#bi friends we keep on winning dont we huh?

[lestatlioncunt]

out on a date vibes? 😳

[ohgodfeelingss]

ik the title for this blog is for thoughts of the ‘romantic’ kind but idk i still find it hard to consider this all romantic? maybe it’s just the connotations and stuff i associate w the idea of ‘romance’ and ‘romantic’ things. by definition i guess it’s romantic, because i want to pursue a typical relationship of boyfriend and girlfriend, but idk. the label of ‘romantic’ doesn’t seem to fit right 😭 or maybe im just not that comfortable with the word ‘romantic.’ to be honest im not that comfortable with the words ‘boyfriend’ and ‘girlfriend’ and i keep getting random thoughts referring to him as my boyfriend which i have to beat down with a stick because i feel weird about it. although that might be more because i feel like i’m jumping the gun with that? also part of me feels like we’re not that compatible… we have the opposite music tastes, and im not here to declare which genres are musical opposites, i mean literally my favourite genre is one he hates, and his favourite genre is one of the very few i don’t actually like. and we don’t really have much in common… at all… 😭😭😭 like?? i don’t even know man.

what, then, is this attraction based on u might ask? i’m arospec. i thought i was strictly aro before this. do NOT ask me LMAO i have no fucking idea. one day i just was like, huh. and then three days later i was like. HUH. and then a week later i was like. Oh Fuck. and now we’re here, and i’m saying This is Real.

because i’m not even particularly aesthetically attracted to him, which is one of the strongest attractions i feel??? and i don’t have any platonic feelings for him like i do for my closest friends, which i’ve wondered if they were romantic before. sexual attraction was never in the question at the beginning, so can’t be the turning point (although i will say there’s kind of some grey sexual attraction involved sometimes now so there’s that… i guess??)

so honestly, i could not tell you why my brain decided one day ‘i want That One.’

why do i wanna be his girlfriend at this point is probably a good introspective question. and yknow. i dont even know. it’s a scary thought to be his actual girlfriend lol. i don’t think i’m ‘attracted’ to him because i like his attention, at least i don’t think so? because he’s a pretty quiet guy, at least when he’s with my group of friends because it’s not His group of friends. that’s not a ‘i want to crack open his cold quiet mysterious exterior’ kind of thing either. idk. i like cuddling him. i like it when he talks.

why am i listing these and suddenly thinking ‘oh god maybe i am just aromantic’ 😭😭😭

i’ve decided this is at least somewhat related to romantic attraction, just because it kind of fits in line. i want him to like me, i wanna be close to him, i got sad when i thought he wasn’t gonna show up despite saying he would, sometimes i think i wanna kiss him, i want him to only be into me, i would absolutely feel jealous and dejected if he started showing interest in someone else, i wanna look pretty for him, i woke up dreaming about him once (jfc when i tell you that took me off guard 😭😭😭), there was a point where i only thought about talking to him and getting to know him more for like two days straight, i got nervous texting him because i really wanted him to come over, yknow, that kind of stuff.

it’s just. very difficult to come up with a ‘why’ for any of that. 😭😭😭

idk why he’s just Him???? and my brain chose Him????? idk i feel bad thinking about this sometimes tho because it feels like im saying he has nothing to offer or that he’s not a likeable or cool guy or something, but he is a cool guy and honestly chill. but like. im not singing disney songs about all his likeable qualities or something??

i will say tho, he has nice fucking arms 😭😭 and thighs 😭😭

look, throughout my entire aspec journey, starting from thinking i was het ace to bi ace to aroace, i have always said if i was gonna like anyone it’d be someone who could pick me up and throw me out of a window without breaking a sweat. at least i knew something about myself KSJFJSNF

god just thinking about this is making me wanna teleport in time to when we were cuddling again. i wanna be in his arms 90% of the time and infhusbfjxbcnz

he is cute though. his hair is fluffy and curly and it reminds me of a poodle 🥺🥺

gah. i dont know 😭

[alukaforyou]

and ALSO sry to post bs on main im mostly just talking to myself in my personal tag half the time so yolo, no need to respond to this or reassure me or whatever but these days i licherally question how much of my - sry to sound like a broken record - bs is dépression or just my shité mentality, like i rly was not designed to last, huh? physically or mentally? lol. like who gets motion sickness on swings lmao anyways. i think i give up too easily. theres a bunch of reasons y but i dont feel like saying. its a different thing to kind of kno something, and to admit / speak it (confront it). i could psychoanalyze myself all day and tell u exactly why some things are the way they are but its too unpleasant to neatly state stuff like that u kno?? like... *i kno* but im not gonna say i kno. anywho, i digress. so i give up easily and kind of have a defeatist mentality too, its so exhausting lool. actually its weird cuz duality of man, i'll be rly determined / stubborn abt doing some stuff and not care abt fear of failure with certain things but when it comes to My Life / My Future i just think i cant rly do anything? i mean that literally like i got no skillz *laugh crying emoji* not particularly good at anything, and art - the only thing im maybe arguably ok at - i dont wanna do as a career, that is art therapy for me i dont feel like commercializing it. not interested in working in my major, maybe things wouldve been different if i went to culinary or cosmetology school?? that sounds fun. or if i majored in bio cuz i was so good at that, or even if i majored in japanese language or literature or idk. but no regrets tho cuz i learned a lot abt drawing in art school which i can use for myself. and hmm i like staying home and not rly going out of my way to meet new ppl so connections what? i h8 hearing how most opportunities come through the ppl u kno cuz its true and ik like 10 ppl tops so hm very sexi of me :^) i just feel like im p much f*cked and it rly doesnt help that i have no functional dreams, goals, or aspirations nor the confidence and drive to work towards anything so ah ok cool. u kno suga's songs "the last" and "so far away" ? that p much sums up my feels minus the part abt having to deal w fame obviously LOL. its so easy being a student (for me at least) but being a good student isnt really worth a whole lot in the """""real world""""" and the current education system doesnt even rly prepare u for reality or w.e like Deep Sigh also the political climate rly lookin like shité out there like hmmmmm do i even wanna try so hard to be here anymore tho??? also going back to the self confidence thing, ya idk her LOOOOL like it doesnt very much bother me tho? i really, honest to god have no idea what my redeeming qualities even are. being nice? and my mindset re - tolerance and compassion for others, etc, ya im rly proud of that actually but besides that i mean like what can i Do tho like hm im not particularly good at anything also im hideous like uglee but thats ok too like none of this Bothers me, thats just literally how i Am so ok fine, but i feel like it makes it hard for me to exist in the world i happen to be in??? and i realize im speaking with a huge bias here cuz my brain is totally out of whack im p sure if some1 saw me / read this they would lit be like um u literally do not have it hard girl, which is fair ur kinda right actually from an objective pov, probably? its amazing how um. hard? of a time my brain is having given my relatively ok circumstances but thats just how it is ig. and if i may quote shakespeare - o full of scorpions is my mind. and its weird cuz duality of man - i actually have a lot of good times w friends and whatever i have a lot of fun, im not even very Sad or in Agony its all very a mild? sensation? but that might be because my plan b is to simply *** so nothing rly fazes me anymore lool.

