#but I went crazy w that one. don't worry about it tho

[cidnangarlond]

I definitely have some kind of undiagnosed personality disorder I am Not normal

[mashiraostail]

your gang orca praise kink stuff goes soooo crazy please give us some gentle dom praising from halsin w Fem reader PLEASE

glad u like it thank u!!

yall are crazy outing your praise kink in my ask box. Ask and u shall receive tho!!! Kind of a long one, i care for u guys so I have to feed u.

NSFW under the cut!

Aches blossomed like weeds all over your poor body. Maybe you should have brought Halsin along on this one, a healer would have done you well about 3 hours ago. He stayed back, or perhaps he went on his own way for the day. For all your not seeing eye to eye Astarion was seemingly happy to help you hobble along with an arm slung over his shoulder.

He's biting something back and Karlach all but shoves it out of him.

"Thank you. For...taking those hits for me." He rolls his eyes when he says it, but it does nothing to veil his grateful tone, "i can't imagine it was pleasant."

"It wasn't." You muse back, "but you're helping me along."

"Well-" He sputters, "I figured you could take it since you have Halsin waiting for you with baited breath every night."

He was right, you did. He tried to be subtle, to give everyone a once over after a hard day, but he always lingered on you. He liked you, perhaps more, it was obvious. At least when you stumble back to camp he has a reason to make a b-line to you first.

"What happened?" He takes you from Astarion, who snickers a bit at you.

"Nothing, just the typical day." You shrug.

"Is everyone else okay?" Bless him, he feigns interest in the other 3 trailing behind you.

"Don't worry." Wyll waves, "we'll live."

"Come with me." He doesn't even respond to Wyll, he was not as good of an actor as he hoped to be.

You go with him, not that he gave you much of a choice, guiding you away before he could even finish. He settles you down by a shallow river not too far off from camp. He brings a bowl and a rag, with a small sack of supplies to clean you off with.

"I know you're capable." He starts, as he wipes layers of blood and grime away from your skin, "i'm not underestimating you-"

"I understand." You cut him off before he can prattle off into a nervous explanation as to why he seems to favor you over the others when you're injured.

You fall back into silence as he cleans you off.

"Look up at me." Fingers on your chin crane your gaze up to him, if he's trying to be seductive it has certainly worked, and if he wasn't it was cruel. He's scanning your face, his eyes meet your gaze.

"Will I live?" There's a coyness to your voice that just about knocks him off balance.

"Yes, lucky me. Does your head hurt?"

"Not at all." You felt better, under his caring hands, there was a dull soreness now, it overtook the harsh and stinging aches.

It was already dark, nobody had bothered to call the pair of you for dinner, perhaps more knowing than they let on.

"Can I do anything else for you?" He asks, kneeling now but still tall enough to be gazing down at you. The dull light of your lantern made him glow.

"No-" Suddenly you can't play coy anymore, it's like his sucked the air out of your lungs, he takes your hand.

"Will you stay with me tonight?" when he asks he traces his fingers over the back of your knuckles.

"Of course." You nod, something flutters under your ribs. He brushes his lips over the back of your hand, and it lights you up. It's such a silly, small, innocuous gesture, but it makes your stomach warm.

"Thank you." He looks up from the back of your hand to catch your gaze.

You kiss your teeth, your mouth feels dry all of a sudden, "why thank me?"

"Because you're allowing me." Halsin murmurs it, "I'm grateful to be let so close to you." He kisses his way up your arm in a galant gesture, though it makes you feel light headed none the less. When he reaches the crook of your neck, the shallow divot where your shoulder ends he stops, and drops your arm gently onto your lap.

"You can act modest, or play coy," He continues despite the lack of contact, which makes you feel cold and even more exposed then when he's ravishing you. "But you know how I want you. You indulge me."

"Please," You're fluttering, you try to sound casual but you're fluttering like a moth and Halsin is a big, bright fire drawing you in. "it's self serving."

"Even better." He elects to sit beside you, "indulge yourself in me."

"Oh gods." You feel hot, in the back of your neck, in your chest, between your legs.

"What?" Halsin reaches for you, you let him, he wraps an arm around you, he draws you in. "don't you want to?"

"I do-" You're practically whining despite the fact he has not denied you, and probably never would. You turn your face into his neck, nosing at his collar. He makes a pleased noise at the feeling, and brings a hand up to cup your hair.

"Then tell me what you want. You can have it, you deserve it. Anything, just tell me."

You aren't sure when you make your way into his lap, when the desire to taste his skin becomes so potent that you have no choice but to glide your tongue over his collar bone. He's happy to rub up your back and thighs, to pull your closer by the back of your head.

"Is it me you want?"

You moan, gasping, you aren't sure when you started rutting against his leg, but he seems all the more happy to have you there so you cast aside the sheer embarrassment of it all.

"You can have it, you can have me. All you have to do is take it. I'll let you, I'm yours for the taking."

You practically cry at that, you aren't sure when you'd become so pent up.

"You can have me." One of his hands is holding onto the bend of your hip, guiding them against his leg in a languid rolling pace, "you already do. You deserve it, all of it, whatever you want. Tell me."

You let him take your shirt off, you're more than keen to free him of his.

"I must have been particulalry well behaved in my past life." For a breif moment his hand releases your hips and he's gliding rough palms over your chest and stomach, "you're such a lovely thing..." He ducks down, kisses at your chest, pulling you away from the perfect friction of his thigh to the warm heat of his mouth and tongue.

He's kissing, licking and nipping at the newly exposed skin while his hands trail over your ass, up your back and thighs, drawing you in impossibly closer to his mouth.

"I'd give you the world, anything you'd ask." He pushes the small of your back, guiding you back down onto his lap, "but you only want me?"

"Do you really feel that way? That I should have whatever I ask for? Whatever I want?"

The sight of your chest heaving, glistening from his mouth makes him groan, "how could I not? Tell me what you want, My hands? My mouth?"

You feel on the verge of passing out, terrible and blissful all at once.

He lifts you as he stands, but just a quickly sets you down again laying on your back.

"Are you sore?" His hands hold your waist, his nose is at your jaw, "I'd be content just to stay here, looking at you, kissing you. We would not need to anything more to sate me." He assures you, "the sight of you like this alone would be enough to satisfy me for lifetimes to come."

"No." You're breathless, you shake your head.

"No?" Despite what he's said he sounds hopeful, grateful, pleased even.

"No." All you can think to do is repeat him. You help him help you out of your pants.

"Will you let me?" He's already lowering himself between your legs, you flush.

"You hardly have to ask permission."

"Yes?" He pushes you for it anyways, of course you indulge him.

"Yes."

It's been hundreds of years, of course he was an attentive and...skilled lover, but this was almost too much.

Your back arched off the ground, his hands were there, big and warm and slightly rough, he held your waist there his fingers wrapping around to the small of your back where it arched. Where they held you his hands pulled you closer, just barely.

He didn't protest when your thighs closed around his head, when they squeezed, or when your hands pulled him impossibly closer by his hair. In fact he sounded more than pleased at all of the above. Every time he had a spare breath he was singing you praises. You were perfect, you cried out for him perfectly, and you were so easy to love.

His hands squeezed your waist where they held you, he groaned every time you called his name.

When you do reach your climax it almost blinds you for a second, but Halsin doesn't seem interested in letting you rest until you force him off with a keening sort of whine at the overstimulation.

"I'm sorry," He's kissing at your legs, your lower stomach and up your ribs ravenously, "I can't bring myself to stop with you."

It's so easy to open yourself up to him, to let him take and for you to take what you want.

"You're so lovely." He's kissing around your chest, subtly gasping for you air, "I'd mistake you for an angel if not for the things we do together." He guides your legs around him, closing the small amount of space left between you.

"If I didn't know you to be so truly good then I'd mistake you for something much more sinister than an angel, considering the spell you must have put on me." He's arching up into your hands, turning and preening at every touch and heavy breath, "do you know what you have done to me?"

Eventually you stop your head spinning enough to fumble with his pants, until there's nothing at all between you.

"I was taken by you from our first meeting," He groans as you undress him, "but all the things I dreamt have been put to shame at the feeling of the reality of it in my hands." He takes in an uneven breath as your hands run over his cock, you turn your head to open your neck to him, he's glad to muffle himself into it. The feeling of his low groans vibrates the crook of your neck. You arch your back, pressing your chest into his which seems to set him over the edge.

"You're the most lovely thing I've ever laid my hands on, please, say you'll have me." As if it wasn't obvious, as if you weren't laying naked below him, blossoming at his lips and fingertips.

He guides himself easily into you It’s hardly painful, it barely stings, it tingles up to your stomach, and it’s pleasant. A blooming sort of feeling that you often pined for once it was gone. It was fleeting and easily missed when it dissipated. He's captivated by you, your expressions, the way you cry out, the wavering in your voice.

As with all things, he's incredibly gracious with you, giving you long, deep rolls of his hips and easy praise. He enjoys watching you melt from it, it makes his chest warm with affection.

"You're divine," He doesn't mind your arms around his neck, he holds you closer with a hand between your shoulder blades, "every single time." He enjoys the feeling of your hand holding the back of his head too.

"Every time I swear you can have me, but you're always bent at my will aren't you? Beautiful, obedient, and mine for the taking. Look at me."

All you can do is obey and nod, maybe a bit dumbly. You wrap your legs tighter around him, there was no way you'd last very long in this state. He holds you by your chin, he keeps his eyes on you whenever you cum, muttering out obscene praises. Occasionally he'll use his hold on you to turn your head to the side, to observe your throat, he swears he can see your pulse beating.

When the pair of you are finished Halsin seems perfectly fine to dip into the shallow river, it hardly reaches his waist.

"Come here," He insists, "I'll hold you."

"is it cold?" You roll over to see him.

"No, barely." He waves you over, and fuck, you're still coming down from your high, still bent at his will. You go to him, you let him guide you by your hand into the river, once you're close enough he holds the crook of your elbow, then the bend of your waist.

You rest your head against his chest as he runs wet hands over your hair.

"Many people have held my favor in my life," He looks down at you, "but I don't recall ever being so enthralled by someone." He runs a wet hand down the side of your face, "some days I dread the thought of our paths diverging."

"Don't think you'll be rid of me so easily" You manage to be a bit cheeky. Despite yourself you brush gentle fingers over the side of his neck, he closes his eyes thankfully.

"Kiss me." His voice is quiet but steadfast. Of course you go to him.

When he pulls away it's just enough to speak, "you know I adore you, tell me you do."

"I know." You grin and push his damp hair back, "you're especially sentimental today."

"I suppose I...must have missed your company." He decides, "we usually travel together."

"Is that it? I'm not complaining, maybe we'll travel separately more often."

He groans, wrapping his arms around your waist and lifting you up, "don't be cruel to me when you were so well behaved all night. I'm not sure what I'll do."

You laugh, bracing yourself against his chest as he prepares to drop you into the river, "no please, I swear to keep you dutifully at my side from now on, just don't drop me in this water!"

He's ravishing your neck again, your laughter made his chest burn with affection, "I truly can never deny you."

You have a feeling tonight may be a longer night than average.

