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[bwompbomp]

Marry me?

intro - in a moment of your pyrexia, you mutter a string of words that makes his non-existent heart thud happily in his chest, or basically, you caught a fever, and you say some words accidentally in your feverish stupor. (or was it really accidental?)

character - wanderer x reader

genre - disgustingly sweet fluff

warnings - gn! reader, (1.5k wc) wanderer will be referred to as 'Sacchi', a nickname inspired by nahida's name (or nickname?) for wanderer, "Kasacchi", but he's also referred with an endearment 'darling', mild cursing??

home

releasing a groan, you scrunched your nose while facing the ceiling. the ache from your throat is becoming more evident as time passed by, its become to the point you can no longer avoid it. you tried to sigh, but a cough escaped out of your mouth instead, making you frown. you hate this. did you have to get sick at your hell week aka exam week??

but of course you just had to. albeit you tried to ignore it yesterday morning by continuing your study session, it seemed like your cold responded with a firm 'no' as it forced you to sleep the remaining day with a fever. your head was spinning, but all that was on your mind was how unprepared you were for the exams that were coming real soon. it was already dawn, and you forced yourself to get up with what little of a strength that was remaining in your system.

"....ugh.."

always comes with a challenge though. fighting back the urge to vomit, you support yourself using the walls of your room to at least get something to eat. carefully treading to the door, your nose catches a waft of something that made your stomach instantly churn. you blink.

wait, is he home? but.. i thought he was still busy with his reports?

twisting the doorknob open, your tired eyes fixate on the kitchen where you find your roommate (and your boyfriend, you think...) wearing a cute pink apron with a text saying 'kiss the cook!'. you blink at how adorable he looks and how the frilly apron suited him. he turns to the direction of the sound of the door opening, but you couldn't quite make out what was the expression that was sitting on his cute face. once he found you in your dishevelled state, you hear him click his tongue before walking towards your direction with a spatula on one hand. what a perfect malewife.

"hm. finally up? quite the sleepyhead you are in afternoons huh." he remarks, his indigo eyes glossing you over. you replied with a hum and immediately pulled him close to you in a hug. resting your head on his shoulder, you sighed, smiling woozily. his lack of temperature contrasting yours made it a lot comfier to snuggle him. on a normal occasion, he would've called you clingy while snuggling you close too, missing the way your warmth makes up for what he lacks, but he flinches instead. "wait, you're awfully hot today.."

"why thank you, darling ♡." you smiled sweetly at the sight of him rolling his eyes at your joke. putting a hand on your forehead, his face morphs into distaste at the temperature your body is in. he was gone for one day and a night and you had the nerve to get sick? he squished your cheeks using his hands, forcing you to face him and look at his displeased eyes, and for your arms to let go of his body. you whine, the comfort of hugging him and being hugged by him now disappearing.

"shush, your temperature is high and i don't like it." he squints his eyes on you, scrutinising the expression on your face and the state your body is in. leading you to sit on the couch, he asks your patience as he's cooking both of your dinners up, and a lot more other things you couldn't focus enough to hear since your head was spinning. you only hummed in response and grabbed a nearby pillow to rest your head on.

your nose still catching the whiff of a pleasant smell, your tired eyes slowly closed itself as you hear pots and pans clunking at the kitchen. you smiled to yourself, he was so cute. if you had the strength, you were definitely showering him with love with just how lovable he is despite his denials, compliments with how endearing his actions are for you, and kisses with how grateful you are for him. archons, he's just so...

slump.. thud!

"y/n...?" hearing a soft thump in the living area, wanderer heads to the couch with concern latching in his expression. "goodness, y/n?! you..." he trailed off, watching your body shivering from the cold and your expression wincing from the pain.. of falling to the floor. he frowns immediately, lifting your body to a more comfortable position on the couch, putting pillows on your nape and under your head to cushion you. he takes a second to massage your forehead and his frown eases up once he hears your satisfied sighs.

he smiles, his expression slowly changing to fondness as he grabs his blanket and drapes it on your sick form, hoping that your cold isn't that serious.