its usually a v confusing emotion, im either feeling happy, or if not that, very ???? im literally that duwang quote get a feeling so complicated its just "ajdjsjsja" idk its not overly repulsive and upsetting im like :s LOL u kno wat at this point idek what im even saying anymore but its good that im writing whatever cuz im gonna need to look back on this later and organize my thoughts for presentation cuz remember i have a s.o now???? i wanna let them kno so we r on the same page, and i dont feel like im tricking them, i thought it over more and there are like 4? major cards i wanna lay out on the table early on and they are 1. im not that close w my family emotionally so do not seek their approval or expect to deal with them much. 2. personal ideology / political views like im bi lmao and pro lgbt if that wasnt obvious also i dont rly wanna be around racists / terfs etc and if ur right wing or not on that respect women juice uhhh bye.. 3. my weak ass mentality how i might Maybe *** in the future like no promise but errrr theres one more but its a little more negotiable and also too early to discuss so i wont mention it but i already got the first two outta the way so ya. theres the most troublesome of all, #3. the last thing i wanna do is traumatize someone that loves me (and i love back) with that kinda thing, its too late for my dear friends whom i love, sorry i didnt kno i was gonna be like this LOL yall already got attached but its a little different with my s.o cuz i feel like its not too late to uh.... stop getting as attached LMAO like dam i've known my girls for almost 10 years whereas i've only known my s.o for like a month.

and this is totally not gonna come across right but if my s.o very understandably desides to dump me id be SO RELIEVED LIKE WOOOO ok cool cuz like essentially what i'd be saying is you are getting attached to someone who's future is not as stable as other people, including u. *huge exhale* from the bottom of my heart, my bad lol. and then i probs wont ever get involved w. a s.o again, sorry to reference snk in 2020 but remember how e*win smith is single cuz he doesnt kno when he will ***? big mood. i have never acted out on my interests before but i was like ok for once lets go off the shits and do smth ooc, i uh... didnt expect for it to actually go anywhere tho so now im like ???? i shouldve thought it through more tho, like i felt low key irresponsible af and selfish and dumb for getting involved w. someone even tho i Know how I Am like...... Also i just lov being single and staying home and chilling alone lmao like i seriously...... never get loney....

ok so what was i talking abt? how the passage of time makes me nervous cuz idk how i can manage to keep up w it??? how i feel like i cant do jack shit???? that life is hard???? and maybe a bih just wants to rest? permanently?????? i think the most irritating part of all for me, like what i am most mad about at myself is that i have no dream. yikes. naruto, do u think thats sad? well yoongi said its okay, and what counts is just being happy, so i will console myself and forgive her and idk just try my best for the time being??

[devilgem-archive]

Can we hear more about the swap au?

yes absolutely!!!i got some basic info for the ones with distinct roles (most of which are based off personal hcs ive conjured in chats) the rest will come as soon as i have concrete stories for them!!

the story revolves around angel, an ex-mobster slash p*rn star, who decides to abandon his vices to better himself and those around him. because he lacks a higher status in hell’s society, he has a harder time gathering funds and support, so his hotel is a lot more run down compared to canon charlie’s. many dub him as a “nobody trying to be somebody”

ANGEL DUST

swaps with charlie

gay trans man

grew up in a mob family during the 30s-40s. his relationship with his family remains difficult

he’s a lot more optimistic here, still values innocence and all the littlest things that make the world go ‘round. he’s still angel dust tho,therefore has moments where he’s just a plain jackass

continued his line of Shady Work in the afterlife for survival. retired decades later to pursue his Dream Project in running a rehabilitation center in the form of a hotel. the public was baffled at his choice to step down from crime, why give up all of that for…this? is he stupid? whatever respect they held for him was snuffed out quickly and angel became a laughing stock

is very much aware of the doubts, even those of his friends’ and frankly…it stings. tries to mask it with sunshine and rainbows

still struggles with addictions + suffers from episodes of alcohol withdrawal himself. despite everything he keeps pushing forward- lowkey has a habit of brushing off his own problems in favor of others’