[outofthemouthsof]

15-Day BL Challenge in 1 Night!

I'm more of a lurker than a poster but Tumblr's my fave place to wallow in BLness. My 2nd favorite place is the spreadsheet where I track the shows I've watched (172 completed in just over a year), so @negrowhat 's challenge was irresistible. I'm gonna cram my answers in one post. Here goes!

Fave OG Actor Pairing: Some of the ones I think of as OG are only like 4 years old, so this was tough. And the 18 shows that have gotten my top score aren't very old. But I went through those 18 and picked the oldest, and it was the 2018 Korean microfilm Some More. Because it's so short it's super rewatchable, but even if I wasn't able to watch the whole thing a half dozen times (which I have), I'd still have gone back & watched the sweet moments and sex scene about 25 times (which I have). So I guess my fave OG actor pairing is Park Chan Ung and Kim Joon Bum! How they got me so deeply invested in their love in mere minutes is beyond me, but they did!

Fave Rookie Actor Pairing: Does Japan do the CP thing that Thailand does? I don't think so, but one couple I wish had about a dozen more BL series together lined up are Kouhei Higuchi and Atsuki Mashiko of My Personal Weatherman! Their chemistry was visceral and they're too pretty to be believed.

Side Dish That Should've Been the Main Course: While I enjoyed the main pairing a lot, they were nothing compared to the crazy rollercoaster side plot (how'd it go from so funny to SO dark to so sexy to so sweet and wholesome like that??) of Vegas/Pete from KinnPorsche!

Fave Ship Dynamic: Obvs from answers 2 & 3 I am not against D/s ships at ALL. Also a sucker for tough-but-submissive-bodyguard with mafia-brat-prince. Honestly I like tons of different dynamics from innocent to toxic, but one that gives me major butterflies is a guy who thinks he's straight but when confronted with the idea of liking another guy, doesn't have a macho freakout or run away, just kind of straightforwardly & sincerely searches his feelings until he figures it out. And then takes care of his baby. Why's that so HOT and sweet? Some of my fave examples: Pete/Ae in Love By Chance, Le Jian/Amber from DNA Says Love You, and Ida/Aoki from My Love Mix-Up!

Biggest Flop: This is expectations vs. execution, right? There's loads of shows I've abandoned, some I've stuck with for no good reason, etc., that are way worse than what I consider my personal biggest let-down. I was so enamored of Perth from LBC that I assumed he could do no wrong, and the bully-to-lover, rich/poor pairings often do it for me. So I guess I just assumed Dangerous Romance would be amazing, and it was REALLY good for a couple episodes. It wasn't the worst thing I ever saw, but so much of it just ... felt ... flat. Very surprising.

Fave Line From Your Fave Series: Well I know my fave series--Cherry Magic Thailand was the most perfect, entrancing, heartwarming series EVER, OMG, it was staggeringly good and stuck the landing in a way few shows have managed. I can't really think of one standout line--the script was so on point & there were HUNDREDS of sweet tingly moments. There were some epic ones in ep11 tho: When Achi says "The voice inside your head is so loud" and Karan (the boldest he's ever been) replies "Don't worry; soon you won't be able to read my mind anymore." (But then clearly uses that power one more time to gain the sweetest nonverbal consent EVER.) Then, Karan: "Do you regret losing your power?" Achi: "I'd regret not loving you." (OMG how I squealed.)

Fave Villain: This was so tough. An over-the-top villain I loved to hate (and an actor I loved from his sweetie-pie green-flag role in SCOY) was obvs Heng Asavarid as Chalothon in The Sign. But an actor who was so excellent at being loathsome and malicious toward the main couple, with just enough of a redemption arc that I didn't totally despise the character by the end (but did hate most of the way through): Park Hae In as Eun Ji (Jae Won's ex) in The Eighth Sense. It was a typical "faen fatale" role but so well done. So a tie between 2 totally different takes on the destructive ex.

The Trope You Hate Except When It's "This Series": OK, "hate" is a strong word for how I feel about the drop-of-rain-makes-you-ill so love-interest-takes-care-of-you trope. It's OK. But holy SHIT is it overused. Holy shit. I sigh resignedly when I realize we're going there. EXCEPT. When P'Phayu goes to visit Rain in Love in the Air when he's sick, and his version of caregiving? Forcibly applying medicine in the form of a rectal suppository. It is so funny, weirdly sexy, very in line with their dynamic (doesn't get in the way of their romance moments later at all), & it shoves a big middle finger up the overoveroverused sick-bed trope.

Most Visually Pleasing Love Scene: Okay, THE scene in The Sign is the clear winner in my & many people's books. But there are so many runners-up: the post-race one in Love in the Air. Just about every one in Pit Babe (both couples) & My Personal Weatherman. (A lot of other faves don't quite qualify as visually or emotionally pleasing--lustfully pleasing should be a 3rd category in this challenge!)

Most Emotionally Pleasing Love Scene: Again, I have a clear winner: Cherry Magic Thailand. So full of emotion, so well deserved, so everything. Sigh. But lots of runners-up: same scene in The Sign, both kissing scenes in DNA Says Love You (tame but soo emotionally satisfying), Ray & Sand's camper reunion in Only Friends, the post-prison love scenes for both couples in Kiseki: Dear to Me, the 1st time in I Feel You Linger in the Air ...

Breakup That Should've Stayed Broken Up: Maybe it's because I try to be choosy in what I watch all the way thru or maybe I'm a big softy who tends to root for every couple no matter how lame. In all my completed shows, I could only think of 2 breakups where I wasn't at all invested in them getting back together (and maybe against it): Tian/Poon, What Zabb Man and Top/Mew, Only Friends.

Wedding You Wish You Had an Invite To: If we're talking weddings that actually appeared in the show, Achi and Karan's in Cherry Magic Thailand, obvs! If it's hypothetical weddings, I'd be desperate to go to one of ANY of the characters in Playboyy! I'd wear a bulletproof vest & bring my own flask of booze, but it would be the trashy chaos-filled social event of a lifetime.

Give 5 Good Boys a Gold Star: Just 5? OK, some I haven't mentioned yet. 1. Shin Woo, Light on Me, 2. Palm, Never Let Me Go, 3. Mohk, Last Twilight, 4. Thun, He's Coming to Me, 5. Neua, Secret Crush on You. Best boys!

The Top 5 Most Sad Boys: I'll limit it to ones where the suffering was kinda pretty, not just painful. 1. Way, Pit Babe, 2. Akk, The Eclipse, 3. Kaipa/Gaipa, Moonlight Chicken, 4. Hae Bom, Cherry Blossoms After Winter, 5. Kiyoi, My Beautiful Man

Bestest Besties: Just one? Gah! Fine, Pearl & Gavreel in Gameboys. She got those boys together in quarantine!

[blitz0hno]

For the ask game: general 1, 3, 6, 7. Prisoner, 1, 3 (Amane), 4 (mikoto) I didn’t ask too much questions did I

I AM SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG RAHHHH I got the notif, forgor, got another ask for this like a day ago, forgot again, and finally check my inbox today lmao you asked the perfect amount of questions no worries!!

General:

1. My favorite prisoner? It really is Mikoto I cannot tell a lie 😭 why? He's just... So heartbreakingly earnest. And when I was on Milgram Twitter back in 2021 I really didn't want his story to be a DID story. I wasn't about to discuss that stuff on a pretty public account no matter how intrigued we were. However, as time went on, and we thought about how all the other prisoners are "mentally ill" in some form or another, we held out hope that the whole "DID murderer who doesn't remember" thing would be subverted in some way. We came to really really look forward to his second trial, and after Purge March even moreso. In our opinion, Milgram team fuckin DELIVERED when Oct. 25th came around. While I personally relate more to John, Mikoto's story and how it's being told are very important to me. The extreme ambiguity of it all makes it better honestly; it's strikingly realistic in that sense. A host who has no idea what's going on or how to deal with it, in a boat with a bunch of presumable singlets who feel the same way, strikes a chord that few other medias have. Plurality is a very difficult topic to do justice, but I think Mikoto's narrative is very humanizing.

3. Favorite headcanon has gotta be the sibling-type relationships, particularly Amane and Fuuta. I love the idea of them stirring up trouble together. Trans headcanons are also my favorite anything ever (transmasc Fuuta and Mikoto/John and nonbinary Amane are my personal favs but transfemme!Fuuta, transfemme!Kazui and other trans headcanons are all GOATed imo)

6. RAHHHHHHH DIFFICULT favorite MV? siiiigh it probably is MeMe. Surprise tone-shift? Check. Tarot motif? Check. THE CRIME IN BRUTAL DETAIL? Check. Lyrics go crazy. Color palette goes crazy. Outfits go crazy. Although I will say "I Love You" is criminally underrated and provocative. Also LOVVVVED Harrow, Tear Drop, INMF, Purge March and Deep Cover. It's so hard to pick!!

7. Who I would get along with? Ironically, probably Fuuta. I think I would put up with his gruff attitude better than most, and we'd probably have similar worldviews regarding justice and the systems in place in society. I've been in similar (thankfully less serious) positions regarding his murder. We both enjoy video games and ramen lol he's still a little shit tho. I also feel like Yuno and I have very similar worldviews and would get along just fine.

Prisoners:

1. What do I think of Amane? Easily one of my favorites. Why? SHE IS SO REAL THAT'S WHY. She's thoroughly heartbreakingly indoctrinated but STILL trusts herself enough to do what's in her best interest in protecting herself. She denies herself so much joy to honor her devotions, even though I'm almost sure she will come to realize that the only "god" looking out for her is her. She just wants everyone to have the "heaven" of infinite happiness she's been promised, and doesn't yet understand that it's something one must make for themselves and that no one can see and know her every move and judge her like that.

3. Amane's first verdict was cruel, but I understand why it happened. Magic's very vague about who she killed and it seemed like she did it simply because the doctrine said to. It was almost like she'd been manipulated into doing it and didn't feel bad at all. When really, she was just joyous that she got to punish her abuser for once, using the rules THEY told her; not the other way around. I still do regret voting "unforgiven," personally. Her second verdict though? Based. I was in the trenches w y'all for that shit. Purge March my beloved. She had every right to punish someone who would torture a child and I don't see how Kotoko doesn't get that??? Amane inno sweep all the way they better treat my girl RIGHT from now on.

4. What do I wish people understood more about Mikoto? Woooo boy. How do I word this.

In the fandom: Mikoto is just a host alter - he's as capable of being mean and aggressive as John is capable of being nice. And his response to John and anger towards the protector is as natural as it is unfair. He's not immune to being a flawed human and deals with stress very differently from John despite sharing a body. Mikoto's denial keeps him going along "normally," but it's doubtless that "he," Mikoto, is truly the responsible one for the crime (as hosts often are the ones making big decisions). And idk, people seem to understand overall?? But there still seems to be confusion sometimes, about how John isn't "just" a protector, but a completely separate person/ego state. Neither one is the "main" alter, or a "nicer"/"better" alter. They're rounded people like the rest of the prison.

In-universe: I wish they understood him and John. I wish they knew he switched sometimes, and that though they're different they aren't dangerous just by virtue of being like that. I wish Mikoto wouldn't shame himself for not "measuring up," and accept himself and what he's done. But we're going to superhell so idk about that.

