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deeeelightfuldee · 3 years

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Your ex taps you on the shoulder and says, “I still love you.” You say? ooooof. I don’t think i’d buy that. I hardly think people who DO show they have feelings for me are being truthful, so I doubt that.

Do you play video games? haven’t in some time, but I want to get back into it a little.

Do you spend a lot of time with family? oh heck yeah. I have a really great family.

Is your house more than two stories tall? nah, it’s the two stories with a basement.

Have you ever hit your significant other? Has he/she ever hit you? I will never raise my hands to another human being. I once dated someone who was a veteran and had severe ptsd. we were napping one time and he got aggressive. that wasn’t HIM though.

What makes you an attractive person? (Talk about your personality too!) physically, I suppose I have nice eyes and a decent smile. personality wise, I am warm, friendly, loving, supportive, sometimes funny, very loyal.

What color is your hairbrush/comb? depends which one I use. I have a pink one right now.

What snacks do you have available in your household atm? I honestly haven’t got a clue. I haven’t been let out of my room in 2 weeks.

Has anyone recently told you that they like you, or find you attractive? yes. it’s weird.

Are you attracted to the last person you Facebook messaged? DEF not. he has been asking me out since we worked together maybeeeee.. 8-9 years ago?

Do you care about anyone that doesn’t care about you? yes! I am trying to learn how to undo that. it’s not that I don’t want to care about him, but I know and can soooooooo clearly see that he doesn’t care anymore, and it is extremely emotionally draining to watch.

Was your last Facebook friend requests from a male or female? I wanna say female but idk

Which one of your relatives is most likely to embarrass you? scott

When was the last time you ate a bar of chocolate? couple days ago.

Do you play any games on Facebook? Nope.

What would you like to get a degree in? I have two degrees -- one in psych and one in SLP.

Do you wake up a lot in the middle of the night? ahahahaha yes. almost always wide awake from 3-6

Would you prefer to read a book, watch a movie or TV show, or play a video game? typically more in the movie/show or book mood.

Do you usually get popcorn or soda at the movie theater? Both. nothing like that buttery, salty goodness that obvs requires an enormous drink

What genre of films do you like the best? either make me EXTREMELY sad, or romantic.

How many bank accounts do you have? 2

Have you ever had the flu? Yeah.

What is your goal for the next few months? i have several. the only one that can/will be public right now, is to get my lungs back to functioning as they were.

Have you ever had some kind of sleep-disorder? How did it affect your life? yes. I have very bad breathing during sleep. I have had 11 sleep studies done, because my breathing will just stop randomly, which luckily my brain wakes me. it doesn’t really affect my like severely.. I function normally. but shoooooot, if I got normal levels of sleep i’d be a force to be reckoned with.

Have you ever had food poisoning before? Describe the experience. Yes. It was AWFUL. vomiting for 2 days straight. it was so gross.

Funny, charming, cute, romantic, smart - choose only 2 for the opposite sex. smart and romantic.

Have you ever let somebody use you? Why did you do it? hmm. I think there have been times where i’ve let people have more access to me than they should have had. or there have definitely been times I’ve been used in school groups. But honestly, I tend to be protective of myself. I stop when I feel enough is enough.

You can go back in time & change something in your mom’s past - what is it? I would want either Bill to not die, or for her to be spoiled incessantly by someone else.

Do you know anybody who is around the exact same size as you? Who? psh. no. my friends are all tiny which is just not fun.

Ever been to a haunted house? How scared were you? Yeah. i found it so fun.

Been on any websites today you wouldn’t want your parents to see? ahahahaha no.

Which is worse: dusting or mopping? mopping. i hate doing the floors.

Did you pull a senior prank? Not really advised when a homeschooler.

Did you graduate? Yes. that was a rough, rough day.

Have you ever been unfaithful in a serious relationship? Nope

What was the last song you listened to? i think it was Happier than Ever by billie eilish. the lyrics are ... woof.

Are you one of those lucky people with 20/20 vision? 20/12 -- the last time I had insurance anyway.

Is fashion one of your interests? honestly, if I had money, it would be. but it isnt right now.

Do you think you’ll eventually find that special someone? It’s getting harder and harder to believe that will be the case. I knowwwww I need to start dating, but every time I go to open up an app, I hesitate and chicken out. I just was so happy before.. its hard to think I could be able to offer anything to anyone right now.

Do you care what people think? veryyyyyy few people. I care about the thoughts of those I genuinely love and respect. However, I still ensure I’m protecting myself regardless.

Is acting something you enjoy? No.

What was the last thing you broke/sprained? I have a bum knee, so I sprain that from time to time. I last broke a finger.

Have you ever fought with a friend because of their boyfriend/girlfriend? Because of yours? ahahahaha yes. but years ago. never because of mine.

Has a stranger ever yelled at you for your language? No. I don’t cuss.

Whose house, other than yours and your families’, are you most comfortable at? probably either nathan’s or em’s.

Has any of your friends’ family ever yelled at you? alix’s family used to yell at me a lot for being fat. that used to mess me up.

Did you ever play a sport as a little kid? Did you enjoy it? soccer. no, i found the endless running to be unnecessary.

Did you ever watch the show Full House? yup

Is there a celebrity you are just DETERMINED to marry? no, thats so out-of-touch with reality

Have you ever burned someone’s picture? yes, i have.

What’s the longest hike you’ve ever been on? i think it was 8 hours. I hate hate hate hikes. But, thats because I have really weak lungs, so my doctor says it’s like lighting them on fire.

Would you ever get a lip tattoo? No.

Who is the first person of the opposite sex that pops into your head? kile

Do your parents smoke cigarettes? my mom hasn’t since a teenager. I think my dad does still. though, i dunno for certain.

What does one of your T-shirts have written on it? uhhhh, PTK honors society

Name a pet you definitely wouldn’t want. Any reptile or insect. <<<< same

Would you prefer your partner smaller or taller? Taller.

Do you enjoy going through old pictures? Yes. very much so.

Do you believe people when they say they don’t judge people? No, i respect people who are truthful saying they either try not to judge, or that they do judge despite their desire to stop.

What did you love the most about the town you grew up in? sooooooo much. it’s small town-y, quiet, safe, lots of trees, family close by.

What’s a movie you cried the hardest during? ps i love you will always shatter my heart.

What’s your favorite restaurant? buona or ashford

Is there a dessert you don’t like? im not wild about pastries.

What’s a book that you read because everyone else was reading it? hmmm maybe that one mrs. pettigrews home for peculiar children.

Underwater or outer space? i’m fascinated by both. typically more interested in the water.

Dogs or cats? both. all of them.

Kittens or puppies? kittens.

Bird watching or whale watching? whales!!!!!!!!

What was your best subject in school? in HS probably history. or science. in college, psych or neuro.

What was your worst subject in school? Math. always freakin’ math.

What is one thing you wish you knew in high school? Uhhh. hm. i don’t think anything. I liked my experience.

Who is your fashion icon? nada.

Diamonds or pearls? Both are nice. I love pearl stud earrings and I really want a simple, one pearl necklace. I am kinda ruined for diamonds for some time. My favorite rings and necklace were diamonds from kile and I just cant bring myself to wear those anymore.

What color dress did you wear to prom? pink

Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? oh sure. I am envious of those with bangin’ bods. I’m envious of those who have great finances. I am envious of those who live life married to their love. I’m envious of people who see kile regularly. But there are difficulties that come with any of those situations.

Honestly, when was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out? not long ago. the whole crushing reality of losing kile just destroyed me. I’m OK now.

Do you need to return anyone’s phone call? ahahahahah. I just reject all calls.

Who are you closest to? My mom and nathan rn.

Have you ever had a bad concert experience? no

Are you currently sad about anything? several things have recently been really saddening, but I’m ok. Ill get thru it.

Have you had any form of exercise today? Its going to be some time before I’m cleared for that. I almost faint from taking a shower and I have to be on oxygen after doing the one flight of stairs.

Can you handle blood? doesn’t bother me at all.

Has any place hired you underage for a job? yes. I mean technically, I was legal to work in that I was 17, but the company didn’t want to hire younger than 18.

Have you ever carried a concealed weapon? not like in public, but at a house or gun range, yes.

Are you currently searching for a job? soon.

Does eating breakfast make you sick? i’m never ever ever hungry for it. I know i should, but its the worst. I don’t even like breakfast foods.

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soundofseventeen · 4 years

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13 Days of Christmas (Jeon Wonwoo)

If you read Terrible Things, this is in the same universe! It was one of my favorites to write!!! Also Joshua Hong has got me fucked up...unedited bc im getting ready for work

Word count: 2392

You could feel it deep in your bones that something was off with Wonwoo. He was generally a happy person; you could tell by the way he walked. When he was happy, he took big strides and if he was in the middle of a story, he would often talk with his hands, and sometimes he could be heard before he could be seen. But when something bugged it, it was darkness loomed over him, no matter how hard he tried to cover it up. Ever since the month started, you could see his spirits deflating by the day.

Now Christmas was one of your favorite holidays because it brought out the charitable sides of people. And the lights and inflatables made everything feel magical. You often switched between the famous Santa hat to the elf just because.Everything just...felt different. And every time you saw Wonwoo, it was like he lacked something. At first, you thought he caught a bug which is why you stayed at arm’s length for a time. No offense to him, but if you got sick, you’d be sad because the child you adored so much didn’t deserve to be sick.

And then, you asked him if he was still sick and he looked at you funny and you knew he wasn’t sick and you felt foolish. So you made him cookies to make up for it. But when you went to his house, you were surprised that you didn’t find one anything related to Christmas, not a tree or stocking or even a single candy cane. The outside didn’t look like the rest of the neighborhood. And the inside just looked the same. It kinda broke your heart and then it clicked that he was still mourning the death of his wife and you felt even dumber for not noticing that sooner.

He had given you the time off to go home with your friends and family and he’d stay with Daejung. All the other members finally had the chance to spend their Christmases either back home or with the families of their newest love interests. So, you rejected the offer and told him you’d be staying home instead so if he needed you for any type of emergency, you’d be easy to reach.

So you fixed up your house with enough Christmas cheer to take you to the next century and whipped up more food than you thought you had and counted down the days to Christmas. You bought and sent gifts to your deserving family members and some for the boys whenever you saw them again (which you had a hunch would be some time after the new year because the idol life was hard) and you put extra thought and care for the single father and son who you hoped wouldn’t be so lonely anymore. It saddened you to think Dae would grow up without a mother but Wonwoo...Wonwoo lost his best friend and partner in crime. He’d have to watch Dae turn into someone who resembled both. Mrs. Jeon Wonwoo, according to Wonwoo was a spectacular woman so with her in mind, you found something for them for each of them and you hoped they liked it.

“Y/N, you didn’t have to go through all that trouble just to have us over,” Wonwoo chided you gently. “It’s just a holiday and Dae won’t even know if missed a Christmas.” He wiped his mouth on the napkin you provided. He wasn’t as he hungry as he looked but you just made the best food he ever tasted, so he just had to get a bite of everything.

You fed Daejung a spoonful of soup you made especially for him while looking at him. “No one should spend it alone, and I wasn’t gonna have anyone over. And since I work for you, isn’t this just another day for us?” You turned to the baby who was expectantly waiting for more. “Alright baby, open up. Alright you wanna feed yourself? Okay, but eat.”

He raised his cup of coffee in a toast but he watched you interact with Dae feeling happy despite the circumstances. His wife had passed away about half a year ago, so while he still struggled to make peace with it, he found comfort in knowing found a close to full time nanny that loved him almost as much as she would’ve. He knew you fell in love with the baby at first sight and Dae himself did so many things for your attention when Wonwoo interviewed you. He finally felt like he made the right choice in choosing. He was still realistic though; he wasn’t gonna ask for your hand in marriage and ask you to raise Dae like he was your own son. But he had to admit he hated the way his heart twisted up at the thought of Dae being old enough to do these things without you.

“Eww, dirty boy,” he saw you affectionately wrinkle your nose at him, “you got the carrots all over yourself. Wow, you finished your potatoes. Do you want more?” Wonwoo was pleasantly surprised when Daejung nodded. “Finish a little bit more juice, my love. Please?”

“Aren’t you gonna eat, Y/N?” He didn’t doubt that your own food would be cold by now. “I can take care of him? We’re your guests.”

You waved him off, standing up and getting Daejung out of his high chair, not minding the mushed vegetables that landed on your white shirt and potentially staining it. You finally sat him on your lap, ready to finally enjoy your meal. “I have noodles, corn, peas and whatever you want...okay maybe not whatever you want but things you can eat.”

“Is he really that hungry?”

“I don’t know much about genetics but I’m almost positive he takes up after you with that.” You pointed at the nearly empty plate and Wonwoo was shocked at how much he managed to eat. “Watch. I’m gonna grab some of the noodles with my chopsticks and then Dae’s gonna grab them and eat them.”

“Aren’t they spicy?” The whole reason he ate nearly everything else except the noodles was for that same reason.

“Wonwoo, if I didn’t know he’d eventually pick at my plate, I would’ve added more spices and everything. Mostly everything I made is safe enough for Dae to eat.”

“Why?”

“Because he will eat just about anything I make, especially if I’m about to eat.” And sure enough, the moment you raised the chopsticks with the noodles, Daejung swiped them and stuffed them in his mouth, giggling like he knew what he was doing.

Wonwoo watched in awe how you balanced his son on your lap while he ate the vegetables and how you managed to feed yourself while holding a conversation. If he didn’t know better, he would’ve sworn he was your son. Soon enough you finished eating and he was gonna clear the table but you held out Dae to him and Wonwoo got the hint he needed changing. You gave him directions to change him in your room while you finished.

He was struck dumb when he saw a picture of Dae on your nigthstand, looking so happy and full of life. Wonwoo figured Dae was a couple months younger judging from the baby fat, but he looked the same. He looked a lot like his late wife and he was brought back to the harsh reality that she was gone. He didn’t think he could ever love someone that much again. It wasn’t fair; maybe she would’ve still been here if he didn’t convince her to quit her job. Maybe If he told her not to go to Japan with them or maybe if Soonyoung didn’t convince her to have dinner. Maybe, maybe...

A sudden sob racked through his body and he tried to keep his composure. He was here with Daejung and you. This already happened; he couldn’t turn back time no matter times he wished it. The reality was his wife was gone. He was learning to live without her and Daejung would never have a memory of her. He shook his head. He was a guest here in your home; he needed to be happy for the moment, because he was enjoying himself a few minutes ago with you. You were laughing and throwing food at each other. You were friends spending Christmas together and Daejung just so happened to be the person who brought you together.

When he went to the living room, he didn’t expect to see you on the couch lightly flipping through the channels with the fireplace on. He felt...warm and cozy in so many ways and he just had to smile. Daejung cooed and you turned around quickly, hands stretched for your favorite little friend. He squirmed in Wonwoo’s arms, clearly wanting you and you handed him over, once again in awe in how much Dae loved you.

“Alright Mister, we’re gonna open Christmas gift and then you can go home, okay?” You lowered your voice but he could still hear you. “I found the cartoons you like so if you fall asleep you can stay longer because your daddy wouldn’t dare take you out in this cold.” You booped his nose and his little hand touched your cheek.

“Did you get us presents? Y/N, you really didn’t have to. We already took up so much of your time.”

“Yes I absolutely had to. What’d you think? You were coming over just to have breakfast? No, come sit down and enjoy the day. Jeon Wonwoo, you and I, we’re a family in a way.”

Family. He had to admit, he liked the idea of that. He sat down next to you as you put Dae on the floor so he could crawl to his heart’s content. “Where’d you get all those toys?”

“Well, with how you work a lot at night and you bring him over, isn’t it a smart idea to have something for him to play with?”

“Your friends must think you’re weird for taking care of some idol’s kid, huh?”

“Well Wonwoo, to be honest, I don’t have them over very much for that same reason. From the way you and your friends talk about your wife and the fact that the media doesn’t even know about her, I just assumed that you’d like to keep it that way, for the respect of her privacy. My friends don’t even know it’s your son I take care of. As far as they know, you don’t have a son. They just know I watch my boss’s son most of the time. Any days off you give me, I try to keep them away from here...just so they don’t ask questions. It’d be a little hard to explain why I have a mini version of Jeon Wonwoo in my house.”

