#but that's because i actually enjoyed s5 because it wasn't anything i was expecting

[lovereturns]

i have… a lot to say about the miraculous movie but idek if it’s warranted bc it’s not like the show is good anyways JFHFJSKSK

[reiderwriter]

Hello there baby, are your parents bakers? Cause you're a cutie pie lol sorry couldn't resist the urge to flirt with my favorite writer💕How have you been? How was your day? I wish you a wonderful day and a lovely night💕

It's my first time here sending an ask but lately I've been thinking about shy!Spencer x flirty!reader, I just think is such a cute couple.

So if you're taking requests, I was thinking about early seasons Spencer completely falling for the reader and the way she's so flirty but sweet and kind, the way he'd be blushing hard at anything she says and how he'd like the way she's always touching him cause he felt cherised and desired.

It could be fluff or smut or both cause I can picture them going slow with the relationship but Spencer being eager to please her and show how much he loves everything about her.

You said about choosing a emoji, so can I be the 🐇anon?

A/N: Thanks for the request! Shy Spencer is the best because he's so dumb and silly and doesn't realize when people are attracted to him. I've said it before, but he's basically every nerdy main character in 00s romcoms that are "unattractive" because they wear glasses. I hope you enjoy the fic~♡

Warnings: mentions of case details, slight spoilers for upto s5

With a degree in law and a deep-rooted hatred of businessmen, you'd certainly found your calling in one of the FBI White Collar divisions. Putting away the sleazy bastards was easily one of the biggest perks of the job, but every coin had a second side, and yours was you actually had to interact with the cretins before you could take them down. 

You'd dealt with bribes, dinner invites, and sexual propositions more than a time or two, and had to remind yourself that kicking anyone of them clean in the balls was most likely a firing offense, if not legally off the table. 

The man in the case you were currently working - possibly Bill Hodges, possibly Daniel Brady, possibly so many more men - had been a typical white collar freak until he'd moved on to murder. And when you'd been so close to nailing his ass for fraud, too. 

You'd had no choice but to call in whatever unit it was that actually got to put bullets in the bastards, sure that you were going to be strong-armed out of months of work for the glory of taking down a spree killer. 

Instead, you got Spencer Reid, delivered freshly to your desk like a lamb to slaughter. 

“Sorry, you're the agent from the BAU?” You asked, raking your eyes across his body, smiling at his obvious discomfort with the attention. 

“Yes, Doctor Reid. I'm here for more information on the Hodges files.” 

You dusted your skirt off as you stood, moving around the desk to grab the file. You held it out to him but pulled it back when he reached for it.

“I'm sorry, you're really in the BAU?” An embarrassed look fell across his face, and you instantly felt shitty. 

“Do you want to see my credentials?” 

“No, I'm sorry, it's just - I wasn't expecting someone so…pretty?” 

The embarrassed look deepened to a flush, and you brightened at the sight. You weren't lying. He really was pretty, and you hoped your comment hadn't come off as patronizing. 

“You're adorable. Here's the file, I’ll be at your team briefing in half an hour. Spencer, right?” 

He nodded, finally waking up and taking the files as you pushed it against his chest, using the movement to step slightly closer. 

“I'll see you later then,” you trailed your look down, getting a good look at all of him before meeting his eyes again. “Save me a seat?” 

“I should… I'll, uh, go now. Thanks for the-” he stammered, pointing to the file, backing out of your space slowly, like an animal trying not to show its back to a predator. 

Unlike the long line of scumbags filling the halls and case files of your floor, Spencer was without bravado or ego. His lack of both meant that you were interested. You were very interested. 

Half an hour later, you practically sprinted to the 6th floor, bouncing up the stairs to the office where you'd take your meeting like a giddy school girl. 

“Hello, sorry, I'm not late, am I?” You asked, quietly opening the door and letting yourself in. 

“Agent Y/N, no, perfect timing, Penelope was just about to brief us on your case,” Hotch said, rising and giving your hand a firm shake. He looked around to find a seat to usher you into, but you quickly dropped yourself into the seat right beside Spencer Reid, grin deepening as he flushed and offered you an awkward yet endearing smile. 

Unconsciously, you shifted closer, shooting him your own smile before the meeting officially began, and you were forced to keep a straight, serious face. 

