem with his knee---thank God it wasn’t worse.”     You feel like crying, but manage to keep the tears back, instead nodding once. “Right,” you choke out.      “But that night, as I was walking with him back from the doctor, he admitted that he was really worried.”      There was a moment of silence, and when you chanced a look at his face, you could see solemn concern written all over it. “About?” you prompt.      “His dance career,” he sighed heavily. “This injury was really close to being pretty bad, and he was afraid it was going to affect his dancing. I....” he chews on his lip for a moment before continuing. “I’ve never seen him that upset or scared.”      “Oh.”      Thankfully, at that exact moment, the bodyguard is called away---saving him from the barrage of teary questions you were ready to throw at him.      I knew it, your heart screams. I knew something was wrong! He lied. He lied again and again. Why? Why doesn’t he trust me? Why won’t he talk to me??      Before you have a chance to sort through your feelings, the music cuts for the final time and the members break their huddle quicker than usual. You panic suddenly: you’re not ready to face him, you hadn’t figured out what to think, what to ask. All you’re aware of is hurt.       Fumbling in your purse, you pull out your phone and hold it to your ear, sliding back along the wall. As you pass one of the managers, you catch his attention: “Please tell Hoseok I’m on the phone, but I’ll be waiting for him in the hall.”      You slip into the hallway and press your back against the wall, trying to breathe deeply through your nose. If he’s lied about this, what else is he lying about?     Does he even love me?      ...Why doesn’t he trust me?     Far too soon, the doors are flung open again and you remember to put on a fake-conversation. Jungkook is the first one out: spotting you, he rushes to where you stand and wraps you in a big hug. When he sees that you’re on the phone---well, holding the phone to your ear---he freezes, mutters a hurried “Sorry, noona” and releases you. You smile to let him know it’s okay and return his happy wave as he turns to go.     Taehyung and Hoseok exit together, and you feel your heart start pounding. This time you turn a little, showing them the phone glued to your ear before they can interrupt. Hoseok still moves to your side, but turns away and continues his quiet conversation with his little brother.      What do I say? How can he act like nothing is wrong?      Yoongi, Jin, and Jimin appear next; they get your message immediately, but you still accept a kiss on the cheek from Jimin, a quick side-hug from Yoongi, and a playful (maddening) ruffling of your hair from Jin. By the time Namjoon steps into the hallway, Taehyung is ready to go home. They both give you a fistbump and happy smile before disappearing.      Traitor, you mentally hiss at Namjoon’s back.      But then it’s just you and Hoseok. The tears you’d fought back climb into your throat again. Dropping the pretense, and your phone, you say only, “We need to talk,” before pushing away from the wall and walking down the hall towards his studio.      Confused, Hoseok trails behind you.      You wait until you’re both inside the room before you shut the door and turn towards him. Keeping your eyes on the ground---unable to look at him---you say quietly, “How was your trip, Hoseok?”     Tension is radiating from every muscle in his body. “Angel, what’s wrong?” He takes a step forward, but stops in shock when you move away automatically. He says your name in confusion. “What is it?”      Finally, you look up and meet his eye. “How was the trip?” you repeat.      You can almost see his thoughts race as he studies you. “It was fine,” he says carefully.       You scoff. “Fine? How’s your injury?”      His face pales a little. Clearing his throat, he says, “It’s fine now. It wasn’t as bad---”      “As it could be,” you finish for him, seething with anger now. “Yeah. I heard.”      “You heard?” he repeats. “From who?”      “Not you.” The tears grow hotter; why wasn’t he even ashamed?? “That’s the important thing.”     “Angel, look,” he says in a calm voice, trying again to step towards you. “It’s really okay. Sometimes little injuries happen on tour, and we---”      “Don’t,” you cut him off. “You got hurt. Hurt bad enough that you were worried about your career.” You keep your eyes on his face so you can see how he reacts to this. You’re vindicated---and devastated---when you see the confirmation in his expression. Closing your eyes for a moment is a mistake, because when they open again, your vision is blurred with unchecked tears. “I asked you every night if everything was okay. You never told me that you were injured, you never told me that you were worried!”      “I didn’t want to worry you,” he says, looking pained. “It’s not a big deal.”      IF I HEAR THAT ONE MORE TIME, I’M GOING TO SCREAM.       “We took care of it on tour, I’m extra careful with it, it’s okay. It’s really not a big deal.”      You’re amazed that he can’t see how hurt you are, that he can’t understand that every one of his words is digging into you, tearing chunks away. And he doesn’t even care. Something ugly inside you rears its head. Taking another step back, you muster all the venom you can and say, “If you don’t even want to talk to me, why the hell would you want to date me???”      His face goes red, finally as flustered and uncomfortable as you felt. “That’s not fair,” he says, trying to keep his voice even. “The real question is why can’t you just believe me? You don’t trust me? You think I’m a liar???”      Your mouth falls open, and for a moment you stand there, silent, trying to find the right words. Before they appear, your frustration boils over and the tears spill down your face. “What else do you call someone who lies straight to my face??” you say, your voice growing a little louder.        “I wasn’t try to hurt you!” he says, changing tracks. “I really just didn’t want to worry you, especially while we were apart and---”      “It’s not just about that!” you say through your tears. “You keep me out! You never tell me everything. You want to talk about trust? Do you even realize how much you keep from me?? And I’m the one with trust issues???”      He runs both hands through his hair in frustration. “Please don’t cry, angel. It’s not like that, obviously---”      “You don’t get to say obviously when it obviously IS like that!!” you shout over him, the end of your accusation getting lost in a sob. “Why don’t you let me in? Why don’t you trust me? Don’t you love me??”      He looks like you slapped him. “Don’t say that. Of course I love you, but...”      “But?” you stare at him through your tears. “You love me but???”      “Stop!” he finally raises his voice, unable to keep his frustration in check. “That’s not what I meant. Just calm down and listen to me for one second.”      You exhale, and the noise is so devastating that it catches him off guard. “Listen to you,” you repeat, wiping at your nose with a trembling hand. “That’s the thing, Hoseok: I’ve been trying to listen to you. But how can I listen when you won’t talk to me? How can I listen to you when I have to get the truth from somebody else all the time?”      “Somebody else,” he repeats derisively. “You mean like Namjoon?” When you don’t respond, he goes on. “Yeah, I know about that. Trying to get Namjoon to spy on me---why can’t you just trust me??”      “Namjoon---or one of your new bodyguards,” you say hotly. “Who the hell knows, maybe next time I’ll get pertinent information about your life from a random taxi driver!”      “That’s not fair.”      You shake your head. “You know what’s really not fair?” You’re having a hard time speaking through the tears that are shaking your entire body. “Trying to love someone who doesn’t love or trust you enough to let you in. Trying to be in a relationship where your partner can’t even tell you the truth, that’s not fair.”      “I love you! And it’s not about trust. I would never try to hurt you like that.”      But you’re finished. Your heart is breaking so loudly and painfully that you feel like you can’t breathe, and everything hurts, and all you want to be is miles away from this conversation, from him. Choking on your sobs, you shake your head and say loudly, “Fine! Lie to me, I don’t care, I’m done!” You turn to go.      “Wait---” he reaches out for you, grabbing your hand to stop you from leaving.       Turning on him, you yank your hand out of his grasp. “Don’t you touch me!” you snap. When he withdraws his arm, you reach for the door handle. “Don’t call me, don’t talk to me,” you go on, your hurt fueling every action at this point. “In fact, why don’t you just go talk to your bodyguard, since you’d rather share with anyone else than with me!”       The last thing you see before you slam the door shut is the devastation on his face. It doesn’t make you feel better. Still in tears, you race back to the parking garage, climbing in your car and angrily locking the doors behind you. Your phone buzzes with a text message and you practically throw it into the passenger seat.      It buzzes the entire way home. You don’t look until you’re parked in your spot outside your apartment building.      MY HOPE: I’m not a liar.      MY HOPE: I love you.     MY HOPE: Of course I trust you.     MY HOPE: Why don’t you believe me? Am I really that bad of a guy?     MY HOPE: I’m just trying to protect you.     MY HOPE: I didn’t mean to hurt you.      MISSED CALL     MY HOPE: This is a misunderstanding. Please let me explain.      MISSED CALL     MY HOPE: Please answer your phone.      MY HOPE: Angel?     MISSED CALL     MY HOPE: Are you safe? Please pick up your phone.      MY HOPE: Just let me explain.      Through your tears, you send a single message back: Please don’t.      The incoming messages go silent.      You rest your head against the steering wheel and sob. 

[justasparkwritings]

Illicit Affairs: A Million Little Times

 Previous: Clandestine Meetings

Pairings: None

Genre: Angst

Ratings: PG17

Word Count: 2.4K

Warnings: Manipulation, Abuse of Power, Swearing, Negotiations and Contracts, Mentions of Alcoholism 

Summary: Namjoon clues his Hyungs into the mess he’s been a part of, and Jungkook grapples with truths he didn’t know existed. 

Listen: illicit affairs by Taylor Swift

          Namjoon had been given a week to get the members on board before signing their contract. A week before dates for deployment were given. A week to see if they’d have a future after the bouts of military service were completed. He’d given himself two days to go over the changes before speaking with Yoongi and Seokjin, and four days to wrestle the Maknae line and Ho-Seok to agree to signing what remained of their dignities and rights away. He holed himself in his room, coffee and water his only liquids, and buried himself in the contracts. He googled far too many legal terms, and had countless texts asking if you understood what the contract meant. Namjoon was exhausted by day three and filled with dread. Today he would speak to his Hyungs and break the devastating news of their contracts.

           “So, we have to go over our contracts,” Namjoon said. The three men were seated around the dining room table, the Maknae line gone to rehearse. He felt his palms getting clammy as he glanced at the clock, how much time until they came home?  “And for me to share a few things with you.”

           “It’s bad, isn’t it?” Yoongi asked.

           “I’m not sure that even covers it,” Namjoon replied. “Before we start going over the changes, I wanted to share how I’ve been feeling lately, and a few things I haven’t been able to share before.”

           “Ah, problems with the lovely Y/N?” Seokjin asked, eyebrows raised.

           “No, I just, I’ve been feeling really guilty, and like the reason we’re signing everything away is all my fault. Logically, it isn’t, but I’m filled with dread and hate and spite,” Namjoon said, trying his best to maintain eye contact with his hyungs.

           “Oh, what does Bang say?” Yoongi asked.

           “I’m not supposed to talk to you about these things,” Namjoon bowed his head.

           “Why?”

           “In case I inspire you to riot, or to not sign your contract,”

           “What have they been saying to you?”

