#but y'all need to learn what mental illness is i am begging you

[matbaynton]

"we need more complex female characters" y'all couldn't even handle leah rilke from the wilds

[creepy-friday]

Fem. proxy NSFW headcanons with the three proxies? (separately) I love the way you write them, and you really don't find people who write them accurately anymore. Thank you!

Hi! Thank you so much,I am glad the fandom is still alive! :D

Creepypasta Proxies x fem!Reader

|NSFW headcanons|

Warnings: implied nsfw,suggestive language,mental illness mentions,dub-con/non-con mentions,misogyny, various kinks mentions including dacryphilia,knife play and somnophilia

Side note: Sex is meant to be a pleasure experience for both partners (or more,whatever y'all are into) and it isn't limited to a particular "style", it is okay to explore and feel good and confident about it.Stay safe everyone!

Toby would be the one who would think about engaging in sexual activities the most

I ain't gonna sugarcoat it,he's still very mentally ill so he would only assume you don't necessarily find him attractive enough if you seem to reject all of his affection that would lead to something more

That's why during some of his breakdowns he might push you and get pretty violent,forcing himself onto you while kissing roughly,altough he wouldn't continue to a very end if you're extremely uncomfortable about it

Considering the amount of trauma he has,the few moments he can feel at his best are during the highs of an orgasm tbh

Did I ever mention he has a mommy kink? I definitely fucking did he will let you use him as you please,dirty talking also gets him last a few more rounds.He just wants to know he is the one who can please you the most,that he's doing a good job,that he's your pretty good boy~

Degrade him a little,he also doesn't mind if you want to crave a little something into his skin.Even tough he cannot feel pain he definitely likes it,it's something that makes him feel like he belongs to you

Toby would do the same if you let him.He has his moments where he wants to feel in total control,but at the same time he's all sloppy and needs to touch and lick every part of your body

Holding you into a tight grasp while you bounce on him makes him all vocal,he doesn't hold back on moans either, looking up to you like you're all that matters to him in this world

He loves to hold you as close as possible during intercourse,as close as he can get to hear your fast heartbeat or to lick the tears that escape from your pretty eyes

Masky is rough and would often not let you cum until you beg and further humiliate yourself to get it from him

He would fuck you in front of a mirror as exposed as possible while praising and shaming you at the same time

Holding your hair into a fist while pressing your head into a pillow and holding both of your hands between your back as he doesn't stop thrusting into you until you're left breathless is what he loves the most

He can still act arrogant and bossy, blowing the smoke on your face while forcing you to take all of his length in your throat,maybe even putting his hands under his head while acting like you blowing him off it's such a chore fucking douchebag

Tim can be a sweet and loving partner,making sure you are okay while leaving soft kisses on the spots Masky left on you

The white masked man still loves to be in power and would talk disgusting things to you because of it

"You were made for this,weren't you?" ; "Finally learning where your place is,am I right?" ; "I bet your cunt deserves more atttention,after all you've been a good slut lately" and so on and so forth,would make you agree and be vocal while saying the exact words he wants you to say

Would engage in fear play and grind onto you while you sleep,staring at you while he strokes himself off and finally covering your mouth and thrusting all of his length into you while letting out grunts and low moans

Hate fucking is nothing that he isn't familiar with,he secretly adores when you put him in his place and fuck his brains out,if you're not easily intimidated and take the lead you can make him roll his eyes into his skull and use this to shame him later he deserves it

Hoodie adores when you start crying while desperately holding onto him if you're not tied up,of course while you're overstimulated and shaking from the last few orgasms.

"C'mon,I know you can continue,one more time for me,hm?"

He's isn't as much of a jerk like his friend,but I totally can see him taking his sweet time to ravish you just for his fucked up pleasure

He would often tease you in semi public spaces or legit under the table while other residents are talking to you,he has no shame about it either

Cannot keep his mouth shut for anything,he will whisper the dirtiest filth to your ears while soft grunts escape his mouth

Except to be touched while sleeping next to him.He would gently pet your hair while you sleep on his chest,then his hand would move across your body.He cannot help it,you look way too peaceful while you're dozed off,so defenless and utterly at his mercy

If you insist to use a safe word with him he would respect it while smirking,his ego would be over the roof,especially knowing on how good he makes you feel

"You feelin' good?" he asks as he takes his sweet time to make you beg for him to go faster,he's okay to take orders and doesn't mind instructions on how to make you feel even better than before

As long as you allow him in and ask nicely he's all yours to break or to use to break yourself into~

[tothefurtherwego]

i am not in a good condition

Everyone think everytime i'm crazy , even maybe you think I'm sick . Itu sih yang orang bilang siapapun yang merasa mereka dekat sama aku selalu bilang Kamu Sakit Jiwa, Kamu Gila, Otak mu sinting.