"hold on.." he rushes to the kitchen, quickly chopping the vegetables needed for the soup he was making. seeing you in that state triggers something in him, something he doesn't want to recall. he shakes his thoughts away, focusing on making the soup. he swiftly gets his job done, occasionally glancing over to your direction and checking if you're stupid enough to fall to the floor twice.

well, you are stupid. for becoming sick. and making him worried.

no, he's not worried, that's what he tells himself, but the way he quickly stirs the pot full of the soup and the way he glances at your form sleeping on the couch to check your condition proves him wrong. he knows it's stupid. humans are fragile, way too fragile for their own good, yet annoyingly stubborn in ways he can't even begin to understand.

unfortunately, his human is also one of the many who behaves like so, which never fails to crease his eyebrows and shake his head in disappointment. such is the way of idiocy, he muses.

'and yet you gave them your heart', he can hear that annoying archon comment with interest and faux mockery, to which he'd only reply with a scoff, 'have you forgotten my origins? i don't have that annoying, beating thing that humans have in their chest.'

but if he did, he thinks about giving you of what remains of it.

putting the fire off and serving a portion in a bowl, he serves the soup on the table, his eyes squinting in annoyance at how pinkish your nose is, and how your expression screams the pains of a sick person.

he knows it's stupid. it's just a stupid fever. caught by a stupid human who's stupid enough to not take care of themself, and the end result is now a stupid human who's sick.

but his earliest memories of the past involving humans who also fell into sickness aren't pleasant, not to mention how this stupid (and adorable) human is too close to his heart for him not to take care of. he sighs in mild annoyance, brushing the hair off of your forehead. "hey." he whispers, his tone softening slightly without him realising. "the food's ready."

you only groan weakly, the lights in the ceiling flaring at your vision once you peer your eyes open, not helping your condition. archons, your head hurts and you feel too hot. "hot..." you whisper with a rasped voice, leaning onto his shoulder as he slowly helps you up to a seated position. he murmurs an "i know.", reminding himself to get a bowl of water and a piece of cloth to wipe you with later.

after an ample amount of effort, you've managed to finish half-way through the bowl of soup. helping you drink your medicine with a glass of water, you sigh in content, releasing a small burp. he smirks at that, letting you rest your head on the crook of his neck. this stupid human.. letting down their guard on a former harbringer no less.. and if he decided he had had enough with your stupidity and took advantage of you right now??

"..sacchi.." your small voice takes him out of his thoughts and he instantly focuses on what you're attempting to say, leaning his head low to get closer. "..you.."

"..i love you.." you whisper, a small smile gracing your mouth. even if your voice is weak and small, you know he's listening. you just know he is. your heart beats in content, your fingers slightly tightening on his shirt.

"..wanna marry you... you're such.. a malewife.."

then you fall to your slumber completely, your whispers instead replaced with the rhythmic sound of your breaths. but for some reason, that's not what the wanderer hears. for some reason, he hears an annoying *thump, thump, thump* ringing on his ears, with his face turning hot.. too hot for his liking..

he scoffs quietly, eyebrows scrunched in what seems to be a displeased expression, but the way his mouth tugs up to form a small smile betrays him so. archons forbid someone giving him a mirror, for he himself doesn't even realise the stupid grin slowly forming on his mouth and the way his eyes softened at your words.

'i love you too, stupid human.'

he made damn sure you didn't hear that though. (you did.)

a/n - wrote this as an idea in my drafts & then i actually get sick w a fever. its like i manifested it, lmao

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[bwompbomp]

Friends?

intro - love, a feeling so complex that it can't be fully expressed in words. with something so beautiful, so strong, comes with its equal ugliness and weakness. for example, when you're heartbroken.

character - gn! reader x male charac? wrote this w. no one in mind so it can be anyone u imagine!

genre - angst :3

warnings - not my forte, so bear w. me if it isn't angsty enough :c, unspoken love shi, miscommunication/misunderstanding typabeat.

home

rejection is something that is usually feared at by the most, whether in society, in job interviews, or even.. love confessions. afraid of heartbreak and the events transpiring after such an awkward and possibly heartbreaking moment, you choose to hide yourself in the guise of a friendly facade, approaching him with the reason of 'becoming friends!'.

'selfish.' your head would whisper to you in moments where you're left for your overthinking to swallow you whole. 'approaching someone with a hidden agenda is as good as tricking them.'

but is it so bad you want to be closer? to be with him a little longer, to spend time and make memories, even if he didn't see you the way you see him?

is it really that bad that you were just a little hopeful, thinking that if you started small, even as friends, it'd eventually grow to something more? something more beautiful, more lovelier and more.. wonderful?

is it really so selfish of you to wish for more memories to lose yourself in your daydreams? more time to spend with him that'll maybe, possibly, make him change his mind and see a possibility of something else?

but as you watch him talk to them, the way he would look at thrm in such.. tenderness as he listened carefully to what they'd say, finding the gentleness odd, feeling it tug at your heartstrings as you watch him treat them in a different level, a level you doubt would be something you'd ever feel.