Thanks for asking!

[goofyjelly]

Star Trek TOS : A Private Little War

I love the green blood details like obviously Bad Thing happening but I love continuity ✨

Kirk is so worried :( don't worry he's gonna be fineeee

THE WAY HES SITTING ON THE STRETCHER :((((((

Omfg they beam down and IMMEDIATELY GET MAULED 💀

Oh my god CHAPEL NO YOURE LITERALLY TAKING ADVANTAGE OF HIM DONT HOLD HIS HAND DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS-

Like, chapel, I get that you care about him and that's great but you've gotta know it's one sided, like, you're essentially KISSING HIM while he is unable to protest like w h a t

Love Chapel tho don't get me wrong

Girl, what sort of witch craft is this???

Also William Shatner's acting is so special like no one does it like him WHAT IS HE DOING

GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOING???

"OUR SOULS HAVE BEEN TOGETHER HE IS MINE NOW" EXCUSE ME???

McCoy is so great tho, like you're awesome, Doc

Friendship :D

Sketchy witch woman

FRIENDSHIP :D

M'Benga love you bestie thank you for being the only responsible one , Spock would be dead without you 🙏

"anything he says?" Chapel I know you're down bad but please, our boy is DYING

Witch girl wants VIOLENCE and honestly I can't blame her much. she's schemeing

Haha firesticks (I am watching this show on a fire stick)

An old custom among my people called : BE GRATEFUL , YOUD BE DEAD WITHOUT ME

Kirk subtly defending his friend, I love it. NO! I SAID I WILL NOT KILL. Kill or be killed but how about no kill? No kill at all please, I'll take that.

I'd like it if there was a normal woman in this show but oh well

OOOOOOOP THE KLINGONS!!!

"I'll make a Klingon of you yet :D" so sweet <3

Hehe Kirk is leaping around I love it he's like a doe

PFFFF ME WHEN MY PHONE GOES OFF IN CLASS 💀

SPOCK NOOOOOOO WAIT .

PFJDSLJFKDKDN WHY ARE WE ALWAYS SLAPPING HIM IN THE FACE

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING, WOMAN????" Oh my fucking god, Scotty was just walking by and saw the nurse SLAPPING SPOCK IN THE FACE , HE THOUGHT SHE WENT CRAZY

Spock ✨✨✨

Yes Bones I DO think Kirk's out of his mind.

Oh shit. Okay. Oh.

Bones doesn't know what to do but he knows Kirks plan is shit 💀💀💀

Balance Of Power- KIRK YOU HAVENT EVEN TOLD STARFLEET

SPOCK IS BACK 🎉🎉🎉

Kirk please don't fall for the witchcra- ah fuck too late. DUDE NOT W YOUR FRIENDS WIFE; HES GOT A GUN NOW OH NO OH- OH?

She IS the drama

Murder is wrong™

OOOOOOOO PLEASE CAN SHE DIE?

Nope NVM just stealing

This barbie craves violence- THIS BARBIE IS A TRAITOR???

This barbie is dead 💀

"you can't kill a computer" -> Bones is happy Spock didn't die

THATS IT???? THATS FUCKING IT????

WHAT????

KIRK JUST FUCKED SHIT UP EVEN MORE AND THEN FUCKING LEFT 💀💀💀 AND NOW THEY ARENT EVEN DOING THE WHOLE BALANCE OF POWER THING!!!

they were asking how long it would take to bring more weapons, ya know, to do their whole balance of power plan, and KIRK JUST BACKTRACKED

So I guess his friend is dying, then-

I am living for the Spock Angst tho, I love that. It's so funny that Spock gets slapped in the face so much in so many different episodes.

If I do a rewatch I literally might just watch all of the Spock scenes cus that's my take away from this-

This rants pictures have been taken from this star trek website ✨✨✨

[slytherinshua]

HELLO!!!!

so ive been dead for a couple weeks (okay im sorry but school is kicking my ass)

BUTTTT IM BACK!!!!

And SO ARE YOU!!!

zanna pls the hao fic 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

idk whether to cry or kick my feet bc wTFFFF

how are you so g o o d (you obviously worked super hard and thats so cool of you)

ALSO

CINEMA PARADISE AND 19.99 CB!!!!!!

okay so i heard good so bad right? amazing song. 10/10 and thEn i watched the mcountdown kill the romeo performance and immediately went wHOA because why did that song hIT SO HARD LIKE?!?!??! Cinema paradise is such a ricky era (to me) bc his aura was off the roof he was so super noticable (even though he was worried bc of the hair dyeing :( he still stood out so much!) Also hao was so super good zb1 keeps getting better!!

OKAY NOW LISTEN

IM NOT THE BIGGEST ONEDOOR AROUND HERE OKAY BUT IVE LISTENED TO THEIR ENTIRE DISCOGRAPHY AND WATCHED ALL THEIR PERSONAL CONTENT AND CAN I JUST SAY DANGEROUS AND NICE GUY ARE SO GOOD LIKE BND NEVER MISSES WHAT THE HECK

Taesans line in dangerous had me actually pulling out my earphones bc wtf why was that so good i was h o o k e d the secomd that song started and then nice guy was just also really good like?!?!?!? H O W do you slay that hard like whoa

ANYWAY HI ZANNA I MISSED YOUUUUUU

im glad you're out of your mini slump!!! (i have so many ideas and i want to write but i have no t i m e!!! i dont like school 😐)

-🌱 (bc you said youd miss this <3)

im sorry i rambled on a bit but yeah !!!

HI HAFS OMG!!!! omg it has been a while but dw i understand :((( school is out to get us all istg im so tired and its only the beginning of the year... AND LIKE I THOUGHT I WAS GOING CRAZY W THAT WRITERS BLOCK HOLY SHIT LIKE I COULD NOT FUNCTION WITHOUT MY DELUSIONS BEING MY ESCAPE 😭😭😭😭😭😭

BUT AAAA IM GLAD U LIKED IT <333333 thank you ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ ugh i remember like before i even properly stanned zb1 i was thinking about which members would fit studio ghibli boys and let me see if i can remember all the pairings.... honestly i think these ranged from most accurate (first 4-5) to zanna is running out of ghibli boys to assign

zhang hao as seiji

i think i had taerae as tombo back then but now i feel like it fits gyuvin more :((

NOW RICKY AS HOWL CAUSE WHO ELSE WOULD HE BE

and yujin as sho!!! cause look theyre literally the same skdfjksd could 100% see yujin in an arrietty storyline to me hes just the embodiment of teen youth like coming of age stories rly fit him so well

gunwook as pazu bcuz i have to satisfy my childhood crush and my current crush (also they look the same fight me)

honestly jiwoong as jiro???

taerae as asbel now (literally i don't remember anything about asbel but they look kinda similar so we're going w it)

hanbin as ashitaka bcuz i just think theyre both hot like that 🤕🤕🤕

which leaves matthew as sosuke cause i haven't watched the boy and the heron yet so idk whether that might fit better but yeah... BUT TELL ME WHY THEY KINDA HAVE SIMILAR VIBES ANYWAY SO??

now can we also appreciate how i tried to match the pics as close as i could thank you thank you anyway enough abt zb1 and ghibli boys

YES CINEMA PARADISE WAS SO GOOD!!! good so bad literally their best title track to date AND SAME W BND. i think nice guy is their best to date and ive seen a lot of ppl who like dangerous more than nice guy which is valid i also love dangerous BUT IMO NICE GUY IS PERFECT AND BETTER THAN DANGEROUS???? 👹👹👹

ricky will always stand out no matter what !!!!! even tho his hair was plain it still drew attention to him like the contrast of black hair to his skin is crazy and he looks like a whole prince (when does he ever not) BUT OMG HAO IN THE MV WRECKED ME SOOOO HARD like i think good so bad mv is the reason why hao is #2 in zb1 ranking for me rn skdfjskdfs ALSO CAN WE TALK ABT PURPLE GUNWOOK CAUSE NO IM STILL NOT OVER PURPLE GUNWOOK even tho hes had it for a while now i still look at it and then die skdfjksdhfks

IF THERES ONE THING BONEDO WILL DO ITS RELEASE BANGERS EVERY TIME!!! i swear they always stay true to their sound and concept and i LOVE that about them. every song feels SO boynextdoor but at the same time they try different sounds and tell different stories with each song. i also just adore their storytelling in their mvs and songs its so good every time!!!! and im excited to see what they release next bcuz it seems theyre doing a youth concept now that theyre done their falling in love trilogy

awwww nooo i hope u find time soon 👹 it can be so hard to find time to write sometimes istg.... but you'll manage i believe in u !!! KSDJFKSD I DID MISS IT OMG

[smthleon]

your kuros are literally so smart by the way.

Im gonna assume youre talking about how I see Hilbert and Cheren HAHAH but yeah no, I like the idea of Hilbert remaining short and stubby while Cherens this oversized bean pole.. Hilberts gonna grab that poor man like a beanpole... His man wife guys...

Anyways, A more updated idea of how I see them(older. Btw,) I imagine Cheren stays suuuper skinny and tall. I am on team Cherens wasian(american and Korean):3c. I imagine that due to his job as a college professor and an elite four member, he doesn't really get much him time. By all means that boy is more stressed out than his students are about tests. I also have to give the biggest shout out to the Cheren community for the idea of him having long hair. Long haired Cheren 2 me is like an angel w wings... He is very beautiful to me. But anyways. In terms of dressing, I like to imagine that bw&bw2 took place mid 80s. so he dresses suuuper old school. He's wearing vests n shit. Maybe suspenders. Who knows. But I like to imagine that due 2 all his stress he doesn't each much :—(, hes got too much going on in that big foreheaded head of his guys... But he's okay^_^!! Hes been getting better! But he still remains the most unhygenic and messy neat freak ever. he drives himself crazy. He hates messes but his desk is a mess... But in the short run, in my eyes. older Cheren is nottt laid back. His ass worries about everything.

Now for Hilbert, I will forever see him as this short tempered guy who's like 5'6. He stopped growing at 12 so now he's forever tiny. Biancas a few inches taller than him but aside from that. He did NOT get the height from his parents. And this guy is definitely a redneck. I imagine his parents are divorced, but his dads clay, if that holds any logic. Idk, they seem related 2 me... Anyways, in terms of body types, I feel like hes a little pudgy and fatty, definitely a foodie. I don't think he really shaves much, I imagine his side burns are a lot more trimmed than Cherens how ever. But despite his temper. He's very laid back to Cheren. I also imagine he's a sorta druggie. Idk, I think he's a mellow pot head. Cheren probably hates the smell. But onto how I see Hilberts work! I imagine after he found N, he went to sinnoh for a bit for a degree in Pokemon research, so now he'll travel around and take pictures/get information on different Pokemon, meaning sometimes he's not really home. Which is good for Cheren! Because he only has to make dinner for one(and speaking of cooking. Hilbert cannot cook.) And in sense of fashion? I'd say Hilberts definitely Western grunge. He probably patches up his own clothes n stuff. Despite Cheren being an e4 member, they kinda have money problems. Idk. Im being realistic... OH and Hilbert has scars EVERYWHERE. Homeboy is NOT safe. His ass even popped a top surgery stitch! Cheren beats him w the broom tho. Its okay^_^

In terms of relationships. I'd say Cherens more affectionate in body language and doing small favors while Hilberts definitely affectionate in words/touch and gift giving. This man would definitely bring Cheren home a legendary. If he asked. Hes very hard headed. But I feel like they're very affectionate w each other, they definitely butt heads. 100%. I do not believe they are always agreeing. Cheren would definitely go "man I hate that stupid brute. Im gonna kiss him on the lips." Which is exactly what happened. And in terms of marriage, Hilbert proposed, they had a nice little wedding, the cake was dropped but they improvised w something else. Idk.