           “They’ve continued their usual assault of blaming me for Jungkook’s youthful indiscretions, Jimin following suit and the general ‘disfunction’ of the Maknae line. They are constantly telling me ‘you’re responsible for Jungkook, you raised him. You need to make sure he’s falling in line’. They’ve been putting it all on me since the beginning.”

           “But you’re not responsible,” Jin said, confused.

           “We’re all responsible,” Yoongi said. “We’re the eldest, we raised him.”

           “Bang and management think that it’s our collective failing, like we’ve destroyed what could’ve been if Jungkook had, I don’t know, turned out better,” Namjoon explained.

           “That’s fucked up, it’s not our fault, Bang scouted him, Jungkook’s parents started showing him before you signed him, Joon,” Yoongi said.

           “Bang thinks that since I was the reason why Jungkook went with BigHit, I’m liable for his actions,” Namjoon clarified.

           “He’s his own person, can’t he make his own decisions?” Yoongi asked.

           “Nature verses nurture, right? I’m nurture, Yoongi’s nature,” Jin said pointing between the two of them.

           “And, I’ve just been feeling really guilty, like everything with Jungkook, him signing up, him signing his life away, is all my fault. It’s my fault you guys are losing your rights to everything you create… It’s all because of me, and I don’t know how to share that burden.”

           “You’re not responsible, we all made a decision,” Jin said.

           “We’re all responsible for our own actions,” Yoongi agreed.

           “Yes, but I signed the first contract,” Namjoon said.

           “Namjoon, we were kids.”

           “I have these meetings with them, Bang and the lawyers, and all we do is discuss the problems with Jungkook, the ways he’s being disrespectful for ruining the brand. They give me a fucking list of problems and tell me to fix it, or give me tasks to do to aid in his development,” Namjoon looks at his hyungs, eyes tired.

           “What?” They said in unison.

           “They show up with slide shows and exhibit after exhibit of what he’s doing wrong, and then say I have to address it with him, I have to manage it. They teach me how to, what to say, what to do, and then they blame me when it fails,” Namjoon could feel the frustrated tears building.

           “They’re convincing you that you’re the problem, Namjoon,” Yoongi stated.

           “You haven’t ruined him,” Jin agreed.

“The tattoos, his hair, how he’s refusing to participate in videos or have a positive attitude in filming, he’s representing the brand negatively, he’s encouraging an uprising with the Maknae, the growing alcoholism that he can’t seem to get a grip on,” Namjoon listed.

           “They have presentations?” Seokjin couldn’t wrap his head around it.

           “Yes,” Namjoon reiterated.

           “How often is this?” Yoongi was curious, was this normal? Did the Maknae have meetings about them?  

           “At first, it was every two weeks, it’s slowed down has he’s gotten older, but on average about once a month,” Namjoon shrugged, the meetings had become so normal he’d forgotten that they weren’t.

           “You’ve been having meetings about Jungkook, regularly, for a decade?” Yoongi was floored.

           “I’ve had them,” Jin said, “Not that frequently, but a few times.”

           “Why the fuck haven’t I- you know, I understand why,” Yoongi said. “So, you’ve been controlling Jungkook, for a decade?”

           “I’m not controlling him, I’m guiding him,” Namjoon snapped, his tone harsher than intended.

           “Do you know what his contract says?” Jin asked.

           “All of your contracts say the same thing, more or less, with the exception of this year. This year, they are different,”

           “Does he know?” Yoongi asked.

           “About the meetings? No,” Namjoon and Jin shook their heads simultaneously.

           “Mm,” Yoongi nodded.

           “I’m sorry they’ve been putting this on you for years, why didn’t you come to us sooner?” Seokjin asked. “I’m the eldest, this is my responsibility too.”

           “I’m not allowed to,” Namjoon whispered, ashamed he’d believed the unproven lies he’d been told.

           “Allowed to?” Yoongi laughed, the shock echoing in the trilled notes.

           “Yes, it’s a condition of my contract,” Namjoon mumbled.

           “Are you fucking kidding me?” Yoongi said, laugh cut short by sheer awe.

           “No, it’s been in my contract for years, this is the first time it hasn’t been,” Namjoon took note of the absence, asking you if he’d read the pages right. They hadn’t included their airtight secrecy clause, not in the mark up, and they never forgot to put it in the mark up.  

           “Namjoon, what if they find out?” Jin inquired.

           “We’re supposed to be discussing the new contract, this is part of that discussion because I am at my breaking point.”

           “You aren’t responsible for what Jungkook decides to do,” Yoongi said, “None of us are.”

           “It’s my fault he’s here, that he’s in BTS, that he doesn’t have a life or a chance at a future. He’s working himself to the bone, he’s drinking all the time, he’s burning himself out before his career beats him to it.”

           “How is that your fault?” Yoongi was growing tired of the narrative Namjoon was spinning.

           “I am the reason he’s in BTS,” Namjoon repeated for what felt like the thousandth time.

           “You’re never going to move past this, are you?” Yoongi asked.

           “I’m trying to,” Namjoon felt defeated.

           “You have to relinquish the guilt,” Seokjin said. “Namjoon, we’re all responsible for each other and ourselves.”

           “And ARMY,” Yoongi added.

           “I just,” Namjoon sighed, wiping tears from his cherub cheeks. “There are things you will never know, and I just needed to share part of the burden.”

           “Share more often, we’re here, we’ll talk to Jungkookie about his behavior,” Seokjin said.

           “The drinking is,” Namjoon shook his head, unable to find the words to start the conversation.

           “When we’re gone, do you think he-” Jin started.

           “He has to, he fucking has too,” Yoongi said.

           They didn’t broach the topic of things they would never know. The strain it had put on Namjoon, on his voice as the words came out, indicated that Seokjin and Yoongi were treading in dangerous waters, but they didn’t know who or what to be afraid of.

           “Should we talk about the contract?” Namjoon offered.

           The hyungs nodded, and after he wiped his eyes, Namjoon grabbed his folder. He slid the copy of their new contract to them, tabs still in place, additional ones with notes he’d made sticking out, making it look like Seokjin in Subway Olympics.  

           “Why did they make clarifications on who we can date?” Yoongi questioned.

           “Since when did they know who preferred who?” Seokjin asked.

           “That’s not the worst part,” Namjoon said. He waited with bated breath, for the moment he knew was coming.

           Yards away, Jungkook stood silently by the entrance to the kitchen, back against the wall, breath held. He was intent on eavesdropping, hearing as much as he could from his hyungs to understand what they were talking about. It didn’t take long to figure out that he was the reason they were meeting, and that he had been the subject of innumerable meetings at headquarters that Namjoon had been forced to attend. Namjoon had made decisions on his behalf, he always did. Jungkook felt the rage that’d been building over the last decade start to take shape, and instead of doing the rational thing, he did what he wanted: he left to get drunk.

           “This contract is brutal,” Seokjin said.

           “I don’t think we can fix it,” Namjoon replied.

           “Can we get outside council? A lawyer not tied to Big Hit?”

           “No, I’ve looked into it, even with our finances being independent, there’s no way we can track that Bang won’t hear about it.”

           “Can we get Jin’s dad’s lawyers to look at it?”

           “We could try, but I’ve got the only copy of the new contract, it can’t be copied, I’m on strict orders to share it with you and return it to Bang,”

           “My dad’s team will take a look, for sure,” Seokjin responded. “When do we have to sign?”

           “Four days,” Namjoon informed them.

           “Aye! So short!” Jin called.

           “It took me two days to look through all of it,” Namjoon said.

           “Did you talk to her about it?” Jin wondered.            

           “Yeah, I did.” Namjoon responded.

           “What’d she say?” He asked.

           Namjoon preferred not to talk about his relationship, mostly because he felt guilty that he was allowed to have one while the bandmembers weren’t. His relationship had been a test, to see if it was possible for an Idol to be in a committed relationship. You told Namjoon the only reason they agreed to an addendum in his contract was because you lived stateside, hours away, and he couldn’t see you often. If management thought you’d be seen together, or be exposed in anyway, it would’ve put a kibosh on the entire relationship. As it stood, you were years into being in love, blissfully so, and no one else in BTS was reaping the benefits of your success.

           “She told me to talk to you,” Namjoon wasn’t about to slip that he’d had your dad look at the papers.

           “I can drive this to my dad’s office now, is there anything else we need to discuss?” Seokjin asked, setting his phone down.

           “I don’t know how to present this to everyone else, and I don’t know what we do if we find lawyers who will represent us in our negotiations,” Namjoon said getting back to business.

           “What can we negotiate in this contract?” Yoongi asked.

           “I think we can come out swinging against the percentage for writers and producers, and we can try to negotiate a change in their ‘in perpetuity’ clause in terms of ownership,” Namjoon said, offering the alternatives he’d been working on.

           “We could argue that we want ownership of everything we make going forward?” Yoongi suggested.

           “What do we have to leverage?” Seokjin asked.

           “That’s the thing, I don’t know,” Namjoon said.

           “We can offer Jungkook up as a sacrifice,” Yoongi chuckled. “Maybe send Jimin too.”

           “Maybe we discuss brand deals? Or give them a bigger cut of something?” Jin offered.

           “Trade money for artistic license?” Yoongi clarified.

           “Yes, they’re not going to budge on the relationships, but if we offer money, instead of their ten percent we do an additional 5% spilt amongst the seven of us,” Namjoon said, setting his pencil down and staring at the number in his notes.

           “Would that be enough?” Jin asked.

           “We could say max 10% split amongst us, which gives them a higher cut of profits,” Yoongi responded.

           “We could argue that without us, they won’t be bringing in nearly the same amount, as a company they’d take a huge hit without us,” Jin suggested.

           “Wouldn’t the economy also suffer? Or would they use our catalogue?” Yoongi asked.

           “They’re going to want blood,” Namjoon whispered, ignoring the questions of his hyungs.

           “Well Jungkook’s one drink away from spilling it all over a sidewalk, so,” Yoongi shrugged.

           Across town, in a dive bar that Jungkook had never been to, he sat, drink in hand, glass nearly empty. He’d made a habit of frequenting dives far enough out of town that no one he knew would find him, but close enough that when he was obliterated, he didn’t have to wait impatiently in his chauffeured car to drive him an hour home. He was on his second double on the rocks, choosing to nurse this one instead of chugging it. He kept his notepad near him, pen waiting for him to pick up and start writing whatever drunken thoughts he had. Jungkook would rather swallow his pride before he ever read back what he wrote. He didn’t know if it was healthy or the path to ruin, but he wrote the same old swan song, every damn time. He convinced himself it would be helpful for his writing, or maybe if he ever went to talk to someone about his life, or wrote a memoir, he’d have these. He couldn’t admit that drunk ramblings of a crumbling K-Pop star were nothing more than that.