The entire case progressed in much the same way, with you doing everything you could to fluster Spencer Reid and him doing everything in his power to convince himself you were being friendly. 

“Spencer, do you have a phone number?” You asked after slipping out of the meeting, trailing him back to his desk. 

“Yeah, we have to keep connected for cases, so I have a phone.” 

“Great. Your number - what is it?” 

He rattled off the digital as you scribbled them down on a notepad. 

“And Hotch's number is-” 

“Oh, I won't need that. Thanks, Spencer.” You said waving as you left to slink back to your desk. You could hear him calling out behind you, confused. 

“Y/N… Y/N, we split up on cases often, if there's an incident and you need to contact us it's better to have all of the team members numbers,” he panted, jogging to catch up with your focused pace. 

“If I need to contact you, I'll take myself to Agent Garcia’s office and use her direct line,” you said, finally stopping yourself at the elevator and pressing the button. 

He caught up, and stopped abruptly next to you. 

“Oh… oh, yeah that's… that's efficient.” 

You stepped onto the elevator when it arrived, leaving Spencer hesitating whether or not to climb in himself, desperately wondering why you'd ask for his number then. 

“Goodbye, Doctor Reid,” you said, pressing the door close button and blowing him a kiss just before the doors blocked you from sight. 

To tell the truth, you'd had a lot of fun flirting with Spencer on the phone from Penelope’s office during the case. The woman was an inspiration, even if her flirting had a completely different purpose and meaning than your own. Her friendship with Derek Morgan was admirable, but you didn't want to be friends with Spencer Reid. 

“Hello, handsome, what can I do for you today?” You asked, picking up the phone and basking in the stammers that answered you down the line. 

“D-Do you need me to get Morgan for you?” He said, his voice treading lightly. 

“Unless Derek Morgan has, overnight, managed to turn into a 6’1 Doctor with a penchant for cardigans and leather satchels and an IQ of 187, then I am absolutely not looking for him. I have case details.” 

He brushed past your comment, but he kept the slight stammer through the conversation, right until you signed off. 

“Until next time, sexy.”

“Um, yeah… thanks…beautiful?” he signed off, and you guffawed in laughter even as Penelope stared wide-eyed in your direction, not believing her ears. 

“Please forgive our little test tube genius. We forgot to add flirting skills to his childhood curriculum, and now, alas, the poor thing doesn't know a damn thing.” 

He'd called back a few hours later, and you'd purred more compliments down the line, but this time with the team surrounding him as they closed in on your unsub. 

“Hello, this is beautiful speaking. How may I help you?” You giggled down the line, picking up the call after only a single ring. 

“Y/N,” he breathed, catching his breath awkwardly as he struggled to remember why it was you were needed. 

“So… um, like… Hotch has a question about the files you sent earlier. He needs Penelope to… do something as well.” 

You could almost see the awkward nod through the phone. 

“Great. Pass me over to Hotch, then, hot stuff.” 

You heard the tell-tale sound of Derek Morgan’s cackle in the background, and you couldn't help but let another giggle slip out. You were a gonner, and, hopefully, so was he. 

The case wrapped quickly after that, spree killing being a quick game of cat and mouse out of necessity. You weren't happy with three bodies, but it sure as hell was preferable to more. 

You greeted the BAU team at the jet hanger as they returned, reclaiming your fraud files for paperwork and using that simple chore as a reason to get close to Spencer again. 

“Good work out there, Doctor Reid.” 

“What, he's not hot stuff anymore now he's in front of you?” Emily Prentiss laughed, throwing her go bag onto her shoulder and trailing behind where you'd started strolling alongside Spencer. 

“Oh, he's still hot stuff. He's just hot stuff with three PhDs that just stopped a spree killer,” you said, sighing dreamily. “How do you do it?” 

“We were all there too, you know,” the other woman chuckled as you made it inside the building and to the elevator. 

“Yeah, well,” you said, taking a second to reach out and straighten out Spencer's skewed tie, smoothing his jacket and generally just touching him in whatever way you could, respectfully. 

You didn't even bother to finish your sentence, just leaning closer to his ears and whispering directly into them. 

“You're very cute when you're flustered, Doctor Reid.” 

You stepped away for a second while the rest of his team teased him, stepping to the back of the elevator to ascend to your floor while the others departed on theirs. 

