I remembered why I never wanted to get attached to a celebrity.
I truly, genuinely, really miss BTS. So, so much. I'm watching old content and I just... I miss them. I miss watching videos of them together laughing, practicing, just having fun. I think I'm finally realizing that BTS has taken a break. It's finally hitting home that there will be no bts for a while and honestly? I'm not doing well with that realisation.
I just finished watching Memories 2019 SYS, disc 1 & 2, and it's all Rosebowl content. Yeah. Talk about a treasure-filled experience.
It was at the end of 2019 when I first heard of BTS, but didn't have any idea what they were. I knew nothing. So I missed all that happened that year.
Seeing the concert footage, the backstage footage, as well as the rehearsal footage has been really cool. Especially coming from this point of awareness, as an ARMY in 2024. All those moments that I saw in my first year(2020) of deep diving and watching so much on YouTube. There's nothing like seeing it in it's original context.
That infamous Rosebowl moment between Jungkookie and Jiminie.... and, all of the other moments.
I'll be continuing my exploration of original stuff, while we wait for June of next year. It is so worth it to watch. Every glimpse into their history helps me to understand them just a little bit more. 💜
Photographs are special. They map out our lives through precious memories. They leave a footprint in time that can forever be part of our history. These glimpses of our past, make us who we are and show what or who is important to us. They are full of so much love and emotions, even more so when they are shared with those most trusted to us. This goes for every photo shared by the members.
I personally think it’s amazing that we can tell when a photo of Jimin is taken by Jungkook, there’s a certain style to it and it comes across even at a glance. One of my favourite photos of Jimin by Jungkook is this one:
This photo was taken from the behinds of Life Goes On. Each MV was beautifully directed by Jungkook, and it’s hard to miss the references made from within their old dorm. I know Jungkook isn’t keen on photos but, just like during GCFT, Jimin is looking at Jungkook and not the camera here with that smile. With that one look, that we are so familiar with, we can trace every single moment within their history which has that same shining expression. It tells a story over time, but also that one photo itself is so telling in the way that it was captured. One of my favourite photos of Jungkook by Jimin is this one:
There’s something raw and delicate in this photo.You can see it in Jungkook’s eyes. Each item in the photo tells its own little story, from the Birthday cake to the polaroid photos on the table that we never saw. This photo is all we saw from the night of Jungkook’s Birthday in 2019 and sometimes I am reminded that with these glimpses into their lives, there are still so many moments of theirs that we are unaware of. For example, Jungkook had a hickey on his neck during MOTS:Online and none of us had any idea until the DVD Behinds came out.
For every selca or video that Jikook has shared with us, it shows a part of them that we are so lucky to witness. To be able to watch their growth over the years is magical and something I will always cherish. Why am I going on about photos and memories though? Because they give so much of themselves to us and I will never take it for granted, nor expect them to give more to us than they want to. Some of their memories are for them only, but we can still hold dear what we know already…
Some of you know this already, but I have been caring for my Mother lately. Over the last few months, her memory has worsened. In an attempt to help, we play memory games and repeat simple tasks together. However, her memory is something that cannot be simply fixed with such methods. I had the idea to get out family photos, until I realised that we had stopped taking them when my parents divorced. It’s made me more proactive in archiving things that I do each day. Every little thing I see or hear, I note it down or save the song. In a way, it’s also how I associate with BTS or Jikook. When the BTS World soundtrack came out, I was having a really bad day and it gave me a lot of comfort. I smile whenever I hear Pied Piper because it’s one of my friends favourite songs. Any time I hear “Jungkookie” or “Jimin-ssi”, a barrage of memories come to the front of my mind and I grasp onto all of them whilst I still can.
I'm sure it's not just me who does this either, Jimin and Jungkook probably do this themselves. You could see that when Jungkook was watching Jimin’s compilation with us. He was recollecting the same memories as us, but he also has access to an entirely different set of memories that we don’t know of. We also saw that with the way Jimin and Jungkook both explained the Rainy Day Fight. During the Festa video, Jungkook mentioned “rainy day” and expected Jimin to understand what he meant. Later on, Jimin and Jungkook gave their own versions of what happened in their separate lives. They both more or less experienced the same thing, but blamed themselves for their actions and not the other.