He smiled at you wholeheartedly. “You weren’t kidding when you said you knew what you were getting into.” He could feel his heartbeat picking up. Have you always looked like that?

“Dae will eventually have to grow up and face all of this but as his babysitter, it’d be best to let him stay out of the limelight as long as possible. It’s harder for you because you’re still traveling the world but you know as long as we keep doing whatever we’re doing, he’ll be fine.” You weren’t looking at him as you spoke because your earnestness often made you feel embarrassed so you kneeled on the floor and picked up Wonwoo’s Christmas gift. Daejung, having been busy crawling everywhere he could, fell asleep and you draped a small blanket over him.

“I feel shitty not getting you anything,” he admitted. “It’s been a hard year.”

“Don’t worry about that. Daejung makes everyday feel like Christmas. And watching him for you feels kinda surreal, so thank you. Open your gift.”

He didn’t know what he was expecting, but he wasn’t expecting three photobooks of him and his wife and their history. He thumbed through them quickly. “How did you do this?”

“Jeon Wonwoo, every corner I turned at your house had pictures everywhere. So with Seungkwan’s help we found all of them and tried to make an accurate timeline.”

“That would explain why he asked me about us the other day.” Were you always this considerate too? “And what’s Dae’s?”

“Um, Jeonghan helped me look for a single photo of her. He helped me pick out the frame and everything and while he might never know who she was, I don’t think you’d want him to forget her either.”

“Y/N,” he felt at a loss for words, not sure what an appropriate response was, so he just pulled you in and gave you the tightest hug he had ever given someone. “Thank you,” he sobbed.

You weren’t sure how long you stayed like that, but you kept your arms around him until he let you go. His heart still broke for his wife, you knew that, and that no one would ever take her place. But you also did know one day, he could move on and start over. He’d finally start dating (only if he wanted to though) and then he and Dae could be happy together. “Would you guys like to stay a little longer?” you asked quietly. “You don’t look like you’re ready to go home yet.”

“I don’t want to bother you anymore today.”

“You’re not a bother. Tell you what, pick a movie of your choice, I’ll make some popcorn and we can have some wine and then you guys can home once you’ve had dinner.”

“Y/N, we just finished breakfast!”

“Christmas was meant to be spent together.”

“Okay fine, but you’re not taking care of Dae anymore today.”

“I make no promises.”

“Deal.”

So you let Wonwoo flip through all the streaming networks while you made popcorn, poured two glasses of the reddest wine you owned and went back to the living room in hopes he found something. He didn’t choose a Christmas themed movie, but it was a comedy and you both found yourself laughing harder than necessary.

But you also didn’t deny the racing of your heart when he shyly yet somewhat casually entwined his hand his yours.

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expression-in-its-essence · 4 years

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The Goldfinch movie.

7 min 26 secs in : Why the fuck did they start the movie like that. Why didn't the explosion take place? Theo's mom's apartment? His anxiety? Also.. why do they keep cutting the scenes abruptly? They ain't tweets... No limit.. then??

8 min 2 sec in : Okay they went to the apartment. Audrey's sweater deserved more screen time. The lipstain on the mug in focus *chef's kiss* poetic cinema!

9 min 19 sec in : Do you see what I see? Tom Cable's face has a stark resemblance to Boris's face. Did Theo have a crush on him?

9 min 54 sec in : Mr Barbour's hand is shaking. I like that they put it in there. He was sick. Nice. (I'd imagined Audrey's apartment building entrance like they showed the Barbour's apartment building entrance. Wild.)

11 min 8 sec in : Don't shove it into his face that y'all are fancy okay? He's not used to that life style. He didn't have maids making his bed. ARE YOU GIVING HIM DRUGS, MRS BARBOUR? But you just glared at your husband for offering him the same sort of thing?? Oh God. Poor child. "it's perfectly understandable" my ass. You gave him meds just because your sleep was getting affected.

14 min 39 sec : Woah woah woah Theo wtf you're so smol how'd you do that? Also... Again. The frame of Theo and Tom standing close and Theo and Boris standing close when they kissed, Theo is wearing the same damn sweater.

16 min 58 sec in : Ayyyy Jeffery Wright!

20 min 33 sec in : "He drank a lot", Theo about his dad. Honey just wait up, you will too. (The grilled sandwich and the cute lil smile 😍 also this is the first time since the movie started that Oakes' voice isn't deep.)

23 min 54 sec in : Wizard of Oz poster, I see you!

24 min 19 sec in : I love how Oakes is expressing being caught off guard. Theo knows he did something bad and every time he's dealing with something he didn't expect to deal with, he's like OMG THEY KNOW ABOUT THE PAINTING AND IM FUCKED even if no one knows.

25 min 1 sec in : The glasses made a difference. He went from mature to cute. Angry bird to angry birb.

25 min 44 sec in : Another sweater? Or was this THE sweater of Audrey? (Off topic but Oakes is hella cute. I could murder anyone who hurts him.)

29 min 9 sec in : Pippa doesn't remember or doesn't wanna remember? There was something in her eyes that was hard to read. Also, why doesn't anyone say 'I'm sorry about your mom' to Theo? Do Americans not care? It's weird to see no response when he tells people that Audrey is dead.

31 min 17 sec in : "The Goldfinch, destroyed"? Then why is Theo upset. Good riddance. Oh yeah. I know why. It's Donna Tartt we're talking about.

32 min 39 sec in : Hobie just casually predicting the future. "It's only fake if you pass it on as an original". Theo's like, "noted, gonna do exactly that".

34 min 16 sec in : Why does Theo write like a five year old child? That's toddler handwriting! And omg all the Andy-prom-dress memes are making sense now. (Also did I mention that Mrs Barbour seems more selfish in the film than she does in the book. Like hey I'm putting up with this kid because he helps my kid. He's serving a purpose for me. What the hell.) (How old is Andy anyway? He looks younger than Theo. I think he's different. Didn't grow up like other kids. That was mentioned in the book right?)

35 min 20 sec in : Ayyy Hobie's earring!

35 min 49 sec in : He shopped for himself? Nice! Didn't know kids could shop without adult supervision in the West. (Because they can't in the East.)

35 min 50 sec in : Ayyyy Sarah Paulson! Damn she's hot. How can you dislike her? *heart eyes*

37 min 30 sec in : I can't bring myself to hate Luke Wilson since Skeleton Twins but SHUT THE FUCK UP LARRY! AUDREY DESERVED BETTER. Look at how Larry and Xandra are looking at the place like they're vultures.

39 min 34 sec : They got the airport scene right. STOP GIVING HIM DRUGS WTH IS WRONG WITH THE ADULTS IN THIS MOVIE!

41 min 12 sec in : Ayyy Popper!!!!!

43 min 27 sec in : It just dawned on Theo that he's alone. Oh god. My poor baby.

45 min 12 sec in : Let me take this moment to say that Ashleigh Cummings is pretty. And I finally get why y'all were pissed at the non linear storyline and the weird voiceovers. Guess I'd been prepared for that so it didn't really suck that much.

49 min 30 sec in : I'd imagined Boreo reunion like the Platt Theo reunion. In the day. Dang it. Also... Adult Platt Barbour was not supposed to be good looking? In the book?

55 min 34 sec in : Without context, none of it could make sense. Apologies to whoever didn't read the book beforehand. Crowley fucked this up.

58 min in : Ayyyy Finn Wolfhard! BORIS IS HERE AND IM SO EXCITED IDK WHY

1 hour in : It's such a Boris thing to leave the bag unzipped.

1 hour 3 min 20 sec in : Slumdog Millionaire's Jai Ho (2008) is playing in the background. The only song that I've recognized so far. Wow. Lets me know about the time setting. Nice.

1 hr 3 min in : Someone gif " That cost twenty dollars!" *Stare* "That would have cost twenty dollars!"

1 hr 8 min in : So Boris's room is exactly like I had imagined but Theo's room isn't. Boris just mentioned Kotku though.

1 hr 9 min 14 sec in : Isn't it hella hot in Vegas? Why are they wearing sweaters? Or does drug intake make you more vulnerable to the environment?

1 hr 10 min 15 sec in : Xandra Theo argument : gold. "Cocktail sausages that you like." I wanna laugh in Crowley's face. What was he thinking?? Omg I'm dying.

1 hr 11 min 17 sec in : The slap sound didn't work??

1 hr 13 min 53 sec in : I like serious Boris better.

1 hr 14 min in : The slum house Audrey dream thing was not in the book. That's an entirely new addition.

1 hr 18 min 26 sec in : The Welty Theo scene is awesome. The sound effects work. I feel suffocated. The ambulance noise fiasco is also nicely pulled off. (also Theo's Yellow bag was dirty af then how did it get all clean when he didn't even do anything to it?)

1 hr 20 min 57 sec in : Shhhh Potter.

1 hr 22 min in : Holy shit he got slapped twice!! Ouch! And Larry's audacity to tell Theo to stop with the crying?? Good thing he died. Asshole.

1 hr 25 min in : "You don't tell me a lot of things but that's okay". I see what you did there, Boris. Which was of course, I love you.

1 hr 26 min in : "Act normal" - Theo knows his way around drugs pretty well, doesn't he?

1 hr 30 min in : "No family No friends" line punched me in the face. (Also awww popchik's excuse was the last resort for Boris to make Theo stay.)

1 hr 31 min 17 sec in : That pause after "What do you have to tell me?". You can clearly see Boris struggling to hold something back. Which was of course, I love you.

1 hr 31 min 34 sec in : What the fuck is that music? Oh heyyyyyy they kissed!-- he fucking runs away?? Also what kind of a kangaroo runs like that? (Yes, the taxi driver watched. I don't have to wonder anymore.) (They didn't address why he took the bus instead of flying?)

1 hr 33 min in : I didn't imagine Welty's room like that at all. Also why doesn't Hobie seem happy to see Theo again?

1 hr 35 min in : Longer stretches of one storyline are kinda bearable. From drugs in storage unit to waking up beside Kitsey. We got Vegas and Young Theo. Nice. (Also, who the heck puts jewelry in shoes? Is Theo that dumb? And now I can't think of anything else than Boris piercing his ear for the emerald earring. Tumblr has fucked it up bad.)

1 hr 43 min in : They nailed the Kitsey Theo confrontation.

1 hr 44 min in : Ayyy Ozma of Oz!

1 hr 48 min in : I noticed it before but I wasn't sure... Now I am. Pippa has Welty's ring. On her finger. At all times. (also, is NYC always that noisy? Must suck to walk on the roads.)

1 hr 52 min 23 sec in : They nailed the Theo Pippa date. What's that song playing in the background? I want the name. It's almost like two hours and I still haven't seen Aneurin Barnard once. Why! (Jerome's mentioned in the movie btw.)

1 hr 52 min 51 sec in : Complained too soon. Boris is sat in the dark doing god knows what. My man Aneurin is here!

1 hr 53 min 37 sec in : BOREO REUNIONNNNNN - no don't look at me like that I only watched it thrice.

1 hr 56 min in : Boris saying "it's someone else" with a knowing look and Theo looking at him. The frickin yearning.

1 hr 57 min in : Boris is like you're unhappy, I'm here, we're both rich, let's f*ck. "We could"... What are you suggesting dude he's repressed!

1 hr 58 min in : "you unwrapped it and showed it to me." So many meanings. The heart, the love the soul... Wow. Good for you, screen play writers! ( It's kinda hilarious how Boris got mad at Theo for never quote unquote fucking opening it.)

2 hr 1 min in : I'm calling it. They're going to fuck up the Theo Hobie confrontation. They put it on the wrong time. And they also fucked up the text from the book.

2 hr 5 min 48 sec in : Even Platt is saving his sister's face. Also where did Todd go? Did he never grow up? I wish Mrs Barbour didn't use Theo like she did.

2 hr 7 min in : The frame where Boris is between Kitsey and Theo. Chef's kiss.

2 hr 10 min 54 sec in : *intense music playing* Boris put his leg up on the table and I burst into laughter THOSE ARE THE FAMOUS FUCK ME PUMPS.

2 hr 11 min in : AAAAA THE FOREHEAD TOUCH AAAAAAA (Theo just knows without looking that Boris is close enough to touch? Theo are you sure you don't feel feelings for him?)

2 hr 12 min in : Theo is so worried that I'm not sure if it's for Boris or for losing the painting again. Omg he just murdered a man. Oh god.

2 hr 14 min in : Theo is spiralling. In the movie they imply that Hobie played a part in him attempting suicide. So wrong. Poor Hobie. In the book that wasn't the case.

2 hr 15 min in : The transition of the Goldfinch into Audrey, wow. Also, is it the first time we're seeing her? The movie started so long ago that I've forgotten if I saw Theo and Audrey in the museum. Boris following right after Audrey? That's a subliminal message. Boris is here to rescue y'all.

2 hr 16 min in : No shit Boris is freaking out right now.

2 hr 17 min in : The diner scene. They're both crying. "Happy Christmas, Potter" - which was of course, I love you.

2 hr 18 min in : No don't you dare compare Audrey and Mrs Barbour. Audrey would never drug her child or use him for her benefit.

2 hr 20 min in : Poor kid bumps into his mom lol. I found it funny.

On the whole

The movie was nice if you'd read the book beforehand. The first hour was steak, The second hour was Korean BBQ and the rest of the twenty minutes were minced beef. If you get what I mean. Weird analogy. It could have been much better. But it was really very nice in some places. Most places I'd say.

I didn't like how the pop songs ruined the mood of certain moments. I didn't like how you couldn't hear the conversation over the music playing. For example in the engagement party when Platt and Theo talked. Or in the diner scene.

Both Borises killed the accent thing. They tried their best. Cut them some slack.

Oakes deserves an Oscar for holding up this movie on his smol shoulders. I was shook at how a kid could act that well.

Popchik deserved more screen time. I'm still pissed they didn't add the Popchik Boris reunion. But then they couldn't make it chronological, what were we supposed to expect anyway.

Ansel Elgort y'all. Theo sure improved his handwriting lol. Ansel's writing is nice. He was actually good in this movie. Better than he was in The Fault In Our Stars. The internet is just mean. The critics too. I will never understand the hate.

All in all, it could have been a better adaptation but it didn't suck as bad as everyone made it out to be. John Clownery should be punished nonetheless. Special shout-out to Roger Deakins for making it work.

#donna tartt #theo decker #boris pavlikovsky #finn wolfhard #oakes fegley #ansel elgort #aneurin barnard #the goldfinch #boreo

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snellyboi · 4 years

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The Man Who Was a Legend

A little mossflower based one shot, in between Martin the Warrior and Mossflower.

Words:1712 Summary: A small boy finds his way to an inn, somewhere in the country side. He starts to talk to an older man, and learns about a person in the corner. Warnings: Does talk some sad stuff.

Jack wasn’t much one for taverns.

Matter of fact, Jack wasn’t sure what he’d be one for. He was a quiet mouse, a good boy who helped his mother around the cottage, and who played with pa when he was home. He wanted to be a mercenary, some day, just like Pa. Pa didn’t like the idea though. “It’s a hard life, being a mercenary.” he’d always say. Jack figured his father could be right; he remembered but 2 seasons ago, when he was only 6, his father could move much better. Now, after a long time away, his father can barely kneel, and doesn’t pick Jack up anymore.

Maybe it was a hard life after all.

But, Jack was here at this inn, after a long day of playing mercenary in the woods, the snowfall adding a sense of drama and romance to his daydreams, slaying evil kings and saving princesses. It would be better, Jack thought, if we just kept it to playing in the woods, this war business. “It’d be less easy to get lost.” Jack muttered to himself. He was only here for a while, just to ask directions.

“Oi, child,” A voice spoke, an older man, a vole, sitting at a table with a mug of frothy ale. “You look a tad young fer a place like this, don’t ye?” “Sorry, I’m just...lost.”

“Clearly.”

“I need to know which way the Great pale woods are.”

“Great pale woods, eh?” He asked. “Th’place wit all the beech trees n’that?”

“Yes.”

“Well, I only heard of it, not sure how to get there.” He said. “Mara’ll know, though.”

“Is she the one hedgehog behind that big wall there?” Jack asked. The older vole laughed.

“The bar? Yes.” The vole patted the table. “Sit for a while, you look tired there.” He said. He motioned to Jack’s toy sword.

“What’s yer name, warrior?”

“...Jack.” Jack smiled a little at the mention of the word warrior. “You?”

“Ira.”

