#and instead start disco elysium

[tendercoretroglodyke]

nothing ive seen about disco elysium particularly interests me but some of my mutuals enjoyed it and i heard a glowing review about it on a video game podcast and it's on sale for $10 rn so. i guess I'll try it 🤷

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Siffrin plays Disco Elysium AU: Featuring backseat gamer Loop.

[lycantropy14]

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[ginnuy]

YOU - There is an otherworldly, sexy mystery carved somewhere deep in your head.

INLAND EMPIRE - Be honest with yourself, Harry. These feelings have been here for a long, long time.

YOU - You feel... something. Something deep, dark and primal is calling to you, though it's hard to find the right words to describe it.

LOGIC - Perhaps the word "animalistic" would be most accurate.

ELECTROCHEMISTRY - That sounds right. Something about the intensity of Kim's presence is making you want to pound your chest and make a noise…

YOU - The logical part of your brain, the small and weak part, the part that's always been easily overpowered by the more animalistic parts, finally understands what you want. The man in the bomber jacket stirs something inside you. Something hot, something primal.

PHYSICAL INSTRUMENT- You are a *Homo sapien* with animal instincts. You are such a goddamn Homo sapien, you should growl and grunt and rip your shirt open!

VOLITION - I was more thinking about something raw, carnal, and utterly untamed. The sort of thing has gotten you in trouble before.

Grab Kim by the shoulders and howl.

Rip your shirt open and pound your chest in a primal manner.

Sit back and think about it.

"No, I’d rather not think about this."

YOU - You feel your chest swell and your body start pumping with testosterone. "Grr... Grr..."

YOU - You let loose with a low, raw murmur that catches both of you off guard.

KIM KITSURAGI - His gaze freezes over, his eyes narrow and widen as he considers your display of physical domination.

PERCEPTION - Kim has clearly never heard a more masculine growl in all of his life.

ESPRIT DE CORPS - He likes it.

[b-ll-cks]

this was supposed to be a stupid doodle but now I feel bad

[inblackwoods]

Protective

[clickityweasel]

this is scruffy bc i zoned out and when i returned there was a pinball machine. i dont know how it got here

[sygneth]

Okay it's time for more of jeanalysis, haven't posted any for a week and that can't be

I have been thinking a bit more about how Jean we see in the playthrough is not a good representation of himself, and a few more things came to my mind.

RCM is a source of ongoing trauma. Let's put aside the job itself, the bodies, the crime scenes, and the terror of that all. Most of the officers we hear about are either brutal, toxic masculinity embodiments (often both), or not high in the ranks enough to be able to make change. Jean's partner is, for months now, always drunk, high, or both, and he (Jean) is the one who has to bear the consequences of Harry's behavior. And the citizens they are technically supposed to serve, hate the police (and rightly so). And let's add it's not a 9-5 job but a duty. For an averagely sensitive person, this is a whole lot to fuck with their head. Not to say for a more sensitive one*.

So yeah, having to deal with that all, he had to develop some sort of coping mechanisms and with fucking Revacholian/Elysian mentality and awareness of mental health, they couldn’t be very healthy right? Yeah. Especially if you take that toxic masculinity (that shows not only in the RCM but most likely the whole uneducated on the matter society of poorer districts of Revachol. Hell, wealthier districts too, it’s a general problem always and everywhere in patriarchal societies, just look at us here on Earth 2023, Poland for that matter is a great example) into consideration. No wonder he channels all his emotions into anger, because. Anger is “masculine”. Anger is acceptable. It’s fine to be angry and it’s fine to get aggressive when you are. They won’t judge for that, what is more, they’ll likely clap if you snap at someone or go and break something.

