#as soon as i realized im not 100% a man i started feeling sooo much more comfortable with masculinity

[clavis-baby]

Songs that You would listen to After a Breakup with The Brothers

(Lucifer,Mammon,Satan,Asmo)

I’m so sorry I was listening to reckless and it made me feel something (also I’ve never dated anyone sooo shhh)

Also I tried to add at least 3/4 to every brother but I realized they all had a Olivia Rodrigo song so sorry about that also I tried not cross over the same songs 😅

Also Spotify Playlist!!!

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Lucifer

enough for you - Olivia Rodrigo

Okay so first Olivia track honestly I know we all cried to her whole album don’t deny it but essentially I felt that with the lyrics I wore makeup when we dated“'Cause I thought you'd like me more If I looked like the other prom queens” and “Tried so hard to be everything that you liked” I feel like Lucifer would expect that his lover to be perfect honestly this song really would work well with both of Satan and Lucifer so deciding between them was pretty hard but the pushing point for me to put this with Lucifer was the lyric “But I don't think anything could ever be enough”

Without me - Halsey

(Ugh I love Halsey so much and her baby soon!!!) Anyway!! For Lucifer I really think that his pride would’ve gotten in the way of all of his relationships he’s ever had but “Feeling so high but too far away to hold me You know I'm the one who put you up there Name in the sky Does it ever get lonely?” Just screams Lucifer and how the chorus keeps on saying “I said I'd catch you if you fall” ahh perfect (could also work for Asmo)

I knew you were trouble - Taylor Swift

Won’t lie but embarrassed that I choose this song but it works for Lucifer sooo whatever but the chorus really is a fairly good start I feel like anyone who has a brain (even tho MC really doesn’t) dating Lucifer wouldn’t be particularly 100% safe but whatever he’s most people’s favorites again I used to love this song but don’t anymore so when I looked up songs about break ups (yes I did that) and Trouble came up I relistened and with these lyrics I had to include it No apologies “He'll never see you cry Pretends he doesn't know That he's the reason why”

Let Me down Slowly - Alec Benjamin

Now if this was a cheating thing and he did cheat this would be like the absolute BEST SONG!! But tbh this is a pretty good song for any breakup I feel like…OH WELL! :) the first lyric FIRST LYRIC “This night is cold in the kingdom” I felt represented his pride idk how to explain but idk T-T I can explain the rest tho >~< “I once was a man with dignity and grace Now I'm slippin' through the cracks of your cold embrace” once again pride but with “Could you find a way to let me down slowly? A little sympathy, I hope you can show me” I really hc that almost with all the boys but especially with Lucifer they just would not care about cheating after they maybe got a rush would leave you instantly once that “rush” is/was gone

Mammon

(I’m a sucker for him im sorry I put all the most emotional songs with him)

Reckless - Madison Beer

This was the song that inspired this whole post!! (Sadly, it made me feel things) But this song really could be used for Belphie and maybe a hint of Asmo but Mammon was the first person I thought about when listening to this song so it’s mammon. Mammon I just feel like behind all the tunsdere act he really promises us so much like obviously the protection but Reckless just show us within the lyrics “I still have the letter you wrote When you told me that I was the only girl You'd ever want in your life” and even this lyric with his whole first man thing and even him asking us to come to him for protection “You might love her now, but you loved me first Said you'd never hurt me, but here we are” it just is so good 😭

Love me or leave me - little mix

So if you even skim through these Mammon songs and know about my posts I love him so much so even though what I said in Lucifers part about them not caring about cheating and stuff I feel like Mammon might care just because of how much he promises things also I read a lot of fanfics with what I just said “And you're turning away like you hate me Do you hate me? Do you hate me? Oh” tbh because of this lyric I did think for a moment to use this song for Satan but Uhhh this is really emotional song and I love my bby “Do you remember when you loved me once What happened? What happened? And you'd hold me here just because” LOVE ME OR LEAVE ME HERE!!!

Be Alright - Dean Lewis

This song I feel like was a bit more for me sooo yeah also remember what I said about how I hc that almost with all the boys that they just would not care about cheating after they maybe got a rush with you they would leave you instantly once that “rush” is/was gone wel I sort of want to believe mammon wouldn’t and his greed gets in the way (who am I kidding I’m just making excuses for my baby) but I’m going to continue on what I just said because Umm well I can do uh “You start to tremble and your voice begins to break You say the cigarettes on the counter weren't your friend's They were my mate's”

(I couldn’t find anymore songs that I felt that would fit him 😭)

Asmo

Ex best friend - Machine gun Kelly

When I was writing this originally there was going to be like 4 parts of all the characters but then once I realized how many songs and I couldn’t think of any for others and how I wanted to add an explanation I gave up on that but originally it was going to also be cheating songs, fall outs, then just aftermaths of breakup songs which to be honest this song really could fit with the after math and cheating songs I feel like Asmo and his SO are more likely a not able to quit each other sort of thing “We're both drunk on the elevator When I kissed you for the first time in New York City, uh” and even near the end of the first season the only little part we sort of get from character development from Asmo when we was drunk explains what he was sort of saying “I swear to God, I never fall in love Then you showed up, and I can't get enough of it I swear to God, I never fall in love I never fall in love, but I can't get enough of it First off, I'm not sorry I won't apologize to nobody You play like I'm invisible Girl, don't act like you ain't saw me” personally I do think that inside Asmo might be insecure and a bit sensitive on the inside but I could be wrong

When the party’s over - Billie Eilish

Wow I have the lyrics up and I just realized this 3 minute song has barley lyrics but the song still fits Asmo so.

traitor - Olivia Rodrio

Even tho that all these songs were on cheating I tend to hc that Asmo isn’t a huge fan of solo partnership because of the title avatar of lust so I feel like in maybe the beginning of a relationship he would promise to you that he would be there for you but would maybe end up not staying true to his words I forgot who but someone else explained why they don’t believe that Asmo wouldn’t be able to go with out having a Polly relationship

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I’ve had this in my drafts for so long and wanted to post this but at this point I’ve just can’t add anymore so this is my lazy part

Boys like you - Anna Clendening

Satan

Again I’m lazy rn but I wanted Satans part to show just pure madness and anger but also as time progress just sadness for Satans pure side also anything that had to do with books or a story I added for u know Satan loving books

I’m not mad - Halsey

Moral of the story - Ashe

Blue - Madison Beer

[nad-zeta]

Match up! (◠‿◠✿)

hiya!! can i pls get a matchup for ikesen, if its ok? 💞

bi girl i prefer guys! ambiverted intp, gryffindor, n true neutral. i have an older twin sis n i love/hate her sm lmao!!

i have medium-length straight-ish black hair (w/ a side bang to the right) & dark brown eyes!! im 5'5-ish, fun fact: im a filipina!

sooo im a complex daydreamer!! i NEED attention/affirmation or ill feel unwanted/sad. emotional scorpio, im quite sensitive. anxiety, i overthink too much! quiet w/ people im not close w/. easily annoyed but guilty after ‘cause im soft-hearted. im like half funny/playful/kind & half deep/mature/awkward- hopeless romantic! i have a way w/ words, sorta poetic? i wanna be the best! sorta socially anxious, i have a fear of judgement. im not innocent but ppl think i am at first. i look fine but deep down im a big mess. rlly smart & knowledgable. vv passionate, big nerd actually! im like a kid w/ my twin but w/ others im more mature. im the type to do fun stuff and loosen up but would also just cuddle and have long convos. im vv good w/ technology! very imaginative, i come up with stories a lot- around others im very quiet because i literally have no idea what to say. actually a big history fanatic, hehe. i act confident but im not rlly, actually vv insecure and i regret a lot of things.

a habit of mine is that i tend to drift away and just… think? i also tend to care a lot abt my appearance! i get competative but there are also times when im just chill. i get vv embarrassed when i lose control tho n i regret it sm :(( i have loads of trouble asking for help even if i like to help others a lot! i like being organised but i tend to be… chaotic.

hsjsh- fun fact: there are times where im just,, super hyper n say the weirdest things? im good in school but,, im lazy yknow- i love math (surprisingly, i got a natural talent?), science (esp abt stars n space), history, and english (actually my 2nd languange but im very fluent) the most. bilingual but im also learnin french! wanna learn latin too tho but id break down- i have the fear of the unknown, failure, n loneliness! im scared of the future cause its beyond human ability to know,, the only guys ive rlly talked to r family members so my awkwardness goes 100x hsjsjs

oh, i rlly love affection, but i need a lot of space too, tho! girls gotta have privacy- games r a hUge part of my life, so is technology and the modern era! i actually like sports too- not very good at em tho :((

some likes: gaming, jokes (esp corny/stupid/puns), space, stars, weapons (esp swords/guns), philosophy, psychology, testing myself, affection, animals, doing exhilirating things, music, movies, books, writing, astrology, astronomy, learning new things, & mythology.

some dislikes: too much heat, school presentations, creepy dolls, being under pressure, dirty things, blind faith, & annoying people.

tysm! omg i hope this isnt too long- i think this is too long?? yIkes i hope that this is ok!! love ur writing btw! stay safe 💞

Hi hi love! thank you so much for the request! You sound like a wonderful person and omw it soooo cool that you have a twin! I actually think she sent in a request right after you did lol! Anyways sorry for making you wait sooooo long and i hope you enjoy it! @x-joie-x

 So i match you with...................... Mitsuhide

The first time you meet this sneki boy, you were quiet and reserved. War council had just ended and you were named as a princess of the Oda forces. You were super socially awkward, and anxiety was slowly starting to creep in, as the curious warlords started to surround you. It wasn’t until Mitsuhide had pulled you away in a teasing manner to save you from the crowd that you finally started to calm down. He had noticed this new little mouse had been on edge since arriving. However, he didn’t suspect you of being an assassin or spy as, during the whole council, your hands shook, and you could barely speak up against Nobunaga’s demanding and commanding tones. 

Mitsuhide had found you incredibly amusing from the first moment you walked in, you caught this foxes eye. He didn’t know if it was the innocence or naïve purity that just seemed to radiate from you, but for some reason when he was looking at you, he found that he simply couldn’t look away.

It took all of one day for all the warlords to officially drop all suspicions of you. You were just such a sweetheart how could they not instantly love you and feel the need to protect you. You had started helping a few of the maids that first morning after you were named princess. You didn’t want to be a freeloader, so you worked hard to earn your keep and soon, the maids were fighting over who would get to work with you cause all of then just loved and adored you so much. 

You got annoyed with Hideyoshi when he first found you helping the maids, as he was 100% started micromanaging you. You lost you cool and raised your voice at him, TBH Hideyoshi didn’t think anything of it, but it wasn’t until you had pitched up at his manor an hour later to apologize for being so rude to him that he realized what a sweet and sensitive person you truly were. Of course from that moment onward you had gained yourself a big doting brother.

All the Oda forces agreed that you were too sweet and naïve for your own good, so Mitsuhude was assigned to give you princess lesson to prepare you for your new life as Oda princess. You were super excited when Mitsuhide had told you that he was going to teach you a variety topics such as economics, politics, history and self-defence. You even managed to impress the sneki boy, by getting all the questions correct on the first test he had handed you. You had found that first test incredibly easy as you were a bit of a history buff, and all the questions had been based on Nobunaga’s history. This low key shook the sliver kitsune a little bit, as this proved that not only were you pure and naive but you were also super smart. You kind of reminded him a little bit of Mitsunari, a cleaver professor with their head in the clouds. 

Mitushide praised you for your ability to pick up on concepts quickly and work diligently as a student, “I dare say little one, you are the best student a teacher could ask for.” You spend masses amount of time with sneki boi, and through that time you realized just how sweet Mitsuhide truly was, although he was a massive tease leaving you a blushy mess almost every day after lessons with his teasing comments. And naturally, the more time Mitsuhide had spent with you, the more in love he fell. It was also noted by the fellow warlords that, Mitsuhide always wore a soft gentle expression when it came to you, and in your experience he had been a kind gentle patient teacher. SO naturally you found yourself more and more drawn to this mysterious man.

Through all the time spent with the kitsune, you found yourself opening up more and more. He was one of the few people that got to see your playful side. You now would make the puniest, corniest jokes he has ever heard, leaving this kitsune in a fit of laughter mid-way through a lecture. Not only that, but he loved loved loved your competitiveness side. 

This side of you slowly started to surface after the 3rd or 4th self-defence lesson when you started challenging the kitsune to rematches whenever he would pin you down, ultimately beating you in your little makeshift sword fight. Boy oh boy, don’t even get me started on the shooting lessons, once you were able to fire the rifle, you were straight-up challenging this boy, the best marksmen around to a shoot-off. “Come on Mitsuhide, the first one to get 100 bulls-eyes in a row wins, and the loser has to buy tea.” Needless to say, you always lost and even though every day you would make that exact bet, Mitsuhide would always insist on sticking you for tea and lunch as reward for being such a good student. 

He really enjoyed spending time with you and would absolutely insist on holding your hands whenever the two of you were on your way to the tea house together after your lessons. “I can’t have my clumsy little mouse tripping and falling now can I.” Every day without fail, he would say that to you as he wraps his big hand around your small one, while leading you to your favourite tea house.

The two of you would talk about everything and anything over tea, these topics ranged from you making stupid jokes, to talking about random topics such as philosophy and psychology. Either way, Mitsuhide loved to spend time with you. He would always listen to and hang on to every word you said, storing every word in his memory. 

