#but yeah feb 21 i need to remember that so i can celebrate it next year

[acespec-ed]

A Night of Self-Discovery

Thursday, February 21st, 2013. 

That was the day I discovered demisexuality. Like, within the first two hours of that day.

I had joined Tumblr several weeks before then, but wasn’t reblogging anything yet. Just lurking about. And yet I never came across the term “asexual.” Nor “demisexual.” Nor any of the acespec identities.

But gee golly whiz, isn’t Tumblr known for being the website full of special snowflakes with their special, made-up orientations? How could you be on Tumblr for nearly a month and not come across any of that?

Good question. But I bet you have a more pressing question to ask me. If I had not discovered the existence of demisexuals from Tumblr, then where the hell else would I ever come across that term in the year of 2013?

Reddit.

That’s right. Reddit. The site known for incels and anti-SJWs and people complaining about the special snowflakes on Tumblr.

The night of February 20th was no different than any other 2013 night. I don’t remember jack shit about what I did, that’s how insignificant of a night it was. And if anything significant did happen, it left my memory in favor of the significant event that was yet to come when the 20th rolled over to the 21st.

I was scrolling through Reddit, as I often do. And I spotted an eye-catching thread title, from the AskWomen subreddit.

“How often do you see a man and think ‘i’d fuck him?’”

I almost laughed. Women gazing upon a man with the desire to fuck him? What nonsense is this?? Maybe men do that with women. But it’s certainly not the other way around!

Do note that I had a lot of fucked up views about men vs women back then, and those views changed the moment I clicked that link. 

Every comment I came across could be summed up as a “yes.” Women do think about fucking men. Women do want to fuck men. And we’re not talking boyfriends and husbands. Not even friends. Some of these comments were about wanting to fuck random strangers! Some of these women had these thoughts often!

I scrolled through so many comment chains, desperate to find someone, anyone, who could see how irrational these people sounded! Surely I wasn’t the only person who never felt any interest in fucking a stranger? I couldn’t be. Could I?

After what felt like an eternity, I came across a comment that sounded as close to rationality as possible. The person said they didn’t feel attraction until they got to know the man’s personality. Someone responded saying they could be demisexual. Of course, I hopped right onto Google for more information.

And everything clicked.

The sex-repulsion. The lack of interest in wanting a boyfriend. How I cannot fathom the appeal of one night stands. How I could not understand needing sex. Why people seemed to have a hard time keeping it in their pants. Why “dying a virgin” was considered a bad thing, when it was originally part of my life plan. The confusion I felt when I first started developing sexual attraction towards my boyfriend. A weight lifted from my shoulders. A weight I didn’t realize I was even carrying.

Demisexual. I was demisexual. It explained so much. 

I stayed up until 2 in the morning researching all of this. Finally feeling understood in a way I never thought possible.

After much debate, I decided to share this exciting news with my boyfriend, who had long past gone to bed. I sent him a big message about it, summarizing my feelings.

He responded: “Okays! I <3 you!”

I was hoping for a bit more, but was relieved that he was okay and supportive of it.

Since my boyfriend was the only person I was ever sexually attracted to, and I wasn’t sure when exactly that attraction took hold, I eventually decided to call myself gray asexual instead. It’s hard to know how you experience sexual attraction if it’s only happened once. And when the years flew by with him being the only person, I figured I might as well call myself asexual. I related to them more than any other identity anyway. But of course, sexual attraction had to sneak up on me again in December of 2020. So now I’m back to gray asexual. Although I do wonder if I’m demi from time to time, given it has taken time for the sexual attraction to hit. I just don’t feel like I know the person well enough to call it a “bond.” So gray asexual it is!

[news-mashable-yahoopartner-blog]

50 things to be thankful for in 2018

There's no denying 2018 has absolutely tested our patience, but it turns out the year hasn't been complete trash.

Beyond some of the most important aspects of life like your loved ones and your health, 2018 has truly given us a lot of good. From social justice initiatives like Time's Up and March for Our Lives, to pop culture masterpieces like Queer Eye, Mamma Mia 2: Here We Go Again, and "thank u, next," the year had its share of hopeful, joyous, entertaining, and positive moments.

So when times get tough and it feels like there's not much to be happy about in the world, here are 50 things to be thankful for.

SEE ALSO: The internet's best tips for how to be kind on World Kindness Day

1. Time's Up launched. 2018 started off strong with a group of more than 300 women in the entertainment industry coming together to form Time's Up — an initiative dedicated to standing up against sexual harassment.