“Nice to meet you.” Jack spoke. “Are you a warrior?”

“Ah, no. Farming, mostly. Lumber. Family’s been in it fer years.”

“Ah. My pa’s a mercenary.” He said, his feet swinging from the chair. “I wanna be like him, but I don’t know. He seems to want me to do anything else.”

“Well, life of a warrior is hard, far as I know. My daughter’s one. Seldom a restful night for that girl.”

“Oh?” He looked around. “Do you know any of these people?”

“Most, aye.” Ira drank more of his ale. “Mostly all live in a little village.” He looked. “Well...save for ‘im.” Ira pointed at a mouse, with a red cloak, and a sword. The mouse looked almost warm and calming in a way, but also quite horrifying. He’d seen war. Everyone there knew it, even if they didn’t know who he was. He had a softer voice, gentle, with a thick north shores accent.

“Who’s he? D’yknow?” Jack asked.

“...I believe he may be Martin, son of Luke.”

“Who?”

“You don’t know of Martin, son of Luke?” Ira shook his head and clicked his tongue. “My boy, he’s the bravest of all the warriors alive!”

“Tell me more.” Jack said. He sounded...skeptical. For one, his father was clearly the bravest warrior alive, just by virtue of being his father, no argument there. But just some random mouse with a soft, tender voice and sad eyes couldn’t possibly be the bravest warrior alive.

“Long ago, boy,” Ira started, with bright eyes, “A man named Luke, the Warrior, ran a tribe of mice. The warrior was killed, leaving behind his son and his own mother, Windred, who raised him in the caves of the North Shores. Until, one day, he was captured by Slavers, and ended up in the captivity of Badrang, an evil tyrant lord, who stole not only him, but his father’s sword as well!”

“What did he do?”

“Well, he escaped, with the help of a squirrel, a mole, a mousemaid, and her brother. But he was split from them, after being attacked by a great fish!” Ira sipped more ale. “He was left with the mole and the mousemaid, and they ventured back to Noonvale.”

“What’s Noonvale?”

“A little village up north.” He said. “Well...it’s more of a community of...sorts. In any case, it’s where the mousemaid lived.”

Jack, with a keen love for stories, seemed incredibly excited. “Did he fall in love with the mousemaid? What happened to her brother and the squirrel?”

“Just a moment, friend!” Ira laughed. “Her brother lived, but the squirrel was killed...the squirrel himself, Felldoh, was a mighty warrior indeed!”

“Poor old squirrel!” Jack proclaimed.

“Yes, poor old Felldoh.” He leaned in. “The mousemaid, Laterose, fell for Martin, and Martin for her.” Ira said. He winked. “They were quite the couple, I hear.” He’d never quite heard that, but he’d heard of the two getting along real well from a friend who heard it from a friend, so...maybe it was true.

“Were?”

“...in his battle with Badrang, he routed the villain almost completely.” Ira looked down. “He captured Laterose as a last effort to stop Martin, and...he killed her.”

“He couldn’t have! First his squirrel friend, and then his love!” Jack was shocked, with his jaw hanging to the floor.

“Indeed...but he defeated Badrang, who fell on his own sword! In his shame at the loss of Rose, he never returned to Noonvale...and has since come south.”

“He truly is quite a warrior, defeating a whole army!”

“Indeed, boy!” He looked over. “And that must be him, there.”

“What’re you on about, Ira?” Mara, the hedgehog woman from behind the bar, who just so happened to be the innkeeper, refilled the mug of ale that Ira had been drinking.

“Oh, evening Mara.” He smiled. “Have y’met Jack?”

“Jack? Heavens no, lest he’s short for his age!” She smiled. “Do y’want anything to drink? We’ve got cordial, clean water...not much else for a small boy like you, I’m afraid. Milk?”

“I wouldn’t mind Water.” He smiled. “Can I ask you for directions?”

“Of course!” She said. “I know where everything is around here.”

“I need to get to the Great Pale Woods?”

“My, dearie, that’s...south.” She pointed. “That way. But it’s an awful long walk, and at this time of night there’s sure to be some sort of highwaymen out or someth-”

“I’ll take him.”

A soft, kind voice. The jingle of a coin purse, and the soft clink of metal on the table. “Oh, but it’s so late, sir, you said you’ve been walking all day!”

“I could use the exercise.”

“But the weather the way it is outside, it’d be rough on such a tired man!”

“The boy’s tired, too, he’s half asleep.”

“Am not!”

The mouse in the red cloak and green tunic, with thick trousers and an even thicker accent, spoke. “I’ll take him where he needs t’be. Headed south anyhow.”

“...if you say so.”

The mouse hoisted Jack up, carrying him on his back. “What’s your name, boy?”

“Jack.” Jack answered, looking at the sun going down.

“Are you Martin the Warrior?”

“Is that what they call me now?” He smiled. “I’m Martin, son of Luke, liberator of Marshank. I suppose ‘the warrior’ rolls easier off the tongue.”

“Why’re you headed south?”

“The north reminds me of...her.” He sighed. “I loved a girl, and she died in battle.” He shivered. “I had friends who died as well. There was that Felldoh...his friend, too.” He shook his head. “Warrior’s life is tough, boy. Some can do it, and some can’t.”

They walked, talking about the beauty of the pine leaves, and the soft crunch of snow, the cloudy sky somehow bathing everything in a dull glow, orange, then purple, then...a fading gray. The mouse looked about. “Beautiful isn’t it?”

“The land?”

“The quiet.” Martin gently sighed. “I much prefer this to the din of battle.”

“What’s battle sound like?”

“Clanking.” He said. “Slashing. Screaming.” He shivered and shook his head. “The true reward of a warrior is the peace that the end of war brings, not the war itself. Good warriors are good in war. Great warriors are good at stopping it.” He looked back. “Do you want to be a warrior Jack?”

“Pa’s a mercenary.” He said. “My toy sword looks just like his real one.”

“Your Pa has a good sword.” Martin nodded. “So did mine.” He looked at his belt. “It’s a rough life.” The mouse trudged along. “It’s a life of loss. Work. Fighting. Injury.” Martin stopped for a moment, and then kept going. “But it’s only hard when there’s no peace. Sometimes evil tyrants must be vanquished, and in such times, blood is apt to be spilled.” He peered off in the distance. “But try your best to go to war over tyranny, not minor quarrels between nobles over hunting rights or land. Such wars are forfeit. Fighting someone else’s fights for them when they could figure it out themselves.”

“So only fight tyranny?” Jack seemed curious, as if taking notes.

“Only fight to end tyranny.” Martin smiled. “And never fight for it, no matter how much it would help you.”

“Thanks, Martin.” Jack smiled and yawned.

“Chimney smoke. Is that your home, boy?”

“It is.” He said. He pointed, and smiled. “Thank you, Martin the warrior!”

“Of course, Jack.” He set him down a few steps from the cottage. “You’d’ve done it for me, I hope.” He ruffled the top fur of Jack’s head. “Warriors stick together, even if the life is tough.” He kissed the boy’s cheek, and waved. “So long.”

Jack was almost awe struck. Here was someone who had done the whole thing, and looked younger than even his father. He blinked a few times...had the kind man been real? He never would have guessed.

“Jack!” His mother rushed from the house. “Oh, jack, I was worried sick! Where were you!?”

“I got lost, but...that warrior helped me home.”

“You thanked him, right, Jack?”

“Yes, Mother.”

“Good.” She looked out. “Thank you, kind man!” She waved and hollered at the fading figure in the distance.

He didn’t answer.

He just walked south.

#redwall #martin the warrior #mossflower #brian jacques #Snelly writes

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ofprcngs · 6 years

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BRANDON ARREAGA — Well, if it isn’t JAMES POTTER, the GRYFFINDOR superstar. For those of you who don’t know HIM, you can spot them sitting with the other SEVENTH years. Most people think that they’re CHARMING and INCISIVE, but they can also seem pretty DEPENDENT and INEXORABLE. Sometimes people call them the SHEPHERD. Sure, they’re a PUREBLOOD, but that doesn’t define them.

i literally have 0 explanation for why i did this other than i’m in love with him. but also, he’s a mess, so jot that down. if you wanna know more about him ( protip: don’t ) then i recommend checking out his pinterest and then i dunno.... contemplate why i’m a punk ass bitch, i guess. enjoy this mess. plot with me. ily.

james henry potter ( named for two his two grandfathers, maternal and paternal respectively ) was born on april 4th, 1960 to two of the most loving parents a child could have.

fleamont and euphemia had been trying for a child for years. they’d been together for basically all of time, having been that typical good-looking, well liked couple in hogwarts that everyone always just assumes will get married ( spoiler alert: they did ), however had had to postpone kids due to fleamont’s brief stint as a professional quidditch player for eight years following their graduation. after that, they would try every month for a child, and after many years of disappointment, eventually gave up. it was during this time that fleamont developed the sleekeazy hair potion which only added to their immense wealth.

finally at age forty-one, they were surprised with the arrival of james. obviously, they saw him as their miracle child, and as such he was pampered and completely spoiled from the moment he was born.

i cannot stress enough how much this spoiled upbringing shaped james into the person he is today. if you’re wondering why he was ever an arrogant prick, it’s because he was always used to getting absolutely everything he ever wanted. he grew up with money, he grew up with fame and with every bit of attention he could garner, and so it was really no wonder he was a bit of an asshole by the time he started at hogwarts.

obviously, james had a pretty cushy childhood, and as such, shit didn’t start getting real until he started at hogwarts.

it took all of three seconds for the hat to sort him into gryffindor, and i guess you could say he pretty much considered himself to be the gem of the house. he was the absolute epitome of a gryffindor, basically considered him the poster boy and all but expected everyone to love him.

really did not help his ego to know that everyone did.

in typical sterotype-gryffindor fashion, james hated slytherin. he had always been taught growing up that purists were basically the root of all evil, and his father had had no qualms in lumping all these people in with the house of the snakes. james and his friends took a particular disliking to severus snape almost immediately for the poncy way in which he seemed to believe he was superior to all for his intelligence and his house status, and this dislike only grew when lily evans was tossed into the mix, too.

for basically the first four or five years of hogwarts, james really was that stereotypical arrogant asshole that he’s often made out to be. he always got everything he asked for, he was incredibly popular and incredibly intelligent, he had the most amazing friends and his eyes on the most amazing girl. he was set!! shit was good!!

shit was not good, though. definitely was not.

despite having known of remus’ furry little problem since second year, things didn’t really start to settle in james how awful it was until third or fourth year. he hated seeing his friend in pain, he hated that he couldn’t help, and so he rallied the boys to put into action their worst plan yet!!!!

becoming animagi!!!!!!

it took fucking forever, obviously, but by the end of fourth year they did it!! we stan icons

except then in fifth year shit hit the fan again in just, like... so many ways

first, it was the whole severus ‘mudblood’ situation. honestly, james was absolutely furious. he’d always hated snape but this just made everything 1000 times worse. even if it had happened to anyone else, he would have been fuming. but for it to have happened to lily like... yikes.

this was also a horrible time for james though because lily rejected him for the thousandth time. like, look, what a yikes thing to think when she was just called a mudblood, but frankly he was sick of being rejected and he was sick of being the asshole who kept pressuring her so that was the breaking point --- he gave up on her.

and tbh, he changed a lot from here on out. grew up!! became a better person bc he saw how horrible snap was and decided he was sick of horrible people!! saw, recognised and acknowledged that just bc he was hot and intelligent and rich he wasn’t always going to get everything he wanted ( see: miss evans ) and just generally learned that oh shit the world doesn’t revolve around him!!!

oh and then there was that whole thing with sirius and snape and Remus the Werewolf and ohhhh boyyyy.... that infuriated him.

he loves his bros so much and y’all know he would die for them, but to see his friend abuse remus’ pain and suffering for his own gain was heart wrenching. it just pushed him further to pull him in line, to realise that not everything was about games, or petty rivalry, or ‘ getting the girl ’ --- life heartache and mistakes and it was never going to go the way he wanted it to.

now look, this isn’t all to say that james is now a Super Strict, Super Intense, Brooding Weirdo. he’s still a bit of a child, and he’s still a bit of an arrogant prick, but ultimately what wins out is his morals --- every time. he wants to lead the world to a better place, without war and without hate, he wants everyone to have the same opportunities he had as a kid and he wants nothing more than for blood purity to be eradicated.

get that shit outta my house!!! gross!!!!!!

now in his final year, james is always flipping between taking his role as head boy deadly serious and turning it into one big game of mischief. he’s still a marauder at heart, after all, and has definitely abused his power sometimes for the benefit of fun and games, but when it comes down to it, he can be very strict and lowkey paternal. the leader really just.... popped right outta him, it came to play and it came hard, and really you’d think he’s minister for magic with how serious he treats it sometimes.

i hate him.

he’s a lot less intense with his hatred for slytherin’s. he has come to recognise that not everyone from that lifestyle is going to be the same, not everyone who grew up a certain way or was sorted into a certain house is going to think with a deadly mind, and while he’s still a bit wary, he’s a lot more relaxed about it, especially as head boy ( gotta at least pretend shit’s fair !!! )

ok i’m so tired this is abt to turn into a rambling mess

uHhhHHh he’s very dependent as in like... boi cannot go a week without his friends. he is used to having people to bounce off, that’s always the type of leader he has been, and as much as he would probably be amazing at anything on his own, he’s never really tried. too scared!! i hate him!!!!!

super unforgiving. like, if you have gotten on his bad side.... i’m sorry. it is going to be very difficult to return from there. his moral compass is pretty black and white, you’re either good or your bad, and if you’ve done something he considers bad wELL sucks to be you, i guess. sorry not sorry.

takes his quidditch very seriously tbh. so many people have told him he needs to be a pro like his dad, but he’s like haha fuck you i know what i wanna do ( hint hint: he wants to rule that goddamn auror office, make that shit far more efficient then he thinks it is now ). but srsly, he’s so intense abt the game and it really like... idk gets him in the zone, keeps him level-headed in amongst all this chaos.

i don’t know what im saying anymore pls send help

uhhhhh he’s smart. i guess. straight a’s and shit idk. just very naturally intelligent, finds everything he does easy, like.. really is that asshole who is just good at everything he does.

i’ve run out of things to say, pls just love him

WANTED CONNECTIONS

girlfriend: i hate to expose myself as a whole ass jily stan but... here i am i guess. but also, listen: he really thinks he’s over her right now. like, he truly believes his days of pestering lily evans are behind him. it was just a crush! it’s gone! ( spoiler alert: it’s not ) BUT he is so convinced that he has got himself into this relationship which is really just... a mess. like highkey it’s obvious he could never fully love her bc his Heart Belongs to Lily or whatever but he does care for her deeply and has tricked himself into believing it’s love. it’s hard, man. he’s confused. send help.

ex-girlfriend(s): more of above but like... less intense? or more intense! who knows, frankly.

childhood friend(s): i’d die for childhood friends. jake/gina dynamic? iconic. just anything, really.

odd friend: ok like... as i mentioned, he’s still kinda wary of slytherins and ppl who grew up in purist culture, but i would love love love to see someone who was one of the first to show him that not all those people are so bad. like someone from a purist family or the like who was just chill and friendly and actually befriended this asshole even when he was... well, an asshole. it’d be fun, ig. also if they eventually do end up recruited for the de’s bc of family stuff or whatever... bonus points.

rivals: i’m tired. you understand.

#novum:intro #you guys this is... such a mess #im gunna regret posting this in the morning #oh well!!#here we are ig!!!!!!

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spacefuneral · 6 years

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rules: tag 15 people you want to know better

I was tagged by @marshcrone (,: thank uuuuu~

Relationship status: not 2 be gay but i luv my girlf

Favorite colors: uhhh purple, mint green, soft pink, like... tangerine orange

Lipstick or chapstick: chapstick i Guess

Favorite food: uhhh hmmm i feel my favorite Meal is beef roast w/ mashed potatoes and broccoli, but it’s probably pork bc I’m a pork fiend and will eat it without anything else. Eggs and pasta are also good options.

Song stuck in my head: Rawnald Gregory Erickson the Second by STRFKR. My art professor is a cutie and plays a looot of music I like, and she was playing STRFKR the other day.