'oh.' you whisper, feeling that familiar, clenching feeling that's on your chest, that familiar lump forming on your throat as the urge to cry strengthens. you smile, immediately forcing yourself to look away, face away, turn away, go away.

'what'd you expect?' you smile to yourself, your footsteps trudging the roads as your legs take you somewhere, anywhere but that sight. you can feel your lips trembling, the negative thoughts starting to plague your mind and overshadow any positive ones. 'why did you dare hope?? why bother trying, when you couldn't even compare-'

"y/n!"

you stop at your absent-minded tracks at that familiar voice. not finding the strength in yourself to turn around and for him to see the possible signs of distress you were just in, you bit your trembling lips and sucked in a quiet inhale. "..yeah?"

"where were you going?" he says, his steps coming closer to your direction. you frowned at the realisation, before discreetly wiping any unshed tears and stretching your lips to a questioning grin as you turned to him, presenting the friendly mask that you always, always hid yourself in.

"what do you mean? didn't i tell you i'd go home early for today?"

"you did?" you didn't. "yeah. need some homework and other school shit due today." you feigned a dramatic sigh, your eyes catching the stare he gave you as he slowly walked closer. "oh.. did you need some help with them again?" he offers.

"no. i'm fine." you forced yourself to grin, a resigned smile slipping between the cracks of your facade. "wouldn't wanna ruin a possible set-up with you-know-who. don't you know how I absolutely detest being a third wheel?"

he blushes in response, a quiet reply that says all you need to know, answers all the questions you had and shutting down the hope you had in your foolish heart. he stammers a weak refusal, but the way he easily crumbles to his embarrassment refutes the words he mutters. you giggle, the action leaving a bitter taste in your tongue as you play along the 'good, supporting friend'.

"..go."

and off he goes, bidding you goodbye. he smiles at you, a sight for your sore eyes, your heart thudding painfully in your chest as you got reminded of your situation. with his receding figure running off to them, you slowly continue your venture to god knows where.

foolish, is it not? approaching him with the intentions of becoming more, spending more time with him as you hoped that there would be a flick, or a switch, something, that'll tug at his heart, to at least reciprocate a fraction of the feelings weighing in the deepest parts of your heart..

..only for it to be the shackles that'd bound you to your unfortunate position, a big, dangling sign labelled 'a good friend' hanging in your neck, like a collar bound to its tie.

ironic, really, that you'd dare hope for something more, when you're the one who immediately set the boundaries of possibilities your relationship could go. immediately telling him that you'd want to be a good friend, you set up walls, borders that you find to be a safe place, a comfort for your weary heart who desires him so, so much, only for it to be the very obstacle, chaining yourself to the label that is 'a good friend'.

if only you noticed the ways he would look at you before, when you weren't paying attention. if only you noticed the way he'd hide his giddy smile as you introduced yourself to him.

if only you noticed the heartbreak in his eyes as you professed your desire to be his.. good friend.

a/n - *sobs, don't you just hate it when the charac is unfortunately stuck in a situation where they can't do shit, only for you to realise they dug up their own grave? yikes.

dropping this here because I suddenly felt angsty. did it make you cry? hope so ♡ jk

likes n reblogs r vv much appreciated! hope u had a good read, remember to eat n drink ur shitt ♡

[bwompbomp]

Diffidence

summary - the act of being modest in resulting to a lack of self-confidence. something we all feel one day, deal with, be ashamed of, and try to erase, but you haven't exactly erased it just yet, or at all. as you maneuver towards your last steps of being a high school student, you juggle your internal affairs with your school cases, as well as....love affairs?!

characters - Zhongli, Childe, Scaramouche, Diluc, Albedo, Thoma, Xingqiu, Ayato, x reader (gender neutral, separate)

genre - mainly fluff (some may have a sprinkle of angst)

warnings - cursing, modern/school AU, super super long read, insecurity issues, toxic tendencies

a/n - there's no set schedule for the posts, bear with me, college is stressful and draining af. y/n here has a friend that's a girl, she's occasionally mentioned in some parts. also inspired by tumblr user @/xiaowhore's "yours truly"

Characters:

