#also im so sorry. i hate to say it. but i couldnt even finish s2.....

[munadyke]

hmmmm!

[yamatologistt]

im like, what, 10 years late to the whole walking dead game thing but i was way too young back then to understand the game. i hope people still enjoy it, its a really good game (and sad) but im only up to season 3 right now (i only really liked s1 and s2) but im not finished so i cant really make decisions rn

i just want to talk about ben rn and evaluate him cause im rewatching it and now that hes my favourite i notice more things about him now. (i literally look at him everytime hes in frame even if its just showing the back of his head oml)

but anyway i see a lot of ben hate and sure i get it but i dont at the same time ben is so silly how can u hate him

- to start, when we first met ben in the woods, he’d already been through some stuff, like he saw his classmate off herself and turn into a walker, his camp got raided and he was left with 1 friend and his teacher (who both still die btw) so most of what he had left before the apocalypse was gone

- when lee is rationing out the food, if he gives ben food first, kenny comes and tells lee that there’s kids that need food too, and ben literally is like ‘sorry i didnt want any trouble’ like cmon, and he’s literally a kid too he deserves the food as much as anyone else

- on the train he is interested in the controls and being up there, so we can see that he generally enjoyed it. but once lee gets the engine going, kenny comes and ben immediately has to go babysit katjaa clem and duck (he is also visibly upset) AND THEN later on lee asks how ben was doing and he says ‘im watching the girls and not working on a mega cool train’ (let him on the train immediately 😠😠)

- ok, so maybe he did sneak supplies to the bandits and i think this is just me being biased but i feel like him giving the supplies held off the bandits a little. i mean think about it, they moved on from the st john’s farm and started taking from the motel, right? im not sure how the bandits asked ben (if they made it clear then i forgot) but if he refused wouldnt the bandits come attack even earlier? i mean they needed the supplies right, and if ben didnt give them anything to begin with they would have raided the motel anyway. i mean they knew where they were even before the st john incident. idk its just a thought

- i think it was cool how ben managed to confess to lee that he was the one who slipped the bandits supplies. like you can tell ben is a good guy cause the guilt was almost literally eating him from the inside. and even though ben isnt one of the bravest people, he still confessed knowing that lee’s reaction wouldnt be pretty. (also his stance when leaning on the train railing was so silly to me)

- after they meet christa and omid, ben tells lee that his biggest fear was to be eaten by the walkers. i mean he literally said that if he got bitten he would off himself 😢😢

- also ben was always referred to as a child but he was never treated like one, everyone excpected him to be brave and strong but in reality he was just some scrawny highschool student who was scared and couldnt live up to his impossible standards. man, i really just wanna give ben a big hug

- if you tell ben to “kill anything that gets in” he responds with “you know you’re talking to me, right?” poor ben

- even though his biggest fear is getting eaten by walkers, you still have the option to leave him behind, and let him go at the bell tower. i mean how could u do this to him hes already gone through enough

- lastly, the part where ben tells off kenny is literally iconic, that scene singlehandedly made ben one of my favourite characters of all time, i was like everyone else, i didnt care about ben because i thought he was a bad guy since i never really payed attention to him. but i swear when he was telling kenny off it felt like i was being told off too. i mean his point was valid too, kenny had his family to say goodbye to, and ben (and literally everyone else) never got to see their family, (or they saw them as walkers, lee and clem,, :( )

- i know the last point was meant to be the last one but cmon its ben i could type this for ages longer but yeah. he had the literal best character development in the game. at first he was some stupid kid who was always messing up and before he died he was an amazing character who deserved literally everything. omg i cried so hard when he died cause when he fell i was like, oh i think its ok the fall wasnt too far and he said he only hurt his leg, but bro once we saw what really happened my heart sank bro it was so sad i really hoped nothing bad happened to him ☹️☹️ but i think kenny did the right thing cause like we said, his worst fear was the walkers getting to him. gosh i feel like i watched his death for the first time ages ago and i still cant stop thinking about him man

anyways, i would literally do anything to give ben a massive hug, he did his best and he was literally so funny too :((

(thanks if u read this far btw, i just wanted to rant about this man i love him so much and i will defend him with my life) 😠‼️

[hea1ingprocess]

2020 is ending and i STILL haven't finished inuyasha and sergeant keroro, both of which i started in the first half of 2019 lol...in all honesty im 99% going to drop the latter bc altho the first few episodes were ok, im pretty tired of natsumi being s*xualised (does that make sense? every scene with her almost or actually taking her top off makes me go yeesh) inuyasha is also getting pretty boring but i was digging around people's comments and i guess i just need to push thru the filler episodes. other anime i've finished watching/ picked up recently:

- kimetsu no yaiba: set the bar pretty high...it's been a long time since i bothered to read a manga AND watch the anime. i actually wished it had gone on for longer. v likeable characters and even the ones who weren't had an interesting backstory. i am a bit of an anime snob i think but for liek stupid things like the animation, and i thought the animation for this was really good. i still think about it and im waiting for the infinity train movie to be released on blu ray or wtv

