#brother/sister

[sweetiesub]

I just need two older brothers to tag team me into their bedroom and use my holes. Raping my virgin pussy, fighting over who gets to breed me first, stuffing my mouth full of their cocks to stop me screaming, slapping me about, threatening me into riding each if then while the other abuses my tits, telling me this is just what brothers do to their little sisters. And I'd believe every word.

[earfqwake]

Not sure if you only write for the Adult trio but if not, do you think you could make a version of big brother illumi x sister reader but instead of illumi it's Killua? Like, in the fic Y/n was originally supposed to be Killua's (But it was Illumi who mated with her instead) So could it stay like that? Again idk if you even write for him so it's fine if you can't do it! Thanks <33

Alpha Killua/Brother X Omega/Sister Reader Part 1

okay so like kind of the same basis as the illumi story just different as in reader actually is mated to killua this time, he is aged up and so is reader okay ? okay 🫰

tw: slight obsession from killua and yes incest !!! don’t read if you don’t want to. brother sister relationship though this part doesn’t contain anything explicit as it’s depicting their relationship growing up. will be multiple parts because i have a lot to say.

Light can’t exist without Dark.

When Kikyo Zoldyck found out she would be having twins she crossed her fingers and prayed to a god she didn’t even believe in that this would be the one, the heir of heiress of the family. Imagine the families surprise when two white haired babies were birthed on July 7th. Even Silva who rarely showed emotions other than stoicism was pleased at this moment in time.

Well Y/n, their new baby girl had half white hair and half (Y/H) colored hair but still this was the first time in the lineage Zoldyck history something like this happened. Though all that mattered is that Killua was born, both a male and with a full head of white hair. Since birth the two were inseparable, only fully calming their cries when they were near eachother.

At dinner they sat next to eachother always and if they didn’t the other would be visibly more upset. They napped together in random spots around the mansion always being found in the most peculiar places. Under Silvas Desk, Inside the kitchens cabinet, Underneath the staircase. And they shared a room by choice, until Silva forced them to have separate rooms at the age of 8. He needed to end their codependency as soon as possible. That didn’t stop them from sneaking into each others beds most nights.

Must have been fate, that such a blessing had occurred. Or so they’ve been told time and time again, but no one could break their bond that’s for sure. The pairs parents decided that they were more than likely going to end up as soul mates, promising strong pups no doubt.

Even though they were too young to have understood, Killua was relieved to hear this. No one would be good enough for his little sister, even tho he was only minutes older than you he never failed to remind you. He didn’t care much for other girls anyways none of them were as special as you.

They were polar opposites, Yin and Yang, but they fit together perfectly. Y/n was the sweetest most sensitive person, even though she was strong she had such a big heart. Too big of a heart for an assassin to have. A heart that Killua vowed to protect, he was his sisters keeper. The latter was more assertive and dominate than his sister, always leading them into trouble and taking the fall should they ever get caught.

“Where are they off to now?” Mumbled Kikyo as she frantically searched the forrest around the mansion for the twins. Only to find them running circles around Mike the enormous guard dog who didn’t seem to mind their company. Kikyo almost fainted when she saw your pretty blue gown now dirty from playing outside with your brother. You were her only girl so she was terribly overprotective of you.

Killua, like always hid you behind him as his mother threw a fit, because god forbid kids try be kids. “It was my fault mother, Y/n didn’t want to leave the garden but I took her out with me.” Which truthfully wasn’t a lie, you tried to warn Killua that Mama wouldn’t be happy but he said he’d leave you behind so you ran after him with teary eyes. But you had fun so a little punishment was worth seeing you smile.

Though he couldn’t always evade you from being punished he always tried. It meant the world to you that he would be willing to protect you no matter what. You wanted to be brave like him and you tried to, but your heart was just too soft. Hiding your tears and frowns didn’t work with Killua, he couldn’t just ignore it like the rest of his family.