Last movie i watched: LOL I THINK IT WAS SLENDER MAN THAT’S TRAGIC

Top 3 tv shows: uhh i don’t watch a lot of tv but uh. I like Stranger Things, Adventure Time, Bob’s Burgers, Chopped, Great British Bake Off... I like Letterkenny even if I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone I know? Over The Garden Wall is another and I recommend it to Everyone. Uhhh. Idk. Idk what would be my fave either. Maybe Adventure Time?

Books i’m currently reading: I ordered The Secret History and I’m waiting on it. I started Great Expectations but it made me sad for personal reasons, but it’s pretty delightful. I’m supposed to be reading The Odyssey but fuck that.

Last thing i googled: lmao... “degrees of murder” because i was wondering why Robert Pickton was considered a second degree murderer. Before that, I had googled “Steel Magnolias Armadillo Cake.” lMao.....

Time: 12:07 AM

How many blankets do you sleep in: one!

Dream trip: I actually don’t really have much of a wanderlust, which tends to surprise people. I do really want to visit Oregon and Washington, though! I want to see........ Big.......... Tree......

Anything you really want: clear skin

Age: 23, turning 24 in October~

Birthplace: Maine

Drink you had last: coked cola

Easiest person to talk to: Like, in my life? I can talk to my girlfriend about literally everything and always have, she is A Blessing. My friend group is also extremely easy to talk to because we’ve been friends for like practically a decade almost, but I feel bad when I joke about my abuse because it’s really only funny to me and probably Vi because we can laugh about those things together. Sometimes You Gotta Laugh 2 Cope.

Favorite song: I feel like it’s technically Head Over Heels by Tears For Fears. I tend to have current favorites, though, and mine is definitely Nobody by Mitski rn.

Grossest memory: Well. Like. In a funny sense? It was probably when Leigh and I made a trash smoothie out of everything liquid in their fridge and then took turns sipping it. I spat it out as soon at it touched my tongue.

Or maybe the time Vi and I found her mom’s potatoes rotting in the cupboard, which was soaked with a weird liquid coming from them, and it smelled like rotten fish.

Hogwarts house: Slytherin

In love?: yah duh

Jealous of people?: not really

Killed someone?: imagine casually mentioning you killed someone in a survey thing like this

Love at first sight or walk by again?: nobody says it like that but uh. i don’t know shit, dude. i think emotions are more complicated than that, but what do i know?

Middle name: fish

Number of siblings: two

One wish: tuition money

Person you last called: the bank i think?

Questions you’re asked the most: um i can’t think of this off the top of my head but i get “you like cats?” a lot because im always covered in cat related shit

Reasons to smile: i’m tired so i can’t be cute and creative, but i’d say my stupid cats are a fantastic reason. My brother sent me a message telling me his favorite Animal Crossing song unprompted today. Bergs @’s me in so many things that I lose track of it--and when I check the group blog, I find 23423 cat things Vann reblogged. Vi and I have so many inside jokes at this point that I feel like we don’t even say them out loud half the time anymore. Just, something happens that reminds us and we exchange a look and laugh. Also, the fact that my friends trust me and come to me about their personal issues is very touching and I’m happy I can be that person.

Song you last sang: lmfao Vi and I sang parts of Motion City Soundtrack’s The Future Freaks Me Out to each other in the car and I hella overcompensated for how high he says “betty won’t stop listening to modern rock”

Time you woke up: Ummmm. I woke up at 5 AM and couldn’t sleep but I officially got out of bed at 7:30 AM. Then I fell asleep again when I got home for, like, 8 hours, because I’m kinda sick lately.

Vacation destination: I like visiting my family in Maine. It’s a really lovely place and my heart is buried there for all eternity.

Zodiac sign: Libra!

Worst habit: mmmmmm............... humble 2 a fault. Or, maybe, uh. Perfectionist? I’m never really happy with anything I do.

Tagging: @i-say-spooky-you-say-scary @daaraen @wubby-desu @webkitten @estrangedlabor i just noticed it says 15 people wtf i don’t even know -2 people

also, if you wanna do this, i can tag you~

#me #survey #idk if i have a tag for this shit #fish gets emotional

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jorefeinla · 4 years

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IMPOSTOR

There is a family living happily in the wood far from noise and crowded people, Jane the wife her husband Norman their two children Rochelle the elder sister and dexter the younger brother. Norman is a hard working father to provide them food and better life. Norman got very sick because he overused his body and abused it from working too hard and died it was a tragic happening to their life and his family mourn to his death.

(one sad morning, Jane called her children for breakfast)

Jane: My children! Come let us eat for breakfast. Rochelle: Ok, mom. Come my baby brother let us eat. Dexter: (Nya nye)! (Jane felt sad because they are poor that she cannot provide enough food for them and milk for the baby) Jane: Sorry, we only got this little food. We don’t have enough money to buy more food. Rochelle: (Sadly speak) it’s ok mom this is enough already. Dexter: (Crying) Jane: I’m sorry my children if only your father was here we won’t become like this. Jane: I need to now I have to work now to earn money for our food later. (Jane went out already and left her two child at home to go to work) Man:Ellie? Why are you always late at work?! You know I don’t tolerate this kind of behavior, this is a deduction to your salary. (Her boss was kind but cannot hold anymore because of jane always come to work late) Jane: I’m sorry sir I have two kids and I’m a single mom I have to take care of both of them. Man: Then you have to manage your Time wisely we don’t give salary here for granted you work for it! Jane: I understand sir please do not fire me. Man: Fine, get back to your work and if this kind of behavior continues I will not hesitate to fire you. Jane: Yes sir. (after her work he is went to thee market to buy food for their dinner) Jane: this money would be enough for us to buy food- (On her way to the market he bump in to met a man and the man noticed her) Jane: I’m so sorry I didn’t notice you. Man: No, no it’s my fault. hello, my name is Mike , I noticed you were on the way to the market? Jane: Yes, why? Mike: I also noticed that you are tired and sad. Do you mind if I come along with you? Jane: (Gladly said yes) (On their way to the market jane had a great time with Mike and accompanied jane a walk towards home) Jane: Thank you for your time and accompanying me towards my home. (Rochelle went out carrying her younger brother Dexter, welcoming their mother home from work) Jane: Mike meet my two children. Mike: (Happily greeted them) hi kids do you like candy? (The kids liked mike and mike said goodbye to them and went home) Mike to jane: Can we meet again? Jane: Yes(and smiled) (Months has passed and they become close and they started a relationship.) Jane: I have kids Mike and you accepted them like how you accepted me. I think it’s time for them to meet you, because they’ve been longing to have a daddy since my husband died.

(The kids love Mike because he is funny, kind and joyful)

Mike: Shhhh you dont have to talk about your children because they are my children too dont think that everything is just a responsibilities because I love them and I love you honney.

Jane: “hug mike” I love you too honney, its already your work time hon I should prepare something you can eat at work we have extra salads their just eat it so that you can’t feel hungry soon if we have a lots of money I would always cook your favourite food.

Mike: Thats my honney, thanks hon i would prepare already. (After the good conversation they had. Something has change mike always come home at 12am because of work) Jane: what happened honney why you always get home at 12midnight? This is crazy! Mike: Im sorry hon, something happened there is a big problem in the company and we always tried to bring up the company again. Jane: Okay. But, please always try to come home early its only me and the children in the house we are scared. Mike: I know hon, I’ll try my best. (One day, something came up mike cant go home because something strange has happened there are urgent mike would do so the brother name Carlos came up) Jane: I dont know what to do and what to think I always overthink Rochelle check your brother upstairs take care of him i just need to sleep here in the couch I would wait your daddy Rochelle: Okay mom take a rest daddy would come home maybe he just had urgent meeting. *knock knock knock Jane: Who is that? Carlos: Hello. Its carlos im mike’s brother (jane feels safe because the appearance of Carlos is so jolly and has a good smile) Jane: Oh, sorry please come in. Carlos: Its okay nice to meet you. I just came to tell you that Mike cant go home because there are something urgent he needs to do. Jane: Ahh okay I see atleast i know now what happened. Carlos: I also came because i know that you and your children was in here its not safe that its just the three of you here you need a man maybe all of you can go to my house waiting for my brother to be home. Jane: I appreciated it but thankyou we are fine here. Carlos: If thats thats the case maybe can i stay here? I dont want my brother to feel that I didn’t help him with his family. Jane: Thats so good on you carlos okay you can sleep in here I would prepare something more comfortable pillows. (Carlos and jane has good time together they have always fun with the children because carlos has same as mike a jolly person)

(And in the morning, Carlos shows elegance, he cooked a food to see the children how kind he is)

Carlos: Wake up Rochelle and Dexter, Lets eat! Dexter: Wow its so delicious uncle carlos! Rochelle: I never thought you would be so kind uncle Carlos.

(They didn’t know that Carlos just did that to make them believe and trust)

Carlos: Hey kids, do you want to play with me? Rochelle & Dexter: Let’s go! Jane: Kids, I’ll just leave you for awhile, I just need to go shopping for our dinner later. Just play with your uncle Carlos and be kind.

(They keep on playing until Rochelle break a glass)

Carlos: What the f*** did you do Rochelle! Come here and I slap you because you deserve it! Dexter: Uncle Carlos stop! What are you doing?! Carlos: Do not interfere stupid!

(He also slap and pushed Dexter in stairs)

Dexter: I will tell the truth to my mom and dad for what you did to us! I thought you were kind, but you are a demon! go kill yourself!

( Because of Dexter’s mouth, Carlos became angrier. Carlos chased Dexter and punched him more than an our)

(Jane knocks the gate and Carlo tries to hide the kids somewhere that is not going to be saw by Jane)

Jane: Kids, kindly please open the gate, I brought a lot in here.

(Carlos opened the gate)

Jane: Oh carlos, where’s rochelle and dexter? I thought your playing?

Carlos: Mike took the kids Jane, they seem to be going for a walk in the mall.

(Jane didn’t notice at first but she was getting anxious because it’s getting late and they still haven’t come back yet from the mall)

Jane: I’m getting scared Carlos, I think I should call them.

Carlos: There’s nothing to be worried about Jane, they're with Mike.

Jane: Okay then I’ll just cook dinner so that we’ll all eat when they arrive.

Carlos: Okay Jane, I'll just be in the backyard.

(Carlos is keeping a low profile so that Jane won’t notice a thing, He keeps on watching the stock room)

Jane: Oh I forgot to bring out the meat earlier in the stockroom.

(while Jane was approaching the stockroom, Carlos rushed to Jane and asked what she needed) Carlos: Is there something you need? I’ll go get it for you.

Jane: no it’s okay i’ll just get the meat from the stockroom.

Carlos: It’s okay Jane I insist on getting it for you.

(Jane really wanted to get the meat from the stockroom but Carlos really insisted and it got intense)

Jane: Why are you acting kind of weird Carlos?

(When suddenly Jane heard a noise from the stockroom) Jane: Did you hear that? I think I heard someone shout. I’ll probably check it out.

Carlos: I’m sure it’s nothing Jane, I’ll check it out for you.

Jane: no it’s okay I wanna see what’s in there.

(Carlos was getting intense because Jane is noticing something from the stockroom) Carlos: I said I'll go check it!(Jane was scared of carlos and didn’t know what to do)

Jane: Why are you mad? Are you hiding something from me? You don’t need to be angry.

Carlos: I’m not okay!

(Because of Carlos’s actions and behavior Jane got really curious about what in the stockroom)

Jane: This is my house and I can do whatever I want!

Carlos: Okay fine.

(As Jane approached the stockroom Carlos got a knife from the kitchen. As soon as Jane opened the stockroom she saw Mike, Rochelle, and dexter tied and freezing in the stockroom)

Jane: Oh my god! What��s the meaning of this!

(Carlos was nowhere to be seen. As Jane untying Mike out of nowhere Carlos appeared and hit Jane and she was unconscious)

Mike: Why are you doing this Carlos?! You're my brother for christ sake!

Carlos: Brother? you left me remember?

Mike: But, I am still your brother.

Carlos: But you left me! Since you met that girl, I am alone. I don't have any companion to talk all my problems and feelings.

Mike: But you can call me whenever you want.

Carlos: Mike, Think! Think! I thought you graduated with honors. I'm still a 16 years old highschool student and I don't have enough money to support myself. What do you think of me a 16 years old millionaire?

Mike: But I'm willing to support.

Carlos: NO MORE BUTS!

(Because of His anger, He throw the walkie talkie to Mike)

Mike: Rude! What happen to you?

(Dexter ran to Carlos and begging to stop)

Dexter: Uncle Carlos please stop. I don't like this. Please, I want the old Uncle Carlos back.

Carlos: shut up!

(Carlos pulled Dexter and aimed the knife)

Carlos: Don't come closer or else, you will lose your only boy!

Jane: DEXTER!

Dexter: Mom help I can't breathe.

(Jane tries to come close to dexter but Carlos is already aiming the knife to Dexter)

Carlos: You want to lose this child?

Jane: Please no!

Carlos: No? HAHA! Okay, in one condition.

Mike: What? Tell me what do you want.

Carlos: Ahm! a car, smartphone and five hundred dollars.

Jane: but we don't have enough money to acquire your needs.

Carlos: Okay

(Carlos aimed the knife to Dexter's left eye)

Jane: No! No!

Carlos: what do you mean no?

Jane: Just don't. We will try our best to acquire all your needs.

Carlos: Never mind. Just choose a or b?

Mike: B

Carlos: HAHAHA! Okay.

Jane: What is b?

Carlos: A is I will kill Dexter.

Mike:

What's b?

Carlos:

I will stab Dexter!

Jane: No!

(Someone handcuffed Carlos in the back)

Jane: It's the police

Dexter: What is going on?

Policeman: You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can be used against you in court. By the way, your daughter contacted us.

(Carlos ride a police car to go to the police station with the Policeman)

Jane: Oh my god! Thanks lord for saving my dexter and also my Rochelle.

Mike: Thank you Rochelle for saving us from your uncle Carlos.

Rochelle: No problem daddy.

Mike: By the way, how did you call the police.

Rochelle: I get the walkie talkie that uncle Carlos threw.

Mike: I'm so proud of my litter daughter, thank you for saving us.

Rochelle: here's the walkie talkie daddy.

Walkie talkie: Life is a boomerang, wait for me to come back.

#ImpostorScript #JorefeinlaCreations

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1-65 ;)

holy heck ! thank you sophiw i lov u 🍒

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

i dont understand this question?? like sometimes i doubt my own existence and other times i doubt that i exist to certain ppl? ya?

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

2,, normal amount? like good for sleep but pitch black is scaryy but not to the point i need the escape ?? if that makes sense??

3. The person you would never want to meet?

guy fieri, i dont think i need to know if hes actually real ? like is he real and from this dimension or from flavortown (which he has a very scarily detailed description of)?? thats not something i need to know

4. What is your favorite word?

hmm, probably ‘fam’ obviously

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

a willow tree !!!!!!!!!! i just talked to my mom about this :-0

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

ngl but i dont look in the mirror anymore unless its lip syncing along to a song sung by a guy/someone w a deeper voice bc i feel like it suits me better! gotta love coping w dysphoria!

7. What shirt are you wearing?

baseball tee, gay

8. What do you label yourself as?

nb, lesbian, fool

9. Bright room or dark room?

dark room

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

slepe

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

10-11 when i was in 5th grade. i still only had two friends but i was way more extroverted and everything was so carefree and i was very invested in adventure time and art. i think that was the most of a childhood i got? i honestly did not do much as a kid and i wish i had..

12. Who told you they loved you last?

sophiw ! tumblr user almightyportraits ! the loml !

13. Your worst enemy?

14. What is your current desktop picture?

one from apple called ‘abstract shapes’ its very orange but also blue which is my fave color pairing atm so its perfect

15. Do you like someone?

tumblr user vahilla

16. The last song you listened to?

megan played ‘marceline’ by willow in her car ! a song i suggested to her a few months ago and it makes me very happy that she likes it especially bc we bonded over adventure time in 6th grade :-)

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

mmyy seelfff ??

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

mmmyseyyffelllff ??

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

eh whats the point

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

n o ne ?

