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#and someone i didnt even know all that well dm’d me a few days later asking if i had venmo or paypal
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ok this is unprompted but if you pride yourself on being the reason people leave a space for something they genuinely love and have done no objective wrong - youre a piece of shit btw. like full send youre horrible.
#cheeri rants#this is brought on by me finally letting myself get back into smth i loved for like 5-6 years#and got squicked out of by senseless witch hunts and trans/misogyny and the like#im really sitting here remembering all the nights i stayed up with amazing friends#the shoulders i cried on and the hands i held for others#the people who stood with me through some of the toughest times i can remember#we all loved the same silly things#we all poured bits of ourselves into everything we created and we shared that with everyone#i still so vividly remember lamenting that id never get to see our interest irl#and someone i didnt even know all that well dm’d me a few days later asking if i had venmo or paypal#because they were going to give me $50 to buy a ticket. they wanted to go but couldnt#for some reason i cant remember but they gave me their own money and told me to please enjoy in their place#and you know what? i fucking cried that night. you dont see that anymore#the all-nighters i pulled with my best friend watching the live reruns of our interest before we even got into the fandom#doing my homework while we were on facetime together squealing#and all of this came to a screeching halt because of some . PEOPLE.#who figured we were having fun the wrong way because they didnt like it#and we put up all the flashing neon signs to warn people#warn them of smth they should have already known#and just because people ignored those signs it was taken out on us anyway#and i have never been so heartbroken to watch one by one as some of the brightest people i ever knew#started leaving. breaking down. their light was being stomped out because some assholes cant mind their own#and i will be fucking damned before i stand by and let that happen again. to anyone.
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por-siempre-aqui · 5 years
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So I went to the open mic night I always go to.
It was my third time there. Each time I go I meet new people and its a blast.
I did a lot of dancing, I met like four or five people that were just sitting near me.
When I was dancing, another girl whom I know is amazing singer was kinda my lil dance partner. I didn't know she was so short in person. She's so cute and nice.
When I arrived, I kind of scanned the room for this guy that DM'd me a couple weeks ago. I saw him perform and it left me with my jaw just wide open haha.
It was my first night at the open mic and that night I added a bunch of people on Instagram. I followed him and he thanked me for the support and he said he remembered seeing me there, but I didn't say hi to him.
Haha. It was kinda cute. Knowing me, I giggled and apologized and told him we could exchange greetings next time.
The last open mic was at a different location , I honestly didn't think he was looking for me. I probably had an opportunity to see hi to him but I chickened out. Then when he saw I recorded and tagged him in a performance, he DM'd me again. And said he had no idea I was there that night and called me out for not saying hi again. Lol
Then he said, oh well next Thursday, then.
So yesterday I get there, I see where he is sitting from inside the marketplace. I go potty, I get myself a drink. I am not gonna approach him with all those people around him at a full table. So I made sure to sit somewhere where he could see me.
Then I had to move because someone was saving a spot. But he came over to me and said hi and gave me a hug. Told me he signed up for the list and was gonna head home to shower and get ready. That he would see me later. And we hugged again.
I didn't see him come back for a while, and I was honestly having such a good time I wasn't too worried about it. I met so many new people, I even met a Kenya!
Although I would scan around every once in a while looking.
We didn't plan anything so there was no expectations, and that was cool.
I danced my ass off last night, and for the first time I danced to his beatboxing. He is always amazing. He has so much love and support from the community. Anyone who knows him probably knows how sweet and humble he is too.
After his set everyone was praising him and I gave him a hug. He told me his heart was beating so fast. And I was like a bet dude, that was fucking amazing and I patted him in the back. He chilled with me for a while and then he said he needed to get his jacket.
He said I'm gonna go out and smoke by my car before I head out. He invited me and I accepted.
He asked me if a smoke a lot because it was potent weed and I replied yes. I didn't say I do it every day, but I ultimately do. If not all day, at least at night. And yesterday I had already been full of food, weed and booze then I hit the beach with a good friend and her friends. So I was down for a smoke sesh
I was gonna come home and smoke my joint anyway. We just started talking about random shit and we were doing some light flirting right off the bat
Then we got so stoned we couldn't even keep up with conversation. And I kinda wished we didn't keep getting interrupted. But we were right by the exit door, so every time someone walked out they would give him praise and when they saw me they would introduce themselves if they hadn't already, so I interacted with even more people last night. And that was cool. I know I can get a tad more intense when I'm stoned. I get mellow mostly, but he was right it was potent and then someone had a vape lol. And I had my vape that I took hits from before we started our smoke session.
He rolled up a really nice blunt too, he knew what he was doing. It was strangely attractive. At some point I believe he mentioned he was gonna start working at a clinic nearby, I'm assuming he meant a dispensary.
I asked him about what job he does and i didnt quite catch what he said, but he closes sales or deals for something??? And then he mentioned something about his age. He is 24. And then he asked how old I am and i told him guess. He guessed 21. Then I told him I am actually 27. I asked him if I looked 27 and he said age doesn't matter.
He complimented my smile and called me teeth perfect. I thanked him and said yeah I have had a ton of metal in my mouth which led to talking about metal in his head? There is a scar on his head, because there's a bald spot and I asked him about it. He fell when he was a kid. He asked where I live, and I told him I don't live nearby. He told me he lives right around the corner. We had strange conversations with other random people and then he said he wanted to get food and asked if I wanted to check out pizza press with him. Ugh, I love pizza press. Its pizza and beer 😍
We were so stoned, luckily he knows his way around dtsa.