They filed out one by one and you sent them off with a smile and a wave, signing in defeat as you realized there was no longer a reason for you to interact with the good doctor ever again. 

If you weren't so stupidly aware of him, you'd almost have missed the fact that Spencer didn't leave the elevator when his teammates did. He instead turned to you and, with the brightest red you'd seen on his face to date, stammered out half a sentence. 

“I.. Y/N, I was just… curious, if you, by any chance…” 

Your eyes widened in joy as you anticipated his question, silently begging him just to spit it out. 

“I was wondering, i-if you had… a boyfriend?” By the end of his sentence, even he seemed unsure of whether that was a question he should really be asking. 

You'd been throwing heart eyes at him for says, and he was asking if you were in a committed relationship. 

“No,” you said slightly breathily, as if your body were trying to expel all the anticipation it had stupidly built up. “No, I don't have a boyfriend, Spencer.”

“Great okay,” he smiled, a boyish grin if you'd ever seen one, before backtracking quickly.

“Well not great for you, great for me. Not that you can't be happy alone, I don't know how you feel about…romantic entanglements and I-I-I’m not saying that your life isn't,” he searched for the words with his hands, as of he could grasp them as a life line while he was sinking fast. “-Great without a boyfriend or anything like that, I'm just - really - pleased that position is currently… vacant?” 

“Spencer?” You said, feeling like a cat who got the cream as a smile twitched at your lips, pulling the corners up as you listened to him ramble. 

“Yes?”

“Do you want to be my boyfriend  or are you asking for a friend?” 

You'd meant the words as a joke  but he stood contemplating for a second. You pushed a hand against your mouth to suppress the childish squeal from popping out. 

“It would be a bit presumptuous to shoot straight for boyfriend, right? How about date ....partner?” 

You couldn't stop yourself from closing in on him then, practically cornering him in the elevator as the floors passed you by.

“Presumptuous would be thinking I could have a boyfriend when I've been begging you to stick your tongue down my throat with my eyes for the last half hour. I thought they taught you body language at the BAU?” 

“They teach us how to catch criminals, not how to see when someone is giving us…fuck me eyes, Y/N.” The curse left you a little dizzy - this was it, this was what you'd been trying to do all week, to get under his skin and get him to let his guard down so you could capture him. 

“Doctor Reid, I'm a little scandalized! I didn't know you swore. What a dirty mouth you have.” You reached up with both hands, letting your thumb on his lips before pretending to wipe something away at the corner of his mouth. You were in the perfect position to notice his throat bob as he swallowed.

The elevator pinged at your floor, and you left him behind you with one last swipe of your fingers at his chin. You weren't expecting him to follow, but he did.

“Y/N…please, Y/N…. Can we just…?” You relished the awkwardness in his voice as he trailed you again, a satisfied smile settling onto your face. 

You just kept walking. Or you did until you felt a large hand wrap around your wrist and pull you sideways into the nearest storage cupboard. 

You gasped as he pinned you to the wall, close not, but his eyes still hesitant on what to do next. 

“Spen-” He cut you off with his lips on yours, silencing you before you could get the final word. His lips were clumsy at first, but you felt hot under his touch  arching yourself up into him. His tongue pushed into your mouth as he found his stride, your hands tangling in his hair as you held on for dear life.

This was it. This was what you'd been waiting for. 

Reluctantly, he pulled away, both of you gasping for breath to fill your suddenly empty lungs. 

“Was that….what… you wanted?” He panted, resting his head on yours. 

There were no words. It was what you wanted but now you wanted more, needed more. You settled for a quick nod as your tongue flamed, unable to say anything helpful. 

“Good. Great…” he removed his hands from you and scratched at the back of his neck, putting a more respectful distance between the two of you as he cleared his throat. 

“I'll just-” he pointed to the door and started making his way out. You sighed again, watching him walk away down the hall, his hair a mess, his tie askew, and a whole lot of your lipstick staining his lips. 

Surely, he'd notice by the time anyone else did. If not, you'd just effectively staked your claim on Doctor Spencer Reid, and you couldn't be happier about it.  

