#all these stories. fuck. i feel like. a kid again n it's. smth i've missed lately. it soothes me so much n comforts my heart n soul n mind

[noxtivagus]

DEATH UNTO DAWN ON SPOTIFY 🥹🫶🏼

[bonesandthebees]

SD ANON BUT I AM 20 NOW! what the fuck ! what the fuck ! i still feel 18! but i am going to the tide pools for my birthday with two friends who are in town! tragic thing about being in college is that your spring break either doesn’t align w high school friends’ or your college friends go to their homes BUT some of my hs friends came back early so i am excited and also like. existentially terrified a bit about my early 20s.

ANYWAYS a ton of things have happened since last time i responded!! i kept meaning to and then another Thing would happen so. car crash poem went over very well my established poet prof was like. i thought you were an english major. and also said she would waive any prereqs for me if i wanted to take her advanced poetry class which !! requires a manuscript acceptance usually!!

soba stir fry was excellent i put in a little too much chili sesame oil but once i got used to the spicy it was fantastic

well see my roommate is 19 and he is now 24. but whatever! she is an adult. the big news is that my other roommates have broken up in a Big Thing that was like. not just a dating thing also a roommate boundary thing. and it is not my roommate’s fault at all. it’s such a long story but basically the other one literally won’t acknowledge she did smth wrong/apologize to my roommate/apologize to me/have a conversation instead of running away every weekend

so. she is finding a way to get out of her lease. good riddance imo she was Something.

also yes!! dishes + stream or dishes + chuckle sandwich is my go to. now that my college doesn’t do gym reservations anymore gym is also where i catch up on vods and videos! have to hide phone screen when people walk past but i am unlearning that

arc 2 arc 2 arc 2 i love your writing and i’m always excited to see where it goes!

lyft. painful. uber is cheaper sometimes but like, i went to two concerts in feb and for one i had to ask someone to drive bc the lyft was a whole 70$ for 20 minutes

also yes! the dead kelp smell i miss it i can’t wait to be near the ocean again like it’s still cold n stuff outside but!! ocean!! i wish i could get an ocean scented candle but like a Real One

agnes hit me so hard every time and it’s so so so good man i just love glass animals ! i have heard heat waves everywhere at this point and it hasn’t gotten old but sometimes you are standing in a sally’s beauty supply thinking about how you know far too many things about why this song is playing.

i missed these conversations! work somehow just has a habit of sneaking up and drowning you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SD ANON!!! hope you have fun at the tide pools, they're so cool! and yeah spring break never aligns istg, I don't have spring break till next week (and I have finals rn I'm suffering)

YOOO that's so cool your prof will let you into the advanced poetry class! so awesome that she liked your poem!

oh god every time i use chili oil i end up putting too much and then i suffer but god soba stir fry with chili oil sounds so good rn im so hungry

that's a lot of roommate drama goddamn. at least the one roommate is looking to move out so you guys aren't all stuck in a very awkward situation! roommate fights are terrible especially when the other person refuses to try and work it out

lmao i still hide my phone when i'm watching streams at my favorite coffee shop. like no thanks don't need anyone to know i'm using my free time to watch a 17 year old british kid play minecraft

SEVENTY??? JESUS CHRIST tbf I guess gas is like. insane rn. but holy shit that's so much

god same i love heat waves as a song because it's a bop but it always makes me think of That and i'm like why...

and ty i'm excited for arc 2 too!! we're finally a bit into it and i'm just like yesss the entire reason i wrote this fic aaaa

i've missed our conversations too but i totally get the busy thing, I gotta go study for finals now OOPS

[fineillsignup]

I've read some of your posts about the ending. They are sharp and insightful. But then I read that you are NH shipper and I get this cognitive dissonance. Do you like their aesthetic or smth?You see, maybe I am unlucky like that, but all NH fans I met were superficial, inarticulate and delusional. They adore canon-Hinata and the way their ship was handled. In my dictionary this cannot go hand in hand with high intelligence and reading comprehension. So I'm interested, in what way are you proNH?

Ahahahaha thanks Anon, I think.