When he would sneak into your room routinely sometimes he would catch you sobbing. Either because your punishment was too harsh, or you felt bad for having to kill your target. Your body sore from being attacked during a day of training, tears fell from your eyes as you sensed him enters your room. “I don’t want to do this Killua.. I’m trying to be strong for Mama and Papa but it hurts.” And he’d hold you and soothe you until you slept peacefully. Only then could he shed tears for you.

And he knows he shouldn’t like it, but you always cried the hardest for him and him alone.

“Onii!” She’d cry out and hug him after seeing the cuts and bruises he would have on his body after hours of pain resistance training. He didn’t cry much anymore, but it sure did hurt, though he’d never admit it to you. Hugging her closer, he couldn’t help but give you a tired smile. “I’m fine Y/n, see.” But she only whimpered and stayed in his embrace she knew he was lying. “Such a crybaby..” He sighed as if it troubled him, yet nuzzled his head into her soft hair.

Killua didn’t like seeing his sweet little sister cry, training was hard on her. At age 12 he begged his parents to opt her out of training, if he were to inherit the family business he didn’t want his sister to have to kill and possibly be killed that wasn’t a risk he was willing to take. Silva and Kikyo denied him this request, so he and Y/n ran away together to take the hunter exam.

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It sent us on such a journey, meeting many different people and making friends ! Real friends, we were never allowed to make any friends back on Kukuroo Mountain so imagine their surprise to see a boy their age also taking the exam. Y/n was infatuated with Gon, calling him her friend, staring at him, laughing at his jokes and it made Killua feel a bit jealous. Before Gon he never had to share Y/n’s attention before other than with his younger siblings.

“What’s the matter Onii?” Y/n questioned during the second phase of the hunter exam, they broke off from walking with Gon and the others because Kil grabbed her and rushed off into the fog without saying. He said nothing and just focused on navigating through the fog with a firm hold on her hand. Even if he was upset he wasn’t going to let anything bad happen to you.

“Are you mad at me…? What did I do wrong?” Tears starting to form in her eyes. Chest tightening at the idea of upsetting her brother. Sighing he glances at her before staring ahead again. “It’s stupid… I just don’t want you to replace me with Gon.” Voice barely a whisper he confessed his feelings to you, only you could make him vulnerable.

You hug his arm and smile up at him noticing the slight blush on his serious face. “Don’t worry Killu-nii, he’s our friend, but you’ll always be my best friend okay? It’s always going to be me and you, we came here together and we’re going to leave here together!” How could he be so naive, she’s just so sweet and she always put Kil first. Smiling Killua nodded and when they met up with the group there were no more issues with jealousy. Y/n would never leave her brother.

And eventually they both arrived back to Kukuroo Mountain after parting ways with Gon, both holding Allukas hands. During their trip the pair having learned nen and being capable users were certainly much stronger than when they left.

Ironically Y/n developed a nen ability that made her able to use her tears to heal others, mainly for the sake of Killua who she couldn’t stand seeing injured. His heart was floating when she explained the reason why she developed this secondary ability. And selfishly enough he didn’t just let her heal just anyone with her gift, if he didn’t feel they were worthy of your time or tears they could rot in hell for all he cared. Y/n trusted Killuas judgement though and didn’t question how he assessed who she should or shouldn’t heal.

The twins were great fighters naturally but with the added ability of nen they were a unstoppable duo, just as Silva had predicted. Yet Killua saw the dangers of nen with his own eyes witnessing what it did to Gon.

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Again he came to his Father directly with the same request that fell upon deaf ears last time. This time around however, Silva agreed only if Killua were to become an assassin and continue the family business. A steep price for your safety but he needed to know you would be safe.

It hurt him more than any method of torture to see her sad but deep down a small part of him loved that she cried for him. She was someone who cared and always showed it, making sure to kiss each of his visible cuts. “There all better, right Kil?” She’d smile at him and he went weak for it every single time.