I stand with women across every industry to say #TIMESUP on abuse, harassment, marginalization and underrepresentation. ⁰@TIMESUPNOW https://t.co/4zd5g2ByU0 pic.twitter.com/0h8ojLOq9U

— kerry washington (@kerrywashington) January 1, 2018

2. Laverne Cox made history on the cover of Cosmo. In January, actress and producer Laverne Cox also made history as the first ever trans covergirl for Cosmopolitan Magazine. Cox graced the cover of Cosmo South Africa's February issue.

3. The Fab Five came into our lives. It may feel like Jonathan Van Ness, Tan France, Karamo Brown, Bobby Berk, and Antoni Porowski have been inspiring us all to eat, dress, groom, self-love, and decorate to the best of our abilities for a lifetime, but Netflix's Queer Eye reboot only premiered in Feb. 2018.

4. Drake's "God's Plan" music video. Remember pre-Meek Mill beef when Drake gave away nearly one million dollars and filmed himself doing all those good deeds like paying for people's groceries? That was nice!

5. The Parkland teens. Though 2018 was full of an unfathomable amount of tragedy and gun violence,  the year also inspired a heartwarming amount of youth activism in America. After the deadly Parkland shooting in February, a group of teen survivors from the Florida high school shooting has consistently stood up to government officials and publicly advocated for gun control.

Parkland teens at March For Our lives rally.

Image: CHIP SOMODEVILLA/GETTY IMAGES

This year alone they've formed March for Our Lives, led school walkouts, inspired others (both young and old) to register to vote and protest gun violence, and even inspired the Obama's to write a heartfelt entry in the Time 100 issue.

6. Mirai Nagasu landed a triple axel. The Winter Olympics also took place this year! There were many standout moments but Mirai Nagasu absolutely slayed, making history by becoming the first U.S. woman to land a triple axel in the Winter Olympics. Thankful we got to witness this moment.

7. Black Panther came out. We were truly blessed this year by the arrival of the record-breaking Marvel's cinematic masterpiece, Black Panther, and the talented actors, fierce as hell soundtrack, and on-screen representation it brought to our world.

8. Jordan Peele's Oscar win. Speaking of movies, Peele's film Get Out won "Best Original Screenplay" this year, making him the first black screenwriter to receive the award.

9. The Super Smash Bros. Ultimate wait is almost over. The highly anticipated video game is set to come out for Nintendo Switch on Dec. 7.

10. Beto O'Rourke. 2018 was the year of Beto, burgers, and a Beyoncé midterms endorsement.

We just want to say thank you to everyone who made this possible. Everyone who made us feel hopeful, everyone who inspired us. Everyone who became the most amazing campaign we could have ever hoped to belong to. Grateful that we got to do this with you. We love you. Goodnight! pic.twitter.com/1j6JnhtP0f

— Beto O'Rourke (@BetoORourke) November 7, 2018

11. A Quiet Place. John Krasinski directed and starred in a horror film alongside his IRL wife that was so quiet and terrifying people were too nervous to eat snacks in theaters. What a time to be alive.

12. Kendrick Lamar won a Pulitzer. Remember when the rapper was awarded the 2018 Pulitzer Prize in Music for his fourth studio album, DAMN? Hell yeah!

13. Beyoncé at Coachella. Beychella was THIS YEAR. We knew she would slay but nothing prepared us for the sheer magnitude of her powerhouse performance, or Destiny's Child, or the movement she inspired.

14. The Royal Wedding. When the world needed a distraction from the bad and an escape from reality, Meghan Markle and Prince Harry were there for us. And for that we thank them.

15. Brooklyn Nine-Nine was saved. For several terrible, horrible, no good, very bad hours Brooklyn Nine-Nine was cancelled. But thankfully, after a whole lot of love from fans, NBC picked it up for a sixth season.

Image: fox

16. Won't You Be My Neighbor reminded us of Mr. Rogers' magic. We needed a heavy dose of Fred Rogers' pure and wholesome goodness to get us through the year and this film did just the trick.

17. Ava DuVernay made history. DuVernay's adaptation of A Wrinkle In Time led her to become the first black woman to direct a film that grossed more than $100 million at the box office.

18. The world is finally taking action against plastic pollution. Plastic straw bans are spreading across the U.S., Canada, and Europe. Businesses like McDonald's and Starbucks are even getting on board the movement. 

19. We still have dogs. No matter how bad things get we still have furry companions to turn to, and play with, and occasionally throw cheese on.

20. Eighth Grade filled us with middle school anxiety. Bo Burnham's Eighth Grade reminded adults how stressful growing up can be and gave teens an emotional look at middle school through a more relatable lens.

Image: a24

21. Crazy Rich Asians was a smashing success. The film dominated box office sales and served as an important milestone for Asian representation in American pop culture. And guess what? It's getting a sequel.

