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rat-prophetess · 11 months
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Pathologic Classic HD + text posts, part 5 [part 1/part 2/part 3/part 4]
Patho 2 version [part 1/part 2/part 3/part 4/part 5/part 6]
Unfortunately I cannot and will not be stopped
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inviral-a · 3 years
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Actually  wanna  talk  about  some  stuff  about  William’s  life  &  the  people  in  it  rn  so  I’m  going  to  smash  out  a  big  messy  post:  
In  my  hc  Williams  mother  was  pretty  awesome,  she  was  a  single  mum  but  she  did  everything  right,  up  until  Umbrella  got  rid  of  her  so  they  could  have  total  access  to  William  since  he  was  a  minor  (14) when  they  first  contacted  her  about  him  participating  in  the  training  facility.  It  wasn’t  anything  Linda  did  wrong,  she  was  a  good  person  & did  her  best.  William  has  extremely  fond  memories  of  her. &  maybe  it  was  this  positivity  &  warmth  in  William’s  early  life  that  ‘sheltered’  him  from  becoming  the  same  breed  of  monster  that  a  lot  of  his  collages  became.  
Anyway  we  also  have  his  wife  Annette.  She  was  smart  as  hell  &  also  apparently  a  bad  ass.  A  lot  of  people  judge  Annette &  make  fun  of  her  but  like  her  motive  for  behaving  as  she  did  in  RE2,  particularly  in  the  remake,  was  because  she  was  thinking  of  the  greater  good,  not  just  of  herself.  She  is  a  very  complex  character,  she  was  wracked  with  guilt &  took  it  upon  herself  to  try & stop  G/the  spread  of  G /  the  outbreak  in  the  city  herself,  which  though  seems  kind  of  silly  from  an  outside  perspective,  is  entirely  understandable  from  HER  perspective  given  how  closely  she  worked  with  William -  like  it  does  actually  make  sense  that  Annette  would  feel  full  responsibly  for  what  was  happening  & feel  driven  above  all  to  try & stop  it. I  also  think  she  was  a  huge  factor  in  William  being  motivated  to  leave  umbrella & take  G  elsewhere.   Annette  seemed  to  be  the  “voice  of  reason”  between  them  since  William  was  so  invested  in  his  work,  another  thing  that  made  sense  given  this  had  been  an  enormous  part  of  William’s  life  since  he  was  15-16.  William  needed  that  influence,  Annette  was  really  a  lot  of  William’s  connection  with  “reality”  or  with  the  world  outside  of  Umbrella  in  a  lot  of  ways. Makes  sense  for  them  both  though  given  it  seems  the  two  of  them  didn’t  actually  intend  for  G  to  be  a  weapon.  That  seems  to  be  very  much  in  line  with  Annette’s  character.  The  two  of  them  clearly  wanted  to  be  able  to  spend  more  time  with  their  daughter  as  well.  Annette  is  the  one  who  reminds  William  how  long  hes  spending  at  the  lab &  that  Sherry  misses  him.  Honestly  the  whole  letter  is  a  pretty  good  insight  into  the  Birkin  family  &  what  was  really  going  on  with  them.  I  think  it  really  shows  how  normal  they  were  outside  of  Umbrella. Honestly  it  doesn’t  make  sense  for  Annette  or  even  William,  to  be  genuinely  evil  people  with  this  in  mind -  I  mean  the  fact  Annette  &  William  ever  had  a  relationship  with  this  in  mind  indicates  that  William  wasn’t  the  same  breed  of  megalomaniac  sociopath  as  what  is  common  in  the  series.   Annette  seemed  to  love  William  because  he  wasn’t &  they  appeared  to  share  a  vision  of  improving  the  human  race,  genuinely,  genuinely  seems  they  had  the  idea  of  ultimately  helping  all  people,  rather  than  wiping  out  select  individuals  they  didn’t  agree  with  or  who  weren't  “worthy”  of  “evolution”  & putting  themselves  as  the  rulers  of  this  ‘new  world’.  That  wasn’t  at  all  the  Birkin’s  shtick.
&  speaking  of  Sherry  herself.  Though  she  was  a  little  ‘neglected’  at  times  her  parents  clearly  both  loved  her  dearly.  Sherry  is  a  really  smart,  mature,  well  adjusted  kid  in  RE2.  I  mean  be  freshly  12   &  survive  what  Sherry  did.  She’s  not  a  child  who’s  ever  been  abused  or  who  has  not  been  treated  or  ‘raised’  right.  She  is  a  little  lonely  because  her  parents  worked  so  much  but  overall  she’s  credit  to  them &  you  don’t  often  have  a  kid  turning  out  that  way  if  you  don’t  love  it  &  nurture  it  to  some  extent.  Speaking  of  its  something  Annette  gets  mad  hate  for,  more  than  William  weirdly  enough  (  🙄 ),  this  idea  that  Annette  was  never  there  for  Sherry.  Not  true.  Out  of  the  two  of  them  shes  clearly  the  one  who  spent  most  of  the  time  with  Sherry.  Though  she  went  to  work  &  put  a  lot  of  time  into  her  work, out  of  the  two  of  them  its  obvious  Annette  is  the  one  who  went  home  at  the  end  of  the  day  &  cared  for  their  daughter.   William  was  the  one  who  worked  ridiculous  hours,  like  spending  almost  an  entire  week  at  the  NEST, without  coming  home.  He  was  also  noted  to  frequently  go  at  least  a  whole  day  without  sleep.  William  was  the  one  doing  all  the  hard  hours  at  the  lab,  away  from  Annette &  Sherry  who  were  obviously  at  home.  It  seems  Annette  only  worked  of  a  day  time &  came  home  during  the  end  of  the  day  to  obviously  look  after  Sherry.
I  also  find  it  super  funny/stupid  how  the  fandom  seems  to  pretend  that  the  Birkins  were  totally  cold  to  each  other,  with  William  being  totally  uninterested  in  Annette  who  was  just  there  because  she  couldn’t  take  a  hint  or  that   Annette  was  this  controlling  woman  &  William  was  just  her  dumb  bitch. Like  to  some  extent  maybe  but  overall  William  was  still  the  “breadwinner”  so  to  speak.  Like  what  I  think  was  common  for  most  families  during  this  time  period  William  was “the  man”  who  worked  stupid  long  hours  &  was  expected  to  handle  the  finances &  business  /  “important”  aspects  of  their  lives  &  Annette,  while  also  working  herself,  handled  the  family  aspect,  ie  raising  their  daughter  &  looking  out  for  the  welfare  of  all  of  them  ect.
Although  unlike  what  is  “expected”  of  such  a  family  I  think  Annette  did  have  a  big  influence  in  everything  because  William,  regardless  to  his  position  at  Umbrella,  respected  her  thoughts  & opinions  &  thought  she  was  fully  capable  of  making  decisions  for  them.  William  was  definitely  a  “ask  your  mother”  kind  of  guy  & I  don’t  think  he  was  doing  too  much  without  Annette’s  knowledge  or  approval  but  it  also  seems  that  was  actually  a  mutual  thing.  Annette,  apparently,  greatly  admired  William &  never  felt  he  was  incapable  of  anything  or  that  she  had  to  control  anything.  They  actually  read  to  me  as  equals  in  their  relationship,  not  one  dominating  too  extensively  over  the  other.
Also  been  meaning  to  talk  about  Wesker . .  .   I  think,  with  all  this  in  mind,  Wesker  was  probably  William’s  only &  strongest  “male”  role  model.  William  didn’t  know  his  father  &  never  really  bonded  with  any  of  his  mother’s  boyfriends.  He  doesn’t  remember  being  overly  fond  of  any  of  them  or  having  really  anything  in  common  with  any  one  of  them.   Keeping  in  mind  William  met  Albert  when  he  was  only  15  & Albert  was  17.  He  very  quickly  became  someone  William  admired  &  looked  up  to  because  he  was  just  that  ‘cool  older  guy’  that  William  was  so  alike  but  so  unalike  in  the  sense  that  while  William  was  a  little  shy  & timid,  Albert  was  confident  & collected  at  all  times,  they  were  completely  opposite  in  that  sense.  That  being  said,  its  probably  true  that  the  Albert  that  William  saw  &  who  lives  in  William’s  mind  isn’t  the  real  Albert  or  at  least  thats  not  who  he  remained.  Its  a  very  idealised  version  of  him.  One  that  was  born  of  William  knowing  him  since  they  were  basically  kids  &  being  so  close  to  him.
Which  is  why  he  does  have  trouble  believing  /  understanding  who  Albert  becomes  in  later  years.  Because  its  not  really  who  William  thought  he  was.  &  it  is  difficult  to  come  to  grips  with  that  or  understand  it  entirely.   William  &  Albert  started  to  ‘drift’  apart  during  the  “Alexia  incident”.  William  fell  into  his  depression  &  Albert  became  more  interested  in  Spencer  in  the  meantime  perhaps  as  a  distraction  for  the  ‘chaos’  Alexia’s  existence  had  caused  in  their  work  place  that  quickly  formed  into  its  own  obsession.  William  probably  always  assumed  Weskers  “odd”  behaviours  were  because  of  Alexia  as  well  as  he  didn’t  seem  too  pleased  by  her  either  but  regardless  if  Alexia  didn’t  happen  &  things  had  continued  at  the  Arkley  facility  its  possible  William  &  Annette  wouldn’t  have  happened  &  Wesker  never  would  have  became  as  focused  on  Spencer  as  he  did.  Just  seems  to  be  a  perfect  storm  of  events  to  me. 
This  is  the  time  where  everything  “changed”  between  them  &  they  began  going  “their  own”  ways.  Regardless,  William  never  stopped  thinking  of  Wesker  the  way  he  knew  him  so  knowing  Wesker  now  feels  like  an  entirely  different  person  &  it  feels  like  a  change  that  has  just  came  out  of  the  blue  for  William.  But  thats  one  of  William’s  problems.  He  doesn’t  notice  a  whole  lot  outside  of  his  little  bubble  so  when  he  does  notice  something  he  tends  to  feel  a  little  blindsided  by  it.  Again,  trying  not   to  speak  too  much  on  Weskers  POV.  I  am  majorly  speaking  about  my  own  take  on  Wesker  here  because  thats  my  default  as  I  don’t  have  one  I  write  with  or  anything.  I’ll  probably  make  a  HC  post  focused  on  him  on  my  multi  at  some  point  that  goes  into  things  a  little  more  too !  But  for  rn.  Wesker’s  probably  the  only  “negative”  influence  in  William’s  life  but  he  wasn’t  always.  Wesker  being  “evil”  is  kind  of  a  new  thing  for  William. 