You were his precious little mouse, and he knew you were an extremely sensitive creature. If anyone dared say a single bad word to you or make you sad, they would face the wrath of this very protective kitsune. Like one time, one of the visiting daimyos had talked down to you for accidentally bumped into him. You were busy cleaning the windows when you accidentally lost your balance and bumped into him. He was so disgusted that a mere maid had touched him. He started yelling at you and insulting you, this escalated to such a point that he even had his hand raised ready to hit you for getting dirty window water on his shoes. That’s when sneki boi decided to intervene. Mitsuhide legit stood protectively in front of you with his rifle pointed at the man’s heart, with the full intention to shoot. “Golly me it appears like you are quite the troublesome little mouse, my dear.” He then turned his sharp gaze towards the daimyo “I do suggest you apologize to the Oda princess, lest you want to answer for your crimes directly to Nobunaga.” The man simply scoffed and walked away. Mitsuhide then turned to you and enveloped you in a warm hug while kissing the top of your head, “Are you alright, my dear little mouse?” Mitsuhide looked into your beautiful eyes and gently took your hands in his, “Come little one, I have something I wish to show you.”

The two of you walked hand in hand to Mitsuhide’s manor, Mitsuhide led you out into his garden, where you saw something so beautiful you could cry. The garden was filled with flowers and candles and in the centre was a table set up, with a feast laid out op top of it. 

Mitsihide had told you that night that he was hopelessly in love with you. He was overjoyed when he had discovered that you like him, was also a hopeless romantic and that you had an incredibly poetic, romantic way with words. You handed him a letter in which you had expressed your feelings for him in the form of a beautifully written poem. You were actually intending to leave the poem on his desk as a way of confessing your feelings. This instantly melted sneki bois heart into a giant puddle and he couldn’t help but pull you in for a sweet kiss. 

After diner Mitsuhide had led you deeper into the garden where a fluffy blankie was sprawled out on the grass, he guided you to sit down and the motioned for you to lookup. Above you, a thousand stares were shooting across the sky in a big meteor shower. Mitsuhide pulled you into his arms and kissed your cheeks as the two of you watched the sky. He always remembered every detail you had told him about yourself, so when you revealed that you loved the sky and the stars, he knew he had to incorporate this rare meteor shower in your date somehow. 

This had sparked a new tradition between the two of you, to stargaze and spend the whole night in deep conversation. These nights were full of love and affection as Mitsuhide would pull you into his lap and just hold you there for hours and hours as the two of you talked and watched the sky

Of course sneki boi also had a bit of a spontaneous side, and would take you on exhilarating trips around Nobunaga’s territories. They were mostly missions but after you had nagged Nobunaga to give you permission to go along on the missions, you and Mitsuhide would finish the official work asap so that the two of you cuties had plenty of time to enjoy yourself in the new environment.

Mitsuhide loves everything about you from your slight messiness, to your love of learning new things. He also knows that his sweet little mouse sometimes needs some space and alone time and will be sure to give you as much alone time as you need to recharge. He knows that you will seek him out when you have had enough of your own company. He will always welcome you back with outstretched arms when you have had enough alone time, and shower you with endless amounts of affection.

Whenever you are feeling insecure or worrying about the future Mitsuhide is right there by your side, whispering words of affection and reassurance in your ears. He makes sure to remind you every day just how perfect you are and just how much he loves you. 

Often you can be found in sneki boys lap with your head resting comfortably in the crook of his neck as he soothingly strokes your hair. Don’t be surprised if this sneaky kitsune drops a few kissed on your nose, cheeks or lips during these quiet and peaceful moments, just as a way to convey how much he loves and adores you.

Other potential matches……………..Masamune 

I hope you enjoyed it dear and i hope you have the best day! 

[babybirdgyeom]

got7 as friends with benefits

– basically friends with benefits becoming real lovers – this is longer than i intented it to be oops – just a lil something to overcome my writers block

𝑀𝒶𝓇𝓀 𝒯𝓊𝒶𝓃 

– literally more friends than benefits – y’all always lowkey had a thing for each other – took you two years to finally make out though – but from then on y’all never stopped again – mark was like ‘oh only until we find smth serious’ – but you just both stopped looking for smth serious at all – oops – you saw absolutely no downside to this – good sex with someone you’re totally attracted to and can talk to about everyhing? amazing – so now it’s been like 12 months since this thing started – all different kinds of sex – sometimes it would be giggly as fuck, laughter and fun included – sometimes y’all would have sex while casually talking about everything – sometimes you just had sex to cheer the other one up on a bad day – basically always looking for any reason to have sex – you both are very confused how good this works out? – you’re pretty much like a couple but both of you are lowkey too dense to admit it – all of got7 knew about y’all, you didn’t even try to make a secret out of it – other fwbs only meet to fuck but not you and mark – he constantly comes over and stays forever, would never just leave after sex – right beside you when you wake up with no intention to leave until he absolutely has to – “mark??? do you think we act too much like a couple??” – he thought about your question for a second before lying down beside you – “naaaahhh” he said laughing before giving you a kiss “we fine” – you had no idea how y’all should continue because you definitely weren’t breaking this up – but you also knew this couldn’t go on like this forever even though you’d love that – so one morning you decided to adress this situation – he was so cute besides you with his morning hair you saw an angel – when you started to talk about “how to continue” he immediately started to panic – “do you want to end this?????” – you chuckled a bit – so he also didn’t want it to end – you assured him that ending this thing between you was the last thing you wanted – but also told him that you might start to look around again and meet other ppl – not bc u grew tired of him but bc u had to look out for the future – y’all were getting old and shit – mark didn’t like this thought at all – lowkey too shy to admit that though – “but we’re having fun, why should we stop” – softest baby you could swear he was pouting – for the first time ever he stopped and was like – hmmmm why aren’t we dating in the first place – never before thought about the idea of actually dating you – because what difference would it make y’all act like a couple – but suddenly he realized that it definitely would make a difference – 100% has no idea how to deal with this sudden change of things – after some time he tries to confess – highkey fails tho – “you know i love to have sex with you” – “i think we should have more than sex” – “what i’m trying to say is------------uuuuuuhm....” – stops and just starts kissing you – but more passionately and full of love – he smiled into the kiss which made ur heart beat 10x faster – you decided to help him out a bit – “i like you too mark”

𝐼𝓂 𝒥𝒶𝑒𝒷𝓊𝓂

– when the thing between the two of you started jaebum was sooo sure he’d be fine with it – you’ve been close to him since high school, always in the same group of people – somehow though you always were friends but nothing more – maybe bc y’all were too busy with other people mostly – but you definitely became good friends in the last few years – when he was suggesting this whole idea to you you were like – jb why u tryna ruin our friendship like that – but he assured you that sex couldn’t ruin your friendship – it would just be the cherry on top – now he’s not too sure about it anymore – he loves the sex for sure and wouldn’t want to miss it for anything – but this boy started to get a bit frustrated and insecure about the blurred lines between you and him – highkey has a crush on you and hates it – tries to hide it as good as possible – you were 100% sure jaebum was the best lover you could have – but also... damn he’s cute? and lovely? and so funny? – when he smiles your heart goes whoosh – but you always tried to ignore those thoughts – because how cliche would it be to fall in love with your fwb – you told yourself on a daily that it’s just his dick game that makes you think stuff like this – y’all said that you wouldn’t just sleep with other ppl unless you met someone you actually could see a future with it – “if we horny we can just call each other” – one time you were drunk on a night out with got7 – and jaebum may have slipped a lil drunk i love you – and you knew he was drunk and didn’t mean it – so you both laughed it off but since that moment everything changed – feelings were involved and you both knew you had to face them sooner or later – but tbh he tried to do it as late as possible – so ofc jaebum was going home with you in secret like always – and your usually rough sex was different all of a sudden – jaebum could be sensual???? that was new to you – he apologized for being so soft afterwards hshshs – both of you were laughing and talking the whole night – you were almost certain that jaebum also thought this could be more than being friends – until he ghosted you for a week after this night – and you wanted to kill him, fucking idiot – but ofc as soon as he wrote you again you were like – yea no prob dude :) – bc sadly you had no reason to be mad at him – bc he wasn’t your boyfriend – and slowly you started to hate that he wasn’t – definitely made up for ghosting you for a week – “let me take you out to dinner i’m sorry” – tells you he had a few rough days – in reality he didn’t write you bc he thought it’s the easiest way to get over it – jokes on him he’s a fool in love and he realized it by now – has the hardest time with it – bc im jaebum???? in love??? that wasn’t normal – but you made him soft – also best ‘i’m sorry i missed you too’ sex ever – gets frustrated afterwards – bc he loves not only your boobs but also ur lil soft heart – goes down on you while confessing hshssh

𝒫𝒶𝓇𝓀 𝒥𝒾𝓃𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓃𝑔

– no one knew that you two were kind of a thing – jinyoung never really labeled it as “friends with benefits” to you – one thing just lead to another one day and suddenly you all were making out in his bed – which was fine to you, no complaints – but in the beginning you were completely confused, not knowing where y’all stand – was this a one time thing? – were you becoming fuck buddies?   – he actually likes you a lot you were a hundred percent sure – but damn you knew him long enough to know how complicated jinyoung is when it comes to feelings – constantly has to talk to you about this whole situation – “(y/n) i’m bad for you we shouldn’t do this anymore” – “i don’t want you to miss the opportunity to meet someone you could like (y/n)” –  you just rolled your eyes whenever he started this nonsense –  not because you were annoyed –  you just wish he wouldn’t think that much and just let things happen – “we’re fine”, you always tell him – it was cute that he wanted the best for you but... you wanted park jinyoung – you knew this since a long time – you also knew one day he’d man up and ask you out properly – he just needs his time and you were willing to give it to him – and secretly jinyoung was very aware of this too – he wouldn’t just start screwing someone who’s as close to him as you – he cherished you and was more than thankful that you two didn’t need words to communicate – both of you hated to be so careful whenever you went out with the boys – “we should just tell them” your drunk self thought this was a good idea – as you were in a small room, pinned against a wall, jy’s lips all over your chest – “and then what?”, he asked placing another kiss on top of your breasts before continuing, “yugyeom and bambam would never shut up.” –  you knew he was right – but it would make things so much easier – “jinyoung” you said softly finally making him look up from your breasts – “you know you love me”, your drunk self said teasing him – he laughed before giving you a soft and sensual kiss – still chuckling he went down your neck again – “i’m sorry, i’m busy here”, he said avoiding the topic – but his laughter was enough for you – it just made you sure one more time that you were right about him – if he wouldn’t like you he would’ve said it – so you had to be patient with jinyoung – which was fine considering the fact that you’d still get to sleep with him all the time – he never left in the morning before you were awake – that would be disrepectful towards you in his opinion – it kind of was his way to show you he cares – because you knew he’d usually always sneak out immediately after one night stands – if he couldn’t sleep in with you he’d wake you up shortly to say goodbye – there was always a goodbye kiss involved even though he hated how cheesy that is – he couldn’t help it with you – he was constantly afraid that someone else might snatch you away from him – it didn’t matter that he knew you liked him too – it sometimes killed him that he couldn’t just man up and finally ask you out properly – he loved this friends with benefit thing you two had going on – sex whenever someone of you felt like it – but no room for fights or stuff like that bc you weren’t dating – months after this little thing between the two of you started he decided that it was finally time – you put up with his bullshit for long enough he thought – even though he still was afraid of commitment he wanted to try for you – also he knew that this one colleague of yours was trying to take you out – he couldn’t let that happen – another thing was that he was afraid you’d lose your patience – so finally after all he took the next step one night after sex – he was still inside you, his breath still heavy as both of you tried to calm down – his lips were finding your neck as his arm was around your waist – “i think i’m ready”, he whispered in your ear – “anal?”, you joked, making him laugh out loud – “i actually thought about making you my girlfriend.” he said, still chuckling a bit – “jinyoung”, you said surprised, not thinking it would happen anytime soon – he gave you a kiss, smiling into it – “i love you (y/n)”

𝒥𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈𝑜𝓃 𝒲𝒶𝓃𝑔

– jackson wang was making you go completely crazy – you swear you were going insane soon – it started out simple – you and jackson met up every now and then to frickle frackle – you remember thinking you won the lottery – like look at jackson he’s a whole meal – eternal beauty mixed with a body that knew how to move – and wow, he knew what he’s doing – but that was the problem: jackson was literally perfect – you both said that you were friends with benefits and nothing more – well apparently to jackson wang that meant coming to you with your favorite chocolates – sometimes he’d pick you up and you’d drive around the whole night talking and listening to music – he’d never leave without saying goodbye – always texts you after sex even if it’s just smth small – “last night was amazing” – “hope you have a good day, don’t let your boss annoy you” – “write me if you need anything” – that perfect motherfucker straight up made you fall for him – sounds perfect doesn’t it? – but jackson just wouldn’t ask you out properly – it was all fun in the beginning – like damn y’all even had the same kinks – “this is all i need” jackson once said before falling asleep beside you – those mixed signals left you wanting more and more – within weeks you knew you were in love with jackson – what you didn’‘t know is that he felt the exact same way – at first he thought the amazing sex was just messing with his mind – but the way you looked at him and him only made him realize that this was maybe more than friends who had sex every now and then – he told mark about the whole thing and mark immediately was like – a giggly child which made jackson feel all giggly too – and as they were sitting on the sofa all happy you walked into the room – mark immediately stood up and out of nowhere hugged you – “you’re so cute (y/n)” – “wtf mark” – before you could ask anything he was already gone – “what was that about?” you asked jackson while sitting down next to him – suddenly he did something he never did before – his hand was in your hair and he gave you a soft and slow kiss – of course he did that before but not with the other guys in the same house – “jackson what if the others come in?”, you asked in shock wondering what was going on – he shrugged and looked you in the eyes, a satisfied smile on his lip – “they going to find out sooner or later” – “find out about what exactly”, you asked him confused – was he planning to tell the guys about your fuck dates – not that you’d care but it didn’t seem like smth he’d do – he usually never talked about his feelings – he was someone who showed how he felt instead of talking about it – “about my feelings for you” – you choked on literal air – suddenly you were talking feelings – so you weren’t delusional the whole time – he actually liked you – good for you tbh since dating jackson literally is like hitting the jackpot

