#bc they're both lil freaks but they're lil freaks in love so good 4 them ig lmaoooooo

[eskawrites]

top 5 memorable ronance fic scenes?

okay i really really love this bc there are so many scenes that live rent free in my head, i'm so excited. these are in no particular order btw half of them just popped into my head at once

5) from entirely on purpose and according to plan by @dufrau this lil moment:

"It, uh," Robin tried. "It sounds like you've given this some thought." "I give everything a lot of thought," Nancy said. "The timing is right. You said it yourself, it's a summer for harebrained schemes. How about this one: fall in love with me." "That's, um," Robin started. For once she, was way ahead of Nancy. Done and dusted. She had tears in her eyes but Nancy wasn't looking at her. "I'm open to that. That sounds like a good plan. That's... I want that."

idk man i teared up and i had to put my phone down when i first read this. it's just the perfect dialogue to me, it sums up both their characters and everything that happened to get them to this moment (and everything that's going to happen now that they're here) in one cute, tidy little moment. wtf

4) the ending of chapter 4 in like a damaged nerve, like a dark bird by @monstrous-femme

“So you can only change small things?” How horrible, Nancy thinks, to live in a world where nothing of substance can be fixed. Where the same terrible things are doomed to repeat themselves, over and over without end. This, of course, leads to a round of bickering from the boys that leaves no room for other thoughts. “Small things can matter,” she hears Will say, before being drowned out by the others.

in a fic with such a haunting atmosphere this just stuck out as the most haunting thing not because it's eerie or inspires dread or whatever, but because it's such a quiet, crucial moment of hope. 10/10 chapter close

3) the coming out scene in girl that's a friend by ratgirl110 on AO3, which tbh is basically the whole fic. it's so poignant and messy and i love that you can feel the magnetism between nancy and robin as much as you can feel all the trauma and the fear of the future that hangs like a knife over their heads (this is true of both fics in the series, i love them so much)

2) it's too long for an excerpt but the scene in chapter 8 of monster of the week by @freezeveganpolice where nancy and robin and max get drunk and share trauma (oh, not-sober depression bonding should've been on my favorite tropes list)

1) the kiss scene! from Robin Buckley's Expert Field Guide to Catching Fireflies (and Other Childhood Favourites) by @smileweakandwrong !

i'm not gonna put the specific paragraph i'm thinking of because if you haven't read it you should, the payoff is incredible. but it felt so so magical, like a freaking fairy tale the way everything ties together in the end

[coffeelovesdramasalatte]

LITA Ep. 4 Rewatch Thoughts Pt. 3

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6

Ok Rain, you and I both know you didn't sleep through this honey

Phayu looks unconvinced as well lmao - do you see this eyebrow raise?

Slightly controversial opinion, but I actually love that I occasionally hear fabric rustling and other mic interference. It adds a messy and fun element to the scenes that make them feel more real to me. Here, we heard what is probably Phayu's shirt slide against the mic as he leans into Rain.

The first time I watched this, I had to pause and raise my eyebrows ngl. Supremely unprepared for this relatively simple sequence and in the end highkey felt like I got slapped in the face (but in a funny way).

Boss looks so intense and good here

Taking it from the top

down

down

down

(including this shot bc wow Boss has big hands)

and...

(we just got to the halfway point y'all... whew)

I've never heard of this seduction technique before. Phayu, you might be the only one this works on (I feel seduced but not in a sexy way, more like if I was a cat I'd make biscuits on Rain's tummy)

I don't have a whole lot of commentary on this part aside from they're both adorable and I love the way Phayu likes to drag Rain physically closer to him whenever they talk. I think physical touch is really important to Phayu and I love how Rain basically preens under the attention every time Phayu touches him

I have literally seen this 12 times. Every time I'm like OMFG THEY ARE ABOUT TO KISSSSSSSS

But NO, freaking P' Saifah couldn't wait outside for one more minute. At least he has the decency to give them a countdown do-over. Phayu looks like he considering the merits of ending his twin while Rain is just distressed. I love how they framed these shots of P' Saifah with his body physically dividing the screen between Phayu and Rain's faces which are blurry in the background. This drama uses physical blocking very creatively in my opinion.