22. Mamma Mia 2: Here We Go Again! Love. Pregnancy. Death. Flashbacks. Dancing. Singing. Abba. Meryl. Cher. Andy García. Help!

23. Nick Jonas and Priyanka Chopra. 2018 has seen the rise (Justin Bieber and Hailey Baldwin) and fall (Ariana and Pete) of celebrity relationships. But through the ups and downs of the year Nick Jonas and Priyanka Chopra's love never seemed to waiver. We're thankful this nice, soon-to-be-wed couple is here to restore our faith in love.

24. LeBron James opened up a school. The NBA star opened his "I Promise" school in Akron, Ohio, to give 240 third and fourth grade students a life-changing educational opportunity.

25. To All The Boys I've Loved Before captured our hearts. Netflix introduced the world to the film adaptation of Jenny Han's young adult book and after Peter Kavinsky's "woah woah woah," our hearts will never be the same. Not to mention it inspired dozens of Lara Jean Halloween costumes.

Image: netflix

26. That quirky, super high-maintenance cat was adopted. Remember Bruno, the thicc, polydactyl cat that Wright Way Rescue Animal Shelter in Morton Grove, Illinois, was trying to find a home? He found one :').

27. A sixgill shark was discovered. This is cool because most sharks have five gills. It's also a reminder that we should be thankful for oceanographers, researchers, and all those who explore the our vast and mysterious oceans.

28. India strikes down gay sex ban. On Sept. 6, members of India's Supreme Court unanimously voted to make the landmark ruling that eliminates the ban on consensual gay sex.

29. Moth memes lit up our lives. The year was filled with good memes but those moth/lamp memes? Pure joy.

30. Amy Sherman-Palladino and all those Emmys. Amy Sherman-Palladino has always been genius. Gilmore Girls? Bun Heads? Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life? It's about time she's properly celebrated, so we're thankful The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel won four Emmys. We are also thankful for her husband, Dan Palladino.

Image: Rich Fury/Getty Images

31. Twitter did one good thing. We have no edit button and there's still bots and harassment a-plenty, but at the very least, Twitter brought back the chronological timeline.

32. Gritty came into our lives. Can anyone even remember a world without the Philadelphia Flyers' new hairy orange mascot?

33. The Office is back ... sort of. While fans of the NBC comedy are still holding out hope for a revival, 2018 treated those nostalgic for the days of Dunder Mifflin to a charming off-broadway musical.

34. Speaking of The Office — be thankful for Steve Carell. He stars with Timothée Chalamet and Amy Ryan (Holly Flax) in Beautiful Boy. He's got Welcome to Marwen coming out, which looks, uh interesting. He's on SNL. And he's making his triumphant return to television!

35. Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper gave us life. A Star Is Born came out this year, along with a kickass soundtrack and some perfect memes. We will never be the same.

36. Fat Bear Week ran our lives for 7 days. Much love to all the fat bears out there who distracted us for an entire week just by living their lives. 

37. This throwback baked potato costume. Halloween costumes are great but this throwback baked potato get-up really made us smile.

38. Thankful for the hot duck in Central Park. We thought we lost him, but he's back again. <3

39. We have a new anthem: "Party For One." How did Carly Rae Jepsen know we were in desperate need of a song to dance in our underwear and eat a large pizza alone to? And the music video! UGH!

40. And there's no musical praise without discussing Ariana Grande. The warrior of 2018, Ariana Grande, has given fans so much love, inspiration, and hope throughout the year. Not to mention, the ultimate independent BOP: "thank u, next."

i’m so ..... fuckin ..... grateful

— Ariana Grande (@ArianaGrande) November 11, 2018

41. BDE came to be. Speaking adjacently of Pete Davidson, for better or worse 2018 also gave us Big Dick Energy and that's something we'll never forget.

42. Netflix still delivers. Netflix has an entertaining social media presence and continues to create quality original shows and movies.

43. There was an increase in voter turnout. 2018 proved Americans are standing up for what they believe in and exercising their right to vote. Voter turnout for midterm elections reached a 50-year high, and young people voted at historic rates.

44. Midterm results showed a refreshing amount of diversity. It was a night of historic firsts — from over 100 women elected to Congress (the highest number ever) to wins for the LGBTQ community and more.

45. The Detective Pikachu trailer looks delightful. Another cute as hell movie to look forward to? Yes please.

46. Cher's Twitter is hilarious. Twitter is sometime awful but not Cher's account. That's always good.

47. All of the books. The world has so many books just waiting to be read — books for when you're mad at the patriarchy, books for hikers, books all about pride. And some great books written this year.