𝒞𝒽𝑜𝒾 𝒴𝑜𝓊𝓃𝑔𝒿𝒶𝑒

– tbh being fwb with youngjae the most unexpected thing ever – you two been friends since ages – he knows your whole family and you know his – both of you were like it’s probs not a good idea – but you did it anyway – you never were interested in him back then – until one day you looked at him and realized   – wow youngjae rlly isn’t a boy anymore – he is a man now – suddenly you caught yourself staring at him at every party – blushing whenever he looked at you for a bit too long – he used to be so shy and cute – well at least that’s what u thought until he was kissing you roughly, pinning you against the wall outside of your friend’s home – but youngjae had many different sides to him – sides you never knew about before getting involved with him sexually – a cutie that always takes care of you and your needs – just wants you to enjoy and relax during sex – but 10/10 still knows how to get what he wants from you – sometimes he wonders how tf he managed to become your fwb – not bc he doubted himself just bc – he lowkey always had a thing for you – he also knew it probably was a stupid idea to go into a friendship with benefits with feelings from the start – didn’t care though at least he could finally have you – you both agreed that you were in it for the fun – no jealousy, no drama, just good sex in addition to your friendship – he was in heaven bc he loved how easy going it was – definitely wasn’t making a big secret out of his feelings tho – your lil deal never said smth about no feelings involved – the cheekiest of them all – sends you a good morning text every single day – always surprises you – you know no one would believe you but king of sexting – one time he wrote you that he needs one of those long hugs that turns into sex – and u were like HUH? choi youngjae? – basically this turned into your first of many sexting sessions – at the beginning you were 100% sure you wouldn’t develop feelings – uhh well by now you definitely had to admit you fooled yourself – one time while having very good sex you may or may not have called him babe – which maybe didn’t sound like a big thing but you usually never used nicknames – so midsex he just stopped being confused hshsh – he smirked a bit though, not able to hide   – “i like that”, he said giving you a small kiss – so suddenly you and youngjae were calling each other honey and babe – not much later you were resting your head on his shoulder in front of the boys – secret handholding at movie nights, sneakily under the blanket – until someday you just started casually talking about future plans together – the lines were getting more and more blurry – “are we friends?”, you asked him one night before falling asleep – your head resting on his naked chest, his hand playing with your hair – “yes, forever and ever” – his voice was soft like honey, he didn’t even had to think of an answer – “but are we just that? just friends?” – he let out a sigh, his thumb slowly stroking your cheek – “i don’t think you can be ‘just friends’ with someone you’re in love with”

𝐵𝒶𝓂𝒷𝒶𝓂

– you and bambam were messy as fuck it was almost amusing – everyone knew about the two of you – you even joked about it in front of others – “yoooo (y/n) rdy to suck this dicc tonite?” – starts laughing and apologizing right after – when it all started you remember telling bambam ‘just this once’ – until you found him in your bed again the next day – oh and the day after that – and by now you and bambam were constantly over each other – things were going really chill most of the time – y’all had fun, spent loads of time together – sometimes naked, sometimes dressed – y’all acted like it was no big deal and you were just friends – but every now and then you find yourself staring at him – wondering if he always was this beautiful – sometimes he laughed and you had to force yourself to think about something else – the members all kind of just saw you as a couple which was also pretty dangerous – one time you were texting with a guy from home – and jackson saw and was like – “bambam!!!!! who’s he why is (y/n) writing with him” – and bambam was like trying to ignore but you could swear he disliked it – but you never knew what he really thought – like whenever y’all were drunk he’d just be like the biggest flirt – you remember one time when you were at a party and making out outside – and he kissed down your neck and just telling you he loves you – ‘you’re drunk, we’re friends’ – at least that’s what you tried to tell yourself – ‘oh are we? i don’t kiss yugyeom like that you know’ – but then y’all never talked about it again – texts you at the most random times – sometimes all horny like – ‘i am in front of your house and coming upstairs get undressed’ – other times just in the middle of the night like – ‘did you know that cats sleep 16hrs a day?? i’m jealous’ – ohh talking about jealousy – bambam’s biggest flaw – he hated how jealous he was like he knew it was a problem – especially considering the fact that...y’all are not a couple – you talked to him several times about it – mostly bc u liked to tease him – and he was so shy and cute about it you never saw him like that – “listen i know!!! it’s stupid” – basically he’s just so jealous because you are not his – and if you meet someone else he’ll lose this fwb relationship – hates to admit it but he actually likes the thing you two have going on – “it’s chill” – you hit him “chill? what a nice way to describe having sex with me” – he laughed and tried to change the topic – but you wouldn’t let him – “bambam, do you like me?” – he just rolls his eyes – “ofc i do why would i sleep with you” – “but do you like like me?”, you asked teasing, looking at him with big eyes – “i changed my mind i fucking hate you” – breaking news: he didn’t hate you – he liked you so much it was k i l l i n g him – one time he dreamed of you – nonsexual – it was just you and him looking at the stars and you confessed – ever since then it was all he could think of when he saw you – but ofc he always played it cool in front of you – remember that one time he told you he loved you when he was drunk – truth is he barely drank that night – he knew exactly what he was saying but he knew how drunk you were – secretely hoped you don’t remember – until one time you and him were watching a movie where a dude confessed to a girl all drunk – and you were like remember WHEN YOU DID THIS – and he was like “uuuhm nnnnO?” – so you told him every detail of that night bc u truly thought he forgot – as you were halfway through he stopped you – “(y/n) i know exactly what happened” – leaving u confused af – “why did you lie???” – “bc u didn’t say it back” you could swear he was pouting – suddenly you froze... did he mean it? like actually mean it? – you never even considered that he was serious – long story short that’s how your fuck buddy became your boyfriend

𝒦𝒾𝓂 𝒴𝓊𝑔𝓎𝑒𝑜𝓂

– both of you have absolutely no idea how this could have happened – you never planned to even have sex in the first place – but the way he danced got you and the way you smiled got him – you decided to get rid off the sexual tension before it became unbearable – jokes on you bc it just made you want to have more – so you two found yourselves in the same situation over and over again – enjoying a night together and having endless fun – once the two of you started you wouldn’t stop – like there were times when you were just up all night having sex – with cute breaks in between where your head was resting on his bare chest – his hand tangled in your hair – it always feels so right even though it seemed so wrong – you and yugyeom definitely were trapped in this situation – of course the easy solution would’ve been to just date each other – but neither one of you dared to say it out loud – you hated when he left the next morning – yugyeom also hated that he had to leave – both of you were always afraid that this could be the last time before everything ends – dramatic headasses tbh – but once his lips touched yours you couldn’t get enough – no one knew about your secret little thing – which turned out to become pretty hard – you always had to sneak away in private – bambam and jackson were constantly on the mission to get you a boyfriend which didn’t make it easier – yugyeom wouldn’t admit it but he hated it when they tried to set you up – not even bc he wanted you just bc they were being so noisy about it – at least that’s what he told himself over and over again – long story short you two were obviously into each other – and the amazing chemistry you had in bed made it even harder to act like you didn’t – two weeks after your first kiss with yugyeom you already feared that it’s gonna be over soon – one time in the middle of the night u just had to wake him up to talk – “yugi i rlly don’t want this to ruin our friendship” – he immediately took your face in his hands, giving you a big smooch on your forehead – “i’d never let anything or anyone ruin us...especially not myself” – you often wondered how one night you could just have sex for 6 hrs – and the next night you wouldn’t even kiss, just both in bed, talking, laughing, making memories – he was always so sweet to you – making you feel more loved than any of the guys you actually dated – waking up next to him in the morning could end in two ways – dick sucking or cuddle sessions – you were both with fine – kingggg of eating you out tbh he could do it for days – and as much as you enjoyed the sex – and also the affection – and just being with him – you slowly gave up on the thought that he’d actually like you or ask you out – it was hurting you a bit if you were honest – so one day you decided for the sake of your friendship and your heart you needed to end this – “no why would we end this?” – the horror on his face was real – “(y/n), don’t you like me anymore?” – it broke your heart – “i think i like you a bit too much” – he took your hand, making your heart flutter – “then why would you end this rather than take the next step?”

[fluffyomorashi]

I dooo I rarely pee in public places... I get to embarrassed of the sound of me going or just letting anyone know that I gotta pee >\\<... ahh I’m so sorry it wasn’t suppose to be so damn long lol!

One day I went to a short concert my friends bf was doing at the time, it was around 40-50 min drive to the place so before I peed about 100 times lol. The plan was we would watch and hangout some then go back to my friends house.. well right before we were leaving an new friend shows up inviting us to a bar/Drag show.

So new plan is we gonna go to that for a while maybe drink some and then leave.... well you know how life goes lol, a few drinks turned into about 12 and we were all wasteddddd (except for the Designated driver of course!!! Party safe always my friends!).

It’s fuzzy but at one point I do remember my friend asking me to come with her to the bathroom, and feeling more confident and outgoing-(thank you alcohol lol)- my bladder shyness was gone and I decided to also go! Of course the line was long so taking a min but when we got close to the few stalls I was intercepted by a drunk girl gushing compliments at me.. and me also being a wasted girl yelled back compliments and we talked about her personal life and more (drunk girls are the best they just happy lol)

Suddenly my friend comes out of the bathroom (I didn’t even see her enter) and is trying to drag me back to the others. Drunk me forgot about the bathroom went back to the party lol. Distracted by everything, dancing and talking, I had no insane urge to pee!

Finally we are in the car all laughing and talking but we are finally winding down and relaxing.. with no more distractions just sitting there I started realizing I might not be as ok as I thought >\\< lol.

We keep driving and I’m just kinda shifting around worriedly glancing. my confidence, lowered back again, so felt tooembarrassing to ask for a bathroom stop. Sooo I waited, all I could think of was me needing to pee stuck in a car full of people.. usual I’m collected in a situation like this on the outside, thinking just to breath and don’t think about it to much and stay calm..but mind full of liquor I kept changing positions, shifting and pulling the seat belt off my bladder, thinking “fuck fuck man should I ask? Can I actually wet in this person car?? Would that actually happen?? I can’t wet here omg.. I’m gonna fucking wet here ahhh” over thinking about it made it feel worse.

Fast forward 40 mins of pouty uncomfortable desperation, a few sneaky crotch squeezes, and one friend dropped off later I asked my friend if we were headed to her house next, she said yes and I silently sat back and waited until we arrived.

We all climb out the car and I remember being pissed on how slow and nonchalant they were ((how dare they not know I’m about to create a new ocean if they didn’t speed up!!!!)).

If it was just my friend and her bf I would of been more comfortable to at least hint how bad I had to pee.. but there other friend I didn’t know so just slowly got up..

at the time she lived her parents still andher parents didn’t like alcohol so we had to be silent and sneak in...everyone was goofing off in the drive way while I kinda stiffly stood half laughing half glaring at the door.

They keep talking and my friends bf pulled out cigs to smoke, I watched them for a sec debating what to do... my body was so still and tense I was afraid if someone just tapped me I would slip up and pee myself in front of them Q//n//Q

Suddenly I got a big urge, I tried to silently control it and squeeze my legs together buttt it seemed to just get more and more intense!! I shifted my weight on each foot, Clenched fist, and probably in a weird voice quickly asked my friend if I could have they keys so I could go inside to charge my phone and text my mom we made it back ok. (Lol I still couldn’t admit it)

Understanding strict mom life she says “oh gosh sorry I forgot! Here!” And drunkly asks her bf where the keys and he drunkly said he didn’t know and they both messily looked for them... I’m dying lol

I try to speed it up and ran to the other side of the car searching around, my body could sense I was slightly shielded away from everyone else so bumped up the desperationnnnnn >\\\<. I openly grabbed myself and did a few frustrating nervous stomps and half crouch wiggles as it kept building.. I was gonna either wet or leak very very soon.. I apparently let out some upset noise cause my friend stopped looking and asked what’s wrong.

I quickly moved my hand before she saw the desperate clutch I had and smiled saying “nothing I just slammed my hand into something!” For once I was thankful my bladder was so shy cause my friend talking and looking at me helped me ground myself just enough! the intense urge was lowered for the moment just as her bf found the keys in her purse!

I whip around the car taking them, telling them I’d meet them inside. (Ironically as im leaving her bf bursts out how badly he needed to piss and just went like 8 feet to the side and peed.. men are lucky..)