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searchforthescars · 3 years
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amanda, do you have any advice for someone who's just moved out for college? i moved out 2 weeks ago (i was supposed to move in the fall when school started but covid) & idk i feel so?? lonely? or sad, i guess? i'm a freshman & i was super excited leading up to it, but i got here & i'm in an apartment with 5 strangers & i'm overwhelmed with how many adulting things i need to do, like groceries & laundry & cooking. i always thought i was pretty independent at home & i've also been away for 1/?
summer programs or events for a week, 2 months, etc. so it's not like i've never been away from home before & don't know how to cook or do laundry or stuff like that. idk. i don't get why i feel like this & so overwhelmed (also, i think now i get why most freshman move into the dorms instead of going straight to an apartment haha). my roommates seem nice too, i just don't know them that well yet. i feel kind of silly & pathetic & baby-ish about this since i know i'm so lucky to be able 2/?
to move out, but mostly i just miss home & wanna go back to my parents & siblings & cats, especially since i don't have any friends here yet & can't meet any cause of covid. i'm 18 but i feel so much younger & it's kind of hard to believe that i'm 18?? like ahhhh i'm an adult??? when did that happen?? anyway, i'm sure it'll get better (or at least i'm telling myself it will), but idk what to do in the meantime. any advice?
Hey, kiddo!!
First of all, congrats on moving out -- I’m really proud of you for taking the next right step toward your future. You’re doing great <3
Second, don’t you dare think this is something you’re alone in experiencing; although it can feel incredibly isolating and terrifying, I promise that everyone has felt this way the first time they moved out of their parent’s/guardian’s home. I sure as hell did, and I was 20 with a college degree!!! There’s no shame in it, and I’m proud of you for being able to verbalize your struggles and reach out for help.
These are a few things that helped me when I was living on my own for the first time -- if I had known all this going in, rather than learning as I went, I would’ve had a much better time of it, so I hope these help <3 But if you have any questions or thoughts, my DMs are seriously always open to you, on- or off-anon. You deserve help and support and I’m honored to be trusted <3
Get yourself on a routine. Tbh, half of the reason why things feel daunting (at least in my experience) is that they feel nebulous. To combat that vis a vis household tasks like cooking, cleaning and laundry, I’d recommend setting up a weekly or monthly schedule. Look at your class schedule and any other commitments and figure out which weekday is best for you to do laundry, which nights you could meal-prep for the days ahead, and which weeks you’ll be cleaning your areas of the apartment. Jotting those down or putting some notifications in your phone calendar will help you a) remember to do those things and b) rest in the knowledge that you’ve given yourself some structure. If you feel you’ll struggle with actually doing those things, ask a roommate to be your accountability partner! They live with you, so they likely have a vested interest in you doing those things, and will certainly be happy to help out!
Give yourself something to look forward to. Missing your family is so hard, so plan when your next trip home will be. Plan a movie night or another activity with your roommates (in my opinion, PowerPoint Night is an absolute winner -- y’all can take turns presenting about literally any topic you want and it’s a great way to get to know people and what they’re passionate about (or passionately against).) 
Get a tiiiiny bit social. It’s really hard with COVID, and I know it’s also anxiety-inducing to be The New Kid, but even something as simple as attending a Zoom event hosted by a campus organization can give you a little bit of social engagement -- if nothing else, you’re hearing voices outside of your own and your roommates’! There are also a lot of Discord servers out there for video game friends, students, fandom folks, pretty much anything; the platform offers a streaming function, which many people take advantage of and can be a great way to engage with other people around something you both love. Having that little bit of enrichment is really helpful and goes a long way in making you feel less isolated.
Do something with your hands. Find a tactile sort of hobby - drawing, painting, bullet journaling, digital art, collaging, etc. - and do it regularly. I bullet journal, make stickers, and collage the New York Times Sunday paper once a week. Doing something with your hands regularly is a good way to get your creative juices going and help the time go by, and it often is therapeutic as well.
Exercise regularly. I can’t tell you how helpful it is to get moving. It seriously is good for your mind and body, and you’ll feel motivated to do other things once you work out. I didn’t exercise for the first three months I lived alone and lemme tell you, when I started again, there was a marked difference in my mental health. Go for regular walks around the neighborhood, or if there’s space in your apartment to do some simple bodyweight workouts, the Nike Training app has great free guided workouts under 20 minutes. There are also workout videos free on YouTube, everything from strength training to cardio set to popular Tik Tok songs. I like to exercise about 30-45 minutes a day but YMMV
Treat yourself. I ran myself hard and ragged when I lived alone because I didn’t have anyone to encourage me to do otherwise. Even though you have roommates, it can still be easy to feel like you’re just ships passing in the night and that the accountability they provide extends to chores or other space-sharing ventures. So hold yourself accountable for doing one kind thing for yourself every day. Eat a piece of chocolate. Splurge on a coffee once a month. Buy a book you want to read. Do little things to treat yourself because you can, judgement-free! You’re your own boss now!
I hope these help a little bit!!! It can be really overwhelming and scary to be where you are but I promise, you are farther along than you think you are, simply because you can recognize and articulate these feelings and are reaching out for help. I’m proud of you and sending you all my love -- if you need anything, you got it. I’m here for you <3
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thecandywrites · 5 years
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Rakshasa- Sulaimon and Zakira
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Ya’ll I would like to say I’M SO SORRY. I did NOT mean to forget about this story, for like, over a year? Like I had to go through my phone’s library looking for something else and I found all my Rakshasa stuff saved to my phone because I HAVE/HAD PLANS for this story and I had this chapter mostly written all this time that I just...FORGOT about. But I reread it and I finished this chapter, finally. So to be clear, this is fanfiction of @momolady‘s Rakshasa, King Amit’s royal court with her permission to reference her work. but this is set BEFORE the war of the crown jewels, like this is set like after Foluke and Kalidas as far as time frame goes, when Mythri’s sons are still like, 6-7 ish? before the birth of Mythri’s daughter. So if you follow all that, just keep in mind this is set before all that. 
What I need to do is go back and edit this and repost it to this blog using my collage app because before I just used Tumblr’s thing and it sucked and you can only get like 9-10 pictures before it maxes out. 
But in the meantime, here is chapter 9. 
Rakshasa Part 9
Zakira woke up, feeling even more at ease and happy than she had the previous morning. She looked down at Anna sleeping soundly next to her and then lifted her head to see Sulaimon sleeping peacefully on the chaise lounge. Because he was asleep she felt comfortable staring at him and really taking note of every little thing about him. The more she looked, the more she realized...she was very attracted to him. He was handsome, and very sexy if she was honest but more than that, he was kind, generous, charming, patient, humble and most importantly gentle, and even funny, very much so. But the way he was laying in the chaise lounge, she could see he had morning wood and she found herself staring at it hungrily, very hungrily.
 Zakira bit her lips and judged by how deeply both Sulaimon and Anna seemed to be sleeping, thought it would be safe to quietly please herself and snaked her hand between her legs and began to try to quickly and quietly as she could- give herself and orgasm.
Sulaimon awoke to smelling the most amazing, mouth watering smell wafting into his nose before his ears flicked to Zakira and could hear her slightly labored breathing and very carefully squinted one eye open to see Zakira laying on her back with her eyes closed tight and judging by the way her hand was moving furiously under the covers at her crotch as her legs were opened wide, he realized what was happening and shut his eyes before his body reacted very strongly to her and he had to pretend to roll away from her in his sleep to hopefully hide his rock hard length and once he did and tried to keep his breathing slow, deep and even just in case she looked over at him, she would think he was still sleeping.
His movement caused her to pause but once she figured he was still sleeping she resumed and continued to stroke her clit. The sound of her breathing and the muffled wet slipping sound being the only sounds in the room besides Sulaimon’s and Anna’s breathing.
Sulaimon closed his eyes tight and clenched his jaw and had to ball his fists up to keep from actually reaching down to stroke himself as his ears devoured every tiny little noise Zakira made as the head of his own dick leaked a river of precum and soaked his underwear. The closer she came to her own release the more labored her breathing became and the more Sulaimon’s hips and tail begged to move but he forced himself to lay perfectly still. But just listening to her come closer and closer to orgasm and his own imagination and wishful thinking, wishing he was the one to give her this great pleasure had him close to orgasm himself and he wasn’t even touching himself. Then when she got really close and started softly gasping and panting it was almost too much for Sulaimon. His whole body was tense from trying to look relaxed and still. Then when she gave the most delicious but tiny keening cry when she came, Sulaimon couldn’t help it, he came into this own underwear, it was the sexiest thing he had ever heard before. Sulaimon suddenly smelled her release as the pheromones she released in her cream seemed to fill the air and Sulaimon did his best not to immediately take a huge breath of it into every centimeter of his nose and lungs. He had to swallow because his mouth watered so much. It was better than that perfume ever could be as his ears continued to train on her as she recovered as his own cock, thankfully, began to soften and shrink.
Only when his ears heard her breathing change and go back to a sleeping rhythm, did he finally chance a look at her over his shoulder and realize she was asleep again before he let himself fully relax then get out of bed and gather his bathing things and wrote her a note to tell her he would be going to bathe real quick and escaped the room to clean himself up but as he walked down the halls he could hear the other couples have their morning sex and while he felt jealous, he also knew to be grateful for the closeness he was able to acquire and couldn’t help but hope that soon he’d be among them. He bathed by himself, quickly cleaning himself up and returning to Zakira’s room to find Zakira and Anna were still asleep, so he took his previous note and threw it away before making his bed up so it was at least neat and tidy before Zakira and Anna finally stirred awake.
“Good morning,” Sulaimon greeted softly, a fond smile on his face as he turned as he was just finishing up folding his blanket.
“Good morning,” Zakira greeted back sleepily, a very pleased smile on her face that Sulaimon did his best not to grin knowingly at as she stretched before Anna needed to nurse, Zakira pulling her breast out of her top to nurse her and relax into the bed. Once Anna was done nursing, she immediately came over to Sulaimon as she babbled to him excitedly.
“Well good morning Beautiful, it’s good to see you too.” Sulaimon greeted as he picked her up and kissed her cheeks and hugged her before he brought her over to the little table Zakira had been using to change her before he went ahead and changed her diaper as Zakira got up and got her bathing suit on and then a tunic and a pair of shorts on top of that, putting even more of the perfume on today than she had the first two days combined before Sulaimon had to fight not to get a boner again, but his expression as he got Anna dressed made her laugh and giggle before he continued to make faces and silly noises at Anna to get her to laugh, absolutely loving the sound of her sweet laughter which insighted his own soft chuckling.  
“Do you have two coin purses?” Zakira asked when she went into his other bag to get her coin purse out to put it into the diaper bag but found hers, Sulaimon's and the third.
“Nope, just the one.” Sulaimon answered with a mischievous grin.
“Then who does this belong to?” Zakira asked as she held up the third.
“You,” Sulaimon answered once he was done and put Anna safely back onto the bed with her toys so he could get dressed for the beach behind the dressing curtain.  
