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[thewanderingbleu]

Was talking to Lo'tunwi in the pandora alterhuman server and we just unlocked memories together by talking about our songcords 😭 Eywa is mighty, indeed.

On that topic, though, I remembered that my songcord started with this sort of blue and/or rainbow moonstone? and how that's like, a very rare gem to come across in the forest. now I'm emotional for two reasons

[fictionkinfessions]

I have felt many pains in this life, including the sorrows of past ones. But this feeling? The constant feeling of isolation and loneliness? The constant pain in my chest as I force myself to understand that if I walk outside I won't see my home and I certainly won't be able to find my family? My palulukan Mong? Anyone who can look at me and say my name? I just. Am in so much pain. I hear mom singing in my head but the audios on youtube always have that music behind it so it feels wrong. Beautiful, but wrong. (not to mention it's different from my mom's songchord, which has me in it and she always sings through the entire thing, not just stopping at kiri.) And any quality ambiance I can find of my home or even Awa'atlu always has music louder than the ambiance itself... I yearn to speak to everyone once again, to remember them. Perhaps one day I will be blessed by Eywa and meet those who truly remember me.

As of right now I... I just feel so alone. le'awtu. As if I've been forbidden to connect with Eywa and Vitraya Ramunong, and forgotten by my people. And I just wonder why? Why, Nawma Sa’nok, have you erased me from the memories of my people? As if I had never once connected to you, as if I had never once existed? Nawma Sa’nok, why do you hurt me so by allowing me memories of those who will never utter my name, while forcing my energy into the body of the Sky People? A vrrtep.

-Teuri (Avatar: The Way of Water)

[fictionkinfessions]

Finally got to watch Avatar Way of the Water, and I’m just,, so many feelings.

Firstly, immediately on seeing Kiri, I cried so much — that’s my baby!!! I’m so proud of her. If you’re out there, I hope you know how much I love you, and I’m so glad I got to see you grow and become the wonderful person that you did

Secondly, Norm, you literally watched the Omatikaya trying to resurrect me into my avatar body and it successfully be done for Jake. Maybe, just maybe, applying epilepsy to a deep spiritual connection, particularly given the circumstances surrounding her birth, isn’t a great idea. Especially not when you’re saying she can’t ever connect with Eywa like that again. Singular seizures do not an epileptic make, coming from an epileptic now. Yes, underwater seizures are dangerous, but there are a multitude of better ways to handle it. I know you were looking out for her, but you and Jake of all people should have understood that she needed that connection.

Third thing. Quaritch, you’re damn well lucky I didn’t survive in my avatar body. And I think you know that.

~ Grace (#🔬🍆)

[fictionkinfessions]

One part of me wanted him to notice, but I knew he wouldn’t. He never noticed. And it hurts

...this isn’t about Jake

Spider/Miles Socorro (Avatar: The Way of Water)

🫘

[fictionkinfessions]

First of all, what the fuck. Second of all, what the fuck

Spider/Miles Socorro (Avatar: The Way of Water)

🦉

[thewanderingbleu]

New Memory Drop! its a bit rough and kinda long

cw : bullying, emotional manipulation kinda, physical fights

A couple weeks after Neteyam was returned to Eywa, there was a feast to celebrate our family officially becoming part of the Metkayina peoples; and specifically those in Awa'atlu.

The celebration was amazing, and I had a wonderful time. There was this huge bonfire, we'd gotten an amazing hunt that same morning, and there was food everywhere. I remember hanging out with Roxto and Tsireya, dancing around the fire, and happily eating the food. I also spent a fair amount of time with Ao'nung, but he didn't dance- he mainly stayed near the food with friends, and watched.

Now, there's this group of boys that would always harass me. Told me I belonged in the trees and would drown one day since I wasn't made for the water. Ao'nung would do his best to get them to leave me alone since they listened to him- if only slightly. But his influence only lasted while he was around. I don't want to call them horrible people, because they were still relatively young and might've gotten better with age, but they were just all-around shitty. But, that night, they approached me kindly. They smiled with me, laughed with me, and showed me food combos I'd never considered before. I thought, maybe, now that I was officially part of the Metkayina, they were going to be nice to me. Tolerant, at least.

So when they told me to follow them, that they had something special to show me... I did.

Oh how wrong I was.... they took me away from the celebration, where everyone in the village was gathered. Lead me until the music was faded and beat me up. I could barely tell what was happening to me, but it hurt. It hurt so much. My face was bruised and bleeding and my body ached and screamed. They taunted me, hissed at me, called me horrible things. Told me how dare I consider myself Metkayina, how dare I smile at them as if I was equal to them.

And then they threw me into the water and walked away.

I don't remember going unconscious. I don't even remember waking up. But I remember walking through some forestry nearby. Why, I can't exactly say. I didn't know what I was doing, my body was moving on its own. Maybe I wanted to hide, to find comfort and shelter. But somehow Ao'nung found me. I've never seen him so angry before.