I'm not... it's just the other me who tried to protect me from anything fragile, the other me helps me stronger. That's why I can balance everything now because y'all don't know it took me forever to control it.

Let me take you back to what happen with me when the other me is finally get out.

i think it was 6 years ago,

I remember I fight with my father youngest brother because he is trying to push my head into the floor until the third times I calm myself down and I said to him " do it one more time and I kill you" I said.... and he pushed my head for the last 3 Times and I start to hit his face with my bare hand, he hit my hand back and that day that time....I start to feel nothing, until I push him into the corner with my only one hand, he just alone and he standing there while I start smash all the things on him and act like crazy person and yeah he was scared as hell and beg me to stop because it hurts but I didn't, I don't know what happens next. all is suddenly.....dark.

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From this moment...first two months I go to talk with someone who claimed himself as a psychiatrist but he is also a domeney , from that moment he tells me that "this happened to some people who have mentally ill after all the horrible thing happens, this other you need to be locked on the other room in your mind because it's not good" took a years and years to do it because I'm so aggressive back then , I learn to control myself....believe me , today....I am fighting with the other me and being numb, being emotionless and shut down my humanity is the best decision right now. There are consequences too because I keep the other me locked . Wanna kill myself ? Don't ask , i tried several times . Hopeless , sometimes... until my son is born and every time the anger is on the top, I saw my son eyes, seems like he said " just be quiet mom and smile a lot...shut it down"

and ...suddenly all the things just like never happened. Weird but...better like that huh.

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You all keep sayin me crazy , let me take you back to that time and tell me I'm crazy -_-

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[closedspeciesdrama]

Wow... some of you people are honestly fucking disgusting. M2 does have a point. Perhaps its you people whom dont understand what its like to be emotionally abused by someone who is mentally disabled. Yes, they have a mental problem but it does not give them the right to treat people like garbage. Ive had former friends who played the disabled card any time they hurt me and then went on to say "Im mental so you need to understand me" when I confronted them. Without any appologies. Smh (1/2)

(2/2) What M2 is trying to get across is that while mental disabilities are indeed a factor in people’s behavior, there comes a point where someone is just being an asshole. They, like anyone else, should learn from their mistakes and not expect the world to revolve around them because they might have an issue. Everyone has issues some more severe than others. Again, it still doesnt mean you can treat eachother like crap.

Id also like to clarify on my two part post, pointing out someones bad behavior, mentally disabled or handicapped, is not the equivalent of making fun of them. Nor am I refering to those whom have SEVERE forms of mental issues such as high functioning autism that literally cannot communicate properly. I understand being patient with someone who needs a bit of time to learn from there mistakes but its not a get out of jail free card. Thats all M2 is saying.

This just in! Anons have no cs drama to bitch about so they attack the mods. Oh the humanity

Honestly the real trashholes are the idiots ragging on M2. I mean really??? You guys are so willing to got out and attack them . You guys are just as horrible. Because you guys took the time out of your day to go and be nasty back. And then go and tell em be humble and shit?? Fuck all of you anons. You /could/ have addressed the issue much more civilly than this. I’m not trying to pick sides, but it’s pathetic when people resort to this bullshit

wow using words like the r word and snowflake when defending people with mental disabilities doesn’t make it quite effective lol?????

Hoooly shizz, are people seriously that dense? Someone defends their points on how things are going and y'all are getting so butthurt about it. I know this place can get some trashy anons by my dear, y'all got some serious nerve calling someone scum and telling them to leave for this. Hope you’re not taking all this to heart M2, not all the anons are that hate-filled ;n;

No, anon. If they are mentally ill, disabled or otherwise neurodivergent, DESPITE the difficulties they may have understanding social cues, being polite or understanding that they were rude and apologize, it is STILL not an excuse to not put forth the effort to learn when and what they did wrong. It is still up to them to be a decent person, or they should not be in a mod role. M2 is not in the wrong, and you’re being a bully and pretty anti-recovery imo. Need me to elaborate?

