#auditory memory

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Experiencing Auditory Processing Disorder

The Autistic Teacher

[frankiebirds]

I see Reid not remembering Garcia's name in this flashback cited as a plot hole a lot, but it makes perfect sense to me. Reid specifically recalls everything he's seen/read, not everything he hears, and as Garcia is brand new to the team here, it's entirely plausible he's only ever heard her name. The fact that he doesn't have perfect recall of auditory information is even a bit of a plot point in 1x22, where he initially struggles to recall the Parliament of Fowls because it's only ever been read to him.

I think there is some inconsistency on how good Reid's auditory memory is, but usually when I see this moment cited as a plot hole it's because Reid has an eidetic memory—which is visual.

[mayomkun]

In the Sandman, since Dream 'came into existence once lifeforms capable of dreaming appeared in the universe', I wonder what that lifeform is and what did it dream of. Like what is the first dream in the universe about.

[orcelito]

I got.... my official adhd diagnosis....🥺🥺🥺🥺

Had my appointment where she went thru all the different parts of the testing and what they found by it. All sorts of things that I didn't even Realize what it was testing. And they pointed to combined type adhd!!!!!

There was also an iq test involved, specifically to test working memory in comparison to other categories, bc that's smth that adhd people tend to score low on. And I did too!!!! Compared to my other scores, at least. It was still average overall, but I scored "high average" on verbal comprehension and "superior" on perceptual reasoning and processing speed. WHICH MEANS!!!! Working memory was my low thing!!! Another thing pointing to it!!!!

Also the weird X test I took was the CPT-3 test and apparently it was geared Specifically towards adhd stuff. Which bc of my "atypically fast" reaction speed + "very elevated" commissions rate (which in this context means incorrectly hit space bar, aka I clicked when I wasn't supposed to) it showed a strong indication of impulsivity & some indication of inattentiveness and vigilance. That impulsivity is the big one here tho.

I'm just really excited now. I have a long report talking about all my brain stuffs that says I Do have adhd and that it would benefit me to take stimulants. AND!!!!! That I DONT have depression or anxiety!!!! That's a fuckin big one!!!!!! Bc they've avoided giving me stimulants in the past bc of the "anxiety" except I don't got it!!!! The examiner said exactly what I thought about it, which is that the prior disgnoses of depression and anxiety probably stemmed from effects of the untreated adhd. Aka I had Feels Bad Disorder. Ykno? Except not actually a disorder bc it was just a byproduct.

SO! Hopefully that can help me to get proper meds as soon as possible. Gonna be contacting my doctor to set up an appointment... soon!!!!!

[kaurwreck]

i just wanna say i think it's awesome seeing someone mention pandora hearts and i believe what you said was really spot on.

maybe i've been 'out of touch' with the fandom online i guess, but i haven't seen it talked about like this in years so your recent post was a big spark of joy for one of my special interests!

I started reading Pandora Hearts somewhere between the ages of 12-14, fully in the throes of pediatric onset bipolar disorder, utterly alone and while in an abusive and neglectful home environment. I used to tape pictures of Oz to the walls of my closet, which I'd converted into a makeshift panic room. But I never finished it; it was still ongoing at the time, and I cut myself off from any hobbies or reading for pleasure in the two years prior to college to focus on escaping my roots, which were then trying to girdle me.

I rediscovered fiction and reading for pleasure again in my last semester of undergrad, but I didn't revisit manga until a few years ago. I started with Sailor Moon, which convinced me to reread + finish Black Cat and Pandora Hearts. I still didn't finish Pandora Hearts then either; I took a break to process and then fell into danmei.

So, this past January/February, I actually finished Pandora Hearts for the very first time! It gave me mental illnesses that aren't in the DSM but healed some I didn't realize I still had. It's easily one of my most impactful and powerful influences, if not the most, and I don't know how I would have survived my childhood without Oz, Alice, and Gil. It took me around 15 years to read, but that feels right too; I think I returned to it when I was ready for the story to end, and not a moment sooner.

I began Pandora Hearts when I felt I had committed a heinous sin by being alive, and when I finished it, I fell into the loving arms of my found family to gush to them about this particular fragment of the person that I am.

I want to reread it again soon, but not until it's time. I'll know it when it comes.

[roe-and-memory]

post cars 1 but before the 2007 season (so like, the january of 2007)

[balancebonded]

i must emphasize, Heidi's ability to figure out the true story of the dragons and locate Kyurem had absolutely fuckall to do with her forest child shit. I've straight up said she can't even communicate with Kyurem like she can other Pokémon. Heidi is genuinely a very intelligent kid, she is very good at pattern recognition and investigation and has an excellent visual memory. Her success in finding Kyurem was, more than anything else, due to her ability to investigate and make deductions.

[jaspertheshark]

You see the vision

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Experiencing Auditory Processing Disorder

The Autistic Teacher

[pulchrasilva]

You want me to memorise verb endings? My brother in christ I don't even know the alphabet........