           As he nursed his drink, he repeated the mantra he’d perfected: this time would be different. For the first time in months, he believed it. Today he had proof of his deepest fears. Namjoon was conspiring against him, saying it was in his best interest while steering him towards a full psychological breakdown. Namjoon had told the truth to his hyungs, but to Jungkook, he’d continue to lie, and lie and lie, a million times.

Next: Show Their Truth

[vantaestummy]

Quick sick Yoongi drabble

A/N: this cane to me while i was sleeping. sweet and short and of course, love my taegi. for imagery, i imagine yoongi to look like he does in the selfie that jimin took after they played just dance! (you know exactly what i’m talking about 😉)

TW/// emeto

The tour bus swayed on the uneven road, the nauseating sensation akin to that of being on a boat. Taehyung was such a good boyfriend. When was he not.

He places a cool towel around Yoongi’s shoulders, the rapper hunching over the girnourmous square-shaped bucket that was stuffed under the seats. It was actually used to pack shoes but, the boys had forgotten that it was there. This is a more important occasion, Taehyung thinks.

Yoongi’s been leaning over it for the past thirty minutes, his legs crossed with the bucket pulled into his lap. His head bobs along with the movement of the bus, the boy hissing every time they hit a sharp turn or bump. Namjoon and Seokjin are two rows away, worrying themselves to the point of sickeness. Jimin and Jungkook are with Hoseok, advising that he put in his headphone because things are probably going to get a bit messy. Jungkook thinks it best for Jimin to do the same. He knows his two boyfriends very well. At least Hoseok will own up to his squeamishness but Jimin is far too prideful to admit that he’s just as bad. Maybe even worse.

“Your hairs getting so long, baby. Let me pull it back, okay?” Taehyung mumbles, tying at Yoongi’s honey blonde fringe with a shooky hair tie, combing through his dark roots with love and care. Yoongi hasn’t said a single word since he started looking utterly nauseous. His lips are pouted as he sniffles, his mouth parting every so often, false alarms. It’s when Taehyung is done with his hair that things take a turn for the worst.

Yoongi’s shoulder roll as he starts to dry cough into the bucket, each time the sound growing more and more wet. Saliva pools under Yoongi’s tongue, gravity doing its thing as it starts to dangle from his bottom lip. He coughs a few more times, all painful and wheezing. Taehyung is right beside him, running circles into his back and scratching up and down the length of his curved spine.

“Should we stop? I can ask Sejin to let us stop for a break.” Seokjin asks, worry coloring his tone. His eyes are wide, as well as even a bit wet. Namjoon entwines their hand so that he can give the older boy’s wrist a soft kiss.

Taehyung sighs with a shake of his head. “We’re twenty minutes away from the venue. It’s better that we get there so hyung can get off of this bus for good.”

They had taken Yoongi’s medicine before the trip, stocking just enough for the duration of the drive, but so many of the roads had been blocked off due to construction, lengthening the journey without warning. They weren’t prepared for this, but Taehyung was going to do everything he could to make sure Yoongi was as comfortable as possible.

“Baby, breathe. We’re almost there.”

Yoongi sniffles, spitting into the bucket as he intakes a deep breath. His knuckles burn red as he grips the sides of the bucket with pure vigor. Things seem okay until, they’re not.

Yoongi gags fruitlessly, his little toungue popping out of his mouth as he leans foward. He continues to gag, more ropes of spit dripping into the bucket. Thank goodness Jungkook has convinced both Jimin and Hoseok to put in their headphones. It has taken them some time to realize that, just because they are protecting their own wellbeing, doesn’t mean they love or care for Yoongi any less. They are in fact, doing everyone a favor. One puking member of BTS is better than three.

“That’s it baby. It’ll be over soon. I’m right here. Jungkook-ah, please get me a bottle of water.”

“Bet.” Jungkook stands from his chair before reaching up to the overhead railing, grabbing a bottle from the pack of waters they had stocked. He hands it over to Taehyung, his gaze empathetic and sorrowful when he takes note of how miserable his hyung looks. He’s been in his boat one too many times before. It’s one of the worst feelings in the world.

Yoongi’s upper half rocks back and forth, each jolt of his body caused by the coughing/gagging sounds that his throat emits. He shakes his head as he spits into the bucket, his nose tickled by all the mucus. His face scrunches as he sneezes and as fucking cute as that is, now is not the time, Taehyung has to remind himself.

Yoongi’s silence has been troubling Taehyung ever since he grew so quiet, but that worry is long gone when he starts to heave.

Yoongi gags, the sound more like a retch as a splash of kimchi falls from his mouth and plops into the bucket. His head hangs low as he retches again, this time, a stream of orangish vomit pouring into the bucket, barely giving Yoongi a chance to breathe before his stomach is once again in his throat. A thick stream of bile is drained from his body like a faucet, filling the bucket halfway with a sickening sound, the puke piling up and up until it looks like a gallon full. Taehyung winces as he rubs Yoongi’s back, to the point of tears. He wishes there was more that he could do but really, there isn’t much at all.

Yoongi rocks, gargling out two more larger rounds of his lunch. The amount of bile he heaves after each bout of vomit becomes less and less until there isn’t much more left in his stomach. At the end, he is left spitting and sneezing, his face scrunching up in the most adorable way every time. Taehyung really wants to coo but the bus kind of smells like vomit and he thinks it best that Yoongi get some fresh air, now that they’re finally at the venue.

The bus pulls up to the back entrance with one loud screech. Hoseok and Jimin are hauled off by Jungkook, the smell starting to get to them. Namjoon and Seokjin make their way to the back, watching helplessly as Taehyung opens the bottle of water, handing it to Yoongi so that he can rinse his mouth out.

“Is there anything we can do?” Seokjin asks, his voice cracking. Namjoon holds out his hands for the bucket, his sweater paws enough to protect himself from the rims splattered with undigested food bits.

“Let me take this. We have mic check in a few hours. The best we can do is let Yoongi-hyung rest, yeah Jin-hyung?”

Seokjin nods, at a loss. The two leave Taehyung and Yoongi to fend for themselves, the older boy dragging his hands down his face, frustrated and still a little queasy.

“Please don’t look at me. I’m so embarrassed and I just want to be alone.” He mumbles, his chin and his cheeks and even his nose are tinted the prettiest shades of pink, even if the color comes from his illness.

Taehyung shakes his head before tucking a strand of Yoongi’s growing hair behind his ear.

“I am not going to leave you like this. You’re sick and you’re crying and you have nothing to be ashamed of. I bet you money that each and every one of us has puked on this bus more than twice. Remember last month? When Jungkook ate six cups of spicy ramen and spewed all over the seats? We couldn’t get the smell out of the leather for weeks. And that was because of a choice he made. This wasn’t your fault baby.”

Yoongi giggles tearfully, rubbing at his eyes with his oversized sleeves. His face is what gives him away, the downward curve of his pouted lips, the sadness swimming in his eyes. He’s being way too hard on himself for Taehyung’s liking, and the younger boy can’t handle it. He loves his boyfriend way too much to just allow him to hate himself, for something that he didn’t do on purpose.

“‘M not crying...” Yoongi weeps. Taehyung chuckles sadly before scooting closer.

Taehyung moves Yoongi’s hands way from his face gently, caressing his reddened knuckles and searching for his eyes. Yoongi avoids his adoring gaze, tear streaks plastered to his chubby cheeks.

“Baby please look at me. I love you and I want you to look at me when I say this.”

Yoongi sniffles; biting at his lip as to clamp in a whimper. He looks up, Taehyung’s boxy smile there to greet him when he does. Yoongi giggles, his gums showing.

“This is not your fault. You have no reason to be embarrassed. If anything, all of us were so scared. We just want to make sure you’re alright. Now, we have about three hours before mic check and all I want is to cuddle you while you wear one of my big sweatshirts, is that okay? Can we do that please?”

Yoongi giggles, covering his lips with his sweater paws before keeling over and slumping into Taehyung’s lap. Taehyung pets at his hair lovingly, happy to see that Yoongi’s natural flush has returned.

“I love you, Tae-ah.”

“I love you more hyung. Do you feel better? Can you drink some water for me?”

Yoongi nods. “But only if you let me keep on your sweatshirt for the mic check.”

Taehyung thinks that can be arranged.

“Deal.” He says, before the two of them start to laugh for a very long time.

A/N: did i say short? 😬

[365days365movies]

February 23, 2021: His Girl Friday (1940) (Part 1)

Oh, we’re going BACK for this one!

Yeah, this is smack dab in the Golden Age of Cinema! Post-depression, the cinematic culture boomed like CRAZY. Obviously, this age had started before this point, but there was no stopping Hollywood here. I mean, in 1940 alone, Disney came out with Pinocchio AND Fantasia, films like The Grapes of Wrath, The Great Dictator, and Rebecca came out, and some of those were prefaced by short cartoons featuring a brand new certain someone.

Oh, also, there was some war of the world 2 thing going on overseas, I dunno. But anyway! Another well-known film that came out that year was The Philadelphia Story, a George Cukor-directed film starring Cary Grant and Katherine Hepburn, and one of a subgenre of comedies called the screwball comedy.

Arguably starting with the 1934 film It Happened One Night, these are romantic comedies that usually feature a self-confident and stubborn female protagonist inevitably falling in love with the male protagonist, who’s probably initially mismatched with her, personality-wise. You should also throw some slapstick comedy, disguises (cross-dressing’s a feature of a lot of these, weirdly), and class struggle. Yeah, also apparently a trend of these films, that were CRAZY popular from 1934 through the ‘40s.

And in case you’re thinking, “That plot structure sounds familiar, where have I heard that before?”, well, I just watched a later-era screwball comedy, Pillow Talk.

But today, the screwball comedy’s mostly disappeared. Some tropes survive, but the reason for the genre’s extinction is simply because of lack of demand. Part of that is because the genre emerged due to questions of class struggle post-Great Depression. Yeah, seriously, the Great Depression is involved in this shit! Obviously, though, that’s not currently as much of a stressor now, so this genre is dead save for some conventions.

But OK, screwball comedy. Why not look at older members of the genre, rather than this film from smack dab in the middle of it? Well, a few reasons. One, this film stars leading man Cary Grant in his prime. And two, because this film was directed by the one and only Howard Hawks.

Hawks directed yet another Grant-Hepburn vehicle, Bringing Up Baby. And yes, that IS a leopard in a car! I’d watch that this month, but I’ve already seen it. Anyway, Hawks is an understated but excellent director, and his female characters are an archetype in and of themselves, known as Hawksian women. They’re tough-talkers, and the main characters of most old screwball comedies.

