#bear robots go brrrr

[obsessedwithecho]

I just learned, in the span of five minutes, that the YouTube channel Dead Meat, of whom I am a fan, is currently streaming fnaf 1 as I type this, and also recently announced a Danganronpa kill count. As a fan of both, I feel so fucking alive right now. Also, I really need to make a main blog for these kinds of posts. But, for now I figured I'd share here since the only person I can share this with who would understand what the hell I'm talking about doesn't care.

[materassassino]

💘💓 for the shipping ask?

YAY THANK FOR ASK \o/

Controversial Shipping Asks

💘 Ship that is unpopular but you still like:

I guess... Shallura from Voltron? Like don't get me wrong, I fucking HATE Voltron, I have nothing but bad memories of it (except for the friends I got from it) but I still think that as a pairing concept they absolutely SLAPPED. Two extremely traumatised people, both survivors, both victims who refuse to back down? Described as the head and heart of the Giant Robot Made Of Cats? Equals but he defers to her authority? Sacrificing themselves for each other all the time? The tenderness they had in the first two seasons? Genuinely aesthetically harmonious together in a way that makes brain go brrrr? Man they could have been something special for sure. It's unpopular for one very very stupid reason ("sHe'S a TeEnAgEr!!!") and two kind of understandable reasons (Shiro was confirmed gay at the last minute to try and sweep under the rug the amounts of abuse the writers heaped on him and also the show is fucking garbáge and no one likes it anymore) but like... oh, those halcyon days of 2016. I guess I still like it for the potential it had and that fundamentally their dynamic still goes hard, for a m/f ship.

💓 Ship that you didn’t expect to ship but now do:

I mean, do any of us set out to ship? No, it's supposed to be an organic development, the part of your brain that ships is the goblin part that goes "ooooh shiny!". All this to say all of my ships have been unexpected, but if you mean something that I'm like "this is OOC for me to ship" then... Probably Russingon? For obvious reasons, I'm not usually into that shit at all, but something about the eagle rescue and the Union of Maedhros and "whom shall they bear hither first? Fingon the valiant?" and "the thought of their ancient friendship stung his heart" and all that fuckery, and just enough degrees of familial separation that it isn't horrendously squicky. (I know you're not a fan of the ship but hey, it's my honest answer!) All my other ships are generally more predictably "me". Wait... there is another. Definitely Angbang. I'm not usually into villains and fucked up ships, like, AT ALL (except for Hannigram but everyone ships that) so like... being into Angbang really surprised me? But it's an OTP, for some reason I fucking love it, it's like cocaine. I'm usually more into actually loving and affectionate ships so it's strange for me to hate it when people write them fluffy and adoring, I like it when Melkor is vicious and possessive and Mairon is jealous and sassy and they both bring out the absolute WORST in each but the sex is hot and Mairon is excruciatingly devoted to Melkor (and it's reciprocated but in Melkor's own uniquely screwed up way). It's like *chef's kiss* good in all the wrong ways.

[claptraprights]

i’d love to read some timothy headcanons if you have any :D

Ah yes, Super Trauma Boy

- He has a love-hate relationship with The Man In The Iron Mask. It’s his personal (dis)comfort book. As a child, he loved the Three Musketeers and he was really excited when he found a collector’s edition copy in the trash on the Jackpot - but the first volumes had been damaged beyond readability which left him with that fucking boomerang of a book.

- Sometimes he stalks old college friends and even school friends on social media and many of them have good jobs and kids now or go on cool vacations and he feels like crying every time he looks at it but he just can’t stop doing it and it’s partly out of a ‘see what you could have had if you deserved it, if you weren’t such a fuck-up’-instinct but also a vague hope that someone might post something that implies they remember him, that weird shy freckled kid from college just to remind him that that was real, that Timothy Lawrence was real. He never checks up on his Mum though. He couldn’t bear to see her face. (He barely remembers it anyway.)