To the anon(s) deeming it necessary to spam the mods’ asses with bullshit: what the FUCK is wrong with you people?? Do none of you have ANY shame whatsoever about harassing someone for no reason other than to be complete assholes? “I’m a complete shitter so I’m going to harass this person for saying this one thing that I don’t agree with” - get a fucking grip and stop forcing other people to deal with your bullshit because you have a shitty life. 

Btw, anon who sent that defense for M2 about how nd ppl still need to try and learn and not be rude, I’m mentally ill too, so don’t start. I’m fucking sick of the attitude Tumblr in general has towards mental illness. Recovery is good! People should own up to their actions, mentally ill or not. I don’t care what it is that causes you to miss social cues, lash out or whatever, you still need to ow up. It sucks that it happens, and maybe you didn’t mean it, but still least try to be better.

Tmblr just has a bad idea of how memtal illness should b treated. Take it from someone whos mentally ill (adhd, psycosis and mood instability fyi) tjis website HURT me with its “ooo MI ppl can do no wrong n are stuck in a shitty place forever n can never get better” that they act like its a good thing or something fuckkkkkkk. Its legit toxic, and im STILL recovering from those mindsets two years later. Stop. I beg you! Youre not doing MI ppl any good this way.

As someone with mental health issues and disabilities I can say that it is not a get out of jail free card, You guys are being pretty damn rude to M2. People cant learn from their mistakes or about their behavior if you dont tell them what their doing wrong and try to help them better themselves and their behavior towards others. Not all mental health issues and disabilities make it so you literally cant do some things, For those ones its completely understandable for ones that dont effect ½

2/2 people in that way who have them, It is still not right to be an asshole and these people are the ones that could definitely learn to better their behavior if people would actually let them know what their doing is not okay.

[garden-of-succulents]

2017.5 fanworks roundup

The weasels of doubt that chew on my brain: Ugh, you haven't written or posted ANYTHING since you posted that fic exchange in December. You've just sat around and not produced anything, like a big lazy lump. Me: Uh..... let's fact-check that one.

So in the spirit of my 2016 roundup, here's my 2017.5 roundup! Compiled mostly by reading back in my Stuff I Wrote tag. Reminder that I have a blanket open fanworks policy: Feel free to add to, remix, theorize about, or create art, audio, fic, or anything else for my fanworks!

Stuff I Consider Finished: Aroace Parse/Swoops. Jack Zimmermann and Stan Rogers. The secret to Ransom's parents' marriage. Tater, George, and image management. Jack is a rolemodel for fuckups everywhere. Fic of fic: Parse/Swoops/Jack/Bitty/Tater. Chowder calls Bitty his personal chef on social media. Tater can talk himself out of traffic tickets. Bitty moves back to Georgia in his late 30s. Tater and Ransom looking after each other through injuries and med school. Sadass teenage Pimms paragraph. Mashbits pregame naps. Jack and chewy stim toys. Ford trying to keep Whiskey from traumatizing Tango. Zimbits next-gen dream writeup. Anglo Canadian stuff I want Ransom to do. Ransom and Holster being cool with Bitty's gayness. Dex learning about privilege. A Mashbits AU people took amazing places. Kent coping with music. Nurseylardo snuggling. Zimbits "Enchanted" AU. Where does Holster get off on bugging Ransom about "selling out"?. Pimms in a Pimbits universe: Locker room sex (AO3). A theory about why Bad Bob makes that weird face in Jack's baby pictures. I forgot who "Adam" was. George billeting Tater as a rookie. Peak Jack Zimmermann. Poly Ransom/Holster/March. Zimbits pace bunny AU. Ransom learning about Nursey/Tater. Nursey/Tater. Jack doesn't love history, he only loves hockey. Reblog if you’re mentally ill, a trauma survivor, or had a shitty childhood, and you think fanworks about Kent Parson are valuable and worth making.. The frog Jack develops a crush on is Justin Oluransi. What I want out of Ranskov. Poly Ford/Lardo/Shitty. What kind of antagonist I think Parse will be. Jack's fans learn he likes pie. Jack the edgy Canadian history major. Jack gets a picture of Canadian soldiers playing hockey. AU where Bitty's from Alberta like me. Notes towards a police AU. Kent Parson with ADHD and dyslexia. Jack gets a history article published. Jack begged the Sorting Hat not to put him in Hufflepuff. Kent listening to Welcome to Night Vale music during games. Fact-based thoughts on Jack's alcoholism. Patater is OMGCP fandom’s Draco/Neville. Jack as Bitty's nonathletic French tutor. Parse gives Holster relationship advice re: Ransom. Jack goes skiing the year after his overdose. Tater handles Parse taking some news VERY badly (AO3). Follow up thought on the complexity of being a Parse fan. Fannish Minor Character Obsession Draft Candidates for 2017. Jack Zimmermann is a paper snowflake ho. The Rimroller™. A Jack/Chowder AU. The Zimmermenn. Hall/Murray OTP 4eva. Jack gets a dog. Why Dex looks up to Ransom and Nursey looks up to Holster. Post-apocalyptic Parse/Ransom AU and Part Two. Ransom wants Tater to deadlift him. Patater World Juniors soulmate AU. Bitty writes academic papers about Beyonce. Bitty using Jack’s computer when it’s set to Canadian Multilingual Standard. I think Holster played Juniors in Waterloo, Ontario, not Iowa. Kent and self-injury.Kent's role in bakery AUs. Does Bitty have PTSD?