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

what is the opposite of nb,, i feel like if i was opposite of how i present id be a girl, which is a verryyy weird thought for me, pass

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

no :-/

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

uh first of all blood, like, ill pass out,, second of all,, literally everything worries me

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

jimmy johns #16, turkey, bacon, lettuce, tomato, NO MAYO

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

im a very practical person so the least boring answer i can come up w is more art supplies

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

denmark

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

fukcing , acetoNe

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

i think a FIRST rule would have to be pretty IMPORTANT so probably smt like how ~WE THE PEOPLE~ are all EQUAL would be a pretty good start and pretty UNDENIABLE and STRAIGHT FORWARD especially if it was the FIRST thing in this,, hmm lets call it the CONSTITUTION, in the completely hypothetical society

29. What is your favorite expletive?

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuk cufck ufc kfuck

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

sunglasses??!!! that shit gotta be bright huh>?? gotta protect my retinas

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

i wanna say my first relationship made me a better person but that shit was rreeeaaallyyyy fucking awful and 4 months (+recovery months) that i will never get back and i think ? maybe ?? i wouldve been ok without it ? idk just a thought

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

spain ?!?!? why not + i sorta know the language? thatd b cool

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

zoey my dog :-( i miss her a lot, this month it will have been two years oh my god i miss her so much

34. What was your last dream about?

the last one i remember was a nightmare about someone tryna murder me i was very scared

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

i think so , when i was two i got really really sick and couldve died ?

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

ahh yes ! we gave hhimm,, fruit snack nipples, please forgive me fathr

38. What is the color of your socks?

grey w blue n orange stripes ( again i lov blue n orange together, my shirt is teal and i have an orange hat on wow)

39. What type of music do you like?

all! i had to train this new guy at work and im sooo awkward but once why started talking about music it was easy for me to talk bc it was smt we both really like !!! i felt like i could actually communicate w feeling a disconnect it was nice ! we talked mostly about rap which was cool and unexpected but i could do it ? i really love music and i love being able to know enough to talk about it ,, isk

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

sunrises, ive been pushing myself to wake up unreasonably early to have more time to myself and i get to watch the sunrise most days which is nice

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

chocolate

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

whom?

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

college? god i dont even know… smt w art.. by an illustrator or art teacher or freelance artist or graphic designer ,, i really dont know

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

one thing ?!!?!? i wish i was neurotypical

46. Are you reliable?

yes? i try hard to be? i hope so ?

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

u still a lil bitch ?

48. Do you hold grudges?

nope i try not to, ive had too many toxic petty people in my life that i dont need to be one myself.. now this is grudges w/o reason, but if ive given people several ‘second chances’ and theyre still (thumbs down) then ill avoid them but w/i reason?

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

DOG HORSES BIG DOGs

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

mm probably smt w my lab partner from last year. she always sends me weird quotes from a fanfiction shes reading and its weird but i really appreciate that she still talks to me or talks to me at all tbh

51. Are you a good liar?

nooo ?? i try not to lie? mb not tell the full truth but idk , i feel like id feel too guilty

52. How long could you go without talking?

uhh literally days like i already fucking do.. i m taking this as verbally but i dont get texts so like, it would not be hard

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

before i went to short hair i used to alllwaayyys wear a tight ponytail every single day bc i wasnt girly enough to do anything w it and it was really really gross like thank god i cut it all off

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

heck yeah

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

*clears throat*

hewwo?

56. What do you like on your toast?

butter and jam

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

58. What would be you dream car?

razor scooter

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

sometimes im just too physically or emotionally exhausted to stand so ill just,, lay down? ive fallen asleep in the shower before ha

60. Do you believe in aliens?

yup

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

whenever it comes up but i dont ,, seek it out

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

dragons tf

64. What do you think about babies?

evil, ugly, dont see the appeal. open ur eyes ppl !!!! bbs are n Ot cute !!

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

#long post /#mention of dysphoria /#ask #thenk yoy sophiw #this took 4ever but worth it bc it got me to calm down?? coolc ool cool

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nakakainis talaga yung mga hindi marunong tumupad sa usapan, pinakiusapan na nga ng maayos, ‘ma, last sem ko naman na, kailangan talaga namin ng lugar kung san pwede gumawa ng project, kaya please naman payagan mo naman kami mag trabaho sa bahay’ you fucking agree and the first time i ask you for that exact same purpose you dont. fucking!!!! commit!!!!!!!!! napakawalang kwenta ang mga pangako mo!! empty fucking promises and im so fucking sick of it!!!!! lagi ka na lang ganito simula pa nung bata ako!!!! god!!!! i cant trust you to keep your fucking promises!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stop treating me like a fucking child. my ps group is made out of a bunch of 20+ year olds!!!! i think!!!! we know!!! how to behave like fucking adults!!!!!!!!!!! so whats your goddamn excuse you neurotic tranch!!!!!! every time i bring someone here, we dont make messes!!! and even if we do, we or I clean up!!!! so WHAT!!! IS YOUR!!! FUCKING EXCUSE!!!!!!!!!!! and you know what? FINE! if it’s just for leisure, i get why she doesnt want people here, BUT I TOLD HER, I . TOLD. HER. IT’S FOR THE FUCKING PROJECT. bakit ba hindi matatak sa ulo mo ha? i dont understand you! i really fucking dont!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i ask you for a reason. YOU CANT EVEN TELL ME A PROPER ONE. ‘ah basta, hindi pwede’ and you just expect me to roll over just like that!! WHAT’S THE GODDAMN REASON!! AND FOR THAT MATTER, WHY CAN’T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT THIS IS IMPORTANT TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why is your view so self focused!!!!!! i asked you to make that promise para hindi tayo mag-away ng ganito. you cannot blame me for being angry especially when kinausap kita ng masinsinan. when i asked you for just a little consideration, SINCE IT’S MY LAST FUCKING SEMESTER. AND ITS MY FINAL MAJOR PROJECT. WHY do you have to force me to do this?? To get mad at you?? why must you play the victim card and so easily?? wala ka na bang ibang nararamdaman except for your stupid self-pity??? I am allowed to feel this way!!!! SO FOR ONCE I WISH YOU’D JUST FUCKING STOP.

It doesnt fucking help na ako yung leader ng PS group namin, i MEAN, I just wanna offer what i can offer. and a place to stay where we have internet, a place to construct and conduct tests and research and charging ports. that’s all!!! so we can work in peace!!!! so we can accomplish a lot of our tasks and make most of the day!!!!!!! ano bang akala mong ginagawa namin??? mag laro lang? manunuod lang? kakain lang sabay layas??? the others wont offer up their houses either. and you know what happens when we dont have some kind of base of operations? BES, WALA KAMING NATATAPOS. Or we accomplish so little. ang hirap magusap, ang hirap ng walang net or walang signal or walang data. masakit sa bulsa pag magcacafe kami para lang maka wifi. e kung meron naman sa bahay eh bakit kasi hindi?? they just DONT understand. they DONT. why? cause they never had to go through something like this. THEY THINK. they think we can somehow, make do with what we have, spend the money on the cafe, do it at school, find someplace else. THEY DON’T UNDERSTAND. HOW HARD THAT IS. walang signal sa school, how are we supposed to research codes or programs or components? gagastos pa kami pang wifi sa cafe/restos na pagdating dun mabagal din naman. sayang pera. sayang oras. we have very limited places where we can openly conduct our tests since some of it requires soldering components and i doubt they’d let us do that at restos ok? if we had guests over, if there were renovations being done on the house, fine. i get it. but if not, then why. WHY do we have to “make do”. Why not offer this space that we have. to these group of people who clearly have the need for it. what’s the fucking reason. what’s the fucking excuse. aside from the fact that you are stingy, too self-conscious and struggling with obvious fucking trust issues. no one cares!!! if the house is a little bit messy!!! WE AINT HERE FOR THE GODDAMN AMBIENCE MA. what don’t you understand about that???????????????

what do i have to do to make you understand?

i’m so so so frustrated. because i know that even if i voice out these feelings. they’ll just get thrown out the trash. cause you never acknowledge them. you think it’s some temper tantrum. you think you’re the only victim. you’re always the victim. and i’m just some fucking brat who won’t listen and doesn’t know any better. i’m sick of you. i’m sick of this. for once, just once. i would like your support without having to ask for it, to practically beg for it. without having to resort to making stupid rants on tumblr just so i can let off some steam cause i am so goddamn pissed and tired of you breaking promises. for once, i would like your trust. trust in me that i am doing this for the right reasons. but no. no, you just won’t will you?

i just wanna leave. there are a lot of issues between us that i ignore. or i purposely push to the back of my mind. i don’t wanna think about them. look. look what happens when i open the lid a little. look what comes out. look how long this dumb rant is. it’s ridiculous how much i can’t voice out to you personally. you. my fucking parents. it’s sad. and it’s even sadder that you probably don’t even care. you can sleep at night peacefully, knowing that your child is upset with you. you can sleep peacefully at night even though you broke your promise. or you never address them. you wait for it to go away by itself. cause those kinds of things never mattered to you. was never a priority to you. and i hate that it matters to me. it makes me feel so bitter. because i see what could be and i can’t help being jealous of those families who can tell each other everything and have such unconditional love and support for one another. who encourage healthy expression of emotions. im so pent up. im so tired. im afraid im gonna follow in their footsteps one day and be as emotionally constipated kasi nakasanayan ko na. i dont want to. i want to be open. i want to talk about feelings. i want to validate and be validated. i want love and warmth and familiarity and safety. i want to find that for myself cause i can’t live like this anymore. it’s going to kill me. it already is. that whole depression fiasco only got worse and worse because i felt like i could never talk to them or anyone about it and trust me i tried. i know that i’m not supposed to yearn for something like this so hard. i. create expectations. and when they aren’t met i get so upset by myself. it’s stupid. but it’s what i want. it’s what i’ve always been looking for, as cheesy as that sounds. and maybe i should just give up on finding that in my current family. i still love them, i do. but i’m never going to find what i’m looking for with them. i don’t know if i ever will to be honest and that’s. kind of terrifying. i don’t know.

#dont read #personal #rant

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What are the best life insurances for under $50 a month for family?

I am looking to get life insurance for my family since I am newly married this plays an important role. Does anyone know any affordable life insurances for families? Ive searched and haven't found any. I live in the little rock Arkansas area.

How to see a doctor without health insurance?

im a student living in southern california. i havent seen a doctor in years because i cant afford health insurance, but recently ive noticed that i may have an issue that should be checked out by a doctor. how do i go about seeing one? what do i do? where should i go? any advice or tips would be very helpful. at this point i dont care how much debt i have to incur to do it, i just need to do it. thanks.""

Parents wont let me drive because im not on car insurance?!?

'm 17 now, and I'm planning on getting my license sometime this month. I was really planning on driving to school everyday after I recieved my license. But my parents flat out said NO, because I'm not covered by insurance. They say its way too expensive, and that I'm going off to college anyway next year (i dont plan on driving while im there). I'm really sick of taking the school bus! I just wanna drive to school. but insurance for teens is mad expensive. are there ways to lower the cost? and about average, how much is it anyway? i get good grades. all A's and very rarely B's. and i've taken drivers ed before too. anything else that would help? just any tips on how i can convince my parents to get my car insurance??!""

Should people be required to have health care coverage like they do for car insurance?

That way if someone's not covered the hospital can refuse to treat them just like a car insurance company can refuse to cover someone who didn't have coverage with them. Problem solved, no need for the gov to intervene. Only those over 65 years old should be allowed to apply for medicaid, all other working age bodies should buy it themselves especially if they can all afford monthly cell phone and internet bills and clothes and vacations and stuff.""

Finding restrictions on a California car insurance policy?

I was involved in a minor accident while driving my mother-in-law's car. I am on her policy, so assumed I would be covered, but was just told that I might not be because I was driving for work. Where on the policy does it show whether or not I was covered? I don't want to keep driving her car for work unless I am.""

""I live in So Ca am 55 years old and I don't have medical insurance, I have ongoing medical problems. Any help

Any subjections for low income doctors.

Anyone claimed their Car a Wreak through their insurance before? what happens exactly?

Ok, so my car has Hail damage ALL over it from a recent storm. I am covered for insurance but i wanna know what to do?! i can't call them at this stage cos they call centre is down :( SO, if my car is worth $30,000 & the damage is worth about $5,000 - $7,000 how do they work out if it's considered a wreak or not? My premium is about $1000 (cos i'm under the age of 25) so what happens if they declare it a wreak? Do i just get a cheque and then they take the car? or what? If anyone has had their car considered a wreak through insurance before, please enlighten me :) Thanks x""

What kind of insurance do i need if im over 18?

Im in school right now and im about to turn 19 and my current insurance will not cover me anymore...so what insurance out there can i get that's affordable and i can use for my school...i dont want to pay the expensive insurance for the school...thanks!

What is the penalty if you're caught driving without insurance in California?

.....AND you cause a traffic accident? I was hit by an uninsured motorist. Just curious, what she would have to pay (not enough if you ask me!!!) or what are the penalties. Inquiring minds wanna know!!""

What is a cheap insurance for San Antonio? We have a 2006 GT Mustang that Esurance wants to charge us 500 some

dollars for EVERY MONTH and that is WAY too much!

Will my car be fixed even though car insurance runs out?

Hi there. A car came into me the other day and bumped my car, I have fully comp insurance which runs out january 11th in my mums name, but i am the named driver. The car will have to have quite a bit of work done so im guessing it wont be fixed before this date. The other drivers insurance will be paying for the cost, the insurance and car is in my mums name, and I want to change myself to the owner (official through DVLA) and take out my own insurance before 11th instead of renewing with the smae company. Will they carrying on fixing the car if the insursance who have delt with the claim has run out, also will if be wrong if the car was in my name before the car was returned to my mum. I hope this makes sense, and i hope someone can help thanks.""

Homeowner insurance am I right?

So am I right? If I rent-to-own a home but the deed is still in the owners name untill I pay off the house. I cannot get homeowner insurance because the deed is in the owners name? But after I pay the house off I can get homeowner insurance because the deed will be in my name? I am paying the homeowners insurance though and if somthing happends to the house what the insurance will pay is the balance and I get nothing. So I should get renters insurance ??

Which insurance to go with?

I am trying to buy a new auto insurance and renters insurance plan. I am 23 years old, married and I have never caused any accidents (or received any tickets). I am looking for an affordable quality insurance company that isn't going to keep messing with me like Progressive and their lame sub contracted renters insurance agency. I have never had any property claims either. A reliable, affordable company...""

What will happen when I lose my insurance?

I'm 19 years old, and i'm currently receiving my dads insurance. He is on blue cross blue shield, and I can use his insurance until i'm 26 as long as i'm in college. Well...I'm moving in June and I will be taking a break from college. I'll also be moving out of state in which case I have no clue if the insurance will cover me there. I haven't done jack squat with signing up for my own insurance because I also have a health care card through the state. When I move and I lose my insurance how do I go about signing up for new insurance? I'm planning to get insurance through an employer and sign up once I finish my first 3 months. I don't mind being without insurance for a few months because i'm getting all of my health care/vision/dental done right now. I heard that the Affordable Care Act has deadlines and that you won't be able to sign up for a plan until 2015? Also does that mean I'll be fined for no longer having insurance? I'm so confused.""

Car Insurance on a cheap car question?

Okay so i am currently a secondary driver on two of our car at my house. I am 17 years old. I want to buy a super cheap car on kijiji for like $500 just to mess around in as I wouldn't care if anything were to happen to it. I have a few questions. When i go to pick up the car, can i drive it without plates? Do i need insurance to drive it home? or is there a grace period? If i were to buy the car, fix it up, and then sell it, are there any regulations on this? what documents do i need? I have never bought a used car from a private seller or bought a car in general so any help is greatly appreciated!""

Allstate Insurance Price Estimate?

I was wondering what the price of a 1993 2.3 L V4 Mustang LX would be for a 17 year old male would be with less than 100K miles on it

Can someone stay on there parents insurance until they are 26?

And do they still have to be in college.

""How much does insurance cost on a rental car?, I need a rough estimate, please help?""

it's in portland if that makes a difference, thanks""

Is their affordable Health Insurance for full time students?

I'm a full time college students & I no longer have Health Insurance because I turned 19. I can't go on my dads plan because its for people 65 & over or disabled. I've looked on the internet and haven't really found anything afforable besided for International students & and not internaional. I'd like to find insurance like they can get from ISO where they can pay $27 per month. I haven't found anything like that for myself & only paying 27-40 dollars a month would be GREAT! Can anyone help me?

What's a website that tells you the average insurance of a car?

Lets say for a Mustang GT? I'm think of getting one but don't know how much the insurance of one is. Thanks.