They love adding to their own collections of memories. Every single time that Jimin watched Jungkook rehearse and the other way around, enough so that they could probably be a backup dancer. All the clips they have but haven’t shared. The moments we don’t find out until later, the inside jokes they have without context. We don’t understand, but that doesn’t matter. Only they have to and we just watch and smile. Their memories are a huge part of them, it’s what makes their bond so special.
i remember getting very confused about their song releases and just the discography in general, so i compiled official releases in one post.
stray kids also have multiple songs only released on youtube, usually under "SKZ-RECORD", which means they're not on albums (or spotify). these are the ones:
ORIGINALS (only on youtube):
DRIVE - CHAN, LEE KNOW
UP ALL NIGHT - 오늘 밤 나는 불을 켜 - SEUNGMIN, FELIX, CHANGBIN, CHAN
MAKNAE ON TOP - 막내온탑 - I.N, feat. CHAN, CHANGBIN
LITTLE STAR - 꼬마별 - HYUNJIN
ICE CREAM - HYUNJIN
STREET LIGHT - CHANGBIN feat. CHAN
CLOSE - HAN
HAPPY - HAN
WISH YOU BACK - HAN
조각 (SCULPTURE) - CHANGBIN, SEUNGMIN
좋으니까 (BECAUSE I LOVE YOU) - CHANGBIN, FELIX
외계인 (ALIEN) - HAN
찬스 (CHANCE) - FELIX, CHAN
한 번 더 리플레이 (ICE AMERICANO) - LEE KNOW, HAN
빵꿀즈 (YEAH BOSS) - I.N, CHANGBIN
0티격태격 (TEASING) - HYUNKIN, SEUNGMIN "잔소리 대마왕 (KING OF NAGGING)"
인정하기 싫어 (I HATE TO ADMIT IT) - CHAN
CYPHER - CHANGBIN
I GOT IT - HAN
not to mention 3RACHA, a sub-unit constituted by CHAN, CHANGBIN AND HAN, (who go by different names: CB97, SPEARB, J.ONE) also have their own tracks on separate releases, one of them named ZONE. i'll just leave the link for their official channel because everything is there and neatly organized. click here to see 3RACHA's stuff.
there are also OST (original soundtracks) that weren't released as singles or single albums, like TOP, so these are the ones i found:
POP UP BOY!: HELLO STRANGER (STRAY KIDS)
LOVE IN CONTRACT: CLOSE TO YOU (SEUNGMIN)
EXTRAORDINARY YOU: NEVER ENDING STORY (also translated as "story that won't end") (STRAY KIDS)
HOMETOWN CHA-CHA-CHA: HERE ALWAYS (SEUNGMIN)
TOWER OF GOD: TOP (STRAY KIDS)
TOWER OF GOD: SLUMP (STRAY KIDS)
these are collabs i know exist:
GOING DUMB - ALESSO X STRAY KIDS X CORSAK
JUST BREATHE - SKY-HI feat. 3RACHA (CHAN, CHANGBIN, HAN)
MIRROR MIRROR - F.HERO x MILLI feat. CHANGBIN
NO PROBLEM - NAYEON (TWICE) feat. FELIX
COVERS:
they have covered tons of songs, from voice to choreos, whether on studios or live, and it's a little impossible to compile all of them, but i'll be completing this list as i come across them:
(most of the covers in this list came from a video i found, by user Cray K, and it's from january, 2019, so they are featured on the same video):
AS IF IT'S YOUR LAST - (originally by BLACKPINK)
GO CRAZY + HANDS UP - (originally by 2PM)
NEW FACE - (originally by PSY)
WARRIOR'S DESCENDANT - (originally by H.O.T)
IT'S RAINING - (originally by RAIN)
DANCE THE NIGHT AWAY - (originally by TWICE)
WHO'S YOUR MAMA -(originally by JYP)
GOODBYE BABY - (originally by MISS A)
LOOK - (originally by GOT7)
DNA - (originally by BTS)
HARD CARRY - (originally by GOT7)
GROWL + OVERDOSE - (originally byEXO)
DIONYSIUS - (originally by BTS)
BANG, BANG, BANG - (originally by BIG BANG)
FANCY - (originally by TWICE)
MY HOUSE - (originally by 2PM)
ADORE U - (originally by SEVENTEEN)
LIKE OOH AHH - (originally by TWICE)
AGAIN & AGAIN - (originally by 2PM)
HISTORY OF K-POP: Stray Kids X NCT DREAM (featuring felix' iconic "BOOM SHAKA LAKA, WOW FANTASTIC" that you see everywhere)
INDIVIDUAL/TWO PEOPLE COVERS: it also includes other people that were featuring the songs. these might get confusing because most titles are in korean, but i did my best to find the original artists' names romanized and the songs' titles:
위로 ("consolation) |artist: 권진아 = KWON JIN-AH |cover by I.N
GHOST |artist: Justin Bieber| cover by SEUNGMIN
ZOMBIE |artist: DAY6 - cover by HAN, SEUNGMIN
향기만 남아 ("memory of your scent") |artist: 허각 = HUH GAK - covered by I.N
3108 |artist: 하현상 = HA HYUNSANG |cover by SEUNGMIN
LOVE AGAIN |artist: 백현 = BAEKHYUN - covered by SEUNGMIN
너였다면 ("if it is you")/ artist: 정승환 = JUNG SEUNG-HWAN - covered by I.N
시작 ("start") |artist: 가호 = GAHO |cover by SEUNGMIN
그렇게 있어 줘 ("stay as you are") |artist: 산들 - SANDEUL |cover by SEUNGMIN
CONGRATULATIONS |artist: DAY6 |cover by HAN, SEUNGMIN
예뻤어 ("you were beatiful") |artist: DAY6 |covered by SEUNGMIN
ME! |artist: Taylor Swift |covered by Tzuyu (from TWICE feat. CHAN)
PSYCHO |artist: Red Velvet |covered by HYUNJIN (SKZ), SANHA (ASTRO), BOMIN (GOLDEN CHILD), DAEHWI AB6IX
여름 안에서("in summer) |artist: DEUX |covered by FELIX, 우기 (SONG YUQI), 영훈 (THE BOYZ)
"TOMORROW" |artist: ? |covered by CHANGBIN (on masked singer)
CITY OF STARS |artist: ? |covered by FELIX, LIA (ITZY), CHAN
there's a bunch of other covers made in variety shows besides live performances, so i'm just gonna leave this link for you to see everything is compiled.