At puberty is when you find out your sub race, whether you’re a alpha, omega, or a beta. Killua obviously was an Alpha. Stubborn and a born leader, if he wanted something he was going to have it. And you? No doubt your an Omega, naturally submissive in nature listening to your parents and following after your brothers every word. Always nurturing and caring for him and your younger siblings. So it went without question when you both presented as your said roles.

The two of you were walking side by side in the forest surrounding the mansion straying very far from your home. “See I told you didn’t I, Y/n.” He said with a toothy grin his canines nice and sharp. I nod and smile sweetly at my brother, “I didn’t doubt you Killu-nii !” He called long before we could confirm what we were.

Recalling all the times he would tease you, “You have to be be an omega! Why else are you such a big baby!” Only eliciting a pout from me and he laughed poking my cheek with his finger. “I think it’s cute, don’t worry when we’re older I promise to take care of you and your moody feelings, I’ll be a good Alpha.” His voice sounded serious like he was trying to convince me and he only laughed again as I hid my smile and blush.

“Wait up, Kil!” I ran briskly after him as I shake myself out of that memory. He was much taller than me now, and stronger. And he grew his hair out into a long messy mullet, looking more and more like Papa as we got older. (He only grew his hair out because he got jealous when you would braid and play with Illumis long hair, but he’ll never admit that. Ever.) You changed too, your curves becoming more prominent especially with the training you did. Your beauty only increased as time passed your mother making sure to always keep you dolled up.

And boy did Killua enjoy it, always telling you how pretty you are and being sure to do small things for you like brush your hair or pick outfits out for you.

Grinning mischievously Killua only goes faster, disappearing into the greenery surrounding you.

I huff and puff as I search everywhere for him in the area we’re in. “Come on Kil! I’m not going to play with you right now.” But he doesn’t budge from his hiding spot probably thinking it’s funny. Fine two can play at this game! I pretend to be upset and sigh turnin around to head back home alone. “Fine I give up. I’m going home now Kil.” I barely get three steps back in the direction we came from when I feel his arms wrap around me from behind.

I jump slightly and weakly attempt to escape his arms feigning as upset but he won’t budge. “Where do you think your going hmm? I was only joking Y/n don’t be such a crybaby about it.” He snickers when I go lax in his arms holding me there for a moment before spinning me around so he can see my pouty face. “Y/nnnn? Don’t be like that, you do this to me all the time.” He drawls out my name as he looks me over.

Leaning closer to him I give him my sad eyes and he squishes my cheeks. “Such a baby.” He mumbles looking at my lips before looking back into my eyes. He drawls forward so our noses are touching gives me a bunch of small pecks on the lips. Furrowing his brows when I don’t reciprocate his affections he mumbles on my lips “ I‘m sorry Y/n.” Sweet moments like this are regular between you especially when you’re far from home like this.

I smile and feel my cheeks heat up under his hold on me. And he knows he has me right where he wants me. My arms extend as I place them over his shoulder loosely. Instantly he accepts this by pulling me in closer, his hand on the small of my back. Placing kisses all over my cheek he still speaks in a low tone, “You forgive me?” I nod my head basking in his affections but still not reciprocating his touches. His voice sounds desperate as he pulls me back far enough to get a good look at me again. “Why aren’t you kissing back then?”

i smile sheepishly and pretend I’m going in to kiss him but flick him on the forehead. Now it’s his turn to pout as I laugh and slip from his grip running through the forrest. Smiling himself he chases after me, “Hey! I knew you were faking it you big baby.” Secretly though he’s relieved that your back to your normal cheerful self, and you’ll be sure to make up for it when he catches you.

Your laughter rings throughout the forest as Kil catches up to you giving you a wolffish grin and pulling you in closely waiting for you to finally give him a kiss. 🦋

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Zeno watched the two leave the mansion, shaking his head before facing his son Silva. “It’s only a matter of time now before they give into their instincts. You shouldn’t let that boy run around with her without supervision or we will be expecting pups sooner than later.” Silva only sighed watching as they disappeared into the forest line, his father was right. Regardless of how stern he was Zeno had a soft spot for the little girl and so did Silva.