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""How much does it cost to be on birth control w/ no insurance, how often do you have to see a doctor?

thanks

Car Insurance Question?

If i have a fully comp insurance policy in my name, can i drive any car on the road, with no limitations ie. engine size, make, model, and does the car which im hoping to drive need to be insured by someone else, or not, thanks in advance""

What is the best car insurance for teenagers who got their first car?

I have a 1989 Toyota Camry thats need insurance so i can start driving it.

What is the average yearly cost for house insurance?

2 story home 100k 900 square feet Heated my electricity 2 car garage Decent neighborhood 3 bedrooms 2 bathrooms we are buying our first house. I am aware that prices vary, but I don't know where that range begins and ends. Any help great""

Maturnity insurance?

do anyone know of any insurance that cover maturnity that will not cost an arm and a leg. my husband had good insurance and they had a lay off and friday is out last day with that insurance so does anyone know of any insurance for maturnity coverage that would be a great help.

Cheapest insurance online?

Can anyone point me to the cheapest insurance companies online? Been quoted some ridicules prices. Thanks

My mums taking out insurance but i want to be added as a driver.?

well i have recently passed and my mum is taking out insurance on a car but i will be added as a driver, now when i went to get a quote i was told that they cannot do this due to reasons of me only doing it to get cheaper car insurance, he also said that this could get me points on my license??? is this true ?""

I really need insurance help!?

Does anyone know of a cheap health insurance plan in Texas? We don't qualify for Medicaid or anything like that. My husband's plan is close to $600 a month and we can't afford that. It's a shame that my tax dollars pay for these slums insurance and all they do is sit on their butt but decent people like myself trying to make it we get screwed.

Where can i find a Low Car Insurance Rate?

Where can i find a Low Car Insurance Rate i have 2000 Toyota

Can I get insurance if I don't have a license?

I'm 18 and want to get my license but I need insurance, can I get liability without a license and about how much it would cost?""

Do you need motorcycle insurance in Georgia?

do you need motorcycle insurance in Georgia

Help with getting health insurance?

I'm a 22 year old college student and need health insurance. My mother doesn't work and has medicare/medicaid. I don't speak to my father. I'm a resident assistant on campus, which doesn't offer health insurance as a benefit of working. The school offers health insurance but it's around $2,000 a semester (four months) for very little coverage. There is commercials on TV about automotive insurance and life insurance but I don't know how to find health insurance. Where can I go to find more information on different real insurance companies and what's the average price (either per month or lump some) I would have to pay for health insurance? Any help would be great! Thank you!""

Insurance sells up or down?

This is a question addressed to current ly licensed Insurance agents abroad; therefore, my question is concerning the economy crisis we Americans are facing right now and with that, is Life & health Insurance coverage on the fall or rise? I have been waiting to start this career but not too assured that right now is the best time for this.""

New to US and getting car insurance in CA?

I am arriving on a working visa to California. I will need to buy a car and get insurance. I have a UK drivering license. Can I get insurance with a UK license or will I have to get a CA license first?

How much would my insurance be?

I'm 16 I will be 17 in about 9months. I will be buying a 2002 Nissan Maxima and I was wondering how much would I pay monthly/yearly on insurance. -I'm 16 -Grades aren't the best by they're passing. -I have no driving history. -I have a minor charge on my record that will go away when I'm 18. I know you can't give me a exact answer but a close one would help. Oh and if there's any way I can lower the cost that would help a lot. And is $4,200 to much to pay for my car? Thanks in advance :)""

Do I need to have insurance on my leased car even though im not going to use it?

I'm leaving the country and will leave my car in my garage. I will be returning the plates as well. I dont want to pay insurance on a car im not using.

""Help! If my car insurance deductible is $750 and repairs cost $489, How much will the insurance company pay?""

My car was vandalized. The adjuster sent me an estimate for $489. This is lower than my deductible. Does this mean that the insurance company does not have to pay anything? If so, i'm going to find some better insurance.""

How should I go about getting car insurance? (20 years old)?

I have enough money to buy my first car, I'm going for a car with a small engine around 1.2-1.6. when getting insurance quotes however, the cheapest quote i've found is around 1700 quid. help?? surely i can get insured on my own car for less than this?""

Car insurance for new driver 16 years old?

my son just got his license and he is 16 and he will be insured on a 1962 vw bug and i was wondering what the average cost would be a month for insurance and what is the best but also cheap insurance he could get help?

If you get a learners permit will your parents insurance go up?

my mom wont let me get my learners permit cause she says her insrance rates will go up is it true? I live in california and they got Farmers insurance

What price would insurance be for a Scion?

What would an insurance quote for a Scion xB be? ... for a Scion tC?

Can I keep my license without insurance?

I live in New York state, and have been a licensed driver since September. I pay my own insurance, but due to the high cost and the fact that I drive maybe once a month I don't want to keep paying. My parents told me that in order to keep your license, you must pay or else hand it in, but today some teachers and classmates said that you just can't drive. Who is right? I don't want to hand in the license and have to retake the test in a few months for college. I looked on DMV but saw nothing. Any sites that will have the information? (I drive my parents car, I don't own one)""

Crazy insurance rates wtf?

I am a new driver just got my license. To add me to their policy its going to be an additional $330 a month! The car is only worth 5,000. What should i do?""

Insurance cost for 2.3l fox body mustang 16 year old?

I am 16 and considering purchasing a 2.3l four cylinder mustang. These were made from the mid 80's to early 90's. They have like no power but get good mpg. I am worried that insurance companies would see the word mustang and give me a high rate. BTW my sister is 17 and pays only 50 a month on a family plan for a 1995 suzuki sidekick.

What's an average car insurance for a 16 year old. ?

I'm going to be a 16 year old. I'm a male and I live in maryland if that helps I have no clue about car insurance so any and all info would help! Please and thanks! (:

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Insulin and car insurance?

a friend of mine has just been put onto insulin, will this effect the cost of her car insurance?""

Car insurance for 17 year old?

hi im josh and im 17 years old can anyone tell me how to get a cheap car insurance quote from anyone. please help me??

""In the state of Georgia do you need a title for an automobile that is 24 years old, to purchase a tag.?""

I am buying a 1982 Chevrolet S-10 pickup truck, I personally know the individual I am purchasing the truck from. The title has been misplaced or lost. We are both under the impression that if a vehicle is X amount of years old you don't have to have a title to be able to purchase a tag,get insurance etc. The truck is 25 years old, if anyone has or knows the answer to my question I would be greatly appreciative.""

What kind of Insurance should we have when doing a Re Fi Loan?

I am looking over the paper work and one form mentions that we have options at time of closing for different types of insurance. We have Home Owners Insurance/ I noticed disability and mortgage and Life help please

Car insurance?

Does anyone know of any insurance company's where you can be on your parents insuance but still get no claims? Thanks

About how much is high point auto insurance a month?

Well, I just recently got my license and I wanted to buy a car, but my mom said that it's a bad idea and one of the reasons is because of how expensive insurance is. My friend told me her insurance- high point- is only 60 dollars a month. I'm not sure if that's true, because that sounds really really cheap. Does anyone have this or know approximately how much this auto insurance would be a month?""

Im unemployed do i need to apply for obamacare/Affordable care act?

im unemployed do i need to apply for obamacare/Affordable care act? i tried creating an account online and it says to input your income. i cant leave it blank any information would help

Affordable Car insurance for an 18 year old male?

So I did a quote on several sites (Progressive, Esurance etc) and the quote comes up to about $2,000 a month, $8000 for a 6 month policy!! This is crazy, it is twice as much as the value of my car!! Where can I find a quote for a lot less maybe $100 a month or something? My mother does not drive and I am the only driver in the house so I can't use her. Mazda 6i 2004 6Cylinder I am a full time student and worker""

Fast cheap automatic sedan?

Im looking for a first car. I need a 4 door sedan because insurance is cheaper, I need an automatic car because manual seems hard. How long would it take to learn stick shift by the way? Price rage is $12,000 at the most! I've been looking at the Nissan Sentra SE-R Spec V, MazdaSpeed Proteges, and Volkswagen GTI. I realize that some of them are manual.""

Is it possible to find a health insurance plan with no deductible requirement?

I found the perfect plan for $33 a month, but it has a $10,000 deductible. WTF? Unless I become pregnant and have a kid, or need surgery or whatever, I find it impossible to make a $10,000 bill within a year. That's too much. I've always been healthy and rarely need to visit doctors. Then I was looking at other policies and they were more expensive, but they all had deductibles. One was like $160 a month with a deductible of $5,000. And anyways, I'm a college student and financially independent which means that I am no daddy's girl -I have to work to support myself and pay some school expenses. I don't want to depend on my parents financially in any way (they are willing to, but I just feel like at 21, I shouldn't be their responsibility anymore) so I always worry something would happen to me and they would have to pay hospital bills for me. I can't afford paying a very high deductible or a high monthly quote. Any hope for me? ..or should I move to Canada?""

Can anybody help me find the Greyhound Bus Auto Insurance ?

2 week ago I was in auto accident in NYC but I live in New Jersey a greyhound bus hit my parked car door as I opened it, I had a clear of view when i opened it, my car is beyond damaged (97 Honda Accord) thank god I didn't lose my hand, I finally got a official police report, I have the greyhound bus driver licence plate #'s and insurance policy #'s and the insurance code Texas Liability Insurance (not the insurance company name) I called Grey Bus company customer service and corporate office based out of Texas, both phone numbers keep giving me the run around and is a complete waste of time. I called my insurance, and they cant help me , i try google, waste of time as well, please help, all i am trying to do is file a claim and fix my car ASAP!!""

""Will an unpaid emergency room bill keep me from being able to buy health insurance, OR hurt my credit rating?

I have an emergency room bill which I have not yet paid and I'm wondering if it will keep me from being able to buy a health insurance policy and if the unpaid bill hurts my ...show more

Think of buying a catagory D car which is an insurance write off?

I have just been to view a 2005 Nissan Micra with 13100 on the clock the car had a crush which damage the tail gate and the bumper both have been replaced to a high standard. The car would be worth 5000 but is selling for 2200. Everything seems good at 1st glance but i am concerned about insurance and weather or not it's a good ideal to take the gamble. The seller showd me the before and after pictures of the car and it seemed to fit wot he was saying. He also has a valied MOT which is a month old I don't plan on selling the car if i buy it. How much damage can a knock do to the front of the vehicle or any of the important parts? Please can someone advise wot the best thing would be to do?

Motorcycle insurance rate estimation?

I want basic liability insurance for a lower cc Honda Phantom, 700 cc tops. I am a 21 year old male who committed a DUI 2.5 years ago and is now alcohol-free. For that reason, I feel ...show more""

What is a good cheap online insurance?

I have Allstate at the moment but I want to swith to something that is way cheaper but that is still good coverage any ideas? thanks. is there aperson i can go to that will help me find the cheapest insurance based on my information?

""Rental car insurance if you don't own a car, renting over 15 days in california?

I don't own a car so I don't have auto insurance. Visa and Mastercard only seem to cover Collision/Loss Damage Waiver for 15 days. AmEx seems to offer this coverage for 30 days (but I don't have an AmEx card). None of these cards cover liability. Is there a better way to get coverage than buying from the rental car company? Does a homeowner insurance policy cover liability if you damage something or injure someone with a rental car? The Non-owner policies one can buy only cover liability and not LDW/CDW? Any help sorting this out would be appreciated. Please don't reply if you are not knowledgeable on this topic. Thanks.

""In the state of Georgia do you need a title for an automobile that is 24 years old, to purchase a tag.?""

Can i own a car without insurance?

i am leaving the country immediately and am leaving my car behind with my friend. The car will stay parked all the while. do i need to have insurance on the car.

Car and insurance question..?

If I had lost my car insurance with my car can someone who is insured still drive my vehicle or does the car itself still have to be insured?

Cheapest Car Insurance in California?

I just moved to Los Angeles and I'm wondering what is the cheapest car insurance company in general? Thanks in advance!

What is cheap auto insurance?

How much is the fine for driving with no car insurance in Ontario?

Can I register my car without insurance in Utah?

my registeration on my car lapsed in april, I do not drive the car but in Utah you can not even park it out on the street without it being registered. so I was wondering since some of my neighbors are wanting my parking spot since they are moving in can I just register my car since I have enough money to get it registered but I do not want to pay the monthly insurance on it since I am not driving it I am just holding on to it until my daughter turns of age to take it.... thanks.....""

I need car insurance!!!!?

Is there any cheap car insurance providers that are really cheap for a teenager???

How much more do landlords pay in insurance for DSS tenants?

I've seen it mentioned often that if a landlord accepts a tenant in receipt of housing benefit they're likely to pay more in insurance, which is why some won't accept them. I was just wondering if anyone could give me an idea of what the difference is?""

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Car Insurance?

Im Thinkin Of Buyin My First Car, but my Insurance Is costing 4000, my mates is getin it for 1300, when i tried the same insurance company as him, i got 2500, How could i lower this?""

How much do you think my first year of insurance would cost with a v8 engine as my first car in new york?

If i am 16 how much (average) would my first year of car insurance in New York cost if i get an 8 cylinder 5 speed car?

16 year old insurance on Bike (CBT) UK?

Heres the thing, i can afford a bike and ive been considering an Aprilia RX 50 Or a Suzuki TS 50, but the insurance is through the roof in price, my average quote fire and theft is 450 ish any ideas who to go with in respects of insurance companies ? thanks live in the (UK)""

How do i get insurance?

ok i saw one i like what should i do next ? should i call them ? and i want to pay monthly, and how soon do you think my insurance can be started? and can i start today?""

""Dealt with car accident outside of insurance company, how can I chase up the receipt?""

On Christmas Day I went out in the car to pick up some drinks from the petrol station and on the way out of the station I bumped someones car. I stopped and got out to give them my details (name, address and phone number) and then went home. In the panic of the moment I think I just wanted to get home as it was Christmas Day and I didn't hang around to take photos, ask for witnesses or discuss options with the other driver, which in hindsight I regret and realise was stupid. When I got home, the guy called me up and, again with the stupid mistakes, I said that I would rather settle outside of insurance; the driver wasn't keen on the idea at first and wanted to settle through the insurance company but I couldn't call them until the next week as they were closed for Christmas. He texted me the next day saying that he was going to get a quote from a garage and got back to me later with a quote for 400 through a 'friend of a friend's garage'. At this point I was a bit suspicious and the amount seemed very high for what I thought was not a lot of damage but at the same time he said that he either wanted to do it like that or through the insurance and I really didn't want to loose my no-claims discount as insurance for young male drivers is very high without the no-claims. In the end I decided to pay him, not without a certain bitterness owing to the fact that he was pressuring me for an immediate decision, which also made me suspicious. Having sent the cheque for 400, he kept up communications initially and let me know that he'd received it. He said that he would send me a copy of the receipt from the garage for my records but once he received the cheque I never heard back and now cannot get a reply. Bit long-winded for a question but that's the background story, my question is two-fold: 1. Can I do anything about it? It's more the principle than the money that bothers me, I know that I caused damage to his car but I now suspect it wasn't as much as he claimed. 2. Does 400 sound like too much or should I stop worrying about it? I hit the back corner of his car with the back corner of mine, and he later told me that I had cracked the rear bumper, which needed replacing. I'm not sure of the make of the car but I think it may have been a Ford Fiesta or something similar. I would really appreciate any help as it's weighing on my mind... I don't like people walking over me. At least if the amount he claimed sounds reasonable I can put it down to him being a wanker but the amount claimed being fair and forget about the whole thing.""

My car insurance company wants to use recycled parts for a repair to my car. Is this legal?

Cheapest insurance for young driver (UK)?

Whats the cheapest companys for somone who has just passed? one of my mates say co-ops deal for young drivers, another one of my mates says a guy at college says you can get insured with the farmers union even if your not a farmer and get it cheap, is this true? also, any other companies?""

Will a car insurance company cover a collsion if I have a salvage title?

I purchased a vehicle which came with a clean title from an owner.I called my car ins.company and added insurance to the car then went to register it.DMV says this vehicle was in an accident and would have to be a salvaged title. My question is if my ins.company has it down as a clean title and I get into an accident,will they then find out its a salvage title? If not then how will they find out if at all? Im afraid if I tell them its salvaged now they won't insure the car then I'd be stuck with it.""