[memes-saved-me]

Okay so my thoughts. I really enjoyed it. The cutting between everyone in serious danger had me hysterical and the deaths made sense. Eddie's is tragic, heartbreaking and I expected it. Dustin telling his uncle he died a hero...excuse me while I sob. Max...I almost threw up. Like gagging I was crying so hard and El being there to bring her back but not fully is brilliant. It leaves a massive thing to sort out in S5 other than the world ending lol.

Steve and Nancy didn't happen!!! Yay!!! I just hope Jonathan and Nancy sort their shit out and communicate for once. Will is for sure gay and I kind of like that Jonathan clearly knows but hasn't said anything. Their moment in the kitchen was really nice.

Steve...oh poor Steve. They really backtracked his getting over Nancy thing. Like my guy there's better girls out there and you're 20 calm down. His family dream was really nice though.

Billy.... So I went in knowing he wasn't coming back. That boy is dead and staying that way but El thinking of him when she thought of her own mother...nice. Vecna calling him weak and fragile, thank you I'm sobbing but he's right and I'm glad it was acknowledged that Billy was a very broken teenage boy. When they used the sauna test shots to scare Max was brilliant but I like that technically that wasn't Billy and none of her nightmare visions were actually him.

What Max said about wishing he would disappear is 100% a realistic thing to want while in a home where life is hell. I do think this was maybe before S3 because she seemed to not hate him as much as S2 when he was angry and on edge. He seemed to have calmed down by the summer and maybe that's when she didn't fully want that anymore which makes her hoping he isn't the host more heartbreaking. She wished for it in the moment but didn't want that as seen by her not being able to forgive herself for not trying to save him. That all just adds to her letter to him. Antis are going to have a field day with it though so just remember the block button is your best friend!

Eleven not telling Brenner she understands...amazing. Joyce and Hopper YES and Enzo and Murray are my faves. The reunions were brilliant and just right. Vickie and Robin at the end were great, especially Steve smiling to himself about it.

The ending...I expected it but not in the way it happened. I expected all hell to break lose instantly but that its slow and creeping is much better.

I thoroughly enjoyed this season and I know people are going to be pissed but I think they did a good job overall with a few meh moments. Feel free to send me asks about what I thought of specific moments if you want but I'll probably be moving on to making more Harringrove content 😁

[purpleheartskies]

If Johnny does make an effort with Robby, how would you like to see it happen? I quite like the idea of a family dinner or something between Johnny, Robby and Shannon where Robby can vent to both of them and Johnny and Shannon can sort their own issues out. Or Johnny having an honest conversation with Robby about his step-dad and how that messed him up and telling him about the he was born and how guilty he feels. Of course, I think both scenarios should include him actually telling Robby he loves him

(This is messymindofmine btw)

I'd love some family moments between Johnny, Shannon, and Robby, like maybe a family dinner or something. But I don't know, I feel like the first one or two of those should be light-hearted so that Robby enjoys them. Or maybe he won't. There is probably so much Robby has to say to them.

I wonder if they'd actually hear him out though.

Shannon has atleast taken responsibility for her neglect and gotten herself help and cleaned up. But in s4 I got the feeling that she didn't really care much about what was going on in his life, "Cobra Kai or whatever". She did raise a red flag about Silver, so there's that. But she wasn't at the avt. Even before the school fight, she referred to Robby as "that kid" because he was rebellious. After the school fight, she used rehab as an excuse not to help look for him and then just handed handling Robby and his situation over to Daniel. I think Shannon has kinda given up on him. She didn't fight for him like a genuinely loving and caring mother would have after the school fight, nor does it seem she made an effort to visit him in juvie. I wouldn't be surprised if, like Johnny, she doesn't even know or care to know the details of what happened.

Johnny has no patience when it comes to Robby pointing out his behavior towards him (let alone Shannon pointing it out his behavior). Johnny just gets offended and angry back at Robby. I think Johnny was only nice to Robby at the end because Robby came to him vulnerable and talked about his own screw up. When Robby came to him earlier in the season, Johnny didn't care what Robby had to say probably because Robby came to him angry. I honestly don't believe Johnny is ready to take true accountability for what he has done to Robby. Johnny has guilt about abandoning him, but that guit is more focused on himself and him continuing to fail, and not about how he has affected Robby's life. After Robby told Johnny how Johnny has made him feel his whole life by abandoning him, Johnny didn't do anything to make Robby feel otherwise, but just continued to abandon him.