- jujutsu kaisen: i started this at around the same time as kny but i didn't like it as much. the story was interesting at first but i don't really like the characters they feel a little flat to me for some reason...i also tried picking up the manga but had to stop because i got really confused (the character gojo scares me...unpopular opinion but i don't like him) my fav character is that boy who can only speak in rice ball ingredients (forgot his name) and the talking panda

- fire force: another confusing one lol this one i liked a little better than jjk but the plot was too much for me!!! also i couldnt take one of the characters seriously bc their voice actor did zapp renfro's voice in kekkai sensen and he was a truly outrageous character

- bungou stray dogs s3: in general, this is a series i just couldn't get with...i enjoyed the beginning of the first season and then just stopped for no reason, decided to start again with season 2 and did not enjoy it, and likewise did not enjoy season 3. am i picking the wrong episodes to watch? bc i felt like there was too much talking, too much conspiracy, not enough action

- the millionaire detective balance: unlimited: it was on youtube, i stopped after one episode. i think i just hated how rich the main character was 🤷🏻‍♀️

- one punch man s2: it was ok. getting philosophical here but i guess my tastes hv changed bc i've changed lol but i LOVED the first season of opm when it first came out. i watched the first 5 episodes of s2, might continue it next week

- wotakoi: love is hard for an otaku: i saw a clip from the live action movie and some from the anime but watched neither in its entirety. instead, i read the manga which was cool. i think it's meant to be slice of life so its not too romance-focused. sorry can't think of what to say abt this bc im still thinking about kimetsu no yaiba

- the apothecary diaries: not an anime but my brother (of all ppl) recommended it to me...it was interesting i like mysteries i guess (explains why i still watch detective conan) very humorous and light-hearted for the most part. love the main character!!! a solid 4/5

i guess it's good that my current run with anime has been so disappointing...means i can refocus my energy into not getting laid off or f*red :-( it's 1:32am i really spent half an hour playing anime critic bc i couldn't fall asleep lol

[uniformbravo]

i have too many thoughts bouncing around in my head so uhhhh im gonna talk abt shit

welcome 2 episode 43647 of my shitty slice-of-life text post series

school tomorrow i dont wanna go!!!!! !!!!!!!!!! depressions been hitting me tf up like some kind of MotherFucker n im so tired i h8 both of my classes i just want 2 lie down & turn into the floor -______________-

read 12 chapters of fma yesterday its good............. i dont love it yet but im definitely entertained so far & looking forward to getting further into it

also started reading silver spoon & it turns out the things i hated in the 1st ep of the anime didnt even happen in the manga who fuckin knew (im sorry i doubted u arakawa) so im actually enjoying the series a lot more this second time around! though that’s probably partly because i got rly attached to the protag halfway through s2 & now i get to dig out all the little signs of his low sense of self-worth on the reread so like. im having fun lol (watching him react to being told about livestock being offed for under-performing just the smallest bit again is..... so good.......)

watched all of aggretsuko today, like the original 100 shorts & the new series, it was p good! i honestly never planned to watch it bc like. i hate death metal / screaming bc it gives me anxiety & i knew this show would aggravate that but idk i heard good things about it from literally everywhere so i was like w/e im in the mood today i’ll just try it out & i blasted through it and enjoyed it v much

i think i like the shorts better than the show but that might be bc i watched the shorts first & got used to their rhythm? but at the same time i feel like the concept generally works better as little 1-minute tidbits. the show is a bit awkward sometimes in comparison but it’s a v good adaption regardless. it was interesting to see the concept executed 2 different ways at least. v fun show!

mmmmm still working on my silan portrait kind of!! i took a break for 2 days because 1. depression and 2. i was a fucking fool and played a Lot of piano on thursday so that put me out of physical commission for 2 days (honestly i was still feeling it today but i rly wanted to get back to work before it started to fade into yet another unfinished project). so yeah i got back to work on it today, and made some decent progress i think!

i mentioned in my other post that im working in clip studio paint, a program im not used to painting in, and i’ve definitely been struggling trying to get used to all these weird brushes but i think im slowly coming to an understanding and finding a technique that works for me? there’s an “oil paint” brush that’s good for blending & previously i was trying to use only that, since in photoshop i never switched to other brushes, i only used the one (hard round). the oil paint brush being a blending brush though, it’s basically impossible to lay down any new color on top of the old ones because the new color automatically blends with the old ones instead of coming out pure, so as a result all of my shading was coming out super soft and light which is not the effect i’m going for

so i found that using a different brush to lay down color first and then going in with the oil to blend made a huge difference & i was finally able to get in the darker shadows i wanted, but there was still the problem of details because like. the oil brush blends rly soft and it makes everything look kind of fuzzy, and it’s especially hard to deal with small areas for details

so today i started experimenting with a “watercolor” brush, which is basically just a normal brush with low opacity, and i’ve found it’s a good kind of middle ground between blending and carving in details, so that gave me a lot more control and is probably the closest i’ve gotten to my old painting style when i was working in photoshop

