#but GOD I wish that he just never decided to let my mother convice him to have kids

[depressedrockmetalgothindiechic]

Glad I got my mother's looks and not my father's fr<3

I only have his eyes and for that reason I wanna km$ and gouge out my eyes<3

[cooloddball]

Someone submitted something in my inbox and they wanted to remain anonymous. Since this is an extremely long essay, I will put it under the cut. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

xxx submitted: hey, i was the one who ask what do you think of Misha and Jensen's current relationship First off all thank you for your answear it means much to me cause im easy to be convice and this person who keep telling me that they are no longer friends can be so convicing, so I'm actully trying to forget what she said 😅 so I'm just writing a few. she said that since they no longer work together, they will forget about each other, and do their common things like the gay jokes, face touches ect. With other people, and neglect each other, don't talk to each other, and then meet new people who will replace the other. And and she talked about the gish thing, she said she sure they didn't talk since the end of the series, because Jensen didn't know where Misha was and Misha didn't know about the Radio Company vol 2 (but i saw people say that, they were just pretending, because Misha liked something about Radio Company Vol 2, before the gish live, so in theory he already knew then or something like that) and She said Misha wrote a poem about Darius not Jensen and now I will write down what she sent me : I saw a post about Jensen's current activities on social media, and I've come to the conclusion the only person he doesn't interact with is mish. Sadly this makes my break up theory even stronger. I feel like this is a goodbye to one of the biggest parts of my life. They've moved on from "uk what I haven't told you today? That i love u"+ from "miss my only jensen" from "i love u misha i mean it from the bottom of my heart" from "jensen has no flaws" from "misha is the funniest thing ever happened to me" from all that love and affection from everything they developed together and now they're apart leaving their lives like nothing happened and call me a dramatic but they both have the same energy now as someone has after a big break up. and Jensen comments on almost every of his friend’s post except Misha’s"+ Jenmish is genuinely the best thing that has ever happened in my entire life. I owe them literally everything. They're the reason i hold on. Unfortunately on this essay i have to start using past tense verbs for them, and i have to continue on that. I don't know for how long y'all been in spn fandom. But even if u joined one year before the show ended you'd know how close and intimate jensen and misha were. Everything about them was unmatched.+ The chemistry and how they just fit eachother. They had always been all over eachother. Like they were holding on eachother for dear life. They completed eachother and were like world's most powerful thing. They were the definition of soulmatism. No matter where, they ALWAYS kept interacting with eachother. Each possible tweet or insta post. On cons that the other wasn't there, the other one would bring up the othere's name for no absolute reason. +The looks and repeated love confessions. How invested they were both into eachother. The family they had built together cuz we know how close dee and mish are (look all the charity work they've been doing together recently). There are youtube videos to proof everything I've said so far.When i say break up, my real intention is that they've grown apart. Everything started in the the third or forth month of pandemic. Before than jensen used to interact +(comment mostly) on almost all of misha's posts. But after a while everything just stopped. At first personally didn't care that much. Bcuz I believed too much in them that I thought not even the gods above could separate them. I told myself maybe they spend long hours chatting or video calling and that's why online public interactions are gone. But as it passed it almost diminished to zero. Except some likes from jackles and eventual ones from misha there weren't anything else.+ We got absolutely no content and the show went off too. We were helpless and were sticking to everything we had Dee had a big social media shot down, so as jensen. Misha was busy with the election. We got some interviews for it with all of them. But we didn't get much.except remember both of them pulling a bff