➸ Zhongli : ❝ Trial of Emotions ❞

➸ Childe : ❝ Wisps of Memories ❞

➸ Scaramouche : ❝ Practice of Resilience ❞

➸ Diluc : ❝ Promises of Paradise ❞

➸ Albedo : ❝ Study of Hearts ❞

➸ Thoma : ❝ Waltz of Affection ❞

➸ Xingqiu : ❝ Perceptions of Passion ❞

➸ Ayato : ❝ Whispers of Flower Petals ❞

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[bwompbomp]

Diffidence

" i like you, but don't like me. "

intro - absurd. absurd how some people just have it all. looks, brains, who wouldn't want to approach and befriend someone like that? who wouldn't want to stick close, get to know them more since they have such a friendly smile that lures you closer?

character - Zhongli x reader

genre - fluff (angst if u squint)

warnings - cursing, insecurity issues, long-ish read? (2.8k wc), toxic tendencies, gn!reader

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it's always that time of the year.

chocolates, flowers, gifts, poems, and many more others wrapped with careful hands and gifted with unspoken feelings. you get to see them being given around, or being shown off to their peers like a once-in-a-blue-moon trophy.

several confessions being blurted in the corners of the campus, and couples happily spending their time with each other, basking on the love that they share. they're practically everywhere, its beginning to feel like an eyesore everytime they mind their own business and hold hands within their own world, hushing words of burning passion that it's quite the irony your ears still manage to pick it up.

it further screams that this special day is Valentines with the school organizing love-related events, along with all the pink ribbons decorated across the campus, surrounded by a masquerade of hearts and kisses.

with this kind of atmosphere, you'll be reeled in to mutter your own confessions, no?

your face deadpans at your thoughts. 'absolutely not. what are you even going to confess, your sins?'

'where are your friends anyway?'

'oh sorry. friend.'

so you text her, your only friend (for now!!!), asking her where in the devil she's supposed to be since you two agreed to meet at 3.

(its actually because the atmosphere was suffocating you with the smell of the sweetness ranging from chocolates to their mouths muttering words like honey and sugar.)

it's just, a little bit annoying to have couples in every nook and cranny of the school like it's some trend.

then again, it kinda is.

it is that time of the year.

deciding to head to the library for your free time, where you know was a place that is certainly quiet, you opened the doors carefully and breathed a sigh of satisfaction once doing a glance-over inside. seeing that at least people here weren't making kissy faces, you made your way towards an empty table, muttering an 'excuse me' to a tall figure picking a book on your side of the table while hurriedly rummaging through your bag.

*thud*

you closed your eyes when you felt an ache and a tear escape your eye. smiling, you glanced to the towering fellow, who you just passed by. he who trailed his eyes towards the book, which was now on the floor, and he who dropped to his knees to grab the fallen book, gaze never leaving the object that he dropped from failing to hold said object properly. he didn't even acknowledge you.

did..did he maybe not notice? you reasoned with yourself to try and understand him. maybe..maybe the book he was gonna read was as heavy as dumbbells? or maybe his grip is just that weak? you rub the spot that was aching on your head while smiling. you face at the man with your beam, at least expecting an apology from your poor head who had to suffer a fall from such a thick book. what even, is that an encyclopedia or something??

the man in a black long-sleeved polo sighs with relief once successfully obtaining his book. though, with your intense stare, he finds his eyes brushing past you and your uh, smile, yet he averts quickly, intent on avoiding from conversing right now. your smile grows wider.

going back on where he originally was with book in hand, you presume his seat, you gripped your bag tightly, feeling your stomach do flips. it's just going to be a talk! surely's hes not a bully and will just say sorry, right? you purse your lips. you made your way slowly to his direction and you cant help but panic internally. should you really bother a stranger because they didnt apologize? your brain says so, but..

perhaps it was because due to you making a slugging beeline towards his table that he turns his head to you, asking you what's wrong. you muttered 10 curses at once, coming out as a whole bunch of gibberish before praying that he didnt hear anything of that (he did) and straightened yourself up.

you blinked, noticing that he looks hot. wow. incredibly hot. his golden amber eyes contrasted his dark casual fashion, complimenting his whole refined gentleman look. not to mention his glasses adding more to his charm? damn, you felt a little intimidated by his sexy aura that you had to gulp, reminding yourself why you're in front of him in the first place.

if this was fate pulling its strings on a romance novel, you would've stared a bit longer, admiring his good looks with a blush. batting your eyelashes like an idiot, you look at him bashfully, with flowers suddenly blooming and the wind making an extravagant entrance on the scene. with sparkling eyes, you tuck a strand of your hair behind your ear, coyly shimmering closer towards his direction...