Well here’s the TL;DR version of “why are you a NaruHina shipper?”: because I just love seeing these crazy kids kiss.

God bless.

And you know that’s genuinely all you need! As long as I still like writing stories and looking at fanart of Naruto and Hinata sitting in a tree K I S S I N G, I’m gonna call myself a NaruHina shipper and nobody can stop me, not the fandom, not Kishimoto, not Studio Pierrot, NOBODY.

Now it isn’t just the aesthetic (although the aesthetic is A++++ would ship again for my tastes). Basically I really like the build-up for NaruHina through 699.

All of the below reasons are ~subjective subjective subjective~ aka I don’t want to argue about them. Also a lot of these are more Hinata defense than NaruHina defense per se.

1. I love the plot line of “person is looking for love everywhere in showy and impressive ways/places, and misses person who would want to give that love because they’re quiet/shy/strange.”

2. I really like Hinata as a contrast/foil to other characters. The heir who doesn’t want to be heir, the superhero who doesn’t want to be a superhero; in a story full of people who want power power power, it’s refreshing to have someone who could have superduper ninja skills but would rather sit at home and knit a scarf. I like it!

3. In particular, Hinata could have been a really interesting contrast to Sakura, they could have been great foils: everybody expects everything, but she doesn’t want to be what they expect vs. nobody expects anything, but she wants to be what they don’t expect.

4. I love “NaruHina as a genderflipped (and abusively-parented/non-parented) Mina//Kushi” as a trope sooooo fucking much. Especially because they went on and on with the whole “find a girl like your mother” thing as Naruto is sooooo much more like Kushina than Minato. Where the fuck was my “wait a minute, I don’t need to find someone like my mom, I need to find someone like my DAD” moment?! I LIVE FOR THAT SHIT.

5. I feel that Hinata’s character development was to a large extent a victim of her character’s popularity. Basically if a character is super popular as they are, it lessens the motivation for the creators to develop her more. I think this is a big reason why Studio Pierrot made her character stagnate in the Blank Period and start The Last with basically nothing having changed since the end of the Fourth War. 

6. I like the NaruHina fanon. In particular there’s some super rad doujinshi out of Japan for this pairing. I acknowledge that some of it is definitely incompatible with canon, but it’s a lot easier to make happy family canon-esque NaruHina than… uh… certain… certain other pairings. (I said nothing!)

7. Hinata wasn’t there for Naruto as a kid even though she noticed his suffering!!! Well, no shit. I like my female characters like I like my male characters: with past mistakes that they are permitted to grow up and move on from. *sips tea* would you like some, it’s piping hot

I don’t like the ending for reasons that don’t have to do with shipping, but honestly, NaruHina in the canon ending isn’t horrible. The Last makes their relationship stagnate and then rush, and involves aliens again, so that part is dumb, but ehhhh it’s not terrible? Also I like Naruto with short hair, I understand that this calls my taste into serious question.

I would have preferred something more like this:

Everybody: Yay the Fourth War Is Over YayHinata: Um… N-naruto-kun… w-would you like to go on a date?Naruto: Holy shit, holy shit, holy SHIT so when you said you LOVED me you meant you LOVED me?Hinata: Y-yes?Naruto: Holy shit -ttebayo.Hinata *sweating bullets*: S-so… is that a no, or…?Naruto: Uh… sure. Yeah. Let’s go on a date! How do you feel about ramen?Sakura *off-camera*: SAY YOU HATE ITHinata: Uh… it’s okay…?Sakura: NOOOOOO! YOU FOOL! YOU FOOL!Neji: Just… just let them figure it out, Sakura-san.Sakura: Neji-san?! What are you doing here?Neji: What? I was just taking a nap. Why do you look like you’ve seen a ghost?

And then Naruto and Hinata like… date? For a couple of years. Without aliens being involved at any time.

Also as long as I’m reordering the Naruto ending to my own personal preferences I would like Hinata to quit being a ninja as soon as the downturn in missions mean she doesn’t need to and for her to start her own OOAK knitwear shop on whatever the ninja world equivalent of Etsy would be.