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fun fact: this did not start out as isat fanart
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#I was actually doing some personal writing and when I read it over a few days later I could only hear it in loops voice#speaking of which#i totally recommend watching ShortOneGaming's playthrough of the game#their voices for the characters match so well in my mind i can't separate them XD#also i have no clue why but this took FOREVER#I had the thumbnailing and paneling done so quickly but my motivation to finish it just left me midway through the third page T-T#Even though this is one of the shorter comics I've made (AND NO COLOUR) it somehow took my like twice as long -3-#loop is so fun to draw!#well actually fun to colour would be more accurate lol#also did you know that a keyknife was an actual thing??#I wanted to check if their was an a visual asset of it in the game only to find out they're just everyday objects you can own???#maybe im just seriously out of the loop lol#and i know the buttons are wrong but i was already mostly finished inking by the time i realized so lets just say its a stylistic choice#isat fanart#isat spoilers#sasasaap spoilers#two hats spoilers#cw body horror#??? i think#comic#artists on tumblr#fanart#digital illustration#digital art#isat#isat siffrin#isat loop#in stars and time spoilers#my art#my comic
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So.... what are your thoughts on Ace's UM, if you haven't been asked this already?
sneaky magic for the sneakiest boy
no but really, I think it fits him really well! I had thought his UM would probably involve something kinda sleight-of-handy or pickpockety! and I looooved that it made such a nice loop-around back to episode 1. ❤️ I was. kind of half-expecting him to just run out and punch Riddle in the nose again. but instead this time 'twas he who offed the queen's head! it was great! and he did it while stone-cold terrified out of his mind! because Ace is the only remotely normal or well-adjusted person at NRC and therefore the only one who is like "we're going to literally die, this is super effed up". but he did it anyway!!!! I AM SO PROUD
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers#also love how it complements deuce's magic! they are two of a kind ❤️♠️#i do think bet the limit fits the 'uno reverse card' description more though#like...okay they haven't really said much on how joker snatch works#(literally ace went 'we'll talk about it later')#but i think it's not supposed to be inherently retaliatory if that makes sense#the japanese is something like 'put an ace up my sleeve'#which implies to me that it's not really an in-the-moment thing? i think he can steal it and hold on to it for a while probably#like he might be able to snatch it and then use it on someone else later rather than it being reflected back on the original caster#versus deuce's being that he punches you back with your own punch (and/or other various punches he's acquired)#(a connoisseur of fine punches)#i am 100% guessing though so who knows! we will find out later i presume#now the only one left to get their um is grim maybe 👀#(i mean i would also love to see some staff ums HEY TWST THAT WOULD BE COOL)#(but like. narratively speaking and all)#oh and maybe crowley's depending on how plot-important he actually ends up being#what if it turns out nothing's going on with crowley and he's actually completely irrelevant#he tears his mask off and he's just some random dude who has zero idea of what's happening#nobody's been orchestrating shit#everyone's just been getting radioactive poisoning from the stone adeuce replaced in the chandelier back in the prologue#this was all a cautionary tale about getting the blot levels in your school's hvac system regularly checked
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Something about hands....
Pssttt if you haven't seen it already, check out the new forgettable-au amv These are some of the still frames from that animation hehe
#hands hands hands#I just realized I forgot some of Wingdings' smaller bones on his hands oops#I JUST WANNA SAY#I actually DO enjoy drawing skeleton hands IT'S VERY COOL ...BUT!!!!! DRAWING THE SKELETON HAND + THE HOLE IN HIS HANDS IS SO HARD#BECAUSE....THEIR HANDS JUST CAN'T DO THAT!!! Or the bones would be floating!!!#So I have to be creative and make Papyrus have his fingers really closed together so that it looks good but It's technically wrong....#Or idk maybe the bones ARE floating for some reason#Magic!#Gaster's hand aren't actually skeleton hand as you can see#there's some similaritie but those are NOT skeleton hands#I thought it would be fitting#I mean#can you really consider him a monster at that point?? being scattered around time and space and all that....#+There's another reason but I won't discuss that right now...#ALSO... THE HEADCANON OF GASTER HAVING STAR SHAPED HOLES IN HIS HANDS??? GENIOUS!!! I LOVE WHOEVER CAME UP WITH THAT FIRST I DON'T REMEMBER#handsssssss....the man who speaks in handss........#“I know it like the back of my hand...which since I'm always wearing gloves... I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT!!”#okay yeah#TAGS#forgettable-au#papyrus#gaster#wingdings#undertale#undertale au
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Prompt 271
“Grandmother is visiting,” Damian suddenly said with no warning and with his usual not-quite demanding tone.