P' Saifah I'm going to reach through the nth dimension just to SHAKE YOU I mean seriously how could you not see Phayu and Rain were having a MOMENT

But it does lead to this stellar headpat so I'm not too mad (the 7th one in the series, if I'm not mistaken), plus Rain's praise kink gets activated (seriously, just watch him reminisce about the headpat that just happened)

AHHHH Rain looks SO HAPPY to see that Phayu wrote him a lil note and helped him out - I mean it's no wonder Phayu would bend over backwards just to put that expression on Rain's face from here on out

Including this shot to praise the lighting directors bc it's beautiful, as is our hard at work Rain

I think it could have been really cool if they had Rain use his lucky triangle ruler thing (that Phayu gave him) here, bc that would have been an extra layer of symbolism. I think if they were going to include it as a serendipitous plot point, it would have been better to introduce it this way rather than stick it in a glass case.

GOOD WORK BBY!!! Your reward comes later though

AND the first thing he thinks of after is...

LOOK at him being a responsible student! He's only got two left and then he's doneeeeee (unlike me, I still have so much to do lmao and yet here I am) - (OK I wrote this earlier part two days ago and at the time of writing this sentence I am DONEEE so me *join hands emoji* Rain: done with finals)

My plans for the next 48 hours:

Except this boy gets revived at the thought of seeing his pseudo-bf and runs immediately bolts out of bed 2 seconds later. Ngl if I had a Phayu I'd probably do the same, but since I'm a single pringle it's just me and my clean sheets

Ok, now where have we seen almost this exact color combo before?? Mayhaps you can scroll up a couple pictures...

Basically, I think this is the production crew's way of telling you Rain's about to get smooched by Phayu. Also Rain's changed clothes from the previous scene so he really cleaned up to go to the garage awww

I love that Rain tells himself he should be using this time to sleep, then shrugs at himself and goes to Phayu anyway. Priorities, priorities

Yay, P' Saifah is here to guide Rain to Phayu!! The in-laws are getting a lot of interaction these days hehe. Also look at how eager Rain looks here - full on puppy mode (I met a cockapoo puppy named Molly today so I know my comparison is accurate)

I like that P' Saifah is talking Phayu up to Rain - not that Rain needs any more convincing that Phayu is the coolest mechanic ever. It's the thought that counts though.

For some reason, this shot of Rain and this shot of Phayu make me laugh. Rain's just standing there like some guy when we all know he's thee guy and Phayu is making the "this is so sus" face

The interaction between the three of them right after is so funnyyy - my favorite part is P' Saifah calling his big bro out - this is prime younger sibling behavior. Also Phayu pretending to be a grump - he's just kiss deprived is all (that problem is about to be solved tho)

I also like how I though Rain was going to be the possessive one but Phayu is out here with raised hackles even though P' Saifah is just being friendly to press his buttons (again, prime little sibling behavior). Please observe how pleased Rain looks about this though!

Me + P' Saifah: Phayu you're a SIMP

Ok I like that they included this shot of PhayuRain for no discernable reason (bc it cuts to them walking over to the other part of the garage right after it) other than to show us Phayu looking at Rain fondly with his eyebrows raised

I also love how Rain immediately reports that his work is done (likely so he could get praised) but then Phayu counters with "did you sleep?" to which the answer is no. Rain's like "ahhh we can't win with this one uff" (don't worry bff, your reward is en route)

On to part 4!! I'm hoping it's the last one or none of you are gonna want to read it (this is a lie, there are 5 parts bc I have no self control when it comes to taking screenshots of PhayuRain)

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6

[angelhummel]

as the ruler of the tumblr pezberry fandom… i have some random and possibly fun questions to ask you ab them :p

these are just otp questions from tumblr/online lolol

1. who starts the arguments?

2. who takes longer to get ready?

3. who’s more emotional?

4. big spoon/little spoon?

5. who reads more?

6. who is the bigger baby when sick?

7. who initiates kisses more?

8. who is more affectionate?

