#but idk im just a bloke on the internet

[dragonbonecatacombs]

punk aang au.... if you even care.....

[rue-bennett]

I really do think it points to jlaw being one of the last real movie stars. since dune just came out I think the are actors like timothee, florence or anya taylor joy, who aren't movie stars yet but are popular enough and have a range of mainstream and eclectic work under their belt, but jlaw also has that Zendaya draw where (im sorry) but her portfolio is not proportional to her status.

theres a lot of discussion about how nowadays the celebs aren't the stars the characters/franchises are and it's interesting that she can maintain that level of fame and recognition as other franchise stars, have critical acclaim and not have her identify as an actress exclusively connected to a specific piece of work.

You are exactly right. There is such a difference between actor vs. Movie Star. Yes!!! There is potential and Dune is a big point and it looks like it’s on track to make Oppenheimer money and hell, Cillian Murphy is one of the best actors of his generation imo and just won Best Actor and he seems like a good bloke but he isn’t a Movie Star.

Also YES you are so right for pinpointing jlaw and Zendaya??? Zendaya is a ridiculously big star. (Not in a bad way. Just not normal for Gen Z!)

Yessss!!! Like I’m not sure if it’s a formula so much as personality and luck. But I’m sure many are studying her career because movie stars are few and far between. I see the potential in so many but w the internet it is SO hard to be universally known??? And back to Zendaya about franchise work like she’s def been in mainly franchises… Disney Channel stuff, Marvel/Spiderman, Dune, and even Euphoria is a show (prestige for which she’s hella acclaimed and recognized as the best actor but still). Talent really does go a long way lol they’re mega talented women w good personalities (and fashion).

Also they don’t have like… relationship scandals? They’re public but idk. I’m loving this convo

[merlinthoughts]

Season 1 Episode 2 - Valiant

- ik for a fact that this one is the episode with the asshhoole. not bc i recognised it from the title but perhaps it was because i recognised it from the title u got me there

- i always go to mr clean too when i want protection, val, ur not alone

- yeah, this is harry potter l ma o

- the next thing u know theres a stone that makes arthur live forever and the snakes start joining into one and growing bigger until a phoenix (im dibbing on kilgie here), pops their corneas out

- DAMN DON'T KILL UR DEALER WHERE U GONNA GET THE NEW SHIT FROM NEXT TIME SMH VALIANT

- okay but who names their son valiant

- he was probably named valerie and didnt like it so he said “woah imma be valiant like courage, thats sick”

- that was probably his superhero persona as a child ngl

- no, shev, no respect for val stop doing this

- merlin in armour, what a fucking bLESiSNG GIVING ME THIS RIGHT ON THE SPOT BBC KNOWS WHATS GOOD

- ok a y but hear me out, merlins a servant. i have not seen any of these servants been asked to train with the royals??? like in the sense where it helps the servant train as well?? and the FIRST thing arthur does with merlin as his servant is train with him. not only is arthur a huge JOCK, he’s not using his manservant properly

- neverfuckingmind “most servants collapse after the first blow”, so it seems to be arthur likes to train with his servants. now that in itself is a question to be asked, but is he the only royal who trains with his servants??? how did this man survive on his own without a personal servant until merlin??? did he have a personal servant??? was it just regular servants?? who are those other servants he trained with??? did arthur just say hey lets go to the field in the morning, put on armour and let’s have a fun time?? UNLESS merlin literally just took someones job away from them kmao

- also my mind went right to the gutter guys, ngl, it sounded like an innuendo. it had me quaking i wish i was one of those servants

- “we all have our duties, even arthur” “it must be so tough for him, all the *hesitates* girl, all the glory”

- so we probably get at least 1 out of every 2 episodes where there’s a scene with merlin dressing arthur in his armour. bring the popcorn, lads.

- MORGANA LOOKING LIKE A FRICKEN SNACK

- the reigning champion is arthur, wonder fucking w h y

- valiant is in fucking mustard, while arthur is fucking ketchup idk why i thought of that but it happened. my literature teacher always told me to look for symbolisms. guess we found one guys.

- merlin after hating on arthur for the past episode is literally just cheering arthur on like a good husband he is

- did ARTHUR JUST SNICKER AT MERLINS “CREEP” LMAO DON'T TRY AND HIDE IT BY HUFFING AT HIM AFTERWARDS YOU FUCKING GOOF

- omg he hid it by telling merlin to do a full novel of chores

- AND MERLIN DOES IT WITH MAGIC A PAIR OF GOOFS

-  “are you using magic again” “no” merlin ffs he just saw you use magic, while the items fell and landed right in front of him while you didn’t move at aLL. they are nOT BLIND

- “very aggressive style” I MEAN SURE UTHER

- valerie be fuckboying morgana lmao with a “i saw you watching” and a, “then i will give everything to win the tournament”

- i wish this show was set in the early 2000s so i can see val in low sweatpants, a backwards cap with gelled spiky hair and cheap neon sunglasses (maybe even some gold teeth just for kicks), while hes trying to rap 50 cents or make a mixtape of brit pop songs. bc yes.