CHERRI BOMB

swaps with vaggie

trans lesbian

was an orphan in life, turned to crime as a bomb specialist as she grew

had canon!cherri’s personality and appearance up until angel made his ambitions known; she chopped her hair short and sports a more formal fashion to honor his new passion

is best friends with angel and looks up to him like a father. while she does offer her best support, she is not without doubts regarding the hotel’s success. not that she’d outright say it ofc

despite her own concerns, she wont hesitate to fuck up anyone who insults or otherwise jeopardizes angel’s hotel

she jokingly suggested angel turn to the princess of hell for assistance…only for the man himself to take it as serious advice. angel dust is a synonym for absolutely fucking stupit

CHARLIE

swaps with angel

bi trans girl

the princess of hell. an absolute bratty delinquent who loves using her status to get what she wants– or get away with the trouble she stirred up

only cared about her status, wealth and vaggie before the hotel.

she’s the carlyle to angel’s barnum

angel sought her out for support–though she initially snorted at the very idea of a rehabilitation center in hell,she found herself begrudgingly funding the hotel. even checked in as the very first patient, fun for the entire family huh.

she truly has a heart of gold beneath the hardass exterior and it gradually shines through the more time she spends at the hotel

VAGGIE

swaps with cherri

lesbian + demigirl

is charlie’s girlfriend and partner in crime. together, theyre ur typical Mean Girls that enjoy making snide remarks at the expense of others

has an arsenal of knifes and spears she uses to win turf wars and lovingly defend her still-ditzy gf from danger.

is more cool and collected- gotta do what it takes to come out the winner! only loses her temper when her loved ones are threatened/insulted

retains a difficult relationship with angel

only checked into the hotel, which she is skeptical of, to keep charlie company. and to see how fast this dump falls apart lmao

just like charlie, she gradually softens up and befriends the others

ALASTOR

swaps with husk

pan/ace trans man

he is biracial

was an ex-radio host that succumbed to the great depression in Every sense of the word. no really. alastor is a disaster

he pushed away his friends and family and loyal fans that reached out in support, destroying whatever positive relationship he had left. who needs people when you got booze!

is a complete shut in. dont talk to him, do not even look at him.begone thot. remained stubborn at the idea of opening up, even in a place as disgustingly positive as angel’s hotel

1000/10 capable of ripping your guts out if you test him

still enjoys the good thrill of hunting deer every now and then. probably the one thing that makes him feel anything

hates hate HATES the permasmile with every ounce of his being. he wouldn’t be wearing a smile if frowning wasnt so damn painful

SIR PENTIOUS

swaps with katie

bi trans man w a pref for Wahmen

he was a well-known journalist in the 1800s.

in hell, he adapted well enough to have his own “picture news show”

vocally, he isn’t very pleasing to listen to, but! he has a knack for grabbing the most sensational stories to keep the attention of his audience unwavered

has an ego the size of jupiter

is completely uninterested in anything that doesnt give his rep a boost

enjoys sciencey stuff and reviews the latest trends/memes on occasion

mocking the hell out of angel and his stoopid hotel is his second hobby

he has ‘friends’ but rarely, if ever, treats them well

THE EGGBOIS

swap with tom

they all hate penti

penti still enjoys pushing them around. sometimes would use them as anger/stress-relievers

i do not have a lot for them

[survivorkalokairi]

Episode 1: “How do I bond with people” - Mitch

Dylan C

https://youtu.be/MiBLiRlSzFc

Stephen

It’s round one and I’ve already learnt a foreign word for pee, this seasons gonna be great

Cam

hello everyone and welcome to HOLY FUCK by cameron, your local certified sick kid

so first of all

I HAVE DYLAN AND MATT SUMMERS AND MITCH ON MY TRIBE

which is all fine and dandy

ABBEY IS ON? THE OTHER TRIBE?

which is also fine and dandy

blake is super sweet and i adore this newbie already!! he's like "im so overwhelmed im in two games"....... sweetie

BUT ALSO

so i message jay to idol hunt

"first in line"

i say "this is door 9 all over again!"

i wait about 15 minutes

go through the path, dee dee dee dee dee

"fountain or pay an offering to the statue" 

me, in my hellenic witchcraft practices, knowing the goddesses really like offerings, gonna offer aphrodite some food (sorry hera)

guess what aphrodite gives me?

an idol. she gives me an idol. i'm truly blessed. this is ridiculous. i got the idol the very first idol hunt of the season.

i'm shaking.

Dylan C

oh my god how to I play a game with my close friends sksjsh (i’ll make a Proper confessional later)

Brittany

i've been doing duolingo for, like, an hour now and there are so many ways to say the. i've counted around 4. it's pretty fun though, and everyone on my tribe seems really cool and nice cx

Zabbey

Wow ok so my tribe is really cute and wholesome so far. I'm playing with JG, Timmy and Stephen which is cool bc i lowkey know them all but I've never played with them so thats fun! I cant really speak on the newbies since I havent really talked to any of them yet but I'm excited to get to know them! It's wild knowing cam and dylan are on the other tribe, I hope i get to play with them too! 

Stephen

Cal is the best, i would love to work with Cal, JG, Timmy, and Zabbey. But i’m still gonna gove the other new guys a chance, still very early days to start making alliances. That being said I’m still very happy we have had a majority on a call, make some ties. *glares at atomic “all-stars”*

Zach

So uh...so far nothing. Unless I’m completely out of the loop. I really like my tribe mate Zabbey. She seems cool and we have the same sense of humor. I really hope to align with her, but we’ll see how it goes. I also really admire Maynor for volunteering to sit since he has to work today. So far I think our tribe vines well. No tea to spill yet, but I’m sure there’s more to come.

