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Please share more about headcanons or any other thoughts you have related to Eddieās dog tags :)
Hi šŖ!!!
So here are the three that I've already sent to @malewifediaz: Buck and Chris wearing Eddie's dog tags after he's gone missing and is presumed dead, Buck railing Eddie into the mattress and the dog tags hanging there between them/Eddie's hand coming up to Buck's chest, and he feels the tags underneath Buck's shirt and the one that I'm turning into my first Christmas Fic mistake identity- Buck is wearing Eddieās tags when he gets hurt
But I have sooooooo many thoughts- it all started because Amanda wrote a fic iāll bandage up your body and your bones and your bad days too and in it Buck's wearing Eddie's dog tags:
Buck, whoās halfway through a 24. Buck, who has Eddieās dogtags around his neck and tucked beneath his uniform shirt.Ā
And I haven't stopped thinking about it since and if I can get Buck wearing Eddie's dog tags in all of my fics I will. Here are a few thoughts that have been bouncing around my head since then:
Eddie and Shannon don't get married when she gets pregnant, Eddie still runs away to the army to "support his child" between tours one and two, Eddie comes home to El Paso and has a hard time adjusting, Chris doesn't know him, his family is hard on him, he gets on well enough with Shannon though she still is like I need a partner. Anyway, he meets Buck who's in his ranch hand era, they have a steamy whirlwind romance and when Eddie goes back to Afghanistan he gives Buck his dog tags. Buck moves on to LA - because he thinks it's over with Eddie (which is kinda is as they leave it on a bad note). Eddie gets injured and discharged and when he gets back to El Paso is hurt to find Buck's left. He and Shannon move to LA to co-parent and help Shannon's mother, Eddie joins the LAFD and runs into Buck - who is still wearing his dog tags- which's revealed later at the angstiest time. - this one would be super long so I'm not going to be writing it anytime soon- if I ever do but I do think its juicy.
Young Buck and Eddie (kinda similar to above) where they're both broke so instead of proposing with a ring, Eddie uses his dog tags- instead.
Historical Buddie- Buck and Eddie meet during WW2 and fall in love, they exchange dog tags before they get separated. They both return to their lives afterwards- no way to find each other- a few years pass and they run into each other- they're still wearing each others tags.
Eddie has a lot of complicated thoughts about his tours and his tags, one day he's going through the box he keeps in his closet, its got his silver star and dog tags and some photos of his friends. Buck finds him siting on his bed with the stuff. Buck shows some interest in the tags and Eddie suggest that he wears them. Buck puts them on and Eddie loves it, loves having his name on Buck-basically its a possessive Eddie fic
Established Buddie, Buck wears Eddie's dog tags at work and it's five times Eddie sees his tags on Buck and it turns him on/he loves it and one time he shows Buck how much he likes it kinda thing- Like they're at a call and the tags slip out from Buck's shirt and someone has been flirting with Buck so Eddie goes over to him and tucks them back in and basically stakes his claim.
I'm just obsessed so thanks for letting me ramble about this!
Mwah <3<3<3
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apologies as always for how incoherent I get when talking about mileven lmao but Iām having thoughts about them again and how important mike is to el, and how consistently there for her he is, and how that plays into st4 vol 2 especially.
as soon as mike meets her, heās listening to her. he doesnāt tell her itās weird when she says no to closing the door, he finds an in between and asks her if itās okay with her before walking away. he spends 353 days listening for her, and reminding her that heās there for her whenever sheās ready. he listens in s3 and thinks over what she said, and even in the midst of all this when sheās hurting or in trouble he shows up for her and defends her against flayed billy and holds her when itās over and sheās exhausted, then apologizes and encourages her to be her own person and pursue what makes her happy, while making clear that he wants to be there with her when she does. he pays attention, and he remembers what happened when el turned herself to dust to save them all in s1 so he stands up for her in s3 when she wonāt stand up for herself bc no one else there (except lucas, who also comes through for el in a big way) understands what el has been through and how far sheāll push herself for others bc she feels like itās all on her. mike again is there for her in s4, crossing half the country to prove that heāll always be there for her.