OK, but Hawks had a lot of romance films with these characters, so why His Girl Friday? Well, other than knowing it from pure reputation as a good movie, it’s also been called one of the best romcoms of all time, and it’s one of his highest rated films as well. And honestly...I kinda just wanted to watch it based on the premise, which is...interesting. But OK, enough navel-gazing. On with the show! SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

Recap (1/2)

We start in a newspaper office in the year 1940, where “Hildy” Johnson (Rosalind Russell) has arrives with her fiancee, Bruce Baldwin (Ralph Bellamy), a sweet man who clearly loves her. Shit. He’s the guy destined to be left behind for the actual love interest of the movie Goddamn it, OK.

Anyway, Hildy apparently used to work here, although I’m not sure of the capacity as of yet. She’s only here now to visit her ex-husband, chief editor Walter Burns (Cary Grant). Their reunion is a bt icy, although Walter still seems to be in love with her still, while Hildy’s absolutely not interested. For now.

And as the two have a back-and-forth, I gotta say, GODDAMN is this some snappy dialogue! Fast-paced, but well-written and understandable all the same. It shuld also be noted that this film was adapted from a 1928 play, The Front Page, and it shows in how these two are playing in front of the screen. Their chemistry’s basically immediate, and you sense an unseen history between them easily.

What I’m saying is, it’s great. Anyway, the two have gotten divorced, and while Walter originally agreed, he’s now fighting the divorce to stay with Hildy, even though she doesn’t want that at all. He’s been calling her constantly, and bugging her. He also talks over her, trying to prevent her from getting a word in edgewise, and Hildy ain’t fuckin’ HAVING that shit!

He asks her to come back to work for him as a reporter (THERE’S the connection to the office), and if that doesn’t work out...they can get married again? Yeah, Walter, Jesus, take a hint. She tells Walter that she’s not coming back to him, and not coming back to work on the paper.

The two, through increasingly impressive dialogue, argue intensely, which is capped off by this well-timed and impressive dodge by Walter, followed by a crack that her aim used to be better.

This movie...holy shit, this movie. Anyway, through the argument, Walter gets a call and pretends that one of his reporters called out sick, in order to get Hildy to work one more job for him. Whoof, that’s manipulatiiiiiiive. But she breaks through his constant pressing to finally tell him that she’s now engaged, and is quitting the newspaper business.

Walter insists that quitting would kill her, s she’s a “newspaperman,” which is interesting. But she’s tired of it all, and wants to live a respectable, normal life, as she says. Her fiancee is an insurance man, which Walter notes is too boring. But Hildy notes that he’s kind, sweet, and considerate, and wants a home and children, and her mind is made up.

Walter relents (seemingly) , and gives Hildy his blessings. However, he decides that he wants to meet Bruce in person, and goes out to say hello, That results in...what is legitimately a VERY funny interaction between Water, Bruce, and a random-ass dude named Pete Davis. It is...it is funny.

So, for the record, Walter’s a verbally-manipulative asshole, and...I kind of like him? Like, he’s an ABSOLUTE DICK, but also a charmer. He quickly coerces Hildy and Bruce into getting lunch at a local place. There, we learn that the two are planning on moving to Albany, where Bruce is confident that the insurance business is strong. I’ve been to Albany, and I can see that.

Walter, during the lunch, is once again a DICK, doing his best to intimidate Bruce and sabotage their plans to leave for Albany that day. He makes his way to the phone, where he schemes with Duffy (Frank Orth) to keep her in town. Back at the table, he tells her of the case of Earl Williams.

Williams is, apparently, a man recently convicted of shooting a police officer...who was black...and they use a word to describe him that begins with a C...that makes me uncomfortablllllllllllle. But it’s 1940, so it could be FAR worse. Anyway, he’s going to be executed, even though he claims that he’s innocence. And while Hildy’s intrigued by the case, she refuses to cover it for Walter.

UNTIL, that is, Walter offers to buy an insurance policy from Bruce for $100000 in 1940 money, which means a commission for $18,000 in today’s money. Uh...yeah. Yes, please. And yet, Bruce says NO, not wanting to involve his future wife in his affairs, like a GODDAMN GENTLEMAN. But Hildy don’t give a FUCK, and basically accepts the deal for him. And, uh, I DO NOT blame her, that’s a lot of goddamn money!

Understandably not trusting Walter, she has Bruce give her all of the money that they have, to his equally understandable reluctance. Because there is NO WAY that she isn’t gonna lose all of that money. We find out from a group of reporters staying near the prison that Williams is to be hung tomorrow, and that he’s a bookkeeper that was recently unemployed.

Meanwhile, after a doctor’s check-up, Bruce and Walter write up the life insurance, and Walter tells Bruce to make Hildy his beneficiary. And Bruce is understandably awkward about that, but Walter ends up convincing him, the smooth and conniving DICK that he is.

Duffy walks in to give Walter a check for more money than originally intended, and it’s even been certified! Which is...odd, but OK. Bruce calls Hildy to let her know, and she’s very suspicious. She tells Bruce to put the check in the lining of his hat, claiming that it’s an old journalist’s superstition (it is not). Looks like she’s right to be suspicious, as Walter brings in a short gentleman for unknown reasons. He follows Bruce out as he leaves the office.

Meanwhile, Hildy brides a prison guard to speak with Earl Williams (John Qualen) before his execution. He’s a shy and bookish man, who was thought to become radicalized by people speaking in a pubic park, where he went after losing his job. This, it’s believed by the press and court, eventually drove him to go insane and kill the policeman. 

But Earl seems perfectly sane, and committing murder goes against his morals. He also wasn’t won over by said radical park speakers, although he admits one of them made some good points. But still, he had a gun, and he apparently did shoot the policeman. 

In their interview, Hildy learns that the man in the park was talking about “production for use”, which is the idea that everything produced should be used, basically in a way that production meets demand, and profit is less important than product. Which, granted, is an interesting idea. But Hildy uses that to convince Earl that he shot the gun because he had it in his hands. And since the gun was produced, it needed to be used, so...

Well, that’s...something. We also learn about Mollie Malloy (Helen Mack), who’s been unfairly labeled by the press as Earl’s mistress and the witness to his case. And she gives a very passionate and heartfelt plea with the male journalists, who are...vicious. And Mollie’s hurt indeed. And while she’s there, they all treat her terribly.

But she breaks down in front of them even further when she sees the gallows being prepared outside. And as Hildy takes her out, the men left behind actually do seem ashamed. And in a single stroke, in a single scene, the film uses an immense moment of drama to show exactly why Hildy wants to leave, and the things that it makes people in this profession do. It’s...masterful.

Good place to pause! See you in Part 2!

[btsfan15]

Interview

Interviewer: I am here with the biggest K-Pop boy band in the world, BTS! And with their friend, Navya!

*everyone claps*

Interviewer: Thank you guys so much for coming.

RM: Of course.

Interviewer: Have a seat.

*everyone sits on the couch*

Me: Oh, there’s no more space for Jin.

Jin: Oh, that’s okay. I’ll just squeeze next to Navya.

*sits down next to me*

*everyone laughs*

Interviewer: Welcome, guys. So, what’s it like being popular all over the world with thousands of fans?

RM: It’s really amazing. ARMY is so nice and sweet to us and they’re always supporting us.

V: We want ARMY to be happy through our music, and we will be there for you, with love.

Interviewer: ARMY is very lucky to have you guys. You make such amazing music. There’s so much positivity that you guys and ARMY bring to the world. Why is this message important to you?

Jin: It’s all because of ARMYs. They always give us positive energies. 

Jungkook: ARMY! Thank you for all the love. We can’t wait to surprise ARMY with a great show and let’s get it!

Interviewer: How do you feel being on stage and performing at the AMA’s?

RM: Everything is surreal. *laughs*

Interviewer: The AMA's is well known as the most American and as one of the major awards along with Grammys and the Billboard. A singer having the presence and the invitation to perform at the AMA must be meaningful. I am sure there’s something more to it than “feeling unreal.” What else can you share with us?

J-Hope: I’ve grown up watching the AMA's on television. To be able to perform at the AMA's, especially in front of all our fans here, it definitely was an unbelievable experience. It was a great honor to be here and it’ll be great to have another chance to perform here at the AMA's, in front of our fans. I’d like to thank our fans again for their continuous love and support.

RM: As you mentioned, AMA's is the most American, yet one of the major awards. I also agree that AMA has a great reputation. We definitely felt throughout the process that AMA has put a great thought and consideration in inviting us to perform on stage, not just introducing as "some strange kids from Asia". AMA made us feel like we were part of the award ceremony in many ways, such as having the The Chainsmokers introduce us and in terms of the order of performances. We were the 16th out of the 17 performers, performing right before Diana Ross, who won AMA’s Lifetime Achievement Award. Many details that were prepared by the AMA's made us feel welcomed and we really felt that they prepared a lot for us, taking the time in getting to know us, as well as showing respect to us as artists.

Interviewer: Starting with the Billboard Award in May and now your presence at the AMA's show that BTS suddenly is on a continuous rise. How do you feel?

Jin: We only got our first big win at the Mnet Asian Music Award in Korea last year. We all hugged and cried. I still cannot believe one year has not yet passed since that day. Over the year, we won a Billboard award and performed on the AMA stage. We debuted four years ago, but so much has happened during these years. Events like winning the Billboard award and performing at the AMA's happened so fast.

RM: Twitter is our main social media platform and it is very easy for us to use. We had five million followers six months ago, but now we have over ten million followers. (BTS has around ten point three million followers, which is the greatest number of followers in Twitter's Korea accounts). We have used social media for five years, and suddenly the followers doubled within the span of less than six months. Also, the 'Billboard Hot 100 chart' is the chart that every artists in the world dreams of entering. (BTS's song DNA, released in September as title track of the new album, entered the chart on no. 85. It is the second time a Korean song entered the chart after Psy's Gangnam Style). To be able to debut on the AMA's is an honor that is totally surreal and all of this is 100% due to our fans who made it possible. We have never seen a such fandom before. *laughs* 

Interviewer: BTS has a lot of characteristics. One of them is that you pick a topic and create a series off of the topic such as 'School Trilogy' or the 'Youth Series'. In the process, the growing story of each BTS member becomes the core content. This correlates into the meaning that BTS's own growth is equivalent to BTS's musical content. Do you think that these stories matches the ones of your real life? And if yes, how much do they match up with your real life?

Suga: I cannot say that our lyrics are 100% based on our experiences. But our experiences are very well-embedded in the songs. We try to tell our generation's story through our songs.