“Who?” Tim wasn’t the only one to startle, seeing as Bruce had practically froze, a downturn to his lips in a silent show of confusion.
Damian scowled. “Are you deaf Drake? Grandmother is coming to Gotham to, quote, make sure I am being properly cared for.” None of them had known that Ras was with anyone actually. At least Tim was pretty sure that would have been in the files.
“Oh?” Dick didn’t quite crouch to Damian’s height but it was a near thing. “She-” “He,” Damian corrected, interrupting him. They all exchanged a glance before Dick continued.
“Is he coming to the Manor or…”
Damian scoffed again, a tiny bit of a flush against his face. “No, Grandmother will most likely be staying with Akhi-”
Now wait one moment-
“YOU HAVE ANOTHER BROTHER?!”
#DCxDP#DPxDC#Prompts#Deadly Decisions#Danny & Ras are the homoerotic rivals that no one knows if they’re flirting or attempting a murder#It’s actually both they’re just also both Immortal#Danny to Jason: You can become a crime lord if you finish college- you’ve said you wanted to get a degree this is ur chance#Dusan (nodding): Mother has made all of us finish at least our basic education nephew#Why yes this does mean that RH has just made the heads in a duffel bag debut & the bats have no clue it’s Jason#Normally Danny wanders the universe but RAS (affectionately derogatory) HOW DARE U TRY TO HIDE THE GRANDCHILDREN#Morally Gray Danny#He’s well over 300 and that has an affect lol#Also has some fun fae vibes thx to his ghost half & human half finally balancing out#Let Jason & Damian be brothers#Tiny Damian: Akhi look I found a frog :>#Jason (newly not brain damaged & has no clue who this small child is): …. That’s great#Tiny Damian: *GASP* Akhi you can talk now :D#Fuck it- all the Al Ghuls deserve fangs from ecto contamination#Is Danny actually Dusan & Talia’s mother? No one knows and no one wants to ask the probably immortal fae being okay#Danny brought Damian a ghost hound puppy & Jason an original signed Pride & Prejudice book#How come Bruce wasn’t aware of Danyal? Talia forgot to inform him that the mother she was speaking of is in fact still alive#He disappears for a decade sometimes longer she was using past terms how was he supposed to know
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DP x DC: The Most Dangerous Card Game
Ok so Danny has essentially claimed earth as his. And he is fully aware that there are constant threats to the planet. Now he can’t stop a threat that originates on earth (that’s something he’ll leave to the Justice league) but he can do something about outside threats. Doing some research on ancient spells, rituals, and artifacts, he cast a world wide barrier on the planet to protect it from hostile threats so they cannot enter. This will prevent another Pariah Dark incident. However, barriers like this come at a price. You see, there are two ways to make a barrier. Either make one powered up by your own energy and power (which would be constantly draining) or set up a barrier with rules. The way magic works is that nothing can be absolutely indestructible. It must have a weakness. The most powerful barriers weren’t the ones reinforced with layer after layer of protective charms and buffed up with power. Those could eventually be destroyed either by being overpowered, wearing them down, or by cutting off the original power source. No, the most powerful barriers were the ones with a deliberate weakness. A barrier indestructible except for one spot. A cage that can only be opened from the outside. Or that can only be passed with a key or by solving a riddle. So Danny chooses this type of barrier and does the necessary ritual and pours in enough power to make it. And he adds his condition for anyone to enter.
Now the Justice league? Find out about the barrier when Trigon attempts to attack, they were preparing after he threatened what he would do once he got to earth. How he would destroy them. The Justice league tried to take the fight to him first but were utterly destroyed, so they retreated home to tend to their injuries, and fortify earth for one. Last. Stand. Only when Trigon makes his big entrance…he’s stopped.
