#and she makes terrible choices and treats people badly! Also sometimes boring

[hwu-adventures-blog]

Giving In (Hunt x HWU!MC):

A/N: Hi! So I was bored ( and I don’t want to revise for an exam I have in two days) and I realised, hold on? Do you know what I haven’t done in a while? Written a Hunt x MC or a Hollywood U fanfic (even though Hollywood U has ended 😢)... so let’s do that! I busted this out in about an hour. Also I got the dialogue off YouTube because I haven’t played the date yet. So here it is.. (spoilers for Hunt date: the dinner date)

Professor Thomas Hunt had done it. He’d finally snapped. He could not put up with Maddie Jenkins’ ridiculousness and persistence any longer so, naturally he had shut her down and she’d disappeared. He’d thought he’d finally won, that she’d stopped it, that she’d finally learned her lesson. Except, clearly she hadn’t because he found her in his bedroom of all places! And she had pulled him by the jacket into the room with her! He was so angry that she’d go to this length to try and date him! That she’d try to maybe seduce him then and there! He was- he was livid!

However, the thing was, that was a completely lie. Thomas wasn’t angry or livid, even. He was frustrated that his attempts so far had failed, sure, but he had secretly hated turning her away, hated choosing his career at Hollywood U over a potential relationship for the second time, it broke his heart when she ran out of the cellar clearly torn to bits, and he knew that, despite Maddie’s flaws (of which there were a quite a few), she was nothing but honest and would not try anything with him unless he wanted it. Which he did. He wanted so badly to be with her. Why? Because, Thomas Orson Hunt, was head over heals in love with his student, and that was that. However, his pride would not and could not let him give into this emotional train wreck that would become a potential relationship if he let it. He had to play to the charade and hope that would be enough to keep his feelings at bay one more time. Then maybe, just maybe, she would finally get the hint.

“What do you think you’re doing, Maddie?”

The brown haired student looked at him with a challenging look on her face.

“I’m trying to have a conversation with you. Why have you been avoiding me all night?” She explained “I don’t deserve to be treated like this”

Thomas didn’t quite know what to say to that. She had been hurt, by him, she deserved better than this.

“You... you’re right.” He said coldly

“What?” Her blue eyes (which had become Hunt’s favourite shade of blue by the way) widened in suprise, taken aback by the professor’s comment but Thomas, ever the professional ex-actor didn’t not falter his stern expression once.

“You’re right, okay? You do deserve better. But I had no choice but to avoid you”

Maddie’s expression hardened again, upon hearing his terrible explanation as Thomas had expected it would

“What? That doesn’t even make any sense”

“I had to put some distance between us, since you always insist on closing the gap. You were like that at the masquerade, on that movie set, and especially on that date auction”

Maddie expression softened at this and she looked rather apologetic to Thomas’ surprise, he had expected her to stand her ground which she had done in the past plenty of times to varying results.

“I- I’m sorry how I behaved before, I know I’ve been pushy in the past, but it was the only way to get you to open up to me. You’re so stubborn sometimes!”

Oh he was well aware of his stubbornness Extremely aware, and it was once again becoming his downfall or giving him success, he wasn’t so sure at this moment.

“I want us to be together. But i want you to want it too” Maddie frowned before perking up enough to ask him a question “look, I think already know the answer to this but... do you want to be with me? Or would you rather be with Marianne?”

What?

Thomas didn’t look at her or reply, he looked at the floor. But he could feel her look on him, it was that heartbroken look from the wine cellar. The look that had been given to him before she wandered off and ended up in his room.

“That’s what I thought. I guess this has all been a waste of my time. I’ll see you in class, Professor...”

Her voice trailed off and she turned to leave, residing herself too the fact that it was all over and Thomas realised she was giving up! He’d won! He should be happy about this! relieved! So.. why wasn’t he happy? Why wasn’t he feeling relieved? He was making a mistake, letting her go, that’s why. Screw professionalism! Screw fighting it ! He loved her and he was not prepared to lose her forever! So he wrapped an arm around her waist and looked at her, with a look that could be close to begging, a look of guilt. Of sadness. He just couldn’t let her leave!