RM: Our debut song was 'No More Dream'. If you listen that song, you realize the lyric "Hey, what is your dream?" keeps repeating through-out the song. At that time, my friends were about twenty years old and most of my friends were ones with no dreams. I was very angry and frustrated to see these friends because I just could not understand why they didn’t have any dreams. I tried to convey my emotion through the lyrics. In that way, our lyrics tell the life story of teenagers and now my peers. It makes them easy to listen and relate to. The song 'Danger' also expresses such hardships. However, when we released song 'I Need You', we got so many new fans. It seems they understood title of the song. *laughs*

Interviewer: Some people said that using social media is one of the reasons why you have succeeded. I wonder, what was your plan when you started making video content like the Bangtan Bombs?

Jin: With the Bangtan Bombs we take videos of our lives and upload them without any editing. When we shoot the videos, we try to do funny things. But we don't edit anything. Uploading videos weekly is really hard to do, so we try to keep the videos simple. But it seems that our fans really enjoy these uploads from our everyday life.

Suga: In the past, I did not like social media very much. When I started doing social media, I was afraid of the risks. But in doing it, I think that the most important thing is to show my natural self to the fans. Cool, cute and handsome looks can be seen on TV or other media, but the fans are curious about the rest. The Bangtan Bombs are closely related to our daily life and shows what's happening behind the surface. We really have befriended social media. We don't look at it like work at all. We just upload whenever we want. And the upload cycle is fast. Maybe this is why fans like our social media accounts.

Jimin: Fans say that we use social media a lot, but in fact, since we all use one account it seems like we use it more often. *laughs* This is one of the advantages of using one account all together.

Suga: If we use one account, we can be seen as a team so many more times over.

RM: These days, all of us do social media a lot. I think it is natural for us to do it, not as work but because we want to upload for our fans.

V: We have uploaded over one million posts on Twitter since our debut. So far, we have released over one hundred songs. Sometimes I look at our songs and melodies and feel regretful and ashamed. But at the time we did them, I sang them sincerely so I hope it was good enough.

Interviewer: Navya, do you have any social media?

Me: Yes, I do. I have Instagram, Twitter, TikTok, Pinterest, Tumblr, etc. I have a lot of social media. I have so many people following me on Instagram. Whenever I post a photo of me or with the other members, I get so many comments. *laughs* 

Interviewer: *laughs* Really? What kind of comments?

Me: I get so many saying “So pretty!” or “Love you!” or just emojis. *laughs*

Interviewer: What’s the most common comment you get?

Me: Um...it’s probably “You are so lucky!” or “I wish I was with them!” or “I wanna take a selfie with BTS!” *laughs*

*everyone laughs*

Interviewer: Wow, I guess you are really lucky to be living with BTS! All those fans out there are jealous of you!

Me: I guess I’m lucky, aren’t I? I’m famous all over the world! *laughs*

Interviewer: Yes, you are. So, what are the goals of each member?

Jin: I want to be happy. I do not have a huge life goal. I just wish that I can laugh and have a happy life like I do now.

Me: I want to make everyone happy. I want to laugh and have fun with everyone.

Jimin: I want to do well at what I am doing right now. I want to hear the fans say "you are doing well". My wish is that when I've grown up and look back at myself, I will be able to think I was really cool back then.

J-Hope: I want to release my mixtape. I'm ready now. I want to release it as soon as possible. It's not just a short mixtape, but on the level of a full album. After seeing RM and Suga release their mixtapes, I felt that I really wanted to make music with my own colors. I also want to study languages so that I can communicate with American and other foreign fans.

Jungkook: I want to do many things during this and next year. I want to write songs, improve my dancing and speak foreign languages well. The goal is not to be lazy, but to become a practitioner.

V: I want to add various charms and improve in more fields as an actor. I want to continue to study photography and take better pictures. As a singer, I want to become a more wonderful person as a member of BTS. I want to be someone that is doing a lot in many fields.

Suga: The final goal is that when the day comes for me to quit doing music, I want to leave when people still applaud. But I really hope that the departure will happen gradually. I've been playing music for quite some time now, but I hope I will get to do it far longer than the time I've been doing it so far. I do not know if it will be possible in reality, but I think that I want to leave music at a time when I'm still on top.

RM: Loving myself is my dream, but I don't know if I will achieve it before I die. *laughs*

Interviewer: Those are some good goals. Now I want to know: Do you guys date?

RM: We just wanna focus on our careers right now. We don’t usually have time to find that special someone. *laughs*

Me: I’ve always wondered what it’s like to date because when I was growing up, I wasn’t allowed to date. I would *laughs* always see everyone holding hands at school and I would get jealous, to be honest. *laughs* 

Interviewer: Well, you have multiple choices right here in this room, so take your pick! *laughs*

*everyone laughs*

Me: I don’t know about that. Everyone is busy with everything, so I’m gonna wait for sometime. I don’t want to stress anyone out.

Interviewer: Yeah, being an idol is hard. Okay, my next question is what’s your ideal type of girl or guy?

RM: A sexy girl who can converse with me for a long time with a nice voice, is appropriately tall, has pale skin, feminine Girl, looks good in a white T-shirt + Jeans + Red Converse High. Someone sexy, even to a brain. Someone that are thoughtful and confident.

Jin: Someone who's fun to be around. A soft-hearted girl who'd wear elegant make-up. A girl whose looks and personality is similar to that of a puppy, whose good at cooking, kind and takes good care of me. I want her to laugh at my jokes and play Mario games with me.

*everyone laughs*

Suga: A girl who has a peaceful manner, but also has a great sense of humor. I don’t laugh very much, so I think that she can make me laugh on a regular basis is very appealing to me.

J-Hope: I like a girl that wears feminine clothes but not too fancy because I think  most important thing is to wear clothes that suit your body. I like girls that are interested in books, good at not only taking care of me but also others, besides I would like to have a girl that is very supportive of me.

Jimin: I want a girl who truly loves me and gives me all the love I want. She has to be smaller than me and is caring, cute, loves sharing, and has a big heart. She has to love to cuddle, too.

V: I want a girlfriend who’s kind and compassionate. I want her to be healthy mentally. Even better if she talks nicely too. It doesn’t matter if she’s not beautiful. But everyone says let’s wait and see how my future girlfriend looks like, I’m curious too.

Jungkook: I like a girl who’s intelligent, talented, and competitive. I want her to be older than me and I want her to be a gamer girl to impress me with her talents and not be afraid to show off her strong points.

Me: I like a guy who’s sweet to my friends and gives me lots of love and cuddles. I want him to teach me how to cook something cause I don’t know how to cook a proper meal. *laughs* I want him to play Mario video games with me and make jokes to make me laugh. He has to be cute and handsome, too. 

Interviewer: Hey, that sounds like Jin! Looks like we got a match, everyone! 

*everyone laughs*

Me: I don’t think we’re ready for that yet.

Interviewer: Do the members always tease you?

Me: Oh my god, yes they do! Especially about Jin. Whenever Jin and I are together, they say stuff like “You both look like a couple’ or “You two should date since you both hang out so much.” 

Jin: Even for me, too! I always get mad at them and have to scold them!

RM: It’s true. He actually gets mad at us.

Suga: Jin always talks fast whenever he’s mad at us about something.

Me: Yeah, that happens a lot. I always crack up laughing. We all do, in fact.

Interviewer: Really? It must be very embarrassing. 

Me: Yes, it is very embarrassing. Every time they do something like this, me and Jin are like “When are they gonna stop doing this” or “How long are they gonna keep this up?”

Jin: But they keep on assuming these things about us, but we just go with it.

Interviewer: My next question for you guys is what are your favorite songs?

RM: My favorite songs are ‘Panini’ by Lil Nas X and ‘Super Rich Kids’ by Frank Ocean.

Jin: Mine is ‘Senorita’ by Camila Cabello and Shawn Mendes and the remix of “Despacito” performed by Luis Fonsi, Justin Bieber, and Daddy Yankee.

Suga: ‘Loco’ by Mustard and ‘Summer Story’ by DJ Doc.

J-Hope: I like ‘The Big Day’ by Chance The Rapper and ‘Beauty and a Beat’ by Justin Bieber and Nicki Minaj.

Jimin: My favorites are ‘Goodbye Days’ by Yui and ‘Love Song’ by Sara Bareilles.

V: My favorite songs are ‘Floor Seats’ by A$AP Ferg and ‘Blue Room’ by Chet Baker.

Jungkook: I really love one of our songs, ‘Mikrokosmos’ and I also love ‘Just Hold On’ by Steve Aoki with Louis Tomlinson.

Me: I love ‘Handclap’ by Fitz and the Tantrums and ‘War of Hormone’ by BTS. 

Interviewer: All great songs. I have another question for you guys: Have their been any embarrassing moments before?

RM: Um, I think there’s one between Navya and Jin.

Interviewer: Oh really? Can we hear about it?

Jin: Um, it’s kind of embarrassing, but I’ll tell it. So, one day, me and Suga’s dorm door wasn’t working. If we closed it, then we couldn’t get in. The person on the outside has to open it. Anyway, we both didn’t know what to do, so Suga went to call the other members to see if they could fix it. I waited in the dorm for him, but it took a while, so I called Navya to see if she could fix it. She came over and I told her what the problem was. She came in the room and guess what happened? Navya locked the door.

Interviewer: Oh no! Then what happened?

Me: I didn’t know the door would get locked. We both tried to pull the door open, but it wouldn’t open. So, we were both stuck in there for a while. Who knows how long. *laughs*

Interviewer: What did you guys do in there?

Me: We just talked and laughed. I mean, we WERE in a bedroom, so I don’t really know what happened...*smiles*

*everyone looks at me*

Me: I’m just joking. All we did was talk and laugh. Jin told me a lot of jokes. I cracked up so hard.

Jin: Yeah, I did. I have so many in mind right now.

Me: I laughed so hard that my stomach was hurting. I almost died.

*everyone laughs*

Interviewer: That does sound fun. How did you both get out?

Jin: Suga got us out. He found the members and brought them to our dorm room. Me and Navya were both relived that we got out. 

Me: The funny part was that Suga was so confused about what happened. *laughs* We both laughed and explained what happened. 

Jin: We were still laughing after that. *laughs* We also told the other members what happened.

Interviewer: Well, that was an amazing story! Did the door get fixed?

Suga: Yes, it did. It won’t lock again from the inside. I think Navya’s gonna be careful next time. *laughs*

Me: I sure will. I probably should ask one of you if I can close the door. *laughs*

Interviewer: That was an amazing story, but I thought it was an embarrassing story.

Jin: After we got the door fixed, the embarrassing things started happening. At dinner that same day, the guys kept on nagging me and Navya about what happened. They kept on asking what we did in the room while it was locked.

Me: Jin and I were so embarrassed. We both said that we both talked and laughed, but they kept on suspecting that something else happened.

Jin: Now, that I think about, I think there was something else. I can’t remember.

Me: Me neither. *remembers* Oh, I remember what it was! 

