#body to take it up with nick jr

[cherrysnax]

okay goodnight people I hope you will be normal in the morning but I won’t count on it

[cherrycola27]

Till Death?

Summary: You and Rooster promised to love each other until death do you part. You just didn't think it would come so soon.

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Pairing: Rooster x Reader, Hangman x Reader

Warnings: Major Character Death, language, loss of a spouse, PTSD, light smut. 18+ Minors DNI

"It wasn't supposed to go like this," you thought as you watched them lower the casket into the ground.

Almost everyone around you was crying, but you weren't. You knew that the casket was just symbolic. It was an empty wooden box being buried in the earth because they'd never found your husband's body, even after almost two months of searching.

You weren't crying because you knew he wasn't dead. That's what you kept telling yourself. It was the last hope you had, and you needed to cling onto it, if not for yourself, for your unborn child.

You were pulled from your thoughts as Jake presented you with the flag from his casket. You tried to put in a brave face as Maverick held onto you. You and everyone around you were hurting.

You didn't miss the flash of guilt in Jake's eyes. He felt the most responsible for this.

Six weeks ago, the Dagger Squad decided to rent a both for the 4th of July. Jake, being the only member of the crew with a boating license, was driving when the storm came out of nowhere.

He tried his best to save it, but the ship wrecked in the rough waters. The last thing you remember is your husband putting a life vest on you before everything went black.

When you came to the hospital four days later, Maverick and Jake were there. The first thing you asked was if your baby was okay. The second was about your husband.

Neither of the men will forget just how heartbreaking it was hearing you wail his name when they told you he was missing.

They were both there the day the police showed up at your door step a month later telling you he had been declared legally deceased.

You wanted to argue with them, to scream, to cry, to be angry. But, you had to keep it together, the child you were carrying, your son need you.

So here you were, standing and staring at the headstone. You let a few tears slip as you traced the inscription:

Bradley Nicholas Bradshaw

1984- 2020

Loving Son, Husband, Father, and Friend

You had made sure that "Father" had been included because even though Rooster might not ever meet his son in this lifetime, in the four months of your pregnancy that he was there for, he made sure that your son knew he was loved.

In the weeks that followed, your parents would drive the forty-five minutes to check up on you almost every day. If they weren't there, one of Rooster's teammates was. All of them decided to make sure you and Baby Bradshaw were taken care of.

Most of the time, it was Jake or Maverick and Penny checking in on you. Maverick was the closest thing Rooster had to family left, and Jake felt like he owed you. He felt like he was the reason you were barely thirty-one years old and already a widow, a pregnant widow at that.

As time went on, the visits from your parents and even Maverick seemed to be less frequent. Once a week, maybe, but not Jake, he was there at least three times a week.

You tried to tell him it wasn't his fault, but you knew you'd never be able to convince him other wise.

Then, the day you were dreading came, the birth of your son should have been a joyous one, your family was there, your parents holding your hands through it all.

When the nurse laid Bradley Nicholas Bradshaw Jr. on your chest for the first time, you sobbed, a mix of happy and sad tears. You thanked God for your son but cursed him for taking your husband.

You decided to call him Nick. Maybe one day you could call him Bradley, but not right now. After his birth, you asked Jake to be his godfather. You told him that you and Rooster had talked about it when you first found out that you were expecting. Jake cried like a baby when you asked him, but happily accepted.

Three weeks later, Jake found a house for sale a block away from you and bought it. He claimed it was because he had been looking for his own place for a while, but you knew it was because he wanted to keep an eye on you.

Everyone helped you with Baby Nick. They took turns babysitting him if you needed a break. They also made sure you didn't show any signs of postpartum depression, especially after everything you had been through.

You fell in a routine after Nick's birth. Everyone supported you, but Jake seemed to be the most present. The two of you frequently ate dinner together, and there had been several times he'd fallen asleep on your couch instead of making the short walk back to his home.

Everything was going well until Nick was about six months old. You knew waking up today was going to be hard. Today was the one year anniversary of Rooster's "death," and when you rose this morning, it crossed your mind. For the first time, you cared to admit, you accepted that he was gone.

You quickly got yourself and Nick ready to head to the cemetery. You texted the squad to let them know what you were doing and to tell them you wanted to go alone. You knew all of them took the day off today, just in case.

You and Nick spent hours at Bradley's grave talking to him and visiting with him. You laughed and cried as you filled him in on everything he'd missed. Towards the end of your visit, you pulled up one of the stories Rooster had recorded on your iPad when he found out you were pregnant. He filmed them just in case he was deployed during the first year of Nick's life.

You thought he was ridiculous for doing so, but now you were grateful for them. You were thankful Nick would have them to know his father's voice and laugh.

The two of you sat in the grass listening to Rooster read a book about planes when he said it: "DaDa"

Your head snapped down at your son. You thought you were hearing things. But as if on cue, Nick reached out one of his chubby baby hands towards the screen and said it again while looking at Rooster. "DaDa," he cooed.

Your chest felt tight. Sobs threatened to bubble up out of you. You quickly scooped up Nick and your things and bolted to your car. Before driving home, you sent a text to Jake asking him to meet you at your house in fifteen.

Jake met you in your driveway. The second your car was in park, the tears came pouring out. He quickly grabbed Nick out of his car seat and helped you inside. He left you in the living room as he put Nick down for a nap in the nursery.

When he came back out to check on you, you were a whimpering mess.

He pulled you close to him, rocking you and whispering soothing words. "What happened, honey?" He asked you.

"Nick said his first word today. We were there in the cemetery, watching a video that Rooster had recorded, and Nick grabbed the screen and said,'DaDa'. He knew who he was." You sobbed out.

Jake wasn't sure what to say. He just held you until you stopped crying.

That evening, he ordered takeout for the two of you and made sure Nick was fed and changed and ready for bed. Once he put him down, you knew he'd be out for the rest of the night. Nick was a great sleeper.

When he came back into the living room, Jake noticed you had showered and changed onto some sleep clothes.

"Do you want to me leave?" He asked hesitantly.

"Can you stay, maybe just a little while longer?" You asked him.

"Of course." He said, coming to sit by you on the couch. You leaned against him as he slipped his arm around you.

"I'm sorry." You told him. "Sorry for what?" He asked you. "I'm sorry that I lost it today. I'm sure you had better thing to do than take care of me." You tell him.

"Honey, I took the day off just on case you and Nick needed me. You have nothing to be sorry for." Jake assured you.

"Some days are better than others, you know?" You say to him. He nods his head in agreement.

"Like some days, I swear I see him in the grocery store, or I smell his aftershave, or I hear him at the Hard Deck." You explain, sitting up to face Jake.

"And then some days, I lay down at night and realize I haven't thought about him all day. Some days, I think that I'm ready to move on and put myself back out there. I know I wouldn't be doing anything wrong if I did go on a date. I mean, I promised Rooster till death, I just never expected it to be so soon. And on days like that, I feel—I feel guilty. Like I've betrayed him." You finish telling him.

"You can't do that. You can't beat yourself up. Rooster wouldn't want you to wither away in this house. He'd want you to be happy." Jake says, taking your hands in his.

You don't know why, but your heart quickens in your chest.

"I know he would want me to be happy, but what if I can't love anyone again? What if no one ever loves me again? I mean, I'm a thirty-two year old widow with a baby. Who's going to want that?" You tell him.

"Sweetheart, don't be so hard on yourself." Jake says, cupping your face and wiping away a stray tear.

"Any guy would be lucky to date you. You're smart, hard working, beautiful, an amazing mother, and one of the strongest people I know." He tells you earnestly.

You meet his eyes and feel the emerald orbs looking deep into your soul. You can tell he is being truthful, his words sparking joy in your heart, but there's something else there, just behind his smile.

You aren't sure what possessed you to do it, but before either of you can process it, you're in Jake's lap, connecting your lips with his.

His arms wrap around you, one hand splayed across your lower back, the other griping at the base of your neck as you kiss him with fervor.

It's a hot, passionate mix of teeth and tongue.

You can feel him growing harder through the fabric of your sleep shorts and his pants as you grind down on him.

You reach for the hem of his shirt, and that's when his brain finally catches up with him and he pulls away.

"Honey—Honey stop." Jake says pushing you back slightly.

"What's wrong? You ask him, slightly out of breath.

"Honey, I don't want to take advantage of you while you're like this." He tells you, tucking a stray piece of hair being your ear.

"You aren't taking advantage of me." You tell him.

"Jake, please, I want this. I need you." You breathe out.

Before he can think about it too long, Jake's lips are back on yours, and he is picking you up to carry you to your bedroom.

You gasp as he lifts you, giving him a chance to slot his tongue in your mouth.

You're both nearly naked by the time you lays you on your bed. He takes his time with you. Bring you over the edge twice with his mouth and fingers before he even thinks about entering you.

"Honey, I don't have any protection." He says when you try to pull him on top of you.

"I'm on birth control. I have been since Nick was born." You tell him.

He looks back at you, laying on the bed, hair fanned out, body flush. You looked amazing.

Jake's mind was racing. Was he really about to sleep with his dead best friend's wife in the bed Rooster once slept in?

In the back of his mind, the angel on his shoulder told him it was wrong, but the sounds you made when he kissed you and touched you made it feel so right.

Before he could talk himself out of it, Jake slid into you slowly. He cared for you as he passionately made love to you.

He knew that tomorrow you would come to your senses and this would never happen again, so tonight he planned to enjoy every moment of it.

You came with a breathy gasp of his name, something he's sure would haunt his deepest fantasies for years to come.

After he helped clean the two of you up and began to gather his clothes. But you stopped him. "Stay." You muttered, and how could he not.

The next morning, he woke up in a panic, but you soothed him, stating that you didn't regret anything and he didn't either.

He searched your eyes for any indication that you didn't want this, didn't want him.

If he had any sense, he would have run out of there. But the way you were looking at him, he couldn't deny his attraction to you. If he had been stronger, he would have said how wrong this was, but Jake Seresin was a weak man.

He couldn't believe that he was considered dating his wingman's widow. He shouldn't have given in. Temptation always had consequences, but if it meant he could be with you, he was prepared for them, whatever they may be.

Then came the talks of where to go from here. You agreed that whatever you were should say between the two of you for now.

But after two months of being together, you finally told everyone. They were instantly supportive of your blossoming relationship, claiming Rooster would want you to be happy.

Things seemed to finally be looking up for you after so much darkness.

Soon, it was Nick's first birthday. Everyone was there to celebrate him, the house decked out in "TOP ONE" decorations.

You brought the airplane cake you had specially made out for him. Lighting the candle, everyone began to sing before you helped little Nick blow it out and make a wish.

Penny was taking pictures, and you were too distracted to notice that Jake had gotten down on one knee until he tapped your back.

Everyone gasped and smiled, waiting for your answer, but before you could say anything, you were interrupted by the voice of a ghost.

"Hangman, what the fuck is going on here?"

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Good Omens Crowley and Aziraphale Reunited Playlist

In anticipation of Good Omens Season 3, here’s the “Crowley and Aziraphale Reunited and It Feels So Good Playlist.” We know our favorite demon and angel will be reunited. Take heart, have faith, and keep hope. Crowley and Aziraphale will be together again, like chocolate and peanut butter. This is music Maggie and Nina would put together in a playlist for a party celebrating the Crowley and Aziraphale’s relationship. The songs are about friendship and love.

How ever you as a fan define the love they share – eros, philia, or agape - we know Crowley and Aziraphale love each other. In the Good Omens universe, angels and demons are sexless and genderless. However, they can have genders and sex body parts if they want to. They can be sexual, asexual, binary, nonbinary, romantic, aromantic, hetero, homo, bi, pan. They can be any expression of the spectrum of identities and orientations. Above all else, they can love each other.

Maggie, Nina, Aziraphale, and Crowley are going to sing a karaoke version of “That’s What Friends Are For” at the party.

Please enjoy this unashamedly, unapologetically romantic, silly, sentimental, and sugary playlist (with extra cheesy goodness).

See note after list on song the selection process.