Now I wanna say I love my friend so so much.. but she’s a lil spacey/forgetful at times, drunk her is EXTRA spacey/forgetful... I run to unlock front door, my legs glued together tightly, andddd it won’t work.. I struggle then angrily turn to shout, then remember it’s like 1am, so held my breath and walked as normal as I could back to my friend saying I couldn’t open it.. she goes “oh well yeah that’s the wrong door! That keys for the garage door!!” I nod and turn..halfway there when she run up to me telling me she remembered that her parents told her to come in the back door that they would leave it unlocked.... lmao...

I think I was starting to tremble from the effort of keeping my cool and my pants dry! I visibly half crossed my legs together blurting out a fast slightly annoyed “ahh-okkkk-god I really really have to pee” and took off around the house as my friend obliviously apologizes and goes back to the group..

I make it pass the fence to the back yard and on the way I’m awkwardly holding myself with one hand the other trying to push pass her dogs that were trying to greet me. I make it to the door and swing it open and jump inside! I doing my stompy potty dance again as I turn and painfully, slowly, try to shut the door as quietly as I could.

It felt my bladder urge coming back but this time way faster and felt like my bladder was getting warmer and fuller with every millasecond!!! “Oh my god I can’t- I gotta pee-“ I whisper as I quickly threw off my shoes, getting way more antsy, huffing as the urge reached the last step...

Both hands holding back a flood, I sprinted on my tippy toes to the back of the house where the bathroom was.

I bust in and again had to slow down a little to shut the door carefully, I noticed my hand seemed kinda wet as I shut the door (even though I hadn’t felt a leak yet??) but I must have, I glanced down seeing tiny drips between my shoes on her floor, with only one hand between my legs I felt the leak continue dripping off my hand.

Door shut, leaking hard and fast, I leaped to the toilet, ripped off my slightly dripping leggings and mostly soaked undies, and peed.

Lolol ahh I was forcefully peeing before I was even sitting down >\\<.. I just collapsed and over dramatically sighed closing my eyes and sagged as I let out the loudest fastest desperate pee of my life >\\\\\\<“

I kept going and going and goingggg, when my stream started to slow down I finally opened my eyes to asses the situation... where I had been holding myself was a perfect obvious dark stop on my black leggings and a few wet streaks.. still peeing I glanced at the floor next and saw small drips/splashes here and there. I gathered up some toilet paper and cleaned up the few wet spots I could reach and dabbed at wet undies...while still peeing (lol I swear it was almost never ending I was filled to the brim >\\>).

My normal stream lowered to a small trickle and finally was done... I felt hazy and weak from the hold and release but snapped out of it remembering my friend would be coming in very soon Q//Q I got up, cringing as I had to slip back on my wet now cold clothes, and opened the bathroom door.

Cost cleared I ran to my friends room and grabbed my sleep over bag taking out pjs. (No extra undies tho so had to go commando) I changed stuffing my wet stuff deep in my bag and ran back to the bathroom whipping up the small leaky mess. I was just walking through the hall to the back door checking if I had accidentally peed through there house >\\\< when they finally walked in.

We whispered and my friend stopped to get some water to take to the room, the whole time I’m just secretly glanced at the floor but I didn’t see any wet spots!

[softstraykidsimagines]

Boyfriend!Felix Stray Kids

OH BOY

Felix.

The meme himself

The creator of Changpil

I know right here and now this is going to end me

Let’s get started!

His crush on you is so bloody obvious

He’s not the subtle type

That’s not to say he isn’t hella shy with you tho

No no

He’s gonna tease you to no end istg

But he’ll always end up reassuring you that he doesn’t mean it at all and how special you truly are

Just RaNDoMly likes to crush you in a hug

Quoting the meme “that’s my best friend that’s my best friend!!””

Ye he’s very energetic with you

He’s never

NEVER

Going to stop talking around you

Unless he gets flustered with you

And then he’ll sit verrrrry still

Hands on his lap

With his lips pressed together

And owl eyes

0_0

You don’t really get why he does it

It’s cute tho

What you don’t realize is that he’s fighting with every fiber of his being to not scream and dance around because

Holy shit

He’s head over heels for you

He’s gonna try to confess romantically

Pfft like that’s gonna work out

Gonna try to take you to your favorite takeout restaurant and buy your favorite food

And he’s gonna try to stay calm

He doesn’t stay calm

He’ll suddenly blurt everything in one go:

“Soireallylikeyouandivelikedyouforasuperlongtimesoiwashopingwecouldhangoutasmorethanjustfriendssometime???!!!!!”

Basically shouted

And you’re sitting in front of him SH00K AF because

1) he confessed so suddenly

2) he did just basically yell in your face

Needless to say you’re a little lost

And poor Felix

He just looks at you horrified, apologizes for shouting and kinda looks in every direction as if waiting for someone to come rescue him

But he doesn’t get up

And finally lowers his head

“Sorry I was an idiot there…. I panicked…? I don’t know how to think staight with you”

And you’re about to get teary-eyed because BOI THAT WAS SO SINCERE

“I really like you too, Felix” you say beaming

He’s gonna look at you with the happiest smile ever omg

The same expression he had when JYP said they were debuting as 9 that expression gives me life tbh

So there we go! You guys go on a first date and it’s a sealed deal from there!

Dates with Felix

How to put it?

Chaotic? Ye that’s the word

Improvised, chaotic, fun, amazing dates

You’re ready to collapse at the end of it lol

Especially loves to go to archades or a laser tag I LOVE LASER TAG AND I WANT TO PLAY LASER TAG WITH FELIX DAMMIT *ahem* excuse me

Can you imagine running around in a dark room playing against another huge team

Which Felix is in

You don’t really know-how you both ended up on different teams smh

And you round a corner to see him facing you with the slyest of smiles

“Hey y/n! Look, I’ve got a gun!!” And proceeds to shoot you

Earning a yell of anger from you as he runs away laughing his ass off

Isn’t shy about skinship

Holds your hand without hesitation

But if you peck him on the cheek without warning

He’s gonna have a red face

And he’ll slowly melt into a puddle of goo in your hands

Ye he’s soft

Your first kiss is from a dare I bet

“You need to beat me at this game or I get a kiss”

“But you’re really good at this game and I suck!!”

“Exactly! Now let’s play”

He wins but you refuse to kiss him

“I never agreed to your terms, mister”

He pouts like a puppy but you don’t back down

“Fine then” he sulks “I’ll play it your way” and he snatches your food

Crisps, gummy sweets or a churro, he’s gonna take it and run off with it

“HOW. DARE. YOU STEAL MY FOOD! GET BACK HERE” you run after him, and you both get looks from passing people they judgin you hard

You finally catch up to him, huffing and puffing “give it back, dork”

He jumps around refusing to give your food back

You’ve lost all patience by now

You’re practically steaming when you finally growl “give it back you son of a b—“

He kissed you right on the lips, interrupting you

When you part he’s gonna let out a little scream

“I’m sorry I surprised you! That wasn’t at all planned! Can we rewind and start over??”

And then he’ll run away again, panicking.

With your food.

“FELIX ITS FINE JUST GIVE ME BACK MY DAMN SNACK”

Hehe you better wear ear defenders when you meet the rest of SK

They’re gonna scream 10x louder than ever when they see you

Congratulating Felix, warning you not to tell him where you hide your food etc

You know, Stray Kids stuff :)

“Y/n, can you teach us how you keep him under control?” -Hyunjin

“That would be useful but no one can control that hurricane of a kid” -Chan

“Feel free to hit him if he gets too annoying” -Jisung, as felix tries to wrestle him into the ground

“I hope you’re the right one for him, y/n” says Changbin. “He’s a good person, so don’t hurt him; or you’ll have to deal with me” it highkey sounds like a threat, hello Changlix

You two are the couple that don’t know wtf they’re doing half the time

You’re just having the time of your lives being together

Both of you will be lost if the other gets sick

“Is it a cold? Flu? What can I do to help?? And I might need help in helping you...” -either one of you

After many failed attempts at trying to make food or find the right medicine, you’ll just fall asleep on each other, completely exhausted 

Felix can get insecure about his elimination in the 9th cries in 4 different languages 

And sometimes will work himself to the bone 

If you try to stop him he’ll get really defensive 

He’ll push you away 

“You don’t understand! You can’t understand! How can you?! I need to get this perfect or... or.....” 

He realizes what he said and that it must have hurt you 

Even if you keep a plain face and a steady voice, he’ll know that it hurts you 

He’ll just break down in tears 

“I’m sorry *sniff* I can’t even talk to you properly.... I want to get this right, I want to prove that I deserve to be in Stray Kids....” 

You’re crying as hard as he is

Because his pain is yours as well 

You hug him tightly, listing all the amazing things he can do 

And all the things you love about him 

And you’ll repeat over and over how much he does deserve to be in Stray Kids

And that will calm him down 

NO MORE ANGST IM CRYING DONT LOOK AT ME 

He loves teaching you dances 

Not just dances that SK have done, but dances he’s done before moving to Korea 

Will actually interrupt you if you try to tell him that you can’t dance 

“You can. Because I’m teaching you. And i say you can dance. So you can dance.” 

Veeeerrry stubborn  

Tried to teach you to beat box like him 

It doesn’t work 

Sometimes asks for help when he’s learning something new in Korean 

Even if you suck at speaking it he’ll enjoy trying to learn with you 

Isn’t the texting type 

He’ll call/FaceTime you when he knows you’re free and when he wants to update you in the day 

Is the type to yell your name as soon as you pick up 

And you reciprocate by yelling his name 

If you’re in a place where you won’t draw too much attention to yourself 

You both send your fav memes 

Or quote them lmao 

He loves quoting hella old things the other members have said and melts when you start saying them too 

It drives SK up the wall RIP 

You two are in charge of cooking 2-3 nights a week for the boys 

Neither of you know why Chan was so ruddy insistant on it 

But meh you just roll with it 

If you have to cut onions, you’re both gonna start singing Seventeen’s ‘Don’t Wanna Cry’ 

The cooking days can be either a complete success 

Or a total disaster 

There is no in between 

At all. 

But most of the time you guys make a decent meal to feed 8 other hungry children artists so everyone’s happy 

This boy is nervous as fuck to meet your family  

At first he tries to back out of it 

“Ah ye, I think I’ll be sick on that day?” 

“What?” 

“I MEAN I MIGHT HAVE AN APPOINTMENT” 

He sucks at lying 

But he actually gets his shit together when you meet up 

Good clothes, perfect hair I mean he has perfect hair anyway sooo 

And he’s super smiley 

He’s obviously tense 

To you anyway 

But your fam don’t seem to pick up on his nervousness 

And the day goes by smoothly, and Felix finally relaxes 

He’s gonna flip his shit when you ask to come with him next time he goes to Australia 

He’s gonna start planning it immediately 

If his family don’t beat him to it and visit in Korea that is....

Then he stops functioning 

Amazing s/o + family = happiest boy on the planet 

And you’re relatively chilled about meeting him parents 

And they are SO SWEET 

You get along so freaking well with his sisters and he lowkey becomes jealous 

It’s just the most amazing thing for both of you ever 

In the evenings after practice Felix loves to just drift off while you two talk 

From what you did in the day to a random anecdote from a decade ago 

He enjoys the peace of it until he falls asleep 

Will collapse with happiness if you wear his hoodies 

“ITS LOOKS SO GOOD ON YOU” 

“Felix are you seriously crying right now?”

“I’m just so stupidly lucky” 

Definitely not gonna say ‘I love you’ on purpose 

100% an accident 

He’s gonna say it when he’s half asleep, probs won’t even realize that he’s said it until you react 

“Man, I must dead-ass be the luckiest person on Earth to have someone as amazing as you” he rambles. “I love you so much and I just want to tell the world that I do....” 

Leaving you SH00K to the core 

“YOU WOT MATE?” 

If you say it first he’s gonna cry 

Don’t @ me I know he’s gonna cry 

He's probs stolen your food again

And he’s lowkey being a twat 

“If you had to choose your fav food or me, what would you choose?” 

“Seriously? The food, duh” 

“DUDE WHAT? Alright then! I’ll just leave” you drag him back by his arm 

“Noooooo don’t leave I don’t want you to gooooo” 

“Why not?” 

“BECAUSE I LOVE YOU DAMMIT, WHY ELSE YOU IDIOT” 

He’d do that thing again 

0_0 

“Oh my god, Felix I’m sorry it just slipped out” 

“...”

“Felix?”

“I LOVE YOU TOO” he screams 

Once again leaving you SH00K 

And he’ll crush you in the biggest hug ever 

IM SO SOFT HALP MEH 

When SK are away 

Ngl, I would pray for them 

Felix is a whiney baby without you 

Can even be in a grumpy mood 

FaceTimes you in the evenings 

His or your evenings, depending on the time zone

And you two will talk quietly until one of you falls asleep

It’s insanely adorable 

Will actually start dancing in the airport before seeing you because he’s so bloody excited 

And the rest of the boys disown him 

“Who’s that, dancing? He looks like a pigeon” -Woojin

“Dunno, never seen him before in my life” -Minho

Earning a protest from Felix

Your ears will fall off when he finally sees you 

“OHMYGODY/NYOU’REHEREI’VEMISSEDYOUSOMUCHI’MSOGLADTOSEEYOUAGAIN” 

“FELIX SHUT UP YOU’RE RAMBLING AGAIN”

“WHY ARE WE STILL YELLING?”