The Justice league watch in awe as this thin see-through barrier with beautiful green swirls and speckled white lights like stars apears blocking Trigon and his army’s advance. The barrier looks so thin and fragile yet no matter how hard the warlord hits, none of his attacks can get through and neither can he damage said barrier. That’s when Constantine and Zatanna recognizes what this barrier is. Something only a powerful entity could create. For a moment, the league is filled with hope that Trigon can’t get through yet Constantine also explains that it’s not impenetrable. And clearly Trigon knows this too for he calls out a challenge.
And that’s when, in a flash of light, a tiny glowing teenager appears. He looked absolutly minuscule compared to Trigon and yet practically glowed with power (this isn’t a King Danny AU though).
And that is when the conditions for passing the barrier are revealed. And the Justice realize that the only thing stopping Trigon and his army from decimating earth. The only way he can get through….is by beating this glowing teenager in a card game.
Not just any card game though. The most convoluted game Sam, Danny, and Tucker invented themselves. It’s like the infinite realms version of magic the gathering, combined with Pokémon, and chess. And Danny is the master. So sit down Trigon and let’s play.
(The most intense card game of the Justice league’s life).
After Danny wins, this happens a few more times with outer word beings and possibly even demons attempting to invade earth, yet none have been able to beat the mysterious teenager in a card game. Constantine might even take a crack at it and try to figure out how to play. He’s really bad though. Every time this happens, the Justice league worry that this might be the time the teenager looses. Yet every time, he wins (even if only barely).
Meanwhile, Danny, Sam, and Tucker have gotten addicted to the game and play it almost daily. Some teachers might seem them playing the game are are like ‘awww how cute’ not realizing this game is literally saving the world. Jazz is just happy they aren’t spending as much time on their screens playing Doomed.
#DPxDC#Kizzer55555 ideas#Danny makes a card game to save the world.#Technically he worded the ritual so that they had to ‘beat’ him as those are the most powerful barriers and most reliable.#keys can just get lost or stolen (like the one to Pariah’s Coffin)#A riddle would be useless once someone figured out the answer. Like how no one takes the sphynx seriously anymore.#(Sorry Tuck. But it’s true).#And there is NO WAY Danny is just leaving a hole open for anyone to pass through. No thank you!#So…beating him. But it’s not like Danny wanted to fight so…he edited the ritual a TINY bit. Card games are good. Much less painful too.#Danny Tucker and Sam made the most complicated card game they could imagine.#It’s based on their strategies for fighting ghosts. Capturing them in thermoses. And MUCH based on a on field battle strategy.#It often requires spontaneous thinking on the spot. So Danny? In his ELEMNT. It doubles as practice for his actual ghost battles too.#They had SO much fun making this.#Sam added an entire series of plant cards that act as traps and healing ointments and duds that just take up the field.#Tucker added legitimate hyroglyphics combined with Latin as well as English and ghost speak.#Yes. You actually have to speak that language to play. With proper pronunciation. (Amity Parker’s think the three are talking gibberish.)#I headcanon Sam and Tucker are fluent in Ghost.#Constantine WILL figure this game out SO HELP HIM!#Some of the cards also have combinations related to constellations either in name or placement on the board.#By the way the board is based on a Hexagonal summoning circle with Rhunes along the edges#And the placement of the cards on the board and on what rhune MATTERS.#Also the cards move disintegrate and have certain abilities. Think of Harry Potter Wizard Chess.#But they are normal when Danny plays at school. This is just for ✨effect✨ Against invaders.#Danny faces multiple opponents. He also halts alien invasions.#While Danny COULD stop crime on earth he’s not sure how to fight a normal human and hold back so he sticks to ghosts.#The Justice league are going crazy trying to figure out who this entity is and after deep research are convinced this is some sort of#Ancient being who has protected earth for millenia. They have paintings on ruins and everything.#Danny is not aware they think this.#Raven starts praying to Danny as if he is a god and wrangles the other Teen Titans into doing so as well. Danny is still unaware of this.#Danny is not a King or an ancient. Just a very VERY strong ghost.