Anyways yeah no, this is definitely the longest post ever on kuroshipping. Im normal about them. Anyways, here r my hcs & thoughts!!!

[duck-in-a-thrift-store]

Alright guys here's the first room closeup (+ headcanons/notes), by popular demand:

~Mike & Will's room~

(Plz don't judge my choice of wall art I pretty much just picked it bc it matched the wallpaper colors and there weren't a lot of good options)

Ok so design details

I know yall see that blue and yellow, and the green in the middle. All very intentional. The bed w/ the yellow blanket is Will's & the one w/ the blue blanket is Mike's. They sit on the rug when they're having their little heart-to-hearts that the rest of the party never seem to be a part of for "some reason"

Also, these boys wear a lot of fuckin stripes, so. Blue and yellow striped wallpaper? Green striped rug? Idk man it was screaming byler what can I say

And then there's a record player or whatever on the dresser between them, bc as we all know Will is a music guy and Mike lets Will do whatever he wants even if that means keeping him up listening to his favorite song all night bc he'd never forgive himself if Vecna somehow got Will bc Mike made him turn it off*

*So, to explain what that's all about: after his repeated failed attempts with Max, One went after Will next bc y'know, lots of trauma, easy target, etc (at least that's what the mf thought, I'm pretty sure Will lowkey has powers or smthn)

(This happened before the start of the au btw so it's just sort of background info, it might be mentioned but it won't be happening in present)

But anyway Will almost got Vecna'd and it was partially Mike's fault bc they got in a fight, Mike said smthn stupid and Will ran off, we know the drill (Mike still blames himself for it even tho they made up & Will forgave him and is fine)

Mike kinda lost his shit, honestly I'm thinking in his terror he pushed El too hard to save Will (when she was already doing her best obviously bc that's her brother) and that was part of why they broke up bc even El realized he cared more about Will than her- Mike is pretty much the only one who doesn't know yet lol

And they all survived obviously but now they're both kinda extra paranoid about it and even though they've moved far away and One hasn't followed them they still worry that some day he might track them down, so they fall into a (compulsive) habit of playing Will's favorite songs on repeat

(I'm not giving you his fav songs bc first of all I can't even decide my own fav song and also it just feels really presumptuous like that's too personal of a thing for me to decide for somebody else. I take music very seriously & very personally ok. Funnily enough tho I am listening to "should I stay or should I go" at this very moment)

Anywho, moving along

That desk by the door is mostly used for coming up with new campaigns they don't want the others to spoil (it's ok for their roommate to have insider knowledge that's not an unfair advantage or anything and besides it just can't be helped y'know? /s) no but they do collaborate sometimes and they work so well together as storytellers that the others find it lowkey unsettling (Dustin and Lucas are used to it tho)

>tw: vaguely suicidal themes?

Someone, not thinking I guess, makes an offhand joke about them being on the ground floor so they don't have to worry about Mike jumping out the window, and Will, who somehow hadn't ever actually heard the whole "quarry story," asks what that's supposed to mean and then they very awkwardly have to explain and he's basically like "oh my god what the hell that's not fucking funny why would you joke about that" and for a while after learning about it he's extra conscious of any self-deprecating/self-sacrificing type shit Mike says

Also they have "crazy together" written somewhere in the room no one else will see it. It's uncertain where, or whose idea it was, or why they did it, but they did. Probably to sort of make the room feel more like it was claimed as *theirs* after having to move to a new house far away from familiarity, and as a reminder to always be there for each other when times are tough

[the-acid-pear]

Bits from my dream I remember:

I was in a park with my dad and a few more people? It was El Parque Centenario although it looked nothing like it.

I reached there thru a beach house. I was in the bathroom and there was a insect inside a shell (not a crab). Idiot fell (it was at the top of the counter) and I tried to give it the biggest half (basically the bottom which lost the top) but it didn't like it so it ran away thru the window and I was like wait wait..! I'll go get you a new one.

I might have pushed it.

I suppose my family followed me as I went to the beach.

For some reason I was peeing myself hard and this was represented w me peeling this big ass straw which below it's shinny plastic looking solid wrap it had a candy cane texture (this tube was the size of my arm) with a box cutter.

We reached a clearing in the park which had ponds and I was like ah this is where in summer it becomes a beach!

We sat down on the "beach" (it was grass and dirty water) and we saw some guys to our right were inside the water which I joked to to my dad before going inside looking for... Something? And yes inside because now there was a building.

I believe I told my dad I was peeing myself or someone and they were just like go find a bathroom duh and I was like ah. right. So i set off walking straight down (I WAS scared of getting lost but I guess I got over it)

After walking for a while I found the iconic part of El Centenario which is it's little market. Though I was walking OUTSIDE around the border making it feel more like the book one rather than the regular sunday one but regardless.

They were indeed selling books tho. And movies. I remember paying attention to one called "el desquiciado pelirrojo" ("the crazy redhead") sporting a cover of our token redhead (shaved head and I think w a white streak so barely noticeable) leaning slightly over his knee. He looked a bit restrained. He was holding onto a massive chainsaw with a few modifications. He was sporting an apron I believe? Cover was very brown and dirty yellowy white and obviously red. He was very angry. When I saw the title I jokingly thought to myself "they'd have named the movie about the redhead that" referring to a movie that does in fact NOT have a redhead (a prison one, bad, I never remember the name, nobody but him could act to save their lives)

I also saw a Homestuck puzzle with, you guessed, Jane. Never fucking cared about her that much but she lives in my head rent free.

After more walking I finally reached the bathrooms and there were 3 doors the three open and people kept walking in and out of them. The people being ex classmates.

I decided to Blair Witch stare at the wall until one of them was done and I got inside

The bathrooms were MINISCULE granted I was glad to be able to not Blow Up but BROTHER I started thinking that they'd have to call the firemen to get me out of there I swear. Also when I sat in the toilet I got an Xbox achievement pop up except it was a RTGame channel achievement which was. Peeing? I guess?? Peeing in a small place??? I don't know and I was more confused about channel achievements to worry.

I believe this achievement worked as a ticket to a fair nearby and I expressed excitement thinking of riding a Minnie Mouse shaped ride (those that are suspended in the air) and a girl of my classmates mocked me and I guess I was like "oh yeah you think it's stupid? Let's go do it and you'll see its not" because

Next scene we were all standing OUTSIDE a giant uh. Ball pit. Thing. With the tubes and slides and all. I remember it started with someone on the floor asking why there always were more of 1 color ball than the others and I was like "that's right it aaalways happen -_-" implying dream me too started counting fucking ball pit balls before.

Actually I think the jump was because this subplot (it was a main plot that got left to the side) about this visual novel I was playing. It was amazing but I unfortunately forgot everything. I do remember in this scene that was like a prologue the girl I was dating was revealed to be cheating on me. Can you imagine a real VA that did that?

Anyway in the ball pit the manager got mad at us fucking around. She was beautiful, really beautiful. Kinda like FNAF Vanessa but a bit taller and blonder? She was skinny but more. Thick? Not in the fat ass way just. She was big. But maybe I was just short? Idk she was just a bombshell. She also said our theory was bullshit and to get off the ball ridden floor.

We then all started joshing around about ball pits I think she wanted to kick us out for being grown ass adults in here and I found this huge deflated ball called king of the pit which was made from sewn up bits of ball pit balls.

She said something about it and I forgot but I think she liked that I was able to inflate it.

I remember some flowers descended from the ceiling, it was three wires wrapped in vines with this yellow flowers going down. One fell in the middle of my face and the blonde woman came over and held my chin up and I leaned over happily like the gay little fuck I am. Full on ^_^.

She then told us she was gonna teach us a trick or something? Something about gatas peludas and I had my eyes closed so for a second I got really scared because I was like girl you're hot but I am not getting stung by one of those cunts.

(this is a gata peluda btw, they leave a painful fucking rash across the place they drag across)

(however our friend here looked like a tardigrade)

But my fear was for no reason since the little guy was on the table looking at us. Freckled Vanessa explained that we'd teach it words and if it understood them the ripples on its back would change, for it had across it's rolls a sort of golden shell.

We started simple saying words like golden and shinny because we're stupid I guess and the back started changing color one ripple at a time, sometimes getting lighter sometimes darker, the distribution of pigment changed too

By saying those I mean we were talking to it like a baby going like "are you golden? Yes you aaare! ^_^"

Then I got down to it's level making "eye?" contact and started asking other questions like "do you like this? Do you enjoy this? Are you having fun?" and it wiggled around never breaking eye contact but showing me its back. It felt very beautiful and very personal.

Then it cut to a list of things we taught the gata peluda to do and by then I woke up 👍

[sullenchoir]

(Emerges from a crater, covered in moss and plants and mushrooms, ect.

Hi, firstly I wanna say I do still miss everyone but shit has been crazy in my life! Moving to Denver, became disabled (:') ), crazy hours at work for a while there, and other misc. being in your late 20's shit. Anyways, I wanna say I still do have OCs, write them, drawn them, ect. just been a different gaggle of characters and not so much Mr. Mari anymore (even tho he will always be my favorite OC ;w;)

I mostly RP on the toyhouse forums since they're a nice one-and-done style and I don't have to worry about managing threads/commitments that I can no longer confidently keep up with

for those of you who are ALSO on toyhouse, here's mine! https://toyhou.se/99centsoda

crazy how i went from having only 1 main OC to like 11 LMAO

TLDR; I am still sort-of-kind-of active with OCs just not on tumblr cuz i don't have time to manage blogs for everyone.

that said...idk if ppl still do the casual not f2f threads (idk if there was a word but i always called it blog style), or the dialogue-only stuff? cuz if so then i might make like a hub and a gazillion sideblogs or just a few standalone ones cuz i know you can actually communicate from a sideblog now! I miss the RPC with my whole heart. everybody commenting on dash stuff, the anon ask system and asks in general, you can't get that shit anywhere else)

[talaxyan]

hello from 2023

hiiiiiii

it's so funny to think that all the posts from this tumblr are all just for me in the future but I hope it's gonna be another good reflection to see what I was like in the past.

but let me give you a little update since the last time I was here ((THERE WERE A LOT!!!))

ok first of all. im unemployed now, I graduated college 4 months ago and still haven't been able to land a job- I'm on my last round of interview for this pharmaceuticals company tho and I REALLY HOPE I GET THE JOB BECAUSE IM DESPERATEEEE. if I don't get an offer soon my OPT might expires meaning it'll be harder for me to escape indo.