move. and texted eachother during an online con where everyone else were dead-serious about politics? That flickered something in me. That showed me that+ they can't ever possibly let eachother go. And the times everyone else were talking and these too would just talk random things together (the one jackels had a white hat on with stacy abraham).And then Misha posted that for jensen's bday We really overlooked it. That shit was too intimate. To close. Fav march baby? U just don't go around and called ur bestie baby and when u mean it deeply. Especially not when ur friend is jensen ackles the "I suffered form internalized homophobia my whole life+ but fuck my wife's an angel and i have an angel bf too and another angel which is his wife but I'd rather die than come out cuz my asshole dad pulled a John winchester on me". It doesn't work like that. But uk how mish is. Carefree and open. I believe they got into a fight bcuz of this. He didn't even like the post. AND that was when the tiny bit of interactions we had was gone too. For a while jensen didn't even liked his posts. After a month it started again.What made me finally believe in that they had grown too+ far: I still remember the night misha posted that he and jensen were going to have a con for gish together. I remember how hard I cried. Lile the whole world was given to me. But deep down in my heart I knew that something would definitely happen. It didn't sit right with me and unfortunately my senses never lie to me. Jensen showed up at the wrong time bcuz of misunderstanding the time zones (this was HILARIOUS). That's not even my point.+ I've seen that interview 3 times so far. It always reminds me of when i saw my ex at a party and we were both so thrilled to see eachother and we still loved the other dearly, but we just couldn't work it out. Jensen and Misha's expressions were EXACTLY the same. The genuine smiles and longs pauses were they just stared at eachother. I'm so happy that it was online cuz if they actually gave that looks to eachother standing right next to the other one I would've collapsed. Misha didn't know that jensen's album+ was out. And he got so embarrassed when he found it out. He didn't know that jensen was on set and hadn't been home for 8weeks. Jensen had no idea where misha was. And this means that they hadn't talked in a long long time.When you're that close with someone for more than a decade, i mean THAT close, even if u're separated from eachother you'd at least check on the once a week, or at least once in two weeks. But it was vividly clear that they hadn't. I hate how this world works. They would always be in my heart.+ I would be thankful from them for everything. It hurts, and it won't stop and im so sure I'd be carrying this pain for a long time. They mean too much to a lot of us. Sometimes I think to myself that god i love them so much. Remember in 2019 when we used to get SO many jenmishdee interactions? That was LIT. It was THEE year for us. I hope they're doing good. I really do. I hope we don't get more proofs and I won't have to update this thread. Cuz my heart won't be taking it very+ well.Something i gotta add U may say that Jensen's busy and that's why he doesn't comment. But he comments on a lot of jared and his new costar's posts. So that's no excuse. So yeah that's it. I don't know what am I supposed to think. english isn't my native language, so sorry for the mistakes

Here is my response:

I don't know who this person who has been talking to is but I have to say they seem to be project their previous relationship experience on cockles.

I believe Jensen and Misha are okay and are together. Social media likes and comments don't mean anything. I mean it's not like Jensen or Misha used to comment on each other's posts before. Jensen didn't even wish Dee Happy Mother's Day this year, does that mean they are not together anymore? Nope. He has other best friends he has known for over 20 years like Jason Manns, Steve Carlson etc that he doesn't wish happy birthday, does that mean they are not friends anymore.

Please let's not put value on social media likes. I don't even follow my own family on sm and I don't always like or comment on my bf's or bff's posts on sm. So it doesn't mean anything.

As for the Gish Panel, I have talked about it before, the time Jensen was slotted to attend the panel, he was meant to answer fan questions. I honestly believe they decided to not do it at that time because they knew the questions would be about Destiel and not their new projects. If you watched that panel, Misha knew that Jensen's album was out as I pointed out. He was just trying to promote the album and soldier boy. He knew Jensen had also buffed out. It was all to promote Jensen. Anything else you hear is trolls and antis just being loud. Also don't forget Jensen called him "babe".

If Jensen and Misha weren't okay, he wouldn't have attended or participated all those panels Misha organized especially for Gish. Danneel also posts a lot about RA and likes Misha's posts. I am 100% Misha visited the Ackles when he went to Colorado last month.

Stop listening to trolls and/or antis or just people who are projecting and look at facts.

[justrednow]

American Idiot (movie)

LaNow I love the musical and I love both albums featured. I’m hoping that’s the plot of the movie that I believe is being produced. But also like, I’d be down for some bat shit crazy stuff a la Pink Floyd: The Wall. But you know what’d I’d be really down for. 

No one asked for this. I’m aware.

American Idiot: So, we open on good ol’ perfect Jingletown and meet the perfect town and all its hidden horror. We get to see a good amount of repetitive time pass. Seeing the struggles of the working class of America. Theres a focus on the younger generation being strung along in their parents problems. 

As the song comes ot an end, or vamps under Idk, we meet our boy Johnny. Who in my opinion should be far more like the average vague age youth. He doesn’t know who he is and we meet his ex-underground rock band dad who is kinda an asshole. but he loves his wife, and probably loves his sons. We also meet Johnny’s brother who is just back from rehab. The pair make up everything Johnny doesn’t want to be.  

Jesus of Suburbia I-III: Johnny meets up with his friends at the 7/11 and lament about life while drinking stolen beer. Johnny talks about how much he wants to run away and find his true origins in the nitty gritty of a big city and wants to know true pain. Will complains about being a part of a military family and his parents divorice, and how none of them will ever fight for their country. Tunny reveals that he brought his family bible to burn, but is reluctant to do so. He too is struggling to know who he is, but says nothing. The group is chased out of the back lot by the manager of the 7/11. 