Songs include:

“You’re My Best Friend” – Queen

“Let’s Stay Together” – Al Green

“For Once in My Life” – Stevie Wonder

“Reunited” – Peaches and Herb

“Love and Happiness” – Al Green

“Ain’t No Mountain High Enough” – Marvin Gaye and Tammi Terrell

“That’s What Friends Are For” – Dionne Warwick, Elton John, Gladys Knight, and Stevie Wonder

“I Knew You Were Waiting (For Me)” – Aretha Franklin and George Michael

“Can’t Fight this Feeling” – REO Speedwagon

“Time After Time” – Cyndi Lauper

“I’ll Be There” – Mariah Carey and Trey Lorenz version

“I’ll Stand by You” – The Pretenders

“I Say a Little Prayer” – Aretha Franklin

“I Honestly Love You” – Olivia Newton John

“God Only Knows” – The Beach Boys

“Don’t Let Me Down” – The Beatles

“Just the Two of Us” – Grover Washington, Jr., ft. Bill Withers

“Just the Way You Are” – Billy Joel

“Your Song” – Elton John

“How Deep is Your Love” – The Bee Gees

“The Air that I Breathe” – K.D. Lang version

“Time in a Bottle” – Jim Croce

“Up Where We Belong” – Joe Cocker and Jennifer Warnes

“Islands in the Stream” – Dolly Parton and Kenny Rogers

“Endless Love” – Diana Ross and Lionel Richie

“Almost Paradise” – Mike Reno and Ann Wilson

“Leather and Lace” – Stevie Nicks and Don Henley

“Feels Like Home” – Bonnie Raitt

“In Your Eyes” – Peter Gabriel

“I Want to Know What Love Is” – Foreigner

“Never Tear Us Apart” – INXS

“Eternal Flame” – The Bangles

“Heaven is a Place on Earth” – Belinda Carlisle

“Walking on Sunshine” – Katrina and The Waves

“Never Gonna Give You Up” – Rick Astley

“Everlasting Love” – U2 version

“[I Can’t Help] Falling in Love with You” – UB40 version

“Let’s Get It On” – Marvin Gaye

P.S.: Aziraphale secretly loves romantic duets and rock ballads. He wouldn’t admit it because his personality is classical music. However, he longs to sing karaoke duets with Crowley. “Reunited,” “Ain’t No Mountain High Enough,” “I Knew You Were Waiting (For Me),” “I’ll Be There,” “Don’t Let Me Down,” “Up Where We Belong,” “Islands in the Stream,” “Endless Love,” “Almost Paradise,” and “Leather and Lace.”

P.P.S.: “Never Gonna Give You Up.” Crowley unironically loves this song, but he invented “Rickrolling,” so Rick Astley would get paid more in song royalties. Who’s laughing now?

P.P.P.S.: “Let’s Get It On.” Crowley has experienced all the infinite varieties of human, demonic, angelic, and supernatural being sexuality and intimacy. Like various “sins” thought up by humans (without demonic influence), he has taken credit for inventing some of the more fun, creative intimate activities. He consulted on the artwork in the Kama Sutra. Crowley secretly wants to snuggle under the blankets with Aziraphale on cold rainy days, but he would never admit it because it would ruin his reputation.

Note on song selection:

Yes, the playlist is exclusively classic pop and rock songs. I’m a Gen Xer. David Tennant and Michael Sheen are Gen Xers. Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett are Boomers. This is the music I grew up listening to. These songs make me feel good. They don’t write songs like this anymore. I’m a cool college English teacher. My job is to corrupt the youth of the nation. Ms. Myers is going to expose you to culture. I’m a cool spinster aunt. Auntie Amy is gonna learn you about oldies music. I selected songs that thematically fit with the relationship between Aziraphale and Crowley. Listen to the lyrics. They fit. The list flows. You may not like my choices, so your mileage may vary. You can make your own playlist.

You can listen to it on YouTube.

[risetherivermoon]

because i have a lot of headcanons to do with the kiddads given they are npcs that we dont tend to get much information on, especially in season 2, heres a shit load more! a lot of these are sad because these guys make me sad

- Sparrow starts wearing glasses in Middle School a little after they get back from Faerun, Terry Jr. starts wearing glasses when he gets to his 30's, and Grant started wearing glasses when he was in Elementary school

- When Nicholas starts to remember stuff from the Nick timeline, (basically 'becoming' Nicky if you will) scars he'd gotten from stuff in that timeline start showing up on his body, notably one is a burn scar on one of his hands from him spilling acid on it in s1 ep 34

- Lark has very scarred hands from when he was buried in the rubble in Neverwinter, though his mobility stayed relatively the same because of how quickly the wounds were healed, there was a lot of left behind scar tissue

- Sparrow has a scar across his mouth from when he was latched onto Boreanaz by his teeth when the pyramid fell

- Grant takes video games way too seriously and has in fact made his friends cry over it (Most specifically Sparrow and TJ)

- Terry didn't tell any of the other kiddads how he was going to die, just that he knew how

- Terry also knew Grant was going to be the one to kill him, but he never mentioned it, Grant was very confused on why all of a sudden TJ was becoming distant

- And he found out how he was going to die before he met Veronica, so when he met Scary he almost debated not marrying Veronica, not because he thought it would prevent his death but because he wanted to spare Scary of that pain

- Lark is incredibly confused like half the time (with basically anything) and to cover it up he usually acts stoic and tough

- Nicky is the type of person to do anything if someone phrases it like "bet you wont do *insert thing here*" no matter what it is

- Sparrow has a ton of tattoos that Nicky did for him

- Lark is colorblind but hasn't told anyone because he's too embarrassed to admit it

- For Grant and Marco's one year anniversary the kiddads all got them Titanic themed gifts, (Nicky got them sixteen dvd copies of the movie, they dont own a dvd player)

- Terry was Nicky's best man at his wedding, and Nicky was going to be Terry's best man but the betrayal happened before Terry even met Veronica,

- to add onto the angst none of the kiddads attended the wedding because it was after code purple and after they'd decided not to be involved in eachother's personal lives outside of D.A.D.D.I.E.S.

- to make this at least a little funny Veronica just doesn't think Terry has any friends-

- On the topic of weddings, Lark got so drunk at Sparrow's wedding that for his best man speech he just started reciting the Declaration of Independence (he opened the wrong tab on his phone and didnt notice)

- Grant has claustrophobia (from being inside the chimera)

- Lark used to be way better at pretending to be Sparrow but now he lacks too much spirit and gives up way too quickly for it to be convincing to most people

- Terry Jr. is extremely gullible and is usually the one Nicky would prank and trick the most just because literally everything works on him

- Nicky activated the sprinkler system at D.A.D.D.I.E.S. so much they took it out

- Terry used to talk to Jerry the Whale like he was his therapist

- Nicky would take a bunch of polaroids of the other kiddads all the time, he kept a photo album at his desk at D.A.D.D.I.E.S., it still sits there because none of the kiddads had the heart to clean it out

- Terry had beef with Darryl for a while as a teenager, for literally no reason (it was probably because he still had a lot of emotions and didn't no where to put them so he decided to just hate on his friend's dad)

[hellishgayliath]

Pico Facts

⦁ He/him ⦁ Likes to garden ⦁ Doesn't know how to read ⦁ Not tech savvy ⦁ Knows they have Donnie's robots to help run the place and do a lot of the heavy lifting, but Pico would rather do the manual labor himself instead of relying on tech to do everything for him ⦁ They and Todd start a support dog service at the sanctuary to help yokai and mutants after the events of the movie ⦁ Just like Todd, he's stingy when it comes to sharing food, touch his food and you might lose a finger ⦁ Todd's too nice to harbor any ill will towards anybody so Pico's the one who does it for him instead ⦁ Dislikes Mikey the most becuz he ditched Todd to hang with meat sweats, Mikey is shocked and tries to get on their good side but it's not that easy ⦁ Mikey had also almost started a forest fire once with his kusari fundo when he was trying to show off his mad skills and that definitely didn't sit well with Pico ⦁ Tolerates Donnie cuz he's the one that regularly comes by to do maintenance checks on the park: emphasis on tolerate

• Doesn't know how he fully feels about Leo yet, but he knows he just has an annoying sense of air to him ⦁ Out of all of the turtles, he likes Raphael the most ⦁ He and Raph consider themselves both protectors of their family and being the bigger brother ⦁ You can only pet him if you have their permission ⦁ Can communicate with other animals (is it a curse or blessing tho) ⦁ Helps Casey Jr get an emotional support dog ⦁ Still has his regular opossum family of his mother and little siblings (8) ⦁ Donnie points out to him that because Pico's a mutant, will probably have a longer lifespan and will most likely outlive his opossum family since opossums have a life expectancy of 2-3 years. Pico is mortified ⦁ Misses the feeling of being able to hang on his mother's back before he was mutated ⦁ Immune to venom ⦁ Good climber ⦁ If you scare him he'll freeze up and fall over just like how a opossum plays dead, just imagine those goats that do that too

Him and Todd try to be peace keepers whenever his uncles Warren n Hypno and the turtles are around together because they did help jumpstart the invasion even if they didn't understand the full implications of their actions at the time

Gets kraangified early on in the invasion; its a sore topic for future Todd to bring up, f!leo is the one that had to put him down

When he gets infected, he keeps it to himself and leaves whatever base they're taking refuge in when everyone's sleeping, while also leaving behind his golden ring necklace by Todd's bedside

Becomes a laid back but responsible scout leader and takes over the sanctuary in the good future timeline

Loves the smell of cinnamon and raspberries

Likes peanut butter

Likes chin scratches

Only Todd is allowed to pet his head

Hates poachers

Got his right ear caught in a beartrap pre mutation, Todd took him in and tended to his wound (which is why it's nicked like that)

Falls out of a tree immediately after he eats a oozesquito and mutates (the branch couldn't support his weight) and gains a head injury, so he goes to the only other being in the woods that he knows can help him, which is Todd

Relied on making pictures with paint until he was able to speak

Is clingy by his opossum nature

His ring necklace has his named engraved on it (twas a gift from Todd since he is technically a blacksmith)

His voice would be Dipper Pines from Gravity Falls

Deals with body dysmorphia/dysphoria

Birthday is March 10th

Mutation Day is October 17th

Friends with Sunita since Todd brings him with him to Hueso's regularly(since he's his favourite customer), their friendship also works because there's a lot about the human world that they don't know enough about and can experience and explore together (plus it just sounds super cute)

Also finds her super cool cuz she and April got to kick meatsweats' behind

Has beef with a raccoon stealing food from him in the past premutation and after mutation, raccoons and opossums supposedly have a sibling kind of relationship/rivalry

[huntsvillehq]

The last day of the Faire, the sky was overcast, with rumbles of thunder in the far distance. As Mayor Nat stepped up to the podium set up in front of town hall, a small crowd gathered to hear the announcement. She proceeded to declare Pandora Flowers as the winner of the costume contest, and withdrew the sword to present to the winner of the tournament, Morgan Vovk.

Before she could, though, Quinn Buckley from the commune ran up on stage and grabbed the microphone from the podium.

“Listen! You have to listen. This, all of this, is because of a being far greater than us! It sent the creatures from the woods to test us! To separate the weak from the strong. It judges us because it wants us to be ready before it reveals itself. We have to listen! We have to—“

Sheriff Henry attempted to take the microphone from her, but she struggled against him, still shouting into the microphone.

“It’s real! I felt its presence! Those that listen will be saved!”

Thunder rumbled, closer than before, much closer. A loud crack of lightning illuminated the sky, blindingly bright. Beyond the clouds, briefly visible in that split second, loomed a shape, unrecognizable and massive, both bulbous and gangly. As quickly as it appeared it was gone, and what remained was the sizzling body of Tristan Wilde, struck by the lightning. The sky opened up, then, as thunder boomed directly above, and rain and hail pelted the town.

“It’s there! You all saw it! It’s real! We have to submit!” Quinn wailed, as Henry attempted to pull her off the stage. “I can prove it! I can walk amongst them untouched! I’ve been chosen! You can be chosen too!”

Her cries fell away in the deafening downpour, and those that had gathered scattered to find shelter in the nearest buildings. Whether or not they saw something or, if they did, if they believe what they saw, remains to be seen.

The storm raged on through the night, as the creatures wandered the streets unperturbed by the rain and hail. The lights of the town flickered and then, as lightning staggered across the sky, everything went dark.

(Those that ran to find shelter found themselves stuck for the night. Below you’ll find the (randomly selected) groups. You can choose for your characters to have seen the shape in the sky, to have not seen it, or to have seen it and not believe it.

Everyone can continue/finish their event threads, as all this took place on the final day of the Faire (the 29th). You may also time-jump threads, headcanon threads, or make new threads for the plot drop. The event officially ends on August 5th, at which time please do not make any more event starters, however you can continue all threads until completion.)