- honestly im loving my 2000 fuckboy au. gonna make an ao3 after this.

- of course merlin would be the one to find out the magic shit in valiants room, it just lures him. AND OF COURSE VALIANT IS THERE

- i'm so fucking glad arthur looks confused as to how merlin did what he asked. when u have this kind of hubby, arthur, its amazing what things he can do.

- i dont know why theres dramatic music as merlin put armour on arthur but im living for it

- “is it my imagination or are you beginning to enjoy yourself?” merlin doesn't know what to say to that bc he’s turning gay and doesn't know if that counts as enjoying oneself when the one you are gay for is the asshole prince

- typically enough, valiant and arthur never fight except for the finale. like with all conveniences in place, youd expect them to have at least fought at some point with as much knights as there to determine the final two but no, just the finale. k.

- this poor fucking purple knighted bloke didn’t need to be fucking demonstrated on, val. like you didn't need to kill him?? that could have blown ur cover

- DID NOBODY SEE THAT??? DID NOBODY SEE THE FUCKING SNAKES???

- oooh merlin found out what happened everyone gonna be fucked. nobody harms arthur is he has something to say about it

- if someone starts off a sentence with “i just saw someones snakes on their shield come alive” nobody would fucking believe you, merls. but given the fact that magic exist… mhh maybe it wouldn’t be too absurd. but ppl apparently are thick as hell

- “why were you in his chambers” well i know how id explain if i was in valiants chambers ;)

- jk i dont fall for this toxic shit

- imagine getting paid as an actor just just lie down there like this poisoned kid. “yeah, id like to audition for ewan’s role???” “why are you lying on the ground?”

- i hate those tropes where it's like “i know how to tell someones bad, here’s proof” and then nobody believes you and tells you you’re lying and should die or whatever but then you kNOW IT'S THE FUCKIN TRUTH BITCH that trope gives me damn anxiety >:((

- yes merlin, fucking slash the shield with your sword. i'm sure that's how it works. im sure it will kill the snakes.

- HOWA RE THE SNAKES ALIVE WITHOUT VAL SAYING “ISHNAHASHAHI”

- i think val would know that you cut off the snake’s head, merls, just saying. ur were the oNLY ONE.

- TELL ARTHUR WHAT??? “I CUT A SNAKE”

- EXACLTY ONG THAT'S WHAT MERLIN FUCKING SAID I WAS RIGHT LMAO

- ARTHUR BELEIVED HIM I'M FUCKING LIVING BUT IK WHAT HAPPENS AND AHH

- uhhh the anxiety is rolling up boys

- ewan is mcfuckingdead

- snake be sliding in like a hoe on a business

- bfehfjdjfskf i hate this part

- arthur's pride, merlin’s pride, fuck me

- i'm not even gonna write this part, it breaks my fragile heart when arthur sees the look of people not believing him, especially his dad, and merlin seeing how arthur doesn't trust him anymore like prepare the eulogies girlies

- okay but if arthur is struck and gaius has the antidote?? arthur aint gonna die technically

- but now val knows merlin knows

- AND MERLIN INTERVENES

- why are royals so bitchy towards servants. like they do their best to help you??? they are loyal to you and are paid there to serve you and are often very kind, generous, passive, understanding people??? yet merlin interrupts uther and he fucking sends him to the pit

- VAL YOU ASS LMAO DON'T HURT MY SON’S PRIDE

- he said allegations like four times, yes uther we know ur vocab is shining with intellect but seriously, there’s other synonyms that could still be acceptable and still sound fancy

- quick search on google bc my mind doesnt roll fast enough: claim, assertion, charge, accusation, declaration, statement, contention, deposition, argument, affirmation. see daddy uther, not hard to look up.

- forget they didnt have internet whoopsies

- :((( arthur doesn't trust merlin anymore

- the husbands FIGHT

- not just a banter petty fight, this is a huge fight

- SACKING MERLIN DON'T FUCKING SACK MERLIN YOU GOOF

- TRUST UR HUBBY

- FUCK

- I'M GONNA CRY AND IT'S ONLY EPISODE TWO

- I'M HAVING EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS CONCERNING MY TWO BOYS

- GUYS IM NOT OKAy

- its been 2 minutes after i wrote that last sentence, and i am now okay

- “a half cannot truly hate that which makes it whole” iconic as hell. so many things could be said about that quote. either for innuendo purposes, love purposes, destiny purposes, how long it took me to say it right, just so many purposes man. it’s just iconic.