[shiftperception]

this morning I got a very short episode of sleep paralysis. I was laying in bed and heard/felt something (small-medium sized animal type beat) repetitively pawing/digging at the blankets. I didn’t want to look at what it was and tried to scream but nothing came out. snapped out of it a second later and rolled over to see nothing there. I’m not a supernatural or literal ghost believer, but for some reason my creepypasta pilled sleep deprived brain (after thinking ‘i hope it’s not a person’?) remembered that in the house my mom recently moved to we found a dog grave in the yard from a previous owner. and thought: ‘at least if it’s a ghost it’s probably just a dog ghost’

every time I have a “nightmare” it ends up being hilarious to me later. this made it near impossible for me to get back to sleep but now all I can think of is this third person pov scene of a dog furiously digging on the bed next to a person curled up in fetal position trying to shriek in terror.

[notedchampagne]

may I suggest that you look up hyperlexia

fascinating! but for me personally the rest of the adjectives given by google wouldnt really fit, i was just a really nerdy child

[rambling-robot]

that trigger warning can't stop me because i don't know that i'm going to be triggered by it

[majorshatterandhare]

Hey, look at me! I did it. I listened to a new-me-album. I don’t do that very often.

It took me 2.5 years to listen through all the mechs albums and feel like I have spent a good amount of time with each, feel content with them. Reach for them all equally as much (except maybe TtbT2, which is my favorite).

It has taken me 8 months to decide to listen to a second Jessica Law album. Not because I didn’t like Languid Little Lies, but because I absolutely adore it!

I’m just so happy and content to listen to the same stuff all the time that I don’t ever feel the desire to seek out new stuff. That goes for music, podcasts, tv, movies.

I feel a bit bad for not having more knowledge on the other projects mechs members have done and continue to do. I would like to love everyone’s work, it’s just gonna take me years to get through everything sufficiently. But also that means I don’t have to fucking worry if I do come to a point that I’m desperate for something new because there will be something to reach for.

And like, I didn’t like HNOC for quite a while. I continued to listen to it on occasion because I liked everything else I knew by them; didn’t understand why I didn’t have any enjoyment from it. I think it was mainly because I had almost zero knowledge of Arthurian legend. Had to read Gawain and the Green Knight in high school and listened to a retelling of the story where Merlin gets trapped in a cave forever by a lady on Myths and Legends (podcast); didn’t really care at all. Wanted to care (about Arthurian Legend) because I knew that a lot of Celtic myth got fucked up and put in there. So everytime I listened I’d end up reading more about Arthurian legend because I couldn’t remember who was who until finally I understood it well enough that I could actually enjoy everything smart about it and the music itself and trans Mordred and more and more. I didn’t have that issue with OUaTiS or UDaD or TBI because I had knowledge of European fairytales and Greek myth and enough about Norse myth already. Same reason I usually skip Drop Dead, the first song on my favorite mechs album. I just don’t care about it at all, in an ambivalent way. It doesn’t do anything for me. But I also have no experience with Crypt of the Necrodancer. But I listen to it on occasion because there’s nothing wrong with it and maybe this time will be the time it clicks.

[pocketwish]

i'm trying to get better at birding by ear and chiefly that has involved strolling down my neighborhood and freezing/frantically looking skyward when i hear a New Sound. hoping this doesn't alarm others

[61below]

I’m both a gifted kid and the kid that was kicked out of the gifted program for being a chaos gremlin* and then had multiple years of teachers Decide(tm) that I was being a troublemaker for kicks, and then have to listen to constant shit. Like one time we had a test on naming all the world’s seas. I actually fuckin studied for that one (because I love Categorization! You gotta be able to put everything in its box!) but partway through I realized the teacher just put everything as question 1) A. question 2) B. question 3) C. ‘Neat pattern!’ I thought, but I also didn’t trust her to start a pattern like that without twisting it up in the end to play Gotcha, so I answered them all based on the right name, not by knowing the alphabet. I finished before everyone else. She picked it up and in front of everyone (!) who were still working (!!!!) she said something like ‘I see you figured out what I was doing.’

Instead of, you know, acknowledging that I was doing what teachers are supposed to want: answering tests correctly.

Tldr, I got into a real dark place after years of that shit. Why keep putting effort into shit if it is only EVER going to get thrown back in my face? Thankfully by the time I got to 7th grade and started having one teacher per class instead of one teacher per day, I was able to have less exposure so they didn’t build up as much animosity. I didn’t graduate top ten, bc FUCK math, but I did finish 12th in my class, I did go on to a good college, and I did get a good job. But seriously, fuck every single one of those teachers who treated me like I was evil incarnate bc I couldn’t behave like everyone else.

* I didn’t get diagnosed autistic til I was 33. Now to be fair idk if my school ever did talk to my mom to encourage her to pursue a diagnosis back then, but this WAS the 90s in middle America and I WAS a girl, so it’s equally likely they didn’t even consider it.