Town Hall

Aslan “Dodger” Ozdemir Bocephus “Beau” Romero Birdie Tilton Cain Barlowe Eagan Connolly Emma “Em” Dunford Evangeline Cruz Falco Romero Fletcher Cole Helena Theriot Hex Sif-Sidon Jessica Sinclair Kirby Louis Ryan Nickleby “Nick” Dalton Ocean Quinn Odette Abbott Olivia Hart Poppy Sarasa Prudence “Pru” Wheaton Ransome “Rance” Slade Saffron Aubert Scout Garcia Sierra Nevada Starlynn Flowers

Fire Station

Absinthe Capone Arachne Arthur “Arty” Drake Conrad Greene Corvin Delancey DJ Cruz-Dutton Harlow Cole Hawthorne “Hawk” Romero Izan Castillo Katarina “Rini” Roberts Lachlan Ramirez Logan Ferguson Lorcan Hara Luciana “Lucy” Rivera Mercy Wainwright Pandora “Andy” Flowers Phoenix Romero-Sawyer Rainn Scott Reggie Alson Ricardo Reider Ruben Hobbes Samantha “Sammie” Thompson Sebastian Keane Tae-Hyun Cho Theodore “Teddy” Collins Zain Madan

Police Station

Andrew Richardson Antonio “Toni” Estrada, Jr. Celia Ortega Elijah Atkins Emrys Rosser Finn Cunningham Halley McGillivray Hunter Hilton Jahi Karim Jane Doe Jareth Reid Kestrel Sideris Lincoln Abernathy Luke Matthews Mateo Suarez Morgan Vovk Pascal Mendoza Quinn Buckley Salem Salazar Vincent Lewis Violet Beauregarde William Monroe Wolf Lykaios Zachary Ryan Zarina West

Huntsville Bank

Alexander “Xander” Garcia Cabell “Cab” McCay Cassius Romero Catherine Wayne Christopher Winters Briana Ryan Dahlia Cruz-Dutton Frances “Frankie” Wallace Gabriel “G” Westfall Genesis “Sissy” Boone Harvey Langston Josie Reigh Mallard “Duck” Romero Mason Greene Maya Rae Mylene Karimi Raj Aiyangar Raphael Knightley Riley Saunders Sandra Quispe Sare Holmes Sasha Medvedev Spencer Holmes Valeria “Val” Moreno Wylie Bateman

Post Office

Avery Cowling Benjamin Cade Bowie Bardot Bram Williams Carter Behrens Cassandra “Cassie” Slade Eilana Kapur Freya Atkins Guillermo “Mo” Reyes Jasmine “Minnie” Sinclair Lennon Davies Leo Brockton Liam Jefferson Matthew Walker Mia Vazquez Monet Vogel Nathaniel Dawson Ondine Konar Paloma Ortiz Reed Hendrix Silas “Cyan” Canne Tari Park Wren Romero Xavier Cade Zoë Clark

Huntsville Library

Artemis Hayes Axel Addams Calloway “Cal” de la Luna Casey Nestor Claire Forbes Clara Jones Finch Sanders Floyd Blackward Hank McGillivray Iniya Beckett Ivy Oberon James “Jamie” Brennan Jeconiah “Jack” Abbott Jett Liu Kieran “KB” Barnes Michael “Mikey” Beauregarde Nicolas Garcia Parker Russo Peter “Rusty” Craven Peyton Wilson Reza Kogoya Roman Forest Rosemary “Rose” Felton Sicilia “Lia” Flowers Tamaraa Jillian “Jill” Adler

[popentertainment-moviereviews]

THE EXORCIST: BELIEVER (2023)

Starring Leslie Odom, Jr., Ann Dowd, Jennifer Nettles, Norbert Leo Butz, Lidya Jewett, Olivia Marcum, Ellen Burstyn, Okwui Okpokwasili, Raphael Sbarge, E.J. Bonilla, Antoni Corone, Danny McCarthy, Norah Murphy, Chandu Kanuri, Richard Carr III, Malena Cunningham Anderson, Emily Rachel Gordon, Linda Boston, Nick Benas and Linda Blair.

Screenplay by Peter Sattler and David Gordon Green.

Directed by David Gordon Green.

Distributed by Universal Pictures. 121 minutes. Rated R.

David Gordon Green and Danny McBride have spent the last few years briefly rejuvenating and then quickly continuing to sully the legacy of the popular horror film franchise Halloween. And let’s face it, multiple sequels and reboots had done enough harm to the series’ reputation even before Green and McBride got their hands on the IP, but Halloween Kills and Halloween Ends were just as bad as any of the multiple terrible earlier sequels.

Now they have moved on to take on another legendary horror franchise, one which also had a terrific first film followed by some horrifically bad sequels. (The Exorcist II: The Heretic, anyone?) However, the original 1973 The Exorcist was a revelation at the time. People in the audiences at the time were passing out in the aisles from horror. But the world has changed a lot over the years, and what was shocking in 1973 is not necessarily going to be so extraordinary 50 years later. The new filmmakers are looking to make a trilogy of this new reboot. Let’s hope they do a better job this time around.

From the evidence of The Exorcist: Believer, whether or not that is going to happen is… maybe? But they will have to work harder than this.

The Exorcist: Believer has some scary parts and some interesting philosophical and religious viewpoints, but sitting through it you mostly feel: what’s really the point of this?

Sort of like the Halloween films, they are somewhat trying to deconstruct horror tropes – and I guess that’s a good thing. Also like the Halloween series, The Exorcist: Believer basically completely ignores the existence of all the other movies in the series other than the classic original film. That should only be a good thing.

So why doesn’t it really work?

The story is basically a stand-alone storyline, although for the fans the movie brings back the original star Ellen Burstyn – still radiant and vibrant at 90 years old. Sadly, it seems a bit of a waste to bring Burstyn back – and believe me, when she is on screen, she is phenomenal, the best part of this movie – only to quickly… umm… mostly sideline her.

Instead, Believer tells the story of two young teen southern girls (Lidya Jewett and Olivia Marcum) who disappear for three days, and when they come back, they are acting increasingly odd. Eventually it is decided that during their three lost days, a demon must have possessed them. (It is never exactly explained how a demon can be in two different bodies at once – I’m no expert, is that really a thing?) Of course, two girls mean twice the cursing, twice the scary phenomena, twice the worried parents. It also sets up a “Sophie’s choice” that the demon eventually torments the parents with.

Interestingly, this exorcism is somewhat removed from religion. The Catholic church refuses to cooperate with the exorcism (seeing a PR disaster in the waiting), although one priest (EJ Bonilla) briefly helps out after the others are well into process of the exorcism, to extremely negligible effect.

Instead, the ritual is handled by the parents (a church-going couple [Jennifer Nettles and Norbert Leo Butz] and a faith-challenged dad [Leslie Odom Jr.]), a local preacher, and a once aspiring nun who has been working for decades as a nurse (Ann Dowd).

One of the big problems, I suppose, is that unless you are very into the religious aspects of the thing – and perhaps even if you are a total true believer – an exorcism is a strange and totally inhumane procedure. It’s chaotic, clunky, and brutal, and sadly this filmed approximation of an exorcism makes the movie share those traits.

It’s too bad, because the new film does try exploring some interesting themes – family dynamics, faith (and the lack thereof), guilt, community and missed opportunities. Sadly, the ugly and frenzied climax overshadows what little intrigue the filmmakers have stirred up. And frankly the ending feels unfinished, like Believer is the first act of a three-act play, which for better or worse, it is.

Jay S. Jacobs

Copyright ©2023 PopEntertainment.com. All rights reserved. Posted: October 5, 2023.

[thoraway125]

almost every song Sara Quin has recommended

A Playlist

AFI

A Flock Of Seagulls- I Ran

Again Me!- Boyfriend

AHOHNI- Drone Bomb Me

Alex Lahey- You Don’t Think You Like People Like Me

Allison Crutchfield- Dean’s Room

Allison Weiss- Runaway

All Of This- Perera Elsewhere

ALMA- Chasing Heights

Alvvays

Alycia Keys- Try Sleeping with A Broken Heart

Ani DiFranco

Annie Lennox

An Horse

Animal Collective - Merriweather Post Pavilion  

Bangles

ASTR- Operate

Atari Teenage Riot

A Tribe Called Red- R.E.D

Austra- I Love You More Than You Love Yourself Babes in Toyland

Bancks- Gemini Feed

Baths

Baybee- Jay Som

Beach House- Sparks, Lemon Glow

Bebe Rexha- Meant to Be

Bec Sandridge- In the Fog, in the Flame

Ben Folds

Betty Who- You Can Cry Tomorrow

Beyonce- Lemonade

Bikini Kill

Billy Idol- Mony Mony 

Bleached- Wednesday Night Melody, Can You Deal?, Flipside

Bleachers- Don’t Take The Money

BLK- My Hood - Stormzy

Blood Orange- You're Not Good Enough, It Is What It Is 

Bob Marley

Body- Julia Jacklin 

Bone thugs and Harmony

Bon Jovi- wanted dead or alive, you give love a bad name 

Bowie

Britta Phillips- Mistress America

Broken Social Scene- Hug of Thunder, Almost Crimes Bruce Springsteen- Im on Fire, Dancing in the Dark, The River, Live 1975-85 (this particular version https://youtu.be/gg3DleXrT-o) Bryan Adams

Bjork- I've seen it all 

Buck 65- Square Two

Cake

Carrie Brownstein

Caribou- Can’t Do Without You

Cassie- Me & U

Chairlift- Romeo

Charli XCX- Track 10

Charlotte Day Wilson- Work

Chloe x Halle0 Drop

Christine and The Queens- iT, Saint Claude 

Chris Walla

CHVRCHES

Classixx- Borderline

City and Colour

Cold Specks

Collide- Krasnoyarsk

Corey Hart- Sunglasses At Night

Couer de Pirate

Cyndi Lauper- The Goonies Are Good Enough, Time After Time

Cypress Hill

Dallas Green

Death Cab for Cutie 

Debbie Wiseman- Wolf Hall

DEDE- Faultline (Single Edit)

Deradoorian- A Beautiful Woman

DIANA- Confession, Perpetual Surrender

Dinosaur Jr

DJDS- Trees On Fire

Dolly Parton

Doveman

Drake- No Tellin Dream- Love/Hate

Diana- Perpetual Surrender

Electrelane - Rock It to the Moon, no shouts no calls

Empress Of- How Do You DO It

Emylia Argan

Erasure

Eugene Francis Jnr

Everything but the Girl

Fatima Al Qadiri- Hip Hop Spa, Szechuan

Feist- Pleasure album

Fever Ray- Mustn’t Hurry

First Aid Kit

FKA Twigs- Good To Love

Four Tet

Francis and the Lights- May I Have This Dance

Frankie Cosmos- Sinister, Accommodation 

Frank Ocean Thinking About You

Friends- I'm His Girl 

FUN Fugazi

Future Islands- Ran

George Hill

Gilligan Moss- It Felt Right

Girlpool- Chinatown

Glass Animals

Gogol Bordello 

Gossip

Green Day

Grimes- Flesh Without Blood

Grizzly Bear

HAIM- Want You Back

Halsey- Now Or Never

HANA

Hank Williams

Hannah Georgas- Don’t Go, Needed Me

Hayley Kiyoko- Girls Like Girls

Hole

Holly Miranda

Hot Hot Heat

IDER- Face On

Jack Johnson

James Ilha

Jamie xx- Girl

Japanese Breakfast- Machinist

Jeremih- Pass Dat

Joanna Newsom - Have One On Me 

John Hopkins- I remember

Johnny Cash

Joni Mitchell

John Hopkins- Abandon Window, I remember

Jonathan Coulton

Justin Bieber- Purpose, Runaway Love Justin Timberlake-  FutureSex/LoveSounds Kaki King

Kate Bush

Katy Perry- Chained To The Rhythm

Kathryn Bostic- Love Theme

Kelela- Rewind- Sporting Life Remix

Kieran Hebden & Steve Reid - The Exchange Session, Vol. 2

Kelly Lee Owens- Birds

K.Flay- Black Wave

Kid Cudi- The Commander

Kieran Hebden & Steve Reid - The Exchange Session, Vol. 2

Kimya Dawson- So Nice So Smart

Kinnie Starr

Korn

KraftWork

KT Tunstall- Hard Girls

Kygo- It Ain’t Me (with Selena Gomez)

Kylie Minogue

Lapsley- Hurt Me

LCD Soundsystem- Tonite

Leonard Cohen- Came So Far For Beauty

Leo Kalyan- Fucked Up

Led Zeppelin

Light Asylum- Shallow Tears

Lily Allen 

Lorde- Green Light

Lou Reed- Satellite of Love

Lowell

Lower Dens- To Die in LA, Real Thing

Lucius- My Heart Got Caught On Your Sleeve 

Lupa J- Numb

Neil Young

New Found Glory

New Kids on the Block

New Order

New Skin- Torres

No Shouts No Calls

Nick Jonas- Jealous

Nicolas Jaar- No

Night Terrors

Nirvana

Noname 

Nothing to be Frightened of by Julian Barnes

Now Now

Madonna- Holiday

Majid Jordan (ft Drake)- My Love

Mapei- Don’t Wait

Mariah Carey

Matthew Dear

Melissa Etheridge

Mica Levi- Death

Michelle Branch- Hopeless Romantic

Mike Elizondo

Milli Vanilli - Blame It On the Rain

Miriam Culter- Ethel Main Title

Mitski

Montaigne- Because I Love You

Moonriser- I’m Not Something Special

Moses Sumney- Doomed

Mother Mother

MUNA- Winterbreak, I Know A Place, About You album

Mykki Blanco- Loner

My Bloody Valentine

My Midnight Heart

My So Called Life

Paramore- After Laughter, Told You So

Passion Pit

Paul Williams

Peaches

Porches- Anymore, Be Apart

Partner Band- In Search of Lost Time

Patsy Cline

Pattern Against User 

Perera Elsewhere- All of This

Perfume Genius- Slip Away

Phantogram- Answer 

Pheonix- J-Boy

Phil Collins- Groovy Kind of Love

Post Pavillon

Prince- I Could Never Take the Place of Your Man, Little Red  Corvette

PWR BTTM- I Wanna Boi

Q Tip

Rachel Cantu

Rachel Portman- Vianne Sets Up Shop

Ra Ra Riot

RAY BLK- My Hood

REM- Sweetness

Ria Mae- Ooh Love

Richard Marx- Right here waiting

Rihanna- Russian Roulette, Umbrella, Higher, Love On The Brain

Robyn- Do it Again, Love is free (moon boots remix) 

Rolling Stones

Röysksopp- Something in my Heart

Rufus Wainwright

Ruth B- If This is Love Ryan Adams

Santigold

Samphaaa- Process Album 

Sample- Blood on Me

Shamir- If It Wasn’t True 

Sharon Van Etten- Everytime The Sun Comes Up

Serena Ryder- Electric Love

Shondells

Shura- What’s It Gonna Be?