Not that it wasn’t anticipated by the family that the two were doting on each other already. But it was too soon for you two to fully mate you had to wait until you were 18. Only then would you know if the two of you were truly meant to be together. He would have to get you on heat suppressants in the mean time and have Killua sent away during ruts. Taking necessary precautions, you two weren’t little kids anymore.

𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓾𝓮𝓭

-𝓴

[machonnes]

Interview with the Vampire (2022-) 1.07 "The Thing Lay Still" 

[carve-your-initials]

I loooove it when a brother is also a boyfriend 🥰🥰🥰

[thebarroomortheboy]

PAUL MUNI (Tony Camonte), ANN DVORAK (Cesca Camonte) and GEORGE RAFT (Guino Rinaldo) in SCARFACE (1932) | dir. Howard Hawks

[dopescissorscashwagon]

Prince Louis & Princess Charlotte holding hands on King Charles III Coronation.

[carnivorous-women]

Absolutely loooove the word consanguinamory btw....it's bcs it has the word sanguine in it and vampires and incest make me cum so hard

[into-my-flesh]

I'm a simple man. I see my sister's makeup all messy and smeared and I immediately pop a boner so fast that I get dizzy

...which is a problem bcs a lot of the time the reason her makeup is fucked up is bcs we just finished fucking each other's brains out

[therealmofamorus]

(Ask, Original Crossover Incest) Winter and Cinder tease Fuyumi on her brother complex. Any truth to that?

“I don’t have a brother complex no matter what Winter-san, Cinder-san said otherwise!” Fuyumi replied in very very deep in denial about her extreme bro-con behavior to Shoto whom she love in a very wholesome and very very non-sexual manner that she do not masturbated with her depraved imagination help her out.

X-xx-X

“I find pictures of Shoto in various states of undress.” Cinder replied holding up a picture of Shoto taking off his pants.

“Her ‘novel’ is barely veiled of her and Shoto having intimate relationships.” Winter closed the novel with a flat deadpan laugh

[lvthkllr]

just some 12 am thoughts

As we get further out from season two—the superior season, and you can fight me on that—I cannot stop thinking about the brilliant choice the writers made to focus more heavily on the relationship between the Bridgerton siblings, because it was the one thing that season one really lacked.

Watching season one over again it's clear that Daphne's story was more about her sexual awakening rather than anything else. While I do acknowledge the importance of telling the story of a young girl discovering her sexuality during a historically prudish time period, the lack of focus on her relationship with any sibling that wasn't Anthony really left something to be desired.

The scenes where we saw Daphne and Anthony discussing their roles as the respective eldest siblings in their family were some of the most interesting of the whole season, they gave us a glimpse into Daphne's mind and her experiences as a women in a society solely focused on her "marry-ability". But it, frustratingly, all kind of stopped there. We got glimpses of a similar relationship between her and Eloise, as Daphne's marriage placed her former role onto Eloise's unwilling shoulders, but the issue always seemed to turn to the marital issues occurring between Simon and Daphne.

So when I turned on season two expecting a similar half-hearted attempt, I was pleasantly surprised to to find a story that masterfully wove the Bridgerton siblings into Anthony and Kate's love story. They no longer felt like background characters because we were seeing how Anthony's potential marriage deeply affects his relationship with his siblings, how his love for his family has always and will always color his thinking in a way that we just don't get with Daphne's season despite them being in very similar situations.

And with that being said, it is my greatest hope that the writers continue this focus as we enter season three, because book fans and seasoned romance watchers know that Colin, the forever purposeless third son, finds his calling in his love for Penelope. But his relationship with his siblings is still sooooo important, because besides his brief conversation with Daphne in season one, we haven't seen much emotional interaction between Colin and his siblings. So with Phoebe Dynevor out of the picture for season two the writers really have a chance to expand the Bridgerton sibling relationships and make Colin FINALLY have some quality time with his siblings—possibly Francesca because we've seen so little of her in the show and the two of them are so close in the books.