Changbin butts in “I DON’T KNOW SO SHUT THE FUCK UP”

He’ll go public about your relationship anytime after a year 

In the least flattering way for you 

He’s definitely the guy who pretends to take a photo and ends up taking a video smh 

You’re both smiling at the camera and he’s not taking it 

“Hurry up, man, my cheekbones are getting sore” 

No response from him 

You immediately catch on what he was doing 

“Omg I can’t believe you!!!” 

As he laughs like an idiot 

Will still make sure you’re ok with him posting it tho 

And when he does 

TheInternetHasShutDown.jpg 

You guys will break the internet

There’s not a single person of consequence who doesn’t love you two 

It’s absolutely amazing 

A/N: PHEW! This adorable nugget coming to wreck all your bias lists lmao

Hope enjoy reading! Later :D

[survivorreelsmagicwithin]

Episode 11- “we will see if anyone comes out of the saloon anytime soon”-Lily

I am literally so shook LOL, I don't know what just happened but...  Dan used his idol on me and I wish he would have stayed because comp queen... I am not.  I KNOW I am going to be the next to go if I don't win the next immunity challenge and I just don't know which of these fakes to put my trust in. I HONESTLY went back to Landen and Lily and intend to keep it that way because I don't know what kind of fuckery just happened with everyone else.   AND CHIPS IF YOU WROTE MY NAME DOWN AFTER WE PROMISED NOT TO WRITE EACH OTHERS NAMES....  jk LOL.  I went from like sobbing last week to laughing this week, I am a MESS. 

3 minutes later

TOUCHY SUBJECTS!! This is going to be my comp to win because I have a method with this one that NEVER fails me when I use it.  To do it I just have to be INSANELY honest and then just get into the head of everyone else.  I write everyone's name down that is still in the game and I figure out what each person would say for each question and then I tally it up!   LOOK at me being all cocky and confident about it, watch me lose now, LOL.

1 hour later

I really hope I win this challenge so I won't join Owen and Dan in the jury anytime soon.  This one is another one that I feel like Jules will do really good on, so there is that.  She, Landen and Lily are the ONLY ones that have talked to me after tribal.   Also did I mentioned I left the alliance chat I made with Landen and Lily then made a new one, LOL.  I promise I'm only this crazy when I play Survivor, I have no chill, I'm either dead and float to the end or I'm chaotic and jump from person to person and burn bridges and play BADLY like a crazy person.

when two idols get played and you accidentally send out a frenemy lmaaaaoo ily Dan

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uOcx0U-XVpA  

ok now on to the show

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1j3uV5Zc49fbFH4xLK-L0JQX82xsiA1dq/view?usp=sharing

dear diary, what the FUCK! i disassociate for one (1) day and everything goes bonkers.. all i can say is that i'm glad landen trusts me so much because whew.. what a messy man. but i love everything about him.. CFHGVJBKN no but for realsies this vote was CRAZY. but one of the biggest threats in this game.. at least to me just got out SOOO. i am thriving. i honestly think i'm genuinely in a really good position in this game because voting for ruthie last round secures my trust with so many people in this game.. aka autumn, lily AND while landen already trusts me so much <3 im even in more good graces with him by keeping in someone so close to him even though im still hmmm. on how close him and lily are. it's scary but.. i know he holds me dearly to him too so boom? UM! i don't know. working with jules and kevin is reassuring too.. chips and i are tight always.. the only people i don't talk to are joanna and ruthie but i don't think that will affect me in an matter. so. smiles.

HA!!! I may have had the most OTT confessionals ever last round but look who gets the last laugh?? LANDEN GETS THE LAST LAUGH! Because I was RIGHT. I knew that something was going on and something mysterious was being planned, I was utterly confused as to why this shit was happening around me, and I knew these people were off. I said They are PLAYING ME and why do I not know what's going on, there's something shady happening... And yes there was. I have to thank Kevin for making the dumbest move he could possibly make, which is to tell me and Lily. Sorry Kevin but you fucked me over twice and I'm not good with that, I'm not okay with his double dealing anymore! :) He was playing the middle and he got caught and If I want to make sure that Lily and myself continue to get through votes... That's the card I have to play. Last night I was working overtime as hard as possible to convince Chips and Autumn that they need to split the votes onto Ruthie and Dan, and to do that I was throwing Ruthie and Kevin under the bus. Oooops! Then they made it super easy by telling me the vote was on Lily which gave me the ammunition to flip things on Ruthie. Kevin might think it was just for that round, but I'm so glad, because this vote finally put me in a position of a tiny bit of power, I think. I'm still not like, RUNNING things, but I got an alliance of 5 and I think we really do have motivation to stick together, at least for now, and take Kevin and Ruthie OUT of this game. If I can just do that, that sets me up really well for the final stages of this game. I have to take out the double agents, get rid of the double dealing, set up this vote CLEAR, because I don't have an idol for protection anymore. Speaking of which... Yes I guess you could consider that a waste, but it wasn't like Lily got NO votes. I knew she would be getting 2 for sure, and I only knew for sure that Dan was getting 1. I was not going to risk Lily's life on the fluke possibility that there would be 2 or 3 Dan votes or that people would revote out Dan over Lily. No way. Lily is not only a huge shield for me in this game because of her social game, connections, and strategic prowess (she'd be more threatening than me in any FTC i think which makes people want to go for her instead of me), but she's someone who's ALWAYS going to have my back in this game. That is extremely powerful, I don't know if most people realize how powerful it is for someone to always have your back and be giving you information, that kind of relationship is necessary in Survivor and it always gives a type of power that could help me go on to win this game. And honestly, the more people think I'm playing FOR lily and that they shouldn't respect my game bc a lot of it is in the name of helping her and i BOTH get through things, they're wrong, but the better they think that bc that just helps make me seem a little less threatening and a little more like the ideal Buddy to take into Final Tribal Council! Where I hopefully have the story and the moves to wreck any opponent sans Autumn, Jules, Kevin, maaaaybe juls who all obviously cannot be allowed to make it there. :P I feel MUCH better about my spot in the game now. MARSHMALLOW MOVES BABY

INCH RESTING that only Landen, Lily and Jules have talked to me one on one since last night.  They are the ones that I was most wary of last round but I rely a lot on the of the social aspect of this game and if these people are too scared to talk to me after voting for me I'm not going to feel bad if I vote for them, haha.   I really have a good feeling about this challenge and I am once again praying to the survivor gods that I manage to pull out a win.  I NEED this.

I hate touchy subjects, I have never won it. Also last vote was a mess, two idols were played and that is insane. I was added really late to this new alliance chat and like okay cool, but I know I'm on the bottom of that alliance and they are trying to tell me that kevin is a snake but i trust kevin and like i can't go against that alliance because they are majority and tbh i'm not 100% sure who is all IN that alliance, they just told me to vote ruthie and i did and then she didn't even go home. i have voted for ruthie twice now and ruthie has gone home zero times, i'm worried she is going to come for me, but i've just been trying to vote with majority my guys

The anxiety I feel before immunity results is UNREAL in this game, haha. I have a really strong feeling that I won this one... and I am usually wrong when I start thinking that but I just HOPE that I did, I need this to squeak by.   I'm not really sure what I am going to do going forward, I feel like if I win this round I can either a) Cause a lot of ruckus and spill everyones tea when they finally decide to talk game with me or b) Have complete loyalty to Landen and Lily and just do whatever the heck they want to do to show that I AM loyal. I swear, every time I see I have a new Skype notification I refresh the blog to see if it is the results... and no luck.  Yet. Okay the people in the Atomic VL really need to stop so I will stop getting notifications, LOL. HARDLY ANYONE talks in this game right before results so I just have to deal with my anxiety over the results right here in my confessional. I am also searching and I'm mad at myself for remembering to search so late bc I doubt there will be time for me to look right before tribal tomorrow. I think?? That I might be onto something.  At the three broomsticks you can ask for drinks but there was an option to get a room and I'm HOPING that if I do that I will get one of those passes where I get to skedaddle before tribal.  I mean, it makes sense to me but it is probably going to be NOTHING. And it was nothing and I also DID NOT win immunity, grrr.  LOL.  I was actually way off and I can't wait to see what everyone said for everything. OKAY at least I got the one about me being the biggest liar right.

I'm not sure if i'm making moves or if my seeds are planting... but autumn has more social ties in this game than i do right now... and landen is playing a fantastic game from what i can tell. that's dangerous to keep around. i think he has a real shot at winning. and i don't want to be a goat. but every time i have had an agenda i have fought for it, just since merge hit, everyone who has been targeted i didn't care if they went. no agenda, no feisty joanna. but i'm creating an agenda... and i think landen might be my target... sorry b, just i want me to win this thing more than i want you to but... i also think that kevin is doing wonderfully. if i have any chance at this thing, which maybe i don't, landen and kevin both need to go.

I am fine with every touchy subjects answer I got... for the MOST part. Wouldn't bring home to your family? That's fine, I'm loud, aggressive, in your face with my opinions, boldly passionate, etc etc. They had to choose someone and I totally understand why they would pick me for that. Thinks he's running the game, I mean, I think it's obvious I DON'T think that, by how paranoid and messy I was scrambling the last couple votes, but I also know I come off as very pretentious and arrogant with having information, and have been on the right side of every vote, so I understand that people would put that about me. Loudest, DUH! Host favorite and juiciest confessionals I DEFINITELY don't agree with lol, I can be very boring and rambly, and I know yall dont like me TOO much. But Biggest villain... BIGGEST VILLAIN?!?! ARE YOU FOR REAL? ARE YOU FOR REAL, GIRL, ARE WE FOR REAL?? SOMEONE LIED TO HER SEVERAL TIMES. WHERE was the villainous behavior. WHERE WAS IT?!?!? I am one of the ONLY people in this game who has sold almost NOBODY out and who has almost NEVER lied. I sold ONE person out, and that was Ruthie. Who, might I remind you, BETRAYED HUFFLEPUFF before I did that, and NEVER established a 1-on-1 alliance with me, EVER, or even a smaller alliance with me. So it was hardly even a betrayal, especially as I was fighting to SURVIVE sdkfdskf. I played an IDOL for my closest ally, I spiraled as hard as possible to change the votes for every ally who was in serious danger, and I consistently did everything I can to do the right thing in this game instead of being a cutthroat mastermind like SOME PEOPLE (Jules, Kevin, im looking at you assholes!) AND SOMEHOW IM THE VILLAIN!??! I just... LOL. Girl where? Where am I the villain of the season? I'm definitely no OTTP hero, that's Lily, but as her designated sidekick I should at least be MORM! I mean, come on! As far as Kevin winning immunity and a bunch of other good superlatives, sigh. It's very questionable and makes me sketched the hell out. I wanna push on Jules but I feel like I'm gonna have to just push on Ruthie again, and I'm pretty sure that now that I'm without the idol I'll be going home bc of the stunt I pulled last time, soooo... Yeeeah.  That's that. I'll definitely push what I can tmrw tho, but for the most part I'm just gonna focus on school and my new cat collecting game, the game has been rly cute though so far and hopefully I find some way to stay.

look at me... number crunching like i can do math

I'm pretty sure that if Dan knew I just told Landen and Lily about the power he sent me- the anonymous note thing- he would break into hogwarts to yell at me.  I told them merely to establish a trust with them again because staying tight with them may be my only shot to actually make it to the end.

I'm so furious Kevin won immunity, because I had the perfect shot to go for him. I'm so angry. I'm so UPSET. I'm like.... WHEW i'm mad. It's so exhausting feeling like you're on the bottom every, single, round, no matter what happens, no matter how much you do to prove your loyalty and try to find an in with people, all it does is continually push you down even worse. I get ignored all day then I get called pushy and paranoid for asking why it's happening and trying to come up with a plan, then to make it worse I get labelled as "Villain of the Season". Like.... wtf? I guess I'm a villain for daring to try and survive and protect Lily, that makes me soooo evil and such a big bad, I guess I'm a villain for selling out Ruthie who never ever made an alliance with me and turned on me first, I guess I'm a villain for turning on Kevin after he consistently lies to me all day and plays the middle just to put me on the bottom, like, that's not a real ally. A real ally does whatever they can to do what is in the best interest of themselves AND their ally. They consider what's good for eachother. Kevin and others have proven to me at basically every single turn that they just consider me an extra vote, and, let's make this clear, an extra vote they don't even like. They use me because they know I'm a loyal player, and when they backstab me they get angry that I retaliate and do what I can to further my own position. It's just like extremely mind boggling and these are the type of mind games that wear me out so much because this game just psychologically is like brutal. It wears me down a lot and I'm just trying to keep a clear head about all this and find some way to stay afloat in the game and keep bearing a smile but it's honestly really really hard and at this point I don't know how much energy I have left to keep giving every tribal 150% at the last 30 minutes just to barely survive. Especially without an idol, like i'm just.. sigh. It's a lot but I'm going to keep giving it everything i have, because if there's one thing I don't know how to do, it's give up or lay down, even when all signs point to just settling and being quiet. It's not in my blood and I gotta play this game like me even if it makes me lose. A win is not worth compromising myself for, I'll never feel good about a victory that I feel like I abandoned myself to earn. 