Being grumpy and sarcastic all the time? Welp. Considering that he got to spend most of his time in a surrounding that constantly traumatizes him, one gets to get bitter. (Let me get somewhat personal for a moment and just say that I have been suffering from high-functioning depression for years now, no meds seem to work here, and I have no means of doing anything more than I already did, with the shitty medical services that we have here and no money for private docs. And whenever I have to deal with people who trigger my traumas I get all spikey. And trust me, I try not to, but I can’t always control it. So yeah, here is also that. And that’s me, living in 2023 on Earth.) And just look! The more triggering factors, the more spikey he gets! How come?

(At the precinct he is grumpy alright, but he’s not really that aggressive until Harry calls. Same in the Whirling or during the trial. When he talks to Judit, Kim, or Cuno, he’s much better than when he talks to Harry. The fact that they had a great fallout just a few days ago that he probably hasn’t yet recovered emotionally from only adds here, as he is actively angry with Harry. And here look what I said before about channeling emotions.)

I feel like there could be a nice conclusion here but there is nothing more to add here, I suppose. Just that there are chances he is actually a nicer guy than we get to see and that I think there is hope for him, even in his reality.

*(Well we could of course argue whether he is or is not a sensitive person, but I’ll just say that you don’t catch the depression or addiction from thin air, these are in the majority of the cases results of someone being sensitive and not knowing healthy ways to deal with their emotions, so here’s that. Also, he apparently writes poetry (?), come on. (source: Jean&Harry’s desk promo, for those who missed that one (if you did then go and read this thread this is fucking mine of gold)))

[brainrotdotorg]

[Fc]1827.STEBAN, THE STUDENT COMMUNIST - "But to be perfectly frank, I just don't see it happening."

[Fc]1486.ECHO MAKER - "Steban, a moment..." The young man's companion beckons him into a private conference.

[Fc]981.STEBAN, THE STUDENT COMMUNIST - "What... really? You're saying... but there's no way... uh huh... yes, okay, I'm listening..."

[Fc]437.EMPATHY - A note of real uncertainty in his voice.

passive check (requires approx. 2 in Empathy)

[Fc]1828.STEBAN, THE STUDENT COMMUNIST - "Alright, gendarme." He turns back to you. "Comrade Ulixes and I have conferred about it, and we've come up with an alternative way for you to convince us of your commitment to the group."

[Fc]404.YOU - "What's that?"

[Fc]1284.STEBAN, THE STUDENT COMMUNIST - The young man gives his companion an uncertain glance. The companion nods his head vigorously.

[Fc]93.STEBAN, THE STUDENT COMMUNIST - "I want you... to hit me."

via fayde. decided to finally figure out the context of slapping steban and. wow. youre kidding. was anyone going to tell me that it was uli, a known sadist, who suggested this. hello?? fucking hello. the fact that drives me even more insane is that he says THIS

[Fc]135.ECHO MAKER - "It doesn't have to be a *hard* hit." He indicates his cheek. "Just enough to leave a mark."

jesus god. yeah you really are an open-minded little group aren't you. fucking christ

[57sfinest]

actually i do want to make this a post. it’s so interesting to think about harry from other people’s perspectives, especially if they’re people who were around him before martinaise. because the thing about harry is: he’s a spectacle. there is not a single person left to him who genuinely *cares*. but there are people who take an interest for interest’s sake. harry is the car crash that people can’t look away from, and it’s such a rich lens to view him through.

let’s exclude jean, judit and trant because there’s already enough you can say about them as the sole remaining members of the major crimes unit. think of the other officers who worked at the 41st. whether they worked in c-wing with him or not, they were exposed to him. they had to be around him in some capacity. as a lieutenant, he was “responsible” (i use that term loosely) for overseeing a number of subordinates under the rank system. 

like put yourself in the shoes of a patrol officer at the 41st. you know harry as, in a word, unstable. a deeply unreliable man of extremes with alarmingly few personal attachments to keep him in check. he’s also practically untouchable as long as he keeps getting results, which he does, at a cost. so there’s never any point in formally complaining about him- he’s never going to be corrected or fired, so you just do one of the following: 1) keep your mouth shut (if you’re polite or playing it safe), 2) only bitch about him out of earshot (if you’ve got something to say but you’re nonconfrontational), 3) start shit with him but in a “playful” way that is secretly sincere (if you’re ballsy/have known him long enough), 4) or start shit with him for real (if you’re jean, or have a death wish). 

