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shrikeseams · 11 months

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Aredhel and Celegorm with a (platonic) Alec/Richard relationship, where she picks fights with strangers and Celegorm duels (murders) them to keep in practice.

#tolkien #san shoots the breeze #it's fall and i'm due a riverside reread #i realize that the popular fanon would make this a curufin/celegorm dynamic #but idk i've just never bought into that #...Aredhel shipping Maeglin off to Celegorm to learn to duel (murder) real good like Katie #...now i'm also considering celegorm being sidelined frum hunting (murder) due to cataracts. hm! he would not take that with any grace

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alsojnpie · 8 months

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dishes are forever

#I MISSED HAVING A TABLET!!!!#ht papyrus #a gentle touch when you're sad #a menacing touch when it would be funny #he can do it all #LITTLE PRO TIP LIFE HACK THOUGH: IF WASHING DISHES MAKES YOU WANT TO LIVE ON A DIFFERENT PLANET #MAYBE YOU HAVE TOO MANY DANG DISHES #BEING IN A SITUATION WHERE I HAVE 80% FEWER DISHES THAN BEFORE MEANS I DO DISHES MORE OFTEN BUT IT'S SO EASY #AND NOT SOUL SUCKING AT ALL #JUST MY EXPERIENCE!!!!!! THAT'S ALL #I'm sure when i am reunited with my other dishes i will languish in bed staring at this psyching myself up to the task #but i like keeping random jars from food i bought and dishes that i picked up in different places.#they physically remind me of everywhere I've been and sometimes i just look at them and remember where I've been #my favorite is the old ratatouille jar i bought at carrefour in Chengdu #that jarred ratatouille was the nastiest food to grace this earth #i bought it in case it would make a quick easy meal (you don't really find those at the grocery store in China at least not back then)#but even my cheap lazy self couldn't eat it #so no one ever consumed that ratatouille but the jar was pretty big so i put other stuff in it and now it's my dish #and somehow the label is glued on PERMANENTLY it has never washed off after all these years #actually idk maybe it eventually did it isn't here for me to look at but it lasted a long time i know that

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femmeidiot · 7 months

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I need 2 be braver about enforcing my pronouns with people

#But I always exist in a weird limbo space because I've never even come out to my parents as an adult #that doesn't mean I didn't try to when I was a kid or that they didn't read my journal one time and find out about my first girlfriend #And then my dad took me on a weird hour long drive to tell me about how I was an evil sinner and then bought me kfc biscuits so I lied and #told my parents I was straight now #but anyway no one in my family besides my sister actually KNOWS anything about my gender or sexuality #and so idk I'm good at just like keeping it to myself in general I know I look feminine and and I'm not bothered by most feminine terms #but idk it does make me sad that most people still don't see me fully #anyway idk there's some trauma bye

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tortoisesshells · 8 months

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89/274

#[cutler beckett voice] every man has a price he will willingly accept; even for what he hoped never to sell.#i've connected the dots - you didn't connect SHIT.#i do love very much that vicki's so sure her loyalty can't be bought (it is. she's employed by the collinses and she'll not betray them.);#it's neat; too; that Burke isn't generally wrong but he's wrong in the specific: he hasn't apprehended that genre and loyalty work;#differently in collinsport than they do elsewhere. it wasn't just that the collinses that had the money to buy the manslaughter trial;#it's that the collinses ARE collinsport. there's no town without them. you can't buy a sturdy enough backhoe to tear those roots out.#idk. there's probably something there in that conversation about joe spying for burke; too.#dark shadows #burke devlin #barnabas collins #willie loomis #jason mcguire #victoria winters

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lesbianlotties · 1 year

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going to war to watch the Barbie movie was SO WORTH IT ACTUALLY 🩷🩷🩷🩷