Alex

Many people werre talking about drag race and I've never seen it and I kinda knew this would happen to me at some point in mylife when I end up being the bad gay who hates Lady Gaga and hasn't seen drag race and we're here folks.  lol I guess I'll stay quiet and hopefully noone will find out 

J.G.

Night one was, interesting to say the least. I was a little worried because I knew that I had to work during the first hour of the game and with new people I did not want to miss out on the bonding opportunities. Shockingly few were active among the noobies mostly Zach and Cal. The vets on my tribe, I actually know which is wild. Stephen and I have played together in the past, not together but there is for sure no bad feelings, that I know of. Abbey and Timmy I have never played with them but I know of them from the community. I have always wanted to play with them and excited for this opportunity. I know from a viewer this will come off as boring but I do feel that sticking with the vets is going to be smart at least in the early stages but mark my words, if I have any say, Abbey will be the last boot before merge. There is no way hell, I am letting her get any where near merge, I am not dumb no what she can do. Sorry Abbey, you're queen but the queen is not gonna stay queen. I really want to make a three tight alliance with Stephen and Timmy and ride with them but they could always tip off Abbey and use it to their advantage so I need to just chill and let things play out. I feel that if we are to go to tribal in the early stages, I can picture two noobs being easily targeted for inactivity. Oh, let's also talk about how I got freaking 20% disadvantage night one like I always do, and then turn around to get a 10% advantage the next day. I'm mess but I'm gonna keep eating these grapes because they're pretty good.

JG

So I was really sure I was going to be in the first alliance of the season amongst the vets but nope that didn't happen. I am in a unprecedented alliance with Abbey, yeah the person I said I want to make sure gets out before merge and Zach. Our alliance is called Two Gays and a Bi-by ... iconic as fuck. With a smaller tribe starting size with 8, smaller alliances are key plus I feel that we can easily pull some side votes for numbers to honestly keep our alliance alive and active. This makes targeting Abbey really hard cause it could turn Zach against me. I will have to be very cautious, how I go about this. I also talked to Cal and was making sure I connected with him cause I know he was putting work in on Timmy and Stephen last night. That is something I will have to monitor. That can not be allowed to happen. I think working with Timmy would be fun and cool but it's looking like that if after a early not so active noob goes and we need to find another target, I think Timmy would be a fine first threat to knock out leaving Stephen and Cal up in the air.

Cal

Lots of stuff! I was late to the party at the intro but got to chat with Timmy, JG, and Stephen. I learned about their past in the community as well as talked about the many moods of trying to learn greek. One such mood is probably me always confusing the "pi" sign and the one shaped like the letter "p" leading to accidentally translating baby as fool. Ironically I really don't want to be seen as either while a baby or fool especially since I'm new. I've really enjoyed meeting my tribe mates but I'm afraid to see where the pleasant meet and greet ends and the game begins.

Maynor

My thoughts on this tribe is that i like everyone and i dont want any of them to leave. Ive been trying to talk to everyone n try to be social player since im sitting out the first challenge.

Blake

welp. i still dont really know whats going on but... IM HAVING FUN. Ive talked with Dylan C a bunch and we have gotten to know each other pretty well. The greek challenge? a MESS. I havent been able to do a lot and the little i have done is not even worth mentioning. I hope the next challenge is a little easier for me but until then... YAY! 

Maynor

Last night Brittany and I started talking and decides since we are newbies that we will work as a duo to keep each other safe since the game has newbies & returning players. As of right now she is my #1 but i am talking to others.

Maynor

Second day has been very interesting. Ive been talking to Cal and J.G. pretty much all day seperately. And both want to align and J.G brought up maybe doing three person alliance and he said we should try n bring in Cal. In my head i was like yes. So now its an allince of me, Cal, and J.G. which is great. If its all 100% (my end it is) then this is going to be great.

Timmy

Wow, I haven't made a confessional yet. WE WON IMMUNITY!!! I'm very relaxed now, but also I don't think I would have gone anyways so woot woot. I did the worst on my tribe so that's not too great (pretty sure the 810 from the post was my score), but I still did better than the entire other tribe so wooo. I'm so happy to finally be in a game with Abbey and I really want to work with her and we have been talking already about the nothingness that has come from our idol hunts so that's good. I still haven't talked to Zach or Brittany so I need to do that soon, Zach seems nice in the tribe chat but Brittany seems nonexistent at the moment even though she did well in the challenge. 

Cam

well i may have won a main season last night

but let me tell you

WE DID NOT WIN THAT MY DUDES LMAO. we were literally beat ten times over. i hope the f tribe feels good about how much they squished us. they... earned that. truly. 

but now jay says... there's an announcement? and this is what immediately ensues

On 7/21/18, at 9:29 PM, Jay 🐠 (Kalokairi Host) wrote:

> but first there will be an announcement

On 7/21/18, at 9:29 PM, Cameron Culpepper (Atomic Admin) wrote:

> oh no

On 7/21/18, at 9:31 PM, Dylan R. wrote:

> oh cool

and it was just announced! so there is redemption. this is nice! i'm less worried about work now. like obviously i'm gonna do my best? but... if i fuck up at least there's a CHANCE.

oh yeah and the idol. day 2 in the game, still haven't told anyone, so that's pretty cool! we'll see how long that lasts.

dylan c and i had a conversation about how if we don't work together neither of us will hold it against the other but like... im pretty sure we're gonna work together anyway. 

wouldn't it be cute to make f3 with dylan c and abbey? god that's the dream. but it won't happen.