9. who would fall asleep on the other?

10. who gets jealous more often?

11. who wakes up later?

12. who is the better listener?

13. who hogs all the blankets?

14. who is more jealous

15. who’s the top/bottom?

Ahh thank you for this!! also jsyk i'd been getting annoying ass anons lately and i saw the notification on my ask box and was like "great another one" but i saw this and it made me smile so ty ty!! hidden under a cut bc it will be long lmao (after writing it all out and checking the word count it’s literally 1200+ words lmao)

1) Even though they've grown so much since their teenage years, they're not totally immune to little fights here and there. But it's mostly just petty bickering that fizzles out by the end of the day. And it's split pretty evenly between them. Rachel will complain if Santana leaves the apartment a mess, like not washing her dishes or picking up after herself and leaving stuff too sloppy. And Santana will complain if Rachel is working too hard and ends up missing a date night. But like I said, it doesn't last long. They eventually realized that making up is much more fun than holding grudges

2) They both do! They're very pretty women but it isn't totally effortless. When it comes to going out, Santana takes much longer than Rachel does. Rachel can do her hair and makeup relatively quickly, while Santana takes much more time to style herself up. Rachel also makes sure to lay her outfit out the night before, so she doesn't spend too much time picking out an outfit. While Santana has to have a mini fashion show before every event, trying on at least half a dozen outfits before she picks one. But when it comes to coming home and getting ready for bed, they're the opposite. Rachel has her whole elaborate routine of bathing, scrubbing, exfoliating, moisturizing, her nightly tea, etc etc. Whereas Santana pretty much changes into pajamas, wipes her makeup off, and brushes her teeth before collapsing into bed. She always tries to wait up for Rachel though, no matter how tired she is

3) Both! They literally sang "So Emotional" that was about both of them. They are two supremely emotional beings that cram so many big feelings into a couple of lil bodies.

4) Rachel is the big spoon more often than not. She just loves wrapping herself around Santana and clinging to her. But she also likes cuddling Santana while Santana is laying on her back, so she can rest her head on her shoulder and they can hug each other. But they're also both very fussy sleepers so they hardly ever wake up in the same cuddly position they went to sleep in

5) They both read a considerable amount, but if you count fanfiction then it's definitely Santana. We all know what a huge nerd she is, and at any given time she'll have like ten tabs on her phone for various fanfics she's in the middle of. But they have a pretty good collection of actual books that they read when they can. Rachel is partial to historical fiction romances, children's classics she loved as a kid, as well as plenty of biographies of her favorite actors. Santana's tastes are more scattered. Lots of fantasy, murder mysteries, graphic novels, horror stories that secretly freak her out. And any time she hears of a new kid/YA book with a queer protagonist, she picks it up and reads it for her little tween past self that didn't get to grow up with stories like that

6) Rachel acts like the bigger baby when she thinks she's sick. It's usually just anxiety and she doesn't know how to express it other than "I feel nauseous and I'm going to die". But whenever she's actually sick, she brushes it off as no big deal and tries to keep going. Santana basically has to force her into bed to receive medicine, chicken soup, and vitamin c, and take time off until she feels better. But Santana becomes completely helpless whenever she's under the weather. Anything more severe than the sniffles and she's down for the count. But Rachel doesn't mind babying/humoring her to nurse her back to health and maybe finds Santana's candystriper costume and dons it in order to help her gf heal <3

7) Rachel! Unfortunately Santana still has reservations about showing affection like that, at least in front of other people. She’s used to getting reprimanded for the tiniest pecks in public, or cheered on by gross guys at parties who think girl on girl kissing is for their pleasure only. Whereas Rachel never had those hangups. Same sex affection was normalized for her since birth, and she only dated boys in high school so no one cared about their PDA then. She didn’t even officially realize she was a lesbian until she was in NY, a place that’s generally more accepting towards people like them. So she never had it constantly hammered into her that her affection was wrong or shameful or something she needed to hide. So she ended up being more free wheelin with kisses and such

