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tears-of-boredom · 2 years

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I don't want to have a girlfriend because the examples or such relationships I've seen growing up always seemed kind of shallow. It never seemed like the couples actually shared their worries with each other. Always seemed like the significant other was a person you'd just kiss and cuddle from time to time. And it always seemed like only when you were "officially" someone's partner, that that's when the shallowness started. Seemed like the partner was just somebody you'd sometimes bring around your group of friends and kiss them on the cheek. I don't get the idea behind dating. So many people have said that they get into relationships before they even love the person. I don't understand the societal rules around relationships.

#see things like this make me want to adk if its my autism. but also like. im right about this..#i see society and i hate that thing immideatly..#have you noticed that i hate labels? cause language is a social construct and can never convey all the feelings behind something..#and you know im not talking about calling chairs chairs..#idk i feel like the reason i was convinced that i was the equivelant of aromantic when i was younger.#because i didnt see myself loving the way people in media did..#rn my definition of love is basically codependency. which i atleast acknowledge..#also everyone convinced me that you automatically love all your family members. which is not true..#if i could press a button to save any of my family members. or push a button to let them die. i dont think id be able to save them..#less people in the household means cheaper living. im not that attached to these hoes anyways..#thoughts #whenever i write with a british accent i feel the need to make a ''sorry for my bad grammar english is my second language'' joke..#and yes writing in a british accent is a thing.. im writing what im thinking and my thoughts are currently in brittish..#dw they go back to american when i listen to an american talk for some time..#i dont know if thats a non-native english speaker thing..#although speaking is a whole nother world.. its horrible how my mouth just cant pronounce some things..#fucking ''through'' ..#i tried tjinking of other words. dw the hard ones will come to me when i cant remeber the finnish word for them..

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