#and well fuck now i'm crying about it like i do every week atp

[nouveauxromantics]

last weekend was the most fun i’ve had in so long i wish my friend was always here i love her so much why does she have to be 4 hours away 😭

[lycheedr3ams]

I'm feeling so many feelings about butcher!Konig! I used to work at a gas station and had many crappy customers, sometimes to a point where I mentally shut myself down to survive a shift then cry afterwards.

Can you do one for after a difficult shift and you're crying in your car and a there's a gentle tap on the window? Thank you thank you! Love your smut but your sweet butcher!Konig huts different~

i'm so sorry to hear that was your experience at your job! when i worked at the deli at the grocery store (from which all these butcher!könig things are inspired by), i wanted to quit every fucking shift because customers would treat me so horribly. i got yelled at over fried chicken, so i get it.

answered below the cut! and yes i am living for sweet butcher!könig as well!

also random but if anyone is a minor, you should just block me atp. i'm going to be posting some absolute pure porn in the coming weeks. word porn i mean not actual porn lol

today was probably the worst shift you had ever had. it was around the 4th of july, so most customers were up in arms about their food being absolutely perfect. it didn't matter that most of them didn't read the regulations about the limit of food they were allowed to order, or the period of notice your store needed. all they saw was that you were at fault.

you could barely keep it together as you were yelled at by the 5th customer that day. the customers who didn't yell at you were condescending and rude. about halfway through your shift, you just couldn't take it anymore, and you abandoned your coworkers as you cried alone in your car in the corner of the parking lot.

butcher!könig hadn't had a chance to talk to you today, since he was also busy preparing orders for the upcoming holiday. and since his workstation was behind closed doors whereas yours was right where the customers are, he wasn't aware of everything that you had been going through. but he didn't miss the way you fled through the grocery store through the little window in the meat department's door. butcher!könig dropped everything he was doing and followed you out, not even bothering to take off his white work coat.

you were already deep into crying when you suddenly jumped when you heard a little tap on your window. you wiped your wet eyes and blushed when you saw butcher!könig standing outside your car, looking very worried. you winded the window down and put on a fake smile.

"what is wrong?" butcher!könig asked with furrowed eyebrows.

you sniffled. "the customers have just been so mean today... i've been yelled at all day, and they're just so rude." you wiped your hot tears as more fell, not wanting butcher!könig to see you like this.

"why didn't you tell me?" he asked sternly, but you knew he was just concerned for you.

"everyone's been beaten up by the customers today. you were busy too," you said quietly.

butcher!könig shook his head. "nein nein, you always tell me when a customer is being mean to you. do you understand?"

you looked into his eyes with your wet, red ones before finally nodding. "okay. i will from now on."

butcher!könig shuffled on his feet a little, since his back was hurting from hunching over to talk to you in your car. "oh, sorry, do you want to come in?" you offered as you unlocked the car door. he nodded and walked around the front of your car and sat down in your passenger seat. he was much too big for the seat, his knees hitting the dashboard, but he didn't seem to care as he looked over at you so caringly.

"may i comfort you?" butcher!könig asked softly. you nodded as you wiped your eyes again. he slowly placed his large hand on your arm and rubbed his thumb on your skin. you blushed and closed your eyes, not wanting to admit to him or you how much you enjoyed his touch. he looked at you so tenderly you thought you could cry.

"you are much too sweet for customers - or anyone - to be mean to you," butcher!könig said quietly as he looked down at his hand on your arm. you just listened quietly and tried to steady your breathing.

you and him stayed like that for a little while before accepting the reality that you had to go back to work. you sheepishly got out of your car and followed butcher!könig behind him like he was your bodyguard. needless to say, no customers dared to approach you as you followed behind the titan of a leather-masked butcher with a slightly crazed look in his eye that he always hid from you.

[diabollicallyangelic]

Here it is! My completed list of Lovejoy quotes that stuck to me :]

ARE YOU ALRIGHT?

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[Taunt]

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[One Day] 

"And time and time I play the empath, I don't know why"

"Oh baby, isn't life so fucking inconsistent."

[Sex Sells]

"So will you do what's easy? Or will you do what's right?"

"How's it feel to be so loved yet so alone?"

[Cause For Concern]

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PEBBLE BRAIN

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[Oh yeah, You gonna cry?]

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[Model Buses]

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[Concrete]

"All this, over a kiss."

"You know it's always the same, it's all just a game."

"How can you look at yourself in the windowpane without wanting to hit yourself."

[Perfume]

"Left your heart on standby"

"It seems like all our friends abruptly fell in love."

"So she learnt to lie, she learnt how to pretend."

"Why can't you be a dick? Why must you be so nice? It's hard for me to move on when I don't really hate you."

[You'll Understand When You're Older]

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[The Fall]

"I look to all of you and see a different fucking species"

[It's All Futile! It's All Pointless!]

"I lost the passions that comes with living."

"I don't miss you. I miss the thought of what we were."

"Cause this is the part where I shut up, and let you infest my brain."

"You'll never get rid of me. Oh, I'm like a fucking disease."

"And what was your thoughts when you realized you'd never feel naive love again? Was it pain or was it sickness? Were you proud of who you'd been?"

"You held his hand, it felt like flying. Now he's just another man."

"It's okay, anything to make me feel less numb."

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WAKE UP & ITS OVER

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[Portrait of a Blank Slate]

"I feel at some point I broke my mind. I'm always searching, the silent type."

"How do you all make it look so easy? You open your hearts up so quickly, it scares me."

[Call Me What You Like.]

"You can call me what you like, as long as you call me."

"And you could kiss the skin from my lips if it makes you feel good."