RM: What?

Me: Jin and I both fell asleep on the bed. 

Everyone: Ohhhhh!

Jin: Oh yeah, now I remember. 

Interviewer: How did you both fall asleep?

Me: I guess we were both laughing so much that we were both tired and fell asleep. 

Jimin: I knew there was something else!

V: We keep on saying it, but they just won’t admit it.

Jungkook: Admit what?

J-Hope: That they make a perfect match. 

Suga: They would make a perfect couple. Just imagine.

Jin: *embarrassed and blushing* Ah, Yoongi...

Me: *embarrassed* I seriously don’t even know how long this is gonna go.

RM: Jin’s embarrassed! His face, neck, and ears are red!

Jungkook: They are!

*members start teasing Jin by poking him*

Me: *giggles* Okay, guys. Stop teasing Jin. 

Interviewer: *laughs* Well, it might happen in the future. Who knows? Well, thank you guys for taking the time to chat with us today! I had an awesome time!

RM: Thank you! For having us! We all had a great time! 

Interviewer: *looks at the camera* ARMY, know that BTS is there for you whenever you need it and stay tuned for more awesome music!

Us: Bye! 

Me: Saranghae! Annyeong! 

Jimin: We love, ARMY!

Jin: Since I can’t blow a kiss for you in person, I’ll just do it to the camera. *blows a flying kiss to the camera*

*everyone laughs*

I hope you guys enjoyed the story! 

[krreader]

my pleasure.

pairing: kim seokjin x reader fandom: bts warnings: sugar daddy!jin ; mentions of sex genre: fluff ; hints of smut word count: 1.5k+

summary: yes, this was an agreement between you and jin, but sometimes it didn’t feel like it.. it almost felt.. natural.

a/n: aaaah, thank you so much for your request angel, I hope your first request doesn’t let you down ♥

This was such a nice change, waking up to rays of sunshine hitting your face and not your alarm clock while it was still dark outside.

Waking up in silk sheets and not in your old bed sheets that you hadn't washed in a while because you simply didn't have time for that.

Waking up not filled with stress and anxiety, but completely relaxed and happy.

People might judge you for the job you now had, but only because of the prejudices it brought with it. If they knew what kind of life you were living now, you were sure that 90% of them would consider switching to this life too.

Your hand reached out, wanting to feel the warmth of the one that made this all possible, but your hand was only met with coldness instead.

He must have left a while ago.

Forcing yourself to open your eyes and look around, you realised that there was no sight of him whatsoever. The clothes he wanted to wear today were gone, his belongings as well and all you were left with was the faint smell of his cologne.

And as if he had installed cameras here – which you really hoped he didn't, or that would kind of ruin your perfect little fantasy – you got a text from said man that made you smile instantly.

“It was so much fun last night. Thank you for everything.”

You've been doing this for almost a year, he paid you for being his, but not really being his and yet he always thanked you for it.

You quickly prepped up the pillows behind you and let your fingers glide over the letters on your phone.

“I wish you could have stayed a bit longer.. would have loved to go for round two.”

Jin smirked as he was sitting in his make-up chair, quickly sending you a photo with the caption, “I had to leave early so I could look like this, my love.”

Your heart immediately pounded harder in your chest, biting your lip and pulling your phone a little closer, “Ah, so handsome. Just as handsome as you looked last night on top of me, daddy.”

Jin began to squirm in his seat, apologising when he saw his stylist look at him disapprovingly, before quickly and discreetly replying one last time.

“Not while I'm working, baby girl, you know that. I'm going to call when I'm done. Make sure to pick up.”

And with that you knew that the conversation was over.. at least for now.

If anyone were to have a conversation with you about the pro's and con's of your job, you doubted you could name any con's. You were living the best life you've ever lived with minimum effort. Because being with Seokjin, sleeping with Seokjin.. that wasn't something that you had to do, it was something that you genuinely wanted to do.

The first time you slept together wasn't because of an agreement, it was because you had met each other at a party, hit it off and then went home together. It was only afterwards that he suggested this arrangement and you had agreed in a heartbeat. Because why wouldn't you?

Sure, the first thoughts that came into your mind were: is this degrading?

But the more you thought about it, the more you realised.. no. You didn't feel ashamed for doing this. For you this was more pleasure than business after all. Of course, you didn't outright say to your family: “I'm a sugar baby”, but you told them that you were making business with someone very important and that that was the reason you were earning so much nowadays.

You quickly jumped under the shower, then got dressed and ended up going to a nearby café for breakfast.

The reason you went here was because you've been so often at this point that you and one of the girls that worked here have become really good friends.

And she was someone that knew precisely what you were doing for work.

“Ah, I'm so jealous,” she sighed deeply, “I admit, when you first told me about this all, I was judging you really hard, but I realise that it's actually such a good job if you genuinely like the man you're spending time with.”

You smiled sympathetically at her and leaned over the table to put your hand over hers, “I told you that he has a lot of friends that I could introduce you to..”

“You make it sound like a prostitution ring.”

“It's not.. really. Because some of them aren't even looking for sex, they're just looking for a bit of normality. Someone they can have a conversation with that doesn't revolve around their jobs.”

You would never force her to do something that she didn't want to do, but you also knew that she was curious about this lifestyle and if she really wanted to see what it was like, you might as well help her out. And you meant what you said.

This whole business wasn't always about sex.

Take you, for example.

Yes, you did sleep with Jin, but that wasn't what your relationship was about. What he truly needed was someone to listen to him, someone that could just be with him and understand him. Someone that he could feel at home with. You provided all of this.. which is why you got along so well.

For you, sex was just a side activity that you liked to do with each other when you were feeling like it.

The rest of your day was quite uneventful. You just walked around the city some more, went grocery shopping and then went home, putting down your groceries just when your phone started ringing, answering it within the first few seconds.

“Hello, handsome.”

“Are you home?” Jin asked.

“Just got here. I'm about to make dinner.. do you think you can make it within the next hour?”

“I'm ten minutes away, love,” he chuckled, “I'll be right there.”

If you had heard that nine months ago, you would have hurried into the bathroom and would have put a little more effort into your look to impress him.

But you felt so comfortable around him these days, make-up or not.

Might have something to do with the fact that he always complemented you and pushed up your confidence to the sky.

So you just started cooking instead, smiling at him when he entered the kitchen, clearly exhausted.

“Oh, boy,” you chuckled a little, “Hard day, huh?”

“It's just gotten ten times better,” he hugged you from behind, breathing in your scent and gently rocking you from side to side, “I missed you so much, my love.”

And even though this was an agreement, it was easy to forget in moments like these.

It was so domestic.. like he wasn't your sugar daddy, but.. your husband.

“I missed you too.. dinner will be ready soon, so how about you take a quick shower, relax and we have dinner in bed tonight?” you carefully turned around in his arms to look at him.

“You treat me too well,” he kissed your forehead, then did exactly what you just told him to do.

You stared after him for a while, only catching yourself doing so after a few minutes and quickly shaking your head.

Lately, this idea of love wasn't something you could push out of your mind anymore. It was weird, it made you feel fuzzy and you weren't sure if you should feel that way.. not that you could change it.

But Jin.. he acted differently too, so this wasn't just your fault.

The way he acted towards you nowadays, of course you'd start to feel things.. more things, deeper things, for him.

And when you ended up eating in bed later that night, watching shitty TV and him and you talking about the other one's day.. you felt so.. at peace.

Home.

Like this is where you belonged.

“You've been thinking a lot, haven't you?” he whispered, gently brushing a strand of hair behind your ear.

“Is it that obvious?” you smiled a little.

“To me it is.. so tell me. What is it?”

Other people in your situation would be scared to bring up this topic in fear of ruining what they had.. but not you. You felt like the answer you were going to get was exactly what you were hoping for.

“I'm just really happy lately, you know? Here.. with you.. this isn't where I imagined myself to be eventually, but.. I'm glad I ended up here.”

The corner of Jin's mouth curled into a smile, “Go on.”

“I just can't help but wonder.. what the future has in store for us. And.. I mean.. a possible future without contract.”

Jin sat up a little straighter, mostly just to look at you properly, “The only reason I ever set up a contract in the first place was because I needed security because of my job. But I won't always have that job.. and everything that comes after.. I want to share with you.”

“So.. we're on the same page here?”

“I think.. we have been from the start, love.”

And that's probably why it worked out the way it had.

And why it continued to do so for years after.

[taetaesbaebaepsae]

BTS as FWB

Hyung Line

My sister and I were talking about this yesterday so I thought I'd do a post about how bts would handle being a fwb (spoiler alert they all catch feelings eventually)

**Also I take requests for BTS and maybe Monsta X so hmu in my asks, fam**

Hyung Line (Maknae Line coming up bc this got Loooong)

Warnings: smut, angst, fluff, alcohol tw

Word Count: 1,779

Namjoon (RM)

If it was your idea, he would be so down like "yeah of course who needs relationships?" but low-key he wanted to confess to you 5 seconds before you suggested an arrangement

Puts that mouth to WORK

Likes it a little rough but nothing that would leave bruises or hickeys that's for amateurs

He has a downright filthy mouth this boy will have you clutching your pearls with the nasty shit he'll say (you love it)

Late night convos, this boy will text you at 3am not for a booty call but just to talk to you

He's more of an emotional booty call than just sexual, he'll come to you when he's stressed or upset

Don't get me wrong, he'll fuck your brains out but expect lots of pillow talk, especially if he's been drinking

Takes you out for coffee, will buy you breakfast, insists to his friends he isn't dating you since he doesn't take you out at night

You're the only one he's fucking, though he flirts a lot

If he runs into you at a club and you're dancing with someone else, God help you

He won't be mean just stupid charming, doing his best to lure you away for a night of crazy sex

If it doesn't work though, he'll be high key salty, pouty, whiny

You'll get texts until daylight because he'll keep drinking, imagining you with someone else

He might show up at your door at 6am, shitfaced, honestly

"Did you bring that clown home? No, I'm not jealous, I just wanted to talk to you."

You're weak so you let him in and he spends all day at your place recovering from his hangover

He will only admit he's caught feelings if you do first or if he thinks you're getting serious with someone else

If you go on dates he'll pick a fight with you about nothing and when you're yelling at him he'll just kiss you senseless.

"I love you, ok?"