as much as i love being at home and spending most days with my nieces and having no worry at all, I miss doing something intelligent like doing all the academic weapon I was supposed to be doing. it was hard landing a job yall, I swear I've applied to at least 400+ job but still 0 offer. IM REALLY HOPING THIS PHARMA JOB WORKS OUT I REALLY WANNA GO BACKKKKKK I wanna live in city I can wander around please

anyway, on the fun part ((my nonexistant love life))

in 2022, i went for a semester abroad in LONDON AND IT WAS WILDDDDD like really good experience and I love london so much I wish to go back there again and visiting my london fam innit- it was surprising really good like i had a solid friendgroup in just a month of settling down (shout out to SHAIMA LOVE U SO MUCH GURL) i went travelling to edinburg and Stonehenge. it was a surreal experience.

oh and i was on dating apps while in London and I got the taste of love (a little bit). my first ever date was really good, i'd give it 7/10 I wasn't that attracted to this dude but he was smart and caring at least before he became annoying and called me a self-obsessed girl- like dude HOW CANT I BE OBSESSED OVER MYSELFF? anyway I didn't continue talking to him because I really thought I should give an ugly guy a chance just bc he seems nice personally but he really wasn't so I went to 7 more dates after that--- ND I GOT MY FIRST EVER KISS??? LIKE HELLO? this dude I kissed, we met on tinder and I went to his place the night I first saw him and I gave him a glockglock3000 it was crazy-- but after that night I learnt why people like dick- and he got a pretty one too and it tasted sweet?????? maybe from the lube he was using but we didn't do the full thing cuz I was kinda hesitant cuz I BARELY KNOW HIM OFC??? but yea I learnt some things but my experience with men in general wasn't really working out bc ALL I WANT IS LOVE and it seems like u cant really find that on dating app.

other than that, i cut off some people from my life. it was sad but I think its about time. this girl I really wanted to befriend with since freshman year, we ended became bestie and even lived together in the apartment, but I think it was really toxic tbh- it think the more I knew people, the more I feel like I withdrew myself form them.thats kinda scared me because I really wanted to accept people the way they are but it was really not good having her around- for some reason in social settings, everytime I spent time wth her, it just irritaes me more and that made me realize that friendship wasn't supposed to be like that, it shouldn't cost you your mental health to be living with your friend so yeah, after graduation, I never contacted her and she also never contact me either so it's mutual I think

my time at skidmore was overall fun, I went to typical college parties, got drunk and wasted but it was all really fun. i love my girl friends my bbygurl I love them so much and they made my time at skidmore 100000x so much better. i would be a lot more miserable if it wasn't because of them. there was rough patches along the way but we are good friends so I was able to let go everything and keep our friendship eventho now w graduated and harder to see each other but I really hope to meet them again<3 I love them thao kim connie rebecca and my isu babies<3

my plan now is hoping i land that job in Boston > lease an apartment > fly from jakarta and meet natan > relocate to Boston and get my stuff at Uhaul in Albany > starting working and getting the sense of really world > SAVE A LOT OF MONEY SO I CAN SPOIL MY LOVED ONES AND MYSELF

i think i can do it. delusion is the key and I quite frankly believe in myself. i really hope so I wish.

so yeah, thats mostly the update from me. hopefully in the next post I can give you a better news and more GOOD STORY FROM MY LOVE LIFE yea. ok goodbye for now and I see u later

[yandere--stuck]

I just finished playing bugsnax in like 3 days (didn't unlock everything tho) and literally every couple has potential to have MC as their 3rd. Filbo has the most potential bc of how much he obsessed over Liz 1st and now he's ur roommate! And he knows ur not crazy! Tho Liz and eggabell could've trapped u w/ them as part of the bugsnax queen,,, lots of potential in this game, they all depend on u so much how could they not fall in love a little too much. Also I love ur work!

I really hope you liked it! :D I'm replaying it rn myself and I love all the new content they added in! And I still gotta get the dlc

And you're SO RIGHT.

Wambus and Triffany would feel themselves indebted to you for all you've done to them! And... Well, their relationship wasn't in the best shape before you came along, isn't that proof that you and they are meant to be? Plus, Wambus is far too stubborn to let you go. You've helped them so much and they care about you so dearly, won't you let them take care of you in return, hon? They just wanna dote on you, it's what you deserve!

And Chandlo and Snorpy just want to protect you! And... Take care of you. And spend every moment with you. And keep you hidden from the outside world, far from the clutches of The Grumpinati and their attempts to hurt you or take you away- or, well, maybe that's just Snorpy's paranoia talking. And Chandlo knows it's not good to feed into his boyfriend's worries, but when it comes to, well, Chandlo doesn't want to take a risk, either!

Chandlo'll wrap his arms tight around you in a hug to keep you still and safe in his arms. Being really good at hugging and protecting the people he loves is why he wanted to get strong in the first place! Well, half the reason. The other half was to be really good at basketball and also lifting houses. He'll hold you and nuzzle against you while Snorpy studies you and draws diagrams and even conducts his own interviews! Though, they'll before his and Chandlo's ears only...

Lizbert and Eggabell are even more protective of you than they are for, well, each other. It makes you feel coddled. Lizbert is ecstatic when Eggabell comes along on hunting trips, but both of them insist you stay in town (where it's safe!), and, uh, you know, just keep watch. Even if you try to sneak out after them, they'll fuss over you and ask if you're hurt the moment they find you - and the entire way as they walk you back to Snaxburg.

And as much you're happy to find both of them alive and... Relatively well, your heart sinks when you realize you won't be leaving Snaktooth Island with everyone else. Don't worry, though, all you need is them....

To Filbo, you are... Everything. His light in the dark. His hero. His buddy. His best friend. His Soulmate!! I mean, it makes sense, doesn't it? You believed in him. You tool him seriously. You always reassured him and never made him feel bad about himself. And yousaved him! You saved everyone. It's only right that he show the same care... The same love you showed him. You mean the world to him. He can't take his eyes off of you, so don't worry if you feel eyes burning into the back of your head or feel hot breath on the back of your neck, heh. And if he wins the election, his first action as mayor will be using all of his power to be able to keep you all to himself and treat you like you deserved to be.

Floofty would probably come off the most... Strange. You could feel their gaze on you throughout the entirety of your stay on Snaktooth. You were sure they hated you. They'd purposefully bump into you, insult and talk down to you, force you to gather supplies for experiments with no thanks in return. And when they weren't acting like a menace toward you, they'd hole themselves up in their hut or in the wrecked ship outside of town to do goodness knows what.

And when you had finally managed to convince Floofty to come back to town, you went back to Boiling Bay to collect some bugsnax a resident was looking for, and decided to take one last peak into Floofty's makeshift hut... And you felt yoyrbresth escape your lungs. In the light of day, you could clearly see your name written and scratched into the wood over and over and over again. If you weren't able to calm yourself down, you might've thought everyone was right about Floofty - that they really were a murderer and their next target was you. But, for the life of you, you didn't know what you had done to make them so angry with you...

It's only when you leave the island and Floofty gets a better handle on dealing with their emotions and other grumpuses that Floofty gets you all alone... And confesses. You... You were all they could think about. You took up almost every thought. It terrified them. They were awful, and yet you treated them with kindness and... And it was the most frightening thing they'd ever experienced. They were so, so worried. Their work in snaxburg was all for naught. And now... Now, they couldn't protect you. If something happened... They wouldn't be able to put you back together. And it was horrifying. It was horrifying to care so much. To love you so deeply and wholly and completely, to love you so much it ached.

[kodzuken-chan]

Hello Yui chwan!! I wanna make a request of Body swap. I saw that word in a random game and can't take it out of my head. I thought of doing something and then you posted. Please take your time. But please make a Body swap with any character you are writing!!! I don't mind anyone of them. I love those four dorks so much. Please write Body swap with Reader please! Thankyou!!

A/N: Ohhh Hiyaaaa @vemuabhi chwannn, it has been a long time since you asked me hehe but I'm glad that you did🙏🤩

You're Requests are unique as usual and I always end up having alot of fun writing them, I'm sorry for the late reply tho

Here you go and I hope you enjoy it~!!

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💮Crazy Love💮

Pairing: Sanji X Fem.Reader

Genre: Horror / Fluff / Magic / Comedy / Agnst i guess?!

Warning: mention of spells, Body swap

A/N: it is right that this scenario is a Sanji x fem.reader one, but the first half will mostly be with Reader and Zoro, its Funny I promise 😀

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It was such a lovely day, everything was going so well, the sun was shiny, the waves rocked into Sunny go and everyone was relaxing over the deck, it has been almost around 3 week since your last stop, and you need to dock by an island soon, basically because your ship was running out of supplies based on your gentleman cook's words.

However, no one could do anything in terms of finding the new island, all what you have to do is to sail and wait until it shows up. Gladly nothing seemed to interrupt the joyful yet peaceful time you were all having, except for a certain strawhat captain who couldn't stay still in his place like the others, " Oii Nami, when are we gonna reach a new island?! Why its taking so long this time!!", Luffy exclaimed to the navigator, "Soon Luffy, Soon, just be patient" sighed Nami as she Takes a look on the log pose in her wrist, since its has been a while since you left Punk Hazard and made an alliance with Law and his crew, he's been on Sunny with all of you until you all reach Zou safely and he can meet his crew. Few hours later, Nami sensed something in the weather as she got up from her place, a bit confused, " Oi Nami... what's wrong?" Called Zoro from the palce he was sitting in, " I smell clouds, a stormy ones too, but how.. the humidity is too low, there is no chance of stormy clouds to be formed", stated Nami in a worried tone "Actually, I heard that this phenomenon occurs between time to time in the new world's sea, so i guess you don't have to worry much Nami" you smiled at the Navigator as she went back to her seat.

Soon enough, the weather immediately changed just as Nami expected, but it wasn't rainy at all, it was just the lightings and thunders hittng around crazily. A huge fog appeared infront of your sights, nothing was visible, plus it was already dark bcs of the clouds, everyone was looking around, trying figure what where are they setting themselves in a guarding positions, ready if anything appeared out of Sudden, until Nami gasped loudly which turned everyone's attention to her, " W-What's w-wr-worng Nami?!!" cracked Usopp, " T-The log pose...its spinning around crazily", stated Nami, this is when Brook spoke through the crow's nest speakers, " Mina-san! Nothing is visible from here, but i can see a huge shadow, maybe its an island", Luffy got all excited and wanted to sail ahead, Of course Nami refused and told him to wait, no one is sure about what's behind the fog, plus they can't risk their life carelessly like this, so Luffy pouted and just sat there. During all of this, you got immersed a bit in your thoughts about the situation, you felt a tap on your shoulder and so you turned around to find your boyife Sanji staring at you with a concerned expression, "Are you okay (Y/N)-chan, you're so quiet", you smiled and replied, " Yes, I'm fine, i was just thinking about our current state", you assured him, " oh, did you figure out something?", He asked, " Oh yes i guess, I'll let you all know now", you turned yourself to your crewmates and called them to shift their attention to you, "Mina~, I think we can get out of this fog, since Brook have seen a shadow behind the fog, it means that there is definitely something behind there, I think we should go ahead just as what Luffy said earlier, and try to cross this fog, don't you think?" You suggested and Luffy's face lit up again bcs you agreed with him to go ahead, "See?!!! Even Y/N thinks I'm right" exclaimed luffy proudly, everyone else looked unsure about your statement and we're looking at each other until Jinbei spoke up, "Y/N is right, we won't gain anything if we stood here, plus its getting late, let's move ahead and if something showed up, I'm sure everyone could stand against it", everyone was motivated at Jinbei's compliment and this when Luffy ordered him to sail further.

