#and i know it’s not a big deal

[writing-forever]

VENT:

Grrr moving is so annoying!

All the things I wanna use are in boxes! Nothing is in the right place! The house looks so empty and wrong! Plus the fact that I am in a horrible mental state rn I think I’ve cried at least five times today over literally nothing!

[goldfizzle]

ugh i’m so fucking fed up i have exams approaching and i’m being held to extremely high standards for said exams bc i used to be rly clever but now i’m just regular clever and i try to complain to my friend abt how i’m never gonna meet the school’s expectations of me and she’s like “oh boohoo you’re predicted really high grades that must be awful 🙄😒” and i try to explain to her that i’m not predicted rly high grades i’m expected to get rly high grades (which i won’t) and i’m not upset about the grades i’m getting i’m upset about how i’m never gonna live up to expectations and even though i’m getting fairly good grades i’m still gonna feel like a disappointment and she gets mad (jokingly mad but still) at me for being upset and it’s honestly just making me feel worse abt it but idk how to tell her that i’m getting panic attacks over being a disappointment and literally all i want is for her to say “oh yeah that’s a bummer” or something like that just so i don’t feel like an arsehole for being upset abt this

[angesaurus]

Shitty stuff happened at work (that wasn’t my fault but because I confirmed some info, it’s my email and name that is at play) and then I found out another coworker got a raise (she already makes 12-15k more than me) and I’m really feeling pretty damn low.