And here we are at a stand still again. I feel like I’m in one of those old westerns but I’m out there with my gun in my holster ready to go and everybody else is at the saloon. Tumbleweeds go by and I’m like hello? Anybody there? Anyway... Landen is losing it. I’m here trying to keep hope and keeping my fingers crossed that my chills vibes get through on this holiday. So the past two tribals, despite being some of the most stressful of my whole life, have gone my way somehow. And I don’t think I’m appearing as too big of a threat at this point but what am I kidding I got votes last time. I have two alliances going which is more than I usually have. I continue to have the desire to stay hufflepuff strong despite voting for ruthie on the last vote. I also have an alliance with landen, Joanna, autumn, and chips. It’s an interesting group to say the least and I can’t say I fully trust the group. Autumn came forward as voting for dan at the last one and while I appreciate the honesty it does continue to make me weary of Autumn. I also think Dan was the one to start a vote on me and he may have been getting some traction on it but it fizzled. I hope that someone else doesn’t start to catch on to how suave I am and vote me out. I’d like to at least make it to my lucky 7 spot at this point!   This vote I think the best outcome would be Jules going. I have the least amount of strategic conversation with her so that would be ideal at this point. If it’s ruthie...I don’t want to vote her but I can’t risk getting myself voted out defending her. Shout out to you Ruthie. Best of luck. And we will see if anyone comes out of the saloon anytime soon...

can't believe the entire old hufflepuff tribe (minus Max) is back in an alliance together again.  I can't trust any of them as far as I can throw them but I love it. In other news, someone started a rumor that Chips told me to vote for Jules?? and he DID NOT.  But he is also not talking to me right now anymore.  I don't want to vote Jules, I am NOT voting Jules.  Jules also said she is not voting me but idk that I can trust it or not.  NO ONE is talking game right now besides me, Kevin, Lily and Landen.  Chips was talking to me earlier and so were Juls and Jules but none of them really knew a name and this is just a MESS.   I'm just trying not to get into any drama because I'm already branded as the biggest liar on the tribe when there are some people around here that have lied A LOT more than I have!! US TALKING GAME AND LILY RANDOMLY POPPING IN AFTER BEING MIA FOR AWHILE IN WITH- HAHAHAHAH okay edited, I cannot say what she said but I AM DEAD.. it includes the party emoji. I AM DEAD LOL, oh my god. I can't stop laughing. ANYWAY. So, Autumn says that the vote was Jules and now it is Chips??  SO BOTH SIDES ARE VOTING THE SAME? I'm so shook right now but this is good news!  I feel bad because Chips and I DID have a really good conversation today but if he was the one that just stirred all this shit up he needs to go.  I need a moment of peace! 

well. people be lyin to me. so. anyways. im tired. THESE PPL BE DOIN!!!!! THE MOST!!!!

i’m betraying the alliance i came into merge with while trying to keep it together. how does one convince someone to vote with them while pretending they don’t know anything? 

TOO MUCH INFO TOO LITTLE TIME ILL DO ANOTHER ONE AFTER TRIBAL

Tribal has been wild this round. Kevin won the challenge so he's immune. The new alliance I'm in wants to vote Jules because they are a powerhouse in all three categories - social, strategic, and challenges. Anyway, I told Jules I would tell them if I ever heard their name. I wanted to stick to that so I told them. I guess that was a mistake because they asked who from and I was already told they were working closely with Kevin so I just said Kevin. And then really shook them and I think they were shocked because Kevin is their final 2 (most likely) - anyway I didn't know what to say when they asked "From him?" because he never talks game with me. EVER. Luckily I got busy with life so I didn't have to respond... when I get back to my computer though apparently Jules has started asking why their name is being said to Landen and Lily and a conversation that I have had with Ruthie makes them suspicious that I am also telling Ruthie so the "loose lips sink ships" comes into play. Anyway, I definitely didn't actually say anything to Ruthie at all so I put that fire out. Then I try to tiptoe around the fact that I told Jules and Landen comes to the conclusion that Ruthie MUST be close with them if Jules knows because Juls might have talked to Ruthie about the vote. In the meantime our alliance comes up with a plan to throw me under the bus to Jules as well as for me to do the opposite to either Ruthie or Landen. For fear of an idol. All this drama happens and then I have to tell Jules that Kevin didn't say it and that someone else told me that Kevin had said it and they ask who... and then follow it up by telling me that Landen has been throwing me under the bus saying I'm lying and that they need to vote me. I guess our plan has started. I let Jules know that it was Landen who wanted to vote them. And then Jules comes to the conclusion that Landen is the common factor in these stories and asks if I want to vote for him. I agree because he has been trying to have me murdered and voted out all while at the same time planning to vote for Jules anyway. This plan is so eccentric and weird and nothing like I have ever done on Survivor. I felt so bad when I didn't tell Jules that they were being targeted for the vote but did not want to open this can of worms. Kind of hoping I get blindsided so I don't have to live with the guilt. But then also sort of hoping it works just because it is such a cool and fun thing we have done.

[audreils]

three tag games under, i’m tagging: @sirien​ @ronanlynhh​ @katiebells​ @kevcnday​ @bilourry​ @roseputa​ @esnysingle​ @noahsweetwne​ @jeanmoreos​ @fcyre​ @gansaey​ @sxofcrows​ @gayneil​ @mathiashevlr​ @andreil69​ @patrioclus @alekzandermorozova (u can any/all u want, or not do them lmao)

tagged by the loml @axdreil​

rules: answer the questions & ask 11 of your own

1. favourite piece of fiction all for the game or harry potter, hands down. theyre both so so imoprtant to me holy hell 

2. if u could live in any fictional world which would it be? why? definitely harry potter. i wanna be able to do magic bc im a lazy fucker and also i’d love to fuck w purebloods with muggle stuff

3. what was ur childhood anthem (or just ur fave song/band growing up) okay no one’s gonna know this bc i lived in pakistan but it was this song 

4. favourite moment from aftg all of them djkgag there’s so many how do i pick one?? but one of the more underrated ones has gotta be when neil calls matt from columbia and matt is ready to fucking kill andrew 

5. favourite ice cream chocolate chip bc im borin and love chocolate sm 

6. favourite pun im not punny can u believ im just accidentally funny

7. where would u like to travel to see u :~) @axdreil​

8. whats ur go-to feel good film/show/book/song/anything one direction lmao i watch their interviews and video diaries or just listen to their entire discography 

9. favourite season autumn!!!!!!!!!!1 9. on a scale of 1-10 how much do u love neil josten its way past a 10 im literally matt boyd 9. talk about something u love harry styles. i love him sooo much he’s gotten thru some tough times and he just makes me wanna be a better person. he’s been dragged thru the mud by the media so many times and at the beginning he let it get to him but i’ve seen him grow and mature into a beautiful person who is unapologetically and authentically himself and tbh thats who i wanna be when i grow up i wanna stay true to myself and to others and stay as kind as he is

my quesions

favorite part of ur day 

best thing about ur best friend 

advice you’d give to your 10 yrs old self

tell me a joke

favortie subject in school and why 

what’s the closest thing on ur left rn 

where did u last go on vacation

talk abt the best teacher you had 

favourite song/artist

would u go to the moon if u could

u can meet one person living/dead. who is it and why 

i was tagged by @glitterghxst terrible lmao anyway,,,

Are you named after someone? yes i am and im v happy with it 

When was the last time you cried? last night lmao 

Do you like your handwriting? depends on how it looks thers 67538975 variations

What is your favourite lunch meat? i?? dnt assign times to food i’ll eat whatever th fuck i want whenver i want 

Do you have kids? i am almost 19 yrs im a kid myslef 

If you were another person, would you be friends with you? no im annoying as fuc

Do you use sarcasm? sarcasm? who is she never heard of her

Do you still have your tonsils? i havent had them taken out so i guess yes 

Would you bungee jump? fuck yea if my mom let me 

What is your favourite kind of cereal? cookie crisp

Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? i am Lazy

Do you think you’re a strong person? lol

What is your favourite ice cream? chocolate chip

What is the first thing you notice about people? i dont fuckin know ,, maybe their choice or the way they hold themselves 

What is the least favourite physical thing you like about yourself? my whole entire face and my hands? ugli 

What colour pants and shoes are you wearing now? burnt orangey pants and no shoes

What are you listening to right now? castle by halsey at this second, i’ve got my spotify on shuffle 

If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? idk???? maybe beige idk man crayons have weird names 

Favourite smell? this is hella specific but the perfume my elementary school principal wore 

Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? my lil bro 

Favourite sport to watch? whats a sport 

Hair colour? black

Eye colour? brown

Do you wear contacts? no i would die beore i wear contacts again

Favourite food to eat? what else do u do with food? idk which tho 

Scary movies or comedy? either is fine tbh 

Last movie you watched? i,,,,,, cnat remmebr 

What color of shirt are you wearing? purple

Summer or winter? neitehr 

Hugs or kisses? hugs or forehead kisses IF im in the mood plss dont touch me otherwise 

What book are you currently reading? NOTHING bc im fucking depressd and cant focus on a single damn thing for longer than 5 seconds 

Who do you miss right now? my friedns and my aunt

What is on your mouse pad? its 2017 i have a laptop 

What is the last TV program you watched? the vampre diaries bc im trash

What is the best sound? the sound of peace and quiet 

Rolling stones or The Beatles? idc for either tbh oops but rolling stones i guess 

What is the furthest you have ever travelled? america i guess? bc i came frm pakistan

Do you have a special talent? surviving everyday i guess and negletcing every single responsibility. also being able to recognize a 1d song anywhere anytime as soon as it starts playing no matter how faint

Where were you born? rawalpindi, pakistan.., i miss it

tagged by @neljostns​. ty bbe!!

what fictional character do you relate to most? honestly, probably either sana bakkoush or andrew minyard, and they’re both vastly diferent i realize that but they capture both of my extremes and i’d die for them 

favorite song atm: sign of the time by harry styles listen to it here 

3 favorite films: kill your darlings, all the hp movies, titanic

3 favorite tv shows: b99, and the get down, skam

favorite school subject: english & psychology 

what book(s) impacted you most: aftg, soc, vampire academy 

what was your blog originally about and what is it about now? my main was originally 100% 1d; over the years it had 1d, 5sos, little mix, marvel, literally everything. now its back to 99% 1d. this one was a saved url for a while i only started really using it in like,,, august? of 2*16 i think

what is something you’re looking forward to? may 12!!!!!!!!!! harry styles releases his debut self-titled album get it here

favorite food? idk tbh,, maybe biryani 

3 things you like about yourself: my sense of humor, my ability to give zero fucks, my taste in music

[kallday-layla]

Top 12 Kpop Songs – 2 Year Kpop Anniversary

Since Exo’s Call Me Baby came out 2 years ago in March, it means that I’ve been into Kpop for 2 years now! That’s a lot for me because I get tired of things kind of quickly. So for my Kpop anniversary, I decided to do a all time top 12 favorite Kpop songs.

Even though I LOVE khiphop and krnb this list will just be Kpop. There are some songs that aren’t really kpop songs, but they are by Kpop groups. So does that count? Most songs on this list will be by Kpop groups anyways.

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12. Black Hole // Shinee

Ah, Shinee. You can always rely on them for delivering bops. This song was not a title track, but it was on the amazing View album. This song is so nice I love it. You can’t just help but dance and bob your head when listening to it.

11. Ah-Ah // Teen Top

Omg this album and song is amazing. Let’s just talk about the song for a minute. It’s catchy, quality content, the MV is so colorful, and they all look fine. Not to mention that the footwork is LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE. So, how can you not love and stan this amazingly talented group.

10. Moonlight Sonata // Big Star

Okay I’m going to be honest. This is the only big star song that I listen to/know. I didn’t even watch the MV until I started writing this post even though it has been on my playlist for a few years. But I just had to put it on this list. This song is AMAZING and even though I don’t know them they deserve more love and recognition.

But listen to this song because it is so smooth and I cry every time I hear it. Side note but I like Baram cause he had a man bun in this music video.

9. Automatic // Red Velvet

This is true art right here. Not only is the MV aesthetic but the song itself sounds so aesthetic. Also, I really love the red album and their recent one. There is not much to say besides appreciate this master piece.

8. Ma Boy // Sistar19

The iconic body roll anthem of the century. Honestly, I cannot help but body roll to this song. Like how can you not? But their socks with heels kill me every time.

7. Playback // Playback

Is this socks with heels part 2? Hahaha I’m kidding. But, I’m so glad I randomly clicked on this when it was in my YouTube subscription page. But like this song is sooo good I practically know all the lyrics and the whole dance. Also it’s super catchy so go listen to it so it gets stuck in your head for the whole day.

6. Fly // Got7

This is honestly my favorite Got7 song. There would be more Got7 (and JYP artists) on this list, but JYP is too petty to allow his artists’ songs on Spotify. This song is perfection, so go listen to it and bless your ears.

5. Q&A // Seventeen

Oh this song is so cute I love it. Like you have s.coups, vernon, and woozi, and then you throw in Ailee with her amazing vocals. How can you not be shook by this song? Also, am I the only one who heard Vernon say “bagel bagel” or-

4. Honestly // Monsta X

This song still remains my favorite Monsta X song. I know their other songs are very different from this, but I just can’t help but love this song much. It’s just so beautiful with their their smooth vocals and Jooheon and IM’s rap. Ugh my heart.

3. Shall We Dance // HiNi

Is this considered Kpop? Welp I’m putting it on this list anyways. This song- ugh I can’t even describe. The music video is so simple, but that’s what I love about it. The song it self is hands down amazing. HiNi looks so cute, and she has such a unique voice that you never expected to come from her. So, I thank myself for randomly clicking on this song and discovering heaven.