Gladly, you were able to get out of the fog thanks to Jinbei's skills, but What made you all surpised is that, there was really something behind the fog, it turned out to be an island. Docking by it, you all decided to sleep after convincing Luffy since it was already late. After having a delicious dinner, everyone went inside their bed rooms, and You joined Sanji in your shared bedroom, sleeping peacefully in his embrace. However, this night wasn't peaceful as everyone thought, a sparkling purplish smoke slowly crepted its way to the thousand Sunny covering it. In the next morning you're eyes flattered opened, but something felt weird, you couldn't feel Sanji's warmth next to you, instead you heard bunch of loud snores, confused, you sat up feeling a slight breeze hitting your bare skin, but wait as you remember, you slept wearing Sanji's shirt last night, you looked down, and almost screamed if it wasn't for your hands covering your mouth last minute as you pulled the covers over you, trying to process what happened you touched your head and felt the absence of your long hair, then touched your left ear feeling 3 earings dangling from it, when you peeked down, you saw a long scar on your chest, this is when your heart dropped in your feet, turning around, your realized that you were in the boys headquarters, getting of the bed, you slowly wore a shirt and headed outside to your shared bedroom.

At the same time, in your shared bedroom with Sanji, Zoro's eyes flattered opened , he was uncomfortable bcs he's basically wearing a shirt, okay lets say it was your body after all so yeah , when he turned his head around, he saw Sanji sleeping peacefully next to him, and yes that scared the shit out of him, jumping out of the bed, he fell on the ground sweating trying to process how the hell he ended up here, this is when he realized that he's not in the men's headquarters, more than that, he felt his body kinda small, yet light and he has a long hair, he freaked out, he got up and ran to your dressing table and his jaw dropped when he saw his reflection, " W-what the-", he said as he rushed out to find his body, and BOOM!! The two of you bumped into each other falling on the floor. " Zoro You!!!!-", you " Y/N!! What the Heck!!!", You yelped at each other in surprise, the funny thing was that it was indeed that your bodies got swaped, however, it was just your souls, Zoro was in your body talking with your voice and the same was for you. Few minutes later after you both calmed down, you decided to sit up in the crow's nest to avoid other Strawhats for the meanwhile, "Okay so what are you gonna do?" He asked, " I don't know...we need to find a way to get our bodies back! *Sigh* but until then, we should act like nothing is wrong and-" you said but got interrupted by Zoro, "Hey! We can't keep quiet on this! I can't let that ero cook treat me as if it was you eww that's gross!!" He exclaimed, " But-But I can't let Sanji see me like this, its so embarrassing!" You said pouting, Zoro wanted to argue back at your statement, however, he couldn't say anything because he felt bad for you as he saw your pouty face. " Fine, but if it started to get weird Imma tell everyone, Now I'll start my workout session, you can leave if you want-" he said before getting his ear pulled by you, " Wait what?! Workout?!?! No no no Mr. Roronoa Zoro, you won't touch any of these as long as you're in my body, you maybe be strong, but remember You're in my body" you claimed, "Then you stay away from that ero cook, Don't do anything stupid while you're in my body as well" he said, and everything was settled like this.

To avoid any misunderstanding, you both stayed quiet away from other's sight except during meal times, on those times, you both shared glances at each other until your eyes fell on Law, you suspected him so you kicked Zoro who was in your body slightly to tell him that you need to talk individually with Law. Once the meal was done, you met Law down in the aquarium, actually you suspected him at the beginning for your body swap with Zoro, however, you knew well that Law wasn't the type to do such things out of sudden, but its not wrong to check. " Law-kun" you called the doctor who was super confused at the sudden honorofic from the swordman who was actually you, " I know you're confused, but...you see...-" you couldn't find the right words after all, it was embarrassing, Zoro noticed you getting flustered so he continued what you were trying to say, " Oi Torao, Are you responsible about this body swap?!" Zoro glared with your eyes, but Law was super confused, "What's wrong with you Y/N-ya? Why are you talking like this?" He asked Zoro, "Its Zoro!" Exclaimed Zoro, "Law-kun, you see, our bodies got swaped, Zoro is in my body and I'm in his, did you perhaps did this, if it was you please bring us back" you said, Now Law fully understood the situation so he simply stated, " Why would i swtich your bodies out of nowhere?", You and Zoro sighed and looked at each other, and soon you heared your Captain calling both of you because they're going to explore the mysterious island, leaving your problem aside for the mainwhile, you headed out and got ready to join luffy and the others.

Now the exploring team included everyone except for Franky and Jinbei who stayed on Sunny Go, walking between the bushes and trees, Sanji noticed how weird you were acting, in fact, you were walking away from him and never spoke to him ever since this morning, no hugs, no kisses, not even a good morning, he thought that you are tired or something, so to clear his doubt, he approached your figure having zero clue about Zoro being in your body, " Sweetheart, are you okay? You've been acting all weird ever since this morning, is there anything bothering you?" He asked with a concerned face, but he only got an annoyed semi-disgusted expression from you which had him confused, he thought that he was the reason for your quietness today, after all he noticed how have you been hanging around Zoro today, you watched him from the back but you couldn't stand that,you don't want him to blame himself for something that he didn't do, you thought that if you told him about your current body swap state, he might avoid both of you, but that's much better from getting his heart broken, so you stopped on your tracks clenching your fist, " W-wait! Mina...." You exclaimed lowering your head, everyone turned to you confused, your face started to get red, "Wait! Zoro! Your face is turning red!! Are you okay-" Nami said before you started talking back, " ITS (Y/N)!....its me ....(Y/N)..." Your Zoro like voice got lower and lower as you stated your name, and it was silent for the upcoming minutes, no one said anything, so Zoro broke this silence, " We Don't know how this happened and who's behind it...its just that we woke up this morning and our bodies were swapped", said Zoro as he stepped next to you in your tiny figure, everyone's eyes widened screaming with " EHhhhhhhhhhh?!!!!", But you didn't care, a certain blonde's reaction was the only thing you wanted to see, and as expected, he had his jaw dropped making the dangling cigarette fall down, " This...is ... impossible...no...no..." Sanji said beneath his breath, he stared at you and then at Zoro, his color Suddenly drained from his face, he lowered his head and said nothing but walked ahead everyone, " Oiii Sanji where are you going?!!" Called Luffy, " I will go from this side to explore, you can continue exploring from that side, I'll inform you if i found anything" stated Sanji as he disappeared between the trees.

You Knew that he would react like this, but why does your heart hurt so much? The tears began to form in the brim of your eyes and your silent sniffs were heared by everyone, they looked at you, they didn't like the expression on your face especially when you were in Zoro's body, you crouched and hid your face between your knees and started crying silently " He sure hates me now..*sniff*", "Oi (Y/N) Don't cry, I'm sure he doesn't" said Usopp, " Usopp is right, Sanji-kun is just confused (Y/N), I'm sure he knows that its not your fault" told you Nami as she tapped your shoulders. Zoro felt guilty, at first he didn't understand why would you keep quiet about the whole body swap situation, but now he knew why, " Oi (Y/N)!, Stop crying, I'm gonna get our bodies and that shitty cook back too" Said Zoro as he walked in the same direction that Sanji went to, " Then i guess i will come along too" stated Robin with her iconic smile, "I'll join you too" exclaimed Chopper, " Nice!! Robin and Chopper, Now I won't get worried over Zoro getting lost in (Y/N)'s body" giggled Nami, and this how the three of them got spreated from You, Nami, Luffy, Usopp, Brook and Law. You looked at them, feeling so touched, when you felt a tap in your shoulder, you looked up and Brook was smiling to you, " (Y/N)-san, Don't worry, everything is going to be alright", you noded in response and continued walking along with everyone else.

On the other side, Sanji was walking alone, and speaking to himself, " Kiso, Kiso Kiso!! Why did I stare at her like this?! Am I stupid, UGH!! This is not her fault, I have to look for this bastard who made my (Y/N)~chan Suffer like this". " OI Ero Cook!!" Called Zoro from away of course with your vocie, Sanji got chills at hearing this name from your angelic voice, ( and Literally looked like this👇🏻)

he turned back and angryly argued with Zoro, "Oiii Temae Marimo!, Stop talking like this in my (Y/N)-chan's body!", "HuH?! Don't order me around, you made (Y/N) cry!", exclaimed Zoro, and Sanji froze, he made his beautiful (Y/N)-chan cry, " She thinks that you hate her now" continued Chopper. "W-what....No no there is no way i would hate her just bcs of an unexpected incident like this I-", said Sanji when he got interrupted by Robin, " We know Sanji, you love her So much, but first let's get her and Zoro's bodies back, i think i know how" ,everyone looked at Robin who pointed at a medium size Castle located over a high hill, "What do you mean Robin-chan?" Asked Sanji, "I'm saying that Zoro's and (Y/N)'s body swap's cause can be from there, it seems suspicious, maybe they were effected by a type of magician spell", explained Robin, " But couldn't it be because of Torao's df? I mean he cant swtich bodies too" said Chopper, " We already asked him, it wasn't him", confirmed Zoro, " actullay its obvious that he's not the one who did this, back then at Punk hazard Toroa-kun swtiched your bodies,he didn't swap them, at that time your voices, abilities have all swtiched to the other person's body, however in (Y/N)'s and Zoro's case, their minds got swapped only, even their voices haven't changed", explained Robin again. Everyone understood the difference and decided to head to the abandoned strange castle.

Coming back to you and the others, You were walking ahead as well, and coincidentally spotted the castle, Nami thought in the same thing as Robin, in which, the cause of your body swap might be from that castle. It didn't take much time until you met with Sanji's Team infront of the castle's gate, the atmosphere was so akward, especially between you and Sanji, he didn't even look at you, you did the same too. Everyone was silent, until Sanji spoke up, " (Y/N)-CHAN!), I LOVE YOU! I'LL GET YOUR BEAUTIFUL BODY BACK So please.... Ehum... don't.. don't misunderunstand my previous reaction.....it wasn't intentional..." He said aloud not looking at you, a pinkish blush spreaded over your cheeks, and made a smile appear on your face. Form this point, the Monster trio went ahead first and the rest of you followed them to the abandoned castle, and it didn't take alot of time for you all to reach to the villian, who was a mid-aged magician. He sarcastically laughed at all of you, taking a looked at both of you and Zoro, he scoffed, " Well well, never thought that my spell would work essentially on pirates, especially the famous Strawhats pirates hahahahahahahahahaha", Sanji got more agitated, his vines even popped up, "You Bastard!! Bring (Y/N)-chan's body back!!" He yelped, but only to get spelled by the magician, " W-What the! I- I can't move!!!", Exclaimed Sanji, you along with Luffy Nami, Usopp and Chopper called out Sanji's name, the magician mocked once again, " of course, You won't be able to move, my spells are unbreakable, unless if i broke them myself, plus i don't need their bodies swapped anymore, I got enough negative energy from them, and its boring that everyone knows about it now" as he threw another spell over you and Zoro, However, Both of you fell down unconscious immediately, "ZORO!!! (Y/N)!!!!!" Screamed Luffy, Sanji wasn't able to move, he yelped your name desperately unable to do anything, the rest of the crew came infront of your unconscious bodies and protected them, " How dare you touch my Nakama!!!! I'll beat you!!!!", Said Luffy angrly, but Little everyone knew, your bodies came back to each other.