BTS show physical affection with each other, they hold, hug, touch each other in ways that would perhaps raise an eyebrow for some, but within their cultural context are not a sign of ‘more’ than friendly affection and closeness. Although, I do have to say that BTS do stretch the boundaries on that one too. Some of the touchy feely is beyond what you would expect it to be among grown male friends in Korea as well. But they did grow up together, in a sense, and although it’s a little more than usually accepted, it still is not an indication to anything more than a very close friendship.
But JM and JK, they have these moments. Two types of suspicious moments.
These moments when they pull back on the touching, the almost touching or touching but just... barely. Those moments where you are sitting there and screaming at the screen (in your mind) “fucking touch him already”, which presents as highly suspicious considering how close those two are on the one hand and how tactile they are on the other.
And then you have these moments where it’s more, it’s suspicious, it’s not something that you would expect between just friends.
So I thought I would put bring together, in one post, some of these moments.
Moments they do something, touch, almost touch, behave in a way that makes you go “this doesn’t look like something ‘just a friend’ would do”, or “heck, those two must be really intimate for this to be happening”.
j 14 interview
I guess I started with a big one. What is it they say? Go big or go home? Whatever JM was doing there with his wiggly wiggle finger during that interview was not something just between friends. It just wasn't.
BV1 footsies
No matter how close you are with your friend, him playing footsies with your crotch is not something you would allow him to do, well unless if you are not "just friends".
BV2 footsies
Here it's JK's reaction. If it was ok for a "friend" to play footsies, if said footsy playing did absolutely nothing for him, we wouldn't be seeing that reaction from him. That gulp. Man. He was hit hard, probably in the full sense of the word, lol.
Footsies BV4
Less about JK's toesies just lightly touching JM's leg and more about the physical reaction the two of them had that followed. Suffice to say that the room was getting real hot for the two (which is also why JK running to put on a big covering coat was pretty funny).
BV3 cuddles
Do we need to explain here?
It's not only the fact that JM is touching JK in these more intimate areas, it's the lack of reaction (well almost lack of reaction...there are those reactions that you just can't help) from JK.
Rose Bowl of course.
No matter how much people will try to twist this up, it takes a special level of intimacy to take someone's sweaty dirty ear into your mouth and suck on it, for 4 seconds straight. And then end it all with a light kiss on the ear.
hickey
I guess this one is a given too. I've heard the stories about brotherly neck sucking and nope, I do not buy that. Not one bit. No matter how the story is told, JM put his mouth on JK's neck, exactly where JK's mole happens to be, and sucked on it hard enough to bruise it. Yep. Not something you do with a "just friend".
Btw, love the editors captions. *in pain*, lol.
This one
And this one too.
And this one too.
Oh, and this too.
It's about being used to be in that kind of proximity. Muscle memory. The lack of an initial reaction, and only pulling away at the very end. And it's not for a skit or game. It's all them. That smirk on JK's face in the 2019 TMA's and the BV2 moments, priceless.
Same day as this, btw, just if you weren't aware of it or just forgot.
It's definitley not this
Or this
Just saying.
Festa 2020 karaoke
It's not about the touch, more abut JK's reaction to it.
And how can I leave this last one out?
JK just moving that pesky crop top aside to caress JM’s waist/hip skin on skin, a little smirk on his face when he moves in, JM mostly non reacting although if you do look closely you can see a tiny little smile there towards the end when JK starts playing with his fingers on his bare skin. This screams of two people who are physically intimate.
Feel free to add more examples. Maybe I'll make a part 2 for this one too.