#I HAD SO MUCH FUN I'M LITERALLY SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!#i seriously had to fight for my life. i waited a week for my cousins. we couldn't get tickts. i waited another week. none of them wanted to #try again. i went with cousins i never hang out with. they were so nice and they paid for my ticket and we bought the barbie promo thing!!#big popcorn! this cool chocolate i love that comes with a pink wrapper!!! and a barbie cup thing that i got to keep!!!!!!#and it's all so silly but god i feel like nothing ever reaches this country let alone this small city but #i get to feel part of a fun silly trend for once!!!! i wore a pink tshirt and i've been wearing this pink nail polish for three weeks hsgjd #BUT ANYWAY THOUGHTS #idk if it's as groundbreaking and judging by the critics i thought it would be more... more and it was definitely too much ken for my likin #but you know i always prefer to focus on the things i loved! it is what it is and I LOVED WHAT IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!#IT SO MUCH FUN AND I LOVE WOMEN SO MUCH AND MARGOT ROBBIE IS PERFECT AND GLORIA IS SO SPECIAL TO ME AND IT'S JUST SOOOOOO <33333 #I TEARED UP THREE TIMES WHEN SHE CALLED THE OLD LADY BEAUTIFUL WHEN SHE HAD THE GLORIA VISION AND BEFORE TURNING HUMAN WITH THE OLD LADY #THE SONGS ARE FUN I LOVED THE CHASE SCENE SO MUCH??????#i'll never stop laughing at the fascist joke and the margot robbie joke and and and #gloria's husband doesn't exist. i love happy endings <3

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sugared-violets · 15 days

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pin jacket update!!!! i think theres like 53 or some shit idk i lost count

#i bought 3 at my local co-op today but somehow lost one of them by the time i got home 😭😭#maybe the cashier just forgot to put it in the bag or something idk it was pretty tiny #it was a teeny tiny little rocketship and it was adorable and i'm very sad about it #the other two i got are the white cat with the little dangly ''zzz'' (so cute btw i've never seen a pin with a dangly thing b4)#and the little teddy bear face which i got cause my classroom at work is named the brown bear classroom 🤎🤎#dani.txt

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fluffykitteninabox · 1 year

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me at 15 reading about ocd on the internet: oh that sounds like a nightmare I don't think I could live like that, so glad I definitely don't have it

me getting diagnosed 7 years later:

#in my defence it feels nothing like the stereotypes portrayed on tv #like I had a school friend who was obsessed with the show monk #I've never actually seen it so idk if it does a good job portraying it or not but I know monk is the very stereotypical ocd character #and that friend would go on and on about the show and how relatable it felt to her #not sure if she also had undiagnosed ocd but she only used a certain type of pen #and would refuse to use any other to write #she even got me into it I bought them and we would share #they were nice pens #and she also had this little ritual where if you touched her neck you had to close your fingers #in a way that mimics that stereotype for Italian hand gestures #and then you had to huff on them #she literally would not let you do anything else after you touched her neck unless you finished that little ritual #and I never thought I had anything like that so that meant I didn't have ocd right?#but yeah now that I'm saying it it seems stupid #like just because I'm not a “neat person” and don't obsess over cleaning doesn't mean anything #I say I don't obsess over cleaning and then I proceed to disinfect everything I bring from outside into the house with rubbing alcohol #but that only happened after the pandemic so I'm often thinking if it really counts #do I really have ocd or am I just traumatised from the pandemic?#like if I know the when and how I started a specific behaviour then is it really part of a mental disorder?#I know the logic behind it so it's not really a problem #right?#can I tag this as ocd? am I allowed?#fuck it!#ocd #I'm sure people who know more about this than me can explain if it counts or not #maybe it doesn't #maybe it's just germophobia?#but then what would all the other stuff be?#checking to see if your relatives are still breathing in their sleep in the middle of the night isn't germophobia #but I know the cause of this too it's from losing my uncle does that mean it also doesn't count? is it considered traumatic? idk

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time-to-write-and-suffer · 3 months

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I think some people need to less "separate the art from the artist" and more "separate the you from the art" ... If you know what I mean :)

#listen as long as you don't support jkr financially i don't *really* have a problem with you enjoying the books privately?#i've been meaning to re-read them myself just to see if they hold up (i doubt it but hey)#(and dw this is an old pirated version i have)#i never actually bought any of the books or merch #though i did see a few of the movies in theatres #but with as much empathy and compassion as i can extend to marauder fans #i still find myself uncomfortable around the notion of that '''woke''' version of the hp fandom #like at some point when the author is this terrible and you still have it in you to get attached to the source material?#idk #it just doesn't sit right with me i'm sorry #you're still incapable of saying to yourself 'no this is enough'#'we loved this but i cannot in good conscience enjoy this anymore'#i dunno #it just ... idk #maybe more self-discipline? maybe find something new? at that point it's either unhealthy or you don't actually care about the stuff #you claim to care about #like yeah i'll jump over all those actively dangerous and harmful things just to cling to my childhood obsession #i'll paint over the 'problematic' stuff but still play with the same dolls in the same world #idk ... it's complicated but i think i have the right to feel uncomforable around 'woke' hp fans either way

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spinoff-antithesis · 1 year

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(muth being music theory!)