We joked about him luring me to a dark alley and we even spotted a few real creepy ones. 😂
Pizza press was closed.
He checked the doors even though the chairs were up and the lights were off. So I teased him about that.
He called me an observer haha and I told him about me being a psych major.
Then he mentioned something about my personality. That I can come off as defensive.
And I'm just like fuckkk. Lol. I literally have no control over it. He said not in a bad way, I just noticed that about you.
He kept doing this thing where he was bumping into..e and shoving me to the side of the street. Physical flirting, most guys tend to do this.
He's tall, he's about 6,3" which is awesome. He is basically a great big teddy bear.
He said he noticed me being a social butterfly tonight. 😏
Then he mentioned something about a guy I was sitting next to. He said he thought he was my boyfriend. I was like huh? What did I do to make you think that? And he said it was how he was acting around me like he said it seemed familiar? Idk. I wanted to say I don't have a boyfriend. Not sure I'm looking for one. But I figured it would sound snooty. I did say, "oh so that means you were watching me, huh?" Be looked away and said no I noticed it when we are all talking. Hahaha. Ok.
I just awkwardly giggled it off.
There were sketchy homeless people walking around while we were looking for a spot to eat so he made sure to protect me, and it was very sweet. He made me feel very safe. Then he pulled out his wallet talking about how its falling apart. He showed me his ID. I asked him why he wasn't smiling. And he said because I had a long day at work and then I went to the DMV. makes sense.
I saw his birthday. Not only is he the same age as my brother, but his birthday is in March. So technically he is one month younger than my brother. And that's a lil weird to think about.
Then he asked to see my ID. I was like blahhh ok. I handed it to him and just looked the other way. I had bangs once upon a time. Then he kept looking at my ID, and I was wtf what are you reading it for? You trying to memorize my address or what? I should have asked if he wanted to know my birthday or my horoscope.
Ok then he asked me if I have been to mission control, and I have. But all they there is beer and arcade games and pinball. Downstairs they have a lil food spot. So we headed in that direction, at first he said it maybe wasn't a good idea because he would be tempted to drink and he probably shouldn't be cross faded and he also said maybe I shouldn't be either. And I told him not to worry about me, that I would just have one light beer lol. 😂
Mission control was also closed because most food spots close around 10.
At this point I believe its either 11 or almost 11.
He told me I looked like I was gonna fall asleep. And I was like naahh. Lemme just stretch and I'll be ok. So I stretched a lil bit just on my tippy toes and reached for the sky. He watched my body, but I didn't say anything and I let him. I shoulda said what are you looking at?
A light bulb when off when he realized we can just go to wurst house. luckily they were open because its a little pub and I was so stoked to have some drunken fries with polish sausage. 😋 He ordered his food and then he told me to order my food that he was gonna pay for it. I was like whattt. That's so nice of him! He said he felt bad he dragged me around walking all night. But he didn't have to feel bad about it because I was having fun on our little adventure. He motioned for me to walk in first, its supposed to be polite. But it's also to get a nice view of my ass let's be honest. We picked where to sit and he asked if could sit next to me. Then we got up to get a drink, I got a golden ale and he some light ale. He paid for my drink too. I thanked him again. Then we got some water. And went back to our table. This is where I don't remember much of what we talked about. I know he told me a bit about how the open mic has changed even in just the last few months. About how the music industry really works, that its about having money connections.
We did a cheers and then a few people from the open mic walked in and saw us. A lot of people saw us together last night. And it made me a lil nervous because its like he is a well known guy in their music community and then they see me with him and I feel like they're gonna ask him if we are a thing or something.
He said it was nice to hangout with someone new. That hanging out with all music people is cool but. They're usually too tired from their music to hangout and when they do hangout all they talk about is music.
He is a very pensive person, and maybe its cuz he was stoned. But he has a lot of things on his mind. Every time I got up from our seat to get something I could feel him looking at my butt. lol
Our food came and we were in fucking heaven. Cross faded, chillin, eating some tasty sausage fries. 😋 it was fucking awesome. I thanked him again while I was eating. I felt very comfortable with him. I kept like weirdly watching him or thinking I heard him say something.
It was only slightly embarrassing but hopefully came off as cute. 😉
He walked me to my car and then we hugged. And he apologized because it was a lame side hug. And I said well then gimme a full hug. He said I actually love hugs. And I said yeah I can tell you're really good at it. 😏 then I lingered my goodbye and like hugged him more. He asked if I was good. Tbh I totes wasn't. That beer definitely made me crossed. Worth it though. I told him I was gonna be okay. I am gonna chill in my car until I'm good. He told to message him when I got home okay. He asked if I had service just in case I needed to reach him in the parking garage lmao.
I was gonna chill and then my dad called me so I made sure to sound sober. He told me my dog was whining. I told him I was heading home soon.
I pretty much just did my best after that. I was very lucky, but tbh I probably shouldn't have been driving.
I got home in one piece. I took off my face, I put on my jammies and got into bed. I messaged him and he said he had so much fun and thanked me for my company. And I said of course, thank you. And to lemme know when he wants to hangout again.
Idk what this is. It was a very fun night. It was making a new friend and he just also happens to be like super talented and tall and sweet. We did some flirting, he showed me the frida theatre and said they show a lot of old movies there if I'm ever down to go. I said oh yeah I love horror movies, I'm down.
He messaged me this morning.
I got the good morning text. 😊
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