"Just place your bets on who's lost their minds"

"I'm not made for you, but what else is new?"

"This just in; I am a total fucking dumbass."

"I'll be spending the rest of my life in a state of constant paranoia."

"And I'll proceed to bang my head on every doorway and doorframe you seem suitable for us to go through."

"I'm not paranoid, I'm a realist."

[Consequences]

"Do you ever feel like you fell off, for about a year?"

"Cause I haven't slept in about a week, I stay up thinking I will die."

"I wish I tried more, wish I tried more, wish I tried."

"Whats this? The consequences of my actions now?"

[Warsaw]

"She's broken up with him inside her head. She's just waiting for the moment, the precious moment, to let him know."

"I hate to say I told you, but your habits wreck your head."

"You can try and try but you're just a cog in a machine."

"Apathy comforts me like a cell comforts an inmate."

"It won't get better, I assure you. Make no mistake, we're all going to end up in the dirt."

[Scum]

"I feel I've reached the end before I've reached death"

"I'm scum, I'm waist, I'm what you want."

[It's Golden Hour Somewhere]

"Is this what it's worth?"

"They'll tell you this is normal. They'll tell you this is love."

"They'll sell you the rope by which you'll hang yourself."

"I'm not sure if the stuff I want is even worth the price it costs."

"So tell me, is it normal, To totally lose your mind? I won't announce my sheer descent but holy FUCK there will be signs."

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[Knee Deep at ATP]

"They say, it's not what you like it's what you're like as a person."

"Well I need new hobbies, that's one thing for certain."

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[Normal People Things]

"Oh, what a blessing to meet someone like you. With eyes as dead as mine, it's fine."

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[luvlyhyunjin]

oh my god i just fell down to my knees in the middle of the parking lot

first of all y/n is a better person than me bc i would've denied everything. bc how are you gonna pull up TO MY PLACE and rat me out to MY BF under MY roof???? just ain't no way 😭 i can't really defend y/n on the bet thing but i will say the absolute fucking NERVE to show up to her door and expose her in her own household yeji was so wrong for that i'm cryinggg 😭😭 i would've gaslit them both into the next lifetime like my love she's clearly not in a right mental space rn don't listen to her 😭😭😭 it would've been so bad bc ain't no way you're giving me a read like that under my own roof baby we can go outside for this

but in all seriousness woah this is really crazy. your gf is telling you that she was forced to sleep with somebody and that she was threatened and harassed for months and you're telling her that it's always everybody else's fault but never hers..... yea it's really crazy. i understand hyune's frustration and where he's coming from bc he basically just found out y/n had been continuously lying to him even though he created many opportunities for her to come clean to him and i understand he didn't really mean it but that was a lot. btw the chapter was beautifully written as always, and i particularly love how you work with these characters and make them so nuanced and three-dimensional that you can tell when they're saying stuff they don't necessarily mean but still can understand where they're coming from + how their statements validate their anger bc even if the statement itself is absolutely out of place, their feelings are justified and both things are true at once so you can't bluntly judge one of these things without acknowledging the other. ik i sound like a broken record but the intricate layers that you work with regarding this smau make my literary theory loving self so happy and you deserve all the flowers for it. im absolutely obsessed and my heart is still 200 metres deep like we might as well just bury it atp but i loved every single line 🩷

good news is cat is finally out of the bag!!!! and everybody cheered bc now yeosang has nothing on y/n and he can be finally dealt with. ik we still have a long way to go bc honestly seungmin's revelation gagged me a bit i was like oh???? we still haven't seen hanji and ayen either and im honestly so seated for their carousel debut. but woah this was really the highlight of my week i haven't felt so many things in such a short time in literal days

NO BC same id deny everything like my life depended on it worst case id pretend to fall into a rare amnesia out of nowhere like uhh WHO ARE YOU GUYS EVEN WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY HOUSE🤨 🤨🤨

it feels like hyune was too overwhelmed by the weight and length of her lie to fully register what shes saying like he heard everything but didnt really listen

baby :(( idek how to respond to you rn im speechless im just so happy that you think so of my writing i wanna cry and scream and idk thank youu so much i have stopped writing for years and this series was the first thing ive written in a while so to see this overwhelming love and positivity is insane to me :(( also i dont think the rest of skz are gonna debut in carousel tbh han might make an appearance in the past like seungmin but thats about it🥺💗💗 im happy you enjoyed this ty for writing to me🥺🥺

[roger-that-cap]

Okay so um, i've been kinda busy and i totally forgot to give you my opinion on your fic. Ngl, it hit a little too close to home so it took me a while to recover lmao. But it was fucking brilliant, what else can i say?

I don't usually read Sam fics but i absolutely loved this one and it's all because you wrote it. The way you write really makes me feel everything that the reader is feeling, and that's a very difficult thing to do. But you do it in every fic you write so yeah, i loved it and it was incredible.

“I just want you, nothing else. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me and you slip through my fingers every time I think I have you. You just- you keep slipping,” this paragraph absolutely shattered me, thank you very much Lys.

Anyways congrats on your comeback, i love you and please don't give up writing. Your fics are amazing and i'm always going to read them and appreciate them, even when you think they flop.

(Also what the hell do you mean with "All Too Well (my version)"??? Are you planning on making me cry for an entire week???)

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thank you so much!! i’m so glad you liked it moonie. it means a lot 💕 thank you for the comment about feeling something, that’s such a goal and it’s a huge honor to make someone feel something through a screen. it’s such a goal for me so 🥺🥺 and that fic did flop, but now i don’t care as much at all bc you said all this.

all too well (my version) bc atp i’m planning it. 😂 idk if it’ll ever be a thing, but i can see it happening. heheh