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#speaking of kylar heres some render practice but i got lazy after lol#i actually like how kylar turned out but aimee eeeeeeejhhhhh idk not so much#anyw continuing off of the intox comic id like to think aimee would rlly get super fucked up and basically become addicted and#therefore be dependent on kylar#not only does she use sex to cope she also does drugs now so rip bozo#and ofc kylar would eat this all up not only would he have aimee all pliant she would basically come begging to him for more#its a win win win for him :3#my art#degrees of lewdity#kylar the loner#aimee the heartbreaker
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to no ones surprise more of my special guy
#mu qingfang#svsss#my usual meow meow doodles from class lol#save me mqf save me#speaking of which. how many people still know me as the mqf guy from 2 years ago#if you do i have to thank you and you would be correct he has been passively in my brain this whole time#actually i recently actively got back to one project i started year ago i might post something for it some time in the future#but you didnt hear it from me#aaaaanyhow#also gotta say that compared to 2 years or even a year ago#mqf with mustache is MUCH more prevalent now in the tag than he used to be which fills me with glee hahha#of course any and every mqf is beautiful and wonderful and brilliant#but i am obviously biased
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i was extremely sleep deprived yesterday when i discovered the dragon survival mod which was LIFE CHANGING when you're on three hours of sleep so of course i made a whole custom forest dragon texture in one day about it. and. just for fun, some concept art i made for it:

#aka i was too tired to trust myself to speak coherently with clients or make commission work up to my standards. but i need to be productive#or ill die#my art#minecraft#mineblr#dragon#dragonsona#of sorts#forest dragon#earth dragon#lush cave#mods in the video tht are noticable btw: complimentary reimagined shaders. alex's mobs. ambient sounds 5. mizuno 16 craft resource pack.#and a really cool seed i found online :]#video#NOT my model but im going to tag it as#my model#since it's 3D work!! actual model made by blackaures who made the mod and also some SICK ass dragon art#also. patreon gets to see the other 3 pages of concept art i made for this later today! :] wink wink nudge. coughs#sorry i need to shill#um. anyways#no name for this dragon yet. i do know it steals livestock from too-small village/illager pens#to give them enriched lives in its expansive cave farm#i'd like to come back to this eventually and touch up the wing design since the glowing spots didnt really shake out
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I love how Narinder’s third eye is always looking at Athena with some sort of adoration.

Hehe-it's the one part of his expression that he can never school-no matter how hard he tries, his third eye always will reflect how he truly feels or whatever emotion is strongest in a moment
#also kitty cat zoom enrichment calls~some of the followers do actually speak to the crown too if asked#they all are aware of the kits and wanna help too-though the calls do NOT help the 'leader is married to our god' rumors lol#cotl#cotl aym#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb designs#cotl baal#my art#crimson angel au#anthea#crimson angel au art#cotl narinder#ask
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May I ask what were the best transformers media you ever saw/read?
Well Transformers Prime, Transformers 1986 and IDW comics are having the first place that’s for sure
And then the second place is kind of shared by Fall of Cybertron, Exodus, Prime wars trilogy, Robots in disguise(2001) and Transformers One.
The third place goes to G1, Animated, Earthspark, Armada, War for Cybertron Netflix series, Aligned Robots in disguise, Bumblebee, Rise of the Beasts and Cyberverse because I only liked some little parts of them.
And then I also saw some of the Bay movies, Victory and Headmasters and didn’t like them at all.