Maynor

The alliance is official between me, JG, and Cal. Are alliance name is MEW but greek that looks like mew. I like both and i hope they are ride or die as i am with this alliance. But just so we could have one more vote, im keeping my ally, Brittany, secret for now. 

Mitch

Welcome to Greece! I consume goat cheese, so I'm something of a Greek expert myself you know. I'm very excited to meet all of my tribemates but now I'm probably going to talk about them individually since Idk what else to do

I haven't played a game in so long I have no fucking idea how to socialize oh my god. I feel like everything I type is awkward and sad. At least the first challenge was relatively easy since I never had to type anything and have free time up the wazoo . But fuck we got crushed lmao. I dunno what secret they used but I take comfort in knowing that they were probably worried about us doing the same thing. Maybe I probably won't get voted out for having a score of 600 but WE SHALL SEE

Alex - Where is he? He did the challenge but he hasn't said a word ever. I want to keep him but uh Blake - 15 exp huh. 15? :| I only got increments of 10 where did the 5 come from Cameron - Aaaa. I enjoy Cameron and hopefully he enjoys me Dylan C - Oh this distinguishing between Dylans will be fun. But hopefully this Dylan and I can... meet in the middle somewhere yes Dylan R - One of the 4 people who have spoken to me! This kid is GOING PLACES and I'm glad to help him along for the ride Maddie - She is camping and I completely understand. Matt - I mean sure Matt and I KNOW each other but do we really? It's not like we were buddy buddy in Navarino. Unless he thinks we were? If he does... uh oh

How do I bond with people

Cal

Maynard just brought together me and JG together to start an alliance all while the results of the immunity challenge was finished. I was nervous but not only did we win but we have an amazing three that is called ΜΞΨ(after the first letters of our names), which is called that thanks to me! I just thought it'd be fun to name it like a frat since we've been learning greek and also hopefully dominate! JG and Maynard are great guys and I'm excited to work with them as ΜΞΨ but I also am keeping in mind ΜΞ(me lol) in the game for when we do have to go to tribal! Mu Xi Psi out!

Dylan R

For the first tribal, I'm obviously worried. As for targets, I'm not sure there are any at this moment. I guess I'm voting based on tribal performances, but I would be open to other people's suggestions. I would consider myself closest to Matt, Dylan C and Mitch so those three are who I would want to vote with. 

Stephen

I found half a “special idol” in the mangroves! While I am happy and I will still search for the other half I do have to decide if I want to tell anyone. In a previous season I told one person and they betrayed me (thanks tim) but in the end that led the person who had other half to reach out to me. However I can’t expect the same thing to happen this game, every games a new game. So I think I’m gonna keep it to myself, if somebody else tells me or is revealed to have the other half I might tell them, but for now I’m just gonna search for the other half and be content that no one can use the whole thing against me.

Zach

We won the first challenge!!!! I was expecting it to be a lot closer tbh. But I have an alliance of 3 that I’m fairly confident in! I wouldn’t say I completely trust them yet though. Both of them have played before and so it’s scary to think that they might just be playing me. I guess time will tell. I’m also curious to see what other alliances will show themselves when we finally start talking and going to trial. Also a little worried that I might be playing to hard out of the gate. We’ll see and I’ll probably get used to playing as time goes on.

JG

My mom (Jay) has officially cancelled me y'all. My tribe freaking won by over 13 to almost 2k. Holy crap. Like did the vets on the other side never play this comp before? Like with maybe a little work and patience, you could get easily 1500XP without really grinding maybe more. I am honestly perfectly o.k. with these results I wanted us to win badly because of having to go to work tonight, I did not want to bother with the stress of that. Plus, the night before my work had an emergency so I am definitely not in a place ready to emotionally invest and make a move in the game. ΜΞΨ is an alliance that formed between Maynor, Cal, and myself. The alliance names from the first letter of our names in Greek to kinda make a frat/sor name. Maynor approached me wanting to make  a final 2 and go really far. I am down with this for now of course, this game is constantly changing and moving. He asked me if we wanted to make a threesome to help our odds and asked me for suggestions. I suggested Cal because I knew I wasn't in any other alliances with him yet and this will allow me to keep an eye on him making sure he doesn't get close to Timmy or Stephen. Before I went off for the night Stephen and I officially talked about how the vets probably should create an official thing because it wouldn't hurt for us to work at least together in the early stages of the game. We decided that it should be discussed and formed today. Once that happens your boy is literally in an alliance with everyone besides Brittany and she actually did really well in the challenge. This scares me that she is either close to others or just someone I am not gonna be able to connect with. I heard from others that people are forgetting she's here, at the least she is a competitor. Either this is gonna blow up in my face or gonna allow me to position myself really well going into merge. Mama mia, my tribe isn't going tribal but I feel I made some of the biggest moves. Time will tell, I guess 

Zabbey

SO A lot has happened since I last confessed!!!! I am now in a baby alliance with JG and Zach which is wholesome. Zach is super hype and its v endearing and im a stan. JG also said him and Stephen have talked about a vet alliance which would be the easier way to go but I don't really want to. I don't want to play this game based off of outside relationships, I'm not necessarily going to align with Cam and Dylan is we make it onto the same tribe. In more impotant news ya bITCH FOUND THE IDOL! My literal third search! Timmy told me that he was looking in the hotel rooms so I was gonna do that but then Jay said roof and I was like why not and my witch ass gave that offering and got me a sexy idol! I don't plan on telling anyone about it unless I absolutely have to! 