“Where did it come from?” Zakira asked.
“Guess,” Sulaimon prompted with a chuckle.
“Your father.” Zakira huffed a laugh but Sulaimon peeked over the top of the dressing panels and grinned when he saw her smile and shake her head. “And let me guess, he gave it to you to give to me, he probably gave it to you while I was trying on bathing suits.” Zakira ventured.
“Close, he gave it to me while you were napping.” Sulaimon answered.
“Why didn’t you refuse to take it from him?” Zakira asked as her brows furrowed but an amused smile never leaving her.
“He didn’t hand it to me. He put it into my bag himself.” Sulaimon answered before he came out from behind the dressing curtain, only wearing his swim trunks and nothing else which made Zakira pause and stare at his bare chest and abdomen as all other rational and logical thoughts left her brain since the urge to go to him and touch him and stroke him and really feel how soft his fur and how hard his body was all over seemed to take over her brain.
“W-why...why didn’t you um, try to stop him?” Zakira tried to ask as she barely managed to pull her eyes off of his torso and back up to eyes where the tiniest smirk was on his lips as he may or may not have been flexing for her benefit.
“There was no stopping him, it was the right thing for him to do and he would have found a way to give it to you one way or another.” Sulaimon shrugged and Zakira just exhaled out of her nose and shook her head but her smile just grew more fond.
“Yeah, he did strike me as that kind of person.” Zakira relented and put the second coin purse into the rest of her things before grabbing a handful of coins from it and put it into her original coin purse that she had received from the treasury, thinking that would be more than enough money for the coast, imagining there would probably be shops of all kinds selling shells and jewelry and probably all kinds of seafood dishes.
“You’ll want to bring a blanket and a light jacket, it can get a little chilly once the sun sets, the coast is always windy.” Sulaimon advised as he fought his grin when she would keep catching herself staring at him and try to look away again.  
“Oh, ok, um, which one do you think?” Zakira asked as she got her coats, jackets and warmer things out and started laying those out onto the bed for him to go over.
“Hmm,” Sulaimon hummed as he reached out and felt the thickness and the materials that made them up before choosing one that should keep her warm as well as looking particularly beautiful and soft. “Probably this one or even this one.” Sulaimon gestured between the two that would be best before gesturing to his preferred one.
“Ok,” Zakira nodded and got a second bag and packed the sweater jacket and a small blanket and another outfit to change into once she would be done swimming as well as a little jacket for Anna and another blanket to swaddle her in and extra clothes for her too and put those into the larger bag along with the diaper bag itself as Sulaimon got a tunic on and his daggers around his waist that still had her engagement ring in the little pocket of them along with a jacket for himself before he put that into the larger bag and slung the larger bag over his shoulder and picked up Anna and left with Zakira at about the same time the other mothers were leaving their rooms.
“Where’s Remi?” Zakira asked Zumar.
“He’s getting our ride, an elephant.” Zumar informed her excitedly.
“He has an elephant?” Zakira asked excitedly.
“Yeah, he commands a troop of them.” Zumar answered.
“Oh, awesome.” Zakira smiled.
Meanwhile Sulaimon’s family was waiting inside in the grand lobby talking to Zara Joy as they waited patiently on Zakira, Anna and Sulaimon as Joy explained Zakira’s full situation while also encouraging them that Zakira would be worth waiting for and to be gentle, generous, patient and kind to her and everything would work out for the best before you couldn’t help but to tell them to go ahead and begin packing for a trip to Willow and back and to make sure they brought plenty of extra carts to cart off not just her things but cuttings and vines and all sorts of plants along with more fruits and produce as well as to acquire a lot of wine jugs because when they would be going there, the grapes would be ready to be harvested and turned into some of the best if not the best wine they would ever drink, along with beer which considering Willow were descendants of Egyptians, beer and wine went with most meals and that even though it was a bit of an acquired taste, it was also exceedingly good and to also get dozens of baskets for the raw gemstones because there would be more of them than they could possibly carry but to disguise it all as food stuffs in large baskets to keep from getting robbed or anything and that they would need at least one large cart just for the gemstones and to go ahead and buy dozens of large baskets just for the gems and that Wenet would be making all of the gemstones that would ever be on Zakira’s land come right up to the surface and that as soon as the sheep were done grazing that they would just need little garden shovels to dig them all up as well as informed them that Zakira actually had a herd of sheep and a herd of every variety of goats along with a few cows and several horses and that Zakira had discovered a way to spin a variety of fabrics that were both unbelievably soft while being very warm that was her signature trademark and that any clothes made using her fabrics were always the best as well as being worth the most and to let her cook once in a while because cooking did make her happy and that her food was always the best in all of Willow before Zakira and Sulaimon along with the other couples showed up and started to get ready to go while Sully sent his attendant with the orders and instructions to his Steward to start preparing to go to Willow along with repeating all of your instructions and advice but put higher numbers with them just in case you had been low-balling those numbers.
“Wow,” everyone from Willow breathed in awe when they left the palace to see a line of elephants at the bottom of the stairs.
“Look what Daddy is riding!” Zumar exclaimed to Zehra who kicked and squealed excitedly as she came near and watched as Remi got down from on top of the lead elephant’s head and came down to greet her. Hugging her and kissing her sweetly even though they had only been apart for merely an hour.
“Meet Tyra,” Remi introduced.
“Hi Tyra,” Zumar greeted as she came and pet the elephant before Remi instructed her on how to get up and held Zehra and hugged and kissed his daughter affectionately so her mother could climb up on Tyra easier as the elephant herself helped Zumar up onto her back before Remi got up too as Zumar scooted back so he could sit where he had been sitting and once he got up he handed Zehra back to Zumar to hold again and put back into her mother’s sling before Zumar scooted closer to Remi, putting one arm around Zehra and the other around Remi the best that she could before kissing his back sweetly, making Remi reach down and rub her arm that was around him affectionately.
Zakira was led past the elephants to see over a dozen carriages, the first one obviously belonged to the royal family and then there was a couple of carts behind it that had all sorts of things on it, a tent and special chairs and umbrellas and blankets and towels and things.
The next 7 carriages however belonged to Sully and his wife followed by three carts of stuff followed by dozens of other carriages and carts belonging to the families of the escorts followed by dozens and dozens of horses who were still being led out of the royal stables.
“Zakira? Could Ajay ride Daunte?” Zaida asked once she learned that Zakira wouldn’t be riding her horse to the beach.
“As long as Ajay is gentle with him.” Zakira answered as she looked from Zaida to Ajay a little warily. “Just remember that Daunte is very touchy about his sides so you can not kick him to go faster unless you want to do nothing but run the whole way there, only squeeze, gently. And ask him to do what you want. He’s good with spoken commands and you have to talk nicely to him, if you yell at him when he hasn’t done anything bad, he might buck you off.” Zakira cautioned Ajay. “Actually let me go with you and introduce you, otherwise he may not take you as a rider.” Zakira suggested.  
“I’ll be right back,” Zakira told Sulaimon and left with Zaida and Ajay and quickly walked to the stables where Daunte was getting upset that the other horses were about to go on a ride without him. His big black body pressing up against the door to the stall while his head and neck stretched out over the top of the lower door to get a good view of the rest of the barn.
“Hey Baby, how’s my Baby Daunte?” Zakira cooed to Daunte who was so relieved and thrilled to finally see his ‘mama’ again and whinnied to her and rubbed his face all over her front before hugging her as she hugged him as Zakira giggled. “Yes I’ve missed you too, you been a good boy?” Zakira continued to coo to him as she hugged him and pet his neck. “Yes I’m sure you have, listen, I have a friend I want you to meet, this, is Ajay, can you be nice to Ajay?” Zakira introduced and got Ajay’s hand and brought it to Daunte’s muzzle to let Daunte smell him.
“So listen I need you to be good and let Ajay ride you and not buck him off ok?” Zakira asked Daunte as Ajay pet Daunte’s head.
“Ok good, come on Baby.” Zakira led him to the saddling area and got her riding pad that had stirrups  and put that on him. “Good boy, you’re such a good boy.” Zakira praised Daunte as he stood perfectly still and let her cinch it up on him before she led him out of the barn with the other horses.
“Oh my gods, he’s beautiful!” Sulaimon’s family praised when they saw Zakira’s big black stallion.
“Thank you, this is Daunte, I helped birth him, his mama is Fawn who is still back in Willow. He’s only three and he’s been a dream to teach how to take a rider.” Zakira praised as Sulaimon’s family came up to greet the horse.
“His conformation is perfect.” Tavi, Hazine’s husband awed since his family was in the horse business.
“Conformation?” Zakira repeated in confusion.
“The way he’s put together, his proportions, the way he stands, where and how high his withers are.” Tavi tried to explain.
“Oh, well, good,” Zakira nodded. “You hear that? They think you’re perfect.” Zakira giggled to Daunte as she put her forehead on his. “Ok, now Ajay is going to ride you and you’re going to be good right? No bucking, no trying to scrape him off on a tree or anything right?” Zakira prompted Daunte before she gestured to Ajay to get on Daunte. Daunte stood perfectly still to let Ajay get on him and once he was on Daunte looked at Ajay questioningly then back to Zakira.
“Oh, you’ll live, it’s only for a day.” Zakira reminded Daunte who brushed his head back onto her front again. “Thanks, like I didn’t have enough of your hair on me already.” Zakira teased Daunte with a snickering laugh but when she went to get into the carriage, Daunte followed her like a puppy and began to whiny again.
“It’s a carriage, I’m allowed to ride in a carriage and take a mode of transportation that isn’t you.” Zakira reminded him with another laugh as everyone snickered and got into one of the several carriages that Sully had brought before she got into the one that Sulaimon, Anna, Dalia and Yanni and their four kids in it and realized it was quite plush and very comfortable. “See? I’m ok, the carriage isn’t eating me or anything.” Zakira said from the window seat as she reached out to pet Daunte’s head before Daunte put his head through the window to see inside the carriage and to sniff and lick Anna who was happy to have him close again, kissing his muzzle and petting his nose, making everyone laugh again. “No, there’s not room enough to have you in here with me.” Zakira teased which made everyone continue to laugh as she tried pushing his head out. “You’re making yourself look ridiculous, come on, out,” Zakira persuaded Daunte as she managed to push his head out of the carriage.
“Go, go find Zaida, make sure she’s ok. Ajay is supposed to be with her, let him be with her. I know you love me and you want to stay with me, but I don’t know how narrow the streets may be and you can’t ride next to me. I know you want to, but you can’t ok? Go, go find Zaida.” Zakira ordered him before Daunte huffed and finally let Ajay lead him away.