This is how the fight started between Luffy and the Magician, it was true that Luffy had a hard time adjusting to his attacks and repelling his spells, however, he mangaed to fight him until he sent the magician flying away from the castle, and since the magician went unconscious, the spell that was controlling over Sanji was broken, now he's free, he ran immediately to everyone who gathered around both of you, gladly Zoro was able to wake up quickly, So Chopper immediately called him with your name thinking that you're still under the spell, " (Y/N)!!! (Y/N)!!" He called with tears filling his eyes, " Oi Chopper its me Zoro, phew~ I got my body back" Zoro smiled like an idiot as he looks at himself, Sanji was relieved that Marimo is back to his body, but his eyes immediately turned to your unconscious figure, until you jolted a bit and your eyes flattered open, you holded his suit and pulled yourself to his embrace, " Sanjii....., Sweetheart I'm back....." You cried as you giggled, his arms immediately pulled you even closer, he kissed your head and then scanned you, " Are you feeling okay? Does it hurt anywhere? Let Chopper check on you-", he said until he got interrupted by your finger that was placed on his lips, " Shhhh.....I don't need check ups....just let us stay like this for a while, its enough to charge me" as you snuggled to him, Now Sanji felt more guilty bcs of his attitude towards you earlier so he muttered a sorry beneath his breath as he stroked your hair, but you shook your head, "Don't apologize, I would react like you if i was in your shoes... I know you meant no harm, so don't blame yourself", he was silent for few seconds, but then cupped your cheeks and leaned to give you a passionate kiss, it lasted for a while before hearing a Loud Ehum from a certain long nose guy, everyone giggled and decided to return to Sunny go leaving this cursed Island, of course your prince carried you in a bridal style all the way to the ship and showered you with affection for the rest of the night 💙🌌🙆🏻‍♀️

The End

[incorrectsnkships]

OKAY OKAY OKAY! I CAME TO THIS CONCLUSION LAST FUCKING NIGHT! CONNIE THE MOTHERFUCKING SPRINGER IS GAY!

So at first I just thought he was a really confident and comfortable heterosexual, y'know? BUT NOW! NOW!? oh no, no, no!

Reason numbrero uno! He has feminine hips. Straight boys don't strut like that, straight boys don't fucking be flexible like that.

Reason numbrero duex! He says bitch waaay to much. So if you don't know the history of the word bitch, bitch was also used a a gay slur for y'know twinks. You don't see Jean or Levi OR EVEN EREN going around going bitch, bitch, bitch, fucking crazy bitches. Sure maybe once in awhile, but Connie use it like a sister y'know?

Reason numbrero drei! Look at who the fucking hell he's hanging 'round with! Ymir; the fucking bitch lesbian. Christa/Historia; the lesbian or bi girl dude. He's the fucking second lesbian protector (next to Eren). You see that gay ass gay homie grab in like what season 3? Or was it 2? He's friends with Sasha, who does she hang out with most of the time!? Ymir and Historia! Sometimes Jean and Mikasa. Speaking of Jean, he ain't sleek either! Connie hanging 'round with a fucking bi-saster a bi disaster! Not to mention Reiner and Armin! We see him worry about Reiner and Bertholdt when they “missing” asking someone to check on them to see if there alive! Man looking out for his gay homies! Also in one of the games he asks Armin why he spends so much time with Eren, to which Armin shoots back with one of the most gay awakening responses, “Hm well what about Ymir and Historia, or Reiner and Bertholdt?” Like yo.

Reason numbrero shi! He mom picks out gay ass fucking names! Sunny, Martin, Connie. Fucking gay dude. (everyone seems to think Sunny is a girl but judging by there titans I actually think Sunny was a boy dude. That’s just a hunch tho~)

Reason numbrero five! He seems like the kinda guy who would wear jewelry. Not really necessarily gay BUt~ I think earrings would so be he thing, and if he we’re to come out he’d probably start wearing one earring!

Reason numbrero six! Look at the kind of shit this man does! He fucking carried Armin princess style, put him down like a prince, bruh he fucking CHOSE to he CHOSE to. He knew what he was doing. And that one official art where he’s wearing that blonde lopsided wig with makeup on. That dress with the fake boobs in it!

Reason numbrero 7! My mama always say, that if a boy is best friends with a girl he will almost always usually fall for her. Connie is close as HELL with Sasha. And while I LOVE springles. This know discovery is D A W N I N G on me! Connie don’t really seem to show that much interest in women. But not necessarily to men either. And that factor being. I think bby Connie is shy!

Overall I think he’s a great fucking character! I love Connie, but this just made me open a whole new chapter for him. I’m currently rewatching AOT with my mom ‘cause she done wanted to watch it and I couldn’t let her watch that cringey dub so yee. I’ll be paying attention for other Easter eggs and clues. I never researched Connie to much but now that I have I’m made some pretty interesting discoveries! In conclusion Connie Springer is probably fucking gay. SO in other words you were RIGHT! ATTACK ON TITAN IS FUCKING GAY! 😍

( j u s t l i k e m e l o l )

srry for the late reply, but you’ve actually convinced me

mans comes across heterosexual but he definitely had a crush on every single male member of the 104th. literally every one. and like many others, one of the older scouts was his gay awakening. and im not saying that connie had a crush on them or anything, and this is definitely not a ship post between connie and any adult in the show, but im just saying that he admired them. a lot. too much. and had to look away when they got changed in front of him.

“connie why do you offer to go kill titans with captain levi whenever we have a mission?”

“i admire his skills!”

“connie, you do realise that erwin doesn’t have time to have tea with you right?”

“no i know i just wanted to talk about stuff with him. professional stuff. as a soldier.”

“connie, you know that moblit doesn’t need an assistant right? he is the assistant”

“WELL SUE ME FOR WANTING TO BE HELPFUL JEAN-“

he’d simp for armin so hard. every week he has a crush on someone new, and then it goes in a loop. and he’d “practice” kissing too. like he’d occasionally bring the topic up in conversation and then go from there based off of the persons reply. “hey uh, jean, so like- have you had your first kiss yet?” and then jean would tell him no and connie would go full internal gay panic. “o- oh yeah, thas- thas cool, um, well, i havent- had mine either so like- would you wanna practice? it doesn’t count-“

connie would have his first everything with jean and it would be so funny because it just happens all at once. like hed get asked if hes ever kissed someone and hed just glare at jean and be so flustered

connie finds it so difficult to tell romantic and platonic feelings apart and thats why hes fallen for all of his friends

armin: oh, connie, thanks for doing that favour for me! i dont know what id do without you!

eren: wait! hurry, where do they keep the extra blades?!

connie: in the cellar!

eren: great- connie, i love you!

marco: see connie? if you just fold the paper a little more, youll get there :) youre a pleasure to teach and i love spending time with you :)

also why do i feel like connie and marco dated for a little while? not even dated then, had a thing going on for a bit. like besides from jean because he doesnt count, but connies first romantic encounter was with marco, fight me

and i definitely feel like connie went to hange for some advice about his sexuality. he was so confused and liking everyone at the same time, so who else better to go to than the person who tried to convince erwin to start an lgbtq+ youth club right?

but when eren and armin announced that they were officially dating, that was an eye opener for connie and it made him realise that its okay to be yourself

and it took him a while to actually realise that he was gay. hence the fact that hed physically gag whenever someone suggested for him to date sasha, and all those times in the boys changing room that hed have to turn around or leave completely

so yes, i can see where youre coming from, and i agree with you. but if we were to list the people connie has simped for from most-least?

marco

armin

jean

eren

levi (not really simping, more fanboying/celebrity crush)

reiner

moblit (same as levi)

bertholdt

[thisdreamplace]

I had a nasty fight with my former bff. This was long ago. She did the whole 'boycotting me' thing at school and afterwards had a mutual friend pass her msg to me, saying "tell her [me] to get it into her skull that she's not the center of the world, who does she think she is? Stop acting like a #" Im simplifying the words, her actual words were nastier

I got thinking today abt this fight, and her comment abt me that is still way too fresh in my mind even tho I hadn't recalled it in 2-3 yrs!, and I actually decided to use the law to revise my friendship to feel better as what happened after the fight was shameful on my part. But before I knew it, I started rmmbring my relationship with her. How I became a total victim. Got so stuck on her validation, begged her to be friends with me (after I got the degrading msg. 🤕 silly me w/o a backbone lol) and stayed her 'bestie' for way too long. Only after it's all over im noticing smth messed up abt out 'feiendship'. It wasnf that normal I think. She would get so pissed if I did anything that went against her thoughts/beliefs/way (which is why she called me a selfish # that major fight). It was so subtle the way she showed her disapproval. To her, if I did anything not aligned with her, or even makih decisions on my own which didn't involve her, it was wrong. And had consequences like her beinf distant for days etc, or getting angry if I didn't mind read her bla bla, I just had to keep her at the top 24/7 and she expected everyone else to do the same... which I thought was normal... It wasnt. And what would be even more crazy is she never realized how that meant she always wanted the attention. That she always wanted it her way! It just makes me feel... Sad.... When I look back. How couldn't I have notived it before? I used to be strong headed, opinionated before I became 'besties' with her.. That all has changed. I wonder why -_-

It may be dumb on my part but with the weak mind and insecurity I had then, I took that fight/her reaction to the heart and internalisef this stupidiy (DENY MYSELF if the other alternative was denying HER. I didn't think it was wrong. For the oldme, it really wasn't wrong smh). Aaah I'm so sorry old me :(

This fight started bcoz she asked me for smth and I refused, instead of relenting like I always would, and I see now that her reaction (to me not being an obedient # to her ig?🤢) was basically her setting rules. It was wrong of me to refuse, yes, but why did she react that way? Why did this pattern continue? That everyone was selfish if they didn't think of her ;_; like how do u deal with this? And the icing is when I too started to defend her and make excuses for her all the time. And ik I'm making her out to be so strong, don't worry... I accept the strong only rule when the weak submit. And I was weak as hell, so its understandable this whole thing. I think 😅

Idk. I seen your posts abt eyipo with other anons so i hope u can tell me figure out what this was. Its clear to me she was projecting smth about me, and mb throughout our whole friendship she was projecting me. And I would think it was her hurting me, that she was right and I was wrong or maybe I did smth wrong. Mb I thought I deserved being punished that way?!