Blake

I'm realizing now that im probably going to be seen as invisible the whole time bthrfnm dont know if thats good or bad LOL. But I finally have an alliance and its with people that I actually enjoy talking too :) Me, Cameron and Dylan C formed a group called Bicons (Bi Icons LMAO) and they seem to be really loyal. I have no idea what im doing but i hope people find me funny and want to keep me hfuiejf. (I HAVE NO IDEA WHO IM GONNA VOTE OFF)

Maddie

I came into this game after 2 nights had already gone by. I am really scared that I will be voted out tonight because I would be the easy since not very many people know me.  

Dylan R

The first tribal is the most important tribal, at least from a game perspective. That’s why I’m taking a gamble and trying to target after Blake. We need people who will win challenges, and after his score of 15 I’m not sure if he’s best suited. I need 4 votes to tie. I believe I’ll have Alex & Maddie, so right now I’m focusing on the fourth vote. Dylan C seems wary about this vote, so I’m trying to convince her now. I told her that “other people have mentioned Blake” when really it’s just me lol. I don’t wanna tell anyone else, simply because I don’t want people thinking I’m playing too hard, so I’m hoping the votes will tie or the votes will be spread. I’m taking a bit of a gamble because this could put a target on my back, but I do love gambles so I can’t resist. This will probably come back to bite me, but it is redemption island so I guess that’s always a fallback.

Cal

Missed a lot of discussion about past games because I was meeting up with someone impromptu. It's daunting but also exciting to face the experience of some of my tribe mates. It's the feeling of a glorious revolution of the new players against the old! I aim to learn as well, but also have really enjoyed speaking with my tribe but fear people are getting wind of the ΜΞΨ alliance since me, JG, and Maynor are speaking a lot. I gotta figure out my mist! Mu Xi Psi out!

Stephen

The tribe chat: Jay is about to get represented by an agent!!!!! ajdnfkksxjsnxxcz

Cal in my PMs: I just got laid

............okay cal. I guess he ws just being friendly? But things like that are sort of a hot topic for me, but I don’t think thats something he needs to know. And its probably not something to get into in confessionals. Maybe if we become besties we can have a dnm about it later.

Dylan C

https://youtu.be/8oaTFmpiv0I

Dylan R

The first tribal is the most important tribal, at least from a game perspective. That’s why I’m taking a gamble and trying to target after Blake. We need people who will win challenges, and after his score of 15 I’m not sure if he’s best suited. I need 4 votes to tie. I believe I’ll have Alex & Maddie, so right now I’m focusing on the fourth vote. Dylan C seems wary about this vote, so I’m trying to convince her now. I told her that “other people have mentioned Blake” when really it’s just me lol. I don’t wanna tell anyone else, simply because I don’t want people thinking I’m playing too hard, so I’m hoping the votes will tie or the votes will be spread. I’m taking a bit of a gamble because this could put a target on my back, but I do love gambles so I can’t resist. This will probably come back to bite me, but it is redemption island so I guess that’s always a fallback. 

Dylan R

Ok so like. Convincing people is hard lol. New tactic: I told Alex that people are targeting him in hopes that it’ll ignite him enough to save himself. I want Alex as an ally, but if he can’t save himself then I don’t want him as an ally

Brittany

so i'm late to making this confession but we won the first challenge and i'm still so?? happy about it?? and by a lot too, and there i was panicking and speeding through duolingo lmao. hopefully this is a sign and we stay doing this well lol

J.G.

Yeet,one last confessional before the round is over. I am honestly really anxious to see what happens at this tribal whether a vet or noob will go. While I do not think that this will be a prevalent theme in decision making, it something I am keeping in the back of my mind. I don't want people to be able use that against me to vote me out. That's why I will feel really inclined to stick with the vets if a vet is voted out tonight over a noob. Who knows what that tribe will do they have several options.

Finally, officially the vets (Abbey, Timmy, and Stephen as well as myself) finally came together to form an official alliance called The Nursing Home. I am really keeping an eye on Timmy and Stephen, they give me some minor sketch vibes but it could just be me over analyzing.

Well, 1 week down, several more to go. 

Dylan C

I’m getting a concerning amount of radio silence form some cast members. Is it because they’re inactive or ignoring me?? Lmao mattI'm so excited to be on Kalokairi! This has been a lifelong dream. Who wouldn't want to live on a gorgeous Greek island, where every piece of drama or sadness is resolved by breaking out into 70s Disco Pop and choreographing elaborate dance routines featuring wacky props like scuba fins? And to be able to play the game of Survivor while doing it? Wild!

My tribe is literally so wholesome. The other "veterans" are all so fantastic, and the newbies are so pure and fun and I love talking to them. The only person I haven't gotten to speak one on one to is Alex, and it seems like that's the case for the rest of the tribe. After getting THWUMPED in that immunity challenge, it's nice that we can all come together in a cohesive vote to hopefully power through in the future.

I found a leather necklace at the market, but it doesn't actually do anything until I combine it with another part. I'm not sure if my best strategy is to keep it hidden or let everyone know I have it in case they're also looking for it, but I think I'm going to keep it to myself while I search a bit more.

I'd really like to work with Cameron long term, and I have a crush on Dylan R okay that is all goodnight.

Cam

so i've been wrestling with the decision on whether or not to tell Dylan C about the idol. 

I still haven't told him. Day 3! Nobody knows but me. that's pretty cool. 

it's pretty quiet around the vote right now? everyone is still asleep i think, and morale is a little low following last night. 