Temporary car insurance??

so I just bought a car that I'll get from the dealership tommorow night and I need it right away. the problem is that it is my first car and my insurance needs to take 15 days to ...show more

Individual health insurance?

if i can get health insurance from my employer but can get better and cheaper coverage from as an individual do i have to take coverage from my job

What is the price range for small business insurance packages?

I have a question for my personal finance class that asks: Search the internet and name your sources for a small business insurance package. Identify basic areas of risk that they cover. How much would such a package cost? I've found the basic areas of risk covered, however i can't find price ranges anywhere and all the offices are closed when i call, except for one that said they can't do it over the phone...""

Can I drive my friends car without insurance?

Can I drive my friends car without insurance? I don't own a car. I don't have auto insurance. If I borrow a friends car, am I covered under his insurance? is there a special type of insurance for people like me?""

How much to insure a 2003 BMW 325i in GA?

Iam Canadian living in the States for 6 month out of a year in ATL. I wonder how much will my ins would cost like basic insurance coverage.

Help with health insurance please?

Hi there, I was wondering what are some good affordable health insurance companies that will take pre existing conditions also? What other companies are there besides blue shield and medi cal.Thank you in advance.""

How many cars can you put and take off of your insurance policy in one month? One year?

Steps to getting your life insurance license in CA?

I have no previous experience with Life Insurance and am considering getting my life insurance license. What are the steps involved, how long does it take, how much does it cost, and how difficult is the test? Anyone help?""

Is this considered Expensive Health Insurance????

This is my firsft full time job with insurance out of college now. I was wondering if you thought it was expensive since I am new to this. It is 186 a month and I make 2200 a month. It does seem pretty good though, is this decent insurance?... No deductible. Doctors visits: 100% paid after a $30 dollar co-pay for physicians and $45 for a specialist 100% paid rehab services (phys. therapy, chiropractic visits) after 30 dollar co-pay, for a max of 60 visits a year 1 eye exam every 2 years, 100% paid after a 30 dollar co pay Dental: no deductible or co-pay, 100% paid for preventative services (exam, xrays, fluoride). 90% paid for basic services (filiings). The max they pay per year is 1,000""

Do you think that the government should require that people buy health insurances like car insurance?

Car insurance is mandatory and everyone must have it, who owns vehicles. Do you think government should require us to buy health insurances?""

How much will it cost me to insure a ford focus - just give me an idea.?

Plese could anyone give me a rough idea how much it would cost to insure a ford focus. I just want to do it the cheapest way posssible. Its a 020 reg and i am currently using the car to deliver parcels so the insurance at the moment is forty pounds plus a month as im self employed. I will be leaving my job soon so just want to revert back to a normal quote but the insurer said they will charge me more if i pull out early and also he said it will be round about that price if you insure it with any other insurer. This is so confusing. Can anyone give me an idea of how much they pay.?

""$1,000 or $500 deductible for home owner's insurance?""

Which is more common $1,000 or $500 dollar deductible?""

Shopping for car insurance?

what are some good car insurance agencies out there?

Getting my baby on insurance?

I'm 20, unmarried, and a full-time nursing student, so I still have insurance through my parents. I live with my boyfriend, my baby's dad, and he has insurance through the hospital where he works. His insurance isn't too expensive for him, but if he were to add the baby onto his policy, the price would nealy double, taking almost half his paycheck every month. I work as much as I can parttime, but with taking fulltime classes, along with clinicals, there's no way I can work fulltime right now. We would be considered low-income, and I know my baby would be eligible for medicaid. I'm only 26 weeks along, but I really want to have everything arranged by the time he gets here. Who would I contact for more details about getting on it? We've never used any kind of supplemental assistance like this, so I really don't even know where to go. It's probably too early right now, but when would I need to start filling out the paperwork?? Thanks for your help!!!""

How much car insurance do I need?

I have a 2007 Honda Element and live in an area where people drive really expensive cars on a regular basis (i.e. Tesla's, custom Mercedes', Porsche's, Lotus'...). Also, Elements tend to need windshield replacements a lot. I will be driving children around as well so I need sufficient coverage for that. I was basically just curious about how much coverage I need because I'm getting the feeling that I have too much coverage therefore am paying too much. Currently my coverage is: -Bodily Injury: 100,000/300,000 -Medical Payments: No Coverage -Uninsured Motorists: 100,000/300,000 -Property Damage: 100,000 -Comprehensive: 100 -Collision: 500 -Auto Death Benefits: 15,000""

How much will my dad's car insurance rate go up when he adds my name?

how much will my dad's car insurance rate go up when he adds my name? he has great credit and he has only gotten like 3 tickets in his entire life. my driver's ed teacher told me that my dad's rate won't be so high cuz i get A's in school. + i got a 96 on my permit test with an A for the class aswell. so is that true? how will the insurance company know my grades tho?

I'm uninsurable! How can I lower/get car insurance?

I am a insurance company's worst nightmare. 17 year old male, I have a job in a rough town, no experience and to top it all off I only finish work at 11pm so ill be driving at night. I have not passed my test yet but need the car for work. Whenever I use go compare or compare the market I am either quoted a stupid amount 10,000+ or I am uninsurable. I cannot get a box monitor installed because the car needs to be home at 11and I don't finish work untill then.""

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strawberryspeachy · 7 years

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So I came home from Miami with a really bad cold - I wasn't worried I figured I'll just sleep it off but my mother freaked out and made me go to the doctor (because when I'm gone she cares about me) so I went and was rudely told I don't have insurrance... my health insurance was stopped a month ago and they never notified me

That's shitty in general but more so because a couple days later I've gotten a bunch of gynecological problems.... ones I'd REALLYY like to go see a doc about

Well my mother only cares about stuff for a second - she made me drive to the doc when I was super sick and felt dizzy and didn't wanna go - but now she doesn't give a fuck because I actually really do need help

She told me it's my fault I lost my insurrance because obviously one of the 50 spam calls I get a day was my insurrance and I just hung up on them!! Cause you know they wouldn't leave a voicemail or anything

And how dare I want any medication or worry about it

Like as if worrying that I have an std isn't bad enough I have this psycho woman screaming at me everyday

Today I asked her if she would like some garlic bread - she then came to the kitchen and told me I was in her way - as if it's a shocker that after I asked her if she'd like food I'd be in the kitchen cooking said food

And then she asked what I made with it

As if I was supposed to make her a whole meal and that if I had made someone elselse for myself I should give her some

The other day I went to a work meeting and it was soooo cold and I was still relatively sick and I came home thinking about making this ramen I have that I can only buy hours away - she came into the kitchen as I was cooking it and because it smelled good I should give her some because SHE WANTS IT AND IS HUNGRY

I HATE NOT HAVING REAL FAMILY. I HATE NOT HAVING THAT EMOTIONAL SUPPORT. I HATE THAT IM EVEN RELATED TO THAT PSYCHO WOMAN

Just since I came home she has

1) complained that we don't have a microwave (she broke the microwave - the 3rd one in a fucking year) but acts like this is a tragedy that's happened to her

2) screamed at me for asking her to clean the floor being that it's only fair since I've scrubbed it clean every time it needs it for the past 5 years - because she does SOOOO MUCH - including going to the laundry mat to do laundry but screamed at me for suggesting she help me convince my grandfather get a washer and drying (because she likes complaining that I don't drive her out to the laundry to do said laundry)

Um just screamed at me for random shit every day in general including some fit where she randomly went off on me for literally no reason at all and started calling me names then got angrier when I got angry in response

Someone left a mother and kitten at my farm again - the mom got hit on the road before we found them but we have the month old kitten now - my friend and I took her up near where she was found and put her in a tent hoping that any sounds she made might lure out her probable siblings that were hiding (it didn't) I came back to the house where my friend and I are playing with the kitten very visably and my mother asks if I brought the kitten back to the house - as if I just abandoned the kitten like an asshole

Later she told me to get away from her room with the kitten that has fleas because you know - if we get fleas she'll be sparred from them cause she's just so much better than the rest of us and two days later told me I have to feed the kitten - as if I I'm stupid and hadn't already been feeding the kitten --- literally yelling at me about this kitten like I'm the one who abandoned her

This is mind you the exact way she acted toward the last kitten we saved and have to feed milk --- she's mean and tosses the kittens away (literally tosses and then acts like she's a nice fucking person) when I yell at her for being cruel to them she screams at me that SHE DOESNT WANT TO DEAL WITH THEM ITS NOT HER JOB --- the kitten we had to feed milk she would dunk her face into the milk and yell at her to drink or else she wasn't gonna eat and screamed at me for daring to ask for help despite the fact that I was working at the point - something that woman has refused to ever do

Then she flipped out at me for giving the kitten away to someone who actually wanted her because THAT WAS HER KITTEN- she only started calling her her kitten when I said I might have found someone to take her

I also told her she could keep the kitten if she was going to be nice to her and take care of her properly and not expect other people to do it for her and she made her usual 'feel bad for me I'm such a victim' face and said no she didn't want her cause the correct way for me to handle that in her eyes is "I'll take care of this kitten but you can call her yours"

I fucked up the other day and while trying to get rid of the fleas on the kitten and stop them from going on my other cats I used frontline...... for dogs and then had a panic attack and washed all my cats and cried thinking I might have killed them all (luckally they're all fine) but I said it and my mother started yelling at me about how stupid I am for something about the frontline but not even the issue that was at hand - as if she didn't take out puppy outside without a leash (which we all told her never to do 10000000 times) but she knows best and as a direct result of her thinking she could call a puppies name and he'll listen - he got hit and killed on the road -- that was an accident that's not her fault at all in her mind btw

Like jfc I don't wanna be back in this house... i wish she had never moved into my house

Like it sucks because even if I got her kicked out my grandfather has gotten used to her taking over my moms role of taking care of him - he thinks someone should take care of him even though he's fully capable of taking care of himself - but refuses since my 1930's mindset mom and great grandmother treated him like a child his whole life and I don't wanna cook his meals and fix his stuff and call people for him and wake him up for work

And quite honestly the only thing she does that I actually like that would need done is make sure my mom eats and takes her pills - and my mom now acts like a 2 year old who doesn't wanna eat their broccoli with every meal so... yeah it is actually a fucking pain

My whole life I've wanted a boyfriend for companionship and emotional support and someone to actually celebrate occasions with since my family sucks... and for the past 6 I NEED ONE SO I CAN MOVE OUT OF MY HOUSE WITH HIM LIKE EVERY OTHER COUPLE I FUCKING KNOW

I wanna die being stuck here with all of this bullshit

Like my mom is basically gone now... not like she was when I freaked out in the summer - she's much better than that but now her only responses to you talking to her is to immediately laugh before you even finish speaking if she likes you ----- if you don't sound happy she either makes a surprised face or a face like she'll cry - whichever she thinks is the face you want to see ---- she has no idea what I'm ever talking about

If I ask her a question she starts trying to answer whatever one popped up in her head first or goes off the first word you say for example: I say "where" she'll immediately start looking and walking around. She has no new input to anything she has memorized her answers to the most common subjects people talk to her about and she'll recite the same answer no matter the context of the conversation and if it's a topic she doesn't have a memorized answer to - it's a free for all - she'll still recite an answer

She didn't even tell me happy birthday this year unprovoked.... I feel like maybe I used up all my sadness... or I'm just too angry... but I can't even be upset by it anymore... I'm starting to forget what it was like for her to be all there... I'm forgetting what real conversations with her were like.... like all I can remember now are the times when it was apparent she was getting dementia ... things that's she says that she used to say... I remember the things she did and what life used to be like... I remember the things she said over and over again... but I don't remember our actual conversations

Probably because the last time my mom was ok I not only was in that phase of my life where parents are just sooooo embarrassing but I was depressed and detached from life and angry all the time... I don't remember much of what anyone said...

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dirtycrawfish337 · 7 years

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1. 6 songs I listen to most? Currently it's been lick by cardi b, rainbow and praying by kesha, grown ass kid by chance, big b's by young thug n chance, and like all of sza's album bc I'm still obsessed w it??2. If I could meet anyone who would it be?Oh no there are so many angels I wanna meet I can't even pick one3. Find book nearest to me pg 23, line 17?I'm sorry I'm in bed n not in reaching distance of one lmao4. What do you think about most?Probably my future5. Latest text from someone else?"WHAT"6. Sleep w or w/o clothes?Depends on how I'm feeling tbh7. Strangest talent?Turning trauma into biting sarcasm lmfao8. Girls? Boys?Girls? AMAZING Boys? Also amazing, but y'all loud lol9. Ever had a poem or song or written about me?I know of 2 poems written ab me10. Last time I played air guitar?Not sure11. Any strange phobias?Clowns and like slimy food?? Idk if those are strange but ik they make me cringe12. Ever stuck a foreign object up my nose?No, I was an advanced toddler13. Religion?Nothing concrete currently but I'm very interested in Buddhism14. If outside, what are you most likely doing?Either w friends or my dog15. Prefer to be behind the camera or in front?Behind16. Favorite band?Florence + the machine17. Last lie you told?I'm waking up at 718. Believe in karma?Definitely19. URL meaning?Lol one of my old friends came up w it and it's basically just ab loving where I'm from I guess20. Greatness weakness/strength?Taking care of everyone else before me lol21. Celebrity crush?TOO MANY22. Ever gone skinny dipping?No23. How do I vent my anger?I usually just needa rant for like 20 min straight then I don't care lol24. Own a collection?I probably have an unreasonable amount of things associated w marching band in my room25. Talking on the phone or online video chatting?Talking on the phone26. Happy w the person you've become?She's def still learning but so much better than where she used to be so yes 27. Sound I hate/love?Any type of metal scratching against another metal and I love hearing dogs run up to me28. Biggest what if?I guess if I had moved away for college? How different I may be rn? All the different ppl who may be in my life rn? 29. Believe in ghosts/aliens?Yes30. Stick your right arm out, what do you touch? Left?Right: My bedside fan. Left: The wall31. What do you smell in the air?Coffee32. Worst place I've ever been to?Probably a court house33. East or west coast?West for the culture34. Most attractive singer of opposite sex?Let's go w either miguel or frank ocean35. Meaning of life in your opinion?Doing what makes you happy for as long as you can while you're here bc at the end of it that's what you'll want, knowing you found peace and happiness for/within yourself, in my opinion36. Define artYour own creativity that makes your soul just feel right ya know? And it comes in all different forms37. Believe in luck?Eh, somewhat38. What's the weather like rn?Hot n sunny39. Time?7:54 AM40. Drive? If so, have you ever crashed?Yes and yes41. Last book you read?Not sure which one but I'm almost positive it was Mary Higgins Clark and if not it was a text book lol42. Like the smell of gasoline?Not at all43. Have any nicknames?Aimster by my parents and a few friends lol44. Last film you saw?To the bone (should prolly finish it)45. Worst injury?I've had a few bad scrapes n cuts nothing really major unless a few bad illnesses count46. Ever caught a butterfly?No but I need one to catch me47. Any obsessions rn?Just coming off of an obsession w the show ozark48. Sexual orientation?Bisexual49. Ever had a rumor spread about you?Many lol50. Believe in magic?Somewhat51. Tend to hold grudges?No I find it best to let that hurt GO52. Astrological sign?Pisces53. Save money or spend it?I wanna say save but my bank account know I'm lying54. Last thing I purchased?Soup, crackers, ice cream, n candy bars (im sick lol)55. Love or lust?Yikes that's a tough one. Both are very good but can be dangerous56. In a relationship?No57. How many relationships have you had?Real ones? Just one. I had at least 4 situationships we're just not gonna talk about lol58. Can you touch your nose w your tongue?I actually can't lol59. Where were you yesterday?The doctor, a pharmacy, popeyes, a store, and my bed mostly60. Anything pink within 10 ft of me?Yah my phone charger61. Wearing socks?Not rn62. Favorite animal?SHARKS 63. Secret weapon to get someone to like you????? Let u know when I find it??64. Where is your best friend?Prolly sleeping65. Top 5 blogs on here?I'm not sure of all of them but def check pelvicthruster and my-secret-life-as-ren for some bomb ones66. My heritage?Black??67. What was I doing at midnight last night?What I do best, sleeping68. What do you think is Satan's last name?Idk omg69. Biggest turn ons?Pretty teeth!! Being nice to me!! Slow kissing!! Neck kisses!! 70. Are you the friend of a friend you'd hope to have?Hopefully, I consider myself a pretty good friend71. There's a dog drowning on my way to work but if I'm late again I'll be fired, what do I do?Save the dog and get away from a heartless boss if they fire me after that tf??72. If given one month to live would I tell anyone n everyone, what would I do w my remaining days, and would I be afraid?Probably only close friends and family, I would want to travel any and everywhere until I couldn't anymore, and I'd be scared of all the unanswered questions ab death but I think I would have to sooner rather than later accept that I can't change what's happening and just live out my fullest life73. Can either have trust or love? Which one?Trust. In my opinion love can't exist w/o trust so74. A song that always makes me happy when I hear it?Too many omg I just rly love music75. Last 4 digits of my number?4061??76. What makes a great relationship?Trust, honesty, attraction, healthy actions from both partners, and NEVER stop doing the little things. So many relationships go to shit bc one or both stopped cherishing the other person in the relationship77. How can I win your heart?Animals!! Good music!! Genuine company!!78. Can insanity bring on more creativity?I think it can in theory, but it doesn't mean you have to be some kind of mad scientist or in an unhealthy mindset to have creativity79. Single best decision I've made in my life?Letting go of people who are no longer good for me or vice versa. Holding onto that hurt does nothing but drag you down80. What do you want written on your tombstone?I actually have a thing w quotes, meaning I have so many I LOVE, I wouldn't even know where to start81. Shoe size?10 (Switch 80 and 81 I mixed up the numbers)82. Favorite word?TOO MANY83. First thing that comes to mind hearing the word heart?Passion84. A saying you say a lot?"It be like that" (probably what's gonna actually end up on my tombstone)85. Last song I listened to?I think it was caretaker by dram and sza86. Favorite color(s)?Blue and gray87. Current desktop picture?I don't have a computer anymore so :/88. If you could press a button, making anyone explode, who would it be?There's a lotta ignorance I wanna get rid of in this world but I don't even think I could explode anyone lol89. A question you'd be scared to tell the truth on?And expose myself..I think not lmao90. Turn offs?I really don't line unnecessarily rude/mean people or anyone who speaks to you as if they're superior91. If I ate a vegetable that gave me superpowers what would it be?Hopefully mental stability tbh92. Where are your parents from?My dad's from Vackaville, California and my mom's from Abbeville, Louisiana93. If I could erase any horrible experience from my past what would it be?I could definitely get rid of a lot of painful things but I feel like I could also be a drastically different person94. Opportunity to sleep w a music celebrity of my choice, who('