but it isn't.

you sucked in a breath, slapping yourself to reality while he stared at you suddenly halting your movements once you made contact with his picturesque face. with an embarrassed smile, you pointed towards his gloved hand holding the book. "hey! i don't know if you noticed, but that book you're holding fell on top of my head earlier." you tell him, your smile never vanishing from your face.

it took almost all your dignity when he just stood there, staring at you. this would've been a fierce battle of a staring contest and you would've taken this more seriously, as a proper challenge, had it not been that you two are strangers. this hurts, is this his payback for you staring at him too?

"it did?"

oh. oh thank god. "it did, it did."

"ah." he turned to you, facing you directly with concerned eyes before looking at your head. "i must beg your pardon for the late apologies. my attention was diverted to a problem that was being an inconvenience. is your head doing alright?"

wow. mhm. his voice is silky smooth too.

"it will be soon, but thanks!" you sheepishly smile at him, rubbing your head, before tearing up lightly at the bump created. sending him a light wave afterwards, you head to the table you were at, glancing at your watch. ah, its almost time for your friend to be here. took her long enough. nevermind reading then.

you pack your stuff quietly, making a mental note to continue reading your pocket book later. swinging your bag on your shoulder, you pushed your chair back, but turned around at the sound of someone clearing their throat. to your surprise, it was the same guy earlier.

"would you mind if i escort you to the nurse's office?" you opened your mouth to decline, but seeing how he had his bag on his shoulder already while guiltily smiling at you, you giggled at his offer, bobbing your head yes.

on the way to the infirmary with this (hot) gentleman by the name of zhongli, people around you couldn't help but glance, stare even. well you really can't blame them, but you shriveled at the tiny attention. you just hope this wasn't gonna start up a rumor soon..

regarding zhongli, he was a senior transferee this school year, which absolutely baffles you since you didn't know him. you guys are already finishing up your first sem and you didn't even know there were transferees. did he not show up at the collective assembly? well, you didn't really give enough shits to bother who transfers and who stays to look around some familiar faces anyway.

weeks passed when you guys met, with you always being at his receiving end of help. whether it's by studying, by hogging some answers with little to no effort of bargaining (because he always just gives it anyway, save from the mini remindings he does to you), to you forgetting your things, and him miraculously always having what you needed. its almost like he knew you had short-term memory. amazing isn't he?

but then, it goes to you internally suffering from him sometimes (always) not bringing his wallet, (crazy thing is, once he does bring his wallet it was always just..not enough...), then to him asking you to be partners with him, or just join in any class-related project that needed groups with him, and..

um, that's it.

yeah haha, what a fair give and take situation. hey, its not your fault he isn't as clumsy as you are. but at least you get to experience what it's like to get higher grades. your bond with him certainly went deeper as weeks turned to months, with you chatting away your interests on the literature of books. with the library being your usual hanging-out spot, you both discuss trivial matters that range from the cliche plots, to the vast types of art people use to express their imagination. with each of you clashing each other's weapons with your opinions, it almost felt like an internal debate.

maybe it's because all you've been seeing is your friend's face these past few years, but with zhongli around, you find yourself spilling almost anything that pops up in your mind due to him never failing to catch onto the topics you open up.

and of course, that didn't fail to make you question yourself. putting a hand unconsciously on your chest, you purse your lips once you realized the way your stomach feels like you did flips, the way your cheeks flushes a little bit more, the way you always seem to look for him when his class is mentioned, and the way your chest tightens, it hurts..

and since you think he's too out of your league, that you're pushing your luck just by being friends with him, that he probably doesn't even think of you like that, you smile. it's fine. you'll get over it. you always do.

"have you read the book i recently pointed to you?" you looked up at him, and he adjusts his glasses in return. "on that subject, i finished it at home. you were absolutely correct, the author has a great talent of making us readers feel exactly how they want us to feel, and the way they worded each chapter and scenes was really breath-taking." he shuffles through his bag and places the book on the table, smiling. "the plot was quite anguishing, and while i ponder what would've been the case if the book had a happy ending, im satisfied with the way as it is now. it certainly sparked my interest with pocket books, so i'd like to express my gratitude for recommending this to me, y/n."

you flashed him a small smile. "wow, we've been friends for a while but i still can't get how you don't get a headache from the amount of fancy words you've been using. does sound like my influence is getting to you though." you giggle at him, cheeks flushed. "i'm glad you liked it. let me know if you want me to recommend you some more." he nods, sharing your grin, before rearranging his things. as your grin became a lazy smile, you let your thoughts slip out so naturally out of your mouth as you always do,

"reading stories like these, it makes me feel so happy for the two of them, for them to overcome all those problems and live their lives so happily, growing stronger like that." his eyes bore your relaxed posture. "it's amazing, how any type of problem can change a person, and how it pushes them to have courage to do more things, to experience more things...like liking, or even deeper, loving."