48. All of the great TV shows. Streaming aside, there are dozens of phenomenal shows airing on television this year, like Superstore, The Good Place, This Is Us, Killing Eve, and more.

49. Sports are still a thing! We've got football, we've got soccer, we've got basketball, baseball, hockey, and so many more. Sports bring people together!

50. All the people working to keep others safe, informed, and up-to-date with the news. It's been a tough year for news, mass shootings, and natural disasters, which is why we're thankful for all the hard working journalists, reporters, news anchors, first responders, weather forecasters, and hurricane scientists.

So remember: No matter how bad things may seem there are always some bright spots in the world.

WATCH: Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez makes history as she becomes the youngest woman ever in Congress

[phanemotrash]

2-100 bitch. That's for being sarcastic!

Me? sarcastic? always.2. are you artistic?kinda3. Have you had your first kiss?no4. What is your life goal?to make people smile as much as possible5. Do you have any expieriences with a famous person?nope6. Do you play any sports?nope7. What’s your worst fear?losing all of my friends and family8. Who’s your biggest inspiration?Dan and Phil9. Do you have any cool talents?no10. are you a morning person?if you wake me up before noon I will rip your throat out11. How do you feel about pet names?I love ‘em12. Do you like to read?yes13. Name a list of shows that have changed your life.none14. Do you care about your follower count?no15. What’s the best dream you’ve had?I don’t have a specific best dream, but I think the more innocent and realistic ones are the best (I have a lot of fucked up dreams)16. Have you ever kissed someone of your same gender?see question 317. Do you have any pets?1 pug and 2 black and white cats18. Are you religious?not really19. Are you a people person?when I want to be20. Are you considered popular?hell no21. What is one of your bad habits?spending an entire day on one video game22. What’s something that makes you feel vulnerableidk why, but the only thing is being completely nude. I could be just as comfortable wearing only panties as I would be in a baggy hoodie and jeans, but once my ass is exposed I feel vulnerable and want to cover up23. What would you name your children?idk24. Who’s your celebrity crush?do youtubers count? if so, dan howell. if not, i don’t have one25. What’s your best subject?math26. Dogs or cats?how ‘bout both?27. most used social media besides tumblr?youtube28. best friends name@bitchy-sagittarius29. who does your main family consist ofmy parents and my brother30. Chocolate or sugarchocolate31. have you ever been on a date?no32. Do you like rollercosters?no, I love ‘em33. Can you swim?nope34. What would you do in the event of an apocolypse?find my aunt who knows survival shit 35. Have you struggled with any kind of mental disorderdepression36. Are your parents together?not birth parents, but I don’t consider my birth mom a parent37. What’s your favourite colour?blue38. What country are you from/do you live in?USA39. Favourite singer?don’t have one40. Do you see yourself being famous some day?yes41. Do you like dresses?50% of the time42. Favourite song right now?In The Middle by Dodie Clark43. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?no44. How old were you when you first got your period?1245. Have you ever shot a gun?no, but I wish46. Have you ever done yoga?yes47. Are you a horror girl?only with video games atm48. Are you good at giving advice?yesish49. Tell us a story about your childhood.50. How are you doing today?I’m freaking out on the inside51. Were you a cute kid?hells yes52. Can you dance?yesish53. Is there anything you do that you can’t remember ever not doing?this yoga thing that I have no idea how to describe54. Have you ever dyed your hair?yes (I have dyed black hair atm)55. What colour are your eyes?blue56. What’s your favourite animal?don’t have one57. Have you ever made a huge fool of yourself?every day58. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?yesish59. Do you have good friends?yes60. Are you close with anyone of the lgbtq+ group?yeah61. What’s your favourite class?math62. List all the tv shows you are watching.none atm63. Are you organized?yesish64. What was the last movie you saw? Opinion?already answered this on another post67. Which tv character do you relate to most?none68. What are some things that stand between you and complete happiness?I’d rather not get into this one69. If you received enough money to never need to work again, what would you spend your time doing?watching YouTube70. What would you change about your life if you knew you would never die?become a daredevil71. What would you do differently if you knew that no one was judging you?

nothing

72. If you could start over, what would you do differently?

nothing

73. Would you break the law to save a loved one?

hells yes

74. When was the last time you travelled somewhere new?

when I moved where I live atm (feb 2015)

75. When you think of your home, what immediately comes to mind?

being with my family in Washington

76. What have you done to pursue your dreams lately? How about today?

nothing but tell my parents what I want to do. I’d rather not share why that’s all I’ve done

