#and where does it even lead to!!! beau can’t exactly cheer bobby up even if he tries | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

loverboydotcom · 8 months

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im SOOOO ready and excited to be done with chapter one of this fucking draft so i can actually see how the story will progress not just in the present but the beautiful chronological flashbacks showcasing beau and his best friend bobby. but also in order to do that i also have to get past what is probably going to be the worst and most awkward flashback to write which I’m calling “how the fuck do a 20 and a 21 year old talk for the first time about the fact one of them is dying” good god i would not wish that level of awkwardness a character not knowing what to say on my writer enemies. I mean the fact there’s no right thing to say in that context is what drives it and brings the tension but it’s too much tension with little pay off it’s uncomfortable situation scene-ing too close to the sun. like how do you find the source of resolution in that just an overall awful scene to construct all around

#like to finish chapter one I have to write the flashback scene that’s literally the night he died and I’m like actually this scene is worse #it’s trying to figure out how to not make it a wall of dialogue either!!!#and where does it even lead to!!! beau can’t exactly cheer bobby up even if he tries #like i don’t want to use my own experience of having that convo #except that at 22 I didn’t know how tf the react and I cringe at how I did in hindsight #but also I had a much different context #also resolution doesn’t have to mean everything is okay by the end it’s just like. what does the arc within a scene like that even LOOK #not every flashback directly parallels with the fictive present but the processing informs how beau acts #so maybe I just need to know what happens in the rest of the chapter to get it

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