“Don’t go...”

Maddie Jenkins felt Thomas wrap his arms around her and she leaned into his embrace.

“Don’t go, Maddie”

“I don’t have much of a reason to stay do I? I mean, you basically told me you didn’t want me, you’ve made your choice, and your choice is Marianne” Maddie said her voice, sounding the most heartbroken it had been since, well, ever. Thomas broke the embrace and folded his arms in confusion.

“I’m not interested in her. Don’t you get it?” Thomas said the sternness in his voice returning but there was a slight hint of amusement in his voice as well.

“Get what?”

“I knew I couldn’t spend an evening with you in my house without something happening... I needed a way to prevent us from... well, ending up where we are now” his voice had gotten less stern again with the explanation and he’d become more relaxed, his arms returning to his sides. This man is definitely a rollercoaster with his emotions, Maddie thought to herself jokingly thinking back to one of her first encounters with the man in front of her. But another thought replaced that one relatively quickly. And her eyebrow raised in her confusion.

“So I’m supposed to believe that Marianne was what? A defence? Against me?”

“Yes, on paper, Marianne may seem like the perfect person for me. And we do have a history together. But she and I don’t work well in real life. Believe it or not, it’s possible for someone to have too much criticism in a relationship”

“So, what is she then?”

“A friend. That’s it.”

Thomas looked deeply into Maddie’s eyes, as their eyes connected, Maddie noticed, not for the first time his were the perfect shade of brown. No, they were not just the perfect shade but the perfect shade. Not too dark, not too light, but slap bang in the middle. She didn’t think a perfect shade of brown was possible, well, until Professor Hunt came along and introduced her to her new, favourite shade of her least favourite colour.

“You’re the one I want, Maddie. The one I’ve wanted”

This was a dream right? A really, really good dream.... was this really happening? That he really wanted her? This had to be a dream right? She mentally pinched herself. Yeah, no this was not a dream.

“Thomas...”

Maddie suddenly couldn’t take it any longer, she wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him in for a kiss and Thomas returned it immediately, pulling her closer to him as he did. After a moment, Maddie pulled away, needing to breath of course, and Thomas rested his forehead against hers, his eyes closed, smiling softly at her. Maddie suddenly realised that as great as this was, she probably had to go back downstairs or people would get suspicious that both her and the host were missing.

“Thomas I-”

“Not yet”

He leaned in for another kiss, clearly not ready to let her go yet. This one was longer and Maddie had to admit, sweeter, like he had been waiting for this for so long and the thought (and quite possibly the kiss) made her giddy and when he had finally pulled away, Thomas and Maddie both knew, deep down, even though it sounded cliché and like a trope from a romantic comedy or any cheesy romance film, that this was meant to be.

[pass-the-bechdel]

Crazy Ex-Girlfriend season three full review

How many episodes pass the Bechdel test?

100% (thirteen of thirteen).

What is the average percentage per episode of female characters with names and lines?

41.16%

How many episodes have a cast that is at least 40% female?

Seven, so just over half. Three of those are 50%+.

How many episodes have a cast that is less than 20% female?

Zero.

How many female characters (with names and lines) are there?

Twenty-four. Thirteen who appeared in more than one episode, five who appeared in at least half the episodes, and two who appeared in every episode.

How many male characters (with names and lines) are there?

Thirty-nine. Eighteen who appeared in more than one episode, seven who appeared in at least half the episodes, and one who appeared in every episode.

Positive Content Status:

Not nearly as good as you might expect or hope. As with previous seasons, the show’s most impressive content is not the feminist stuff at all, and on the feminist front it feels sometimes as if the show spends more time denouncing different aspects of the feminist movement as ‘the wrong kind of feminism’ than it does declaring and upholding the aspects it does approve. I tend to feel that it spends time talking the talk on women’s issues, but doesn’t often get up to walk the walk (average rating of 3).