77. What did you want to be when you were a kid?

singer, model, actress, fashion designer. all in one

78. If you dropped everything to pursue your dreams, what would you be risking?

having a degree to fall back on

79.When did you not speak up, when you know you really should have?

all the goddamn time

80. Describe the next five years of your life, and your plans, in a single sentence

work towards degree while starting a YouTube channel at the same time

81. What would happen if you never wasted another minute of your life, what would that look like?

I would be exhausted all the time

82. If you could live forever, how would you spend eternity?

idk

83. How would you spend a billion dollars?

buy a home, donate most to charity, save some

84. If you could time travel, would you go to the past or the future?

future

85. What motivates you to succeed?

not much

86. What dream that you’ve had has resonated with you the most?

me meeting Dan and Phil after becoming big on YouTube and Dan hates me at first before he realizes that I’m awesome. (would never happen, they would both hate me)

. Would you rather live in the city or the woods? Why?

city. I can’t take the silence in the woods

88. Do you believe in life after death

yes

89. What teacher inspired you the most? How did they?

none

90. What’s your fondest childhood memory?

listening to music in the car when I was really little

91. If you could have dinner with any one person, living or dead, who would they be and why?

i’m not sure

92. What would you have to see to cry tears of joy?

idk

93. What is the hardest lesson you had to learn in life?

to let go of the past

94. What do you think happens after we die?

we become ghosts until we go into our next life

95. What would you do if you would be invisible?

probs go wherever I want

96. What’s something you can’t do no matter how hard you try?

idk

97. Would you want to choose the sex and appearance of your offspring?

no

98. How did your first crush develop?

he was in my class and I thought he was cute

99. Is there a feeling you are trying to ignore? What is it?

no

100. Do you live or do you just exist?

exist

[oheyitsjanna]

