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#and treatment of any kind is inaccessible until i'm ~officially~ diagnosed
ohbutwheresyourheart
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1 year
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literally what is even the point of trying
#personal
#vent
#i'm trying so hard to be positive but it's completely unsustainable
#basically everything that is supposed to *make life worth living* is inaccessible to me because I don't make enough money
#(despite making damn near the average uk salary lmao)
#i will never own a property (or at least nothing WORTH owning i.e. not a suicide-inducing mold hole)
#i will never be able to keep up with my more normal and successful friends
#and i don't mean in a keeping up with the joneses way
#i mean if a friend asks me to go on vacation i cannot afford to go
#fuck it's lucky if i can afford to go out for dinner once or twice a month
#the economy is getting more and more fucked by the day
#but my brain doesn't work properly so i can't keep up the career climb because working actively makes me want to die
#but also having nothing to do also actively makes me want to die
#basically i just want to die and there's no good reason not to
#and my brain cannot be unfucked because it just works that way
#and treatment of any kind is inaccessible until i'm ~officially~ diagnosed
#which could take a year or more to get an appointment
#and in the meantime i'm supposed to just... lmao idefk just die i guess
#i am so so so terrified of the future i want to die just to escape it breathing down my neck
#i'm at the age where my loved ones are building their own lives with their partners and having kids and beginning to draw away from friends
#into their own family units
#and i do not see how i will ever have a family unit
#so either i'll be genuinely alone by the time i'm forty
#or (worse) i'll be the pity friend who gets invited as the awkward plus one to gatherings
#literally look me in the eye and tell me my future is worth staying for
#i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i want to fucking die i want to quit i want to quit
#fuck it we ball
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