[fictionkinfessions]

As an addition to the pride ask game, I got more clarity on the memory: Teuri had(has?) what I think is 46 XX DSD? All I know was that I was pretty much male on the outside but I had ovaries and the Na'vi equivalent of a menstrual cycle; which I haven't gotten many detailed memories about? So I don't know if it's more or less similar to that of Sky people, but I do know that it was the butt of many affectionate jokes both in general and to "help [me] feel better". Never did at the time cause, y'know. Mood swings and pain and all that. But it always helped me feel better afterward; I didn't feel as embarrassed or ashamed. I remember Jake had Norm check me out as a kid to figure out what was going on, and Norm was like "bro am I going crazy or are those ovaries" lmfao

-Teuri : Avatar the Way of Water

[thewanderingbleu]

There's this guy that goes to the McDonald's I work at semi-regularly, and I swear to god he looks just like Quaritch?? And it throws me into a Na'vi kinshift every. single. time. (Which is. Very weird to have happen at a McD's). Like. I always expect him to recognize/know me, and I can't really figure out what exactly it is when I see him. Idk, super weird

[thewanderingbleu]

I miss Mong... he felt like my brother... When the Tulkun came I had to go back to our marui because I felt so alone and homesick. I missed the forest, I missed the people; but never as much as I missed him. I think Norm eventually helped brought him to some forestry near Awa’atlu to live with us, but that took very long... We were both misunderstood, felt alien in our home. Tsaheylu with Mong couldn't compare even to an Ikran. The world thought he was scary, named as a bringer of ultimate fear and death. But he was kind. Gentle. Doing what he needed to survive and feed those he loved.

The palulukan could've easily been the Tulkun of the Omatikaya peoples. But we alienated them instead. Shunned them.

[fictionkinfessions]

Thankfully being gay was totally fine, even normal among Na'vi. As far as I know the people have never had a problem with it. But my being intersex it was kinda... weird? like the omatikaya peoples were confused but didn't really care. I mean I had my fathers blood so, who knows what kind of effects it'd have. Plus I was the "prince" so, they were probably biased. In Awa'atlu though it was mostly the older folk who were excepting. The younger folk gave me lots of grief over it

-Teuri , Avatar : The Way of Water

[fictionkinfessions]

Kin jobs? Well, I hope at least someone gets some amusement out of the thought of a Na'vi working at McDonald's lmao. Not just any Na'vi either, gotta add that Suli sass sldkjsldkj

It's.. interesting lol.

-Teuri (Avatar : The Way of Water)

[thewanderingbleu]

kaltxì

My name is Teuri te Suli Tsyeyk'itan, I'm the oldest son of the Suli family; adopted.

This is a side blog for pandora-related content, and (of course) my Na'vi kin experiences; thoughts; interaction; and memories!

Anyone with pandora-related kins/fictives/etc are always welcome in my dms <3 Feel free to say hi!

[fictionkinfessions]

(i know this is the third kinfession in a short amount of time sorry lmfao) I'm just. Angry. About how we treat the Palulukan. We named them to be known for eternity as bringers of ultimate fear and death. But they were... a people. of their own right. With language and emotions and clans. Tseheylu with my Palulukan is a bond unmatched by any other bond I've ever experienced. Mong was a protector of his family and loved ones and I gifted him that Na'vi name to honor that. He's been a lifelong friend; a brother to me. And yet still the people yelped when they saw him. Still, the people ran away. Even as he sat there, gentle with the children, they hid in fear.

The Palulukans could've been the Tulkun of the Omaticaya peoples. But instead, we alienated them. Shunned them. Dared not to look beyond their surface to find their true nature.

The only other person I know who remotely understands this is Mom, since she made a bond with a palulukan, too. A mother, not yet gifted a Na'vi name. But she passed away very soon after, during battle, so they didn't get to experience life together. That palulukan has her claw as part of Mom's song cord. That's how important the Palulukans should be to the Omaticaya people. Not a scary thing hiding in the forests.

He was a protector; a warrior and hunter who kept his family safe and fed. Kept me safe and fed. We would hunt together, play together. Go on rides where he ran as fast as he could and I could feel the joy and adrenaline that we shared in those moments.

He was a brother. A Son. Hoped one day to be a father, as that was expected of him.

I miss the feeling of understanding him for the first time. Recognizing certain sounds and remembering their meaning. It was a long process to try and learn how to communicate, but Palulukans already had a basic understanding of Na'vi. It was up to me to close the gap. I miss him. I miss his stories. I miss feeling the vibrations of his voice in my chest.

We should've been kinder to his people. We could've been. But we were ignorant. Like children scared of the shadows we fled from something beautiful.

-Teuri : Avatar the Way of Water

[fictionkinfessions]

For the pinned: I only have three confirmed kins, so yay! Short list! Lol

LOTR - Hobbit: cis guy, queer

Encanto - Carlos: cis guy

Avatar: The Way of Water: intersex! But refers to himself / is referred to as male, very very gay as far as I can remember

[fictionkinfessions]

(I haven’t sent anything here in a hot minute, hi-)

Well. Chances are that I will get massively fakeclaimed for this. Am I the only one that remembers kin baby memories that happened out of canon or kin baby memories that happened in canon? I don’t know how but I unlocked a few kin baby memories of one of my Avatar timelines and honestly they are not something I would like to remember. Human Quaritch was not kind and the fact that Na’vi Quaritch might remember what happened at that time haunts me. Also let’s just say that I will not sign as Miles anymore

Spider Socorro (Avatar: The Way of Water)

[thewanderingbleu]

Teuri, the orphan Na'vi of the Omatikaya clan. Soon to be of the Metkayina clan.