2. Cypher Pt. 4 // BTS

I know this is only performed by the rap line (and occasionally Taehyung) but like this song is so lit, and that beat always kills me. I don’t really have much to say besides this is a real lit song but yeah…

1. Twenty-Four // EXO

Not really a

I just realized that most of these have an R&B or hiphop feel to them. Whoops…

Honorary Mentions

There are SO many songs I love. Here are some (a lot of) songs that made it to number 12.5 on my list.

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Wow I’m back and better than ever. Hahaha I’m kidding. I honestly really want to get back into blogging, but I feel like I’m going to get really busy soon. I’ve recently been thinking about my blog, so I wrote this when I had a little free time. I hope this isn’t, but I’m pretty sure this is just going to be a one time gig for now. I can’t really fully commit to a schedule or anything like that.

I almost watched 100 dramas, and I have a special post idea. Hopefully, you won’t see that post months from now. But, as previously mentioned I really got into the underground khh and krnb scene, so if you would like any posts on that I’m more than happy to do it. (If you want I can share my playlist that’s located on youtube.) I’m also into mainstream khh and krnb. (Oh and a little into k-indie.) Anyways if you have any suggestions of posts I’m open to anything.

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The Best Kpop Songs Ever Invented Top 12 Kpop Songs - 2 Year Kpop Anniversary Since Exo's Call Me Baby came out 2 years ago in March, it means that I've been into Kpop for 2 years now!

[lilietsblog]

so much sailor moon liveblog

oh my god is that sound Usagi's alarm clock no fucking wonder she's late every day, I could barely hear it

Umino is it really that hard to tell that when someone's crawling between the rows you shouldn't loudly greet them like for one you aren't really supposed to loudly greet ANYONE in the middle of the lesson, even if they just came through the door normally is he doing this on purpose

I love that Usagi actually noticed the lack of a line to the fortune teller and stopped to chat to him about it the queen is taking care of her kingdom

I wonder if Motoki realizes Usagi's got a crush on him... also Luna wtf rude okay I know saving people but like. they were having a good time and then you just bite Usagi's hand. rude and you don't fucking get to impose your 'mission' on Usagi, her getting home late or not is her issue with her mom, not your 'mission' problem

"You'll never have a boyfriend if you don't act more ladylike" and thus, my hatred for Mamoru was cemented

...I love Usagi's shoes, they are so pretty...

"It's not good to be hanging out after school" wtf why

Umino didn't even get the answer to his 'date' question before he walked away also man Usagi's teacher is really young huh

I have no fucking clue how to manage a full class of kids tbh, this is like a legit nightmare scenario to me

and then Usagi actually runs and confronts the boys breaking windows even after she saw how they acted now. holy shit this girl is nothing if not brave and lol she knows exactly how to handle Umino getting too handsy crying WORKS

and Usagi has been paying enough attention to connect their behavior to the House of Fortune as soon as Luna mentions them being controlled when it's something she actually cares about (like her classmates, god bless this little queen) you can damn fucking well COUNT on Usagi

when I was rewatching Sailor Moon for the first time (at ~17) I was completely of the same mind as Luna, so I didn't notice anything off about her treatment of Usagi but she pretty much bullies her into situation Usagi's rightfully scared of, and like... no fucking wonder Usagi blows her off at any opportunity she gets, Luna has NOT been kind to her

also I absolutely love that this anime doesn't subvert anything, that Usagi sees nothing off about the key phrase to activating her brooch and that she made up her catchphrase herself on the spot because NOBODY fucks with Usagi's friends

also man it's NOT true that Tuxedo Kamen does nothing here. Like yeah he doesn't fight but he gives Usagi the break she needs so much, and she sees her the way she wants to be seen - as a brave warrior who's doing her best. And he distracts her from fear and makes her feel like she can do anything, which, yeah, is what makes all the difference here.

omfg Jadeite signs off as "J-dite" subtle

again and again, Luna starts with reprimanding Usagi for habits that are actually bad for her school perfomance and then veers sharply into "You're a chosen warrior with a very important mission"... without ever actually even explaning what the mission is. She's completely 100% failing to sell Usagi on this. It sounded kind of romantic and cool when Usagi first heard it, but since then Luna only managed to make it sound like a chore and something Usagi must rearrange her entire life for. Propaganda fail.

Usagi's parents are adorable, and her dad is super relatable. I, too, wish to get an illness that would let me just sleep for a while -_- omfg their sweetness defies words im cryin

"What? Usagi's still here?" "I forget" OKAY MAYBE THEY ARE SWEET BUT THEY AREN'T TERRIBLY GOOD PARENTS ARE THEY

"Self study: just study whatever you want" that's a neat trick omfg I gotta remember that

I love how all of Usagi's classmates have completely unique faces. There is definitely a touch of 'recognize the protagonist by her hair', but you can easily tell the others apart, too.

"I hate it. Usagi never listens to what I say" actually Usagi listens to you all the time, she just doesn't LIKE what you're saying. You could maybe put some more effort into that jfc Luna if YOU treated Usagi better maybe she would be happy to see you and offer you milk too -_-

omg Haruna-sensei falls asleep and Usagi's question is "is it that exhausting to be a teacher?" my sweet child <3 Usagi is very, very, very emotionally intelligent and I will fight anyone (yes. yes it is)

Naru you didn't notice Usagi about to walk into the telephone pole either -_- Mamoru why do you have to be an asshole just why

and I love that where Naru instantly falls for his looks and doesn't notice how rude he is Usagi reacts appropriately to his words and actions which every single time are incredibly, annoyingly rude

oh my god I love how Luna is animated sooo much. I never really paid attention before but man there's a spectrum for anime cats and Luna is at the top. the beanies <3

you know Jet is always making fun of how Kunzite is an expert on the teenage girl condition, but Jadeite p much nailed the whole 'midnight DJ' gig too

...nobody other than Usagi noticed that Haruna-sensei wore the flower brooch the queen looks after her kingdom (even if she's failing math)

holy shit the brooches are getting less subtle this WOULD have been noticed before if people were falling asleep from putting them on immediately oh it looks like they get people who get close too, that explains part of it

man no wonder I was head over heels for Jadeite the first time I watched, his voice is AMAZING

okay Usagi's first reaction to Jadeite is that he's dreamy too, glad I'm not alone in that pffft

omg I love how the first thing Usagi does upon arriving this time is not attacking or announcing herself but making use of the radio to warn everyone against the brooches this girl is smart and I will fight

I love that while Usagi ends up screaming and running and not remembering her attack, she has ALREADY saved everyone. Didn't need Tuxedo Kamen for THAT part <3 oh hey looks like he didn't come today at all huh okay and I also love that when Jadeite stops Usagi's tiara her reaction is to charge into melee she sucks at combat, but cowardly she's not <3 ah and HERE comes Tuxedo Kamen right on time to snap Usagi out of her stupor omfg he literally did nothing this time he just scared off Jadeite okay but SARAMADA HO HO HO HO HO HO i can't with this dork omg <3

"Let me read it too" OMFG SENSEI HOW OLD ARE YOU

oh my god Usagi's family SUCKS at being encouraging they don't realize how bad they are making Usagi feel at all (well her brother probably does but he's just an ass) emotional intelligence is nOT a hereditary ability here

...looks like Usagi's classmate friendgroup has an aro ace kid and she's teased for it? idk huh

Umino is a little creep. canon. like in the first episode there was room left for doubt like 'socially clueless' but tbh there's no way to be socially clueless that following a teacher around and taking photos of her in revealing outfits is icky

does Usagi not recognize Jadeite just because he's wearing glasses? okay to be fair they do murk up his face shape

USAGI WHY WOULD YOU TRY TO BULLY A LITTLE KID INTO GIVING YOU HIS FOOD JFC SHE'S REALLY REALLY HUNGRY

why does Mamoru take such a liking to bullying this particular teenage girl good thing Usagi can take this and give back some just jfc WHY

LUNA WHY THAT'S NOT HOW MATH WORKS WHY DO _YOU_ LIKE BULLYING USAGI SO MUCH YOU MAKE A SHIT MENTOR NO WONDER SHE NEVER LISTENS TO YOU

I mean jfc literally Luna first pokes at Usagi's weak point then wonders why she can't get her attention while Usagi is too busy despairing

and Luna literally threatens Usagi into submission with claws x face shit mentor? shit mentor.

"If you fight, you will lose weight!" I mean Luna isn't wrong, fight is a lot of physical exertion but also JFC this is a cheap shot. she is REALLY desperate to get Usagi under her control isn't she

omfg Usagi definitely gets some super strength with her transformation she's not bad at fighting when she tries to she just generally doesn't because they 'WHY AM I HERE WHAT IS THIS' sentiment prevails I can relate to that

hm, so it looks like Jadeite DID get to keep all the energy he harvested, he just stopped getting any more of it

[survivorgreatlakes-blog]

Rites of Passage

Listen to this as you read along.

Christian - The first casualty of Flopdawa. You seemed like a nice dude, but apparently you were super crazy hellbent on strategy, and I don't know if that was just hyperbole, because I sure never saw you that way. Anyways, I told you we should try forming a majority, but you insisted we could hold off. Alas, that was wrong, and you were voted out 6-1. Oof

Matt - I never got a chance to know you so unfortunately there isn’t much that I can say. 

Kyle - Never got to meet you, but im glad you played the role as first boot.

Christian - The other Bottomwa of Odawa with me. I knew it was either you or I, and for some reason, they chose you over me, which I'm grateful for lol. Sorry about the albino ratty Bulbasaur comment but I saw you changed it so that's good :x

Matt - We spoke a bit at the shore line and I was looking forward to getting to know you better when we got onto the same tribe. Unfortunately that day never came as you left this game too soon.

Kyle - Never met you either, sorry!

"I had a lot of fun in this game. I may not have made it far but, you got to admit that the first tribal was pretty iconic."

Christian - You were playing this game 90 miles an hour, and it wasn't shocking to see you run out of gas so quickly into it. You told people you were stringing me along apparently, so that was interesting to hear. Still think Luke should've just told me the real vote so he could've saved his idol for when he needed it but OH WELL!

Matt - Never had a chance to interact with you and by the way people talk about you that may have been to my advantage. I heard you were a crazy and controlling player and I think it would’ve been fun going against you.

Kyle - Never met you, but I heard you were hilarious and I loved your responses for tribal questions

Christian - We spoke like 3 times, and I'm pretty sure 2 of those times were after we realized we were slowly getting Pagong'd. I don't know why I chose to exile myself instead of waiting one more round like I should've, but hey it worked out I guess. You were a nice guy though, didn't deserve the fate of Odawa.

Matt - Aidan we never had the chance to interact in this game as Odawa was decimated but I wish you the best of luck.

Kyle - Never met you, but I heard you were nice.

“While I have no clue how I got on this season, I am so grateful I did. Coming into this season, I wanted to change all the mistakes I made in Bhutan and had set the bar high up for myself. Although I came up short, I realized so much more about myself and my capability to do things. I played the best I knew how by just being a positive force with loyalty and integrity. The only regret I have in this game is not lasting as long as I really could've! Even then, having to be blindsided so early is really a testament to how I wanted to change my game this season. I'm itching to return and set out what I really want to, but for now I am just grateful I got this experience because of all the awesome people I got to meet, so thanks! <3″

Stoner - Bhutan bros. Sorry I voted you out. Just like in Bhutan, you were a solid player and just too smart to keep around.

Christian - You taught me a very important lesson that I've held with me this entire game, which is to never reveal all of your cards. I trusted you, and if you were just a tad better at monkey pole dancing or whatever, you could be here instead of me. But alas, telling you my score at least showed me I needed to shut my mouth. Sorry about pinning literally every lie I said at Lake Redemption on you after I left :x

Matt - Your social game was so scary that I had to take you out early in this game. We had some good conversations and you are somebody I’d love to work with however when you were a part of an alliance and I wasn’t included I knew it had to be your time to go. It was a compliment to your game and how social you are as a person and I think you’ve got a good future ahead of you.

Kyle - I was so surprised you went home when I woke up lol. You had a great sense of humor! You played way too hard though and I think you were only casted because you were on Austin's season

“Honestly, I wanted to love Tumblr Survivor but I kind of learned quickly it wasn't for me. Some of y'all I loved and some of y'all are trash and you know who you are ❤ I don't regret anything in my game, except not voting for Roxy.”

Stoner - Sorry for advantaging you out. You were a pre-merge threat and i think it was a good move taking a threat like you out.

Christian - OKAY DANNY BOY, LET'S TALK ABOUT HOW YOU COULD'VE QUIT SO MUCH EARLIER, BUT YOU DIDN'T, AND AS A RESULT I WASTED MY DAY ANSWERING SIMPLE MATH QUESTIONS AND LIKE SHUCKS I DONATED 50K OF RICE BUT TURNS OUT THAT'S LIKE SHIT NOTHING IN AFRICA LAND. ANYWAYS THANKS FOR THE GOOD KARMA BUT UGHHH STILL SO MUCH MULTIPLICATION 

Matt - Oh man, my buddy, my Connecticut friend, it was upsetting seeing you leave this game so early. You were a great player, a true physical and social threat, and somebody I had hoped to work with deep into this game. However, while you played the game well, your heart didn’t seem to be into it and that is a shame because I think you could have thrived had you returned from Redemption.

