#but once he acclimates? theyre just vibing

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ok im actually making a dent on the Lights Out prelim outline - ive got a bit over 4k in it but i didnt realize how tough the real start would be. It's actually... sort of boring lmao

[leviathiane]

Fic Rec Friday - One Piece (SFW)

I am going to make this a thing. Even if its just me and like 3 people see it lol 

Ao3 Edition!

The Wanderer (MaiKusakabe) - Marco isn’t the firstmate of the Whitebeards. He’s never even met them, actually– he’s not even a pirate. But Whitebeard wants him to be one. Badly. // High Contender for my Favorite OP fic I’ve read out of all of them. Im just weak in the knees for reluctant/In-denial!Marco and the entire crew trying to reach out to their (future) eldest brother. Also has Immortal!Marco implications and im LIVING for it

Being Human (MaiKusakabe) - Slave!Marco gets taken in by Whitebeard // Listen yall know im gay for Marco-centric angst but this one really takes me by the lapels and shakes me to pieces ok i am laid low 

To Build a Home (endlessblankpages) - ASL pirates get recruited (read: kidnapped) by the Whitebeards as an apology for a misunderstanding and it All Spirals From There // Very well put together, and Completed! Incredible found-family affection and fondness, som brotherly angst, All Good All Good. 

wish by spirit and if by yes (midnightluck) - Sabo has his memories. A series of shenanigans of him and Ace just trying to take care of each other even with all their chaos and distance, with the Whitebeards and Koala as unwitting audience. // The exasperation and family affection got me fucked all the way up. Midnightluck consistently has my favorite characterization of Sabo out of everything I’ve read. 

Clipped Wings (Beyond_Kailani) - Sabo gives up everything, as long as it means his brother’s live freely. Away from his parents. // Angsty and INCREDIBLE found family trope usage. The mental struggle to do what Sabo thinks is necessary to survive vs live his life freely is A+

Trapped in Eternity (Skyleaf19) - Ace is stuck in a long term time loop and his mental health is really, really suffering from it. // this is an angst MELTING POT and i love it. It recently updated off of hiatus but im so excited about it i literally cant focus enough to read it adefsgrth LOTS of the whitebeards trying to help Ace and Ace struggling to pretend he hates them. fantastic. *chef’s kiss* 

Living Dreams (Maikusakabe) - Canon-timeline!Marco wakes up two years in the past. Before Whitebeard died. Before Ace died. Before Thatch died. He doesnt handle it well. // I dont even know where to start this is a bundle of some of my favorite tropes in one completed fic. The angst, the disbelief, the denial– it’s perfect. I’m in love

Inanition (Taizi) - small fic about how Luffy’s body works differently than his crewmates. // Short, and yet I keep coming back to it. It’s unebelievably sweet, and the tension of things left unsaid and suppressed anger out of worry is incredible.

Beginning the Next Dream (RikoJasmine) - Future!Luffy gets reborn as his own uncle, Garp’s kid and Dragon’s little brother. This changes a lot, esp. the ASL future. // Its still sort of in the beginning and already has 50k and my Heart I s2g every chapter i see updated makes me have to take a moment to calm down before I read it. Really worth the read. Very soft and sweet with the family vibes, and Luffy is a Hysterically overpowered child with haki. 

Guardian (Petiteneko) - Zoro’s POV for pre-post Dressrosa, and how Law slowly, quietly works through his frankly suicidal revenge plan. Includes lulaw // Im weak for outsider!POV mental health and trauma fics. That’s really all you need to know tbh

Acclimating (Justira) - Luffy may be the outspokenly crazy one, but he hand-picked his crew and the rest of the Strawhats are just as on his bullshit despite what they say. Law is struggling through a very nosy crew. // Similar to the fic above, Law trying to leave himself to his own self-harming tendencies and the Strawhats collectively having None Of It. 

Lionheart (cyan96) - Past!Law and Corazon get dumped into canon-timeline!Law’s submarine after a devil fruit incident. Trauma everywhere. // Manages to be funny and heartbreaking at exactly the same time! Lots of deeply buried trauma manifested suddenly and overwhelmingly. Incredible. 

The Games (Stormy1x2) - Humorous little fic about the Whitebeard’s participating in a sort of public-sport game, in which Ace volunteers and has a great time throwing shenanigans everywhere. // very cute!! another outsider!POV type as its in Marco’s POV while Ace runs around and is just excited and adorable. 

Older Brother’s Insight (Abyssal_one) - short fic about Older-brother!Luffy and Younger-brother!Ace w/ the Whitebeards // short and sweet! Im a sucker for role switch AUs and this one really highlights Luffy’s own eccentric sort of capabilities. 

Portgas D. Anne and the War of Shirts (glowingjellyfishtreelights) - Anne just doesnt like shirts. this has nothing to do with anyone else. // it’s Really funny. also incredibly accurate. 