#FUCK IT MY OWN EDITION OF THE ODDLY SPECIFIC POLLS BC THESE ARE FUN #me when i've been obsessed with space/time stuff since i was a KID its more an interest than hyperfixation rn but man.#media with any of those?? i am OBSESSED (star wars rottmnt movie etc etc) like i hyperfixated on dr who for a year in middle school #the skateboard one is so funny. in high school my guard instructor saw me with a friend's pennyboard & immediately said no.#me when i was notoriously clumsy in middle + high school so everyone i knew was like. “this is a bad idea” when i did anything #my first semester of college i bought a longboard off someone then 5months later i turned around & ate SHIT it was so funny in retrospect #anyway fun sage lore i have only ever heavily injured the left side of my body. my knee + elbow and the SAME FUCKING TOOTH. TWICE.#also i have a high pain tolerance. like idk how or when but in middle school it just got Really Strong. me when i injure myself and just #live with it for a year before it becomes a concern and i get told to get an xray (i will live with a fractured knee the rest of my life)#also when i fell off my skateboard and ate shit my first concern was “ah fuck my glasses did i break my nose” and #“nah my elbow isnt broken! my arm is just rly sore from how i landed on it” (readers. it was in fact fractured.)#like i literally went “no im fine we dont need to tell my mom or go to the er” and my friends said “call your mom and go to the er”#me spitting out my tooth and blood bc i also busted my lip: that hurt. time to hobble back to my dorm.#anyway hiding this one in the tags bc i will never not just ignore my issues LMAO did it with my ptsd dx and i will continue to do it #another incredibly hyperspecific thing: oh this doesnt seem normal! im gonna ignore it and hope it goes away #these symptoms match up to something? nah i'm sure it's not that! (proceeds to get dx'd with ptsd five months later)

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inniave · 4 months

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after surgery i'm buying myself pentiment goddamnit

#reasons to live #also new doctor who episodes #i've been wanting to play for soooo long but haven't really had the money to spend #so i'm using this as an excuse #trying to focus on all the fun/good/cool things that i can do after #seeing hozier later in the summer #watching the wild flowers come up in the backyard #this is hell but i will get through it and there WILL be an other side i will make sure of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#there's a chance we can get it done tomorrow if the doctor thinks it won't be super complicated #i hope we can cause the longer this goes the more we suffer #i just want it to be over #once i'm all healed i am going to smoke a cigarette and savor every fucking puff i haven't been able to smoke for over a k month now :/#another thing to look forward too #and i think i have a vinyl preordered???? am can never remember what other parts have bought #oh and i'm going to binge rewatch the hunger games (all of them) after surgery #been meaning to do that & im using this as an excuse to do nothing but watch movies all day #got some audiobooks downloaded that hopefully they'll let me listen to during (unless it's going to be loud (??) then i have music)#i'm taking my puppy stuffie husband got me when we had to live apart for a summer before we got married #puppy is so special to me #he goes everywhere with me #i love him so much #i would just hold him and cry and cry and cry when husband had to leave :((((#i am so scared #there's so many young parts too who are just i mean they are the ones holding a lot of this shit like i cant imagine what it's like for the #the little bit that leaks through to me is horrific and makes me want to fucking vomit #i'm worried for them #they're splitting bad :((( and i don't have any way to help #we're doing our tapping and tre and everything but idk how much that helps on the inside #idk man #it's all so much

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twodoorsnotone · 4 months

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The curse of being a woman is my relatives give me I'm sure very valuable and high quality jewellery for a big birthday present and all I can think is woah I wish they gave me the fancy leather laptop bag they gave my twin brother lol

#i almost never wear jewellery especially fancy jewellery and now I've received like 4 different necklaces and bracelets from family members #over the past 3 years #and i feel so bad being disappointed but like. all i can think is #i would have preferred at least some of these in cash so i could have just bought something i actually want #because i never wear jewellery apart from if it has really sentimental value or with an outfit someone else chooses for me #and ik necklaces from family members should have sentimental value but like #its just a necklace with my initial on... not particularly specific or sentimentally linked #especially since i got a few necklaces already and i literally dont understand how people need more than 2 or 3 #idk :(