and to me thatās the crux of his speech to her. elās series-long arc, to me, is about guilt and feeling solely responsible and alone. so itās so powerful to me that she tells brenner heās at fault, not her, and at the end of that she has mike right there, who led a multi-day, endless search across the desert for her, showing her sheās never doing anything alone anymore. but, naturally, when faced with the stress of seeing max being hurt, she slips back into the guilt and gets incredibly overwhelmed (especially bc she has henry constantly blaming her), so what helps her get through is mike. and to me itās not even really about the āI love you,ā to me itās about the āIām right hereā and the āi canāt lose youā and āI need you to fight.ā thatās what itās always been about. when el is faced with all this pressure and is falling back into that place where she thinks itās all on her, when sheās feeling powerless and alone and immense guilt, mike is there to say āthis is not all on you, Iām right here, Iām always gonna be right here, youāre never alone in doing this anymore.ā and to me, thatās what that scene is all about. he says I canāt fight this the way you can but Iām here for you and I always will be. please come back to me. and she does! she always comes back to him like he always comes back to her š
thereās a beautiful childrenās book I love about grief, and in it one of the characters has a huge block she has to drag around, and her new friend comes up to her and asks her to hang out, and she says āmaybe tomorrow?ā bc she doesnāt feel she can move the block or let go of it. and over the course of the book, the new friend keeps coming back, and listens, and helps the grieving character pull the block until she can talk about her grief, and the block gets smaller. it doesnāt go away, and itās still hers, but her new friend helps her with it and stays with her and it gets smaller. and it just makes me cry all the time bc likeā¦thatās what love is!!!!
and thatās what mike does for el. el has gone through so much terrible shit, but mike is always there to listen to her and help her carry it. he never stops waiting for her, he never stops writing to her, he never stops looking for her, heās always there at the end of each season to listen to her.
and we hear from mike that el still thinks itās all her fault, but she told mike she feels that way!! that is a huge step!! even if she does still feel solely responsible at this incredibly low point, she knows that she can share that feeling with mike. a part of her knows sheās not alone even in the moments she feels most alone bc mike always shows up for her and listens to her. when visiting max in the hospital, el leans on mike. even in her darkest moments of isolation and guilt, she knows instinctively that she can lean on mike.
and thatās where their relationship is for me. in every single time they say to each other, āIām here.ā
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You know this is interesting.. my friend knows Iām sick right & she knows I cut my old friend off right & like she was like Iām probably sick because Iām going through withdrawals from her & the thing is Iāve cut her off before but this is actually the end for us & my soul actually feels it so itās like.. yeah suffering rn lol. Maybe in a few years weāll bump into each other. Maybe not. It just makes me sad that I wonāt see her baby grow up. It doesnāt feel nice to see the baby randomly grown up. I wanna be there though it all but I meanā¦ I canāt stay friends w her for a kid. But hmmm thatās interesting. I asked my tik tok tarot cards & they are saying the same thing. Keep in mind that I never get sick like ever. I was thinking itās cus Iām so used to the cold that Iām getting sick cus itās hot over here like the change in temperatures is hard to adjust to. Iāve been taking medicine & itās not working. The ones Iām taking anyways. I wonder if itās cus as I said itās a soul thing & medicine canāt take that away like I have to wait this out. Also I think this is a test, me being sick cus this morning my grandpa was getting buried & I didnāt go. I was thinking if I shouldāve gone but I was like nah. I would only be going to make others feel good & cus I feel like I have an obligation to be there. I would be self sabotaging cus Iām sick & I know I would not feel good being there. Plus I wanted to go as a way to say goodbye but that would mean I really donāt believe heās eternal & that he will always communicate & be there w me. He has been so I have to believe that he always will. (The Hannah Montana song is playing š„¹š§øš. This song reminds me of you now every time it comes on š SIT BACK AND SAY TO MYSELF) but yeah I feel like shit cus Iām coming across as so selfish but I shouldnāt care what everyone thinks of me cus I know I care & I know where I stand w my grandpa & I donāt gotta prove it to anyone. I told my mom to tell my grandma Iām sorry I canāt be there & she was like that she understands which is good I guess. Idk. It feels right to be there for my family. Thatās something I should be there for, thatās what makes me feel like shit but itās fine I guess. I gotta put myself first cus im sick. Not only that, if I were to go I would ruin it for everyone cus I would be complaining that Iām sick & shit so itās best that everyone gets to say goodbye in peace & not worry about me. I feel like ima live to regret not going but noā¦ I have to move on. Omg I kinda am getting emotional but the moon is in cancer today so. Iām just imagining him