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I didn't submit that before I left for work, rip

Cam, certified short term memory loss haver

Alex was unanimously eliminated.

[certifiablyidiotic]

Acting like a dominant girl on Omegle gets you nowhere.

I'm a cismale and I thought 'Why not act like a woman tonight?' I chose to act like a dominant lesbian and this is the results

!!!EXPLICIT CONTENT WARNING!!!

Stranger: M or f

You: I'm a fucking human. It doesn't matter.

Stranger: Bitch STFU😒

You: I just want a casual chat.

You: Is that too much?

Stranger: No come get sum

Stranger: I'm NOT gay

Stranger: So if this a guy

Stranger: Leave me alone

You: Homophobic, I see.

Stranger: No I'm not

Stranger: That's what I am not

You: You said 'Leave me alone' as if you were afraid of a little homosexuality.

Stranger: I am I don't put myself around that energy

You: So...

Homophobic.

Stranger: Is this a girl if you a girl idc if you say allat but

You: Yeah it is, but what if I'm a lesbian?

Stranger: If you a guy you kinda wierd man

Stranger: That's coo

You: Why would it automatically be weird for a guy to say this, if I may?

Stranger: Wym?

Stranger: Guys shouldn't be talking bout anything gay

You: But girls can?

Stranger: I'm not gay so I don't associate with gay stuff

Stranger: Yes your a girl🤩😂call me whateverrr

You: So you don't support LGBT+ and you shun gay dudes.

That's called Homophobic.

Stranger: But anywayssss😂

Stranger: I'm not homophobic

Stranger: Stop calling me gay girl😭

You: You sure act like it.

You: I'm not calling you gay.

Homophobic is afraid of gays.

Stranger: Ohhhhh

You: Or a hatred for them

Stranger: I don't hate it's just idc to hear bout it

You: And if you do?

Stranger: Wym?

You: You don't care to hear about it.

What happens if you do?

Stranger: Well then I'm tb gay stuff Wich I don't like tbh😐

Stranger: But when a girl tb it it's okay

You: 'tb'?

Stranger: Talking about

Stranger: Wyd tho?

You: Your fragile masculinity is laughable.

You: Would you believe me if I said I'm sucking a dick?

Stranger: Naw

Stranger: Are you

You: No.

Stranger: Why would you ask me then funny af🤣🤣

Stranger: I'm eating sum pussy rn so...

Stranger: 🤣

You: To see if you were as much of a creep as you come-

Yeah... I think I proved my point.

Stranger: I was just kidding calm tf down

Stranger: 😐😐

You: Fragile

Masculinity.

Stranger: Fradgile masculinity?

Stranger: Bitch enough big words we aint in school rn

You: School is for people who want to do something big in life.

All you wanna do is shun me for being smarter than you and shun guys for being gay.

Stranger: No idc if they gay so stop you dumb hoe

You: Then interact with men in the LGBT+ community... 'you dumb hoe'

Stranger: Prolly was sucking dick😂🙄

Stranger: Me nooo

Stranger: Your not getting me to do that who you think you is shorty😭🤣🤣

You: What does dick sucking have to do with you talking to a gay dude?

Stranger: I'm not talking to no gayyy dudeee

You: I have a bigger dick than you.

Stranger: Nada

You: Fragile fucking Masculinity

Stranger: Bitch I will fuck the back off you

You: I hope the fuck you do

Stranger: Arch that back hoe

You: You're either

A.) A perv

or B.) Rocking on fragile masculinity.

You have to choose one.

Stranger: You would be beggin for yo life if I eat that pussy how I wanted😛😈

Stranger: I'm not a perv or I'm not gay so...

Stranger: What color hair you got?

You: Fragile Masculinity means your so self conscious about someone being more 'manly' than you so you act tough around ladies to raise your personality points. And lemme tell ya, it aint workin.

It has nothing to do with being gay.

You: Why does that matter?

I'm never having your babies.

Stranger: Wtf that ain't me I was js I am not gay and keep the gay talk away from me but baby ion know where you got allat at butttt...

Stranger: Bitch I don't want you to have my babies

You: Gay talk-

Were you not fucking listening?

Being a man of fragile masculinity means you have self esteem issues about your manliness.

You: Then why ask?

Stranger: Ik what I am and you ain't about to clown me and tell me who I am you clowning fr baby🤣🤣😭

You: If I am a clown, what will you do?

Stranger: I don't

You: You do.

You: You really do.

Stranger: No I don't ouuu I would fuck the life out youuu

You: You do. Saying shit like "I would fuck the life out of you" proves it.

Stranger: But what you wanna tb

You: I wanna talk about your low self-esteem.

Stranger: Bet it up shorty

You: Or is it that your self-esteem is so high that you're afraid of lil' ol' me?

Stranger: And you must have problems about how you feel about yourself to be judging meee.😁

You: I'm living my best life.

Stranger: Who afraid of you bitch becuas I definitely am tf not

Stranger: Yea

You: Calling someone names in an argument really lowers your personality points.

Stranger: IDGAF 🤣

You: Yeah you do.

Stranger: Personality points🙄

Stranger: Yo ass is evil I like that😏😏

You: Then again, you were already at zero points, so now you're at negative-go-fuck-yourself points.

You: I take pleasure in reading that you like the evil in me.

Stranger: I get off on that😋😏

You: I bet you masturbate to CBT porn

Stranger: Evil is attractive

Stranger: To me

You: Good thing I'm not gonna ever see you in my life.

Stranger: And you got it written all over youuuu🥺😌

Stranger: See evil asl I luvvvv it

Stranger: Keep thinking positive baby

You: Good thing I don't 'luvvvv' you.