Into Flame (Kurgaya) - Phoenix!Zoro, and the art of Not Actually Being Human But Never Saying That. // includes Zolu! Which usually isnt my jam, but im All Over non-human!AUs and this one is incredible. Zoro has three pairs of wings. Three. That’s wicked.

Pardus (ImperialMint) - A devil fruit materializes Ace’s worst fear. Which means he’s returning to the Moby Dick with Gold Roger himself at his heels. // funny, sad, and cute all at once. Cute family affection moments, lots of Ace being emotionally hurt and confused. 

Legacy (Anjelle) - Ace died and was sent back, all the way back to when his dad still was a pirate on the Oro Jackson. // Lots of emotional turmoil and childhood trauma neatly tied up with some cathartic mental revaluation ;) 

Paperwork of a Phoenix (ventusleone) - Marine!Marco and Marine!Izo happen to meet the Whitebeards during their downtime, every now and then, and, well, its not like theyre on duty. // Recently was completed! Slowburn platonic found-family vibes, a lot of Marco biting off more than he can chew and essentially being adopted in the process. 

Tension Headache and Migraine (JuHuaTai) Marco overworks himself and accidentally snaps at his crewmates, including Ace. // Very tense in the beginning and smooths out to something apologetic and softer. Has some nsfw in the end, overall Fanastic lmao

Tomorrow Never Happens (Midnightluck) - Sabo pickpockets the wrong marine and gets caught. Which sucks on a normal day, except this one is huge, and burly, and an admiral, and apparently his grandfather. // humorous and slightly angsty all at once! Another Sabo-Gets-His-Memories-Back-Canon-Divergence type story, because I am simple and predictable and it’s still fantastic. 

Blue Moon (MyLadyDay) - Werewolf!Marco protects the forest. It just so happens that (Witch?)Ace does so too. // Has some very quiet vibes I really dig, very calm and makes me think of a deep grey-blue color for some reason. Like Full moonlight through the trees. Very cute

[starvingandsleepdeprived]

I have no where else to put this, but I need to cleanse it out of me.

I'm in a situation where I live with someone I consider my best friend. It's been about a year and there hasnt been any problems or hitches. Communication was spot on and boundaries were set and met.

Now I'm regretting it.

They're the only person I choose to spend my limited time with since I work 5 days a week and go to school 3 days a week. They have a straight forward 9-5, 5 day a week job that hardly changes. I try to keep my schedule updated since they always talk about hanging out once I get free time.

They started dating someone they worked with.

They found someone that satisfied their sexual needs like their ex-partner did and their emotional and mental needs like I did.

Now they don't even talk about their day with me.

The person theyre dating gave me bad vibes from day 1. He hasn't done anything to hurt them (which is the important part) but when they bring him around he doesnt even try to socialize or be a part of the group. I would say it would be social anxiety, but according to my roommate he's very social at work.

The whole story behind how they started dating is something I can't even get into. That was when they thought it would be okay to do a last minute trip to his hometown 4 hours from us and only tell me when I asked if they wanted to collab for dinner.

They honestly don't believe I was a big deal because their boyfriend wouldnt do anything to harm them. That's not the point. It's common fucking sense to tell someone (especially if you live with them) that you're going to be gone because things like accidents can fucking happen.

I went through rough mental health stuff that essentially made me discover I have high-functioning depression and on top of that, I had to move into a new house and get acclimated at a new job that I only started because I was suddenly let go of my last one. It was a lot and I felt unsupported. I had to reach out to a friend that moved back home because I was legitimately afraid of what I might do. It was nice to talk to someone, but over the phone does not help me the way I need.

Sure, my roommate says they care.

But when I reach out to pulse check since I literally have not seen them for 4 days, I'm told they're too busy.

They only text me to communicate. I live practically 7 feet away from them.

I feel like a manipulative bastard at times and let them go out and have their fun because, at the end of the day, they are their own person. But I didn't actually think they would take that as a sign to practically move in with their boyfriend.

It's been lonely since most of my friends left home after college and since I'm still a full time student and employee, finding time to socialize with new people is a bit rough.

I talked with my therapist and one of our mutual friends about the situation and if I'm being to overbearing.

Both of them have said it's probably a sign to drop them.

Part of me wants to keep this friendship because I genuinely care about this person. But another part is aware that I'm putting myself in a one-sided relationship where I'm only seen as convenient to this person.

We've had conversations about how their actions have left me feeling doubtful about our relationship, to which they insisted wasn't what they thought of at all and that they cherish me as their friend.

Now, they're doing the exact same things they said they would stop doing. I'm stuck between verbalizing "hey remember we talked about this?" And letting them just dig their own grave while I push myself to move on without them (which overall might be good in the long run).

TL:DR I feel taken advantage of because even until this point, I can't say 'no' or express my frustration to this person because my emotions are clinging to the minimal attention they're giving to this relationship. They're currently occupied with their partner and im not going to be there during their first fall out.