Simple Minds- All The Things She Said

Sinead O’Connor

Siya- Automatic

Smashing Pumpkins- Siamese Dream

Snailmail- Thinning

SNAP!- Rhythm Is A Dancer - 7” Edit

SOHN- Hard Liquor

Solange- Mad

Spoon- They Way We Get By

Speak

Steel Train

Stereogum

Stevie Nicks

St. Vincent, Actor

Supertramp

Supreme

Taylor Swift- 1989

Teenage Fanclub

The Bangles

The Beaches

The Black Keys

The Courtneys

The Cranberries- Dreams on My So Called Life

The Dream- Love Hate, Love vs Money

The Enemy- Bigger Cages, Longer Chains 

The Jezabels- Hurt Me

The Killers

The Lemon Twigs

The New Pornographers

Theophilus London

The Pretenders- 500 Miles The Police- Roxanne- I Could Never Take the Place of Your Man, Little Red Corvette The Ramones

The Reason

The Regrettes- Hey Now

The Rentals- The Man With Two Brains

The Replacements

The Smiths

The White Stripes

The xx- xx (2009), Say Something Loving

Thingamajig- Miya Folick 

Tracy Chapman- Fast Car

Tom Petty

Tom Cochrane

Tony Bennet

Too Attached 

Torres

Tove Styrke- Say My Name

Tragically Hip

Tribe Called Quest

U2 - Who's Gonna Ride Your Wild Horse

Us- Empress of

Vagabon- Fear & Force

Vector Xing- Bubble King

Vanbot- Collide, Krasnoyarsk, Not That Kind, Moscow Veckatimest Vivek Shraya- Part Time Woman

VHS or Beta

Violent Femmes 

Warpaint- Whiteout

Waters

Waxahatchee- Silver

Weavves

Weezer

When I’m with Him- Empress of

White Lung- Hungry. Kiss Me When I Bleed

Whitney houston- I look to you, million dollar bill, I will always love you

Wrabel- Bloodstain

Yaeji 

Yeah Yeah Yeahs

[wherewhereare]

GWEN STEFANI

Singer/ Songwriter

Gwen Stefani is an American singer, songwriter, fashion designer, coach on The Voice and founder of GXVE Beauty. A three-time GRAMMY® Award winner, Gwen Stefani has achieved global success as a performer, songwriter, front-woman for iconic rock band No Doubt, and multi-platinum solo artist.

In addition to her three GRAMMY® Awards, Stefani’s honors include four MTV Video Music Awards, two Billboard Awards, an American Music Award, and a Brit Award. In 2014, she channeled her tremendous musical passion into empowering young singers as their coach on the seventh season of NBC’s musical competition series “The Voice.”

One of pop culture’s most magnetic style icons, Gwen Stefani has also emerged as the first global celebrity artist to translate music stardom into a series of massively successful lifestyle brands. Through her fashion line L.A.M.B., its sister label Harajuku Lovers, and her eyewear line gx by Gwen Stefani, the designer and entrepreneur has brilliantly merged modern glamour with fashion-forward streetwear. With over $1 billion in retail sales across all brands to date, she recently took the helm as co-creator and executive producer of “Kuu Kuu Harajuku”: a children’s animated TV show on Nick Jr., fulfilling Stefani’s mission of providing young girls with content that celebrates creativity, imagination, and fearless individuality.

_______________

Presenting The Matrix Award to Gwen Stefani

BLAKE SHELTON

Singer and Television Personality

“All I ever wanted to do is sing country music,” says the man who recently celebrated his 20th year of making records. 

As country music’s unapologetic ambassador, Blake Shelton has spent two decades pouring out boot-stomping bangers, heartbreak anthems and endearing odes to love gone wrong and right.  “My history has been constantly evolving from one album to the next,” Shelton explains. “I always try to push it just far enough to keep myself and my fans interested, but not so far that they don’t hear anything on the record that brings them right back home to what they expect from me.” 

Shelton takes that same spirit to work on everything he does including NBC’s four-time Emmy Award-winning musical competition series “The Voice” where he has coached  eight champions. The Voice recently kicked-off its 22nd season. 

Shelton has a championship career of his own and is still setting the mark in country music. His new single “No Body” is fast climbing the charts now. Over the span of his career Shelton has earned 28 No. 1 country singles including the chart-topping song “Happy Anywhere,” which features multi-season “The Voice” coach, rock star and wife, Gwen Stefani. It’s their second consecutive No. 1 single. 

 With 52 million singles and 13 million albums sold and nearly 11 Billion Global Streams, Shelton has received numerous awards, including six ACMs, three AMAs, 10 CMAs, 11 CMTs and six People’s Choice, among many others. He and Voice colleague Carson Daly recently announced they have teamed to executive produce and star in a new celebrity game show, Barmageddon, to air on USA Network. This spring Shelton will return to the road with his “Back To The Honky Tonk” Tour which kicks off Feb. 16 in Lincoln, NE. 

 Shelton was born, raised and currently lives in Oklahoma, where he has strong community ties. He recently donated $200,000 to the Regional Food Bank of Oklahoma. In response to the devastating tornadoes of 2013, Shelton and NBC teamed up on the telethon “Healing in the Heartland: Relief Benefit Concert.” With the help of Reba McEntire, Usher, Rascal Flatts, Vince Gill and Ryan Tedder of OneRepublic, the telethon raised more than $6 million for United Way of Central Oklahoma. He has donated $500,000 to the Jimmy Everest Center, an Oklahoma University hospital for children with blood cancer and blood disorders. 

In association with Ryman Hospitality Properties, the Grand Ole Opry member has opened a string of entertainment-themed restaurants and bars called Ole Red. The first venue opened in 2017 in his hometown of Tishomingo, Oklahoma. He now has venues in Nashville, TN, Gatlinburg TN, Orlando,FL and coming in 2023, Las Vegas,  

Earlier this month Land’s End, a classic American lifestyle brand, and Shelton, announced a fall and holiday collection – Blake Shelton x Lands’ End. The collaboration offers apparel for every member of the family – pets included! – as well as items for the home, grounding itself in familiarity, utility and comfort with nods to passions close to Shelton’s heart. 

[more-than-a-watch-music]

Kolyskova - Valya Levchenko

@vale.levchenko

All proceeds from music platforms will go to @helpinmukachevo foundation - shelter for Ukrainian orphans from the war zone

Spotify link

What We Could Have Been - Sting, Ray Chen

My most devastating song…and my current answer to the searching question of pt 1

…justice, hope, love…really?

Spotify link

I am the monster you created

You ripped out all my parts

And worst of all, for me to live, I gotta kill the part of me that saw

And I needed you more

I hope you know we had everything

When you broke me and left these pieces

I want you to hurt like you hurt me today and

I want you to lose like I lose when I play

What could have been

Why don’t you love who I am?

What we could have been

I am your ghost, a fallen angel

You ripped out all my parts

I couldn’t care what invention you made me

‘Cause I, I was meant to be yours

Full song in profile

(Arcane - amazing animated series on Netflix. This is the final song of series 1) Could Have Been - Sting, Ray Chen

Lonesome Tears - Beck

god, and cancer, and paralysis, and mind-numbing fear…pt 2

Still waiting for the Justice, and Hope, and Love

I suspect you know the struggle in your own ache and suffering to glimpse the above…it’s hard

Lonesome tears

I can't cry them anymore

I can't think of what they're for

Oh they ruin me every time

But I'll try

To leave behind some days

These tears just can't erase

I don't need them anymore

How could this love

Ever turning

Never turn its eye on me

How could this love

Ever changing

Never change the way I feel

Lazy sun

Your eyes catch the light

With promises that might

Come true for awhile

Oh I'll ride

Farther than I should

Harder than I could

Just to meet you there

If You Want Me - Röyksopp

God, and Cancer, and Paralysis, and Mind-Numbing Fear…pt 1

The topics of ‘theós’ (god), immanent agency, Nick Cave’s ‘I don’t believe in an interventionist God’ (from ‘Into My Arms’), and all sorts of other stuff, have raised their heads for me since I was about 9/10yo. I was brought up in a ‘belief’ in an interventionist God, and that has shaped me for good or for ill. Yet ‘belief’ doesn’t cut it for me now - either for nor against (G)god.

I guess I am something of an ‘experientialist’ by disposition, experience, and practice. And I don’t have any answers or experiences of the god question (sigh of relief - no preachy moments!). Yet my body’s in pain, and I’m scared. And I find I’m still out there searching, although my stamina is rapidly waning.

These songs over the next 3-part series are me crying out for justice, and hope, and love.

And if you don’t resonate with this at all, they’re still cool songs!

Spotify link

The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face - Roberta Flack

…purity…Just…purity

We begin the last of the ‘After Dark’ series.

…late night (exquisite) tunes…drink and a watch…cosy outfit

Spotify link

Unforgettable - Nat King Cole

Those who are far, and unforgettable, I wish you were near.

This song is for you

…late night tunes…drink and Tudor watch…cosy outfits

Spotify link

Lay it Down - Al Green

Relax and unwind - a new series begins!

“Now, here, you see, it takes all the running you can do, to keep in the same place, if you want to get somewhere else, you must run at least twice as fast as that!

- Stop.

- Lay It Down…Let it Go…Fall in Love

Spotify link

Sigur Rós - Svo hljótt

Sigur Rós didn’t play this song at the concert, but it spoke to me over the week. Hope is a deeply human thing, carrying burdens and hurts and reshaping them…if left in the right hands they spur on discovery of Life. This song is about my Hope

Spotify link

So quiet

I leaned on you, in silence

All remained still, and you

You sang to me, so quietly

You sang to me, so quietly

In the moonlight I can see you lying face down

In the moonlight you become blue twilight

So I thank you for the hope you gave

So I thank you for hope ...

Harry Conick jr - Come by Me

This song should be your Monday morning coffee. And I think it suits the suit outfit theme (2 suits to go). I really really miss playing the piano - I’m sick of all this bittersweet

https://open.spotify.com/track/6VyJaIhHbPYLf5R24IUf3h?si=gZU_N4ANS9uTlaOI99-jkw

https://tidal.com/track/177947

Billie Holiday - Willow Weep for Me

This song comes from my second favourite Billie Holiday album (#1 Lady in Satin)

True blues give us so much, and the queen Billie…the one who more than any other deserves the title the ‘aching and suffering visionary’…poured herself out so that we might mourn too. Please join with me as you listen to the full song…I need you people. (Also, I think this song goes with the outfit coming up…)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4W6g5kfwp0LVBFauBSdx08?si=ZC2u9LSzRMObWP3yNFMxgg

https://tidal.com/track/93057551

Mercedes Benz - Janis Joplin

Whichever ’lord’ you follow, be it some immanent/transcendent being through to yourself following your heart, brain cancer will mess with your categories. This searing song by Janis Joplin, heard through the cancer lens particularly, calls into stark relief my beliefs about myself and my place in this cosmos. Maybe it will for you in your world 🤷‍♂️…Or just laugh at the silly song and go have a croissant 🤣

https://open.spotify.com/track/1MntHPLU1T7a9W4tojbg8g?si=5M_GATa4Tay25DCIPIyYiA

https://tidal.com/track/1842011

The Blues Brothers, Ray Charles

After the weight of last week and it’s music…Jake and Elwood!! And Ray Charles ‘supporting’ 😉 Let your hair down tonight! (Or whenever you listen)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4L2laOh04x7g7WjEtY8PkZ?si=R1H1BQTyRKa6locauZ60fQ

https://tidal.com/track/7430221

My Struggles…

I couldn’t choose between these songs, they both accompanied me this week. So you get both

If I Believe You - The 1975

https://tidal.com/track/146165655

https://open.spotify.com/track/6cQ4bLtHOL6AfDV68wDrqf?si=UBdHy8s9TRiKoGf3BIcavg

When It’s Cold I’d Like To Die - Moby, Mimi Goese

https://tidal.com/track/10902990

https://open.spotify.com/track/6sOx5jDVKkQCQp3NfCTd52?si=WDfg26m9ToKpMBZgBILu6A

If I believe you

I've got a God-shaped hole

That's infected

And I'm petrified of being alone, now

It's pathetic, I know

And I toss and I turn in my bed

It's just like I lost my head (Lost my head)

And if I believe you

Will that make it stop?