8) I’m answering these one at a time without really looking ahead so alsfjksl the last answer can also tie into this one! But it’s not like Santana is totally cold or anything. She has tons of affectionate moments with Rachel. Her biggest one is hand holding. If she’s within arm’s reach of Rachel then she’s holding her hand

9) Hmm they both suffer from sleepy bitch disease from time to time. If they’re on public transit together early in the morning, Rachel will rest her head on Santana’s shoulder and end up nodding off, no matter how noisy or bumpy the ride is. And after a long day when they’re just watching tv or something similar, cuddling on the couch, Santana will end up dozing off and slumping against Rachel

10) They both have a bit of a jealous streak. I mean who can blame them when they both have experience with high school sweethearts whose hearts they’ve had to share, and that have picked someone else over them before? So they can get jealous and possessive of one another. But in a sexy flirty way, not a gross toxic way

11) Santana is definitely the later sleeper. Again with Rachel’s routines, she’s up early every morning to work out, have a healthy breakfast, wash up, and get ready for the day. Santana likes to wake up slowly and take her time in the mornings. Which is good because her schedule is much more packed later on in the day. But so is Rachel’s, and frankly Santana doesn’t see how she can still seem to be going at 100% even late into the evening

12) Oof honestly they both have trouble with this sometimes. But Rachel is sometimes worse. She can get into a mood where, even if it seems like she’s carrying on a conversation as normal, she’s really just half zoned out and focusing on what she has to say next. She doesn’t even do it on purpose to be selfish, she just wants to make sure everything she says is just right so she can get all her feelings out in the open.

13) Rachel does! But it’s not a problem. Santana is usually a hot sleeper. As long as she has a little bit of sheet covering at least part of her body, she’s fine. It’s only in the dead of winter that she needs layers of blankets, but that’s when Rachel is cuddled up to her in the middle of the night anyway, so the blankets aren’t going anywhere

14) Continued from #10 lol. They get like playful jealous when it comes to other people hitting on the other. But that’s about it. They don’t get jealous or resentful of one another for anything anymore, and are always just genuinely happy to see each other succeed. 

15) More often than not, Rachel is the dominant one in bed and Santana is more submissive. But they definitely have moods where they switch it up

[toziers]

can you explain what's going on right now? i keep seeing big IT blogs talking about some discourse or something but i have no idea what they're talking about other than it involves you lol

alright i like. i truly do not like having diScOurSE out in public because i’m not one to air out my dirty laundry 24/7 but seeing as how it was brought into public against my will i feel like the least i can do is clear up the situation for those who’ve been seeing the posts. 

i’m putting this under the cut bc it’s long. tws for some biphobia, brief mention of transphobia and, at the end, a rape mention. 

so if you don’t know: hi, i’m migz, i’m an it fandom blogger. its okay, i know, its really cool. part of my shtick here is that i like to turn normal thirst tags into works of art for the sake of comedy. perhaps you’ve seen some of my highlights from my “fhg” tag - perhaps your brain has been spared. either way, it became kind of “my thing” around the third or fourth week (mid nov) of me having this blog. at first, i tagged just about every ask i got mentioning the thirst tags with “bill hader” - they had to do with him, so why not tag him? it would draw more like minded people! about two days into that i got a message asking me to tag my nsfw. i am a big dumb idiot, and apologize for not initially doing it. i havent had a following bigger than like 10 in several years and completely spaced on basic etiquette. so by the end of november i was tagging everything applicable  with “notsfw” and “bill hader”. 

now you’re caught up.

on december 1st i got this message from user billhaderanti:

now i want to start by saying i absolutely was in the wrong here. i didn’t even think about how many people were being subjected to the asks i was getting - especially ones who had no idea they were all jokes. i don’t track the bill hader tag, so it just didn’t even occur to me - that’s ignorance on my part, and to anyone who was subjected to the terrors of me before my tagging system: i am genuinely sorry. i relay the same sentiment in my response, though you can tell i’m on edge.

and they replied:

clearly they Were offended by it but thats.. not the point. at this point, im feeling Really weird about the whole interaction, but still understanding, because again - i GET it. i know my posts are gross - that’s the point. it doesn’t make it excusable, though, which is why i understand why people are offended. so i responded with the only solution i Knew would keep us both safe and happy posting on our own blogs. 

so i thought this would be the end of things! i’d been pretty anxious lately already since i’d started to receive anons telling me i was gross and whore-ish for thirst posting in this way (i delete all of those, so if ur thinking about sending one, i guess no one’s stopping you but it won’t be seeing the light of the dashboard). i’m unsure if it was immediately or a few hours later, seeing as how i have a bad concept of time and the post-dates are right on the edge between nov 30 and dec 1, but i went to their blog - because anyone who has been on the internet knows the opportunity to vague post is near irresistible. and...what do ya know

fair! it’s their blog. however i am an emotionally fragile egg girl and immediately got freaked out. the odds that they were the only one who thought this were low. and, again, i’ve been very open on my blog about how important it is to respect boundaries; my posts are absolutely prone to breaking those boundaries people have created for themselves. 

so i made my own, semi-vague post, letting my following know (and i’m pretty sure i’d answered asks about it before, but this is going to be long enough w/o me searching those up too) that i understood if they wanted to block me or unfollow or whatever - people need to create their own safe spaces. the tension is pretty clear in the tags, i’m not trying to hide that. i felt that the way this woman slid into my dm’s was pretty abrasive (just my opinion/how it made me personally feel) and i let myself be a lil emotional about it in the tags of my post.

alright! maybe this is the end. maybe we both go our separate ways and post happily on our own blogs... except it’s not the end. later in the day (some of this was happening like 1/2am, so now its Day day, i believe - again, not good w time passage lol)

clearly, i’m upset. my groupchat double checked that i didn’t get too emotional in my response - did i mention im anxious about discourse lol - and apparently.. it did the trick. she didn’t message me again. great. it was over. 

at this point, i decided i needed to make an even bigger change. so a few days after i’d calmed down i created an entirely new tag for my thirst posts so if people hadn’t already hidden the notsfw posts or just blocked me outright, they’d have a third option to escape the madness. at this point, id had my blog about 6? weeks, but there were still 2k posts for me to sift through - some of them were completely untagged. i also had to do it post by post, because one of xkits features - the mass re-tagger - was getting blogs deleted for some reason, and i wasn’t going to do that. so i spent a few days going through all 2k+ posts, adding the “fhg” tag. 

YEEHAW! a brand new tagging system, no more hopping into the bill hader tag (minus one or two really funny, not super explicit asks, like the bill hader farquaad meme), and, tbf, i’d completely put this woman out of my mind. i don’t seek out drama and do my best to stay in my lane. yesterday, i checked my activity for the first time in awhile since id put out a couple new original posts that had started to get traction and i Love reading tags. i noticed a mutual had @’d me, and realized i havent checked my @’s in...ever, maybe. i see a post from my good pal billhaderanti. 

since i dont follow them and never check my @’s, i’d completely missed it. however, once i did see it, i was horrified. id gone through all that fucking work to keep my blog My Blog and also respect everyone’s boundaries and it still hadn’t been enough. i’d been awake for almost 24 hours and went. a little crazy. and i didn’t reply immediately because i just had no words. i sent it to my friends because i... i just wasn’t going to be able to figure it out myself. 

there’s a lot to unpack in this post alone, but whatever, i’m gonna put my own grievances with the immaturity of 1. making a callout post to begin with when i’d been nothing but civil 2. making a callout post about something as (in the grand scheme of Life) minor as some tags where i refer to a someone’s genitals as a “whack pack” and 3. making a callout post in such a rude way - aside. at the end, she calls me (and whoever else!) a demonic mlw (man loving woman, we assumed, and then later confirmed with a post further back on her blog). 

which - yeah, we started scrolling. at first we were looking for more vague blogs, and then we just...started finding things. billhaderanti is a self proclaimed lesbian separatist, which... fine. but it’s already pretty clear that this woman hates me on some level simply because i am a bi woman (demonic mlw, remember!) which is just. damn man i can’t believe we are still fighting the biphobic fight lol. so the more we scrolled, the more we uncovered - and not just the biphobic / vaguely mtf transphobic things they posted (or put in tags), but we also found that they had their OWN thirst tags. certainly not as hyperbolically comedic as mine, but they were there, talking about his body and his person the same (and, frankly, a bit creepier for other reasons) as mine. 

