#and again i rly don’t wanna be an annoying gym bro typa guy

[goldfizzle]

ugh i’m so fucking fed up i have exams approaching and i’m being held to extremely high standards for said exams bc i used to be rly clever but now i’m just regular clever and i try to complain to my friend abt how i’m never gonna meet the school’s expectations of me and she’s like “oh boohoo you’re predicted really high grades that must be awful 🙄😒” and i try to explain to her that i’m not predicted rly high grades i’m expected to get rly high grades (which i won’t) and i’m not upset about the grades i’m getting i’m upset about how i’m never gonna live up to expectations and even though i’m getting fairly good grades i’m still gonna feel like a disappointment and she gets mad (jokingly mad but still) at me for being upset and it’s honestly just making me feel worse abt it but idk how to tell her that i’m getting panic attacks over being a disappointment and literally all i want is for her to say “oh yeah that’s a bummer” or something like that just so i don’t feel like an arsehole for being upset abt this