Jesus of Suburbia IV-V: Back in Will’s empty house Heather is waiting, revealing how she’s been trying to get Will’s attention. She is once again ignored when Johnny tells the group how he scored tickets to a concert in the “big city”. This is his plan to run away and never look back, he encourages the others to come with him. Heather gives Will a positive pregnancy test, in an attempt to break up with him. instead he elects to stay home, in protest of his own broken home. 

Tunny and Johnny refuse to change their plan, unable to understand how Will can have a light at the end of the tunnel. They argue as the two get on the bus to leave. Johnny tells Tunny he forgot to tell his mom that he was leaving. 

Holiday: In the big city the pair burst into their new life. They come alive at the concert and bond with a group of anti-war protesters. Whatsername catches the eye of Johnny, but he chickens out of talking with her. They join the protesters march on a government building after the concert, watching as one of the protesters leads with a speech on the steps. He is everything Johnny wants to be. After the police arrive and the peaceful protest is broken up the pair are invited back to the home, an abandon building, of a group of protesters.

Boulevard of Broken Dreams: Johnny tells the group his and Tunny’s story, capturing the attention of Whatsername who appears to have a similar story. Johnny gains confidence as he finds that these are his people. The Big City is somehow everything Johnny thought it would be, dark and gritty. Whatsername introduces herself to Johnny but he misses her name. Sparks are flying folks. 

Tunny begins to feel left out of the party, realizing this is not what he wanted.  

Favorite Son: Tunny turns on the old TV in the place. He finds an old VHS playing of an 80s propaganda cartoon. He falls victim to the glamorous lifestyle of Favorite Son. He is drawn to the effortless power in the military life style, loving the danger and reward. He falls in love with the idea of being a hero for his people. Johnny joins him when everyone else has gone away.

Are We The Waiting: Tunny explains to Johnny his dreams of a better world. He thinks about Will, who is still at home trying to enjoy his future fatherhood. Heather, who is still trying to gather the courage to leave Will as she wants what’s best for her child but isn’t in love with him. Johnny, who is stuck in his new dream. 

Tunny, the next morning, enlists in the Army and finds that he will be shipped out within the week.

St. Jimmy: Johnny, angry at Tunny, meets a new best friend who has come to visit the squatter city.  St. Jimmy is the hard core punk god Johnny has been waiting for. He is a drug dealer with everything. Johnny shoots up for the first time with another group. St. jimmy openly welcomes him to his new lifestyle of getting everything you want. Almost everyone loves him, they worship him.

Little Girl: St. Jimmy tries to target Whatsername, as she tries to convice Johnny not to fall into the hands of drugs. 

Give Me Novacaine: Back in Jingletown Will tries to cope with Heathers decision to leave him and to keep their soon to be born child. In Johnny’s home his mother cries as she learns that he has run away. His father seems to be happy about it and tries to convince her it was just his time to fly the coop. Seeing this isn’t helping, he vows to find their son. 

Tunny is finally getting a piece of the action, he gets a huge piece in his thigh and is carried off of the field. 

Johnny has been recieving letters from his friends and burns them, quickly stopped by Whatsername who shows him another way of life. 

She’s a Rebel/ Last of The American Girls: Whatsername tells Johnny her true story and how she plots to lead a riot against discrimination against the poor. She brings him to homeless shelters where she volunteers and to protest concerts. Johnny eagerly writes to his friends about his new love. Will gets a good laugh over it. St. Jimmy, who is more or less real, has begun to feel ignored and starts spilling lies about Whatsername that Johnny dismisses.

Last Night On Earth: Johnny has never been in love until now. His father finds the ticket packages and gets on the next bus. Whatsername promises Johnny their relationship is more than just lust. Heather has her baby and Will chases her down to the hospital, begging to be allowed to see her. Heather reveals that she broke up with him because of his unhealthy habits to her nurse, Johnny’s mother. Heather promises she will never let anyone hurt her child and from outside the door Will promises the same. 

Johnny writes his first letter back home.

To Much To Soon: Finally back home, Will finally confronts Heather on her judgment of the past he left behind for her. Heather challenges how Will copes with stress and how it will effect their child's life. Heather decides if he is going to keep chasing her, she’s running away for good. She takes the baby with her. 