General Season Quality:

Easily better than the previous two seasons, despite a deflated ending. It takes a much more focused approach to its storytelling in the beginning of the season, in a manner which briskly becomes refreshingly confronting and leads in to a powerful middle. Unfortunately, it never sustains quality for very long, and overall the show still suffers for being too easily distracted. It’s not infuriating, but it can be frustrating.

MORE INFO (and potential spoilers) under the cut:

Ok, let me explain something about myself first, something I’ve mentioned in other (non-Crazy Ex) posts which have gone live long before this one will, but for anyone who missed it in any of those other places, here it is: I am, right now, pregnant. In fact, I am pregnant with a child conceived non-traditionally with a gay friend of mine, and as such, Darryl’s non-traditional quest for biological parenthood in this season struck a very personal chord (though, unlike Darryl, I used the phone-a-friend option as my first choice, not a fallback. Would recommend, if it’s ever relevant to your life). I bring all of this up because I can categorically declare that there are certain plot threads that you absolutely will NOT have the same reaction to if you don’t have that very personal chord being struck, and even moreso if that chord is relevant to your life right now, rather than being something that you’ve experienced in the past but has since slipped from the forefront of your attention. Thus, when I talked about feeling like the emphasis was in all the wrong places for Darryl’s part of the narrative, and expressed irritation with Heather’s pregnancy and birth? I sure ain’t mad about it for no reason. I am extremely, extremely aware of what those processes are actually like right the heck now.

I’m not going to linger on all the details, but I am particularly annoyed at the writers for dropping the ball on the pregnancy/birth part, specifically because it’s something which is so often badly dramatised in tv and film already, and the writers not only know that, they openly reference it as if they’re somehow doing better. The same way that medical professionals sometimes find it too frustrating to watch hospital dramas because of all their inaccuracies, or someone in law enforcement might cringe their way through all the egregious breaches in procedure in a cop show, there’s always a significant risk that anything depicted in fiction will make you want to tear your hair out over the way the plot warps or disregards reality that is pertinent to your life, either through a lack of proper research or understanding of the subject matter, or a conscious choice to prioritise desired storytelling beats/developments over actual logic and realism. Suffice to say there are a LOT of concessions Crazy Ex-Girlfriend asked me to make to their storytelling with this little subplot, some of which most people who have never been pregnant wouldn’t notice, and yes, some of which I would probably dismiss if I were not in the midst of the reality right now. I’m someone who has been present at actual births before and has been raised with an above-average understanding of what’s involved, so I’m used to gritting my teeth and hoping to just not be too annoyed by the way pregnancy and birth is typically depicted on screen. The fact that I am currently immersed in the reality of preparing to give birth makes me less forgiving of fictional contrivances, yes, but in the case of this show’s approach, it’s also more than that: it’s the fact that this show actively promotes itself as a feminist text. And if you’re gonna do that, and criticise the way other things (”written by men!”) depict labour, but then you also choose not to include any education/empowerment of your pregnant character, rattle off a variety of (uneducated, disempowered) cliches anyway, and then handwave it all with ‘nevermind, she just got an epidural!’ as if that ‘solves’ the difficulties of birth (and post-birth recovery, for that matter), frankly that’s just...a really unimpressive failure of feminist storytelling. Congratulations, you neglected the subject completely, at the same time as actively claiming your intent to do better than all that written-by-men schlock out there! What a tiresome charade this turned out to be.