there’s one post in particular that snatched my wig in it’s creepiness - and i say creepiness in the sense that it feels personal. like this woman feels like she knows bill to some degree where she can say these things. my tags have always had a sense of distance, as they’re written for humor. and maybe this particular post was written for comedic purposes, but it doesn’t read that way, and if it WAS, then she has no right to call ME out for MY comic tags and posts. 

i’ll let it speak for itself, mostly because i don’t want to read it again. 

i also won’t be going through her blog again to find the posts with biphobic and other Interesting:tm: tags because there are plenty and i just really! want to be done with the whole ordeal! her blog is public and i’m sure you can all find it and look to your heart’s content. 

feeling a bit feral and a bit pissed off now that we knew the depth of how rotten this woman’s vibes were, a couple of my pals made a post or two similar to what my tag’s are like except turned up to eleven (if possible) - and tagged them with “bill hader” (and notsfw!!). yes, a bit childish, but at this point, the entire situation was childish, and making jokes was truly the only way we were going to get through it. another vague post went up on her blog soon after.

talking down to us, calling us children, and then for whatever reason calling us virgins... whatever, weird post. around this time most of us (est) went to bed, because it was nearing 3 or 4 in the morning. 

and then today happened. i woke up fresh and ready for the day after a wonderful 4 hours of sleep and found that jane had made an incredibly intelligent post in response to the situation. i won’t ss it, but i’ll LINK in case you missed it. attached there in the reblog is my own response. i think they can speak for themselves. 

after that, things were kind of jumbled, since i wasn’t online a lot and when i was i was Not checking my activity simply because i was afraid of what i’d see. for the most part, it ended up just being support (which i am very grateful to all of you for - it means a lot that you all enjoy my content to any degree). 

there was some more vague posting from both “““““sides”””””” of the “““““argument”””””” - mostly just people restating the fact that this is a public space and we should All be aware of how we effect others. i still hadn’t heard directly from billhaderanti, so i assumed we’d all be dropping and disengaging and moving on. i still wasn’t blocked, though, so who really knew what would happen. 

eventually, it culminated in this last post. tw for mentions of rape

i’m going to start by saying that 

1. there are nearly no teenagers that were involved in this. im turning 23 in january and most of my friends are 20+. maybe one or two are 19. 

2. none of us sent any sexually violent asks - most of us didn’t send asks at all. i believe one or two of my friends admitted to sending asks however they assured me their nature wasn’t bad; as far as i know, everyone remained civil in whatever went on (again, unclear to me as to what was being sent; no one was actively posting or talking about it. if billhaderanti wishes to elaborate, they can, but i don’t have anything to put in). 

3. before i finish this, i would like to apologize to billhaderanti. as a comedian - not just my stupid tags, i mean in real life, too - i know that humor can hurt. it’s not always funny, it’s not just stupid hahas. sometimes things that are supposed to be jokes just hit people differently and cause bad things. i recognize that. i never meant to trigger you (if you’re reading this) or cause you any severe mental/emotional harm. i apologize for my humor bringing up your trauma, and i never meant for that. regardless of my own thoughts and opinions about the nature of my posts/the thirst tags themselves, they hurt you, and i’m sorry. 

anyway, i’m going to wrap this up (i’m bad at endings, what can i say! steven king and i took the same writer’s class!). if you read all this... sorry. i probably won’t be taking any asks about it, because i find the whole “drama” of this to be stupid and rooted in some seriously biphobic issues this fully grown woman has. 

tldr; i attempted to contain my blog so this woman could exist and function safely on her blog, but it wasn’t enough for her, so she called me out, and then some of the fandom called Her out for being biphobic and mean and overall just immature about the situation. as of now, she’s yet to block me, though her and her wife have blocked a few of my friends. her wife continues to clown on my friends. this post was made for clarity’s sake. the end, i’m getting a drink.