- Tbh he feels super conflicted about Elpis because...he was actually good at all that? Two months ago he was hiding in the university library under the table from some Student Loan Administration spy and here he is now on one of the borderlands-planets’ moons that you only hear rumours about at the edge of the galaxy in a semi-active war zone between to megacorps killing actual real life bandits like the ones you see in the films? And he is better at this than he ever was in his seminars? But at the same time, his face is gone and he doesn’t actually like killing (although...a part of him does which makes it worse) and he has no home to return to and he’s hanging around an Atlas assassin and a guy who wants to be a robot and honestly, it’s best not to think about any of this, gun goes brrrr and he doesn’t like the strange edge Jack’s voice gets when Timothy says he feels uncomfortable doing this or that thing.

- After the whole casino thing, he sometimes visits Moxxi when she’s in a bar off Sanctuary III (he’s not gonna show ‘his’ face around there) but he also disassociates when he sees a slot machine. He has enough of slot machines for the rest of his life (especially considering that he knew some that would come to life and attack you!)

- Listen. Debt in the Borderlands-universe? Is no joke. Even in the civilised areas. The University has its own goons, the organisations giving students money for tuition are have their own goons, if you are behind on your payments, both come after you and you never know when they��ll knock on your door at night and ramsack your apartment for anything valuable.

- In fact, they also have permission to access your accounts and they took his rent money so he was homeless for about two years bc he was ashamed to return home and admit he fucked up. Plus, if he did they might even come after his family.

- He’s just not that good with computers, ok? He wanted to become a writer, for crying out loud. He’s no software engineer, anyway. Jack always tried to teach him to make him more convincing in his role but this whole coding language stuff just never made sense to him and Jack really isn’t a patient teacher (it’s one thing to yell at him for two hours how he can ‘possibly be so stupid! So frigging stupid, how does that not go into your dumb little head, you absolute moron!’ but does he really have to ECHO him again at 2am for a second helping?? Really doesn’t boost your self-confidence.)

- Again, one from my fic, but he was actually kinda close with Meg* - she knew of him anyway - and sometimes they helped each other in their own little ways. *(Meg the secretary, not Nakayama’s garbage monster)

- He is so, so, so brainwashed, okay? Lots of his memories are gone, he was heavily medicated to deal with all the blood and violence and it made things even more blurry, and let’s not kid ourselves, pissing off Jack had horrible consequences. Sometimes electro-shocks and isolation chambers were involved as it got worse. Also the “DNA giving him Jack’s personality”-thing isn’t true and just gaslighting (or maybe the DNA-part is true but it doesn’t affect his personality.) (mostly bc I find the whole murder DNA idea dumb af)

- Killing scavs and soldier who want to kill you is one thing. But the first time Jack forced him to kill innocent, unarmed employees he couldn’t do it and got put through some desensitisation wringer (the gist of it was the lesson that if he doesn’t strangle some poor catering guy, Jack is going to hurt them far worse) Doesn’t really help with the nightmares though.

- I talked about this before but I am convinced that his mother didn’t actually laugh at the news of his death. Timothy actually seems to think of her quite fondly and it would be quite strange that a woman who...apparently was a good enough Mum for him to feel safe with her would laugh at her own son’s death. Instead, I think Jack and the doctors told him that (or maybe used altered footage) to make him more loyal and to burn all bridges so that he doesn’t feel like has anywhere to turn back to or someone who would hide him if Hyperion came after him.

- The first time he noticed his fear heights was at the age of seven, during a school trip to a science museum as a kid. There was a transparent platform that you could walk up on to watch an experiment from above and once he walked up there and looked down he immediately felt terrified standing on that glass with some Science Lightning Shit going on beneath him.

- He has flashbacks and nightmares to getting his face branded sometimes, especially when he hears noises of sizzling meat or smells burnt flesh (which is actually quite a common smell around the Handsome Jackpot)

- Ironically, there was a cartoon that he watched when he was really young where a monster steals faces (OK MAYBE IT WAS THE 10000TH AVATAR REMAKE LEAVE ME ALONE) and that shit was terrifying for him. And ... he mostly forgot about this as an adult (most things are blurry) but sometimes he has this...image in his dream but he can never quite lay his hands on it.

- It’s all stored in the right combination of being touch-starved and absolutely hating the idea of people touching your body. That doesn’t even feel like your body. That combination of thick hoodie under an actual leather jacket has big ‘don’t want to feel hands on me but still want to feel hugged’-vibes.