[siblingdisasters]

Loser little brother who finds out his older sister is a sex worker and begs her to help him lose his virginity so people at school will stop making fun of him for it

Afterwards they're both really disgusted by what they did, and even more disgusted by how good it felt. The brother needs more and starts making up all sorts of things he's getting teased for not having done with a girl by people at school and offering his sister more and more money each time so it's not like she can say no even though she absolutely hates it every time, even as her brother gets more and more into it each time and more and more desperate for his sister until finally he gives up and rapes her, but by that point she's so disgusted and resigned to her brother's creepyness she just lets it happen

Is this anything?

[carve-your-initials]

Siblings who carve each other up. Siblings who carve themselves up with their sib's initials. Siblings who bite and scratch and hit and choke each other. Siblings who collar each other. Siblings who are weird and obsessive and possessive towards each other. Siblings who love the taste and sight and feel of their sib's blood. Siblings who are so violently devoted to each other in a way that nobody else understands 🥰🥰🥰

[dopescissorscashwagon]

Prince & Paris Jackson

[hello-nichya-here]

Would you like zucest as much if Azula and Zuko were twins?

Would it still be my favorite ship of all time based on literally everything else about it? Absolutely.

Would I love it just as much? No.

Don't get me wrong, twincest is GREAT, especially when combined with the trope of "We are one in the same/soulmates" (and God knows that works really well for Zucest - I even have a fic with that kind of scenario), but I always liked Big Brother X Little Sister more, especially with such a small age gap.

It has that dynamic of "family hierarchy", with the older sibling being expected to and/or actively trying to be the protective, responsible one, who can guide their young sibling through some formative experiences because they already faced these situations - and the younger one bringing them back to earth, basically forcing them to stop taking themselves so seriously, usually through lovingly mocking them, and even getting them off guard by having some wisdom of their own to share.

But it also has the "Us VS The World" appeal, with them being a team because they're going through many of the same things at the same time, and end up relying on each other even without meaning to or ever realizing it.

It just combines everything I like, and Zucest got bonus points for the dysfunctional family, angsty Zuzu, and Bratty Zula.

[yayouzouthezoo]

I was in my room singing "History Makers" (from Yuri!!! On ice) and my bro, who just come back home from his higher studies for the week-end (I haven't seen him in 2 weeks), just came in and started singing with me, just like this. Out of nowhere.

He's the best bro. I love him.

[xxstitchesxx88]

Nothing as it seems. Chapter 1, Brother Dear.

Maddie couldn’t understand, no maybe she just didn’t want to. It was all just too much. First the fire truck, then the close call at Bobby’s Barbecue. Now the Tsunami. It’s as if her brother was a danger magnet. 

Honestly , why is it always Buck? Why is it always her brother? 

She thought about it but was unable to come up with anything, she understands that some people just have bad luck. It just seems like Buck has the universe out to get him.  

.

Ring-Ring 

.

The sound of the phone catches Maddie’s attention. Right, she's at work. She closes her eyes, sighing. 

It's time to stay focused and work out what she’s feeling later. Shaking off her thoughts and bringing her attention back to the matter at hand. She goes into an autopilot like state, as she presses the answer button. 

“9-1-1, what’s your emergency?” 

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Sighing, Maddie takes off her ear piece. It was finally her break time. She normally didn’t want to rush to break but there was just one call that made it seem like the call with Buck was just hours ago. It wasn’t exactly the same, however that did not prevent it from rushing the same emotions and bringing her back to that moment. 

“ Hello?” 

“H-Hey it’s me.” 

Maddie instantly grows confused, and concerned her brother sounds out of breath and nervous? No, not nervous, more like he was scared. 

“Buck? Where are you? I don’t know this number.”   

“ I-I borrowed someone else’s phone, Maddie I need your help.” 

Eyes knitting together in more confusion, as she tries to relax. 

 “ Okay, um,” She paused as she was processing everything. Getting a few seconds lost in her thoughts. 

Shaking her head as she thinks.

