#but i like these kinds of thisngs so

[bonesandthebees]

glass time! after my fun not so lil but pretty short camp!

he warm

the way you deacrube thisngs GOD MY SPELLING SUCKS describe things is so good like the oil line is like idk it tickles my brain

wilbur would be a bad pillow probably you would have to get a good spot probably

gasp we must tell philza minecraft and technoblade.

wilbur is so *eyeballs him aggressively and just waves my hands around*

also like the switch from pythia to wilbur the moment he recalled he didn’t have his blindfold on is like aiwjhrwj

im still super convinced that there is no curse like everything points to the fact that the curse is literally not a thing and more of a scare tactic to keep up the pythias image but yk im tired sleep has not been plentiful

wilbur when he realzies his eyes have emotion and he’s just a silly guy who isbnot just an object 😨

blindfold on back to pythia pew pew pew

tommy is such a silly guy like look at him go telling thsibstory and defending my favorite lil guy wilbur

just saying if death is kristins realm wilbur i think you’re cool as a cucumber king but yk maybe im just mad confused all the time

which is also me most times

do we know what kind of bird is in his chest like metaphorically like idk i keep wondering even though that isn’t important what so ever

“Wilbur didn’t want Tommy to leave, but the Pythia knew he had to face the consequences of his actions at some point” THIS LINE IS SO COOL BECAUSE IT SHOWS THE SEPARATION WILBUR HAS FOR HIMSELF BETWEEN WHO HE WAS AND WHO JE HAS BEEN MADE TO BE LIKE DIRECTLY AND THAT HE LITERALLY HAS THESE TWO SEPARATE PARTS OF HIM AND IDK I THOUGHT IT WAS A NEAT LINE

he is telling him about to the visidosngjeekjdejejrthehtheht im a normal person

and then here is me sitting here with my vague tired rboughts about howb the visions arent to prevent the future bexause goyncant really change what the gods destined to be your fateb(presumably) sorry for the spelling errors life is rough anyway but yeah like the visions are to help prepare and i think he gets visions only about stuff that will directly affect him so like that’s why now that he is in the temple he doesn’t get visions about the palace or the government because that won’t concern him at this moment not how it would before sorry im rambling my brain sometimes just has thoughts

HE CALLED TOMMY HAI EBST FRIEND

hes so i love him like he’s so tiny in my brain just a lil guy whom i wish to put in my pocket

and he’s wilbur when he talks about the things he knows aboutbtommy and just when they do things that show they know each other well that others might not know butbthebpythia at other times and he’s so silly

so that vine tattoo is deffo from wilburs murder attempt right or maybe not sometimes im delulu

hes wilbur again

glad i know what machination means thanks ap lang

WOOO GOVERNMENT TAKE DOWN WOOOOO

i love that he’s just wilbur when he realizes that people care or that he has feelings or when he’s just human because he is and like the more he feels human the more he feels like wilbur and okay no more rambling s

anyways this chapter was nice im glad i finally got to sit down and read it you just always find a way to draw me in with this work like oh my god it’s so rheifjsjejsjdjd okay now i can go read what everyone has been saying!

- 🪿

thank you!! I was so happy with the whole oil metaphor throughout the chapter

ngl handshaking wilbur there I've been told by people that I'm a terrible pillow because I'm so bony.

:) so many pythia to wilbur switches this chapter

😨 <- wilbur's face fr

...actually the kind of bird is important. the bird gets talked about a lot in the next upcoming chapter :)

YEAHHH I'm being very careful with midsentence wilbur/pythia switches because I don't want to overuse them, but in the moments I can I think they hit really well

oooo a theory I can't comment on bc I don't comment on theories ooooo

lol the vine tattoo will be explained eventually

wilbur is when he feels the most human yes!!

thank you i'm so glad you enjoyed!!!

[1279777]

Being a father

Being a dad is being constantly worried about anything. The worst part is it keeps coming and becoming wilder than before, it is exhausting.

I used to be really carefree, I have no worries about anything. If something bad happen to me, I could just keep it with me. Buried the feelings deep inside and forget about it. 

Things are different now, when having a family, you can’t just buried it and forget it. Because if something happen to them and they are being hurt, that happen outside my being. I can’t just ignore it. the only thing i can do is comforting them and hopelessly watch them deal with it and that is absolutely killing me.

Not only that, imagining what will happen in the future is much worse nightmare. I cant do “the whatever will be will be thisng that i used to do”. 

i will never forgive myself if something bad happen to them. There wont be any will be that i accept beside that they will be fine and happy. That is the only condition that i could accept.

I am not used to this kind of feeling. A feeling that when you are really attached to somebody else. I didn't have this kind of attachment with my parents or my sibling, it was kind of sad, bad I'm okay with it. i’m used to it.

however now, every time my family are being hurt. i feel the worst feeling i ever felt. it hurts so much. i confused, worried,and hopeless

all these feeling are new to me, I always find that emotion is meant to be kept for my self, keep your expectation low then you wont have any regrets nor a big expectations. Which is perfect. Being ordinary is the the best way of living. Like a cockroaches, a mediocre living creature which doesn't really have a big impact to the world, yet still survive after all disaster that happened to the earth.