You start dating him before you even know what's happening the smartass manipulative little shit

Jin

The biggest fuckboi of the group don't @me

He's a pro at this

After he got cheated on all his relationships are fwb arrangements and they always catch feelings first

Not you, though, you know he's a fuckboi and you know what you're in for

This boy will make you laugh during sex he's never serious he'll make you come while you're giggling over some stupid shit he said

Sexts, sexts, sexts

He will never stop dirty texting you while you're in an inappropriate place like work or dinner with your family

God forbid you tell him you're going on a date, then dick pics and sexts galore

He's not jealous, he's territorial, he wants to be the best you've ever had (he is but you would die before you'd admit that)

This boy is not even a little exclusive with you, at least not at first

He'd invite you over to meet his friends and be shook at how well you fit in

You start playing video games with Jungkook and when Kookie starts looking at you with stars in his eyes Jin goes all possessive puppy

All over you at all times he's not ashamed of you he just isn't ready for a relationship

Like Namjoon he will use you for emotional comfort too, although his pillow talk will be mostly jokes and flirting

Your convos don't get too serious unless he's had WAY too much to drink

Then he tells you about his ex and shit gets real for a second before he wakes up the next morning his flirty self again

He gradually stops texting the other booty calls he has on lock, just telling himself you're better in bed, that's all

Finds out you have another fwb when he comes to your house at 3am drunk

He is SO salty, there is less salt in the Pacific ocean

He's whiny and pouty and shading the other dude constantly

"Jealous? Why would I be jealous I'm just wondering why you bother with him, he's ugly."

But if he hung out with you and the other guy would not let on ONE bit. Makes friends with him, I easy going even if he's a bit touchy feely with you

But low-key stares at you like a kicked puppy when no one is paying attention

His friends are all like "what did you do to him?"

YOUR friends are like "what'd you do to him he looks so heartbroken"

He only admits to catching feelings when you get so fed up you say it's done and you are over it

He gets mean when he sees you with the other guy on a real date and says some cruel shit

You are D O N E

Block his number done

He will 100% show up drunk at your house

He's cute so you let him in and he really does look like a kicked puppy

Honest with you for the first time bc he's scared of losing you

"I still don't know if I can trust anyone enough for a relationship but you make me wanna try it. Don't cut me out."

Yoongi (Suga)

He would only agree to a fwb arrangement if he had some feelings for you

He's not the type to fuck around with a girl he can't see himself dating

Definitely the fuck and run type at first zero pillow talk

Absolute master with his hands and fingers LORD

Not too vocal during sex but it makes him crazy when you are if you want him to nut fast you just gotta moan his name

Won't say anything non sexual unless he's drinking even then it's low key like "You look pretty tonight."

Texts you for booty calls like "hey dumbass wyd"

Will not take you for coffee or be seen in public with you, bc he's worried you're ashamed of him, not the other way around. Otherwise why wouldn't you date him?

You have no clue he likes you. Absolutely none he barely talks to you unless he's horny

He loves it when you booty call him he's so smiley and sweet when that happens

He's so soft to you when you get too drunk at his house party and throw up

He sits behind you as you hug the toilet and strokes your hair for hours

You're shocked to wake up in his bed since he has a strict no overnights rule

Scolds you for drinking so much but brings you breakfast in bed and is low-key a sweetheart through your hangover

You: shook. Your heart: full

You don't tell him you're seeing other people until he point blank asks you. When you say yes, he just nods

"Good we always use condoms then."

Will ignore you and be kind of a dick when he finds out but that's not uncommon so you are still oblivious

If you wait on him to admit to catching feelings you will die waiting

Only one way you will find out

One of his dumbass friends lets something slip when they're drunk (It's probably Jin)

You're complaining about how he's ignoring you at the party

"Bitch he's so whipped for you his lockscreen is your selfie."

You cannot believe it

You think it's bullshit

You end up sleeping in Jungkook's room that night bc you fell asleep whupping his ass at Mortal Kombat

The next morning somebody is slamming every door in the house and throwing dishes around.

Jungkook's door is open so he saw you cuddled up to the maknae

He big mad

When you finally get him to talk about it (probably days later)

"I just don't want you fucking my friends it's messy."

You only find out the lockscreen shit is true when you grab his phone by accident

He knows you know he fucking BAILS

Books it outta your life for like a week

The only way you pin him down is by texting him a paragraph about how you like him too

He kisses you so sweet when you see him next and he's all smiles and affectionate

You're dating now, that's it, no need for discussion

RIP Kookie tho he'll never trust him again despite you telling him a thousand times nothing happened

Hoseok (J-Hope)

He agrees because he is literally down for anything

Definitely a good time this boy is so much fun in bed

Will try anything once and I mean ANYTHING

You wanna tie him up? Definitely. You want him to eat whipped cream off your tiddies? Tell him when and where

The world's biggest switch don't @me

Has a thing for public sex, loves to finger you on a dance floor

Y'all do everything together, everyone thinks you're just dating

He's a big goofball with you in public, v affectionate

He's your best friend and you're his

Y'all don't take anything seriously when one of you is upset you text each other dumb selfies and fuck it out next time you hang out

Never drunk dials you you won't even know he's out until you see him on the dancefloor with some girl

Y'all compete to see who can dirty dance with the most people before you go home together

Feelings? He's never heard of them

Least likely of all the boys to catch feelings first

Would take him FOREVER to realize he actually likes you

I'm talking y'all have been fucking for MONTHS before he catches on

If he gets jealous he'll just think it's bc he's competitive

If you make him sad by not hanging out with him he'll think he just wants the attention

Feelings hit him like a brick when he finally realizes

You're in his car jamming to his latest track and you're singing and dancing like a fool with your hair flipping around and all of a sudden it's like the sun shines only on you

The boy is SHOOK

He gets real quiet

Scary quiet

You think he's mad but when you ask him he blows you off with a smile saying he's tired

You don't hear from him for a couple of days

He's pacing around his place and trying to process, talking to friends and trying to decide what to do

Everyone tells him to just tell you ofc

Confident boy is not used to feeling insecure he's hesitant.

"What if she doesn't love me back?"

There's no dramatic reveal

He really just asks you on a date

A REAL one

Nothing much changes, honestly, he has always been your bff and being your bf is just a bonus

[honeymoonjin]

day 11 & 12

With Festa in full swing last week, I feel like I didn’t have a chance to breathe let alone sit down long enough to articulate a review worthy of Day 11. I shall endeavor to do my very best to make up for that here. And, upon reading the start of Day 12, I am actually kinda glad I waited because I think that it gave me time to put both chapters into perspective. 

Day 11 was a very emotional one for Jungkook and I feel like we got to see those emotions coming to a head in this chapter. On the whole, Day 11 was such a fun, lowkey entry that I wasn’t really sure if I would have anything coherent to offer beyond high pitched squealing accompanied by the occasional swoon and cooing. But after seeing the tension and subsequent squabble that transpired at the breakfast table on Day 12, I see that perhaps there was more to ruminate concerning the feelings that Jungkook had experienced in the confessional booth. It’s so interesting from a writers perspective that you chose Jungkook to be the one to reiterate the whole point of the show; he’s younger, thus perhaps conventionally he’s a bit more emotionally immature than the rest of the guys. And yet, from the beginning, none of these guys have ever been portrayed as stereotypical or conventional; you have always expertly reminded the audience that each of the contestants (including our lady!) is more much complex than what meets the eye. It’s one of the things that I love so much about this series; none of the characters are ever “too perfect” and it’s those candid moments of vulnerability or weakness that truly makes this story stand out from a lot of other stories that I read. So to choose Jungkook as the person to make those “bold” comments and to have Namjoon be the one to call him out for being insensitive makes me feel like Jungkook’s response was much more complex than what it seems at glance. Like, it’s pretty obvious that Jungkook likes and respects our lady and perhaps he realized his indiscretion just a little to late but now he’s put on the spot, he’s been called out in front of everyone, and beyond the fact that he probably feels like shit for saying what he said and inadvertently hurting our lady in the process. He’s probably also hella embarrassed. I wonder too if maybe Jungkook is also ashamed that the person who called him out was Namjoon, someone who I want to believe, he respects and perhaps maybe admires a little. And despite the fact that I chuckled a little bit when our lady noticed that Jungkook was “staring at his pancakes like he’s trying to make them burst into flames”, I realized that he might also be both angry and disappointed in himself for his behavior. *sigh* Boy, you were so right all those weeks ago when you said “emotions are messy”. Anyway, that’s my roundabout way of saying, I liked the breakfast scene. Haha! Drama is inevitable; I love that you don’t shy away from presenting conflict for them to overcome. It offers opportunities for character growth and character exploration and I really appreciate that! 

Speaking of character growth, Namjoon got a chance to really flex those skills he acquired from “Hoseok’s School of Sexual Prowess”. That scene left me melting! Melting, I say! I’m not sure if you noticed but I make it a point to not reveal who my actual bias is in these reviews because I feel like I want to give all of the guys a chance to win me over for fan favorite. What I will say though is that you kind of hit on a lot of my personal preferences with Namjoon’s scene. Beyond the fact that the scene was really, really hawt, it fulfilled me on an emotionally intimate level, so it made the scene extra special. Bravo! 

And I suppose Jimin also deserves a standing ovation for that amazing show he put on. Holy smokes that was so hot. From the light banter and quips at the beginning of that scene to Jimin actually owning that entire lounge! And as amazing as the show (plus subsequent private scene with our lady afterwards) was, my favorite bit might be the exchange between Jimin and Hoseok, another scene that filled with tension and new revelations! It might actually be the most fascinating scene because it gave a glimpse at something rather unexpected; something has transpired between Hoseok and Jimin. I might be reading too much into the exchange but it feels as though something has happened away from the cameras between them. Because it feels like there has been a shift from blatant hostility between these two to something more akin to a genuine understanding that this is now a battle for power and control. I could be reaching but I feel like, at the very least, there have been words exchanged between them! It made the scene all the more intriguing! I loved every moment of it. Oh! Speaking of which, what is up with Jin?! When Yoongi asked Jin to speak to Kookie about what had happened that morning, it seemed he was a bit apprehensive to take up the task. I know that there might not be anything more there than just the fact that Jin might not want to be the one to have to broach the subject with Kookie but I feel like there’s more there than what meets the eye as well… my theory is in it’s fetus stage though, so I feel like I’ll hold back on my thoughts concerning Jin for now. And Yoongi, for that matter! I feel like there is something more there as well. AH! Too many theories to juggle! I will let you know what my thoughts are about it once I have gathered more adequate information. 

I still feel guilty for not being able to give you a full length review of Day 11. It really was such a great, light day. Jungkook’s scene left me all hot and bothered to the point where I spent the entirety of the week, searching up Jungkook smut fics to fulfill my Jungkook fix that that chapter evoked in me! Not to mention that the boys getting up to antics for a whiteboard that in the end they didn’t really need just made me all the more baffled by their behavior. It was fun, hilarious and just what I would expect from the guys.