‘ Oh my god, is he hurt? Wait no, don’t panic yet, maybe he just needs to talk or check in on everything. ’ She nods, taking a breath as she continues. 

“Tell me what’s wrong, are you hurt?” 

“Eddie, he uh dropped Christopher off with me,” 

She nods her head slightly, taking in the information as she tries to process it.  

“He t-thought, you know t-that do-doing some activities with him would get me out of my apartment and” He paused for a second. “ a-and out of my head.”

Maddie sucked in a breath, knowing how Buck has been feeling lost lately. She planned on checking in on him after work today, but it appears Eddie got to him first. Which honestly  doesn’t surprise her, after all they're very close. He was probably just as worried about him as she was. 

Not understanding how it’s all related yet. She decided to stay quiet and listen to see what her brother wanted to say. 

“Maddie, I brought him to the pier.” 

Her heartbeat skips a beat, eyes widening ever so slightly. Concern and worry grow as she realizes he was at the worst possible part. She thought he was safe, not at the start of all this destruction. Is he hurt? Is that why he’s calling? Is that why he won’t tell her anything? Maybe it’s something worse.

‘Okay okay, you have to stay calm. Say something or even ask something.’ 

“Oh my god, you were there?” 

That isn’t exactly what she wanted to say, but it was something. All she knows is that she wants to go and meet up with him. She needs to see for herself if her brother is okay. She doesn’t get a chance to ask where he is because he speaks first. 

“I had h-him alright Mads. I had him, ” His voice cracks near the end of her name and it feels like a punch in the gut. Right. Christopher, he was with Buck. Oh god, if anything happened to him she knows Buck will blame himself. Even if it wasn’t his fault. 

“ I-I-I kept him safe!”  Her eyes tear up as she listens to him. God, she loved her brother, but it’s not if he asked to be in the middle of a Tsunami. 

“We- um we were on top of the ladder truck and then the water receded.” 

Her worries increased as he wasn’t really making any sense. She can somewhat understand that something might have happened. Even with that she knows she’s missing part of the story. She just wishes she could know if he’s okay and if Christopher was. 

“Okay, you're not answering me, are you injured, bleeding?” 

“No! No, it doesn’t matter!” Her hold on the phone tightens ever so slightly. As a bit of anger rises. What does he mean it doesn’t matter? Of course it matters. He’s her brother, her little brother! If he’s hurt she has to know. She can get him help or even just directions. She needs him to be okay. 

“Don’t you hear what I’m saying!” Of course she is, that's what has her all concerned. 

“C-Christopher…..he’s gone. I checked the emergency refugee camps at the promenade..a-a-and at the h—high school.” 

She sucks in a breath. As she tries to calm her, racing heart. She can’t get too emotional, she needs to stay calm. She clears her mind as she starts to think. Suddenly the VA Hospital came to mind. Right. Maybe Christopher’s already there and both of them are worried for nothing. 

“Okay, did you check the VA hospital, the Command center, you know, on Sawtelle?” 

“I’m here now and he..” He stops talking, and she holds her breath. 

“God….God.God no….” She hears quick movement over the line as her brother sounds worse. He’s whispering, why is he whispering? Her once-level head is going everywhere. 

“What?” Oh please be okay. 

She hears him take a breath before he speaks. 

“Eddie, he’s here”  

She relaxes ever so slightly, knowing it wasn’t something that she needed to worry about. It was just Eddie, who could probably help him find Christopher and calm him down. But first she needs to make sure her brother tells him. 

“Does he know what happened? Evan you have to tell him.” 

“How? How do you tell your best friend that you lost his son? ``He sounded so hurt but he needs to tell him. It’s like he said it’s his son. 

“No, no, no. He’s his father. You have to tell him Christopher is missing.” 

“N-No, Maddie I need to keep looking for him. I need to find him.”  God damnit! No, he doesn't, he's probably in no condition to do so. 

“Buck, you are in condition to go looking for Christopher by yourself.” Which only means she needs to get there to help her little brother. 

