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cheridraws · 4 months

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see I often get conflicted because yes, I do want to watch things that will ultimately help myself, especially with an issue I have that I’m highly aware of. But also that fear of having the issue fixed is always there, and the issue is so convenient that I don’t wanna get rid of it, so,,,,, augh

#my rambles #this isn’t coherent bc I’m tired. sorry #but just. mmrggrb #related to the last reblog #I’m aware I have food issues that are not healthy. i shouldn’t be waiting until past 5pm to eat something #but…. it’s just easier #i rarely get lunch breaks at work. i don’t wake up early enough to get breakfast in the mornings. reminding myself that it isn’t healthy #just makes me feel like shit bc I feel like I can’t fix it #which isn’t true. i could.#but…. augh. again with the convienience. it’s EASIER to wait that long instead of waking up earlier. or preparing a lunch to take with me #and it’s cheaper too. i can eat whatever I can scrounge up at home after work instead of going out for food I can’t afford #I don’t know… I’m just complaining right now I guess #the last post just reminded of it is all #it may be one of the reasons I haven’t watched it yet despite my friends telling me to is all #ignore me #I’m happy for the people it’s helping. I’m just scared to be one of them

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