this whole process has just been rly confusing & im sure there are easier ways to go about this but i know i’ll get the hang of it eventually & get some good use out of this program, & it’s good to experiment with new tools i guess so?? it’s all good?? i’ll be honest im getting tired & this topic is kind of getting away from me uhhhh in conclusion im still working on the thing & i dont know when i’ll be done but i’m gonna fuckin. Keep at it

back to aggretsuko for a sec, something i rly noticed was the ost is?? really good????? i wanted to listen to it while i drew but i couldnt find it on yt & that’s like the extent of my music search capabilities on the internet so im p sad abt that bc that was like my fave part of the show rip

instead i listened to houseki no kuni’s ost which is fuckin beautiful ugh i finished that show a few weeks ago & it was very very gorgeous, like. weird and disjointed and a little tangential but fuck if it’s not put together in such an artful way that i can forgive all of that like what a way to create an atmosphere what a way to adapt a fuckin manga?? i tried reading the manga a bit bc lets be honest that anime ending was super unsatisfying but it just?? wasnt the same??? theres something abt the show being a 3d show and having the music to accompany its visuals & the way they did the lunarians especially holy fuck, it’s a completely different experience watching the show vs reading the manga & now im sad bc i want a s2 rly rly bad,,,;;;

anyway i didnt mean to talk abt hnk so much lol uh. i ended up listening to the op a thousand times bc god when i say the music for this show is rly good i mean it, both the op & ed are fuckin great (speaking of the ed that gorgeous animation holy shit,) along with its super atmospheric bgm just. god

as a reward for anyone who read through all this shit lmao here listen to hnk’s op it’s super good i promise

also watch the ed lmfao trust me it was a gift benevolently bestowed upon my eyeballs and now so too shall it be upon thine

anyway im fuckin tired & i think that’s all i wanted to say so like. peace

[missjackil]

I Love Season 8 But...

I hate the Amelia storyline. I watch it because Sam looks amazing in the flash backs, but I cant ever buy that relationship. Im among the people who find Sam terribly OOC during the first several episodes, and Im glad Jared found him OOC too, then I know Im not just being critical, but like Jared, I am willing to accept that the whole mess at the beginning, was to bring a great impact to the end of the season,  Sam’s emotional break down in the church wouldnt have been so powerful if all this mess at the beginning of the season didnt happen, and I do enjoy the obvious jealousy both brothers portrayed throughout the first half of the season.  Where my problem really is, is that Sam’s relationship with Ameila is unbelievable. Not because he had a relationship with a woman, but because she treated him like crap, and he still “fell in love”. For one thing, no vet in the world is gonna bully someone into keeping a dog, period, not to mention a person telling them they spend too much time on the road and don’t have time to take care of a dog.  Also, the level of Amelia’s dislike for Sam was uncalled for.. She said “If youre such an upstanding citizen, why did you hit him in the first place?” Seriously? Do professional Veteranarians say this to people who are overcome with grief that they accidently hit an animal and rushed it to the office covered in its blood? Next, we have her “creeped” out by him. You can say a lot of things about Sam Winchester, but “creepy” doesnt apply. She insults how he dresses, accuses him of being a white supremists or drifting serial killer (ok she might have something with the latter) so why is he even talking to her? There’s no monster after her, and he’s not flirty or horney in general. He owes her nothing, and he’s certainly never pushed himself on to a woman ever. And then once they’re together and “in love” there is no chemistry whatsoever. Jared is a great actor, and yet, he couldnt sell this relationship to me. Though, I can buy that she was a Dean substitute. I can believe that he missed Dean and she was a stand in, or an outlet, but he didn’t love her.  What else I dont buy from the beginning of S8 is that Sam would make some effort to find Dean especially since there was no body left behind. Sam wouldnt have just looked around, seeing no human blood or Dean’s body and say “uhoh, he dead” and move on. Everything they had been through up till then, even if Sam didnt realize Dean was in Purgatory (which he would have probably, because thats where Dick would go) or didnt intend on bringining him back, since Bobby had just told them in the S7 finale “when its your time... go” Sam would have made effort to see if Dean was alive or not. He could have used a Ouiga board ike he did in S2. And then if you want me to believe that Sam went nuts and was overcome with grief, then I would believe it.  I also dont buy how Sam was still eager to get away from Dean once he was back. Yes, Dean was harsh on him, but not the whole time. Much of those first few episodes, Dean was normal to him. He even said “I know where Im at my best, thats driving down crazy street with you” and Sam then tells him once they’re finished, he’s gone? Like... seriously? Theyve had worse friction between them before and still stayed together, and Im supposed to believe that NOW Sam wants to bow out? Didnt he just accept all the memories from Hell and being soulless because he cant leave his brother alone out there?  Once Sam starts the Trials, he tells Dean that he’s sorry Dean doesnt see light at the end of the tunnel, but he does, and if he comes with him, he’ll take him to it. THAT I believe! I can believe Sam wanted out of the life and go back to law and have a normal life, but I cant believe he wouldnt beg Dean to come with him, especially when he just got him back. Ive read a ton of meta about this subject and I can see some points, but its really as though the writers had no idea about Sam’s character and wrote a story for the first half that didnt fit him at all.