“I swear, he gets anxiety if we’re separated.” Zakira joked as everyone else continued to snicker their laughter. “I wanted to bring his mama instead because she is much calmer and isn’t nearly as spirited as he is but he wouldn’t let me leave Willow without him and I didn’t need a pack horse so Daunte it was, besides I’m pretty sure Fawn is pregnant anyway, she didn’t need that kind of stress on her body.” Zakira shrugged.
Zakira soon found Thalia, Dalia’s daughter next to her between her and Sulaimon and Shaeen, Dalia’s son right across from her, Shaeen looking at her like she was the most beautiful, sublime creature he had ever seen and Zakira could tell he had a crush on her, even though he was only 9 while Thalia was only 6 and Sura who was 4 and sitting between Dalia and Yanni, drawing on a piece of paper while Dalia’s two year old sat on Dalia’s lap while they broke into the breakfast basket that had all sorts of foods in it to eat breakfast on the way there.
“So how long will it take to get to the coast?” Zakira asked between bites of her breakfast.
“About half an hour.” Dalia answered.
“Oh that’s not bad.” Zakira nodded before she got into her bag and got her notebook she had been writing songs in along with a thesaurus and a pencil.
“What are you doing?” Thalia asked.
“I’m writing some songs for the concert in a few days.” Zakira answered.
“Why do you need a thesaurus?” Thalia questioned.
“Well a thesaurus will give me words that are similar to other words so that the song will have the same meaning but will still rhyme. Like for instance...” Zakira started going through examples and had Thalia read the songs herself since only in the last two years she was learning how to read herself as everyone else watched on in amusement and appreciation as the other families of Willow continued to gather and get ready to go before they all finally left for the coast.
However the time passed quickly as they watched Zakira continue to work with Thalia who seemed to learn more from the brief time with Zakira than she usually did spending her whole day with the private tutors back at home while Yanni seemed to be just as inspired by Zakira’s songs that he took out a stack of music sheets and started to write melodies and writing down Zakira’s songs on them.
As soon as the ocean breeze blew and wafted into the carriage Zakira was pulled from the books to look out and could faintly see the ocean in the distance, smiling excitedly at the sight of such beautiful blue waters and the gentle morning waves.
“So how often do you guys get to go to the beach?” Zakira asked Thalia.
“A lot during the summer,” Thalia answered. “Usually once a week or once every two weeks. It’s a lot of fun, I always eat so many prawns!” Thalia answered excitedly.
“I know I saw you eat a lot of them yesterday,” Zakira giggled before Thalia listed off all the seafood she liked or didn’t like and before Zakira knew it they were at the shore and it was time to leave the carriage before Sully picked out his preferred spot and their servants began to set up the large tent like canopies and chairs and things for everyone.
Soon however Daunte returned to her without Ajay.
“Oh my goodness, where’s Ajay? You didn’t buck him off did you?” Zakira laughed and got his riding pad and halter off of him as she saw Ajay nearby, his family and Zaida’s family having a similar set up as her own.
“Come on, let’s get in the water while they’re setting up.” Dalia invited as she and her sisters and sisters in law and the guys started stripping down to their bathing suites while the babies simply wore special diapers. Zakira agreed and stripped down to her bathing suit and everyone including Sulaimon fought not to stare, she was the sexiest woman there before Zakira got Anna back from Sulaimon and walked with everyone else towards the water, her feet sinking into the silky soft sand with Daunte still following her like a puppy before he stopped and sniffed at the waves washing up onto the shore.
“Now you just have to be careful because the waves can get strong enough to knock you over and over there is a rip tide where a current can pull you out to sea.” Gulnar warned as they walked out into the water, it getting deeper, the water coming up to their upper thighs, because it was late summer, the waters were perfectly warm yet refreshing before they found the sand bar and sat down on it with the babies and little kids as the older kids went out into the deeper water with their grandpa or ‘Papa’ as they called him before he started throwing them out, all of them squealing and laughing as their Papa threw them, all of them knowing how to swim and swimming back to him once they reemerged before swimming back so he could throw them again, the water being wonderfully refreshing as Daunte came into the water and started playing in it before he came out to see Zakira before the other horses joined him in the water, all of them banding together and went out further in the water to swim and play in the water too, the younger kids from Willow swimming with them and playing games around the horses and getting onto their backs when the horses were in water deep enough that they could stand and would stand on the horse’s back and jump off of them as Shaeen found Zakira’s younger cousin, Zakila, who was his age and looked like a younger and slightly lighter version of Zakira herself and promptly fell in love with her and befriended her and wouldn’t leave her side.
“Here, I’ll take Anna so you can enjoy the deeper water.” Coral invited to Zakira before Anna happily went to Coral who started to teach Anna how to swim a little as Sulaimon and Zakira took to the deeper water themselves.
“Can you swim?” Sulaimon asked her.
“Yeah, I’m just trying to get used to the rhythm of the waves.” Zakira answered as her body adjusted to the rhythm the ocean seemed to have. “Does it sting to open your eyes under the water?” Zakira asked.
“It does a little but your eyes get used to it after a while.” Sulaimon answered.
“Ok, well let me try.” Zakira prompted and dove into the waters and opened her eyes, preparing herself for the sting but once she did, she saw the reef that was further out and began swimming to it with Sulaimon swimming next to her under the water before she had to breathe and came up to the surface above the water.
“Wow!” Zakira awed as she looked down through the crystal clear waters to see the gorgeous coral reef.
“It’s called a coral reef. They’re like special animals that live like plants, some of them sting you if you touch them though.” Sulaimon informed her.
“Can you show me which ones to touch and not to touch? I’m pretty sure I can dive down that deep.” Zakira asked hopefully.
“Yeah, come on, deep breath.” Sulaimon encouraged before both of them took a deep breath and dove down, Sulaimon pointing to different ones and nodding no before pointing to others and nodding yes before reaching out to touch them while the brightly and beautifully colored fish swam around them before Zakira reached out to touch the same ones Sulaimon did before they swam back up to the surface to breathe again.
“Now there are some really big fish and sharks that you have to look out for, I’ll point those out to you too, if they come close, reach out, grab them by the nose and push down and away.” Sulaimon tried to inform her as they both caught their breath.
“Ok,” Zakira nodded breathlessly as she tread water before they continued to dive and Sulaimon pointed at an eel and nodded ‘no’ to Zakira before seeing a few sail fish out deeper then they saw sting rays, Sulaimon taking Zakira’s hand over to them and showing her how she could pet them before she did, the sting rays swimming curiously around them in the water, brushing up against them before swimming away before they saw a shark patrolling the reef at a comfortable distance and Sulaimon brought Zakira back up to the surface.
“Ok that huge fish, that’s a shark, but it’s a kind that doesn’t attack, I’ve swam right next to those kind before. So we’re ok. Having fun?” Sulaimon explained and asked as he noticed how Zakira couldn’t stop smiling.
“The most fun I’ve ever had in my life, this is great.” Zakira beamed as she caught her breath before they continued to dive some more seeing more different kinds of fish than Zakira knew existed before Zakira felt her milk come in and knew Anna would be getting hungry.
“Ok, my milk came in I gotta go back and nurse Anna.” Zakira informed Sulaimon before they swam back just as Anna started to get a tiny bit fussy and started looking around for her mama.
“I know, I know, time to eat.” Zakira cooed to Anna as she took her back and noticed Sulaimon’s other sisters were nursing their babies right out into the water, leaning against their husbands chests as their husbands had their backs to the waves to serve as a wave break so their wives could nurse comfortably and the babies wouldn’t choke or drown. And so Sulaimon got into position and for the first time Zakira cozied up to Sulaimon’s chest and did what his sisters and sisters in law were doing. Zakira relaxing completely as she let Sulaimon wrap his arms around her waist to help hold her up and in place and sighing in relief as Anna drained her full breast and then sighing in happiness and contentment at the feeling of being with family and being in Sulaimon’s embrace.
“So how was the reef?” Coral asked.
“Gorgeous, I love it.” Zakira beamed before she turned her head and leaned up to kiss Sulaimon on the cheek. “Thanks for showing it to me.” Zakira thanked him sweetly and Sulaimon couldn’t help but kiss her cheek back as everyone managed not to squeal at the sign of affection while Zakira smiled brightly and giggled in turn, realizing how good Sulaimon’s kiss felt on her cheek while her mind wondered what his kisses would feel like all over her, her cheeks staining deep rose at the salacious thought.
“You’re welcome, any time.” Sulaimon murmured as he couldn’t help but purr happily again and nuzzled his face next to hers as she nuzzled back, a loving and adoring smile gracing her features. Oh yeah. She could see herself living the rest of her life here, with Sulaimon.
“The tent is ready my lady and the restaurant will have lunch ready within half an hour.” Sidra, Coral’s lady in waiting informed Coral and everyone else as she waded into the water, picking up her skirt so it wouldn’t get wet.
“Thank you Sidra.” Coral thanked her appreciatively. Once the babies were done nursing, they got up and waded back to shore before drying off and getting redressed before going into a restaurant that was on the other side of the road that separated the beach from city, everyone dawning their flower necklaces again as they came in and saw a very large table set up with name Kouri, which was the family’s last name on it and had been covered in banana leaves and they sat down as wine and punch was brought out to drink, Zakira preferring the super sweet punch to the wine that was a bit dry before more pitchers were brought out that had spiced rum mixed in with the punch for the grown ups that Zakira could have gulped and chugged down it was so good to go along with the fresh bread and oils and sauces to snack on while their lunch was being cooked.  
“I need like a vat of this to take home, it’s so good.” Zakira giggled as she drank the rum punch and felt the alcohol relax her and bring happiness and merriment to her heart before laughing even more at the jokes Sulaimon and his family started to tell before a feast was brought out and put on the table while Sulaimon finally was brave enough to put his arm around her shoulders as he sat next to her.
“Oh my gods, that’s a bug! A very big ugly bug!” Zakira noted with a snickering laugh as she looked at the very large lobster that was halved as she picked up a feeler and lifted it to look at the outside as the others roared with laughter at her assessment of it.
“It does, but it’s a delicious bug.” Sulaimon snickered as he took one of the knives on the table and cut her a little bite of it before dipping it into a butter then a spicy sauce and handed it to her before she took a bite of it while it was still in his hand since Zakira was still in her lap as she held her and bounced her a little on her thigh as Zakira made a face at the thought of eating a bug as the others laughed in amusement before she blinked in surprise at the taste.
“Do you like it?” Sulaimon asked.
“I do, I didn’t think I would but I do.” Zakira had to admit before Sulaimon put the rest of the bite in her mouth and she chewed it with a pleased grin before Sulaimon got a bite of the lobster and dipped it into a little bit of butter and handed it to Anna to try. Anna however immediately liked it and tried to eat his fingers to eat the rest of it.
“Ok, ok, ok, don’t actually eat me!” Sulaimon teased Anna who laughed evilly which got everyone else to laugh at her laugh.