Setting that aside though (difficult for me, as I am...very preoccupied with it), there was actually a good lot of things to like about this season, even if I do still feel that I ultimately have more criticisms than I do praise. Having Rebecca actually reach crisis point in the form of a suicide attempt, and consequently getting a diagnosis for her mental disorder and finally being able to move forward in learning to live a balanced life with BPD? Frankly, it’s not a move that I anticipated, and if you’d asked me where I thought Rebecca’s mental health plot was heading, I probably would have just shrugged it off as an unfocused thread where the ultimate goal was just ‘figure out how to be happy on your own terms instead of defining happiness through someone else’ (which is solid advice, but generalised advice, not something that would require the show to commit to a genuine mental illness). Acknowledging that Rebecca’s behaviour comes from a more distinct source than just the nebulous idea of being ‘crazy’ is a vitally important development, and it ushered in some of the best storytelling the show has offered thus far, at least when the plot maintained steady focus and made an effort to be responsible and mature in its exploration of the issue. As ever, there were still times when the show used Rebecca’s mental state for comic relief in a manner which made me uncomfortable, and times when I couldn’t interpret the intentions of the narrative - I have come to the conclusion that this show and I are on completely different wavelengths, which makes us a bad match, regardless of any elements which I do appreciate. 

On the subject of things I appreciate, I’m going to discuss the true character highlight of the show, someone I wanted to talk about after last season, not realising that if I held off until this review instead, he was gonna wind up so terribly underused in the meantime that it’s almost weird that he’s still technically part of the main cast at this point: Josh Chan. Josh Chan is...kinda the most believable part of this show, both in the bumbling good-natured balance of the character himself, and in other character’s feelings about him. Being able to buy the idea that someone would give up their whole life as they knew it to chase after this guy is kinda important to selling the concept of the show from the outset, and honestly, Josh Chan is the only time I’ve ever seen a central male love interest for whom the hype seemed to make sense. Is he perfect? Not by a long shot, but that’s fine because ‘perfection’ is as conditional as it is unattainable. The problem with male love interests, often, is that they’re written by heterosexual men who treat the character as some kind of masculine wish-fulfillment, a combination of ‘guy I wish I could be’ and ‘guy I think women should want (me)’. Josh Chan is a great example of a love interest written by women for women: he displays positive masculine-coded traits (protective, physically capable), while rejecting negative, toxic-masculine elements (aggression, possessiveness), and he embraces key ‘feminine’ traits (non-threatening, kind, soft, emotionally expressive, family-oriented), while his flaws are unobtrusive and potentially even endearing (the main one is that he’s quite stupid, which is something a lot of straight women will happily admit to liking (at least in theory), and other traits such as Josh’s childish streak can be a source of joy under some circumstances, as well as being something Josh mostly keeps a hold on so that it doesn’t become a burden to his partners). Also, it would be remiss of me to neglect to mention how refreshing and meaningful it is to have an Asian male love interest. I really enjoy not being bored to death by Josh Chan, and I am annoyed at how little of him we got this season while we wasted time with that generic slice of white bread, Nathaniel. Bring back the Chan plots, season four. Do it for me.

[cursebreakerhawk-blog]

A not so Brief History of the Hawk Family (+family tree)

(hope you can see something in this terrible pic)

Summary: Backstory of a family of Slytherin purebloods, how the oldest son fell in love with a muggle, ran away with her, and made all the wrong choices in his life. A brief description of their sons, and their fate. Please don’t ignore, I know it’s long, but it’s not boring, I promise.

The Hawks, not unlike the Gaunts, the Malfoys, and the Blacks, were a long lineage of pureblood Slytherins, which would not have been very good for Finn’s character, if he had actually met any of them.

Let’s elaborate. Finn’s dad, Cordelius Hawk, was the oldest of the Hawk boys. Him, his little brother Evander and their parents, Gertrud and Marcellus, lived in an enormous mansion in the south of Scotland. Gertrud and Marcellus were unemployed, living of their family’s fortune. While Marcellus, who was much older than his wife, liked to spend his days out in pubs, Gertrud was always at home, taking care of the boys. (not a very functional marriage, but who said they were functional people?)

They were not the nicest of folks: Marcellus got into numerous fights with other wizards at pubs, having even killed one, once, with a very nasty curse he invented himself. Gertrud, on the other hand, had the unfortunate habit of hexing anything that came remotely close to their gigantic garden, including poor, unaware birds and squirrels, and a child’s kite. They both were supporters of Grindelwald during the first wizarding war.