If I told you I need you

Is that what you want?

And I'm broken and bleeding

And begging for help

And I'm asking you, Jesus, show yourself

I thought I'd met you once or twice

But that was just because the dabs were nice and opening up my mind

Showing me consciousness is primary in the universe

And I had a revelation

I'll be your child, if you insist

I mean, if it was you that made my body

You probably shouldn't have made me atheist

But, oh, I'm a lesbian kiss, I'm an evangelist

And if you don't want to go to hell, then, Miss

You better start selling this

If I'm lost then how can I find myself?

When It’s Cold I’d Like to Die

Where were you when I was lonesome?

Locked away with freezing cold

Someone flying, only stolen

I can't tell, this night's so old

I don't wanna swim the ocean

I don't wanna fight the tide

I don't wanna swim forever

When it's cold I'd like to die

What was that, my sweet, sweet nothing?

I can't hear you through the fog

If I holler, let me go

If I falter, let me know

Richard Strauss - Morgen! (Christine Schäfer)

https://open.spotify.com/track/06OVBfoBPjIpOAGXfgQyRY?si=3puErjfNQLqRLZCDrs3kyw

https://tidal.com/track/4417534

This was hard to post. This was the first music track with voice I was able to listen to in isolation in rehab when dealing with deep trauma. The words and music are very important to me.

Tomorrow!

And tomorrow the sun will shine again

and on the way that I will go,

she will again unite us, the happy ones

amidst this sun-breathing earth,

and to the beach, wide, wave-blue

will we still and slowly descend

silently we will look in each other's eyes

and upon us will sink the mute silence of happiness

Ben Lukas Boysen

https://open.spotify.com/track/2ioGZqOFVp7lBaRSuV4UUV?si=eCjUN39fT-6x7zBLZzTprw

https://tidal.com/track/103317640

This track evokes in me the reckless grace that aching and suffering visionaries desperately need. I know there are a lot of you who are aching and suffering visionaries. Let’s do this together

Becca Stevens | Attacca Quartet

https://open.spotify.com/track/10FcR0MeTO9bILrvFndpCG?si=6Tm_BzzCR3CrpjjEIHhaQg

https://tidal.com/track/172634270

What does cancer feel like?…for me at this time, it feels like every aspect of this song - from the cancer to paralysis to mind churning fear. I’m going in to the hospital today for another set of treatment, with not a hope that it will cure, but hopefully extend. I find it hard to get my head around…

…But thanks to the sublime Becca Stevens (@beccastevensbsb) and the Attacca Quartet (@attaccaquartet) who just ‘get’ it…your skills, passion, and hard work made a profound difference in my life this week. I’m truly grateful. Hopefully I’ve put some folk onto your artistry via the link…

AA Milne, The Muppets, & Amy Lee

https://open.spotify.com/track/7ulVGXRF3IPfJjIBcEGdBs?si=kPOS3sOLTTG7xrUvjpYtMw

https://tidal.com/track/36771638

This multifaceted cancer journey is a weird one for me…and the emotional and mental aspect of it sometimes leaves me in a ‘non-place’

This song captures that part of my life today…and the fact that it is associated with the Muppets and A.A. Milne is just the icing 😉 Anyone resonate with the ‘non-place’?

Ukrainian Youth Ensembles

https://tidal.com/track/91344618

https://open.spotify.com/track/6G3LetC9p8ravz4ijw81yw?si=fQQ8u5s-QheNoz9wDj5QRg

This is an opportunity to stand with a very special woman in horror and hope as a refugee and aid worker who escaped from Kyiv.

This song is the ‘second anthem’ of Ukraine and is the hope of grace amidst the powers that seek to destroy.

Prayer for Ukraine - Bozhe Velikiy Yedynyi (1885). Mykola Lysenko

Lord, O the Great and Almighty, 
Protect our beloved Ukraine, 
Bless her with freedom and light 
Of your holy rays. 

With learning and knowledge enlighten 
Us, your children small, 
In love pure and everlasting 
Let us, O Lord, grow. 

We pray, O Lord Almighty, 
Protect our beloved Ukraine, 
Grant our people and country 
All your kindness and grace. 

Bless us with freedom, bless us with wisdom, 
Guide into kind world, 
Bless us, O Lord, with good fortune 
Forever and evermore (For MD)

The Sundays

https://tidal.com/track/10839902

https://open.spotify.com/track/4WrYLfuJg2wNLwvSRHZwxl?si=BjywAdWFRHKpUIrb3YSjPg

John Coltrane

https://tidal.com/track/77609733

https://open.spotify.com/track/5FLQmLjjeNIuC8U5mDnXC8?si=livCrsTzRaOl_hPDfaWgmg

Son Lux

https://tidal.com/track/57307135

https://open.spotify.com/track/2WjApvnb29WtPGRtki1kMB?si=MukPmu48T5CveqxjyTKdxw

Arvo Pärt

https://tidal.com/track/17485779

https://open.spotify.com/track/4wudbbceOZKjRlhTtbHvAs?si=rl3kScg1QN-uMZOzEo3Jow

[patrutrus]

February 24th, 2011

I watched Episode 5, which had a few differences from the first four episodes. Firstly, it had Happy on a rustless (but still bent) stick. Secondly, this episode was somewhat disturbing. The theme song played, and the name of the episode is revealed as "Monkey Bar Mishap!”

It started with Happy Appy in his van driving to the playground when he sees a kid crying near some monkey bars. Once he parks the van and goes to the monkey bars, Happy finds out that the kid had fallen off of them, cutting his little finger open. Happy Appy said "What does Jake need to heal with, kids?" He gave off his evil smile at the screen for a couple of minutes, enough time to read a page of a book - preferably the Bible - to him. Like Nate Needs Help, his soulless baby blue eyes watched over anyone in the room like Big Brother. He said "That's right!" and Happy puts a bandage on Jake's finger. After getting hugged by Jake, Happy drives away in his van. It skipped to Episode 6, which had a better chance of being aired on Wonder Showzen than Nick Jr!

In the episode, called "Never Run with Knives", a kid was running with a knife facing up. The knife was clearly a rubber prop because the blade was flopping around a lot. The kid got ‘cut’, and held his hand over the wound, crying. As blood began to come out of the kid's wound, Happy parked his van, gave a normal smile, and said "Hey kids, he shouldn't have carried the knife facing up while running!" However, he did heal him by putting a bandage over the wound. The kid hugged Happy, and he said "Remember kids, never run with knives facing up, or scissors for that matter. Always walk with knives and scissors facing down!" Happy took the kid to his van, drives off, and the credits played. However, after the credits roll, the episode takes a very disturbing turn when Happy comes back in his van, the kid missing, and says "Hey kids! If you find me and my van, just talk to me and I'll take you away, ha-ha!"

Episode 7 began with Happy on the playground, but he wasn't playing with the kids, or helping them. He was just staring at them, with that unsettling smile I hate so much. A group of kids are playing with jump ropes, when Happy walks over to them. He calmly tells them something, but I could barely hear what he said. From what I heard, I could only make out "Hello... Happy... I... how... me... please?" I could see where this was going, as the kids walk with Happy into the bushes of the playground. Loud violent screams are heard for almost a minute and a half, until Happy begins to drag three bloody bodies to his van.

I couldn't believe it.

For the rest of the episode, he does that damn death smile! Why did they use that look so much? It was almost like he could climb out of your TV, grab you, and murder you slowly and painfully with a rusty knife, but he couldn’t.

I moved on to Episode 8 and 9. This time, the episodes were so violent and shoddy that they couldn't have aired on Noggin at all. Episode 8 had Happy Appy take a kid into his van. For half of the episode, flesh cutting could be heard, and so could loud screaming, which turned into gurgles. As the scene progressed, blood splatters on the windows began to appear. Eventually, Happy emerged from the van, and did a death smile until the end of the show. Like Episode 8, Episode 9 was gory and violent. But this episode was so coincidental and violent that I couldn't believe Noggin would even allow it, unless it was some sort of hijacking.

It starts out with Happy Appy walking around the playground when two kids ask him what the cycle of life is so that they could complete their homework. He proceeds to tell the kids about the cycle of life in frogs and plants. The kids said "Thanks, Happy! Can you play with us for a bit?" Happy agrees, and they start playing on the playground. When this happens, smoke starts to creep behind Happy and the children. It gets to a point where they start coughing because of how dense the smoke is, so they turn around to see what was making the smoke. Happy gasps at the sight in front of them.

Two towers were on fire and were burning up. A few people are falling out of windows to escape the fire. There was a lot of screaming, falling debris, and a crashed airplane in one of the towers. Only the tail of the plane was visible, which was nearing the point of collapse. I could hear a faint whining noise at this point, and I think that it was the plane's engine which was probably still on. Seven seconds later, the tail of the plane finally broke apart, with the largest piece of the tail hitting and killing someone. During this scene, fire trucks could be heard trying to douse out the flames, but it only slows the flames down. The wailing of ambulances could also be heard, taking away the bodies of the people who jumped from the towers. It showed a weird guy on fire falling out of one of the towers, screaming.

Happy and the kids are seen again, but this time, they stood still in fear. The smoke kept getting thicker and thicker, slowly obscuring the trees and equipment of the playground. The debris from the towers fell around the kids and Happy, and a person ran up to them and told them to run away from the towers before running off. When the older kid worriedly said "Happy Appy, why are the towers on fire?” it cuts to a higher-up floor that was near where the plane crashed, which revealed a kid that was under a huge piece of concrete, crying for help.

Some other kids tried to help him by lifting the piece of concrete off him. He was screaming so loud, it was almost heartbreaking. There were bodies and blood everywhere, and the pain and fear on the trapped kid’s face was so realistic, I cringed. After the shot with the kid trapped under the concrete, the younger kid turns to the side say “Happy Appy, why are people running and falling from the towers?” Happy Appy turns to the camera, death smile on his face, and very coldly said three words. Those three words will haunt me as long as I research this show.

"That's natural, children."

He took the two kids away from the towers, leaving the kid stuck under concrete screaming for help. When the credits rolled, the audio of the scene kept playing, and at the end, before the video cuts out, something collapsed, making a very loud noise that could scare anyone watching.

I jumped out of my seat. Was Happy a death bringer in the form of an apple? Or was he a master predictor? If that episode somehow predicted 9/11, I have to watch Episodes 10 and 11 to see if there was anything else predicted! I might not see any predictions, though, and honestly, I hope not. Oh, and you want to know what happens when someone calls the tsunami aid phone number? Tomorrow, I’m going to go and call it.

[storiesforallfandoms]

Masterlist 2!

Here’s the second masterlist of all my imagines and preferences! (first masterlist can be found here!) Imagines marked as * are smutty imagines! Imagines marked as ` are requests!