“Oh yeah, she’s a stinker, come on, she won’t bite me.” Sully invited with a chuckle before Zakira passed Anna over to him so he could feed her before Zakira dug into the food that was put directly onto the banana leaves, loving all the different flavors and sauces and sides and variety of everything and noting how each fish tended to taste different but loved everything, especially the crab and the smaller sweeter fish and the roasted pork that had had been turned on a spit, it had been glazed with coconut milk while rubbed with spices so it’s skin was crisp and practically candied while the meat was tender, well flavored and still wonderfully moist.
Once they started slowing down eating the main course, the desserts were brought out, sweet doughnuts rolled in honey and sugar that Zakira nearly inhaled, her appetite being just as big as it was yesterday if not more so and for the first time in two years, besides her pregnancy, she actually felt hungry and in more ways than one. The closer Sulaimon inched closer to her the closer she found herself inching closer to him until she found his arm around her once more, once he was done eating and wiped his hands off on his napkin, this time his fingertips gently grazing over her shoulder and upper arm as she snuggled into his side and sipped the rum punch so she wouldn’t get drunk, just delightfully buzzed and relaxed and happy as Anna curled into Sully’s arms and chest and fell asleep, her belly full and Sully’s purring lulling her to take a nap as the other babies fell asleep too as the kids started to almost nod off themselves since their bellies were full too.
After they were done, Sully ordered a few more gallon jugs of the rum punch and discretely paid for it since he had sent the money to pay for lunch with his servants ahead of time. And once they were delivered, everyone thanked Sully for buying lunch and took their jugs and back to their canopy on the beach, all the kids and the grandparents taking a nap which left the adults and parents freedom to do what they wanted.
“Hey Kira, me and the other girls were gonna race our horses on the beach, did you want to race Daunte?” Grace invited.
“You know I think I will.” Zakira nodded in agreement and left and got Daunte who was laying down in the sand, having followed the other horses around and had been watered and fed when the other horses had been fed and watered as Sulaimon and his siblings and their mates followed her curiously.
“Hey Dante, you wanna race Baby?” Zakira asked him as she got up on his back once he rolled over to his stomach so she could get on him before he got up, Zakira directing him with her words and legs as she held onto his long mane since he wasn’t wearing his bridal or anything before the other horses got into a group as everyone lined the beach, the horses racing on the shore where the water met the sand, Zakira taking a rear spot on purpose.
“Why are you back there?” Sulaimon asked.
“He races better if he has other horses to pass.” Zakira answered as she pat his neck.
“Wouldn’t you feel better in a saddle?” Tavi asked.
“Nah, I’m good,” Zakira waived off before the other horses got in place. “But you should go to the finish line.” Zakira grinned mischievously before Sulaimon and his siblings and their mates eagerly and quickly jogged down the beach to get to the finish line in time.
“Ready? Set? Go!” Grace’s mom called out before Zakira kicked then held on tight as Daunte sprung into action and raced going out into the water a little to pass the other horses as Zakira encouraged him by saying ‘Go Baby Go!’
“Wow! Look at him go!” Sulaimon and everyone else exclaimed when they saw how Daunte kept passing every horse until he was in the lead and still pulled out ahead until he saw another horse up ahead on the beach who wasn’t even racing and kicked into the fastest run he had to catch even that horse as Zakira held on tight with her legs but smiled brightly and let go of his mane to pull her arms out wide to mimic the feeling like she was flying and right now she could swear she was because of how much her heart was soaring.
“Holy shit, that has to be the fastest horse I’ve ever seen!” Tavi exclaimed, which was saying something because his family also raced horses as Zakira ran past them to win the race but Daunte wouldn’t slow down until he ran up and passed the last horse on the beach, Sulaimon and his family watching in curious amusement once Daunte had passed that horse did he finally slow down and let Zakira lead him back to the others.
“You show off!” Zakira teased Daunte as she relaxed on his back and pet his neck as he came back.
“What would you think about breeding him?” Tavi asked.
“I don’t know if he would know what to do.” Zakira snorted a laugh. “But if you wanted to, sure, I don’t mind.” Zakira shrugged before she looked over at Sulaimon who seemed to read her mind and helped her down from her horse, her sliding down into his waiting arms as he took a moment and just held her bridal style for a moment before he let her back down on her feet.
“Thank you,” Zakira smiled at him before she went up to Daunte and pet him before he rubbed his face on her front again. “Yes I love you too, you raced really good, I’m very proud, now go, go play.” Zakira ordered as she gestured to the other horses before he trotted away and bumped his sister who was Grace’s horse who was the second horse to pass the finish line before she took Sulaimon’s hand as he walked her back down the beach, the two falling into a very easy and delightful conversation before it got a little deeper.
“So how come you’re the only one of your siblings still unmarried?” Zakira asked him as she walked along side him on the beach, her fingers intertwined with his as the waves crashed up and covered their feet as they stepped into the fading hoof prints.
“Well I’d like to say I’ve been waiting for you to come along but that’s not the truth.” Sulaimon admitted with a little huff of a laugh and a sigh before Zakira’s prompting look pushed him to explain.
“Well, I don’t know if you’ve picked up on this, but I was really awkward and shy as a kid and a teenager and I couldn’t talk to girls or women to save my life and I don’t have a head for my father’s business, well, besides the book keeping part, so since I was kind of aimless as a teenager, I got recruited by the army and found out I was good at it and finally found an aim and a purpose and since I wasn’t the first born son who is usually pushed to follow tradition, I was free to choose the army and once I was in, I loved it and threw myself into it as a career and I was always at the top of my classes and performed really well and flew up the ranks but because I was so focused on my career and always around the training arena, I never really had a life outside of it and never really socialized with anyone but my fellow men and it wasn’t until I turned 20 when I was the youngest general ever appointed that I realized all of my men who were usually older than me, all had families and by that point all my siblings had been meeting people and getting married and having kids and even though all of them tried to set me up at each wedding, I never clicked with anyone. And unless you’re in an active battle or war, or training, being a general is a really boring job so I started reading a lot to fill my time and read a lot of really good books and after that, every girl I met just seemed so flat or shallow, I guess, or gold diggers. All they saw was my titles or my family home and any and all prestige my family and I had and they never really saw me and living at home with everyone getting married and starting their families only made my own singleness almost unbearable so I moved out and into the barracks with my men who were single and it became a little easier and after that I was just in a rut.” Sulaimon explained, keeping his gaze down at the sand instead of at Zakira who listened patiently.
“I can understand that, the rut part I mean. And I hope you never think I’m...” Zakira tried to explain as she realized she really only started to really warm up to him recently, but it was on account of his merits and personality and family, not because of what he was or anything outside of that, she had been happy and content with just thinking he was just as relatively poor as she was.
“Oh gods, no! Never.” Sulaimon quickly reassured her and lifted his head to consider her. “No, I know for certain you’re not like that, not even close.” Sulaimon added with a meaningful look that Zakira smiled appreciatively at that.
“Thank you.” Zakira grinned. “But yeah I can totally understand the rut part, that’s been the last two years of my life. After my mother passed, I found out I was pregnant only a month later. Then it was a struggle just trying to prepare for Zahir and my father to return and getting ready for the baby and then days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months and just doing the same things over and over again, making cloth diapers for the baby and making my brother’s old room a nursery since he would be building a house for himself and Grace when he would be getting back and once I had over a hundred diapers in every size a baby could possibly need and more baby blankets and clothes than any baby could ever wear and it was only half way through my pregnancy. Then I was so listless, I cooked every recipe I knew of and invented dozens more but…. slowly but surely every passion I had faded and died and I was left an anxious mess and then none of my food tasted right because it was like every flavor faded and was bland and I couldn’t write any songs because my creative well dried up and I couldn’t play any instruments because everything sounded off and flat in my ears and I couldn’t bring myself to even dance because I didn’t feel like dancing and it didn’t matter how good any rhythm was played, it would never move me and it didn’t matter how many times I cleaned the house top to bottom it still felt empty and lifeless and suffocating-ly small, which compared to even my room at the palace it kind of is, but it felt that way because my family wasn’t in it and then I just couldn’t stand the sight of the actual house and so I would go walking and just walk and walk until the village wasn’t in sight any more and my feet hurt so bad I couldn’t walk anymore and Fawn and Daunte would still follow me because he was a yearling at the time and Zahir and I helped birth Daunte together a few months before he left and he had promised me that we would train Daunte how to take a rider together once he came back but that never happened. So then once I couldn’t walk anymore, Fawn would get down on the ground and let me step over her and then take me back to the village and I would just cry the whole way back because- here I was, pregnant, about to bring life into the world and I couldn’t be happy about it because I didn’t have my immediate family to be happy about it with and then once my feet healed I would just spend all day in the fields with my herds and just lay on a blanket in the tall grass with a pile of fruit and then one day when I was out in the field napping, just waiting to hear Zahir’s voice to greet me when I went into labor and I fought it, for a whole day, my friends cousins dragged me back to my house and I fought every step of the way because I didn’t want to give birth without Zahir. My mother in law and my sisters in law and aunts and cousins and friends still gathered around me and Zamira and her mother and grandmother helped deliver Anna. I had never been around so many people but still felt so isolated and alone. It took three days to birth Anna. The first I was in denial I was in labor and mentally did everything I could to convince my body that I wasn’t in labor and to wait just another day, another week but one thing I found out was that when a woman’s body goes into labor, it’s something that can’t be brought out of, especially when it’s time for the baby to come out and then it took two more days in hard labor, but because I had fought it so bad, my body took an extra long time to finally relax and get in the groove. It was awful. I was beyond weak, because you can’t really eat anything while you’re in labor and Mira and her mother and grandmother tried to make me drink this special tea but it tasted disgusting and so I didn’t drink enough of it and I almost died a few times. But when Anna came out, I finally found my will to live again and was able to bounce back and then it was back to the waiting game but the more time went on, the angrier I got because Zahir had missed so much and then when Anna was only a few months old, finally the men came back. But I was so heartbroken that Zahir wasn’t among them or even my father and brother weren’t among them either that I fell into a depression that lasted the whole winter. I barely ate, I managed to eat just enough to keep my milk flowing but I still lost a lot of weight, I was practically skin and bones with boobs by spring even though I had half the village staying with me and taking care of my house and feeding me, some of them a little forcefully.” Zakira chuckled at the ‘forcefully’ part as she remembered Zara Joy and several others practically stuffing her mouth and all of you laughing as they moved her jaw to chew for her before she would give in and chew on her own.