But here I am being a father, being mediocre seems no longer an option for me especially if that happen to my family. 

I became a real greedy person that wants everything in the world for them, even if it means somebody else will suffer or the other side of the world burned. As long as they are happy, will happily do it. All the cruelty of the old feudal ruler that enslave the peasant, betrayed their people for the power and fortune to ensure the good living of their family started to make sense to me. 

Just like I said in the beginning, being a father is hard it is even change you from being okay to be a cockroaches to a wanting everything in the world. 

[konowhore]

Let’s Bold it Tag

Tagged by @wannabl [thanks sm ily]

rules: bold what is true about you in the following statements/questions.

( ) or [ ] or { } - my side comments that are unwanted but I write anyways

I’ll cut it off here since this is really long.

APPEARANCE: 

I am 5’7’’ or taller 

I wear glasses {sometimes i wear fake ones}

I have at least one tattoo [i want one i hope my dad doesn’t see this]

I have at least one piercing (one on each lobe)

I have blonde hair (i have dark hair but omg blonde hair is so pretty????)

I have brown eyes 

I have short hair {my hair is almost past my butt holy fxxk but i need to cut it because the dead ends ;; but i’m trying to grow it out}

My abs are at least somewhat defined [wHAT A JOKE]

I have or had braces (they’re off rn)

There is something I would change about the way I look 

PERSONALITY: 

My Hogwarts House is: Gryffindor (according to a quiz I took which I did not understand) / Hufflepuff / Ravenclaw / Slytherin 

I am an introvert {I’d say I’m an ambivert though?}

I like meeting new people [sometimes] 

People tell me I’m funny (one person did) 

Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me {somebody asks for help? I can’t say no. Plus I’m that one friend people can count on I guess} 

I enjoy physical challenges [ew]

I enjoy mental challenges (only sometimes) 

I’m playfully rude to people that I’m close to

There is something I would change about my personality {I feel like I might scare people off??? and I’m really super wanjeon heol awkward}

ABILITY: 

I can sing well [I’m okay (i was about to rant about my ex-best friend omg)] 

I can play an instrument (I can play a little bit of ‘Don’t Wanna Cry’ and Chopsticks) 

I can do over 30 pushups without stopping {uhm no never bYE}

I’m a fast runner 

I can draw well [I’m okay]

I have a good memory (sort of? I’m just not gonna bold thes)

I’m good at doing math in my head 

I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute 

I have beaten at least two people in arm wrestling 

I know how to cook three meals from scratch 

I know how to throw a proper punch 

HOBBIES: 

I enjoy playing sports [Sometimes]  

I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else (was an amateur cheerleader)

I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else 

I have learned a new song in the past week  

I work out at least once a week 

I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months 

I have drawn something in the past month 

I enjoy writing 

Fandoms are my number one priority [not number 1 but eh]

I do or have done martial arts 

EXPERIENCES: 

I have had my first kiss

I have had alcohol (wHOOPS {my aunt was visiting from Korea and she  mixed soju and budlight together. My parents let me drink that so...}) 

I have scored the winning goal in a game 

I have watched an entire season of a tv show in one sitting [To Be Continued counts] 

I have been at an overnight event 

I have been in a taxi 

I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year 

I have beaten a video game in one day 

I have visited another country 

I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIP: 

I’m in a relationship 

I have a celebrity crush 

I have a crush on someone I know (can’t believe i still have a semi-crush on him)

I have been in at least three (shitty) relationships  

I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings for them {HE ACCEPTED BUT COULDN’T GO TO FORMAL TT he’s dating smeone now but i’m okay :”)} 

I get crushes easily

I have had a crush on someone for over a year (i still kinda have a crush on him) 

I have been in a relationship for over a year 

I have had feelings for a friend [He was my locker neighbor, friend, and crush] 

MY LIFE: 

I have at least one person I consider a best friend 

I live close to my school 

My parents are still together 

I have at least one sibling {2 younger brothers and a younger siste (who’s name is Autumn. haha get it?)} 

I live in the United States 

There is snow right now where I live 

I have hung out with a friend from school in the past month 

I have a smartphone 

I have at least 15 CDs (since i don’t have a phone :/ I have 40 to be exact. I’ll burn more CDs later for my August come backs) 

I share my room with someone {Autumn} 

RANDOM: 

I have break danced [I tried???]

I know a person named Jamie 

I have had a teacher with a last name that is hard to pronounce 

I have dyed my hair 

I’m listening to one song/album on repeat right now [song: ioi - downpour album: KNK: gravity completed]

I have punched someone in the past week [in the arm]

I know someone who has gone to jail 

I have broken a bone (fractured)

I have eaten a waffle today 

I know what I want to do with my life 

I speak at least 2 languages fluently 

I have made a friend in the past year 

I’ll tag @wannaoneioi @sweetbabygirllor @seventeenslilsister @p-arkwoojin // @t-akadakenta // @httpxseventeen (idk which one you’d want me to tag you with??) and anyone else who wants to do this ^ ^ 

side-note: you guys do not have to do this :)