Separate first place for J-Decker. It is not exactly Transformers but it is a show about giant robots and I loved it

#call me weird for placing cheap ugly shows above Earthspark and Animated#but the thing is#I have when the whole narrative revolves around human kids#*hate#I’m allergic to them#Prime wars trilogy had one of the worst face rigs I ever saw#but it also had Overlord teaming up with evil Rodimus and Megatron being funniest mf alive#Armada is straight up infuriating imma be honest#Armada is like#Au where all the weapons work only once and then just create some glitter#I actually have SO many thoughts on Armada. like. as a writer#the way they keep reusing the same plot 3000 times is borderline impressive#OH War for Cybertron from Netflix was such an experience!#It was so painfully boring and stupid sometimes#but the other times. ooooouuufff. The scene where some nameless decepticon gives Megatron a little tour to show him how him and his friends#-work so hard for the cause??? THAT SHIT HIT HARD#….also I pretty much only like the Quintesson apocalypse arc from the entire Cyberverse#Transformers Victory is fun until you actually hear them speaking#the concept of Star Saber adopting a human child and raising him and then#going to human school as his legal guardian being like ‘yeah sure I can sign all your tiny ass documents’#it’s hilarious but unfortunately all the writers of that anime were snorting cocaine because WHY all the characters talk like that#Animated was fun for me only near the end. Idk what to say. I’m not a fan of any drama centered around humans#things got interesting when Cybertronian government got involved#Earthspark is WHOLE giant topic ahahah. I liked Twitch. sometimes. I also liked Grimlock while he had voice lines. Prowl was fun.#everything else needs and essay haha I don’t wanna annoy anyone#OH I also watching Tf Cybertron right now and this shit is UGLY. they have NO RIGS. THEY HAVE ONE EXPRESSION EACH#but for some fucked up reason I love it. they got the guy named Landmine who only can have (-_-) face.#their Megatron actually respects Starscream so far and regularly gives him positive reinforcement??? I heard words ‘excellent job Starscrea#and went WAIT WHAT#Anyway. If you ask me to ramble about media you get a word tsunami. I have a lot to share
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no bc jackie wanted to be loved so badly and she cared so much for everyone on her team, she did their face paint and misty's makeup and tried to boost morale and she loves shauna so fucking much and they exiled her and they left her outside and she froze to death. they literally froze her out. i'm genuinely never getting over her death bc she did not deserve that and all they would have had to do was ask her to come inside and if shauna was just like "hey i love you i'm sorry" she would have come inside. SHE WOULD HAVE COME INSIDE GUYS.
#jackie taylor they could never make me hate you#jackie taylor#shaunajackie#yellowjackets#basil speaks now#listen i love shauna so so so much but i will never forgive her for leaving her out there#(but she'll also never forgive herself for leaving her out there so like. twinning i guess.)#anyway if i have to see one more post saying that jackie was a bitch i'm actually going to scream#HER BEST FRIEND FUCKED HER BOYFRIEND AND THEN HER FRIEND GROUP TRIED TO ASSULT SOME GUY AND WHEN SHE WAS LIKE#'hey guys that's kind of fucked up what is wrong with you'#THEY (essentially) KILLED HER#LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?#jackie my baby my love come here i will make hot chocolate for you and put you near a heater and like sew you a blanket or something#i seriosuly love her so much#yj
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Blaze of glory or quiet life? Why not a little bit of both?
#otp: to bad decisions | 2025 Commissions | Ko-Fi
#cyberpunk 2077#cp2077#cyberpunk fanart#cyberpunk 2077 fanart#kerry eurodyne x v#kerry eurodyne#vincent ezaki#male v cyberpunk#cyberpunk kerry#otp: to bad decisions#art by me#aaahhh this took me so long to finish bc I kept being distracted with other projects hhhhhh#but I like how it all came out now uwu#and yeh vince never answers Dexter's question xD#for himself he would've always preferred not necessarily a quiet life - cause that's too boring#but also no 'going down in a blaze' because he actually enjoys life for the most part#I'd like to think in the same way that Kerry says V shakes things up for him#Kerry does for Vince too and gives him that balance between 'let's fuck shit up and cause chaos bc we can'#and learning to be okay with just resting when you need to#picturing this scene in particular in late 2077 / early 2078 after some treatment for the Relic#when V is still far from back to his prime (and in denial that he'll never be back there actually - physically speaking)#but he's able to realize that yeah - quiet life can be nice actually
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Oh god is that a comicfrin drawing where they have whimsy quick someone throw that guy into a decades long timeloop