“And then once spring came I got out of the worst of it but I still felt like I was in a rut until Zara Joy came back with Lomi and when Anna took to him as well as she did and when Zara Joy told me about you, it piqued my interest and I felt like I had been stirred back to life and here I came, but the closer we got to the Crown City- the more nervous and anxious I got because I doubted everything Zara Joy and Lomi told me because I had it in my head that because Zahir’s promise to return to me didn’t come true that nothing anyone ever said would ever come true either because he along with my parents had never ever lied to me before.” Zakira explained as she did her best not to cry as Sulaimon let go of her hand to wrap his arm around his shoulders while her arm wrapped around his waist as her head rested on his shoulder, his heart breaking at her confession while also warming at the realization that she was finally letting him in and so he listened closely and respectfully as they continued to walk along the beach until they had passed his family’s tent like canopy going the other direction before Sulaimon offered every comforting thought he could think of before he assured and reassured her that he would never lie to her either before he stopped walking and hugged her again and just held her for a few long moments because he could tell she just needed a hug and Zakira was ever so thankful and grateful he seemed to be able to pick up on that and hugged him back tightly and held him in turn and really let all her anxiety and anger go and simply stayed in the moment, smelling the ocean and the flowers from the flower necklaces which seemed to have lasted an unusually long time and were still as fresh as they had been when they had been picked but most importantly, smelling Sulaimon and felt the softness of his fur on her face and the warmth of the sunshine and his embrace and couldn’t help but smile. She couldn’t help but feel like this was where she was meant to be. She felt truly safe and happy and completely at peace again. When she pulled away she wasted no time in actually kissing him, framing his face and kissing him firmly. Sulaimon’s eyes went wide for only half a heartbeat before he closed his eyes and kissed her back, keeping his arms wrapped around her tightly and keeping her flush against him as Zakira’s arms wrapped around his neck and shoulders and clung to him like he was her lifeline and for all intensive purposes, he was.
And when Sulaimon deepened the kiss and threaded his fingers though her hair as one hand came up to rest behind her head as the other arm wrapped possessively around her back, the floodgates opened and Zakira kissed him for all she was worth and it felt so much better than she thought it would, or even better than she could have imagined and it ignited a fire within them both that Sulaimon had never felt before while Zakira was only all too familiar with but was so happy and grateful it returned with full force and the more they kissed the more alive she felt until she was just as alive as she felt before there was ever even a hint of a war or battle.
“I love you,” Sulaimon professed when they finally broke for air.  
“I love you too.” Zakira returned and it didn’t feel forced, it felt true and honest and real.
“Will you marry me?” Sulaimon asked.
“Absolutely, I want you, Anna and I to move into your parents house to live with the rest of your family though.” Zakira claimed as they put their foreheads together and stared adoringly in each other’s eyes.
“Consider it done. We could move in tonight if you wanted to.” Sulaimon immediately answered which got Zakira to laugh.
“Ok maybe not tonight, but definitely after Zara Joy’s wedding.” Zakira allowed.
“Actually I heard talk of Zara Joy’s wedding becoming a mass wedding,” Sulaimon hinted.
“You know that’s funny because Zara Joy may have given me a dress that could totally be a wedding dress too, the note Zara Joy put with it said to wear it to her wedding and at the concert but I’m fairly certain it is a wedding dress in it’s own right and it’s in my favorite color, purple.” Zara smiled brightly with a mischievous glint in her eyes that Sulaimon completely fell in love with.
“You could wear anything and make it look amazing.” Sulaimon praised.
“Aww, likewise,” Zakira cooed. “I guess we’ll have to go ask Zara Joy for a ring now.” Zakira giggled excitedly.
“No need, I already have a ring, it’s in my pocket with my daggers.” Sulaimon beamed.
“Really?” Zakira asked before Sulaimon took her hand and began running back to the canopy with her, both of them laughing with delight before they came back into the canopy as Coral, Sully and the children all woke up before Sulaimon got the ring out and everyone reached out for each other and shook each other as they did their best not to squeal before Sulaimon took a knee in front of Zakira in the middle of the canopy as everyone gathered around them, all of them holding tightly to each other as the brightest most excited smiles plastered themselves onto their faces.
“Zakira SuNamune, will you marry me?” Sulaimon asked as he presented his father’s ring which Sully had been working on for over a year. An exquisite alexandrite ring with halos of diamonds all around it, Sully had picked it because it was by far one of the most beautiful rings he had ever created and the alexandrite matched Zakira’s eyes and when Sully had met Zakira, Sully knew that the ring had been fated for her and that it belonged to her. Especially when she had come to his house wearing his jewelry that you had bought for her, all of her jewelry in fact had been bought from Sully since you had brought all of Zakira’s outfits into his shop and he and his sons had matched their best jewelry to each outfit. You had paid him handsomely for every piece, having brought actual bars of gold to pay for it all on a little cart to pull everything since it was far too heavy to carry and had raved about Zakira to them which got them very interested in trying to meet her.
“Yes!” Zakira squealed happily before everyone cheered and Sulaimon jumped to his feet and put the ring on as Zakira started crying happy tears, a bright happy smile never leaving her lips and by a small miracle, it fit perfectly and Zakira kissed Sulaimon again before peppering every inch of his face with kisses as he picked her up and spun her around happily as Anna shrieked in happiness and kicked excitedly from her spot in Sully’s arms before Sulaimon put Zakira down so they could go over to her.
Zakira took Anna from Sully and started kissing her all over too before she turned to Sulaimon.
“Daddy.” Zakira said to Anna as she pointed to Sulaimon before placing her hand on Sulaimon’s chest as Sulaimon started to tear up and put his hand over Zakira’s and squeezed affectionately.
“Dada?” Anna repeated as she looked from her mother to Sulaimon before she reached for him. “Dada!” Anna squealed happily again as Sulaimon happily took her and hugged her tightly and started crying as did everyone else.
“That’s right, I’m your Dada, and I’ll be the best Dada I can be and I’ll love you forever.” Sulaimon vowed to Anna who hugged him back before Anna just kept saying ‘Dada!’ over and over and over again as her legs kicked excitedly and she started kissing him all over too as Zakira stood by and cried even more before she came into Sulaimon’s embrace again as Sulaimon hugged his girls tightly and kept going back and forth, kissing one and then kissing the other as everyone cheered which got the daughters of Willow to come and check out what was going on.
“Is everything ok?” They asked as they cautiously came into the canopy.
“Yes! Guess what?!” Zakira asked before she shoved her left hand into their faces before they screamed and squealed in excitement before they hugged her and kissed her and Sulaimon before they grabbed Zakira by the left hand before Zakira grabbed Sulaimon’s hand and happily let them drag her and Sulaimon out of his parent’s canopy and out with the rest of them, all of them squealing the news to their cousins and friends who all rushed over to them. Zakira being the last one to officially get engaged but also being the one that all her friends and extended family had been waiting for and soon Sulaimon was almost overwhelmed with hugs and kisses to the cheeks by all people of Willow while also getting congratulated by all his friends and family as well since they too had followed him out of the canopy, all the mothers and fathers of Willow congratulating Coral and Sully on having Zakira as a future daughter in law.
Especially Zuhrah’s mother Zohar who’s son was Zahir and gave some amazing insights to them about Zakira as well as a lot of well deserved and earned praise and then once Zakira announced that she would be moving to the crown city, all the daughters of Willow who would be doing the same rejoiced before Zuhrah requested to buy Zakira’s house so that her and Riyad could move into it and Zakira immediately agreed and simply requested to come during the harvest time and still collect her grapes to make wine from them to which Zuhrah readily agreed and offered to tend to Zakira’s vines during the year and also offered that when Zakira and her family would come, that they could take half the produce that was ready at that time of year and that if she came during the early harvest which was in summer that she could keep half the produce on the lands then too since Zakira’s lands always produced the most and best produce anyway and Zakira ended up giving most of it away and was more than even the whole village could consume which Zakira readily agreed to as well, Sully and Coral readily agreed to make the trip to Willow at least twice a year and whenever Zakira wished to go and visit which Zakira was especially grateful for.
Then as the afternoon went on, Zakira and Sulaimon walked along the beach and collected seashells and sea glass as they talked about their future and what they wanted and needed from each other which was eye opening yet thrilling and comforting for both of them since they realized they both needed the same things from the other and realized they showed affection in very similar ways too which pleased them both greatly before the winds picked up and the waves got bigger, big enough to surf a little on them. Sulaimon and his siblings and their mates pulling out their surfboards and showing Zakira how to surf which Zakira wasn’t immediately great at but had a lot of fun trying and learning anyway.
Once it got to be dinner time, they went back into the city for dinner, a different restaurant this time which had a different kind of rum punch, this one had lots of mango, coconut and pineapple, where as the other one at lunch seemed to be passion fruit, papaya and pineapple and a special watermelon drink that had special rum poured directly into a watermelon that had a hole bored into the side and then shaken up and then a thick wire inserted to crush the flesh to release the juices held into the flesh and Zakira loving both just as much and drinking them and eating another seafood spread, this one heavy on the crabs, prawns, lobster and a very great variety of fish, fried and in curry sauces with heavenly rice and Zakira got to try mussels which she didn’t particularly care for and all kinds of clams which she did like very much, the smaller ones especially and oysters which she liked too before trying squids and cuttlefish and even an octopus, preferring the stewed and heavily spiced curried ones better than the grilled ones she didn’t care for the tough texture of the grilled ones. All while Sulaimon and his family took mental notes on. Sulaimon hand fed her since her arms were full since she nursed Anna through part of dinner and once Anna was done, Coral got her back and tried feeding her more fish, prawns and lobster since those three tended to be her favorites as Anna seemed to transform into the perfect baby for her new grandparents, also for dinner they seemed to have a few new guests, a lot of the daughters of Willow and their families had come in and Zakila and Shaeen shared a seat as they ate together, Zakila being taken with Shaeen just as much as he was taken with her, the two giggling and murmuring and whispering lowly to each other and Zakira watched on to make sure her cousin still behaved herself while Dalia and Yanni watched their son with much amusement and only hoped this new romance would last, Zakila was absolutely stunning, even for a girl of only 9, they could see she would grow into a devastatingly handsome woman when she grew up. But she wasn’t the only one, a few more girls had found their way to Zakira’s table to eat with the children of Sulaimon’s brothers and sisters, having radiated to the Rakshasa children just like their big sisters had and excited to make new friends.
After dinner, they all went back to the beach to watch the sunset. Sulaimon sitting on his beach lounge chair with Zakira sitting between his legs as she laid back on him while he had one arm around her waist again, this time Zakira lovingly stroked his arm and the back of his hand with both of her hands with her light but super soft blanket over them as Anna laid her head and chest on Sulaimon’s shoulder a small blanket over her as well as she cuddled into his neck while her pelvis and legs rested on Zakira’s shoulder, her eyes growing heavier and heavier as she was tempted to go to sleep early especially when Sulaimon was purring and stroking her back tenderly over the blanket, it had been a big day for her with lots of excitement and new tasty foods and she had taken to the water like a fish and had loved trying to learn how to swim and had splashed and played in the water to her heart’s content and now she was resting on her parents and was happy. Her mama was happy and content and at peace and that seemed to bleed into her too.