1-150

Only because I’m bored at work. 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? -my girlfriend 
2. Are you outgoing or shy? -already answered. 
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? - my nephews! Going to Calgary to see sleeping with sirens then my nephews in feb!
4. Are you easy to get along with? - oh extremely. I’m probably the most easy going person you’ll ever meet. 
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? - yes. She takes care of me when I’m sober. 
6. What kind of people are you attracted to? - answered 
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? - I sure hope so
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? - my nephews hah I love them so much 
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? - nope. Not anymore 
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? - ohhh either my girlfriend or Ashley. 
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? - “okay”
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? - we were here- lights I need to know- sleeping with sirens Consequences- camila cabello Something’s gotta give- camila My house- PVRIS
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? - yes yes yes 
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? - yeah!
15. What good thing happened this summer? - answered 
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? -over and over again 
17. Do you think there is life on other planets? - I do!
18. Do you still talk to your first crush? - nope
19. Do you like bubble baths? - loveeee them. I’m so sore all the time so it helps. 
20. Do you like your neighbors? - yeah for the most part 
21. What are you bad habits? - answered 
22. Where would you like to travel? - honestly everywhere. Right now I really wanna see Cali. 
23. Do you have trust issues? -answered 
24. Favorite part of your daily routine? - going to bed hah
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? - answered 
26. What do you do when you wake up? - that I didn’t have to wake up so early. 
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? - I dunno I guess a bit darker. 
28. Who are you most comfortable around? - my close friends and my better half. 
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? - haven’t had many ex’s tbh so not really 
30. Do you ever want to get married? - yesss
31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? - haha just long enough. 
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? - oh mannnn. Jessica capshaw and shay Mitchell. 
33. Spell your name with your chin. -uqyyq. Hahah that’s a far cry from Janna 😂😂
34. Do you play sports? What sports? - nope not anymore. 
35. Would you rather live without TV or music? - ah that’s a tough one. I guess TV
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? - oh yeah. 
37. What do you say during awkward silences? - well this is awkward 
38. Describe your dream girl/guy? - good sense of humour. Someone I can be weird around but serious when needed. I dunno what else. Just be you. 
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? - answered 
40. What do you want to do after high school? - well I’ve been out of school for 4 years. I wanted to become a social worker/psychologist. That did not happen 😂
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? - answered 
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? - I’m either upset or just tired. 
43. Do you smile at strangers? - always!
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? - bottom of the ocean. Without a doubt. 
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? - realizing that I need money so I should go to work. 
46. What are you paranoid about? - answered. 
47. Have you ever been high? - ha oh yeah
48. Have you ever been drunk? - yes. Sometimes too drunk for my own good. 
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? - nope! 
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? - dark blue 
51. Ever wished you were someone else? - I used to yep 
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? - I guess the way I look 
53. Favourite makeup brand? - I haven’t wore makeup for yearss 
54. Favourite store? - can’t say I have a favourite. I like them all equally. 
55. Favourite blog? - mine ofc. 
56. Favourite colour? - greeeeeen
57. Favourite food? - nachos 
58. Last thing you ate? - meatloaf and potatoes 
59. First thing you ate this morning? - can’t remember if I answered this but eggs and toast. 
60. Ever won a competition? For what? - honestly I can’t remember. Probably not 
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? - nope. Although I did get into shit for shoving a girl face first into the gravel in grade 6. Oops
62. Been arrested? For what? - nope! 
63. Ever been in love? - you betcha 
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? - LOL rather not. It was with a boy in grade 6. Although my first kiss with a girl was actually my current girlfriend rn. We met online and I drove up to see her and I kept saying how it was time for me to go. But I would never leave. I told myself I couldn’t leave until I kissed her but I wouldn’t make the first move. So she did 😂 I’m a chicken shit. 
65. Are you hungry right now? - nah I just ate lunch. 
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? - honestly don’t have many tumblr friends anymore. Just a couple. 
67. Facebook or Twitter? -Facebook 
68. Twitter or Tumblr? -tumblr. I really dislike twitter. 
69. Are you watching tv right now? -nahhh 
70. Names of your bestfriends? - Jay, Eve, Anu, Ashley, Brittney, Tamissa. 
71. Craving something? What? - yes. Junk food but I’m trying to stay away from it. 
72. What colour are your towels? - every damn colour haha
72. How many pillows do you sleep with? - 1
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? - haha ya. I use one as support for my neck 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? - I have boxes and boxes and boxes. 
75. Favourite animal? - I love all animals. 
76. What colour is your underwear? -black 
77. Chocolate or Vanilla? - vanilla 
78. Favourite ice cream flavour? - mint chocolate chip or tiger 
79. What colour shirt are you wearing? - red
80. What colour pants? - black. Gotta love my work uniform 
81. Favourite tv show? - greys anatomy 
82. Favourite movie? - i don’t have favourite one really. Maybe fox and the hound. 
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? - I actually like them both
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? - 21 jump street 
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? - Cady Heron or Mrs. George
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? - Dory 
87. First person you talked to today? - my girlfriend 
88. Last person you talked to today? - my coworker, Tom. 
89. Name a person you hate? - my coworker tom hahahah
90. Name a person you love? - my mom and dad ❤️
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? - everyday I come to work and I see the person I want to punch. 
92. In a fight with someone? - not currently
93. How many sweatpants do you have? - prob 5 
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? - including the ones I gave to tamissa probably 10 but I only wear like 2 
95. Last movie you watched? - frozen 
96. Favourite actress? - I reaaaallly love Jessica capshaw l
97. Favourite actor? - Dave Franco
98. Do you tan a lot? - nah not really 
99. Have any pets? - yup. 3 doggos and 6 outside cats. 
100. How are you feeling? - extremely tired 
101. Do you type fast? - kind of yup
102. Do you regret anything from your past? - answered 
103. Can you spell well? - oh yeah. I’m really bad for correcting my friends spelling and grammar. 
104. Do you miss anyone from your past? - unfortunately I do a lot. 
105. Ever been to a bonfire party? - you betcha 
106. Ever broken someone’s heart? - not that I’m aware of
107. Have you ever been on a horse? - yessss
108. What should you be doing? - working hahah
109. Is something irritating you right now? - not overly 
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? - yup. It sucked. 
111. Do you have trust issues? - yup
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? - honestly I think it was my mom dad and girlfriend. I was leaning against the bathtub, checking out the new shower head I bought and the carpet slipped out from under me and I smashed my ribs on the edge of the tub. 
113. What was your childhood nickname? - boo boo. Or jannaboo
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? -you bet I have!
115. Do you play the Wii? - I do yes 
116. Are you listening to music right now? -negative. 
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? - when I’m sick yes 
118. Do you like Chinese food? - fucking love it. There’s an amazing Chinese place the next town over. It’s the best. 
119. Favourite book? - I really liked its kind of a funny story. 
120. Are you afraid of the dark? -not afraid of the dark, just afraid of what’s in it. 
121. Are you mean? - I can be yes 
122. Is cheating ever okay? - never. 
123. Can you keep white shoes clean? - only for like a week or 2
124. Do you believe in love at first sight? - yes
125. Do you believe in true love? - yes
126. Are you currently bored? - I am. It’s extremely slow at work today. 
127. What makes you happy? - my girlfriend, dogs, family and obvi food. I get real hangry if I don’t eat. 
128. Would you change your name? - nope I like it!
129. What your zodiac sign? - cancer 
130. Do you like subway? - I love subway. 
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? - yolo I like girls. 
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? - I think this is on here twice. Either my girlfriend or Ashley. 
133. Favourite lyrics right now? - no reason to stay is a good reason to go. 
134. Can you count to one million? - probably but I wouldn’t attempt it. 
135. Dumbest lie you ever told? - i can’t even remember 
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? - well if I had a door, closed. The whole upstairs part of my house is mine haha
137. How tall are you? - 5’7”
138. Curly or Straight hair? - answered 
139. Brunette or Blonde? - answered
140. Summer or Winter? - ahhh I like winter because it’s fun to quad in. But summer I like the warmth and I can still take the quad through mud. 
141. Night or Day? - day. I’m not a night person anymore. 
142. Favourite month? - July
143. Are you a vegetarian? -nope
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? - dark
145. Tea or Coffee? - both. I’ve been on a tea kick lately. 
146. Was today a good day? - yeah it’s been okay. 
147. Mars or Snickers? - snickers 
148. What’s your favourite quote? - you miss 100 percent of the shots you don’t take. 
149. Do you believe in ghosts? - you bet I do. 
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? - “SECTION IV- TOXICOLOGICAL PROPERTIES OF PRODUCT”