"well, humans are resilient, no?" you laugh. "you say that as if you aren't one yourself." he chuckles in return. "well, yeah...i guess." his gaze continues to linger on your unreadable expression, finding it outlandish. his hand brushes on yours before fondling it, a habit he developed to get your attention to him. ah, he's doing it again. stop, don't blush, you'll make it obvious.

you directed your eyes on both of your hands, reading his action as worry. you want to pull away. its okay. calm down. this is normal for him. "ah no no, i'm fine. it's just that, i envy that. i envy them." ..and yet, you didn't find the heart to swat his hands away. with how fast your heart was beating, he'd think you're having a heart attack. you caress his hands back. it's fine. some friends also do these. "..at the same time though, im happy for them, like a cheerleader on a court, or those crowds that surround a stage. they're amazing at what they're doing, and you can see that, but you just can't help but envy them." don't hope for more. stop assuming.

he blinks at you. "what is it that you envy about them?" don't dare dream of anything. you know you don't have a chance regardless, you're too ugly.

you pause, zhongli's question rendering you quiet. you knew best why you felt envious, but you didn't want him to know that something trivial like this bothers you. he already knows how careless you are, you're not gonna add another in your list of failures. you forced a smile, "well you know...they're strong. they had the courage to say whatever they felt, and for that, i commend them."

"do you have someone you like?"

you've failed at hiding your emotions again, because hearing that made you accidentally squeeze his hands a little tighter than you should've. fuck. you blew your cover, dumbass. "ah, sorry." you made an attempt to let his hand go, but he gripped it back, and you looked at him in surprise. "i also apologize, but is something bothering you y/n?"

there is. you couldn't stop staring at his eyes, his eyes that hold so much care, so much- too much, that it scares you to think, to think that what if he held love in those instead? what if, per chance, he harbored the same feelings that you did? no, of course he won't, what are you even thinking?? you face down, overwhelmed. you pursed your lips. "....i don't know." you close your eyes, fearing he might hear your voice tremble. you like him. you squeezed his hands, trying to find the strength not to cry. you like him and..

zhongli squeezes your hands back, urging you to keep going. ...and you want him to know. so bad. "it's somewhat frustrating you know? i want to get rid of this envy, solve it somehow, because i felt ugly, like a bad person. it feels as if i want them to not be happy with whatever they're doing, but i just..." you falter, you're scared.

...but you're scared, scared if he turns away because.... "it doesn't make sense." he nods, still intently listening. "and it feels like shit, because i know that i don't have a chance and-" your voice fails you. you want to bolt up and have a breather. you might break down here, and no, you don't want him to utter the cursed words out of pity. you'll hate yourself even more.

....he might realize how ugly you are.

"then, how about being in a relationship?" your eyes snap to his response. "if you're distressed by this feeling you get whenever you see or read couples, then how would you like it if you were, per chance, on their shoes?" you look at him, his suggestion ringing on your mind. "hopefully then, the reason why you're such in a discomfort will identify itself so that you can feel satisfied?"

"thats..." you mumbled, the idea of being in a relationship seems so far away for you, though you forced a smile. if only we were in a real one instead. you chuckled, "pray tell zhongli. who'll be in a relationship with me anyway?"

with the times you've bonded with zhongli, you always felt like a child next to him, and it bothered you since it was akin to you being a burden to him. you always felt like he already knew what to do in various situations, either complicated or not, even those that he's encountered for the first time in his life. he's the composed one between the two of you most of the time, as if he never made mistakes, impossible that may sound like. and then there's you, imperfect in every way.

so when you saw zhongli's face morph into an alienated expression, his breath hitching, seeming to be hesitating, you blinked. you watch as he pursed his lips tightly, before inhaling in and holding your gaze with a fire that looked firm, a gaze you never really see from him. your chest couldn't help but beat irrationally in exchange,

"if i said-" he squeezed your hands. "if i said, that i'd gladly assist you, would you allow me?"