Zakira flicked her eyes occasionally from the stunning sunset and her gorgeous engagement ring to her cousin Zakila who was sitting next to Shaeen on his beach lounge chair as Shaeen put his arm around her shoulders as they shared his light blanket since it was getting colder out as the two cuddled close before Zakila surprised Shaeen and herself by kissing Shaeen’s cheek sweetly, giggling softly when his ears laid back bashfully before he stole a kiss from her in turn, making her blush and giggle even more before she buried her face into the crux of his neck and shoulder as she hugged him and Zakira could only smile fondly at how innocent they both were, remembering how Zahir and herself would do that all the time when they were that age. Zakira expected herself to feel guilty over the memory but she didn’t feel anything of the sort. She found herself feeling grateful- that she had Zahir in her life for the time that she did while also being happy that she found happiness again. Somehow she knew that Zahir would be happy and proud of her for continuing to live her life and finding ways of being happy again and being strong enough to move on and love again. Anna fell asleep just as the sun set and was soon snoring softly in Sulaimon’s trained ear as the other families had started fires right on the beach and had even broke out the instruments they brought and had started to play which drew Zakira’s attention as she felt the music truly move her again and grinned when she realized she wanted Sulaimon to dance with her. She picked up the jug of watermelon punch from the sand beside them and took a long pull from it to really relax and feel loose before she sat up and picked up Anna from Sulaimon’s shoulder as he watched her curiously, wondering what she was up to.
“Coral, would you mind holding her for a while?” Zakira asked hopefully.
“Of course Sweetheart.” Coral smiled as she readily took Anna’s sleeping form into her arms since Sully already had his arms full with his two other infant grand children, both of them snoring blissfully away while their parents were cozied up too.
“Come on, dance with me,” Zakira invited as she giddily took Sulaimon’s hand and pulled him off his chair with an excited smile.
“Uh, I can’t really dance but ok...” Sulaimon mumbled as she let him lead him away as his siblings and their mates scrambled to get up and join them, knowing it was going to be a show if their brother who only danced when forced at weddings while being at least half drunk was going to dance as Coral got up too putting her palm over Anna’s ear as her other each was pressed to her chest so the noise of the music and the others wouldn’t wake her while Sully told his attendants to go ahead and start taking everything down so that when his children and their mates were done dancing, they could go home.
“You don’t know how to dance?” Zakira asked Sulaimon as she looked over at him as they walked over.
“Um...ok, I don’t dance well,” Sulaimon confessed.
“Oh, well maybe you just needed to find the right partner.” Zakira grinned cheekily which got Sulaimon to grin in turn. She did have a point.
“Coming to dance with us?” All the girls and young women asked excitedly when they saw her walking over to them, her walking stride matching the beat.
“Yes I am,” Zakira crooned before they all squealed in delight and rushed her to pull her into the center of them dancing before pulling Sulaimon’s sisters and sister’s in law with them too before they all started to dance to the beat, Sulaimon’s sisters along with Aila’s daughters learning how the daughters of Willow danced and learning to dance that way too before Grace started singing her signature song that was titillating and provocative to say the least but the way all the women danced in unison to the song, following Zakira’s lead spoke of it actually being one of her songs and the way they all rode the beat was beyond sexy and Sulaimon and every other man there watched on with hungry eyes and watering mouths and barely concealed hard on’s.
When Grace was done with her song, Hope sang hers and it was like every woman transformed into a belly dancer or even an exotic dancer at a private gentleman’s club but it was again, every girl taking the lead from Zakira and while each young woman put her own twists and flair to each move, Zakira still was the best, Joy had been right. Zakira was, hands down the best dancer, because she was sexy, sultry and classy without being vulgar. Grace though, she was quite vulgar and it seemed to be her mission to get Omar to loose his load in front of the gods and everyone as he danced with her.
“If that’s how Kira danced for her first husband, I’m pretty sure Anna came into existence soon after.” Yanni murmured lowly in Sulaimon’s ear and Sulaimon could only murmur an ‘uh huh’ and a nod in agreement, not even bothering to take his eyes off Zakira, he was practically hypnotized by the sway of her hips, the jiggle of her breasts and the curve of her smile.
“Let me guess, Anna is going to be a big sister tonight.” Murad teased as he bumped Sulaimon’s arm with his own which still didn’t break Sulaimon’s gaze off of her.
“Uh huh,” Sulaimon said more firmly with a more emphatic nod which got his brothers and brothers in law to snicker a laugh before Ziva started singing her song as she got Riyad, the strawberry blonde tiger to sway with her from behind to the sensual beat and rhythm as all the other girls went and grabbed their mates and led them back between the fires all of them not even putting up a fight or anything before Zakira pulled Sulaimon’s arms up and out a bit and then nestled her back against his front as her hands held onto his.
“Ok, try to keep up with me.” Zakira purred over her shoulder giving him a look that Sulaimon swore could melt his clothes off and keep his dick hard forever. And for the first time without much alcohol involved, Sulaimon did his best to move with her and surprised himself and his family when he was able to keep up enough with her. Of course her subtle but completely intentional- grinding her ass into his dick and once she had it squarely in the dip between her butt cheeks and then sliding them up and down his shaft had a lot to do with it too. She had been right, it was all about having the right dance partner. That and the music was very easy to dance to as well, even the King and Queen were dancing the same way they all were.
“Zakira, it’s your turn, sing ‘Drunk In Love’!” all the girls and young women begged and pleaded before Zeena sang her little bit to tempt to try to sing it as the musicians began to play the song all of them giving Zakira hopeful looks.
“I’ll do Zahir’s part.” Zed offered.
“Please?!” They all pleaded which made Zakira laugh and shake her head and hide her blushing face behind her hands as she stopped dancing.
“No,” Zakira shook her head no as she palmed her own burning cheeks.
“Why?!” They all asked.
“I don’t want to embarrass him!” Zakira pointed to Sulaimon over her shoulder.
“Why would I be embarrassed?” Sulaimon asked.
“Well, it’s a very sexual song that usually has a very sensual dance to go along with it.” Zakira informed him.
“Why would that embarrass me? If it would make you happy and if it’s something you want to do, you should do it, don’t worry about me, I’ll be just fine.” Sulaimon reassured her.
“Ok fine,” Zakira quickly caved which got everyone to cheer. “Zed, you can do Zahir’s part if you want to but I’m gonna change my part so go ahead and do what you feel is right.” Zakira grinned as they all squealed in delight, knowing Zakira’s songs that she was inspired with on the spot were always some of her best work as Zakira took a deep breath and did a small voice exercise to make sure her voice wouldn’t crack. “Ok, one more time Zeena.” Zakira bid her before Zeena did her little part as Zakira moved to a rhythm that no drum was playing to but Sulaimon still moved with her because she was currently hiding his hard on and his body demanded that it move with her and to always be moving with her for the rest of it’s life as his hands rested on her waist and hips.
“I been drinkin, I been drinkin, I get filthy when that liquor get into me. I’ve been thinkin, I’ve been thinkin. Why can’t I keep my fingers off it? Baby, I want you, na, na,” Zakira sang out as her hands went to Sulaimon’s thighs and raked up them with her clawed hands to his hips and then his ass and squeezed as Sulaimon paused and tried not to come from just that simple touch as everyone hollered in excitement as they followed suit and their mates were in a similar position Sulaimon was in as the rolled in at the same rhythm her hips were already moving before she continued to sing her song, changing the lyrics to involve more innuendo than anything.
“Can’t keep your eyes off my fatty Daddy, I want you, na na. Drunk in love, I want you….” Zakira grinded herself especially hard when she said ‘Daddy’ with a mischievous grin over her shoulder at him. “We woke up in the kitchen saying ‘how the hell did this shit happen?’ oh baby. Drunk in love. We be all night. Last thing I remember is our beautiful bodies grinding off...” Zakira sang as she practically slithered down Sulaimon’s body, his hands stroking up her sides and back as she went down and back up again, his hands following the same path that they had made on her way down before finding their place on her waist and hips again as Sulaimon’s breath crashed from his lungs, that was hands down, the sexiest thing anyone had ever done to him and he was ready to pick her up and find her horse and jump on it and ride off back home that instant because he needed her like he needed air in his lungs. But they were surrounded by people and spectators and so he could do little else but pull her hard against him and grind subtly back into her. “Drunk in love!” Zakira sang out with a growl in her own voice that Sulaimon could have sworn sounded Rakshasa to him and only turned him on more and as Zakira continued to sing, thankfully the other girls joined in as back up but Zakira’s voice still carried over everyone and everything and was the most beautiful voice anyone from the Crown City had ever heard before. The more she sang and danced, the brighter her smile got as did everyone else’s. The daughters of Willow rejoicing that their favorite daughter had come back to herself. Sulaimon was one lucky man.
After the song ended everyone rejoiced and cheered before Sulaimon just couldn’t take it anymore, he looked over to where their canopy had been to see it had been taken down and the last of their things were being packed up to which he was ever so grateful for because it gave him a reason to pull away from the party.
“Things just got packed up, we should go home My Love, now.” Sulaimon growled sexily in Zakira’s ear before softly nipping her neck and shoulder which made her gasp in delight and the brightest most giddy smile plastered itself on her face again.
“Yup, time to go back.” Zakira nodded in agreement. “Good night guys! Time for us to call it a night.” Zakira bid everyone who wanted hugs and kisses on the cheeks and to give her their congratulations and praise before she was able to pull away and take Sulaimon’s arm once more as they made their way back to the carriages where Sulaimon put on his jacket and Zakira quickly put on her sweater jacket to stave off the chilly night air and got Anna back from Coral and kept her wrapped in her small blanket before getting into the carriage with Sulaimon, her small blanket covering the three of them as they cuddled close but all the blanket did was hide their stroking, Sulaimon stroking up Zakira’s sides and center through the bottoms of her bathing suit while Zakira stroked his still rock hard length through the fabric of his swim trunks until he had close to cumming and had to reach over and stop her hand to keep himself from cumming in the carriage in front of his sister and brother in law and their family who looked to be asleep but still but that didn’t stop him from going back to stroking her center, the pads of his fingers digging into her folds through her bathing suit bottoms before she took his hand and shoved it under her bathing suit before his fingers explored her curiously before finding her clit again and feeling the wetness drench his fingers as he sunk his fingers into her sopping wet core and found that oh so special spot inside her that made her head plow back into his shoulder as she bit her lips and shuddered a breath through her nose as her eyes looked at Dalia and Yanni to make sure they were asleep as she shifted so he could please her more comfortably as she tried to silently enjoy this wonderful pleasure as Sulaimon did his best to use her subdued reactions to guide him and shortly before they got back to the palace, Zakira came around Sulaimon’s fingers, her clit engorging as her inner walls constricted and fluttered around his fingers as she held her breath and fisted her hand into his swim trunks as her head lulled back onto his shoulder as her eyes squeezed shut as her mouth was open in a silent scream as her whole body became tense then lax before she stilled his own hand and gave him the look he had been waiting for all this time, the ‘I’m going to have so much sex with you’ look before she kissed him hungrily before the carriage came to a stop and Sulaimon pulled his hands from her as he quickly but hungrily licked his fingers clean which made Zakira blush deeply before he gathered their stuff as Dalia and Yanni woke up too as the motion of the carriage stopping stirred them awake.