Before Lobotomy I/ Extrodinary Girl: Tunny is left alone during his recovery, finally receiving the letters his friends have sent him. The other injured soldiers in infirmary cry for their families left behind and why they join the fight to begin with. Tunny gets a new perspective on the war. He meets his nurse, the first person to provide him any comfort during this time and tends to his wounds. He quickly falls in love with her and has dreams about being Favorite Son saving the distressed princess from the evil bad guys. She tries to pull him out of the fantasy as it becomes more dangerous and the two bond over war trauma. They share a heat of the moment kiss

Before Lobotomy II: Tunny is sent home due to having his leg amputated. He takes his nurse with him, as they have fallen in love. He wishes his war buddies luck, and says farewell to the ones dying. 

When It’s Time:  Johnny writes a letter to Whatsername about his feelings for her and how he doesn’t know what he’d do without her. She showed him what pain can look like. For once he isn’t lost. 

St. Jimmy rips up the letter and burns it when Johnny’s back is turned.

Know Your Enemy: St. Jimmy tries to coax Johnny into doing harsher drugs, the only thing stopping Johnny from following him is Whatsername. So Jimmy convinces Johnny that she’s been manipulating him into believeing her stories and that he needs the drugs to cope with his own pain. Whatsername tries to get Johnny’s attention and is confronted with Johnny minimizing her pain in exchange for his own.

21 Guns: Whatsername finally takes the needles and pills from Johnny and shares her full story of being abused and being a victim of the streets. She begs him to listen to her and know that he doesn’t have to keep fighting. Johnny tries to listen to her but St. Jimmy lingers. 

Will finally gives into Heathers wishes and steals beer from a store. While drinking he realizes this is what she was talking about. He pours it all out. He finds out Tunny is home and commits to helping him.

Johnny’s father searches the city, he can’t stop thinking how pointless this is.

Johnny tries too convince Whatsername he feels her pain, which is why he needs St. Jimmy. Frustrated she shows him how ridiculous he is, he left a caring family and friend behind to seek out pain. 

Letterbomb: Finally done with Johnny’s shit, though she might still love him, Whatsername shows Johnny what fire looks like. She cries for the real heroes that fought for real change, not try hards just looking for a new outlet of self pity. She reveals that St. Jimmy was never real. She lets Johnny know that he isn’t the Jesus of Suburbia. If it isn’t obvious, Whatsername is the jesus of suburbia. Johnny helplessly watches as the love of his life leaves. Whatsername destroys all the pills before hopping the next bus out of the city.

When September Ends: Johnny’s father finds Johnny crying on the steps of a church. Father reveals how proud of Johnny he is. He tells Johnny about how angry he was when he was and how he just needed to find himself, which is what he assumes Johnny is doing. 

Tunny finds out many of his war buddies haven’t made it back home and never will. He cries to his nurse who promises nothing bad will happen to them.

Will thinks over how he let everyone he had slip away from him.

Johnnys mother calls her husband only to find out that Johnny will not be coming home just yet. Father heads back to Jingletown. 

Johnny thinks over how much he hated being anything like his father and now realizes that is truly who he wanted to be. he is shocked to think that his father ever loved him and wishes he would have shown it better. 

Homecoming I: Johnny packs his bag and prepares to go back home as he is the only one left. Its been a while since he and his fathers talk. He is unsure of where to go next. St. Jimmy has been in and out of his life anytime he thinks about everything that he’s learned. St. Jimmy tries one final time to convince Johnny to stay in the city. There is nothing in Jingle Town for him. Johnny appears to try and commit suicide but instead the bullet kills St. Jimmy in a rather comic way. Johnny truly has nothing left now. 

Homecoming II: Johnny reveals what the world could have for him, working a desk job with a boring wife. He hates what he sees and tries to convince himself that there is more to life than this image. 

Homecoming III: Tunny is living a dull life at home, trying to get a job but struggling due to his amputation. He wishes to be released as the nurse has got a new job and works to support them. 

Will is still crying to himself and finally decides he’s had enough

Homecoming IV: Heather is back in town to visit her parents with her new fiance and the baby. She meets up with Will, flaunting how rad her new man is. Will fails to see how he failed in comparison. Heather gives the baby to Will, loving her new life more. She wanted what was best for her baby and she could never provide that.

Homecoming V: At the 7/11 Johnny hops off the bus and finds that his friends are waiting for him. He drops his bags and runs into their arms. They share the stories of their adventures and how they never realized what they had here in Jingletown was what the needed, real cliche. Johnny reunites with his family and forgives his father. Tunny gets a job with his girlfriend in the hospital as a receptionist and a speaker. He has found his purpose. Johnny helps Will set up his house for the baby, admitting that he misses the people in the city.