Overall, I think Johnny and Shannon don't respect Robby or care about him or how he feels. They're pretty self-absorbed and don't seem to have the patience to deal with him. I'd still give Shannon more credit than Johnny, but I don't see either of them caring about what he has to say to them. They used to leave him to starve and he obviously stole and scammed so that he could survive, and Johnny didn't even care that Robby was homeless for a bit and training with two psychos for months, so that tells us what to expect from them. Robby's life is nowhere and neither of them cares.

Anyway, I think Johnny has to prove himself through actions. Consistent, genuine actions. Robby has said that Johnny doesn't care about him, cares more about his rivalry with Daniel than about him, and chooses Miguel over him. Johnny has to do the opposite permanently because these 3 things have been consistent behaviors on Johnny's part. Robby also said that Johnny now wants a relationship with Robby so that Johnny can feel better about himself, so Johnny's gonna have to prove that he does genuinely want a relationship with Robby. How is Johnny gonna do this? I don't know. Because so far Robby has been putting more effort into their relationship than Johnny has been, and Robby just gave Johnny a free pass with no effort on Johnny's part. So far, S5 Johnny doesn't seem like he cares about how Robby feels. What miracle can get that to change?

I would love to hear Johnny tell Robby that he loves him, and I hope he eventually does... but after he really proves himself. Because so far all Johnny has been is just talk when it comes to Robby, so without the permanent change in Johnny's behavior, the "I love you" or "I'm sorry" will just be more empty words and sharing his own history and trauma will just seem like excuses.

[thetaoofbetty]

Listen, BA is the definition of using someone as a safety blanket after trauma and looking for that sense of familiarity. It doesn’t seem like something new or exciting that either of them are pursuing or were waiting for years. It feels safe and boring. All of the new couples are to be fair, but it’s interesting because according to BAs, BA as a couple would make the show exciting and so far their interactions with other people are what is making this season less awful than season 5.

all of the expectations built up for b/a? came from the b/as. no one promised them anything they said they were or are getting. they built up this whole storyline in their head and they did that before the fwb thing and then decided betty was pregnant after it ended (i'm guessing the theory existed solely to keep betty tethered to archie).

the couples they've given us have been presented very much as people who are friends and/or business partners. and that's fine? but they're writing it in the most boring way possible and having seen the way they can and will write other relationships, how are we not supposed to think that this is their intention with the ships? they made them all miserable in the vale and now they're all just sort of coasting or existing when they're not in active conflict.

and you're right, this season is more enjoyable than s5 because they're actually interacting in larger group plots and there's a lot less misery porn.

another ask below the cut:

you know what’s funny? A lot of the conversations between BA/VH were pillowtalks or conversations were they were really close and physically intimate (a hand of the face, a kiss on the head, rubbing the hair, cuddling on the couch etc) all BA got was… a pat on the knee and beer nights. A friend. BA having pillow talks would actually establish them as a romantic pairing still living together and being intimate and yet… they refused to. It’s quiet funny. As much as BAs want to deny it, them complaining about the scenes means they wanted what BH/VA had for 4+ years. They spent years saying all that content was boring and predictable because BA was going to be "fresh" and "amazing" because there’s oh so much chemistry and yet… now the baby is the only hope, they aren’t getting content in any significant way so they think a baby will fix it.

yeah, the show was able to easily establish intimacy and affection while still keeping the plot moving and centered. the one time they showed us b/a in bed in s5, they kept them silent and that was 100% intentional. why would they think that betty and archie were going to be the big team up of the show once they were together? they never were before.

did betty help in all of his save the town plots? no.

was archie in the mysteries? not often.

the show wasn't going to rewrite itself just to appease them. did they really think that? if they wanted to write pillowtalk or big team ups for these new ships, they would. i don't know what direction this season is going to go in by the end but right now, it's almost mid-season and i still feel like it's barely apparent that these new ships are actually dating.

really, the focus on the baby thing is weird af to me and remains so. if they can't enjoy their ship without feeling like a baby secures their endgame, that's, well, gross. but also on them.

