#and dazai is a bitch but a nicer version of him still has lines that he won’t cross

[sulliedsorrow]

i keep thinking of chuuya who has. major food insecurity that arises from when he was seven to being in the sheep. like becoming a part of the mafia must have meant such a drastic change in living circumstances, and even though now he has money and a better quality of life, a part of him still acts like he’s living in scarcity.

this leads to a lot of arguments with dazai i think, mainly around how much dazai wastes food. they’re on an overnight mission and chuuya orders takeout and dazai forgets to eat it and chuuya gets mad because you don’t just waste food like that and dazai is mad because he didn’t ask for the food in the first place so chuuya has no right to be angry with him, but chuuya can’t fathom having someone in his care around him going hungry for no reason. and he doesn’t know how to articulate it and and he’s just standing there, shaking and fists so tightly clenched, and dazai realises the anger was never directed at him, and chuuya begs asks, in a small voice, for dazai to just eat the damn food, so dazai does.