#keese draws#new game+#grips sink and tries not to cry#isat#ok anyways I just drew this because I wanted to try out an isat profile html someone on toyhouse made#plus I’ve been rotating early on less completely fucked up chou in my mind recently#anyways did you know that comicfrin (at least in one panel) doesn’t wear gloves? fun stuff#oh wait speaking of forgot to tag them#comic siffrin#anyways important note! them looking less disheveled than siffrin is on purpose#chou started off their loops Far more mentally stable than siffrin and actually managed pretty well their first run through#it still was rough and they still were a bit of a sad wet trembling puppy abt it but they were generally doing just fine#they didn’t even go on a self loathing monologue after their first death! who is this guy!#dw the self loathing is still there it just takes a bit longer to hit in full force since again they started off more stable#anyways I probably should have cross referenced some move animations for this but I think I got the point across that they’re a support#unit even if the turn passing gimmic is not rly evident (idk if I could make it evident tbf)#shout out to how in their default kit they have 6 turn passing skills and only one attacking skill#also said attack as a cooldown of. five turns. tbf that’s because it has a pretty strong secondary effect#they also have three other support moves where they boost different damage types for a round#so yeah they’re basically pure support which they sorta had to be at first because bestie started off at level like. 5.#they ofc switch up their kit pretty damn fast after the first run#but first time around when they were leveling at abt the same rate as everyone else they were content to play support
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When I criticize TV shows for re-framing not showing physical sapphic intimacy as some deep and meaningful message vs. the repackaged purity culture that it is- just know I am NEVER. EVER. speaking about Xena
#also- I’m going to argue that even tho people speak about xena like they didn’t have physical intimacy#they absolutely did#the producers have some points of view I DO actually think fall into this kinda :/ vibe#of repackaging purity culture#HOWEVER#the show itself doesn’t fall victim to this at all and it’s really simply#Xena explicitly uses sex as a weapon which means that physical intimacy alone loses any meaning#vs the emotional connection she has with Gabrielle which is manifested into actual physical power#(all the soulmate stuff)#and it makes the soft gentle ‘sneaking around the network’ kind of intimacy they have#directly juxtaposed to how xena interacts with men#and makes it SO significant and special#I just can’t I love them sm and the producers managed this SO well in the show itself#(and the actresses too)#xena warrior princess#xena#xwp
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completely and entirely forgot that Vetinari and Carrot get together to gleefully "reward" Samuel Vimes and also ruin his blood pressure forever.
#also vetinari emotes a lot more than I remember. I think over time my brain slotted him into that vague category#a lot of villains (or at least...characters wearing black) get slotted into; the chilly removed chessmaster#who only shows emotion when there's a reason to.#when actually he was wildly frustrated in reaper man; he smiles in men at arms (multiple times!)#also I love the line ''The Patrician looked at Carrot. He seemed to be shuffling futures in his head.''#(also uh. um. no one is going to like this but I could see carrot/vetinari. I just think it would be neat.#AND then you could have some fun parallels with vimes and angua given that they're both dogs on a leash. so to speak.#anyway the charismatic king-that-wasn't and the dictator determined to usurp the gods is worth thinking about some more.)#discworld
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I still think about my mutuals tag where he said that he thinks Johnny feels so much and so deeply that it literally drove him crazy. And yeah. Just think about it constantly. It's. The statement I associate with him. The first thing I think of when I think of him.
I really, really, really dislike when people paint Johnny as this totally unfeeling asshole. Or at least, I heavily disagree with it. That's not to say he isn't an asshole, he 100% is. He's a jerk to the people around him, and of course there really is no excuse for how he treats people. But explanations =/= excuses.
I feel when people try to paint him that way, it comes from a place that lacks understanding or even an unwillingness to understand. This goes hand in hand where I'll see these people call him an unfeeling asshole while using terms associated with cluster b disorders and using the social weight they carry to demonize him, a very prevalent problem reflected in society and internet pop psychology culture.
They'll take the fact he's a 'narcissistic junkie', and not only at the same time use it to demonize people with NPD, but also drug users. It's just a very lazy way to paint a picture of his characterization, by using loaded terms as a crutch and letting their social weight, using yours and others people's biases, do the job for you. Like man, if you're going to make a critique of his character can we at least actually put some effort behind it.
Like. They think he's a user who's an unfeeling asshole to people just for the sake of being one. They see him engaging in these self endangering, self harming, self sabotaging behaviors and brush it off as nothing more than him being like that simply because he likes it, that he relishes in it even. Simply because he wants and chooses to be like that.