[aadmelioraa]

💔💙💓 for.. Black Sails or TLK

Doing both since I was granted special dispensation 😌

Black Sails

Ship that makes you sad: Max x Eleanor…I still ship it, and I think it's so well written, but DAMN it hurts. I know whenever I have it in me to rewatch it's gonna devastate me even more.

Ship that you used to have as an OTP: I don't know that there was something I used to ship and no longer ship…maybe Flint x Silver, actually, even though I was only ever ship-curious for them…I still think it's a super compelling dynamic but more in a narrative foils way than a shippy way. I know this is a very unpopular opinion lol.

Ship that you didn’t expect to ship but now do: Idelle x Featherstone!! I was ambivalent at first (though I loved Idelle immediately) but I think they're super fun and actually make a lot of sense together. It's very much the malewife/girlboss model I can't resist, actually.

TLK

Ship that makes you sad: Thyra x Beocca…mostly because of how her storyline ended. One of the worst deaths on the show, ugh. Whenever I rewatch s2 I get immediately bummed out by it lol. There can never be too many Thyra lives AUs.

Ship that you used to have as an OTP: Hild x Uhtred probably. I still get down with it in fic, though not many people write it, but I was more into it in s2 and since that point I clearly have other ships that have demanded more of my attention lol.

Ship that you didn’t expect to ship but now do: God so many. Honestly…and I know this is an unpopular opinion…hear me out...I am gonna say Eadith x Uhtred. I was SO opposed to it before the season and extremely apprehensive about how they were going to handle it, but as things started to unfold I thought it was written in a pretty natural way. Obviously it wasn't explicitly romantic and idk what they're planning for the movie, if anything, but I enjoyed their dynamic. I really cannot overstate how dead set against it I was before s5, I was pleasantly surprised that they didn't try to shoehorn in a new relationship for Uhtred since so much of his story this season revolved around Aethelflaed (which we all know I have complicated feelings about lol), Brida, and his kids, and they also didn't sacrifice Eadith's character or plot line to build rapport between the two of them.

[hawkinslibrary]

I’m sorry if you’ve been asked this question, or something similar before. I know there are people that are quite nervous about what this new season will bring and I completely get that, because the duffers are not going to be able to please everyone. So I was just wondering, going into season 4, is there anything that you want to see happen, or not happen, that would be some sort of a deal breaker? Apart from wanting El and Hopper to reunite as I’ve seen theories about them not doing so until season 5, which would suck, but other than that I’m so excited to see what they have in store for us. I want to go into it with an open mind, so I can enjoy it as much as possible.

oh no, don't worry about if anything has already been asked or anything. i'm always up for any questions as long as i actually have something of substance to contribute haha

this got long bc of course it did, so i put the answer below the cut

honestly i don't think i have any dealbreakers ? i know like with every season, there are probably going to be things that i think we could probably do without or things that i wish happened differently -- but, it's like you said, they can't please everyone all the time

i totally understand people having reservations about this season. it's been a while, s3 wasn't everyone's cup of tea, there's a ton of stuff happening this season and a ton of new characters in play. the scale of this season is huge and it's natural to wonder if they're going to be able to pull it all off in a satisfying way

i personally am very very excited for like... everything this season. i'm probably not the best person to ask here tbh bc i've kinda been annoyingly positive about this show for a while. for example, s3 is pretty divisive i guess and i'm not sure how you felt about it, but i really did enjoy it for the 'middle of the series blockbuster' it was trying to be. again, i see why people might not have liked it as much as s1 and 2, but i think it was the way it was for a reason, you know, and it did still give us a ton of amazing content

now, the end of season team ups/reunions are some of my favorite parts of this show and i've been a little nervous we might not get it this season as well, since s5 is supposedly working as a part 2/direct continuation. but i do think that even if we don't get an actual reunion, these characters are still going to be all over each other's stories -- el and hopper especially even

the only thing i'm a little wary about with this season is that some certain characters might not be getting the great individual arcs that they deserve. so many characters it seems are getting these huge arcs for themselves this season (el, hopper, max), while i feel like i know nothing about characters like the cali group except that their stories are tied up in el and the government

i still think the content we'll get with them is going to be amazing, and i'm prepared for this season to be a pretty emotional one for everyone at points, but i'm also anticipating that some fans are going to be disappointed no matter what happens, so

i don't want to sway you or anything, but i'm literally going into this season expecting it to be the best one yet haha. i'm just very excited to see everyone again, and for all the new dynamics we're going to explore and for the resurgence of some older ones too tbh. i think if you go in expecting to enjoy it, and you really like the characters and are open to these dynamics, and you don't mind horror or psychological stuff, then you're going to like this season a lot

[bellamyblake]

I saw your tags and I agree! s6 was peak romantic Bellarke. I think the problem with the season is that it left a bitter taste. I was so good and after s5 kinda restored our souls but then there wasn't a payoff and jroth...well...was jroth and downplayed it big time. So all that excitement went away.

