#but i’ve been reading so i think that’s kind of worse 🫠

[leejihoonownsmyheart]

brie i check your page every day to see if youre back :(

I’m sorry :( i’m in the worst writing slump of my life and i feel like no one really wants to talk to me again until i get out like… anything so i’m just vibing here

[tadpolesonalgae]

as always cbmthy is so good and i'm so happy reader finally had some good moments with bas and that azriel was finally not being a complete dick. i just need her to keep her toes straight in her shoes now like girl he just smiled please breathe. this is worse to read knowing he can tell all her reactions to him. but i actually like bas, he seems good for her but im scared he might have ulterior motives, az not liking him could be just jealousy or whatever makes him always assume reader is doing something wrong but it could also be his spymaster senses tingling so idk

i didnt expect her to tell azriel about her powers like this honestly but i wish he didn't go full spymaster mode when he heard, he could have at least told "that's cool" or something. and he needs to stop talking to her like a child, boy you had your fingers inside her a month ago please stop. also reading the whole book through just to make sure is wayy too far, i wonder if the ic know he's treating her like this, even rhys would probably think it's too far. but her telling her him about her very important powers and her brain was just going "dick dick dick dick" was so funny. like i kinda get it, being locked in a room with azriel sounds amazing but i still need her to get it together (ik she has a massive praise kink though, good for her me too). im intrigued to see what will happen after the fortnight passes. will she figure something out or tell them or will azriel end up telling them? what if az tells them before the fortnight passes? i'll stab him with truth teller actually.

azriel not even knowing she liked science or that the orrery was hers is such a bitter reminder that he does not give a fuck about her, like his shadows have to have told him something. he gets on my nerves but i think we did see regular az a bit more in this chapter and that gives me hope. especially when he laughed when she said she slapped eris, that's my az but then she kinda ruined it by staring (and im kind of with az on this one because as much as i dont want him to be an asshole to her, every time he's nice she goes crazy and ik that's uncomfortable from personal experience)

also the book at the end is eris isn't it? im excited to see what they get up to, it's also very funny that azriel went through all that trouble and eris still got to her. and now she's not going to tell him about it because he's an asshole, that's what you get 🤷‍♀️

- 🧶

‘i just need her to keep her toes straight in her shoes’

I’d never heard of that before and it threw me for a loop 😭 (good phrase though)

Reader’s strings are gradually fraying and Bas is that last knot keeping her happy 😭

Maybe he’ll have a slightly more prominent role now that things are kind of taking a dip at the HoW and she needs a few more reasons to keep going 🫠

She has a little bit of a habit for understating things. Like, “you’re the only one I’ve ever been interested in, so”—she can hardly breathe when she’s around him🧡💛

Yeah, I also wonder what’s going to happen in a fortnight, because I have 🤭 no idea 🤭

To give credit to Az, Reader really isn’t particularly open about her interests :/

Cassian’s gotten a hint (hence the necklace) but Elain’s the only one out of everyone who actually knows that she enjoys those sorts of books (and Bas, of course😌)

‘but then she kinda ruined it by staring’

I like that you pick up on that; obviously so far we’ve only gotten it from reader’s pov so naturally some things are slightly warped depending on how she sees them?

‘im excited to see what they get up to’

I wonder 🤭🍁🌌

[veras1ne]

Vera help I’m so embarrassed I think I’m going to die. Okay so I’m visiting my family rn and I have a much younger brother (he’s 13, I’m 18). Anyways, I was on my phone and on my phone tabs my google doc where I write all my fics (yeah the smut..) WAS OPEN. And I accidentally fucking clicked on it and for a couple of seconds (long enough to read a few VERY concerning words) my writing was on display. And my brother was standing right next to me because I was originally trying to show him something on my phone 😐. I don’t know what to do because I mainly feel a bit bad for showing him that, it must’ve been traumatic; and he’s quite young so we’ve never really talked about any explicit topics before because we’re not that close in that sense 🫠. Basically I’m so fucking embarrassed because he knows that I WRITE THAT SHIT NOW 😭😭. To make it even worse it was like little drabble I was writing about a marking kink mixed w pain kink. I honestly don’t even know what do to do, like should I talk to him ab it (I truly believe I don’t have the courage for this though)? And what if he brings it up in front of my poor parents 💀💀 (I don’t think he will but it would be simultaneously hilarious but also really exposing). I’m not even sure if he knows what some of the words were… like I can fully imagine him googling what kinks are now and that is a very scary image to me. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed my story time 🤗🤗 and I apologise if it was long I’m just fully mortified and I feel like the only way to understand the horror I’m feeling rn is if you’re also a fic writer and can imagine a scenario where your family finds out.

- anisbaby

Alright babydoll let’s go through this

So first I wouldn’t really worry about like exposing him to that kind of stuff and let me explain why,

I work with younger children like pre-kindergarten through 5th grade, and I have a lot of younger cousins and the things that they say to me BEWILDERS me, and I write fanfiction on the internet for people to read.. so I’ve seen almost everything.

I wouldn’t worry too much, but then again I wouldn’t really bring it up to him just because one that’s a really, really awkward scenario 😭 and when I was his age, I was already exposed to alot of content which was no fault of my own #havingfriendsolderthanyouisCRAY. But obviously, I don’t endorse that kind of thing and I know it wasn’t your fault at all so I’d just kind of leave it where it is and then if anything happens then thats where you kind of talk about it and explain your situation.

Also I would like to see that drabble when you’re done because… zooweemama bro 😭

Oh, and by the way, hi babydoll :) <3 I hope besides all of that you’re doing so amazing baby 🫶🏻🫶🏻🦢🫧