“Hey, would you mind if we came over tomorrow during lunch so we could discuss wedding plans?” Dalia asked.
“Uh, actually I already have a dress and jewelry but sure if you want to.” Zakira agreed.
“Ok, I’ll let my mom and my sisters know. Goodnight Kira, sweet dreams, when and if you actually get a chance to sleep.” Dalia giggled with a wink as Zakira giggled with her.
“Same to you.” Zakira snickered, kissing Dalia’s cheeks before Sulaimon helped her out of the carriage, Sulaimon’s other family leaving their carriages to hug and kiss her goodbye before she and Sulaimon slipped back into the palace with everyone else who had started to come back.
Once inside the room, Sulaimon put Anna into a little bassinette since she was still sleeping soundly before it felt like Zakira practically attacked him, trying to keep kissing him and stripping him out of his clothes as he did the same to her, literally using his claws to sever the strings of her bikini so that she was bared to him before she pinned him to the bed and eased herself down onto him, moaning in sweet relief at feeling filled and stretched again, for the first time since she gave birth as Sulaimon’s eyes nearly rolled backward in pleasure as his hands stroked all over her body, up those killer legs to her hips and waist then to her breasts before they started leaking milk as he then sat up to lick the milk up, his tongue making her shiver and giggle.
“May I?” He asked as he watched even more milk start to dribble out of her nipples.
“Help yourself.” She invited as he licked it up again and closed his mouth over a nipple as his purring became super loud because her milk was, actually so delicious, he almost felt guilty for ‘stealing it’ from Anna but he didn’t think she’d miss it. And the way Zakira was pushing her breast into his mouth and scratching his head, especially behind his ears while she rode him with the same rhythmic movements she had danced to earlier, and moaned at feeling the pressure being built up in her breasts get released was amazing. Even the feel of his arms wrapping around her in between stroking her body all over was amazing before he switched his attention to the other breast liking up the little river of milk dripping down her breast and rib cage, tasting the salt of the ocean on her skin before he rolled them and pinned her to the bed, his mouth kissing her mindless before kissing her neck and chest before kissing even lower, pulling out so he could kiss her ribcage and belly, especially each and every stretch mark she had on her lower belly that the bathing suit had covered up a little, kissing them with care and tenderness that had her eyes watering as she was becoming overwhelmed with emotion, he really did love her, every inch of her, she couldn’t help but feel loved and wanted and desired and sexy and it touched her mind, heart and soul, before he gave a teasing lick to her folds while he looked up from between her legs with a fire in his eyes that stole her breath away and had her gushing again as his tongue continued to lick and speared her folds, licking at her entrance hungrily, he never would have thought such a thing would have tasted so good, but it did and he it was driving him wild with lust and when his nose rutted up against her nub, her legs wrapped around his head as she writhed and made the most delicious sounds his ears had ever devoured.
“Sula, please, please, please,” Zakira pleaded desperately as he was getting her close to her second orgasm and when he traded his tongues for his fingers again so his tongue could sweetly torture her nub as he closed his lips around her clit and sucked hard, it was all over, her legs squeezed his head as her toes curled and her whole body shuddered and convulsed as her belly fluttered as her chest heaved and her voice cut off as she called out his name which was music to his ears as she clawed at the bedding as Sulaiman rode out her orgasm and drank her cream up greedily, his loud purring a constant and even causing his tongue to have a slight vibrating quality which only made the sensations that much more potent.
“Holy shit, wooow.” Zakira panted as she came down from her high and caught her breath.
“Thanks,” Sulaiman grinned as gave her swollen woman hood one last teasing lick which caused her to shiver before he kissed his way back up her body.
“You ok? Or do you need a minute?” He asked with the smuggest grin ever.
“How did you get that good at that?” Zakira asked as she playfully narrowed her eyes at him.
“Uh, honestly, I usually suck at that, I’ve only done that once before and she nearly clawed my face off after like 20 minutes and she wasn’t getting any closer, but then again, young, stupid, didn’t have a clue what I was doing and I was half drunk, and it was my sister Hazine’s wedding which was...like...five years ago? Because Kareem is 4 now.” Sulaimon answered honestly.
“So how did you go from that to..well that magnificence you just gave me if you haven’t had practice?”  Zakira posed curiously.
“Uh, honestly Lomi and some of the others have been giving me pointers for, uh, well three weeks now.” Sulaimon admitted.
“Wow,” Zakira smiled happily. “Lucky me, ok, I’ve rested, back on the horse.” Zakira teased as she wrapped her legs around his waist and guided him toward her center as he snorted a laugh and kissed her softly before he reached down between them to line himself up with her entrance before he didn’t warn her and just sheathed himself to the hilt in her as her whole body writhed again as her mouth hung open as a moan spilled from her throat as her eyes closed as her hands went to his back to scratch and claw down that because his elbows were placed on either side of her head to keep most of his weight off of her so as not to crush her and her scratching cause his own eyes to close in serenity as his purring almost became a growl that and the feeling of being sheathed in her was the best feeling ever. She was heavenly, inside and out as his hips suddenly started to snap into hers, finding a natural rhythm and made love to her and worshiped her body with his own and only when she got to three orgasms did he finally let himself loose in her and stuffed her full and when they had recovered, he rolled over to lay next to her as she got Anna out of her bassinet and cuddled Anna between them as the three of them finally fell asleep.
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Hnghhh why does it require e f f o r t and p a t i e n c e and p r a c t i c e to get good at art????? I need to be good immediately and things i want to see appear at a snap of my fingers.......
Read more for what became an accidental full rant about why ive yet to post anything besides that one thing idkkkk
Aka im TRYING to be good and practice little by little but its BORING and difficult to not get immediate reward.... Also because for whatever reason i really dont wanna watch tutorials so im tryna be all self taught kinda and im OBVIOUSLY making a lot of mistakes like its part of the process but its FRUSTRATING
Basically im on my 6th??? Idk restart attempt at the same fennec portrait and its. Okay. Its at a point where im like nice as long as i suffer over the details here itll be decent ish. Probably.
But its not REWARDING.....
I know i want to do screencaps and character and face studies to get to the point of good art i wish i could be but .... I also just wanna draw like fun fic scenes and silly doodles of characters like some of the cool artists i follow do but i CANT because im not GOOD ENOUGH yet. ;(((((((
Yea i could post sketches or whatver i manage in a night but like who the fuck wants to follow that? Nah... I just idk. I DONT KNOW i dont know what my art goals are (i do, but DO I??)
My brain also obviously doesnt work very well visually which is GREAT so like, any original work its a lot like 'i'll know its right when i see it' but getting next to no other direction and you just gotta be like right. Okay uhhh my anatomy skills are stunted from when i was like 16?? Perspective?? Detail?? WHATS THE COLOR SCHEME
Never mind that i just... Dont understand the program or brushes that well idk why. Krita should be good and im too stressed to experiment different softwares.... BLEGH
i just. Part of me aches to go back to traditional for a bit but i just, dont have the means to make the scale of work i want ro produce with traditional materials yknow?? Maybe i should try just sketching scanning and then lining on computer again idk. At least for some of these face things.
Ok so my GOAL is to always have a very recognizable face. Like. I guess i cant hold myself to photorealism standards because hahahhah id die! But like, i want the face to be looked at and go ah yes! Its that guy! That actress! My friend! Me! Whoever! But like, recognizable. Because i know i CAN thats what i do! Thats all ive been good at !!!!
And like yeah i could hone that, yknow? Work on face studies and mini portraits of all my favourite actors and scenes and shit. Cool right?? Yeahh that could be sickaroni macaroni. People like faces they can recognize and good refined work. I can do that
But i want to be MORE
Id love love love to make like. Scenic paintings. Concept art level atmosphere and color and light and presence and as tory telling yknow?? Id like to substitute the literally colorless fog inside my head into vivid scenes. Id like to try and take the fics that in my head are set in ??? Space with some movement here and there and just idk emotions? Into fleshed out SCENES with backdrops and accurate anatomy and WEIGHT and like, everything incredible that i admire in true art.
But thats hard, yknow? I havent really ever done backgrounds and what i have have been so flat. I dont KNOW how to do that (here i would be willing to have a teacher i think but. Im tired. I cant even seek out a short term therapist for myself how am i gonna find the kind of teacher i want?? Because of course i want them to teach me how to achieve whata inside my dreams and not what they know how to do ykno)
Yeah so i want to try and paint screencaps in the meantime. See if i cant struggle my way to fit this putty of skill into a square box. Like i think i can paint. Digitally? Somewhat idk?? Maybe if i just. Keep trying itll work out?? Start with simpler ones and build up to complexity??
But also. If im juat trying to get myself to love art again, why am i trying to throw myself in the deep end of struggling with something im not good at?? Shouldnt i be just refining what i already know? Like. A character! Standing. Maybe in a cooler pose if going crazy. Refining basic anatomy. How does fabric work? How does hair work? Can i make expressions seem realistic?
Next step, could i make a picture of someone without direct reference?? Like. Could i draw maybe a wee dinluke holding eachother or whatever and like. Just. Do it?? Without doing a version of photoshopping two pics of the actors through art together. Idk.
Also NONE of this makes sense to anyone outside my head and im SORRY
Like i dont even have a resolution at the end here!!! Im just FRUSTRATED!!!
I wanna draw, i wanna have results and success and rewarding experiences. But i also want ro challenge myself and do super complex shit and like really push myself to learn impressive difficult shit and be proud of down the line.
Im so tired. I cant even feel ok drawing without having someone on call with me to alleviate the immense pressure of frustration and anxiety and stress and struggle!!
I just. Wanna enjoy it
Okay fine i need to find a show or smth to 'watch'
And tomorrow? I might whip out a sketchbook thats been last used 8 years ago and. Ignore everything in it hahhaha its bad
But no im gonna. Im gonna draw scenes. With minimal reference
I might make a face collage i definitely wanna for pascal and mar camel
But im gonna put PENCIL to PAPER and get to the roots of MY HAND CAN DRAW just give her a chance, and get your brain outta the game.
Ok so fuck me this rant has to end here or ill never stop
If you read this (i dont expect ANYONE to have) send me like a message or whatever lol imma need to ask if youre ok <3
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