IMAGINES

Z NATION powerful ~ 10k` nothing left ~ 10k* stay ~ 10k (part two)` still mine ~ 10k

HANNIBAL childhood secrets ~ hannibal lecter` i know ~ hannibal lecter`

GAME OF THRONES disrespect ~ oberyn martell

HEMLOCK GROVE assistant ~ roman godfrey

VICTORIOUS dirty little secret ~ jade west new to school ~ tori vega` my sister’s best frienemy ~ tori vega`

CRIMINAL MINDS hearing it all ~ spencer reid hard case ~ spencer reid

THE MANDALORIAN something i could never dream of ~ din djarin

PEAKY BLINDERS i’m giving up this life ~ thomas shelby dedication ~ thomas shelby` all grown up ~ thomas shelby` like looking in a mirror ~ thomas shelby` take a hint ~ thomas shelby` on your knees ~ thomas shelby*`

THE BODYGUARD road trip ~ david budd (part eight) finally ~ david budd (part nine)* turning tables ~ david budd (part ten)

SHADOWHUNTERS i don’t need your help ~ jace herondale*`

HOUSE OF CARDS movie marathon ~ duncan shepherd`

BRIDGERTON unhappy futures ~ simon bassett

LUCIFER old flame ~ lucifer morningstar

BARRY similar experiences ~ barry berkman`

AMERICAN HORROR STORY behind closed doors ~ michael langdon*`

THE ORVILLE cautious ~ ed mercer

SUPERNATURAL to keep you safe ~ sam winchester*`

THE VAMPIRE DIARIES should’ve asked you first ~ jeremy gilbert

NEW GIRL rejected hearts club ~ nick miller`

THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY second chances ~ ben hargreeves`

STRANGER THINGS pool side ~ steve harrington (part one)* clear head ~ steve harrington (part two) undead ~ eddie munson he’s not what you think ~ steve harrington (part three) soft side ~ billy hargrove` sister’s night ~ steve harrington (part four)

BOY MEETS WORLD nowhere else to turn ~ shawn hunter`

PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN oh captain ~ captain jack sparrow*` survivor ~ captain jack sparrow` vulnerable ~ captain jack sparrow` thought i lost you ~ captain jack sparrow`

MIDSOMMAR baby sister ~ mark` wish i could be them ~ mark`

MARVEL always ~ bucky barnes a bit of excitement ~ bucky barnes* in another life ~ peter parker (tasm) come home ~ wanda maximoff what did you call me? ~ shang-chi*` don’t go ~ stephen strange*` putting it to better use ~ bucky barnes*`

DCEU his domination ~ the joker*` guilty ~ bruce wayne*

TWILIGHT bloodlust ~ jasper hale`

THE DIRT handsy date ~ mick mars` i could’ve lost you ~ nikki sixx` need help ~ nikki sixx`

JENNIFER’S BODY boy’s are a disease ~ jennifer check

IT CHAPTER TWO the type you take home to mom ~ eddie kaspbrak

8 MILE can’t buy me ~ jimmy smith jr.`

SCREAM haunted house ~ billy loomis there’s always tomorrow ~ billy loomis and stu macher`

VAMPIRE ACADEMY the small guardian ~ christian ozera`

MACHINE GUN KELLY soldier girl*` wap*` better than the movie*` can’t get in` pretty toes*` driver’s license like i’m gonna lose you (part two) rained out` burnt out` accident prone` asserting dominance` sister’s approval` that makes it all feel complicated` way too hot` worst first` comparisons` sucker for pain` thirsty` she ain’t a gold digger` stepping out` my favorite parts*` i have something to tell you` stuck with you` open book` she’s a baddie` it was always you` it’s too easy*` everything is going to be alright` the only one for me` talent that runs in the family` your real prize*` emergency visit` just something i bought` if you remember tomorrow` gamer girl` spoiled` a book by her cover` can’t keep my hands to myself*` break it up!` how you waste love` something’s different` you don’t own me*` leave us alone`

CORPSE HUSBAND sing me to sleep` safe space` needy permanently` hand delivered everything i’m insecure about inspirational` small world` starstruck` unimaginably happy` hype you up` i hope he knows irrelevant

ROOK choker*` unconventional (with pete davidson)` finishing*` daddy’s hurt` never let you go` little drummer girl` shorty` little red marks`

EMINEM pushing buttons` tabloid bs` delayed` mama’s boy` and the winner is...` juxtaposition` something new` dance party for one` am i ready?` caught` morning glory*` relapse` speaking code` rescue` doing it again` old man` the first time in a long time` my greatest mistake` too busy` stop being a cliché` be with you than without you` well that’s awkward` stealing my stuff` brat*` i hate my step dad` releasing the beast` personal collaboration` the toughest decision` tale as old as time`

HARRY STYLES dreams (au part four) going solo` causing trouble up in hotel rooms (part one) tell the world (part two)

ANDREW SIWICKI master plan`

PETE DAVIDSON the wrong time for flirting` our own luck` backstage*` cliche christmas proposal` kissing strangers (part one)` unconventional (with rook)` out of practice (part two)` the best interview ever` hard day*` clingy` pose` looking for someone` you’re my best friend` just want to stay in bed` patience*` secret matching tattoos` my little family` looking good next to you` stop disrespecting my partner` take care` study buddies*`

BLACKBEAR tour bus shenanigans*’

YUNGBLUD just hold me` honey, i’m home` wingman`

MODSUN strong`

HENRY CAVILL too much*`

AARON TVEIT first show` messed up internal clock*` the morning after*` opening night`

KARL JACOBS interrupted the secret spoil`

CODY FERN pranks` i will never be satisfied`

EWAN MCGREGOR fantasies*` feeling like forever`

DOMINIC FIKE inspiration*`

NOEN EUBANKS he’ll never see this`

JOHNNY DEPP drunk mistakes` an honor` between the stacks`

SWAGGERSOULS stop simping in the smp` get out of my room* unnecessary comments` three little words` private room*

DEVON BOSTICK sweethearts`

BO BURNHAM isn’t it ironic? meet cute` a bad idea with a great outcome*` slumber party*` a different side*`

ARIANA GRANDE i choose you`

ANDY BIERSACK the right thing

GOODGUYFITZ real poggers moment`

RICHARD MADDEN the most special moment big sister`

MEGAN FOX absolutely stunning`

JACOB ELORDI abcdefu

TRAVIS BARKER deatbeat`

TAYLOR MOMSEN sweet in private`

SHANNON LETO always overlooked`

TOM FELTON teaching them young`

JOAQUIN PHEONIX love of animals`

ANDREW GARFIELD marking`

TOM HIDDLESTON the archer and the trickster`

JOHNNY KNOXVILLE when stunts go wrong`

SHAWN MENDES neglected`

EVAN PETERS rest

TOM HOLLAND my badass girl`

MULTIFANDOM we’re too stupid ~ the vlog squad` ghostin’ ~ multiple musicians` secrets ~ riverdale cast`

SHIPS oh no, i think i’m catching feelings ~ louis tomlinson x harry styles` save a seat ~ yelena belova x clint barton` possessive ~ eminem x machine gun kelly`

HEADCANONS watching rupaul’s drag race w/corpse calling bucky barnes “buck” for the first time since steve left marc spector railing you in front of a mirror to make steven grant jealous*

NSFW ALPHABET HEADCANONS bo burnham* bucky barnes* eminem*` andrew garfield*`

PREFERENCES when they wrongfully accuse you of cheating ~ misfits` how they react when you walk in covered in blood and carrying a gun ~ mcu

[art-i-know-yes]

AHH I'M EXCITED LET'S GO

Spoilers Ep.66

The dEscRiption because like a WHAT to WHAAT WITH GLENNNNN

I'm sorry literally one of the only things I've wanted to see is emotionally open Glenn

not the spotify ads

Darryl plays Matt

Hot Take: Darryl hates the environment

That's an oof, Henry

Biiiiig therapy

Horses vs Henry and Cows vs Ron

oooohhhmygahwdbeth

"I know what you said and I ignored it"

WOOOOOOOOO RON THERAPY

Imagine going to therapy

Awww Ron

I was just high key thinking about them listening outside the door

geeEENETIC TIMELINE

"That's depressing"

Those are liike good rollssssss

mmmnnnnn nevermind

Kinda wanna dig up clams

I-I mean why not

I guess that's a good idea to teach them how to drive huh

"No, that's ok"

WHY'D HE SAY IT LIKE THAT

They're too emotional right now

The keyword they didn't use is HOPEFULLY THEIR DADS SHOOT AT IT

Excuse me too young some countries learned by like 8

Hiiiissss voice

Noooo

"11, that's sounds like it's gonna be sad" "Oooo that tracks for you"

Really!! Glenn followimg laws!!

Kids have these neat abilities called vroom vroom speed vehicle where they get self control

YEEEE KIDS GET TO DRIVE

Ehhh come on Darryl you're making this so depressing

Henry shut up please

"Doooope" "Definitely Lark or Sparrow"

I remember seeing someone call Sparrow a furry

I think that is good idea for flexibility because I did not think if that because if I'm honest I only trust TJ to drive we saw what Lark and Sparrow driving was like

Can TJ still like use magic

THE LAUGHTER THAT THAT CAME OUT OF ME I CAN NOT DESCRIBE NEAR TEARS IM TELLING YOU NEAR TEARS

"I'm sure Grant is gonna be fine, but if ya know, Lark dies or something-" "WHAT THE FVCK DARRYL" DARRYL YOU CAN'T USE THEEEEEM AS AN EXAMPLE

But also my second thought was Nick and I made myself lose it

"Ok so Terry dies-" "NOOOOO-" "Ok fine you have two kids. Let's say Sparrow dies-"

THEY COULD JUST BE INJURED WE DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THE WORST SITUATIONS

We should camouflage it again, both of them

Toooo thhhee raaaaaat

A LITTLE CONCERNED

Well I'm already in tears so

Real Nick Jr.? It's just Nick

Don't bring the Lawwrdd into this

Accidentally teaching him to dRIIIVVEEE HE CAN BARELY REACH THE WHEEL LET ALONE THE BRAKE OR GAS

But like literally watch Nick Jr. have to drive and does it perfectly

They are way to into the crab mech

He immediately started yelling-I'm just making noises at this point

Not the escape static I mean USEFUL but like the reverse j-turn is a little later

What did your dad teach you Glenn

This is why they're doing different sections

...I can barely do a regular reverse turn...

"I'M ONLY DOING THIS BECAUSE I WAANT TO FATHER"

Straight cut to "A few quick things in no specific order"

This is about what I expected with Willy as his father

Terry Jr. is having an existential crisis

Roooonnn

Understeer????

GlArK

"My son's name is not Glark" "HAVE YOU BEEN CALLING ME GLARK AND I JUST HAVEN'T NOTICED"

Not quoting the handbook

W-was Ron used as a getaway driver

TJ is big brain

"Use morse code" "Ok anyone wanna teach me morse code"

I just imagine Glenn turning around and like the Office "Quite an imagination on this kid"

"I'm in a dark place" respectable. thanks for being honest.

Honestly that's what I was thinking. Actually very close to that tune.

AWWWWWWW

CYCLISTS

I love you so much Sparrow

"*sniffle* you run 'em over son"

I... am so scared to see who's getting this roll

I desperately hope that twins aren't 1 and 2

This is a competition to them. I know it.

A 23!!!

Awwwwwwww poor baby nonononono

AWWWWW RONNN COMFORTING TJ

I'm not sure if you can tell who's my favorite father-son duo (or characters im general)

Noooooo Terrrryyyy (but like honestly SAME)

A VESPA

HE'S NOT THE DRIVER BUT LIKE STILL I KINDA THINK IT'S THE BEST CHOICE

"I know!"

"I purely know maps I'm the advocate"

CALLOUTS

This is the perfect team up

"And then also Sparrow"

"Idk we can tie them to like a stick or something"

Oh yeah the pillars

Doug is better than literally all philosophers

NONONONO

Is...Ron meta?

Not Elizabeth Warden

OH FVCK

That...doesn't sound good cause like...the underground part

mnnnmmnnnmmmnnn bombssss

"There was this show called Chernobyl" PFFT-

Yesss Bomb shelter beer

Ron's a genius

Hesoundsalittlesalty

"Sounds like somebody cares"

It doesn't sound like we'll make it to ep. 69

The humming is so funny to me

Ron *is* meta

I would LOVE to figure out what Glenn is actually thinking about Nick

YA KNOW WHAT THAT IS A BIG PROBLEM

I don't think mentally I'm ready for what is going to come out

I SCREAMED emotionally i am not recovered from loosing Nick hypothetically I am completely very ok it

*Cooooool*

Just the way he said it Hennrrrryyyyy

"Well, that sounds healthy"

He's really switching this conversation at them

We love Ron-Glenn solidarity

ahhhhh Henry rants

TOLERANT, SORT OF AFFECTION AHHHHAHAHHAHAHAHA

"We are Olive Garden"

Sir, that's a ring of self-sacrifice if you're willing

oooooo that hurts

I..dont know what to say. I'm in shock. My body literally has like tingles all over and my heart dropped. Is Erin ok? How'd he get there? How much does he know? I can't feel anything right now so much and many emotions

~20 minites of sitting in silence and shock later~

I WAS THINKING WHY WOULD THE DRAGON BE AFTER HIM CAUSE HE TOLD RADIOLAB WHAT HE WAS DOING AND WHY AHHH HE MADE HIM ROLL TWICE FOR THAT TO FUKIN WEAKEN HIM I KNEW IT WAS FUKING WEIRD THERE WAS NO WAY GOD

THE GASPS THEY KNEW IT THE MINUTE HE SAID IT

WTFWTFWTF IM SHAKING

CAN YOU HEAL THIS?! NO YOU CAN'T WHAT DO WE DO?! THE COUNTING! THE REMOTE REWIND? THE NEW ITEMS? 15SECONDS15SECONDS15SECONDS. WE CAN NOT LOSE GLENN RIGHT NOW CAN WE PAUSE. CAN WE BREAK THE SPELL LIKE THAT? WHAT IF IT DOESNT WORK? HE SOUNDS SO SERIOUS. IM SO SCARED BUT LIKE FUVK. HE'S GOOD BUT LIKE NOT THAT GOOD RIGHT BECAUSE GLENN WAS ALREADY WHAT 3 LEVELS ABOVE EVERYONE ELSE? YESYESYESYESYESYESYESYES!!!!!AHHHHHH GLENN! NOOOOOOOO GODDAMIT HE PROBABLY HAS LEGENDARY ACTIONS I FUKIN THOUGHT ABOUT IT! OMGAWWD SLIGHT OF HAND SNEAK ATTACK. AHHHHG MODIFIERS SCARE ME.