getting buried, not being able to process heās gone, saying goodbye but noā¦ itās an illusion. I gotta tell myself death is just an illusion. I still canāt process heās gone tho, maybe cus I know heās not so my soul canāt process it. When I got to my grandmas house, I started crying cus I could feel his absence. Iām never even there but that was the energy. The energy was strong. His sister was crying when we got there too so she probably felt the energy too. It felt likeā¦. something is just missingā¦ something that gave the house life is gone. You felt the absence intensely. I donāt know how but I did. He loved it here in El Salvador. Itās crazy cus I think last time I came, he took a picture of his moms grave & you see his shadow & now he got buried next to her. This whole situation on how he died is just so sad & fucked up. When you & I get together Iāll tell you everything but itās quite a story. But sorry for saying so much lol. I need my account back lmao. Iāve felt my cousins absence before when he used to live at his old house too. Heās not dead but the family shunned him which considers him dead but I started crying in that moment too cus heās what gave the house life. Idk how or why I feel these things. Yes Iām an empath but still. Itās actually really sad cus my grandma & grandpa grew up together & then they were together till now. They are both Taurusās lol. They had my gift out here, the light w my grandpas face & shit :,) , everyone was like they loved itā¦ to be continued
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But I wanna say the good things cause I need to keep my blood pressure in check
So big spoilers in the tags
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Happy Friday!! For dadwc, how about "with you by my side, I feel like I can do anything" for Krem and a person of your choice! š
Some Kremquisitor for @dadrunkwriting on this fine evening! Hope you enjoy the start of an idea I've been tossing around for a bit.
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"Are you sure about this?" Ellana's large violet eyes tracked Krem relentlessly as he paced back and forth across his small room, packing and unpacking bags that should have been prepare hours ago. He didn't even have that many personal belongings. He was stalling, and he knew it, and he kept doing it anyway.
"Nope," he replied, stuffing a now quite wrinkled dress shirt back into a drawer. What did he need his fancy Inquisition reds for anyway? They weren't going to some fancy ball like at Halamshiral.
But what if they did end up going somewhere nice? He grabbed the shirt and stuffed it back in his pack.
Ellana put her chin in her hands, elbows propped on her knees as she slouched on the bed, still watching him with concern on her face. She'd been packed and ready to go for days, which was unusual for her. Typically she was a last-minute kind of packer, but this particular excursion had her very nervous. It was the furthest she'd ever traveled in her life, further than anyone in her clan had even gone, with the exception of one person, and he had never returned.
"I know you're worried," she started as Krem rearranged one of his bags unnecessarily. "But the Chargers and I are going to be there for you the whole time. Even if she doesn't want to see you--"
"I'm not worried about her," Krem threw his arms up, then scrubbed his hands over his face with a frustrated groan. "I'm worried about you!"
Ellana straightened at this, eyes widening. "Me? I'm not the one meeting my estranged mother for the first time in almost ten years!"
The mercenary scratched the side of his head, eyes scrunched up. "I know, I know. Believe me, I'm fucking terrified of that. I don't even know why I want to go. I'm still not sure I do. But we're going to be close by for a job, so...I might as well, I guess?
"But El, I...I don't want you to go with me," he admitted with a guilty cringe.
The Inquisitor crossed her arms over her chest, wood and metal from her prosthetic creaking. "I'm going. Try and leave me behind, see what happens. I'll track you assholes down and let Sera sic her bees on you."
"It's dangerous," insisted Krem. "Tevinter is no place for any elf, but especially a Dalish one, and especially the Inquisitor."
She gave him a sober look that hurt his heart to see on her normally cheerful face. "I know that, Krem. Probably better than most. You know what happened to my mums, and my father." She turned her gaze away, tears glimmering in her eyes. "They sent us back their vallaslin," she choked.
He sat next to her on the bed, the straw mattress sinking beneath them, and pulled her close. A stray red curl tickled his nose and he brushed her long hair back from her face. "I know. And I know you're coming because it's not any safer for me. Tevinter doesn't much appreciate military deserters. Or fraud. 'Least when it's Soporati committing it." Krem rubbed his hand over her shoulder, cheek pressed to the top of her head. She smelled like lavender and vanilla, sweet, floral, and a bit peppery. Fitting, he thought laughing a little to himself.
"They'll have to get through me," she reminded him, cracking a knuckle with her thumb. "So will your mum, if she has anything nasty to say. I don't care if she's your mother, I'll hit her, Krem, I swear it."
"I know," he laughed. "That's why I'm bringing you. Even if it scares me." He pressed a long, loving kiss to her temple. "With you by my side, I feel like I can take on anything. Even this."
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