“I’m coming down there” Ignoring the hushed no’s she hangs up and stands ready to head down and help anyway she can.

Maddie jumps when a hand lands on her shoulder.  She turns and sees Josh, who has concerns written all over his face. Right. Work. 

“Are you okay? You're crying.” 

She blinked, she's crying? She hadn’t noticed, of course, she was too far in her memories to catch. That isn’t the issue anymore, but she’s at work and can’t get too emotional. She plasters on a small smile as she looks up at him and responds. 

“Y-yeah I’m okay I just was caught up in an old call.” His eyes soften as he nods. He goes to leave her be, but stops turning back towards her again. 

“I know that you came in today to get away from certain thoughts, but I think you should go home.”

He seems nervous, almost as if he’s scared to hurt her. Even if she knows that’s impossible to do. Though it seems that he wasn’t done.

“Not that it’s not great to have you here, it’s just, you know after everything with the Tsunami and with....” 

Before he could get the words out she decides she has heard enough. Maybe it is possible that he could get her emotions wild a bit. 

“ No, no Josh it’s okay, I’m okay.” He looks at her unconvinced but she doesn’t want him to worry, because honestly she is fine. Or at least she will be. 

“I promise, I’ll even take a trip outside for fresh air. Okay? So stop worrying and please don’t- don’t just don’t say anything” 

He looks at her as if he’s analyzing everything she just said. He nods and slumps in defeat. 

“A-alright, but Maddie. You can come talk with me, you know that right?” 

She stands, as she gives him a nod and a small smile before she starts walking out to the elevator. She thinks she needs that fresh air right about now. 

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Sitting and relaxing on the bench was nice and a bit refreshing with all the fresh air. Maddie might have only been outside for three to four minutes, but it still helped even if it was only a little bit. She was glad she decided to do this. It was getting cooped up being inside work and then with Josh’s talk it got almost suffocating. 

She knows he means well, but she came to work for a reason and she was happy to be here. Everyone needed to stop worrying because honestly she was fine. Before she could continue with her thoughts a familiar voice spoke up. 

“I see you decided to go to work today?” 

She tenses ever so slightly as she looks over towards someone she wasn’t expecting to see. Buck. God damn it Josh. He probably gave him a call and now she had to make sure he wasn’t worried about her too. She sighed,

“I’m fine Buck, did Josh really call you to check in on me? Really I’m okay, I don't need to be checked in on. I’m not the one who got stuck in a Tsunami and I’m not someone who lost anything.” Her breath caught in her throat as the words came out. Shit. She didn't mean for that to come out. 

Buck stance tenses ever so slightly and whatever small smile was on his face fell. He looks away from her towards the ground as he clutches his fists and shoves them into his pocket. 

“I’m sorry Buck- I-I” but he cut her off.

“No no, it’s- I mean I get it” he looks back up towards as he walks over and takes a seat next to her. He locks eyes with her giving a small smile. 

“ I just wish you didn’t push yourself, you have the right to feel upset you know?” 

Upset? Why would she need to be upset? The anger that was present earlier returned as her calmness vanished. 

“Upset? Buck what right do I have to feel upset. That day I only got a scare when you gave me a call. It’s not as if I was hurt like so many other people where.” 

The smile on his face falls slightly as he looks a bit guilty. Looking down while nodding. God, she didn’t mean to make him feel guilty, she just wanted to get back to how things were. 

“Y-yeah, sorry about that.” He look back up towards her, as he continued. “I-I really am.” Her eyes water slightly as she nods and looks away from him. Right now she wished he wasn’t here. Her emotions are all over the place and she does not want him to see her like this. Even so she can’t keep letting him blame himself for this. 

“No, no, it’s okay Buck. Nothing that you needed to be sorry for. It was a natural disaster Buck……y-you couldn’t have predicted….” Her voice catchers in her throat as her eyes start to sting. Honestly she wishes she could just stop feeling or even stop crying today. Can’t he just see that she needs time? Can’t anyone? 