My personal opinion is that a lot of bellarke, like strong bellarke fans with lots of followers, and mainly creators of all sorts (giffers, fanfic writers) left in season 5 because they didn’t enjoy the season and as much as we as fans write and talk about angst, I guess we can’t handle watching it? So that was one reason. 

Another reason was that much like in season 3, in season 5 people have big expectations about the bellarke reunion, and when that wasn’t met, they kind of stepped back. 

Also, as much as I love our fandom, I think a very big portion of it just don’t get bellamy (or clarke for that matter) as INDIVIDUAL characters. Many people used the hash tag not my bellamy at the season 5 time and that hurt me personally a lot because I am one of those people who loved seeing bellamy grow as a leader, as a person, as a human being. 

The more I watch and rewatch, the better I get the characters but I just think that a very big part of the fandom is very much in love with the idea of the rebel kind bellamy and the bellarke from season 1 and I can see where this appeal comes from, though I personally prefer their relationship in later seasons because for me it grows and gains substance and just makes them THEM, you know? 

But I think a lot of people were just in love with this idea of angry, spontaneous, rebel king, whatever-the-hell-we-want Bellamy that they just...wanted that? And nothing else. Whilst I think it was most necessary that he grew as a character, that he grew as a leader. It is what Clarke wanted for him. Now I always think he was head AND heart before just like she was head and heart too before that monumental talk in 4x13 but I think the pain of losing clarke just sent him to more of THAT head extreme than anything.

However season 6 truly realizes him as he IS and should be- a very well rounded leader, a very well-balanced mix of head and heart. That is so clearly showed in 6x06 memento mori when he talks to Murphy and first he just wants to act his GRIEF out, the grief form losing Clarke AGAIN but then he gets to think about it and he slows down, takes a breath and realizes that-she’s gone and yet again it is up to HIM to take care of THEM, all of them and that THIS is what she would want and THIS is how he honors her. It’s not the first time it happens and it hurts even worse but he has to do this.

Bellarke is amazing in season 6 because it has all these amazingly awesome tropes that we talk and write about in fic but suddenly they are right there for us and we somehow skip them? Which is unbelievable for me.

We have the Bellamy figuring out it’s not her and then going through the grief of losing her YET again whilst in the meantime Clarke is in Jo’s body and tries to fight for herself but GIVES UP WHEN SHE FIGURES OUT HE THINKS SHE’S DEAD and then we get him realizing she’s still IN THERE and he FIGHTS FOR HER and he actually truly brings her BACK using the same old but golden

Head and Heart

And I won’t lie it hurts me that some of those fans who gave up in season 5 and again I’m not blaming them but sometimes I feel like they are just unncessesarily evil cause they say-oh lord they touched lips in that cpr scene are we really fawning over that?

And I’m like-do I gotta remind you guys, that YOU died when she kissed his cheek in 2x16?

So somehow one is better than the other? And somehow those of us who saw all of their potential and all of the amazing stuff that happened for them in season 6 (from bellamy figuring it out to thinking he lost her YET again, to fighting for her in the cave, and then literally saving her and then REFUSING to let her risk her life yet again but knowing he doesnt have a choice to her HUGGING Him when she lost her mom???? all the tropes literally...all the fics you write IS that but you can write it yet not see it and recognize it?) are...I guess wrong? LOL for the general fandom esp on twitter.

Tbh the reason why season 5 was so bad for me was because of fandom and most of all it was because of people claiming the hash tag-not my bellamy.

I came into this fandom in the worst time possible. In season 3. When bellarke and bellamy fans hated Bellamy much like they did in season 5 and when I was so confused as to what I think and I read all these meta and thoughts and all those stuff. Much of the same is happening now in season 7.