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CHAPTER FIFTEEN || IT’S TIME TO GO

SYNOPSIS (of chapter). in which it’s time for you to leave mondstadt and come home, leaving behind your new friend who you’ve come to cherish (and your love for him).

SYNOPSIS (of series). breaking up with your first love was heartbreaking, but not as heartbreaking as getting invited to his wedding after years of not seeing him. that is, until things seem to be easier when you encounter a certain guest, who could end up becoming more than just a blooming friend to you (or not).

CHARACTERS. kamisato ayato, diluc ragnvindr, and thoma (w/ gn!reader)

CONTENT. angst/comfort (?), grammar errors (?), and possible errors in general (do lmk!)

WORD COUNT. 3.2k words

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After a week of staying in Mondstadt, it was finally time for you to go. 

You can’t help but feel bummed that you’re going to leave from Mondstadt soon. There are so many places for you to explore, so it’s a shame you weren’t able to go to other places in the region. There’s no doubt that you’d miss a lot of things here, especially the people you’ve spent time with. 

You honestly feel relieved that you found out about Diluc’s relationship early, making it less difficult for you to lose your romantic feelings for him. 

Of course, it still doesn’t change the fact that it’s difficult. 

It’s difficult because you can’t just lose feelings easily. You had already gotten rid of your hopes and interest of being with Diluc after finding out about his fiancée, but it’s the aching feeling you can’t get rid of. 

Nonetheless, you try your best.

You find yourself packing your things, clouded with your thoughts. You’re sitting down on a chair, filling your suitcase with your clothing, folding each piece and placing them inside in an organized manner. As you go through each of your clothing, you are reminded of your experiences and moments shared with Diluc. 

You can still remember what you were wearing when you met him, when you talked with him as he served drinks to other guests, when you walked with him through the garden and around the city, and when you found out he’s with someone else. 

You smile sadly from the thought of him. The thought of being with him felt so right, only to be proven so wrong the moment you saw him with his fiancée. 

You suddenly feel a warm comforting hand on your back. 

“There, there, my friend.” Zhongli suddenly spoke, offering you his comfort. He never fails to amaze you with how he always seems to know what you’re thinking. “You don’t have to hold yourself back from crying again, you’re free to let out your feelings.” He added. 

You look at him gratefully. “I’m okay, thank you.” 

The two of you didn’t share a word for a while, letting the silence sink in around the room. Being silent was never awkward when it comes to being with Zhongli, and you’ve come to appreciate his presence more for that reason. 

You let out a sigh. “I just,” You pause for a moment, inhaling sharply as you try to think of how to express your thoughts, “I just don’t know what to do. I mean, I’m happy for Diluc and his fiancée, especially when she seems so nice a-and… everything.. B-but I just.. I just can’t stop feeling so sad, and it’s so frustrating.” 

Zhongli nods in understanding. “Your feelings can’t go away easily, I’m afraid. If anything, it is understandable and valid that you feel heartbroken from finding out about Mr. Ragnvindr’s relationship. You are allowed to feel sad and upset, and you should not let it consume you to a state of hopelessness.” 

You continue to wipe your eyes, thinking of a certain question. “What do you think I should do, Zhongli?” 

Zhongli gives you an apologetic smile, “That is something I cannot intervene. By the end of the day, the decision is up to you. I would only advise you to approach him with tact and respect for him. Whatever you plan to do, remember to respect his decision and the life he already has.”

You processed his words, and nodded in agreement. “Of course, of course. Thank you again..” 

You lean on his shoulder with a quiet sigh while he continues to pat your back more. 

Eventually, Zhongli speaks up again. “Why don’t I treat you to Good Hunter later at lunch? I hear that their food is great, especially their classic Sweet Madames.” 

You couldn’t help but chuckle. “Wow, you’re treating me to a restaurant? That’s new.” 

He chuckles as well. “You could say I didn’t forget to bring my wallet this time.” 

You smile lightly. “That’s good. You better not take your word back when you see the bill later.”

“Heh, I never do.” 

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Just like any other day, the day progresses for Diluc.

He does what he’s been doing for the past week during his stay in the hotel: work out, get ready, go and visit Angel’s Share, handle the establishment, go back, deal with paperworks and phone calls, eat dinner, continue with paperworks, do a pastime activity, take a stroll around the city, go back, get ready for sleep, and repeat. 

