#amthinbutnotthinenough

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I have nothing going on

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i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry i’m hungry

no i’m not eating

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It’s becoming a habit when I’m bored. I quit coffee because I developed gastritis. So I got back smoking cigarettes. Yep. One vice at a time

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Because nothing else feels good

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I’m weird when I selfie. One day down. I’m planning a 3 day fast.

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I’m not even hungry. It’s really smoking. It’s bad. But it’s working. I’m an adult so so I guess I’m okay.

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Stairs are usually empty. Because only thin pipz use them

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Or maybe my life is a mess because my room is a mess

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This is lame. I can’t do 3 days. I end up buying junks and now I feel full and sick. I guess I have to decide my limit. If I don’t want to binge, then I gotta eat after 2 days of fasting. It’s all in my mind. I know. But I have to establish rules. It’s easier when there are rules and conditions I can follow

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I’ll do better come November. I’ll manage my meals. Homemade only. I’ll religiously go morning run. I’ll weigh myself everyday And I’ll quit smoking for real

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I said I quit smoking. Guess I’m back

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Ugly feet. I gained 3 kilograms in 3 fucking days. I ate so much that I feel sick and every time I see food I feel nauseous. I hate food I hate eating. Fuck socializing

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I’m smoking. The fucking daylight. Because I’m so full I feel so sick. And my pride I won’t end up bulimic. I’m sick I’m sick I’m sick

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Two days!! One more day. I’m doing great!! I have weak stomach aka gastritis so I can’t drink coffee or tea or energy drinks which means I’m all water!! Smoking also really makes me super thirsty. Only calories I’m taking are from these vitamins. I’m taking B complex, vitamin c, and iron. I’m proud. But the challenge is not over yet

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For the first time I get to be alone in the smoking area. I’m no public smoker. Smoking with strangers. I don’t mind. But it’s when you can just smoke in peace.

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So we’re back to this. Snap that rubber band when you feel like eating. And also updated Lock Screen and Home Screen to say no to flavored beverages. Because your body would just crave more sugar. I’m clean. No smoking and no coffee for weeks. Trying this actual herbal stuff