Today I suddenly had an aha moment and I realised... this is how a victim thinks. I didn't know I was a victim when I was living that stoey aka thought I was powerless. When in fact I really wasn't?! Haha still accepting I 555% created ALL that. The law can knock you out haha

Enough old story I just want to ask, what du u think the msg she sent to me was? Did I really deserve such a reaction (did I mention she included other girls in the boycot? 🤢) just for standing up for myself? What about the whole 'fight' aka showcase of power? And the entire yrs of being friends why did I never realize I was only hurting myself so much by putting her before me? And also, with the everyone pushed out thing, how did it fit in? Like why the hell did I give her too much power in validating me by giving in after the fight in the first place?, and while I did have some fun times (saying this so anyone else who reads this doesn't think it was pure torture lol. We had some common interests tyat no one else in the class shared when we first became 'friends'), deep down I was so unhappy so why didn't this reflect on her? I mean why didn't she ever sense just how much she'd hurt me, why didn't she see how much I put on the back burner coz of her?! Was it as she saw it as her right? I'm just so confused

This is still a bitter pill to swallow tbh but I have to face this in order to move on. This person and my life with her has left me wit many scars and I got to understand how I did this so I never attract such a person in my life again. Its not even abt bejnf a victim. As I said, these victimy things were subtle and I only noted them when it was too late and I was a shell, like she getting super pissed and disapproving if I had a differing opinion and me blowijg it out of proportion and tailoring my views or not expressing them so as to not feel the disapproval...thanks boycott conditioning ig? 😭 Aaaah even talking agaunst her rn is making me uncomfortable. Which makes me think I still am scared of her subconsciously even tho she's no longer in my life. Like, what in me made me choose her? I haven't healed, obviously by this ask as u can tell, but idk what is it in my self concept that had this whole thing in my past even happen

My friend, I also want to say I think you're a beautiful soul 🥺. And im sorry for the long ask lol. And I pray you'll always have all your desires. And plz, was it hard for u at first when u learned about u creating everything? The good, the bad, and the repulsive (like this story)? How did u get over old stories? Ty ty ty 😭

To begin with you're being really harsh on yourself. Like, I know it's hard, but it's never that serious. And trust me, this is something I have to remind myself of regularly. Because there have definitely been moments in life where I look back on myself in that moment, and I feel like I was pathetic and would slap myself if I could. But the truth is, there's just no need for any of that. We always did the best we could. We always did, period. We couldn't have done anything differently and this will continue to be true our entire lives. Looking back on the past with such overwhelming feelings, is really not needed. I get looking back to learn from it, but practice coming from a place of love and acceptance instead. It will help you grow, rather than get stuck back in this cycle of self-hate and confusion. Plus, you actually never need to analyze the past to grow but that's beyond the point right now.

To me, by reading your ask, the message she sent to you was clear. You feel you deserve less in life, you feel you're not good enough, you feel like a victim to life and others, you feel like you're not empowered or the operant power of your reality. It's not about her being wrong and you being right, and I get this is one of the hardest pills to swallow. Everyone is you pushed out. Therefore, there's simply no such thing as who is right and who is wrong anymore. It was only ever you.

When it comes to everyone is you pushed out, you have to understand this person isn't this way because that's who they are. They were that way because that's who you were. Inside of you, you brought their character to life. Therefore, the same way you are not stuck to such an undesirable self concept, neither is that person. It's not that you chose her and attracted her in. You were just dealing with yourself. That's what I hope you walk away from this response understanding. Because by thinking she was outside of you, you're missing the mark. And this is such an important concept to understand when it comes to the law of assumption, because it's really at the forefront of everything. People play such a huge role in our lives, whether it's relationships, jobs, opportunities, etc etc. So understanding how everyone is you pushed out actually works is extremely important.

So instead of putting all this blame on her or even putting the blame on yourself, all these memories really do is give you a glimpse into who you were at the time. It shows you the beliefs you held about yourself. It shows you what your self concept was. That's all it's doing. So in that way, there's actually no one to blame at all. I know it feels good to put blame, even when it's on yourself, but the truth is there's no room for blame when you learn about the law. You simply take responsibility and become empowered by the power you have held this entire time. And you practice making it work in your favor.

If you want to see how something was apart of your self concept, all you have to do is pay attention to what you are thinking/feeling. Shame, not being good enough, etc etc is all just stories you once held onto. Now you don't have to hold onto those stories anymore. Now that you know the power you hold, you get to make a new decision for yourself. Rather than ruminating of the painful past, allow it to be and know how that's not your story anymore.

Was it difficult for me to accept how I created everything? Yes and no. It's been a journey. While I could accept it logically, emotionally it was still very painful. Many times I wanted to cry and lash out when I felt alone and felt upset that no one was there for me. Although, I knew deep down it appeared that way because of my own concept of self. So yeah, it's been a journey. And it's honestly not always delightful. But this is the journey we have to take for the rest of our lives, so we might as well get used to practicing and applying these concepts. Instead of continuing to hold ourselves in such painful lights. I got through old stories, and I continue to get through old stories, by feeling all the pain that came up. By allowing myself to cry and feel however I felt like during those times. And in the back of my mind I knew I was getting stronger in my power. I knew how I would keep persisting once the pain subsided. And little by little, old stories fade more and more. That persistence to continue choosing better for yourself, is truly more powerful than it may seem in a difficult moment. Have trust in how it's all working out for you regardless.

Hopefully this is helpful! Thank you for your kind words. 💖

[reinyguts]

Ennard time -w-

This is Ennard mah au :D

I will be tweaking the backstory here and there,,!!

Backstory:

includes-

Chica- Suzy

Toy chica- Anaya

Molten Freddy- Zion (fox)

Mangle - Cyris

Anaya (toy chica) and Suzy (chica) were best friends when they were alive.

Let's start with ennard and mangle's life before they came along

Ennard was only a day old when this happened, it was also on December 3rd

Mangle and Ennard and their parents were wild dogs when

They lives in a forest

The day after ennard was born, hunters (their weapons were knives at the moment) came across ennard and mangle's family

The hunters wanted the fur from them tho

Ennard and mangle's parents tried to protect them..but..they were brutally killed

Mangle grabbed ennard and ran, the hunters started chasing her but luckily she found a tree that had a hole in it, so she hid in it with ennard and the hunters couldn't find em

It was two days later. Ennard and mangle were starving

There were many wild animals in the woods..ennard and mangle were two young to protect themselves so they couldn't get out of thier hiding spot

Nearby was also a fox who was half a year old who was looking for somewhere to stay during the winter time..

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The fox stumbled apon the tree where ennard and mangle were hiding...

He was strong, and willing to fight anyone tho

He found ennard and mangle

He thought this hiding place was amazing

But

It was occupied by two little huskies, Ennard and Mangle

He was expected to kill them off and take their meat

Mangle had tried to protect ennard..

But because of lack of food, he didn't have a lot of energy left..

She would also be no match for a fox

But the fox..well..

He said saw that they were young

Just like him

And they had no parents

Just like him

His parents had abandoned him when he was a week old and his tribe left him because they didn't want another fox.

He felt sorry for the two dogs

He ran off

Mangle thought he was gonna kill him

But he came back an hour later with enough food for them!

He thought that it would be fair to take care of them and have them as his tribe :3

•

For a week he taught lil Ennard what he knows about how to attack and defend

But he and mangle thought ennard was to weak and small to fight,, so they gave up. Whenever a threat appeared, they would make ennard sit in the back or somewhere safe, because they thought she wasn't capable of fighting.

Until of course that drove ennard crazy, he was sneaky, and had a really powerful bite

She showed that off when mangle and Zion countered a wolf, they had no way to get away since the wolf was much faster, and the wolf was bigger, older and stronger.

They didn't notice Ennard sneaking out from the hiding spot, because when they thought they were don't for and the wolf won, Ennard jumped out from the snow and bit the wolf in the neck without letting go.

Cyko killed the wolf, and Zion and Cyris were shocked,, xD

One day, and old woman (Suzy's grandma) found the doggos

The forest was near her pet shop, she took ennard and mangle with her because she felt bad and my thought they needed a good home

The fox was out getting food, he was near by when he saw the woman go near them and was suspicious, but he had seen what the woman does, and he had seen that she takes good care of animals and she made her home into a little pet shop! So he followed behind trying to stay hidden from the car

Here is when Anaya (toy chica) and Suzy (chica) come in!

This woman was Suzy's grandma and these two girls had been wanting a pet! Anaya always wanted a sibling..and Anaya was excited to get a baby brother because her mom was pregnant! But..sadly..her mom had a miscarriage..it was sad, but her parents decided to get her a pet dog instead!

Suzy came along since it was at her grandma's house and Anaya is her best friend

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They chose Ennard and Mangle owo

They wanted to take ennard and mangle together since those two are siblings, but Anaya could only get one dog.

Suzy's mom (who was there too) instead decided Anaya can get one, and Suzy can get one!! They flipped a coin to see who would get who (heads- mangle ,, tails- ennard)

Suzy got mangle, and Anaya got Ennard!!

When they left, the fox saw that they were taking ennard and mangle (the two doggos were confused and worried about the fox this whole time)

The grandma's house/petshop (the petshop she set up was in the basement) was close by to Suzy and Anaya's house (Suzy and Anaya are neighbors)

The fox followed the car and ran all the way to Anaya's house and made his home in the backyard xD

As ennard grew, he became more hyper and loud! But well...Anaya's parents hated it. They grew sick of him, and that's when they started to hit and abuse Ennard.

Mangle would also have to stay at Anaya's house sometimes, once she saw him get hit n' stuff, she was tramatized.

Anaya didn't know about the abuse because she was always at school n' stuff

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Anaya did find out that the fox and doggos love eachother! One day she let them play in her backyard in the snow, and the fox showed up! XD

The fox and doggos started playing together!! She saw that the fox is no harm, and she let the doggos play with the fox in her backyard every day owo Of course she told Suzy about this xD

A few days before the party tho... The fox stumbled apon the pizzaria

Afton was in there getting ready for his expirement to get his dead son back

That expirement required..

Killing kids and using their souls

He was getting ready for the next bday party (how ennard, mangle, etc died) he was preparing how he was gonna do the murder and all that

He left the door open tho

The fox went inside out of curiosity

Williams saw the fox and threatened to harm him if he doesn't leave

But the fox's instinct was to attack

William doged it and stabbed him, cutting him deeply

Mangle and Ennard were worried for the days without him

Same with Suzy and Anaya

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Let's cut to when ennard and mangle were about to be killed,

Ennard went crazy, Mangle was killed in front of him because he was trying to protect him

Anaya and Suzy were killed

And the fox

Was dead, in the corner

Ennard attacked Afton and broke his arm

But Afton still killed him tho

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Oh ye I forgot to mention this, but, after Anaya found out about the abuse thing

Suzy's mom took care of ennard and mangle

Suzy's mom also drove ennard, mangle, Anaya and Suzy to the vet because ennard was stabbed in the eye because he accidentally caused Anaya's mom to lose her temper

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Suzy's mom low-key never liked Anaya's parents from the start..XD she liked Anaya tho!

The fox tho..

His soul went to posses the third spaghetti child

Molten Freddy :)