Stuff I am Done With Right Now But Wish Had Gone Further: the seed of Jack and Ford's friendship. Suzanne and Alicia AU idea. Ford and Bitty watching football. Tater goes to a kegster to romance Ransom (Part Two) (AO3).

The Coach Bittle/Bad Bob AU: Rich knows who Bob is. Bob finds out Rich is a CFL player. Jack who grew up with openly queer retired pro athletes for dads. Jack meeting Kent.

Stuff I Would Like to Come Back to Later: A Ranskov retelling of Yuri on Ice. Bitatomann Bodyswap AU (Part Two). The Gay Island story (more). The Stanley Cup age regression story. A Ransom-on-the-Falconers Ranskov AU. Kent visits Tater's gay moms in Moscow. TATER'S GAY MOMS Y'ALL.

Gay hockey moms (AO3): 1997: George and Suzanne meet again. 1992, 1994, 1997: Suzanne bakes her way into George’s heart. Suzanne confesses her love . Telling Bitty's Moomaw about their relationship. 2002 Olympics: George and Suzanne talk strategy for being gay as they plan to move to the South. How Bitty’s life would have changed in an openly gay family in Georgia. Suzanne Bittle is a cool gay mom. George and Suzanne's weddings. 2013: Bitty tells his moms about his first couple days at Samwell. 2013: Bitty and Jack meet each other’s families at Parents’ Weekend and have a clash of worldviews. 2013: Bitty explains to Shitty how growing up surrounded by pro hockey players has affected his perspective on the sport. George evaluates Jack as a player.

Princess Robinson: Carrie Robinson interviewing Bitty as a babysitter. Bitty and Holsom babysitting Princess.

Andy Scarlatti: The Flemish Giant of puck bunnies. Andy coaching little kids. An easter egg for fans of the TV show Flashpoint. Andy during playoffs. Kent and Andy having sex in 2011. Thoughts on marriage and children. Kent and Andy hooking up when she lives in Minneapolis. A femslash idea between the Falcs and Aces twitter staff. Dealing with Kent's bad days. About Kent and Andy hooking up in 2011. Further thoughts on relationships that take a long time to come to fruition. The All-Star Game Story: The dinner party. Kent wakes up. Andy goes down to breakfast. Andy and Bitty talk. Kent and Andy have a quiet moment. Kent and Jack talk.

Luis and Maida (the original Garden of Succulents): Maida's online life. How Kent met Maida and Luis. Maida's career with wild birds. Kent, Luis and Maida run away together after locker cleanout. Maida and Luis interacting with Andy.

Climb Aboard the Minivan Express (Zimbits Single Dads AU) (AO3): How Bitty ended up with the frogs. Jack being Chowder's hockey coach. Jack babysits so Bitty can go out on a date.

Love Drought (the Bittypoots AU) (AO3): Jack wants to punch Poots in the face. Bitty gets stood up and goes to a gay bar. Jack talks to Kent and Alexei about Bittypoots.

Meta: Conflicting access needs and safe vs safer spaces. Brief position statement on Jack's orientation. Thoughts on being a fandom writer with mental disorders that keep you from writing. The first racism apology. The second racism apology. Thoughts about Shitty abominableobriens added cool thoughts to. Thoughts on queerness and skin hunger. Me and puns. Me and BPD (AO3). If you want to talk to me about racism. More about writing BPD. Facts about Borderline Personality Disorder. A representation callout that went really well. Thoughts about class. Good idea/bad idea: Getting people to write fic you want. Not all relationships in a polycule need to be equal and equivalent.