[purplesurveys]

159

What is your name and how old are you? Hi there, I’m Robyn and I’m 19.

Do you talk on the phone a lot? What kind of phone do you have? I talk to my girlfriend on the phone a lot but it’s just her. I get anxious with anybody else. I have an iPhone 5s.

Is your house ever creepy? What does it do? No, it’s a 9 year old house so not ancient enough to be creepy. And as far as I know no one has died on this lot so.

Who’s your favorite rapper? And your favorite song by this rapper? Not really the person you should turn to when talking about rap...

How about your favorite band? And your favorite song by this band? Paramore has always been the one to win that title - my favorite is either is Turn it Off or Pool.

Did you do any drugs this past weekend? Which ones? Nope.

Are you hungry? Why don’t you eat something? I am, actually. My stomach’s been growly and upset since I woke from my nap. Idk, maybe a little later.

Do you have any cousins that you’re jealous of? Why? No, although there’s the slightest tinge of envy for my cousins who get attention and trips to the mall from one of my uncles, which I don’t understand because I’m his goddaughter?????? He’s never taken me out so yeah makes me be like ‘aww man’ sometimes. But again it doesn’t affect me in the slightest, I know I’d be super awkward anyway. 

What year will you be/were you a senior in high school? I was a senior from 2015-2016. 

Have you ever broken up with someone and then regretted it later? Well I’ve never broken up with anybody so this doesn’t apply to me.

Has anyone ever made a promise to you that they’d change? Who? Gabie sometimes says that and I have to scold her when she does. Why change?

Do you have an online blog? What do you write about in there? You’re kind of in one right now, if you’re reading this. I talk about whatever a survey asks of me.

Do you know anyone that has a multiple personality disorder? Not personally.

Have you read anything educational today? What was it? Yes, I had readings in Filipino that I had to go through.

Do you watch more of the Discovery channel, or MTV? Or neither? Neither.

Have you ever had the cops called on you? For what? No, I’ve never been that big of a troublemaker.

Do you hate your last name? Do you want to get married so you can change it? I don’t hate my last name, but I just think it’s nothing special. I like my maiden name (mom’s last name before she got married) better since that’s the one with history and prestige - I have lots of family on that side who have done a lot in Philippine history. My maiden name is Andal and people are always like “Oh you’re an Andal” as opposed to my actual last name which doesn’t raise any reactions at all. Yes, I do want to get married so I can change it, if the law permits it by then. Gabie’s part of an important clan as well so yeah I guess that’s a partial reason why I’m running after their name hah. 

Did you wake up to an alarm clock this morning? What time? No, I woke up naturally today.

How old is your favorite teacher? She turns 46 this year.

What’s the background picture on your phone? Do you change it a lot? My home screen is a photo of Gab holding up a plate of pasta. I don’t change it often, only when I feel like I’ve had a particular background for too long. 

Would you rather be home alone, or have people with you? Why? Home alone, because I don’t like the people I have to live with.

Do you live near a highway? Can you hear the traffic at night? No, we’re in a gated village so never any audible traffic. It makes me feel lonely, and I wish I lived closer to the city center so that it’s more busy.

Have you ever dropped a class in school? Which class, and why did it suck? No, I’m too scared to know what happens if I do it hahaha. Might as well just take a class and suck it up. Besides, a semester is only four months long.

Are you a MAC or a PC? I’m a person that uses a Mac.

Has the snow melted away in your yard? Did it even snow in the first place? I’ve never experienced snow.