I KNEW I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT

FEAR FEAR FEAR FEAR FEAR FEAR YES HAHAHAHAHHA FVCK YOU

OH GAWD HENRY HEALED HIM

YOU FVKING SLVT ANTHONY

they were sooooooooo close

I swear to god we better see Glenn again or I'm killing someone

I'm having a late reaction tears are coming once I fully process.

BUT REALLY *RIGHT* AFTER THE HEART TO HEART

[blueymoons]

When I was fourteen I had to go to the ER. If I recall correctly it was strep throat…even back then, trying to kill me. It’s always snuck up on me and tried to kill me in less than 24 hours…but I digress.

While laying in the hospital bed, flipping channels and looking for something to watch I ended up landing on Nickelodeon. It was early in the day and Nick Jr was still on, but something made me stay on it.

That something was Blues Clues.

I was fourteen and reading college level books, writing, dreaming, and shrill in the midst of being traumatized. I’d had my first love and my first heartbreak. I’d lost a best friend to jealousy and meanness and another because she’d had to switch schools. And I was four years away from becoming a mom and lightyears away from where I am today…but for those thirty minutes in the hospital room, I was taken back to my childhood and the TV shows I’d watched as a toddler on Disney. Dumbos Circus and Pooh’s Corner. Something about this silly little preschool show captivated me.

If you’ve never seen it, first, you must live under a rock, second, you NEED to see it…but the show was about a dog named Blue and her owner Steve. Blue liked to play a game with Steve where she’s leave paw prints on items around their house and Steve would collect the “clues” and figure out what Blue wanted to do that day. Like most preschool shows it encouraged the child to participate. Steve would ask the camera questions and then wait, as though waiting for an answer, and then he’d move on. It was simple and adorable and I fell in love with it.

So much so that when I had Michael when I was eighteen I made sure Blues Clues was his show. He watched it as a baby and toddler and dressed as Blue for Halloween one year. We had VHS tapes of it that he watched all the time when we escaped from my mothers house and I have very vivid memories of sitting with him in my lap singing, “Here’s the mail it never fails. It makes me want to wag my tail. And when it comes I wanna wail MAAAAIIIILLL!” I use a song I learned from Blues Clues while watching it with Michael to remember the order of planets in our galaxy…and yes, Pluto is included.

Blue and Steve were our comfort during those really rough years. If we weren’t watching The Lion King or Tarzan, we were Skidooing with Steve and Blue and so, I suppose, in many ways, as Michael grew up with Blue and Steve, so did I. Michael and I were both very emotionally attached to the show and as he’s grown up, everything I’ve learned about Steve in his life after Blues Clues I’ve shared with my boy. Steve was our friend. He was our neighbor. And Blue was the best girl.

Steve left Blues Clues just as Michael was aging out of it. He occasionally watched Steve’s replacement, Joe (who was lovely and adorable) but his heart, and mine, left the show with Steve.

So seeing this today, and seeing that they gave Steve the space and opportunity to reach out to those of us that were there with him in the beginning…It got me.

Memories of Michael’s small little body hugging me in our chair, him dancing around the living room in his diaper and holding his cuppie and singing “Cause when we use our minds to take a step at a time we can do anything that we wanna do…” it swamped me. Hearing Steve’s affirmations that we did exactly that as we grew up…man it got me.

And I’m so grateful that I got to experience Steve and Blue with Michael. And that Steve and Blue were his Mr. Rogers. I’m so grateful for loving and gentle children’s programming that taught problem solving and that we can be what we want to be.

Mostly though…I’m grateful for those memories with my baby boy. They’re precious and fleeting and they mean the world to me.

[a-bang-for-your-bucky]

Welcome Home (Part One)

(NOT MY GIF)

Summary: After not speaking to her brothers for over a year, Peyton Rhodes’ life is turned upside down when her boyfriend of four years cheats on her. She uproots her life with WWE and returns home to Atlanta. She finds herself among great friends and she is finding herself again after being lost for so long.

WORD COUNT: 2,624 (well shit). 

Pairings: Cody Rhodes x OFC (Sister), Brandi Rhodes x OFC (sister), Dustin Rhodes x OFC (Sister), past Seth Rollins x OFC, future Kenny Omega x OFC (maybe?), MJFx OFC( maybe?) Could end up being Matt Jackson x OFC (who knows) let the writing gods surprise us.

WARNINGS: explicit language, mentioned cheating, possible future smut (Warnings are subject to change as I continue writing and will be updated as needed).

A/N: This has been a WIP for over a year now. This will be multiple parts. It will be a slow burn. (MAYBE) I’m a sucker for the friends to lovers trope. Please do not think that this reflects my feels toward a certain wrestler (Seth). This story is strictly fiction. I do not own any of the characters except for my OFC(s). Please, please, please, give me feedback. I’m slowly working myself back into the fanfic world. <3

“Cody was right.” I cried as soon as my brother’s wife answered the phone. I hadn’t spoken to my brothers since they left WWE. Cody was upset that I wouldn’t leave with him. Brandi was my way of communication with them. She’d call at least twice a week. This week was different. 

“I caught him. I went to congratulate him after his win over Finn and they were,” I sniffled, hurt coming over me again. “It was Mandy. I thought she was my friend.” I explained to my sister in law.

“Pey, I am so sorry. Please come home. You know AEW has a spot for you whenever you want it.” Brandi offered. It was the same thing she said to me every week, but now I’m ready. 

“I just don’t know why.” I cried. “I was the perfect girlfriend. I basically put my career on hold for him. I thought he was, I thought he was it for me.” Brandi had said that they were going to be home for Cody’s birthday in a few weeks and invited me to come to the party. 

“I’ll talk to Hunter.” I choked out. 

Luckily, my contract was almost up and as soon as Vince heard I didn’t want to re-sign, he settled for my release. We didn’t have the best relationship, but Hunter advocated for me stating that it was best for the company as well as myself. He knew the situation and didn’t blame me for wanting to go.

I knew I had to go back one day. I just never thought it would be this soon. I parked my car in the drive. I could hear Pharaoh announcing my arrival before I could make it to the door. I made my way up the sidewalk to the porch. I took a deep breath and knocked. 

Brandi opened the door immediately. “Well I'll be damned.” She said, “I can’t believe you came!” I smiled, embracing my brother’s wife. 

“Like I would miss my big brother’s 35th birthday.” I lied and she knew it. If Seth hadn’t cheated on me, I wouldn’t be here. 

Brandi led me inside where there were some guests who had gathered in the foyer. Brandi introduced me quickly, leading me through to Cody. “Hey, babe. Your surprise is here.” Cody, who was standing by the fireplace, talking to Dustin, turned and saw me. 

Awkwardly, I raised a hand to wave. “Hi.” I whispered. Cody sat down his drink and walked over to me. I expected him to cuss and yell, but instead, he threw his arms around me, hugging me tightly. 

“Peyton, I'm so happy you’re here.” He whispered. Dustin came up behind him. 

“Long time, no see sis. You know, they invented this thing called a phone. You should look into it. Call your big brothers sometime.” Dustin fussed before hugging me too. 

“It is really good to see you guys.” I tried to hold back the tears, but some escaped anyway. “How have you been? AEW has really taken off huh?” I said making small talk.

Cody nodded, “Yeah, I have the best business partners. I can’t wait for you to meet them.” Looking at my brother, he was truly happy. WWE had given him a few more stress lines, but seeing him now, you couldn’t tell. 

He grabbed my hand, pulling me to follow him. He led me to Matt and Nick Jackson, standing with Kenny Omega and Adam Page. “Guys! Guys! Look who decided to show her face.” Cody beamed, smiling big. The four guys waved. 

“Finally! We get to meet the prodigal sister.” Kenny Omega spoke first. 

“Peyton, these are the guys.” Cody pointed to each of them. “Matt. Nick. Kenny. Adam.” 

“Nice to meet y’all finally. I watch your show every week. You are all very talented.” They all mumbled a “thank you” in tandem. 

The rest of the evening went by smoothly. We all sat and talked. Getting to know The Elite was amazing. It was almost as if I hadn’t been AWOL for a year and a half.  When the party was over, I was helping Brandi clean up. 

“Pey, you don’t have to help. You’re a guest.” She said, grabbing the glasses from my hands. I shook my head.

“I’m family. And family helps.” I smiled, taking the glasses back and continued to the kitchen. Cody walked in behind me with plates. 

“Hey,” he started, “Thank you for coming.” He finished, placing the plates in the dishwasher. I added my glasses. 

“I’m sorry.” I blurted out, turning to face him. Cody looked at me, confused. “I should have left with you. You were right about that place. My career, my relationship, everything, became a shitshow after you left.” tears began to fall. 

“Pey, it’s okay. I’m just happy you’re here now.” Cody wiped the tears away. 

“Code. I lost my title. Seth cheated on me, and I barely got any TV time.” Cody scoffed. He never liked Seth.

“He cheated on you?” Cody growled, and paced around the room. 

I nodded, “I caught him. I went to congratulate him after his win one night and they were,” I sniffled, explaining to Cody. “I don’t know why.” I cried. “And then I lost my title, and then stopped getting TV time, unless I was on Seth’s arm.” I darted my eyes to the ground. “We still had to work together. After everything, I had to pretend like we were the perfect couple, until my last appearance.” Cody pulled me into a tight hug. 

“I pissed a lot of people off with the way I left. I’m so sorry that affected you.” he whispered into my hair, like it was his fault. 

“I don’t blame you, Code. I was granted my release.” I mumbled into his chest. He pulled back. 

“What?” His eyes were wide. 

“I asked for my release and Hunter pushed it through. I’ll be a free agent in 90 days” I explained. Cody smiled like a Cheshire cat.  

“Babe! Dustin! Get in here!” Cody yelled, startling me. The both of them came running, looking for an emergency, but they only saw Cody pouring champagne for a toast. Confused looks covered their faces. 

Cody gave everyone a flute and started a toast. “To our baby sister, the newest AEW superstar.” Brandi squealed and hugged me tight. The guys joined in. 

I was finally home. 

It was hard, walking away from my life in WWE; However, finding my place within the Elite was easy. Especially with Kenny Omega. He quickly became one of my closest friends. The next 3 months were the best of my life. The break from wrestling gave my body and my heart time to heal. Everyone did their best to hide that I was coming to AEW, even leaving fake trails that I was going back to NJPW.

After working out the details of my contract, I was officially signed with AEW. Cody wanted me to make a surprise entrance, interrupt one of his segments. Creative loved the idea of brother and sister reuniting, but they wanted to make it interesting. When my debut date came, I couldn’t have been any more nervous.

Sitting in catering, I was alone, lost in thought, picking at my food. It had been a long journey here, but they made it. AEW came to life and it was thriving. Double or nothing had passed, and that meant tonight was Dynamite.

“Guess who?” Someone had snuck up on me, covering my eyes. I smiled because I knew exactly who it was.

“Hmm, Prince Charming?” I guessed quickly. Kenny placed a sloppy kiss to my cheek.

“Close, but better.” He said uncovering my eyes. “Hey, princess. Just thought I’d come save you from your thoughts. What’s going on in that head of yours right now?” he asked, knowing I’ll tell him, taking the seat next to me. 

I sighed, rubbing my face. “I was thinking about my journey, how I got here.” Kenny nodded, but didn’t say anything. “I was thinking about how I get to see Jon again, since leaving WWE, and I was thinking about Seth.” I finally spit it out. Seth, his name leaving a bad taste in my mouth.

“I knew something was bothering you. Talk to me, doll.”

“I was scrolling through Insta earlier. He’s engaged. I know I shouldn’t care, but I do. Not because I still have feelings for him, but because she is, was, my friend, and I don’t want him to do to her what he did to me.” I explained to him.

“That’s understandable, Pey, but people gotta make their own mistakes. Mandy knows what he did to you and she still said yes, so that’s on her.” Kenny said, ever the voice of reason.

I nodded in agreement with him, knowing he was right. I needed to focus on my new path, my new future.

“Peyton!” Cody called from a distance, Brandi following him. It was time.

Cody stood, center ring, proudly. He had won the TNT title at Double or Nothing. He went on about how he was issuing an open challenge every Wednesday.