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allylikethecat · 1 year

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I am both very excited and also very terrified to see The 1975 tomorrow 😳

#allylikethecat #ally's thoughts #i've literally been trying to see them since i was 18 and it never worked #i just i am so excited #but im also really nervous because some of the fans on twitter seem really aggressive and territorial #should i have not bought pit tickets because I cant get there until around noon because like adult with responsibilities #i really hope that i can still get an ok spot in the crowd #and that people are nice idk #everyone on tumblr for the most part has been super nice #but i made the mistake of checking out twitter #and people there seem scary #woot woot gotta love anxiety #im so excited to see peanut with my own eyeballs though #i guess if anyone gives me shit imma be like ummm were you a fan when they used to send out promotional twitter dms #in like 2015/2016 #because i still have all of them in the twitter account that i look at twice a year #except not really because thats mean and it doesnt matter how long someone has been a fan #as long as they like the thing and the thing makes them happy #ugh yay for being weird and overthinking shit #keep it kind #sorry for anyone that actually reads this #im basically talking to myself #but also if anyone has any advice for not getting eaten by the crowd #i am all ears

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robotpussy · 1 year

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i just applied for benefits (or welfare idk) and 3 jobs i need to hear something by the end of this fucking week

#either benefits telling me im getting some money or I've got a job and i can start in the next 2 weeks cause im literally broke #like £0 in my bank accounts in the few days because i have class #im also returning alot of shit ive bought lately but never got to wear cause the reality is i don't need them #those were my birthday presents for myself but like. i need money to survive and i cant keep asking strangers online for money #it makes me feel awful and i absolutely hate doing it not just because of how much ppl hate ppl who ebeg but also its #embarrassing for me asking for money idk.

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worthyking · 10 months

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not letting myself start another book until I finish Emma this is getting ridiculous

#I am really enjoying it #but I'm going through it so slowly #idk if it's just because it's the longest (physical) book that I've read in a while or what #also I've been so torn if I should read the hunger games sequel before or after I watch the movie #usually I would never consider watching the movie first but this time I literally only even bought the book because the movie looked so goo #kirastfu

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swordsofsaturn · 7 months

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why does spending money on anything make me feel like the worst person in the world

#get my fortnightly pay and immediately spend it on: 1. bed sheets i am in desperate need of bcuz the ones i own are either #ripped or genuinely uncomfortable material #2. yet another new book even tho i haven't read any of the other new books i've bought or borrowed from the library #but it's ziwe's black friend and it looks so good so i simply have to #3. a bag. like an everyday briefcase-ish bag because the one i have is broken and the other one i'd bought to replace it is actually #so fucking annoying and useless in practice. pisses me off even more when i end up wasting money on shit that ends up not good #4. i also have an electricity bill so kms #so it's like. i'm not being crazy irresponsible. but. life. is just so fucking expensive #and it makes me feel so inadequate that i just have to keep SPENDING so much fucking money #i have a theory it's part of like idk. poor person trauma that just kinda never leaves you. but my brain is too decayed to expand on that

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maddy-ferguson · 11 months

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i really don't understand why people who only read YA or people who only watch cartoons made for kids try to tell us that it's actually just as good and deep and thought-provoking as media made for adults like i do know it's because they know it's not and they feel inferior or whatever but it's very funny

#i haven't read a ya book in like...hmm idk four years i think and i bought the most generic wattpad-y book because i was depressed and i #literally seeked out a book that was like bad fanfic because i wanted to spend money on bad literature #and feel slightly better. and i actually did #and are there good ya books sure not everything that's written for a young(er) audience is bad obviously but i remember when i was a kid/a #teenager i was like wow. i will never want to read books written for adults i'll want to be reading this forever. and then I GREW UP #i'm not even that old #for the cartoons um well i like gravity falls i'm younger than mabel and dipper did you know that. but they were younger than me in my mind #when i was watching like on tv for the first time because i was soooo mature #i've rewatched all of violetta as an adult do you see me act like that's better than like the rest of tv #it's so funny with the ao3 femslash poll thing this is what inspired this. especially when we're talking about ships i just can't imagine a #ship in a kids show being better than a ship in not a kids show like sorry i just don't believe you #i was gonna say something else but i forgot. 😁#oh totally spies i watch one or two episodes every monday morning. pour vivre l'action il faut être à la mode #like it's literally fun but why do they always have to act like it's BETTER are you seven years old #and like i say: brf slt

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