Whatsername:  Johnny works as a music teacher in the school fifteen years down the line. While in a school recital he thinks he sees Whatsername in the crowd, but it’s someone else. When he gets back to his new house he pulls out his old guitar case and looks through all the memorabilia of his big adventure all those years ago. The thing he misses the most is Whatsername, the girl who he couldn’t even remember her name. 

anyways no one asked for that and I’m sorry but that was fun and I will probably do it again with a musical few people like. 

[archivistofmemories]

hue of thoughts

a wrinkle of time again for me to start jotting down my thoughts. today's year where second semester of being a third year university student ended, but an extension of summer class is waiting. well the days have been trying to be rough but i kinda let myself not to get drown with those antagonist. im so done with it, damn tried and so stressed. i once said to myself "not satisfied but contented, not fine but still okay" does it even make sense? friends, a one good friend that i got to talk to at dawn of 2:59 am. people, two of them whom i never imagined to be spending my night with under the vast sky where stars twinkle and unexpectedly saw a dazzling flash of shooting star, but it is only me who didn't got to see it and even make a wish. chances of unclear vision, made me so unsure. 

honestly i thought i'd be having less heartaches and no more emotional tears, but i was wrong. no matter how i tried not to shed a single tear i happened to out-poured a lot. that was february of this year that our friendship was tested. never even had a thought that it would happen. who would have thought about it, who would have thought it would became that worst, and who would have thought that it might end up that i'll be losing a friend. good thing was the plot twist plays its role well. a river of tears i call in front of that circle where other people got to see my cry once again, and i damn hate it. i hate myself so much for being such a crying potato. how can i overcome it? and when will i? i even got to wish and pray for less heartaches but it did to happened again. i caused a lot of major troubles to that one special friend. i was so scared that time, the pain i had in my chest gave me the thought that it would suffocate me and lead me to death. yeah, im always been this so dramatic over little things. and there this one person told me "you cried again? how many times i told you stop crying! it wont help you to get out through those things and you know whats the worst case? people could put so down that easy" words that help me to be at ease. 

got to hurt the friend that i cared, for she cared me too to those times i was in pain. "reserve on the day of playday" i said to her. reading her tweets even not mentioning me truly sends directly to my heart that i couldn't barely breathe normally. not to be hyperbole but thats what i really felt that time. i once said to a good classmate that "my heart hurt so bad" and i could see what she felt after i said those words in her eyes that she symphatized me. "i hate you" she replied to me in the middle of our conversation in our chat. i was in shock and felt happy and sad at the same time. thoughts running through that i dont understand. a trailer of things i wanted to happened during the planned overnight and last event of ours. "sitting at the balcony that night with the sky full of stars above us" too imaginative isn't? but it did happened and we both didn't expect it cause same, we imagine the same scenario but not totally. does it sound ironic? for the things i expected to happened and words i wanted to express that time came to be ironic too and legit plot twist. thought we'd we crying both as we talked about our friendship and what really happened. i find it so cute cause there were times actually that she wanted to talked and tease me but she cant do it cause we had misunderstanding that time. laughs, but cant lie the fact that i cried. 