While Evander was fascinated by watching their mother hex everyone, Cordelius found it disgusting. Without their mother’s knowledge, he would even take some of the wounded animals back to his room and try to nurse them back to health. He was always very peaceful, very tactful, good enough to bother his parents. That said, Evander was too dumb and brutal to win their afection as well.

One morning, the Hawk parents were out on a meeting with their fellow Grindelwald supporters, and Cordelius (who was 26 at the time) was taking care of Evander (who was 16), and while their parents usually let him use magic at home, despite being underage, Cordelius wasn’t fond of bending the law to let him practice dark magic in the garden. 

A few minutes past 11 AM, a curious muggle kid walked by the fence, and, channeling his inner Gertrud, Evander charmed a large rock to fly in her direction. Cordelius had left his wand in his bedroom, and had no way of stopping his brother from seriously hurting the kid other than jumping in front of the rock and catching it. That’s what he did, after taking a murderous glance at his little shit of a brother.

‘Are you alright?’, he asked the kid, while Evander ran back into the house.

‘I am.’, she answered, ‘Could you explain to me what happened?’.

‘My retarded younger brother thought it would be fun to throw a rock at you.’, he said, carefully, to avoid mentioning magic.

The kid turned red with anger.

‘Well, I hope you tell your parents about that!’, she said.

‘I’m afraid they would take his side. I would end up being punished for helping you.’, he confided, ‘I think the best thing you can do is not walk by this house ever again... For your own safety.’

‘Can I at least know your name?’

‘Cordelius Hawk.’

‘Thanks for defying your family to save me, Cordelius Hawk. I’m Amelia Watson.’

Cordelius noticed that Evander was coming back to the garden.

‘It was nice to meet you, Amelia. Now, run!’

She did. Cordelius knew his parents would never let him hear the end of it if they found out, so it was time for a desperate measure. He flew past his little brother, who was now out in the garden, got into his room, grabbed his wand and pointed it at Evander, through the window. ‘Obliviate!’, he muttered, and the incident was never spoken of, at least for the next 14 years.

*

It was really late, one night, when the doorbell rang at the Hawk mansion. Gertrud came downstairs, in her night robes, her concealed wand in one of the pockets. Cordelius was carefully watching through his window, but he couldn’t really tell who was downstairs.

‘I demand to see Cordelius Hawk!’, said the fierce brunette at the door, who was now much taller than Gertrud.

The witch cussed, reaching for her wand, but Cordelius was already jumping down the last flight of stairs.

‘Amelia?’, he asked, and she grinned.

‘You know this muggle?’ questioned Gertrud, in a high pitched scream, astonished.

The way Amelia pulled Cordelius into a passionate kiss gave her the answer. He kissed her back. Gertrud felt like she had been hit by a stupefy. 

‘Now, run!’, Cordelius whispered in her ear.

‘Is that your catchphrase?’, she laughed.

He had already grabbed her arm, and they were running into the night, Gertrud too paralyzed by shock to do anything. The next morning, when Marcellus heard of what happened, he ordered his wife to snap their son’s wand in half, and ban him from the house. Gertrud quietly agreed, but she kept his wand hidden in her secret locker. She had just found out in the hardest way that even the coldest hearts can break.

*

Cordelius and Amelia never got married. Every wedding had to be publicly announced back in the day, and they were too afraid that his parents would find out. Cordelius never told her that he was a wizard, either. He had left his wand at the mansion, and even if he hadn’t, showing his true nature to her would be breaking the law. And the law would have way more severe consequences than some stupid family rule. They moved to London, and lived with Amelia’s parents, Isabella and Hugh Watson, who were much younger than Cordelius’s parents, and much warmer: they understood he was hiding from his family, and treated him like a son.

One year later, Jacob Hawk was born. He was perfect: his parents and maternal grandparents loved him like he was the best boy in the world. The Watsons had a small garden with a swing, and he spent most of his childhood in there, never lonely, always loved.

Even though he was finally happy, and finally at peace, Cordelius would feel his heart sink sometimes. He missed magic, the world he had lived in for fourty years. He missed being special, and being powerful (because, yes, he was one of the most powerful young wizards at Hogwarts when he was a teenager, and still very gifted as an adult). In some twisted way, he even missed his abusive family. Whenever those thoughts began to creep into his mind, usually in the middle of the night, he would hug Amelia closer, and try to let go of them. Sometimes he succeeded, sometimes he failed.

*

(We don’t know how many years passed between Jacob’s and Finn’s births, and I’m still waiting for Jam City’s canon version of this. However, it makes sense that Jacob was not a toddler whan his younger sibling was born. This is important to the next part of the story.)

Cordelius and Amelia had another son, Finn, a few years later. He got just as much love as his older brother, from the whole family. He had his dad’s black hair and blue eyes, but Amelia’s kind expression.

On the day of his first birthday, 23rd April 1974, Amelia asked Cordelius to go get a birthday cake at the local bakery. He reluctantly agreed: he was still scared of running into his parents, although the thoughts about them and magic were much more frequent.

It was certainly probably not a coincidence when he found Gertrud standing outside the shop. She had always been a wonderful legilimens, also with a gift for divination. She would have known. Cordelius was expecting harsh words, curses, hexes... The last thing he expected was a hug.

Gertrud, now a widow, seemed much older and smaller than her son remembered. She pulled him in for a long time, and after she finally let go, she revealed his old wand, that she had brought in her purse.

‘You left this at home.’, she murmured, ‘I’ve been missing you terribly. Your father passed away not long after you left. Your brother got himself killied in a duel at a pub, four months ago. He was never too bright...’, she sighed. ‘Please, come home. I love you, and I know you love me to. Also, you’d be able to use magic once again.’

Wether she meant those words, or was just blatantly trying to manipulate him, Cordelius never knew. The only thing he knew was that it worked: his youngest son never got his first birthday cake.

*

Since the Watsons were muggles, the two boys grew up without knowing anything about magic. Hagrid had to come to their little house in London to explain to young Jacob that he was a wizard. As Finn was obviously too young to remember his father, and none of the Watsons ever told him anything about him, Jacob resented him badly. After hearing Hagrid’s declarations, he immediately deduced that his father must had been a wizard too.

When he got to Hogwarts, Jacob was determined to get his revenge: he was going to find a type of magic more powerful that the one his father possessed, and use it to punish him for abandoning them. First, he had to study about his own origins. He spent all the time at the library, and it didn’t take him much time to find out the Hawk family in some books about purebloods. Then, during his research, he came across the Cursed Vaults, and knew he had found what he wanted.

It was not until Jacob’s third year that he realised all the Hawks were dead. Gertrud got sick and died one year after her encounter with Cordelius. Now completely alone, and regretting every life decision he had made, Cordelius had sunken into a terrible depression, combined with magical drunkness and failed attempts of enchanting himself into being happy again. He took his own life, being one of the only few wizards to successfully Avada Kedavra himself.

However, Jacob was now too deep into the search of the vaults to give up. And we all know how that worked out for him.

All of the Hawks’ malice and the Watsons’ remorse did not darken Finn’s heart, against all the odds. He was always too sweet, too kind, too peaceful, not unlike his father. The difference, however, was noticed by Amelia when she asked her youngest son not to disappear like the other men in her life. He hugged his mom, and promised that not only would he never leave her, he would also bring his brother home. She wiped away a tear. Finn was, in fact, different. Finn was loyal, against all odds.

[pdchronicles]

Over the past 24 hours, I've seen just about every human reaction imaginable to the events that transpired in World of Warcraft.  There's a lot of emotion out there right now, and it's manifesting in many different ways.  After having time to process things myself, I want to get a few things off my chest that are independent of the most common arguments that have been going back and forth:  bad writing, and player character reactions.  These things are worth debating, of course, but I'm leaving that to others for now.  The following is going to be on a much more personal level.  I'm going to explain what WoW, and what gaming in general, means to me, and what it does for me.  

To me, playing games and creating stories is a way to escape and to help me imagine what sort of person I would like to be if I was strong enough.  I like to think that I'm a good person, but I also understand that I'm no paragon, either.  I make mistakes, I sometimes act badly due to flaring emotions, and I'm still learning how to be a human being.  Playing fictional characters in video games allows me to put myself in exaggerated and fantastical situations and try to figure out how I would react.  To quote Overwatch in a way, they allow me to see the world as it could be.

The world, and especially the United States where I live, feels very divided right now.  There are a lot of scary things that are happening.  A lot of the time, it feels like things are regressing into a state that was worse than it was just a few years ago.  And quite often, it feels like it's only going to get worse.  During these times of uncertainty and uneasiness, it becomes even more difficult to be kind.  Fear is a terrible motivator.  In life, you are rarely faced with a choice that is easy.  You rarely see a clear, correct answer to a problem.  And even when the answer seems so perfectly clear to you, you're dismayed to see that there are people who think exactly the opposite, and you just can't understand how that's possible.  I'm faced with this latter problem every day.  I wonder to myself, HOW can my government think that it should be illegal for a gay couple to adopt a child?  HOW can so many white people hate people of color?  HOW can so many people be okay with putting children in cages?  HOW can so many people who claim to follow the teachings of a peaceful, loving man support a man who does nothing but lie and cheat?  And so on.  And so forth.  Ad infinitum.

The thing that makes all of this so frightening is that I don't know when, assuming if, this will ever get any better.  I'm faced with the possibility that it will only get worse.  I try to limit my exposure to these kinds of things, but it's impossible to fully put them out of mind these days.

This brings me back to video games.  I started playing World of Warcraft in 2004 when I was still very much in the closet.  I didn't come out to my parents until 2010.  When I was first introduced to WoW by a friend, I related to the Horde on a personal level.  I always felt like I was a misfit and that I didn't belong in the world in which I lived.  I felt like the world didn't accept me.  I was immediately drawn to the plight of the Darkspear Trolls, because they, too, lived in a world that didn't accept them.  They were constantly being forced out of their homes, first from Darkspear Island, and then from the Echo Isles.  They were hunted down and killed simply for being who they were.  It didn't matter if they were the savages that the other races assumed them to be or not.  Then, they found a home, and refuge, in the Horde.  It goes without saying that this resonated with me, and has always resonated with me in the 14 years since.  

The high point came at the conclusion of Mists of Pandaria when Vol'jin was named Warchief.  Now, this group of outcasts that I had fallen in love with a decade ago were now leaders.  Not only were they accepted into the Horde, they were stronger within it.  They could be heroes.  (Just for one day.)  

A lot of players are comparing what's happening in the game today to what happened during the Darkspear Rebellion.  I don't think these two events could be any more different, and I'll explain why.  The Darkspear Rebellion was presented to us as a story about the Horde having to overthrow a leader who had gone too far.  We knew that we, as a player, would have the opportunity to rise up, say no, and fight to preserve the Horde that we joined so many years ago.  More generically, we were given the opportunity to be a hero in our story.  

We have been given no such agency in the War of Thorns.  We have no assurance that this isn't what the Horde has now become.  We are given no opportunity to say NO, even if doing so doesn’t change what happens.  The story of Battle for Azeroth has been presented to us as the Horde versus the Alliance.  During the announcement, and forever since, it has been presented as the faction war expansion.  This has been told to us over and over again, from the announcement, to the box art, to the short stories, to the cinematics, to the Before the Storm novel, to the main War Campaign story that makes up the main story of the expansion, to Warfronts, to Island Expeditions, to War Mode.  We are sent to Zandalar to secure the Zandalari Navy for the Dark Lady.  Every new feature, every new story element, every new zone has been presented to us in the context of the faction war.  Sylvanas has been constantly doing things that are unquestionably evil ever since she was made Warchief, and there has been almost no resistance or argument to it.  Certainly not enough to avoid painting the Horde in a very negative light.  

And this is my most grievous complaint about the current state of WoW's story.  For the last day, it has made me feel the same emotions that I feel about the real world, and that is unbelievably depressing.  Perhaps the current state of things in the world is WHY this story is being told now.  Maybe it's a product of its time.  For  me, though, it has taken my escape from the uncertainty and the depressing things in the world, and has begun to mirror them.  One can't look at the communities reaction and not see a parallel between how the Horde and Alliance are treating each other and how liberals and conservatives are treating each other.  One can’t look at Sylvanas doing terrible things and how no one seems capable or willing to resist her, and not see the similarity to one other such leader.

One argument seems to be that, well, of course Sylvanas is evil and of course she's going to be resisted and of course we're going to heroically save the day.  And yes, of course that's probably going to happen in one way or the other.  Here's the thing, though.  I'm sure you've heard it said before that the journey is more important than the destination.  I believe that fully.  I’m perfectly fine with a story having low points.  But, as I mentioned before, there has been very little resistance to Sylvanas' actions and no promise that BfA is anything more than a faction war.  It doesn't matter if everyone believes it's more than just a faction war.  I have played the beta, and even on Zandalar everything that you're tasked with doing is in the name of the Dark Lady.  It's still business as usual.  So here it is:

It doesn't matter if the payoff is fulfilling when the journey feels bad.

This is my main point.  Right now, it feels bad to be Horde.  It feels bad to be a part of a faction that follows Sylvanas and doesn't, at least in some way, resist her evil ways.  It feels bad to still be following her orders without even a hint of rebellion even on Zandalar.  It feels bad not knowing if we will ever get the opportunity to tell her no.  I would much rather have just a little bit of the destination spoiled for me in order to make the journey much more enjoyable and fulfilling.  

Some people might be able to trust Blizzard enough that they can assume it's going to be all right, and enjoy playing the expansion until things get better.  I do not have that level of trust, not after my favorite character was unceremoniously killed by a nameless demon, and then named a genocidal maniac intent on destroying all life as his successor.  No, I cannot trust them to tell me a good story.

So, my conclusions?  Until I know that the destination will be worth it, I will wait before I set myself on the journey.  I'm not a miserable, bitter man.  I haven't ruled out the possiblity that there will be some epic uprising within the Horde against Sylvanas.  I'm not ignoring the fact that Saurfang eventually deserts his post.  Or that the Horde druids of the Cenarion Circle were sent to Silithus by Sylvanas, which conveniently makes them unable to protest her actions in Darnassus.  Or that Baine shows up in Zandalar to keep an eye on what's going on.  These might be small hints at something bigger.  But it's not enough.  It's not NEAR enough.  When Garrosh attempted to assassinate Vol'jin, the consequences were IMMEDIATE.  We LEAPT at that assassin and we killed his ass before he could even confirm he'd finished Vol'jin off.  It was immediately established that Vol'jin was going off to plan something, and that we'd be involved.  It felt amazing.  

I understand that if things like that had happened in War of Thorns, it would feel too much the same, and that's boring.  Sure, I get that.  Here's the thing, though.  If Blizzard didn't want that, then here's a sort of controversial opinion:  They shouldn't have made Sylvanas Warchief.  Here's another controversial opinion:  Sylvanas didn't need to be Warchief in order to do any of the things she has done since becoming Warchief.  

But, here we are.  This is where they've taken the story, and I find that unfortunate.  I hope it get better, I really do.  And if it does, I'll be right there with the rest of you to enjoy it.  Until then, I hope everyone else finds their own fun with it.  I'll be around, waiting in the wings, being a hero elsewhere until my time comes around again.  

[kenysholar1990]

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