- merlin looks absolutely done with kilgaharama’s shit

- “just give me a straight answer” seems like kilgarass here is being too gay for merlin

- gwen already knows merlin’s the heroin of the series, saying everyone knows it's merlin who will save the day. but same tbh

- i dunno if this is like me or not but it says her nickname is gwyn in the subtitles but im typing it as gwen which i thought was how u wrote it, even if her full name is gwynevere but like gwen has a ring to it while gwyn sounds like gwin or smth and i dunno which one is right so ill just leave it alone ahjsjfk

- MORGANA HAS VISIONS WE ALREADY KNOW WHERE THIS GOES SHES MAGIC ISNT SHE HAHAHAHAUHD

- merlin trying one last time to convince his husband not to die, but at least this time arthur knows he’s up for val’s magic and is like “k iloveyou but i have to do this for the country not just bc of pride and thinking val is not magic”

- staring into the fire like he’s hoping it would suck him up into the void, not only is merlin a now confirmed emo, so is fucking arthur it seems. perfect for one another i'm telling you

- eerie music as morgana enters… wha suddenly i can't read

- i thought at first morgana and arthur were gonna end up together cause of the fucking weird tension going on and i was prepared to be disfuckinggusted but no! the show and producers actually put my expectations away and helped me see that it wasn’t going in that direction! thank fucking god! 

- k but arthur looks majestic in his gear im just a huge bi

- “don’t go into my room” he says then gaius peaks in and almost gets mauled by a large chihuahua

- me too val, id step on someone's toes then fuck them up with an undercut. thats the bad bitch way to go. unless it for arthur, then val hahaha you can go fuck yourself

- no one sees mErLin??

- but they now see the snakes smh fakes

- “what are you doing? i didn't summon you” i don't think that will work val cause you didn't say it with a serpent tongue, it has to sound more like “shhashhwhat ahhssare hiisssyou iisshhaadoing?”

- okay but i thought arthur was impaled for a half second until he started to talk then i screamed that he was aight and he would now believe merlin

- uther better give merlin an apology

- arthur just said he wouldnt

- but still uther BETTER APOLOGISE TO FUCKING MERLIN

- “yknow i wish valiant was escorting me” “me too” i thought for a fricken moment arthur wished valiant would have escorted HIM. i'm dying.OMG

- “i wanted to say i made a mistake. it was unfair to sack you.” “don’t worry about it. buy me a drink and we’ll call it even.” DID YOU JUST SAY WHAT I THINK YOU JUST SAID MERLIN YOU SLY DOG OMG

- “i can’t really be seen to be buying drinks for my servant.” so if he wasn’t ur servant?? you’d say yes?? they are so fucking gay i can't anymore

- yeah, i literally fucking can't

[unproduciblesmackdown]

posting to say im vanishing for some unknown amount of time rofl

making this post to say i won’t have internet access for an indefinite amount of time going forward. like, it could be a week or you know, any other amount of time. which you know, sucks, because it seems annoying to complain about like oh damn i can’t reblog memes but for me the internet is a way to be connected to like, anyone else in the world, and have a place to voice my thoughts where people might listen, and have the chance to talk to people and feel like there’s ppl who are aware of my existence who might value me for one reason or another. and if you’ve been following me anytime for the past like, eight years or so, you mightve noticed i’m not doing so hot. and i’m not really thriving right now and you know. ugh

like hey if i off myself you know i’ll probably try to queue up a post saying something about it. but maybe i won’t. you just never know. either way you can’t really worry about me w this indefinite online absence because there’s no way to get in touch with me otherwise. part of why being stuck offline sucks. again, maybe it’ll be brief. maybe i’ll be able to you know scuttle into a starbucks and post quick updates saying i havent fucking died yet. i have no idea, people.

also you mightve noticed that despite wanting to die and having nothing good, i still at least sometimes like to draw useless gay shit and post it. jk my contents great and a blessing, i’m not gonna be the one to deny that. anyways its what i like to do and what i’m best at and its a way for me to put myself out there in ways i can’t otherwise do and also its why practically all of you follow me obv and like i said its just fun......but i can’t really post if offline. more a tragedy for me than anyone else, but thats true of this whole thing. at least i can still write coz ive still got a ways to go on that before even intending to post it. and read and shit. sigh

idk anyways like i said maybe i’ll pop up five seconds after going Offline and be like hey im back gosh i was worried about nothing! but probably not. i hope soon because i have barely anything going for me and the net is my main way of getting. any social interaction/connection at all and its important to me, however much anyone else wants to judge that. how will i ever learn that selfies aren’t the most important thing in life, right?

anyways. this is why i’m vanishing, i’ll try to refrain from burying this under other reblogs. i hope to god nothing important happens when i’m gone, watch me miss something vital ugh. i also get my news from twitter dammit. sigh!!!!!!!!!

if i had an art sideblog i could sort out those notes easier, so i hope there’s not like...some super great comments on my shit that gets buried in the mobile apps horrible activity display and i never get to see it. aughh

this sucks but anyways. just an informative post. about the lack of information there may be going forward. it’ll at least start out b/c im going somewhere currently w/o net access and am broke as a bloke and my phone isnt very useful w/o wifi. ah well, right. c’est la vie. que sera, sera. what happens happens. shit’s like that sometimes. shrug. lmao.

i’m gonna go jump around some love, simon clips to further burn them into my memory. don’t get me wrong, i’m fucking. doing terribly and wanna kms. but this film’s a blessing and i love it and i’m happy i’ve got to see it and just like my lack of internet access, it can be my fave going forward indefinitely