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inner-community · 8 months

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i really hate when the ppl i work for tell me they want me to work less for them because they need to cur back financially (despite all being very very well off)

i think it makes me feel like. rejected and unappreciated but moreso it’s like. this is my job this is all i have if you just decide you need your money more than i do… i just don’t have what i need. like if i am making less from my dogs i have to get more dogs and do less of the helpful work i enjoy… and i really prefer having a few people/dogs that i am close to and love than having to pick up any old walks because i can’t afford not to.

it makes me want to move away right now because i feel like i have outstayed my welcome or something. we were supposed to move last year and it didn’t work out and i was happy to get to keep seeing them but i just feel like if i had gone i would be sad but fulfilled. now i feel like i am just trying to stay relevant while the creatures and ppl important to me are trying to take everything away.

#the little sheltie i have walked since she was a puppy has another walker #and they keep trying to give her all my walks #and i keep telling them im not moving yet #i dont want to compete w her i just want her to figure out how to get other clients #because she does need the money but so do i #and the wonderful little dog who was going to be given to me!#his mom keeps saying she has to cut back and etc #so she wont let me even feed him sometimes #wants me doing shorter walks #and then its a problem bcs i walk the sheltie twice #but if i cant walk the other dog longer i am too early for her #so i just have to sit and wait until i can go walk her #i wish i could just get paid to draw and garden and learn and be happy #im tired of it all #i hate having to be worthy of being given money

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