To make up for not having anything for last week, I would like to take the opportunity to tell you about me loving this amazing story so much I nearly force-fed my best friend to read it with me so that I would have someone to fangirl with. Let me tell you a little bit about her. See, she doesn’t consume fanfics with as much verocity as I do. She is a very casual fanfic reader and if she does (which is rare in it of itself) she only ever reads MxM. Period. So when I told her the premises of “The Gentlemen” she was curious enough to read the contestant profiles. But I must say, from Day 1, you had her HOOKED! She would text me screenshots and emoji filled fangirlings in the wee hours of the morning (the only time she had to read at all) every single thing she loved about each chapter and it brings me so much joy that she was really dissecting and appreciating all the little things that I too loved about your story! We would have long, deep discussions about her prompt theories, her favorite members, tiny details that you’ve so expertly woven into the story (like Jimin’s tattoo for example, which is something she is obsessed with, btw) all of her favorite traits that our lady of the house has. It’s been so blissfully fun having this to share with her especially since I have her to thank for getting me into BTS in the first place. So, please know that you have a secret fan of “The Gentlemen” who would like you to know that she has been enjoying herself thoroughly and that she looks forward to your updates just as much as I do now! 

Anyhoo, I think I’ve prattled on long enough. Thank you so much for your continued hard work and dedication to this series! This was such an amazing chapter I cannot wait to see how everything unfolds; it feel as though these last 2 chapters have planted some major seeds (no pun intended!!); I look forward to see what it sows in the coming days. 💜 Jan

Oh my gosh! In all of my ramblings, I forgot to say "shout out to Lady Mango! You go get that stake, girly!" Also, YAY Grandma Park!! Heck, that entire exchange in the bathtub made me uwu so hard my heart is just a pile of mush rn! Also, also!! Jin x Tae is lowkey underrated, so thank you for that! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*✲ﾟ*｡⋆ I lub u so much!! kthnxbye

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i’m not ashamed (okay, maybe a little) to admit that i kinda teared up and did a happy lil dance when i saw the email that you’d sent in a submission fksdjfkds i figured you’d probably been busy with life or with the mountainloads of content bighit is giving us these days so i was content to wait patiently, and it just made it that much more exciting when i saw this come in !

thank you, as always, for being so sweet and articulate and thoughtful in your reviews of the chapters. often you point out things that make so much sense that perhaps i hadn’t even noticed when writing. other times you hit an idea that i’d slipped in right on the nose. 

jungkook definitely is having a pretty tumultuous time on the show. for him, i imagine he feels like he’s the only one having a difficult time ironing out his feelings, or that if anyone else is struggling too, that they’re acting like nothing’s up. i also feel like jungkook’s competitive streak comes through in unexpected ways. of course he feels proud of his sexual prowess and kinda wants to showboat a little bit, but i think there’s an aspect too where he needs to be the one that’s always bolder than the others to assert his position. writing the namkook scene i kind of drew on that feeling where you’re fighting with someone you care about or think highly of, and even as you realise you’re wrong, you don’t want them to think badly of you and so you desperately scramble for a way to come out on top or prove you’re in the right. there’s also def a degree of him trying to convince himself the show is just about sex and that the rest doesn’t matter. he certainly doesn’t feel that way inside, but we see him vouching from that position so fiercely in d12. 

i’m glad you liked the namjoon scene !! one day i’ll figure out your bias fkdsjfksdjk you do such a good job at analysing and discussing everyone equally that it’s difficult >.<

it’s so fascinating to hear your jihope theory that they’ve spoken before. i must keep my silence on the details BUT there will be a very important scene between them coming up in the next few days of the show that i think will really change things between them and also how the readers see them. i’m super excited to write it ! 

beyond that, i’m happy you noticed something about jin in this chapter.... yn and jin still haven’t resolved their issues yet, plus here we are having jin not respond that well to being asked to counsel one of the members, something he always stated he was happy to do,,,,, hmmmm 0.0

i love hearing your theories so much !!! i eagerly await getting new content out so i can see how they shift and change from release to release

and also you really don’t need to feel bad ! there’s never any obligation to write out a long review for every chapter, but you do so anyway and that means a lot to me xx if you’re busy one week you don’t have to force yourself to make time for it. we have over 50 chapters, so we’re in for the long haul ! there’s really no rush

ahhhh that’s so cool to hear about your friend! it always warms my heart hearing stories of people that got their friends to begin reading and stuff, honestly even the thought that people think about tgm outside of reading it blows me away, it feels so special that it’s something y’all wanna share and discuss w your loved ones xx 

YES LADY MANGOOO i love adding little slips of her in the chapters, i know she doesn’t factor into the main story that much but everyone can rest assured that all of the members of the house (okay, and probably our three on-site producers too) spend a lot of time with her, walking her and cuddling her and playing with her. tae is probably currently trying to teach her some commands, but of course the only one she’s got the hang of is lie down jskfjsd

(finally YES taejin is such an underrated duo i love them)

[laminy]

BTS # 18

A couple people actually asked this one, so! I guess people are interested, thank you! and obviously I’ll just answer it once, but I did get the other one!

18. What is a line/scene you’re really proud of? Give us the DVD commentary for that scene.

one of the first scenes that came to my mind was in Chapter 38; right after they celebrate Gwil’s birthday, Ben leaves to go home for the night, and Gwil asks if he can walk him. 

and it’s like, they’re in this very weird space of they both have feelings for each other, they both know they have feelings for each other, but they haven’t really talked about it yet (obviously because they never talked about anything ever lol). and Gwil talks about his family, and asks Ben about his, and it feels like they could be about to slip back into their awkward “both of us have too much angst to function so let’s just shut down” mode, except Gwil brings up Christmas, and then! Ben invites Gwil to spend Christmas with him. which he said so casually, and Gwil accepts so casually, it wasn’t like a big moment of “oh my goddddd we’re going to spend the holidays togetherrrrr” it was just very soft, and sweet, and they were both smiley and happy.

AND THEN. they get to Ben’s flat, and they say goodnight. and how many times have these two said goodnight or goodbye without anything happening before? too many to count. and it could happen again! there’s so much tension really, and Ben’s got his key in the lock and he could just say bye, but then he turns around like, “Gwil? just a question, thanks. when we were in London together, we said goodnight and you waited outside my door, didn’t you?”

and Gwil’s like, oh my goddddd he knew he knew, I wasn’t subtle at all! and he’s just like, “oh yes, I uh, yes I think so, quite.” Like a little blushy, and then Ben teases him a bit! which Ben doesn’t always do with a lot of people, and certainly not with Gwil, so now we see that he’s a bit more comfortable with Gwil, because he’s like, “did you think we were going to have sex?”

and Gwil’s like OH NO UH NO OF COURSE NOT just a kiss, I just wanted a kiss (which he eventually got so good for him go Gwil).

BUT BEN! Ben who has always been shy; for so much of the story he’s only comfortable with Joe, and it took him awhile to warm up even to Rami who’s a sweetheart, and he’s consistently felt like every time he’s reached out to Gwil, he’s been rebuffed. they take two steps forward, a million back. and also up until this point, Ben hasn’t been very forward at all. he was too nervous to ask Gwil to dance. their first kiss, Gwil initiated it. them sleeping together, Gwil initiated it. that Ben, who is probably scared to death and it’s been so long since he’s felt comfortable putting himself out there and he still isn’t, not really; that Ben who is so in his head and quiet and scared and ashamed, he’s the one who comes at Gwil with a:

“Are you going to wait outside my door tonight as well, then?” he asks. “Or should I just kiss you now to save you the trouble?”

BECAUSE BEN WANTS TO KISS HIM. Ben wants to kiss Gwil, and he’s done hiding it, he’s done lying about it, he loves him, and he wants to be kissed by him every day for the rest of his life, and he doesn’t even know yet that that’s going to happen. he could kiss him and Gwil could still turn away and say he’s not ready, or he can’t, or he doesn’t want to, but Ben is just thinking, for right now, in this moment, I am going to say what I want, and it’s going to be great. imagine how much effort that would have taken him! to find that in himself.

and then! Gwil just sort of stands there like, uh...okay? AND BEN KISSES HIM! he doesn’t wait for Gwil to make a move, he makes the move. and this is not just a kiss. Ben doesn’t just give him a light peck and go home. he kisses him and then he kisses him, he grabs onto Gwil’s scarf and pulls him in and holds him close and he doesn’t want to let him go.

BUT IT GETS BETTER! because Ben pulls back, and normally, gosh, this Ben, he’d be like, “oh oh my god, I’m so sorry, that was so forward of me, uh that was terrible” and he’d be so regretful and worried and have to go into his apartment and pace around about how much he fucked up, that Ben is gone. at least for right now. this Ben flirts with Gwil, kisses him, and pulls back with a smile and a giggle like, yeah, I just kissed the fucking love of my life and it was amazing. and then he has the audacity to just be like, “okay bye goodnight! happy birthday, fyi, I am the gift! see ya!”

and Gwil’s just left standing there like...holy shit, ha. well, okay! literally speechless but also Ben gave him no time to talk, so then he just leaves.

what I actually find interesting now looking back at it are their reactions. because the next time we see them, Ben, Joe, and Rami are all hanging out together, Gwil’s not there. and Rami knows. and Ben knows Rami knows because Rami’s like, “oh, Gwil and I went to lunch, it was so lovely, do you two want to be alone wink wink” which means that Ben just made a move, a really big move for him, and then did nothing! he kept it all inside, he didn’t even tell Joe. and he would have been so excited and happy and like “I KISSED GWIL!” and then he and Joe went to work together the entire next day and Ben didn’t mention a thing, and Joe didn’t pick up on anything at all because as happy as he is, Ben also wants to keep it to himself. and then when Rami brings it up, Ben’s like “whatever it was just a kiss” BUT IT WASN’T! he was so lying! Ben’s just so used to everything he and Gwil do being this huge group gossip session that he wants to just keep it inside and not say a word (but also, if nothing happens between the two of them, Ben can just pretend he didn’t do anything at all and everything’s fine) while it’s all just bubbling up inside him. maybe because he’s still a bit in shock too, that he even did it! maybe he can’t believe it.

whereas Rami and Gwil go to lunch together and Gwil spills the beans iMMEDIATELY like, deep breath “oKAY!” and Rami just listens like oH MY GOD. like Rami was so in his glory just listening to this story and Gwil was just like “what does it mean, what do you think it means?” and they clearly make this plan where Gwil will show up late because he has to go get flowers and Rami just goes home to Ben and Joe like “oh I had a nice day I know nothing how are you?” and Ben and Joe are like yeah, we’re great, and Rami’s just like, excitedly wiggling wondering how he can bring this up and when Gwil will appear, and Ben’s like, unable to stop thinking about what he’s done and where is Gwil, oh my god he’s run off, and Joe is oblivious to the entire fucking thing.