Stranger: Oh no that is luv not love

Stranger: Different meanings😘

You: Ah, luv is a pervert's version of love.

Stranger: Prostitute ass bitch stop hateing yo ass is insecure

Stranger: Fr🤣

Stranger: Just talk to me girlll😒

You: If I was a prostitute, I wouldn't be on here.

Secondly, you're insecure for thinking that I'm hating on you.

Stranger: Ik you are hahaha

You: I'm laughing so hard...

Stranger: I'm not thinking ik you are

Stranger: Go head laugh it up

You: You really think I'm laughing at your jokes?

I'm laughing at your insecurites.

You: insecurities*

Stranger: Bitch you pissing me off😒

Stranger: No I am not .

You: Good.

If you want me to stop, then talk to a fucking homosexual, you homophobe.

Stranger: Just talk normal

Stranger: Daum

You: This is my normal talk.

Stranger: Why you gotta constantly be tb sum gay or judging realshit girl if that was regular talk you gotta find better things to tb

Stranger: Wyd rn??

You: Talking to a dumbass.

Stranger: Here you go again bitch😍😂I do kinda luv that lil additude

You: I talk about great things, I just get ticked off when guys think they can treat girls like toys for their sex.

You: You think you can belittle me?

Stranger: Lmao and who is doing that??

You: You're really out here... on some fucking crack or something,

Stranger: Who is belittle you I was gon treat you good like fr b4 you started calling me names and judging you little bitch so don't think shit sweet

Stranger: Wasn't even belittle you but I'ma do it now because you brought it up so...

You: I don't care if you hate me. You're a stranger on the internet who is getting mad for some girl on Omegle.com talking shit.

Stranger: I'm not mad

Stranger: Lmaooo

Stranger: You think you getting to me naww

Stranger: Don't trip

You: I wish that were true.

You're struggling with your fragile masculinity, so you hide behind this persona of bravery and cockiness.

Stranger: Your funny tho fr

You: Learn to spell, numbnuts

Stranger: You were struggling with your masculinity who TF says that shit

You: Me.

Stranger: Your the first person I ever heard say that

You: Because no one else is like me.

Stranger: But shorty I wasn't tryna belittle you I wasn't tryna fuck nun of day I was just tryna make sum friends lmao

You: Well this 'shorty' will not be your friend simply because you have a small penis and you're afraid of me.

Stranger: I'm not afraid of you and my dick ain't small!

You: Prove it.

Stranger: How girl

You: Act like a big dick dude and prove you're not afraid.

Stranger: Girl Ik I'm not scared of youu

Stranger: .🤣

Stranger: I thought you ain't want no dick?

You: Prove you're not scared of me.

Also, I said I didn't want YOUR dick.

Stranger: Come grab this mfka then

You: What is there to grab?

Stranger: Slobber it all down😍

Stranger: Ykyk

You: I can't touch something non-existent.

Stranger: Yeah let's go ahead and play this game🤣

Stranger: Girl yk I got dickk

You: Act like it then.

Stranger: Don't even try to act like you dont.

You: Don't have a dick or don't want your micro-penis?

Stranger: I got dick promise ya girl😘

You: Well, stop calling me 'girl', firstly and then I'll consider believing you.

Stranger: What's your name here I'll treat you better

You: It's fucking Bob. I'm not telling you my name.

Stranger: Wow

Stranger: Girl

Stranger: Evil🥰🥰I luvvv it

You: No. Just staying private.

Stranger: It's okay I'm julian

You: You're very trusting.

Stranger: Thx

You: That's not good.

Stranger: You think I'm trustworthy that what you saying

Stranger: You bi polar huh

You: No. I'm saying you trust people too easily.

Also, no. I'm just blunt.

Stranger: I like it fr tho I think you is bi polar you be getting mad at me for no reasonnn

Stranger: Who said I trust?

You: I'm laughing. I'm not mad.

Stranger: I trust no one🤫

Stranger: Me too

You: What part of Arizona do you live in?

So I can maim you/

You: .*

Stranger: You in phx

You: Why would I tell you that?

Stranger: No I just don't give 2 fucxks what you gon do kill me?😂🙃

Stranger: Aint nobody onnat

You: If that's what it takes to get you to leave this conversation, then yes.

Stranger: If I meet up wit these bitches nun of them gon have me worried nun of them are gon press me

Stranger: .

Stranger: What's your issue nowww😭😭😭🤣

Stranger: You be having me rolling istg🤣

You: Just give up. You aren't going to win this battle. You're an issue and I'm losing brain cells listening to your grammar and incessant rambling.

Stranger: Bitch come suck my dick

Stranger: Idc

Stranger: Idc

You: No, I don't think I will.

Stranger: Thought you wanted dick?

You: Not yours.

Stranger: All you bitched want my dick🤫

You: Your dick is small. I asked you to prove that you even had a penis by acting like it. Are you fucking brainless?

Stranger: I got drug dealer swag baby I can give to fucs what you think bout me

Stranger: 😘

You: Ah, so you give me a reason to get you incarcerated?

Stranger: Bitch we anonymous

You: True, but I have my ways.

Stranger: You don't wanna take it their fr

You: I should probably head out before I become braindead. It wasn't nice talking to you.

Stranger: Like realshit

You: 'Kay, bye~

Stranger: Why you leaving

You: Because you're dumb. Why else?

Stranger: Okay I guess

Stranger: Could've had sum dick girl but...

Stranger: You ain't want nu

You: I'm a lesbian.

You have disconnected