I stood nervously behind the curtain, waiting for my cue. I was about to make my debut. My life has been a little crazy since I left WWE behind, but definitely for the better. 

As an avid Fall Out Boy fan, I had struck a deal to have my favorite song as my entrance music. I had been using it for most of my career. The music hit, the crowd went crazy. “Holy Hell, that music can only mean one person. The sister of the American Nightmare. That’s Peyton Rhodes!” JR yelled into his mic as I strolled down the ramp, ignoring the crowd. “Peyton” chants filled the arena as I made my way to the squared circle. 

“Peyton Rhodes has joined  AEW and the crowd couldn’t be happier,” Excalibur added. I walked around the ring to the time keeper, grabbing a mic from Justin, and strolled on toward the ring. 

The music cut, and Cody was first to speak. "Oh yeah. I guess we didn't announce this but Peyton Rhodes is AEW!" The crowd screamed at Cody's news, chanting "AEW". 

I soaked in the cheers because I knew it was all about to change. I had been a face for most of my pro-wrestling career, and now I finally get to pursue the heel turn my fans had been begging for. I took in a deep breath and adjusted my leather jacket. 

“Oh, Atlanta, shut the hell up!” I groaned into the mic. I revelled in the audible gasp that could be heard. “That’s right. No more sweet ‘Georgia peach’ Peyton Rhodes. I came to AEW to raise hell, and that’s what I’m going to do.” I wandered around the ring, stopping in front of a camera. “I’m sick and tired of wanting your approval. I’m here to get what I want. And I want it all.” I punctuated as I looked dead into the camera.

“Hear that big brother,” I turned and faced Cody, “Hell just arrived in AEW I hope you’re ready.” I gestured to the crowd, “I hope you’re all ready, because if you thought Cody was a nightmare, wait til you see me, the Dream Killer.” I dropped the mic, and rolled out of the ring. The crowd loved it. “Dream Killer” chants echoed in my ears all the way backstage. 

I was greeted by Dustin, Brandi, and Kenny. “That was perfect, Pey, they loved it.” Kenny said as soon as I was in sight. I grinned, running up to him, jumping into his arms for a hug. 

“The crowd loved you. They’ve been hoping for this heel turn since your WWE debut.” Cody said, smiling from ear to ear as he returned to the back after finishing his promo.

“For real, Pey! You pull off the ‘heel’ thing. I can’t wait to work on your wardrobe!” Brandi squealed, embracing me in a dancing hug. “Just think about the shoes, Pey, the shoes.” Brandi was way more excited about the outfits than the actual turn. She had helped me pick the one I was wearing. Black jean shorts, a front-zip black and white crop top, leather jacket, and black boots. 

“I can’t wait to see where this takes me.” I said before we were joined by the rest of The Elite.  

Nick was the first to speak. “Not bad, Rhodes. You might be a better heel than your brother here.” He elbowed Cody in the ribs.

Matt nodded in agreement, “For real Peyton, the crowd was so hyped for that turn.” He said with a soft smile, bringing me in for a quick hug. 

I turned to face everyone. “Thanks guys. All of you. You gave me this chance.” I thanked them, “I promise I won’t let you down.” 

“You’re a great addition to the AEW family.” Adam complimented, “Come on Ken, we got a match to get ready for.” he said before walking away. Kenny gave me one last hug before following him.

Cody and Brandi also parted as she had a segment coming up, leaving me with the Young Bucks. “Come on, Pey, lets celebrate!” We had walked back to catering where some more of the AEW stars were waiting. In the back, I spotted the one person I couldn’t wait to see again. I told The Bucks I’d catch up with them. 

“Jon!” I screamed, almost running to him. When he saw me rushing toward him, he opened his arms, inviting me in for a hug. Hugging him was a blast from the past. 

“Peyton fucking Rhodes. I heard rumors you were coming. Sweetheart, you knocked them dead.” He spoke into my hair. I gave him one more tight squeeze before pulling away. “Well, you look great.” He said, gesturing to my outfit. 

“I’m heel now. Finally.” I boasted. I’ve been waiting for this for the longest time and no one was taking it away from me. Jon and I talked, catching up. I asked about Renee and he lit up. He was happy and that’s all I wanted for him. He was finally able to be the fighting champion everyone knew he could be. 

“What about Seth? What happened? The last time I spoke to him, he said you guys were happy and he had bought a ring.” Jon asked, and it knocked the breath out of me. I knew he would ask, but I wasn’t expecting him to mention a ring. 

“He cheated on me. With Mandy. They’re engaged now.” I said without choking up, which was a good sign. I could see the disappointment well up in Jon’s eyes. 

“You were always too good for him.” I knew he and Seth were still good friends, but I appreciated the words nonetheless. Jon gave me one last hug before he got called away for his match, leaving me alone in catering again. 

I found a table close to a TV so I could watch the end of Kenny and Adam’s match. They were well on their way to becoming tag team champions. I started thinking about what Jon had said about Seth, about him buying a ring. I couldn’t believe it. He was going to ask me to marry him and I would have said yes, had I not found him with Mandy. I was pulled from my thoughts by my phone vibrating. It was Seth. 

I saw your debut. 

You look good. 

You’re gonna be a great heel.

I miss you. 

I wish you would talk to me and let me explain. 

I read and reread the messages a hundred times before replying. 

Okay, Seth. When and where?

[winters-doll]

The Generals' Princess

Daddy!Jon Jonzz x Little! Black Reader

Author's Note: Hey guys! I wrote this bc I’m tired of seeing hardly any fics of this huge teddy bear. So I decided to do it myself. 💚💚💚

Disclaimer: None of these pics are mine

Warnings: Ddlg, eventually daddy! Jon Jonzz x Little reader and tons of tears. NSFW IN THE NEXT CHAPTER💚💚💚

Chapter 3- Cry Baby

General Swanwick runs up the steps to my dorm room. He’s so strong. I thought. He hasn’t grunted once since he’s been carrying me. The little inside of me preens with joy. I just don't know what he’ll expect when he comes inside my dorm. I thought. Once we’ve reached 315 I realized I didn’t have my key. “Sir I'm sorry but I don’t have my dorm key.” “I have a key that can enter all dormitory rooms.” He answered gruffly. The General pulls out his key and opens the door. Uh oh here it comes. I thought.

I take a deep breath and seal my faith. There’s no turning back now. The general walks in the dorm room and studies the decor. Oh I’m so screwed. I thought. As the bronze skin man studied the pink walls with the purple led light strips, I mumbled. “Can I get down now?” “Just a moment.” He muttered. He slowly walks over to my dresser and sees my favorite stuffies Ella, Bon-Bon, and Bella and sees the sippy cup I left on my dresser. “Hm.” He hums as he observes my room. I whimper. THIS IS EMBARRASSING!!! I thought. He walks over to my tv stand and sees Pocoyo on Nick Jr. “I was in a rush, so I forgot to turn off the tv.” I stammered. Why do I feel like I have to explain myself? I thought. Oh yeah I remember. IT'S BECAUSE THE FREAKING GENERAL SWANWICK IS IN MY ROOM AND IT'S NOT APPROPRIATE!!!!! I scream in my head. He walks over to my bed and sees my nightstand with more plushies. Susie the sheep and Susan the lamb. The General hums again and turn towards my nightstand and freezes. I gasp in shock at what he’s found. My minnie mouse pacifier!!!!

Humiliation flooded through me and I began to thrash out of his hold. “Let me down!” I shout. “Ms. Brown-“ “No! Let me go! Please!” The General gently placed my feet on the hardwood floor. Quickly I got whatever clothes I could find and ran into the bathroom, locking the door.

Feeling tears run down my eyes, I sniffle and try to regain composure. “He’s gonna think I’m nuts.” I whimper. I take off his jacket and start to get dressed in pink leggings and a grey army sweatshirt . “He’s one of the biggest crushes I had and now he knows and now he’s gonna dismiss me from the armed forces and and-“ I feel my body start to panic. It’s getting hard to breathe. I hazily place my hands on the counter and look in the mirror. Blotchy eyes and red cheeks and a running nose is what I'm met with. This is so pathetic. Suddenly I hear a knock on the door. “Ms. Brown.” General Swanwick's deep voice is heard behind the door. “Please open the door.” WHY IS HE STILL HERE! I thought. “No! G-go away!” I say in between sobs. “Please Ms. Brown. I won’t hurt you… Just please open the door.” He whispers. He sounds different, gentle even. Sniffling with courage I unlock the bathroom door and open it with fear of the unknown.

Opening the door, general swanwick studies my appearance and immediately I'm pulled into his muscular chest. Startled, I froze. My heart stutters and I can’t help but realize how muscular his biceps and arms are! Gosh he smells so good. I thought. The brooding man chuckles and mutters,”You can hug me if you wish Ms. Cloditila.” His deep voice vibrates his chest. Tentatively, I place my hands around his waist since it’s the only part I can reach properly. Sinking further in his chest I feel my eyes start to water again and before I know it, I’m weeping into his chest. He puts one of his hands on my waist and the other on my bonnet covered head. “I-I’m sorry sir.” I whimper. “Shhh…” He shushed me quietly. “It’s alright Cloditila… You’re safe.”

He holds me until my sobs are quiet sniffles and hiccups. He looks down at me with gentle eyes. The eyes of a gentle giant. “Are you alright?” He asked me. “Y-yeah Im fine.” I sniffle. “Unfortunately there is much to talk about in my office. We should move quickly.” He muttered firmly. It’s as if this cold ice has washed over him to become the brooding general again. “Yes sir.” I mumbled. The general turns around and opens the dorm room. “After you, Ms. Brown.”

We exit my dorm room and walk down the stairs. By the time we’re down the stairs, I’m out of breath and stop at the stairway. Panting I sit on the steps. But Mr. Swanwick just keeps walking as if we didn’t walk down three flights of stairs. “Wait sir!” I called out. “Hm.” He turns around and sees my fatigue form on the stairs. “Come now, Ms. Brown.” The dark man chuckled. “We’re only going on west of the facility.” WE HAVE TO GO IN THE WEST WING?! I thought. “Just a second, sir.” I pant. The sound of his Neiman Marcus’ could be heard from the ground. I hear him come near the stairs. “Do I have to carry you again, Ms. Brown?” He inquired. “No sir! I’m ready-“ I feel my body lose it’s stability to keep up right. The brooding man quickly holds my wrist with his large hand.

I guess that panic attack really wore me

out. I thought. The general heaved a sigh and kneeled at my side and scooped me up in his arms and onto his hip. Startled, I quickly clapped my arms around his neck. Mr. Swanwick continues down the path to the west wing of the Pentagon. We past our way from the mess hall and I see people turn away and look in another direction when they see us. Upset I try to struggle and get off only for the general to give me a disapproving look. “Your body is past fatigue and you need rest, Ms. Brown.” He muttered. “Is thrashing truly necessary?” “Yes! When it comes to you carrying me everywhere!” I argue. “Put me down!” I continue to struggle and thrash. “I will cease to carry you, when you give me good reassurance to.” He looked down at me and quirked an eyebrow. “People are gonna see, sir!” “Ms. Cloditila.” He stopped in his tracks. “It’s nightfall, no one's in this building but a few colonels and men.” He looks deep into my brown doe eyes and mutters,”You’ll be safe.” “Alright.” I whisper, taking his word for it.

We make our way to the west wing of the Pentagon and he takes his key card to open the door. The cooled and polished federal building meets us with bright lights. Mr. Swanwick strides down the corridor to enter the elevator on the top floor. As the elevator doors are about to close Colonel James and Smith enter the elevator as well. “Evening gentleman.” General Swanwick's deep voice encloses the entire elevator. I squeeze my eyes shut. “Evening, Sir.” Colonel James and Smith respond. Please let the ground swallow me whole!!! I cry in my head. Colonel James cough brings my attention towards him. Looking down at him from Mr. Swanwick arms, I see him smile at me. I impishly smile back. General Swanwick grunts and shifts his hip to the side leading me away from Colonel James. “Hm?” I mumble confused. I peer up at him to see his face. His familiar stoic face seems to hold some irritation from them. The elevator door bings open and Mr. Swanwick quickly leaves the elevator. “Please,” The General's deep voice surrounds the corridor. “Step into my office, Ms. Brown.”

The general walks down the corridor to his office and I can’t help but feel this sense of dread and panic. What’s gonna happen to me?! Is he going to dismiss me? He knows too much!!! He pulls out his key card to open the door and I'm met with his office. The autumn based design was truly beautiful. The deep brown curtains and the burgundy vintage desk made the office seem serious. Yet the browns and beige made a warm presence immediately. Suddenly he gently places my feet on the polished floor. I place my bare feet on the soft burgundy carpet. I take a deep breath and yet I know.

That what I say, I won’t like at all.