Kyle - Oh dan, you really were so obsessed with your boyfriend. Your boyfriend this, your boyfriend that. Well when you and your boyfriend break up in a couple of months you will regret dating him because EVERYONE noticed you constantly talking about your fucking boyfriend 24/7.

"http://prnt.sc/ehdeqx"

Stoner - We discussed teaming up but unfortunately you didn't make the merge. You know how I feel about you. Awesome person, amazing sense of humor.

Christian - Scott <333333 thank you so much for just forfeiting and I hope I made you proud for getting this far in the game like we all promised we'd try to do. Pop on that other site we have in common soon, I miss you :(

Matt - Despite being on the same tribe twice you barely spoke with me. You didn’t seem too invested into the game and it was the reason you left. 

Kyle - You were inactive on wyandot and you got out because you were inactive on meskwaki.

“It was honestly so great playing with everyone in this game! My odds of improving my placement coming in were pretty much slim to none, but this season really taught me how to play my own best game, so i’m grateful for that. I’m so happy with how this season went and glad to have met some of the greatest friends I have in this community. Also shout out to Austin and Isaiah for being LIT AF hosts!”

Stoner - Big threat but we didn't talk a whole lot

Christian - Dana, Dana, Dana. I wanted to work with you SO BADLY. But I feel like you either never trusted me, or just never was able to fit me into your plans. Sucks that's the way it panned out, and you were robbed of jury. Wish you all the best in your new season and hope you kill it!

Matt - Oh man, the merge started off with such a hard vote and that really set the tone for the rest of the season. I really enjoyed talking to you when we merged together and I hope we can be friends after this game is over. I know the way you left was harsh and I apologize for that. You are a great player and I hope to watch you do well in future seasons.

Kyle - Oh dana. I actually did not want you gone but you were such an easy vote in replacement of myself. You're a really smart player, and you lied to me and sheeped Andreas which led to your downfall.

“I shouldve thrown redemption to dana T_T & Austin doesn’t think I’m robbed </3"

Stoner - I briefly explained to you what happened. We were an amazing duo for a short time. I'm honestly incredibly sorry. I genuinely 100% thought you voted me because Austin said to me "bodhi has not voted"  made me think you already voted since he said nothing about you. That's the honest to god truth, I would not have voted you otherwise. You give off such a positive and humorous vibe. Amazing person and I'm glad we met.

Christian - Roxy mi amor, I did it girl. It took me FOREVER but I finally fulfilled the second of the two promises we made, and I'm just one round away from the first. I hope you're proud of me, and may we both never have to play the shitty nightmare hell that is Color Method ever again.

Matt - We were only on the same tribe for a brief while but I really enjoyed talking to you and was hoping we’d have a chance to work together in this game. You were a lot of fun to talk to and I wish we had a chance to talk more.

Kyle - Sooo funny. I'm gonna miss you a lot and I wish you returned over Christian but he's still good I guess. I wish we went on the same tribe for the 2nd swap lol.

“Coming into this game I didn't expect to make it very far and certainly did not expect to make many friends. However, my expectations changed and I had fun meeting certain people, though some maybe not.. I won't get into that now. I screwed up my own game and I did whatever I had to do to try and keep myself safe but unfortunately it wasn't enough. At least there was a time that everyone was scared of me right? There is no bad blood to those that voted me out, but I have a lot to say during FTC. I am proud of how I played and I am glad I made so many new friends!”

Stoner - You were misunderstood. You rubbed some people the wrong way. I think you were just determined to survive. People got irritated cause you didn't lay down and die. I've talked to you and know you're good people. Mad respect.

Christian - Eric we had an interesting relationship to say the least. I do fully blame you for my first boot, and in my Lake Redemption rage, promised to make your game a living hell if I returned. Needless to say, in probably some weird twist of fate, I actually ended up trusting you and trying to campaign for you to stay in that tie? Weird as fuck I know right? Anyways, sorry for driving you crazy with all the stuff I said, most of it I don't think was even true, I was just trying to have an #influence from Lake Redemption. Nice guy, just game made that difficult to see.

Matt - You were one of my first allies in this game and we had a bump here and there but in the end you proved to be a loyal person. In real life we are two very different people but in this game we were two allies and I wish I had been able to find a way to save you.

Kyle - Honestly, an icon. You talked to much which people got annoyed with, but I don't get annoyed by people being active in the game lol. We were enemies in the beginning, and in the end I voted and campaigned for you to stay over Andres, but you didn't.

“I really enjoyed my first season of tumblr survivor. I made it to merge, which I'm proud of, but still feel I went home for reasons other than my gameplay. Good luck to the rest of you.”

Stoner -  I was on exile when you left so not sure what happened. I enjoyed our alliance and friendship. I think our three really clicked well and we had such bubbly personalities. Sucks it ended early.

Christian - You were really nice, but I was Mexico and you were Thailand, there was just nothing that was going to bring us together, and that's why I had to vote you out. Sorry :x

Matt - We were allies in this game but things don’t last forever, especially in this game. It was fun playing this game with you and you were hilarious in that music video we made. 

Kyle - Adam, you played both sides. I don't support that gameplay. You were a huge threat because of your social connections, and you could have easily relied on staying in the middle to get you to the end. In the end, me and Andreas worked together to get you out because we were both tired of being the vote every round because of people like you. Sorry that was rude, but... you played a great game.

“This game was so amazing you guys <3. Even though i was truly robbed to the core, I'm still proud of how far i've come. I wish you 3 all the best! But at least i have a good redemption arc for another season!”

Stoner - I think I self voted this round. You're a nice Kid we just didn't click unfortunately. Sorry things didn't pan out

Christian - You legit only spoke to me like 10 minutes before the vote, and I figured that probably wasn't the best sign of us working together in the future. Figured Luke had the Super Idol, and out of the people to throw my vote at, you were the most logical. 

Matt - It is crazy how wrong things can go so quickly in this game. We were allies and had each others’ backs even though we never really even voted together. Your singing in that music video was amazing and definitely was the reason we won that challenge. It was interesting to be able to talk to somebody so different than myself.

Kyle - I loved you as a person, and would have loved to contine working with you. However, it became obvious Luke had the super idol since Andreas did not, and there was a pland devised to flush the idol and send Luke's closest ally out, you. You were really hilarious though and you were just the victim of association.

“I’m normally humble but honestly I played one hell of a game this season, and I’m so proud. It wasn’t an easy season for me, but it was so much fun! Huge thanks to the hosts for an amazing season <3″

Stoner - The beast, legend, the Goliath. You were a pain in the ass to get out. I idoled you out because you scared me. You dominated RI and had to get idoled out again. Not sure if we could've got you a third time. Good luck in future TS ozzy/malcom/Joe

Christian - Oh my lord, one of the few people in this game I actually trusted. We were the Lake Redemption bros, and I wish things had worked out better for you. You didn't deserve to get idoled out again, and losing one round before coming back must've sucked. Great ranting to you throughout the game, and thanks for being a good friend and ally, even if I wasn't the best to have. :(

Matt - We were friends and enemies throughout this game, but at the end I was glad we were able to come together and work as allies. It was nice to be able to make you shook about my 100 theory and actually have somebody to talk with the show about. You were a beast in the challenges and the social game and definitely a worthy competitor.

Kyle - You were a great rival. Our friendship went back and forth, and I thought that was very exciting. I know that we had our disagreements about stuff I said, even though it was a joke and you take everything very seriously. I do think you are a nice person and deserving of making it so far in the game. You were a leader of an contingent who wanted me out for most of the game. So obviously that had to be stopped.

“I’m really glad to have been brought back to play THIS game. I’ve met so many amazing people, got to improve my placement, and say I’ve improved my game. I don’t think i expected to be told one thing and then find out at tribal council that wasn’t actually who was being voted out, but hey, thats the game I guess. My only solace is the fact that I literally had to take a nap to get out of this game. So who’s laughing now! …still you guys probably”

Stoner -  I'm sorry I never connected with you. Everytime the opportunity was there, it felt awkward when we talked. I take blame and I'm sorry I didn't push things further. Though I think I was always ready to vote you simply because the lack of chemistry. Rather do that then play with your head. Sorry friend.

Christian - I really wanted to work with y'all, I really did. But even after y'all deduced that Chris and Matt knew each other, y'all still targeted me, and that really limited my options, if you had been online to vote, you most likely would've stayed in the 3-3-3 revote. Wish ya all the bests in your future games.

Kyle - You were very forgettable, it's true. We only really talked before voting rarely... even though we've been in the same group chat for 12 days or so. You could have played a better game and I wish you weren't afk during your last tribal lol.

“Coming into this game I didn't really know what to expect. I never thought I would make it as far as I did and I never thought I'd accomplish the things I did. Having 3 different idols (one of them being the super idol) and playing all 3 of them successfully definitely put a huge target on my back but I worked with what I had and I'm proud of myself. I've made some amazing friends, created deeper relationships with people I knew before and even got added to the 7th place chat (which is the most lit btw!). I can walk away from this game knowing I played one of the best games this season and that I could have won had things gone differently. Good luck y'all, you're gonna need it.”

Stoner - Massive fucking threat. I liked your straight forwardnesss but that ultimately made you a threat. You didn't beat around the Bush and took charge

Christian - I tried to warn ya bro. I told you Bodhi was going to vote for you, and that Stoner was a waste of a vote. I enjoyed getting to know you, just you seemed hellbent on getting me out, and that's not the most appealing of strategies to get someone to flip to your side, thanks for being the only one (I assume) to vote with me way back at the premerge though, really appreciate that.

Matt - Our relationship in this game has definitely been a roller coaster. I enjoyed our talks throughout the game, even when we were at odds.  You were almost impossible to take out of this game and that’s a testament to how strong of a player you are. 

Kyle - Luke! We were friends in the beginning but we became adversaries in the end. You got so lucky with all of your powers and idols, but those could be easily flushed with multiple split votes. You were a great schemer, but not good enough to convince people to be on your side.

"Well, in retrospect, this experience was absolutely fantastic. I loved getting to know everyone and I hope to stay in contact with many people after it's all over!!

Production: CUT!

Me: Phew, the charade is finally over. I hope that I never have to encounter some of these people again and I was truly scarred by the amount of kindness I had to pretend I had - didn't even know I had it in me to suppress my inner ugly for so long! Anyways, I loved this game, and Survivor in general, because I love simulating natural selection (not to say it was a perfect simulation....I mean, have you seen the final four?).

I hope I get the opportunity to play again because I enjoyed getting to feel superior to others, it was....(how can I phrase it).......orgasmic! =)”

Stoner - I fucking love you man lol. I'm beyond thrilled we got to meet and become allies. and better yet friends. You were such an amazing ally and I was just as blindsided as you when you got voted out. Thanks for being so loyal and just such a strong ally. You played a major role in me being here. Much love brother.

Christian - RIP. We were both victims of Bodhi's rock paranoia, and both tried to strike the other first to save each other. I had a trick up my sleeve though, which is why I stayed and you went, but I wish we both could've just stuck to our guns and not fallen for the play, but alas what can you do. Enjoyed getting to know ya, and wish we could've gone further, but that's just not the way it worked out.

Matt - Oh Crow. You are such a good social player that you had everyone pretty much convinced on wanting to keep you way longer than they should have in this game. Our personal relationship was so messy but interesting. You definitely made this game a whole lot more interesting.

Kyle - Crow. Wow. The first time I was actually shocked by a vote in this game. I was gasping for like 10 minutes. Even after tribal, I was so speechless at your blindside. You have to blame yourself however, you fell for Bodhi's trap lolol. You were definitely my closest ally outside of my final 4 alliance. You and I had such a great bond through out the game y'know. We were on every tribe together and that was cute. Thansk for being my ally... sorry you had to go.

“THE ONLY THING SEPARATING EUROPE AND ASIA IN THE WAY THAT WE THINK ABOUT CONTINENTS IS WHITE SUPREMACY AND EUROCENTRISM. I’m proud of how I played. I went in this game trying to play smarter than I've played in the past, and I was rewarded with 5th place and a wonderful experience. I'm truly grateful for my friendships with everyone else on the jury, and a few of the folks left in the game. I've had a great experience, and I'm excited to potentially return.”

Stoner - I thank you for saving my ass pre-merge. I genuinely wish we could have teamed up at merge, we just had different allies. We didn't have mutual allies/bonds and our games just did not line up. By the time it got near the end it was too late to switch up from the alliance. I applaud your game and you never fucking gave up lol. You were hard to get out and I'm glad you didn't give up. Ultimately I wasn't going to flip on the group and I hope you respect that. Much respect.

Christian -  I think we had the strangest relationship I have ever seen in a game like this. We were the last of the Odawas, somehow managed to make it all the way intact, yet I don't think we ever actually intended to work with the other. We both wrote each other's name down multiple times, yet were bonded in the fact that we were Odawas. You got your way at the Final 17, so now in a nice twist of fate, I got to get my way at Final 5. Good dude and nice playing with ya.

Matt - Coming into this merge I didn’t know you and wanted you out. However, as we got deeper into the game I saw you as a strong ally and wanted I hated to see you leave.  You are a great player and I’m really glad we got a chance to talk and do some crazy shit we didn’t have any business doing.

Kyle - Bodhi, we really got to talk in the final 5 1 on 1 really well. You understand this game inside and out, but I do question your game choices. You understand my game and your only downfall is that you were loyal to the wrong people at the wrong time. Congrats on your scheming and tricking 3 people into keeping you safe lolol.