#and i’ve had to go back to italy after my holidays but i rlly rlly love the place where i was staying and i feel like i’ve kinda lost that

[thyholymistress]

just discovered that someone who has really helped me and my friends deal with a lot of stuff through their job has just changed where they work at and the fact that now we won’t be able to look forward to seeing him each week and open up with him and learn stuff thanks to him is rlly killing me. like. this person is one of the few cishet men other than my close blood relatives that i feel safe around. this man is one of the most genuine and kind and humble people i have ever met and has helped so many people and the fact that we won’t be able to see him anymore and we won’t be able to have fun together as a big loving group is killing me. i’m trying to look at all the memories and ideas that me and my friends have because of me but right now i’m rlly just a snotty teary blob of flesh and bones and blood because i can only see the negatives. i know this is kinda stupid writing it on a tumblr blog to a bunch of people i have never met except for like the three people that i’ve been calling my best friends ever since i was a baby, who also knew this man. but i feel like i’d rather throw it all out into oblivion than ignore it and bottle it up and be poisoned by it for years. it seems like the healthier option out of the two, even if neither is like that good. i’m sorry to all the people who follow me and my mutuals and stuff bc i know that this is 100% not what they followed me for yet i felt like it was better for me to write this on here than on my shitpost sideblog, this is somehow more personal to me i guess, since a lot of the stuff here is related to very personal experiences even if they’re just photos. again i’m sorry sorry sorry to be such a negative person rn i’m usually positive and see the best in people and all that but i guess that sometimes i also need to scream stuff into my cushion to feel better and that cushion is this post. anyways,

i hope everyone is having a good day today. you deserve it. i know that. and tomorrow will be my good day too. tomorrow will be good for all of us.

[maiverie]

CVXBABDHSJA IF U DO PLS LET ME KNOW !!

i live in england !! 😊 i’ve been to spain on holiday tho and i LOVED IT 🫶🫶 + my friend just recently came back from a holiday to italy and she said she had the best time,, IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU AHH BDHSHS IT’LL BE GREAT !!

i think i’ve had my hair bleached like 4/5? times now ?? i cant even remember tbh and my hair is actually quite healthy 😭 i thought for sure my hair was going to be dead this time round but it’s actually okay ?? praying it stays that way tho 💔🙏

ALSO IM ABT TO READ THE TRIAGE UPDATE ILL DEFO BE BACK STRAIGHT AFTERWARDS

omg uve been to spain??? STOPP THATS SO COOL OOFT pls do drop recs if u have any places within spain u rlly liked 🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🤲 AND OMG SO COOLLL AA IM RLLY EXCITED FOR ITALY TOO HEEHEHE

WTF STOP URE SO LUCKY ⁉️ the way i’ve heard most people’s hair get fucked up after just a few rounds of bleach 😭 BUT IM SO HAPPY TO HESR THAT ??!!! I LOVE that for u

ANDBHAHDHDWKD I JUST SAW UR TRIAGE RB AND PLS RI IM CRYING 💔💔😭😭