“Hey,hey, hey. None of that.” He gently grabs her face as he makes her look back at him. “It’s okay, everything’s okay. Christopher’s okay, Eddie’s okay, your okay….” 

Finally all her emotions seem to switch fueling her anger to her boiling point. 

“No! No! It’s not okay Buck! I don’t care about them! I don’t care if they're okay, or if I’m okay. I care about you! I care about what happened to you, don’t you see that! You scared me so much- I mean, I-I was so scared of losing you! I was so scared that I wouldn’t be able to hear your voice ever again! I can’t live without you Buck, I can’t, and I don’t want to. You mean so much to me if I lost you...” Her voice cracks near the end as she shuts her eyes tight, shaking her head to get that thought out of her head. Tears flow down her cheeks as she lets out a sob. Suddenly she’s pulled into a tight embrace that spreads warmth and protection. 

“Shh, it's okay Mad, I’m right here…” He starts gently rubbing her back. She holds him tighter as she nods. Sniffing, her words coming back to her, she pauses. 

“I-I, didn’t mean it like that…….I care about them, its just- Buck I can’t do this with out you. You are so important. I don’t think I’ll ever be the same if something where to happen to you..” 

The hold on her tightens as she hears his words catching in his throat, but he clears his throat.

“I knew what you meant Mads, just-” He paused a second. As what, she assumes he’s trying to get the right words together. She takes a breath and almost smiles at the thought. Who knew her having a breakdown could get her brother speechless. She starts to calm down a bit, as she listens to the nature around them waiting for him to continue. 

“ I love you so so much you know that right?” She tightens her hold on him as she nods. Of course, she knows that. 

“A-and you can get through this. I know you can, I don’t need to be here in order for that to happen.” She tenses, she is not liking what she is hearing. Of course she needs him, she’ll always need her little brother. She doesn’t admit it often enough, but he is one of the reasons why she fought so hard to survive. It would kill her to not have him around. 

“ Do you want to know why?” She could only nod again because she was fighting back the anger and sadness from where this talk was headed. 

“It’s because you're the bravest, strongest and most badass women I have ever met. You know how to survive, you know how to live. A-and I-if I wasn’t here I know that you’ll be just fine, because you would be able adapt and move on. Y-you don’t need me like I need you.” 

Breath catching in her throat as she let out a sob and shook her head. No. That’s not at all true. She will always need Buck, he’s her rock, her brother. She loves him so much and if she didn’t have him. She’ll feel so isolated, so alone. 

“N-no I’ll always need you Buck, always.” He lets out a choked up sad laugh. 

“Well I’ll always be with you, no matter what. You would have our memories and stories to remember me- “ She shakes her head as she pulls away, he needs to stop.

“I don’t want just your memories! I want you here Evan!” His eyes went wide as she noticed that he appeared to have started crying as well. Her anger vanishes as she looks at his face, he looks so sad. It breaks- no it shatters her heart. 

“Ev-Evan I’m sorry, I just- I don’t want you to talk like that.” His shock leaves his face, but the tears continue to flow as he takes a gulp, nodding.

“No I-I know, I’m sorry it’s just I know how you are. You’ll feel angry, sad, and guilt Mads. You would blame yourself, and I want to make sure you know that you don’t have to do that. I don’t want you working your self to death,  I want to make sure you’ll be okay, because-” He paused as he gently places his hand on her shoulder. 

“You’re not alone even without me Maddie, you have Howie, Josh, and you’ll have the 118 team. I need you to remember that. You have so many other people who will be here when I do go and I don’t want you to stop caring or living  because of losing me.” She takes a breath. 

Realization hits her like a pile of bricks, she understands now. Her eyes soften as the tears continue to flow. 

“Y-you’re right, Buck..” He grows a smile as he stands offering his hand. 

“Of course I am, now why not take the rest of the day off and  we get out of here?” She nods taking his hand and standing herself. He’s right, she’ll give her job a call and then head home. She has a lot of stuff to do after all. And knowing Buck will be helping and being with her is all that she needs.