the last overnight i had together with the officers of jpmap was truly memorable to me. it was supposedly not going to be pushed through. hearing that news from pres made me and lanie sad for i have reserved such expected scenarios that is going to happened. it was really amazing, though it had some hindrances that would lead not to be happened. it was me, lanie, ate ame, rex and pitche, but except pitche since she slept at her aunt's house, together with ate ame, rex, and lan we really had the awesome memories that we could treasure with. i dont know how i should re-tell everything from the start or just collect the highlights, every seconds of it was such a joy in my heart. maybe there are just really thoughts yet that i cannot express for i have plant it from the bottom of my arteries. the first stop was at school where we met. it was a three days before the hell week. looking up as the wide blue sky says hello to me and lan. we were so mesmerized by that time that we couldn't help ourselves not to took a picturesque photos of it. next to is was we continued to process the letters for the last activity of our organization, the day after that night. it was really a sad news for the people who would have done their job to write their signatures was really a big deal for they did not get to do it. so the letters left unprocessed, good thing was the student affairs office allowed us for they couldn't stop it since that has to be happen eventually but they cannot assured us that if something unexpected situation might occur since it was an outside activity, the school wont be liable to any accident that will took place. that leave us both a sigh, we couldn't do anything at all already. so i and lan decided to go to the chapel and prayed. after we ask for God's presence and guidance we took a piece of a paper at a bowl where it has tons of colorful papers, i dont know exactly what is it called or term. opening that piece of violet paper that i get and lan who had the blue paper which turned out a switch of our favorite color and we didn't happened to get that color really like we just put our hands in that bowl and didn't looked which is which and unexpectedly we switched the color that we two liked. as we opened it, the thing was it really shocked me for it was an immediate answer to my prayers and it really leave me an amazement. same that happened to lan too, but her it was a bit of an opposite side cause it was kinda negative and scared us, but there was a positive side too the "consistently pray" which made her and me to not stop praying. after it we go back to the canteen to eat. there, together with ate ame, rex and lan we planned about "dayunon" the overnight. it took several minutes of ate ame to decide and be conviced by us. we really had a funny talks and imaginative expectations that made the four of us so excited for that one night and the day of the event. also rex changed up his mind too that made him to go for that overnight, but to mention its really because of lan haha. afterwards, ate ame, rex, and lan decided to packed up their things that made them to go home and left me at school while waiting for pitche, and good thing she wasn't that "dugay". after an hour i decided to go to sm, since i have to buy somethings and it is the location too where we will "sakay" for consolacion. as i wait for them to arrive in sm, i was waiting at danidoo waffle stand. sittiing there alone yet not so awkward because i was chatting lan. that time she was facing a hindrance of her life that made her to cry that nigh. it was around 6 pm already and she's still at their house, stacked-up for her mother didn't let her to left their house for the overnight because that day too was a special day for her mother, it was her mom's birthday. it made me really so freaking damn sad, because i anticipated her presence so much and im afraid that it would be a dull night without her. also it will the night we've been waiting for to talk about the misunderstanding that happened for the past few weeks. i really really really really thought that she wouldn't be able to make it, but thank good heavens, she made it! together with rex who was so drama that eventually might ended for him to go for the overnight because he wont be able to see her lan haha, we were so happy that lan was on her way to meet with us. it took pretty much an hour for ate ame, rex and pitche to arrive at the sm to see me where i was waiting for them. as they have arrived, we had a minutes that almost an hour of strolling at the mall to buy some un-checked things for the playday and waiting for lan too. and guess what! we happened to see frianne unexpectedly performing in front of a crowd with her beautiful voice together with two people, she was once a friend of lan and a good classmate of mine. then we've noticed that the worm inside our tummy was growling already and we've decided to eat and the time of 8pm says it too. we ate at bon-chon and lan finally arrived. minutes passed we've decided to go already, we lined at the terminal where we "sakay" in the vhire. just as we've sitted and collect our payments ate ame noticed that her wallet got lost, so pitche paid for her fare. it sadden us really because that night was pretty good yet it happened to ate ame. so we had a silent and solemn rode as we get arrive to the place. yet it was so funny, we stopped at a wrong stop-over because ate ame wasn't in her right mind that time because of her wallet that has two thousand pesos in it. so we happened to walk from a distance and laughs as we crossed the dark silent road because rex shouted "run". then i was seeing the two wheels in front of me again that time, we have to rode a motorcycle. i was with lan and still such a scaredy-potato while holding her shoulders that night with a breeze of cold air. i thought we'll arrived at the place of ate ame's family not so "dugay" but it was really a long way of road that caused me to hold too much of my breath cause i kennot.  as we get to the place you could really feel the atmosphere of being at the province. it was really a mountainous place. then ate ame's aunt walked us to their house where supposedly the three of us will be staying. it looked like an elf's house because it was small and built just really cute. we stayed and catch our breath for a couple of minutes then decided to see the resort that night. we didn't able to check the time that night for our mind was really cope-up with the excitement as we go to the resort. but to see again that two wheels, ghad i choked. we end up again riding a motorcycling, i was just like "maybe for this whole adventure i'll be riding ths two wheels" and i shut up. as we get to the resort, we had a little tiny memories, video-ing our derp looks that night. and finally we got the privileged to enter the resort which will be having its opening tomorrow that day. seriously we do not know what time was it already, we just really had fun and laughs that made our muscles get stretched and hurt at the same time hahaha. hilarious night as we three shared, like it was really long night to us. going back to the place through that two wheels, and made me noticed about the balcony of the house of ate ame's uncle. it was really weird because if i were to explain what i really felt that time seemed like it matched the setting that was in my  trailer where i and lan gonna talk. 

170318-180318 // definitely collected all the highlights that happened and will forever be treasured.

hue's of memories, light the corners of my mind: