#buy health plan

[novathesheltie]

I don’t think I mentioned it here but…Koa is also making the big move across the pond and coming to France in December!!

[bloodrock-lobster]

im going to go to my first monthly meeting for transgender folks in the area tomorrow and im

i know im nOT THE BEST AT TALKING, but god i HOPE.. IT GOES WELL.. i need some sense of community because i dont think ill continue to survive talking exclusively to cis straight religious appalachian country folks every fucking day if i dont catch my breath soon holy shit

[puff-the-bunny]

Who let me do this. I spent like two hours gluing fake leather to shoes earlier.

[jasontoddiefor]

brains need to stop

[lemonpeter]

Also if you follow me and want to support me as a sworker uhhhhhhhh im _peachyiris_ on x or decadentlavender on fansly okay bye 💕

[toviolet]

how to keep house while drowning by KC Davis

gdrive link to the epub here!

this is a book by a therapist on about how to change your view on care tasks/upkeeping your house and physical environment

it focuses a lot on being compassionate towards yourself, explores how shame can be really counterproductive especially in home/self care tasks like laundry, dishes, brushing teeth etc. and gives very cool ideas on how to change the way you do them to make it easier on yourself :)

contents page below the cut so you can see if anything interests you 👍

[imwritesometimes]

I have bad cramps and a migraine that's been trying to kill me all day and nausea and I was up all night in a horrific depresh spiral but I still cleaned the fck house and washed all the produce I want 10 million USD$

[pondscummy]

the "also sick" comment isn't like "btw I'm SICK, how dare you not know" it's me saying I'm sick like how 2/3 of my roommates are

but like I'm so;;;; it feels so rich that L is like wtf do you want from me about me not replying for 45 minutes when I had to beg his gf over hours and hours of texts every so often to not force me to sit in unwiped shit after my surgery bc she had openly told me she just didn't rly feel like setting up the attachable bidet after telling me for weeks she would, and I never ever got a reply from her or L ever acknowledging that they were wide awake hanging out and laughing while I was like stuck in bed barely able to move begging for follow through on a commitment they made in advance and i eventually had to spend over $100 to hire someone to come out the next day and do it for me and I had to hold my shit for hours lmfao

like L is sooooo great at couching things in flawless tumblr wellness speak but only to talk about how valid they are for not showing up for you and how fucked up it is that you MIGHT ever have a moment where you can't be 100% there w them. like idk what to tell you I've been laying in bed with a sore throat and cough and fever passing out and waking up to roll over in buckets of sweat like the rest of the house. I do genuinely get being annoyed by a lack of response but it's also right back to this whole thing about Always assuming I'm mad at them which is legit one of the only things that actually makes me mad fjdkddhk like bro I do not THINK about you when you're not acting like I'm a bomb about to blow (also, as an aside -- we all take turns buying TP and it's usually me who does it like it's not out of pocket for me to say hey you are the One person who is out of the house already rn, can you get this on your way bc None of the bathrooms have back up rolls and one is totally out and I had to text our sickest roommate telling her to use the bidet and drip dry like.... "am I the first person you asked" yes bc you are the person who makes the most sense dumbfuck. I'm not being "overly needy" toward you or whatever jfc)

they literally told me at one point that the reason they're so scared of me is that my face is "triggering" for them when I'm angry or not feeling good and puts them "back in a really bad place" they have seen my face angry literally 3 times and each time it was on my way back to my room to decompress and each time I said nothing to them other than that I was in a bad mood and I was going to go to my room. I didn't yell either I just said it normal. like I genuinely feel gaslit here like I'm this horrifying monster of a man when it's like dude sometimes people are mad I don't know what YOU want from ME!! I do all my venting here where they can't ever see it even tho we've blocked each other, I censor their name like anyone even knows who they are, I isolate to chill out and it's literally been less than a handful of times like should I fling myself from the roof??????? would that fix it???

I literally know it's bc I'm a man too. none of this was like this until my facial hair came in more and it got crazy worse after I got top surgery and they're so so vocal about how much they despise men and think men should all fuck off and die and there's only a handful of acceptable men that they've personally vetted. despite them pretty clearly having a trans woman fetish bc they only date or look at porn of trans women and they do the whole step on me mommy thing about it even tho their gf has complained like. lmfao you're just a baby te//rf even tho you ID as trans masc yourself. like that's all this even is. I'm a big (5'3") scary (spent the whole weekend w my coworkers asking if I was 12) man who's obviously going to snap and kill you all bc sometimes I *checks writing on hand* get frustrated and go lay down about it

[nerdie-faerie]

Just me and my bowl of trick or treat sweets against my annual mental health spiral

[altruistic-meme]

yay we love adding an additional 15 stressors to an already stressed tf out person like yayyy whoopee that sure is fun :)

[f-imaginings]

I feel like life is just periods of pretending you're not bone deep tired and then occasionally succumbing to the reality of the fact that you are always bone deep tired.

[jedi-bird]

Books and plushies have all been put back. Started chicken curry for dinner because I figured I would hurt too much to want to cook later (the one smart thing I've done lately lol). Ham has been picked up and I've been conscripted to cook it for family Christmas dinner, as well as my apple cranberry crumble. My foot is throbbing right now from dropping the shelf on it. Pretty sure nothings broken but it's going to be lovely shades of purple and green starting tomorrow. I'm also trying to talk myself out of buying some crochet patterns and starting a jedi costume for myself with them. I think I'm going to lose.

[jeezypetes]

Ahhhh the job I thought i didn’t get bc they never got back to me after my interview (which I thought went really well) just reached out to me bc apparently the person they tried to hire backed out.,.. and now its gonna be like another month of wondering if I’m gonna have to decide if I want to move to another state where I don’t know anyone. And i was kind of relieved when i never heard back bc I’m really happy here with my family and gf and friends but the fact is my job here is a contract with very slim hopes of developing into a real job with benefits and i live with my parents bc i love them and our house and our town but i know i have to seriously consider this opportunity bc it would be a good career move and i want to live a rich and interesting life. But I don’t want to talk about it with anyone irl because my dad has covid which has been my number 1 fear since the start of the pandemic (he’s 71 and immunocompromised but he’s doing well and not needed the hospital) and I just want to be able to only worry about that I can’t even talk about the job thing which i drove myself and everyone around me crazy with already back in October. Which is why I’m just posting it vjfdhk I’m being tormented by forces beyond my control i feel like this is the sort of thing it would be really helpful to believe in God about

[dashnite]

If I may speak candidly about my mental issues… 🥰 Just wanted to say, as a bipolar, how fuckin nice it feels to be back on medication. I was manic/depressive for so long before asking for help on Tumblr, and y’all absolutely delivered.

I know bipolars are known for getting out of meds of their own accord to experience mania (which I get, it’s an explosion of energy but it’s not healthy for your body or your mind), but I’m the opposite. I’m the happiest/most productive when I’m on my meds.

Which is a hella long winded way to say thank you for helping me with my medication 💖

[latinokaeya-moving]

you know. i wouldnt get so privately frustrated everytime i talk with my mum abt me and my brother paying ‘rent’/helping out w food or bills once we both have full time jobs if she at least had the decency to admit she just wants to use the money to pay off her and my dads debts quicker

[dhampir-dyke]

I have literally been saving money since I first got a job at 16 towards buying a house one day. Ive literally worked OVER full time since then, Hardee's, McDonald's, a nursing home, and now the hospital. I put in 6 days in a row, 12+ hr shifts some weeks, and nearly all of it goes to my savings. I've been trying to spend a little on stuff just for me, to enjoy my 20s a little, but all in all, everything I do is for a house and a little bit of land. I'm hoping that by the time I finally get there, I'll have my own little family to share it with.