Have you ever taken someone back, who ended up just hurting you again? Yeah that was the case with Marielle, who was a friend in elementary school. Carley didn’t necessarily hurt me, but she was an internet friend who was close to me but deleted for a long time, then came back briefly, then disappeared, then came back to me again, so on and so forth. She expected to be our friendship to be the same every time she revived her Twitter, which I didn’t understand. She was literally gone for months and I didn’t know why she thought nothing would change - in the end I wasn’t hurt, it was more like indifferent detachment.

Music is playing right now, isn’t it? What song? No, it’s not.

How many cell phones have you gone through in your life? 6 or 7.

Do you have a little sister? What’s her name? Yes, Nina.

Do you need spellcheck in order to spell things correctly? Nope.

What was the last thing you printed? Is there even ink in your printer? We haven’t bought new ink for our printer for years, so I have stuff printed at computer shops. The last time I did I printed some stuff I needed for homework.

Do you go to concerts? What was the last one you attended? Just a few, since ticket prices here are outrageous. Last act I saw was Coldplay, although we didn’t technically enter the concert as we watched them from the top floor of a parking lot.

Do you shop online? With your own credit card, or someone else’s? No I don’t. I don’t have a credit card, and my parents don’t give me theirs. 

Who’s your best friend? How long have you known each other? I’ve known Angela since 2005 and Gabie since 2012, although I’ve known her since 2002 and even had a premonition about her when I was 4. That’s a story for another question, though.

Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? Why did you break up? Gabie. We’re together now, but we also had to break up before because she changed very briefly in our last year of high school and I wasn’t going to stick around for that.

Have you ever gotten your nails done? Or do you get them done regularly? Never. I’d never pay anyone to meddle with any part of my body unless they were a doctor, dentist or hairdresser tbh.

Have you been outside yet today? What were you doing? Nope. Been home all day.

Do you have or want any tattoos? Of what? I wanted one but that desire is long gone now. 

Do you remember the first time you ever drove a car? Who were you with? Yes, it had been in our old Mitsubishi then and I was terrible. I was with both of my parents.

Do any of your friends drink excess amounts of alcohol? Do you? Ohhh they sure do. Gab in particular can finish up a bottle of Cuervo and act like nothing happened. Girl’s got a steel liver, that’s why my guy friends love drinking with her hahaha.

How many pairs of shoes do you have? Are they under your bed? I own more than ten but only regularly use like five. They’re in a shoe rack downstairs.

What exactly is under your bed? Is it a mess? Three containers that have old magazines and old fandom stuff in them. They’re organized neatly under my bed.

Have you ever been in handcuffs? Why, exactly? Nope.

Have you ever had to be put to sleep at a hospital? Why? Never.

Do you actually have a calendar on your wall? What are the pictures of? No I’ve never had a calendar up in my room. My phone already has one. 

When are you planning on moving out of your parents’ house? Once I’ve saved enough, so I’m guessing when I’m 21 or 22.

Tell me about your day today. I studied from morning to early afternoon, then had a depressive breakdown and cried, napped for four hours, and now I’m doing surveys.

Have you ever been on a cruise? How many? Where did they go? Yes, once. I went to China, Japan, and Korea.

What was the last thing you purchased for yourself? Dinner - chicken piccata with garlic spaghetti. It was nice but some of the chicken was raw :///

What was the last thing you purchased for someone else? I got food for Gabie’s sisters since I was visiting at their place, but apparently her dad had some of it too so that’s awesome hahaha. I got them Pocky and this other snack called Choco Baby which are basically chocolate pellets.

Do you have a favorite author? Ambeth Ocampo. I don’t read fiction.

How about a favorite book? ^ Anything by that man.

Do you have a significant other? Yes.

Have you taken your Christmas tree down yet? No but we’re planning to next month. It’s the Philippines - we celebrate Christmas as early as September. 

When was the last time you took a shower? Yesterday. <

Is any part of you sore right now? My butt, kind of.

Do you have any clothes that are uncomfortable, but you wear them anyway? Yes lots.

How many people are currently in your home? Three plus a dog. < Same, but put a cat in the mix too. 

Is green your favorite color? I hate green.

What kind of music do you mostly listen to? There isn’t one kind that’s over the others as it’s different each time.

Have you ever fallen asleep laying on your boyfriend/girlfriend? Yep.

What was the last vacation you went on? Vigan!

When’s the next time you’re going on vacation? Whenever my dad’s coming home again, which is probably Jan or Feb. 

How tall are you? Nope. I’m even smaller than both of my siblings.

Do you drink coffee? Not so much these days.