So I told myself, I won’t listen to anyone, I won’t read anything and I’ll just blacklist. But it still hurt. It hurt like HELL. But now I’m smarter, and i make my own thoughts and I know what I love about my favorite character and I know when I can judge the writing, when I can judge his actions when I can love his actions, all of it.

But I do it, myself.

I think a lot of people are just influenced by fandom. And that’s horrible. My friend who’s not in the fandom LOVED season 5, hated season 4. I love season 4 because of many things I wont get into now but that’s just my point. People can ruin this for you.

However I will never forget the not my bellamy tag. And people still use that shit. and I just never will get it. I love this boy. I love where he is now. And I am sorry but as cool and as awesome he is in season 1 and I love him there too, I just love the well-rounded person that he is now, the growth he went through.

Do I find injustices? Yes, I do. I definitely do. I have thoughts about things that I find wrong when it comes to Bob and Bellamy. And I can criticize that. 

but I love Bellamy Blake. That I am sure of. And no amount of hash tags and people telling me touching lips aint shit in cpr scenes or casual glances are nothing and on and on about how pathetic I am, can change my mind. 

[skamamoroma]

There are some people who say that OG s3 trailer wasn't realistic either, but I think it's still more realistic than skamfr s6 trailer, although I don't know how to explain it. The vibe is different.

No Skam Og trailer was realistic, for me. They are all hyper realised, stylised and designed to be that way because Julie loves a symbolic gesture, a metaphor and is a creative soul.

I have absolutely zero issue with artistic trailers. I love that stuff!!! I loved so many that came out over the years. Og Sana’s was glorious with the reversal and the lyrics of the song etc. Skam Esp s2’s was shot beautifully and was cheeky and suggestive but also innocent and youthful. Skam It s2 was an homage to the og s3 but made Italian with Un Uomo and the boys at the beach with their suncream. ETC.

So Skam Fr can go all out with the dramatics and cinematography and artistic choices. That’s fab!

Skam Fr has NEVER been the most realistic remake. If anything, it has consistently always been more cinematic, sitcom-esque and has always steered closer to drama for the sake of it than the rest or a slightly less realistic angle if they could capitalise on the cinematography or symbolism. That has ALWAYS been the case. I’ve said it for years now and have always championed every remake for being its own thing. I celebrate the differences, I don’t compare.

Everyone will have a preference. I also do! And Skam Fr has also made their approach work so well in their favour like with their s3. Their approach suited Lucas down to the ground and suited his story brilliantly and, for me, the slightly more dramatic style didn’t detract from the emotion and character arcs and storyline.

Sadly, s5 was a mess for me. There, the drama and the stylistic choices far far far outweighed what I enjoy Skam for and that’s the emotional character connection, the meaningful story with a well developed narrative etc. It was overly dramatic for me with too much focus on things that, in most respects, had no genuine impact or resolution etc like the car crash (still have zero clue what that was about). The acting was stellar, the cinematography was flawless... but for me it was a little like style over substance and lacked the v Skam -esque “show not tell” approach. It lost what I enjoy from Skam and sadly the themes which deserved the attention were drowned out for me. Many won’t agree which is absolutely fine!

So I think I err on the side of caution with Lola’s trailer because yes it’s visually stunning and impactful but it’s the content for me that will satisfy me and I am wary following s5. Skam Fr have a history of adding drama which leaves their characters open to being dented and bruised and they aren’t kind with many of their characters and often with little resolution which is so sad because some of these characters are STELLAR. So I hope they do it justice as it’s a topic close to my heart and no doubt many others (I lost my father young to issues I think will be touched on in the season)

So yeah, I think drama in trailers is expected with Skam. Being stylised and going all out is awesome and I love it but I’m wary of what Skam Fr will do in terms if the actual content because of it echoes s5’s approach then it was poor to me.

I am always going to be down the most for in-depth character stuff, realism, raw emotion and if cinematography and music and lighting and sound and all of that good stuff emphasises that then I am HAPPY AS A CLAM and I roll around in it (see my many many many analysis posts about the og, Skam Italia and Wtfock - and even Skam Fr s3 - as they have all hit that reaction in me as proof haha) ... my concern is that Skam Fr has tended to sacrifice one for the other. I hope they pulled it back for s6 and their last season!