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faking--a--smile · 7 years

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Dear Michael, do you remember?

Dear Michael, I remember meeting you when I was 14 years old, you had a way of making me feel like the only girl in the room but also like I was less of a person than you. The first time it happened was when you asked me to go down on you. I told you I didn't know how I felt about it, and you got upset. But you were a junior and I was a freshman, you made me feel special so of course I would do it. I started to get tired of always having to do it and finally I said no. You told me you were going home. But I wanted you to stay. So I did it. One day I said no. You don't do I won't. I still remembering what you said to me. I remember feeling dirty and chills went down my spine "the next time I finger you I'll shove my fingers in your mouth and then you'll know why" so I stopped talking and went down on you again. I remember you always telling me I had to swallow because it wasn't going to clean itself up. I thought that was normal. You were my first real boyfriend I've only had one sexual experience before you. I remember one night you asked me what my sexual fantasies were... I was still a virgin. I had no idea what fantasies were. You told me one time you were role playing and ripped a girls shirt off. And you asked her to say no. You told me you got too rough and scared her and had to stop. Those chills went down my spine again. But you were one of the few that knew about my cutting. I needed you... didn't I? So I stayed. And you left, I was too immature for you. You became my best friend. You stood by me through my hospital stay. You wrestled a razor from my hand. You were my protector. Until you weren't. Did you know that what you were about to do would change my life? --Allie Dear Michael, We were alone in a room and you asked a question that still makes me want to throw up "Wanna see what I learned?" How the hell was I supposed to this translated into "I'm going to rape you?". I said sure. And you got on top of me. I swear I still have your finger prints on my wrist. You pulled your pants down and I told you to stop. People were downstairs, I didn't want to do this anymore. I told you it hurt. You shoved it in my mouth and every time I turned or asked you to stop you inflicted pain on me. You finally decided I wasn't doing well enough pulled your pants off and went to the bathroom. I laid there. Replaying the fantasy you once told me. When did your fantasy give you a right to take my safety away from me. You came back and told me you felt sorry for your prom date. And I asked you what about me? You asked me to give you a ride home. And I did. I wanted you away from me. I cried the whole night. And went to school with out sleeping. The next day I found out you told my little brother that if Im lying if I tell people you forced me to do anything. He told me this when I was driving him to soccer. He looked at me tears in his eyes and asked if it was true. I burst into tears and could only say I'm ok. That's when he told me that he should have been there to protect me. When I finally felt brave enough. I told a police officer and he asked me why I didn't scream and all I could think was what it would look like if my mom walked in on that. I didn't want her to see me like that. But it didn't matter because you told everyone that I was starting these rumors because you wouldn't take me to prom. The officer told me that because I was suicidal and we had a previous sexual relationship, they weren't going to pursue anything. I'm sorry but when did me telling you yes before turn into a yes always? I mean think about it, if I were to ask you "hey, can I borrow your pencil?" That doesn't mean I can take it out of your hand whenever, it means I can borrow it at that specific time. Michael, did you know yes always means yes? --Allie Dear Michael, Time went by and I was still best friends with your cousin. She convinced me to go to your family lake house for the Fourth of July. And she promised you wouldn't be there. She was right. But every person in your family whispered and glared every time I entered the room. Finally someone told me that they were sorry for whatever happened but your family has been nice enough to allow me into their home and you deserve an apology. I was still so unsure of myself and still replayed the words "previous sexual relationship". So I reached out to you. You admitted that what you did was wrong. And you admitted to hearing me say no. You admitted to assaulting me. We met up and you had changed. And I told you I would forgive the person you are now but not your previous actions. A year later you found out I was moving so you asked me to come by. I agreed. And I brought my friend. You didn't pressure me or touch me and you sat on the other side of the room. Later you told me that you got me a bottle of alcohol for my going away present. And told me to come pick it up. I came alone. It had been over two years and you were different. You told that I had always been your first love and you were wrong to hurt me and you wish things were different. You started to kiss me and started to take your pants off. I shot up. "No! We don't have a condom!" Hey, I thought it was an excuse. But you told me it was my going away gift to you. And you had already gotten me one. I closed my eyes and counted until it was over. I got up. Got dressed. And left. It took me until I was in college until I told you how you manipulated me into sex that night and once again you admitted to that. Hey Michael, I think it's kind of sick that you always admit it to me but never to anyone else. --Allie Dear Michael, I find that I put myself in messy situations. Weather it be drinking too much, mixing medication with alcohol, or hooking up with people. I know I can't blame you for my actions. But wanna know the truth? I do it because I remember the officer telling me that because I was suicidal and because we had a previous sexual relationship, there was nothing they could do. So yeah, I'm still a little suicidal, and yeah we had a previous sexual relationship which means I have to say yes, and even if I say no, they don't have to listen. I tell myself that I'm ok, that this is what I want. But, Michael, I don't think I want this anymore. --Allie Dear Michael, Does the night you raped me still haunt you? Because it's 1 am almost 4 years later and I still feel your fingers digging into my wrists. Michael, do you find it weird that you left a bigger scar then those silly razors? --Allie

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ashleelorayne-blog · 7 years

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Trish.

I have a best friend. Her name is Trish. (Not her real name) we've been best friends for 2 long years. One of the first times trish has come over to my house all day she played on my phone and computer. We were gonna go outside so I went out and built like 2 snow men I think waiting for her. Like about 3 hours later (it got dark by the way) I went inside but as I was leaving my backyard trish just barely came out. I shook my head 'no' and we went inside. I was so sad. And she did that for like a month. She would come to my house and play on my computer, my phone, or my PlayStation. It got so bad I had to hide them from her in my parents room. I needed my phone to charge one night so I hid it in my room where it was on the charger, she found it and was on it all night. How I know this is because my phone was dead when I got on it. She did that with my computer too. And so on. But as we developed more into friends she began to stop. Well, kinda. I changed my password on my phone so many times because Trish would always go on it without my permission and look through all my stuff, like read my personal notes about my crush and depression. But she'd always make me give the password to her. Pretty long before this, she and Becky, (not her real name again) were known as "the popular kids" well, in 5th grade at least. I wanted to hang out with them because (I have no clue.) and I would follow them around at recess (like how the other people did) and they would walk another way then a different way so I was basically chasing after them. Until me and Becky became really good friends, then Trish got mad that Becky said I was her best friend when Trish was her best friend, it was all just so confusing. I stepped out because I didn't want to be involved and look where that got me. You'll understand when I continue the story. ANYWAY while me and Trish became friends "someone" vandalized in the girls bathroom saying "Becky is a brat a slut and a bitch" and Becky told everyone that it was me. When I found out it was at the end of the day at school and we were packing up to leave, then I start crying like a little baby and my teacher, miss kinn, (again not her real name) starts asking why, then I tell her and she confronted Becky about it and asked why she said that and she said, " because she does it at lunch" I AM SO TRIGGERED AT THIS POINT. Like she was my friend WHY WOULD I TALK SHIT ABOUT YOU IF YOU WERE BASICALLY MY BEST FRIEND AT THAT POINT? I dun get it. So then my teacher talks to me and calms me down, forgot what she said, and I go home, and nothing else happens. Well a long time later I ask my friend Trish if she did it because she was talking shit about Becky and said the SAME EXACT WORDS AS THE WALL. And she got so pissy about it, and I was like "did you? I'm not gonna tell on you if you did I promise." And she said it was her that did it. Blah blah blah and maybe a month later I slapped a sexist asshole in the face for being.. well an asshole. Then I almost get suspended blah blah blah I'll tell you guys that story later, and we're back, the vandalizing happened again, and miss kinn had enough of it, she says to the whole class that, " if someone knows who did it and tells me gets a reward." Then I ask the miss kinn what is their punishment if they get turned in, she said, "they will get a call from their parents and they will have to paint the walls." I told Trish that she should turn herself in so that no one else does and that she wont get in as much trouble if she does it herself, and she says "no I ain't paintin no walls." I'm like cowgirl much? Lol no I didn't say that. But we were going in an assembly at the gym and Trish says, "and I didn't do the vandalizing, I was just testing you to see if I could trust you." LIKE BITCH WHAT? YOU DONT "TEST" YOUR BEST FRIEND HOE. But whatever. Then, this year, (2016) she messaged me one night, and said stuff that led to her hinting me that she was going to kill herself. I freaked out so I called her mom, and Trish got mad at me for calling her mom BUT DO YOU BLAME ME? She messaged me again when my friend Amelia (not her real name) was sleeping over at my house, and said, "Is she your new BFF and am I the duff now?" And I'm like "what are you talking about? You're always gonna be my best friend Trish, no ones going to replace you." And she says, "are you sure about that because I'm not" I'm so triggered typing this oh my fucking god. I said "what do you mean?" And she says, "a lot of my friends use me." And I'm like "do you think I'm using you?" And she says "idk" THIS WHOLE THING STARTED BECAUSE AMELIA WAS AT MY HOUSE. And I said "aren't I aloud to have other friends?" And I forgot what else we said. Then she says "you're crying aren't you." And I'm like "why would I be crying?" And she says "because you always do." Like bitch get out the way. I forgot the rest of the conversation. and then I start to have a lot of family crisis's because my mom is sick (cancer) and I can't hang out with Trish as much. On Monday Trish apologized and I forgave her instantly. I'm stupid. Because SHE MESSAGED ME AGAIN. (Ok so '¿' means someone else talking, and '?' Means me talking.) She says "I want to move to cali." And "I'm so done with the people that call me names" and I'm like "you okay?" ¿ "I want to move to cali." ? "Why?" ¿ "So I'm away from my haters" or something like that. ? "It's gonna be okay, don't listen to the people that call you names." Then she sends me a picture of a random 16 year old boy and says," he's my new best friend now and he lives in CALI." ? "Then what am I?" ¿ "someone from my past" LIKE BITCH WHAT? Then she says, "at least he has time to talk to me and hang out with me" ? "Really? I don't hang out with you as much because of my mom YOU KNOW THAT." ¿ " I get that your moms sick but don't put that on me!!" ¿ " but I didn't put that on you." Dumb bitch. "Then she says ,"I'm not a freak or a geek and that's not what I wanna be." ? "I never said you were." ¿ " well that's what you and all your friends are. Sorry but it's true." WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. Then we fight some more. Then she said "LEAVE ME ALONE" and I said "fine." Then she said "FINE" We get done talking and I'm so mad. The next day my mom ran out of her depression pills and grabbed my dads gun and tried to shoot herself. It's not her fault, her brain doesn't work correctly.. anyway.. at school I ignored Trish all day. She texted me and said "what's up with you looking at me like that??" And I say "what's up with you saying I'm a freak and just 'someone from your past'?" And she said "nvm" ya, thought so. Blah blah blah few weeks later I forgive her AGAIN and like last time that was ANOTHER stupid decision. Because the day after Christmas break she messaged me AGAIN and said "I dyed my hair back to blonde! No more blue" (she has a thing with dyeing her hair.) and I say, "why did you dye it back?" ¿ "because I don't like it when people kept calling me smurf" ? "Don't let people control you Trish. It doesn't matter what they think." ¿ "I'm not" ? "Are you okay?" (She sent me a picture of herself frowning. ¿ "ya" ? "Are you sure?" ¿ "YES ASHLEE IM FINE" ? "I'm just concerned Trish! Jeez" ¿ "so? It's annoying. Bye." ? "Promise me your okay then I'll stop." (Or something like that.) "IM FINE ASHLEE GOD DAMN IM ABOUT TO STOP REPLYING!" And "I'm fine Ashlee NOTHING IS EVER WRONG OK GOODBYE" And "LEAVE ME ALONE" and I'm like "this is the second time you told me to leave you alone. This time I will. Trish I don't want to be your friend anymore. The way you treat me isn't okay." And I think I said more but I don't remember. Can't remember what her reply was. On Christmas she snap chatted me replying to my snap of me showing my new tv, mini fridge, and PlayStation 3. And saying, "I'm gonna come over tomorrow jk if that's okay with you." And bitch I know you just want to come over to hang out with my new shit not me. So I say "I have to be with my family sorry." ¿ "ok you still hate me so it's fine." ? "I didn't say I hate you" ¿ "still it's true." She's trying to get me to feel sorry for her because she's done this to me before. Ya I know your tricks. So, I didn't reply. Later she apologized to me and asked if we could be friends again. I said I need to think about it. She said "ok fine." I went on musical.ly and went on my cousins account and saw that he was gonna delete musical.ly because of people bullying him. Well, one of those people were Trish. So I go on her profile and see that she posted "people who hate on me better watch out" but the funny thing is she posted that while hating on my cousin. That's funny shit right there. So on my cousins musical.ly I said "leave him alone Trish." And she texted me "blah blah blah why did you come at me? Blah blah blah." ? "All I said was 'leave him alone trish' I didn't 'come at you'" ¿ "we were just joking around blah blah blah." I asked my cousin if they were joking around and he said NO. And she was like "it's not just me okay?" ? "Ya I know I messaged the other people that hated on him too okay not just you." ¿ "he was being rude" ? "He's a 10 year old little boy Trish!" Blah blah blah. I've been seeing a counselor, and I didn't know how to tell Trish I didn't want to be her friend in a nice way. she told me what to say to Trish. I said it. She replied with "bye". Next day, (today) her cousin texts me and says "this is trish's cousin, blah blah blah, you were faking your friendship, it's so messed up how it took so long, blah blah blah." I start balling my eyes out, I start to have like my 5th panic attack that month, so the first day of 2017 was GREEEAAAAT. My dad replied to her. Not me. I couldn't even breath I was so shook. Long story short, I blocked her number, and all her social media. It's 5:24 a.m because I couldn't sleep because I was crying and having little panic attacks in my room. I needed to talk to someone so bad but my parents are asleep. So I'm using tumbler as my escape. That's my story of Trish. The girl who thinks I was faking our whole friendship that lasted 2 years. I feel great. Can you tell?

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