and the thing about the last two of those options- *especially the 3rd, which seems to be the favorite of his fellow C-wingers*- you have to know him VERY WELL to pull it off without ostensibly getting your nose broken (or worse). you have to know his moods and his triggers and what exact cocktail of bullshit he’s displaying that day so you know where the line is for this particular shift. whoever figures it out first passes it along to everyone else- hey, you can fuck with him about dating today, but don’t bring up the drinking or last week’s case or he’ll go ballistic. and it’s just like... he’s a specimen. you may not know him on a personal heart-to-heart level, but you know him the way a zookeeper knows their tigers, or the way the falconer knows their hawk. you know when to feed and when to back away with your arms up. it doesn’t make things better, but it stops them getting worse. (for you, anyway).

then martinaise happens and if he comes back- his instability is still there, but it’s not the same. you don’t recognize the way he’s acting. maybe some things are not as bad as before, but all of it is different and it’s impossible to get a read on it. you have no idea how to approach him now, or if you should approach him at all. there’s a new layer to his unreliability and it’s somehow even scarier than before. there’s a tiny tiny calm in his storm, finally, and you don’t know when it’s going to break or what’s going to break it. you hear he’s finally actually kicking the booze and maybe you just scoff and move on, or maybe you let yourself root for him. really it all depends on how long you’ve known him, how many times you’ve seen him *try*. how sympathetic you are to his conditions and how patient of a person you are. how many times he’s hurt you (because that number is rarely going to be zero). no matter what, you’re going to be left wondering. you don’t know how much of him is gone. you don’t know how much is going to come back. you’re not sure how much of each you *want*.

[disco-elysium-sideblog]

hey! can we see your playthrough notes?

You absolutely can! A lot of them have made it into my posts in one way or another, so it probably won't be a lot thoughts people haven't seen before, but I'm happy to share! It's definitely fun to look back on now that I know more about the game. These notes were intended just for me to organize my thoughts so they might not make a lot of sense to other people, or be phrased in the best possible way. Also TW for a self harm mention

I hope it's everything you hoped for lol

[poorlittlevampirebaby]

invitation, mary oliver / disco elysium

[shotbyafool]

no but seriously Disco Elysium is not for the weak of heart. Kim literally watches Harry do the dumbest shit imaginable and just… goes along with it. makes a sarcastic jab or two. carefully assesses his poor taste in sunglasses like it’s a serious case. he actually makes me insane, he’s quite frankly the most outstanding character imaginable.

[unitedstates0fdakota]

Playing Disco Elysium has had such an impact on me cuz my brain already worked like that but now I have better visuals for the plethora of voices shooting my random thoughts at any given moment like

INLAND EMPIRE [Medium: Success] - Playing this game is more than fun, isn't it? You're feeling *inspired*, maybe inspired enough to consider a new name...

CONCEPTUALIZATION [Medium: Failure]- Disco. Disco would be a great name.

ELECTROCHEMISTRY [Trival: Success] Disco, baby!

YOU- ...Is that really all i've got?

INLAND EMPIRE [Trivial: Success] - Probably, yeah.

GAUDY BANDANA- Disco rocks! Think about how well it would go with your gloves! And your bandana!

VOLITION [Trivial: Success] - Or don't think about it. At all.

[Dismiss thought]

[eudico-my-beloved]

tryna do a run with max stats and downloaded this mod called disco explorer but man. i dont know how to install it properly and now theres a bunch of files in my disco elysium folder

[inblackwoods]

Trying to teach myself how to paint, send thoughts and prayers

Starting with the most basic introductory painting concepts. I'll work on it until I feel good enough to implement what I learn into the style I usually work in, which relies on line. It's a pretty relaxing process.