They don't see him using as a way of numbing himself (this especially with the fact drugs are the first thing he goes for when Alt breaks it off with him). They don't see that constant toxic push and pull in his relationships as self sabotage. They don't see the fact him going on that OP was a suicide mission. Literally.
I truly believe he never intended to come back from that mission, evident in his last exchange with Kerry, evident in a LOT of his own lyrics. (Black Dog, Ballad of Buck Ravers.)
Johnny clearly is passionate. He clearly has things he cares about. He clearly feels.
I'd even go so far as to say he genuinely does care about the people in his life, he just simply doesn't know how to show it properly or in a way that's healthy for anyone involved. Even when Alt breaks up with him, and he pushes her away for it, he still ends up chasing after her before she's even left the venue. He still tries to protect her. When Alt gets abducted, and yeah, he's being a leadheaded stubborn idiot about it, he still goes after her.
And even if it's self aggrandizing in a lot of ways, he still cares about her life enough to raid a whole fucking tower for her. Even if it's more in the view of what Arasaka took from him, than what it did to her, he still cares about her in his own way. He still grieves her. He's still broken up when she dies right in front of him, and he still acts out even if it's violent and angry. His grief has ALWAYS manifested this way.
When he sees the headlines about Kerry, he asks V to check up on him, to visit him. He even asks Kerry about it because (I think) it came from a place of genuine worry shown the best way he can show it, a straightforward question and dropping it when he gets an answer, no matter how truthful the answer is. When Kerry gets the idea for a one time reunion, Johnny agrees to it because he thinks 'Kerry needs this'.
I also think people see that he's a very angry person and attribute 'unfeeling' to that. Because to them, to a lot of people, anger isn't a valid emotion nor one with as much value as happiness or sadness. That's it's something less than. Even if anger was all he felt, it's still a feeling. He still feels it. He still feels.
His anger, though it's execution is obviously a problem, it's extremely fucking justified and valid. It's born from the mistreatment of a system that only destroys people's lives. Born from a system that only knows how to take, how to hurt, how to kill.
The same system that took, not just a literal piece of Johnny, but so many pieces of his identity and his life that he literally tries to project himself as an entirely new person to escape this.
Johnny cares about how the system treats people, especially people like him. How it uses people and chews them up and discards them when it's taken all it can from them. Johnny cares so much he becomes not just a voice, but thinks he is- and in a lot of ways he does really become one- a symbol for people like him.
That OP functioned as another rescue mission for Alt, another statement for his ideals, and his blaze of glory to go out on his own terms.
Johnny cares about things. Johnny cares about people. He has feelings. Complicated, convoluted, deeply traumatized feelings. Feelings that are so intense, that it harms him. Feelings that are so intense, that it bleeds from him and harms others, too.
And honestly, I'd say the one and only person he stopped truly caring about was himself. A long, long time ago.
#theres also other words we can use other than calling him a narcissist guys cmon#hes self absorbed. self centered. selfish. self conceited even. like#lets try using actual character traits rather than generalizing and demonizing#actual disorders that ppl actually have irl and insinuating theyre less than for <3#just a thought!#this also isnt to say people dont have to like his character like dude i get it#hes *horrible* to people in his interpersonal relationships. i see that scene with alt and kerry and get so mad at him#i felt a literal pit in my stomach when i saw how he grabbed alts head and pulled her in and spit literal vitriol in her face#but he is a much more complex (even interesting) character than abusing cluster b terms and calling it a day#its lazy. youre gonna hate him put some effort in it man.#i honestly want to see honest critiques and analyses why people dislike his character thru n thru with no wiggle room like.#it for sure would make for interesting conversations#but if i see one more#'i hate him bc hes clearly a narcissist that doesnt care abt anyone but homself and hes a horrible despicable person for it'#i might actually lose my fucking mind#cyberpunk 2077#johnny silverhand#ult speaking#(*this isnt to say people have to like his character..#one day I'm fucking going to Tumblr hq n learning code j to make it so i can EDIT FUCKING TAGS ON MOBILE UGHRFKH)
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