Although today’s yet another normal day, Diluc feels… off. 

He feels out of touch, as if his mind can’t get out of something that’s been making him feel off. Perhaps it was the food he ate during breakfast at the hotel’s restaurant, or maybe the annoying encounter he had with nosey journalists and paparazzi about yet another bizarre rumor he could care less about. 

It was only when he’s reminded of the date when he remembered:

You’ll be leaving soon.

Ah, how time flies so fast. A week wasn’t enough for Diluc to get to know you more, but it was enough for him to know how memorable you made his week go. 

For someone who he has only known for one week, it felt like he had known you more than that.

It was silly to think that he wouldn’t find himself making friends given that he likes to distance himself from others, yet here he is, thinking of you. Had he known you more than a week, he wondered where your friendship would go.

Yet, despite the thought, it gave him all the more reasons to not let his feelings grow for you and remind himself that what you two have will only be a friendship. 

Now that he thought about it, he hasn’t seen you since he introduced you to Jean. He was still worried about your wellbeing after what happened with Shinsuke. 

Nonetheless, he made sure Shinsuke wouldn’t do that to you again. 

“Leave Mx. ( Last Name ) alone.” Diluc told Shinsuke firmly, confronting him hours later after taking Jean back to the hotel room. “I don’t particularly involve myself into other people’s businesses, but Mx. ( Last Name ) is a dear friend of mine. Whatever they did, I’m sure it wasn’t unreasonable.” 

Shinsuke clears his throat. Had it been anyone else, he’d defend himself quickly – but knowing Diluc’s standing in the entire business world worldwide, he knew his place. 

“Ah, I apologize. I simply confronted them about my concerns about my daughter’s wedding and didn’t mean no harm.” The elder man spoke with a fake smile. 

Deep down, he cursed Diluc for interfering. He wanted to put you in your place and ensure that you wouldn’t do anything. However, now that it’s basically confirmed that you’re associated with someone as powerful as Diluc, he couldn’t do anything towards you. 

The red-haired tycoon knew the elderly man was far from genuine, but nonetheless, his warning was clear. “I understand, and I hope it is simply that. My friend is very dear to me, and I don’t like it if people are being unreasonable to any of my friends and loved ones.” 

And so he took his leave once Shinsuke understood his notion.

Back in the present, Diluc finds himself in a mall that’s not too far away from the hotel, purchasing a few things for his establishment and a gift for him to give you when you take your leave from Mondstadt. 

It wasn’t much, but it was something that he thought might be suitable for someone such as you. 

He goes on with his day once again after that, ignoring those lingering thoughts that lurk in the deep depths of his mind, ones that wonder what could’ve been if the circumstances had been different–

And whether or not you two could’ve been more than just friends. 

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The moment you stepped foot to the airport, the feeling of finally going back to Liyue finally sank in. 

It’s hard to go back to Liyue from all that you’ve been through. Not only will you go back to your home and go back to working as always, but you’ll never see your friends that you found and made in your trip–

Including Diluc. 

Ever since your encounter with Diluc’s fiancée, you haven’t seen the tycoon for a while now, and you’re quite unsure of how to approach him since then. 

You regret it now though, especially since you’re eventually leaving with no certainty of when you’d come back to the nation that you fell in love with. Despite how you’re still heartbroken with how you never had a chance with him at all, you wanted to at least bid him farewell properly. 

Unlike Diluc however, you could at least bid someone else farewell properly.

“I guess this is it, huh?” Thoma says with a small smile as he stands in front of you after taking you and your friends to the airport. 

You smiled back at your dearest friend. “Yeah… I guess so. I’m really glad I got to see you again, Thoma.” You replied softly. 

His smile brightens more, and you didn’t notice the slight hue of pink forming on his cheeks. “I-I’m glad I got to see you as well. It’s good to see that you’re having a great time at Liyue.” 

The two of you stayed silent for a while, besides the noises of people’s footsteps and their chattering in the background.

Eventually, you spoke up, “You know, I don’t think I’ve ever told you this, but if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have been able to go to Liyue and made it this far in my life.” 

His eyes widened slightly in response. The blonde-haired man would admit that he didn’t expect you to still remember your conversation with him when you confessed about leaving Inazuma to work in Liyue, but it was a pleasant surprise.

He clears his throat before responding, “Of course, you and I both know you needed it. It’s good that you took my word for it.” 

You could only continue to smile. “Yeah. And who knows? I might come back to Inazuma,” you said. “I’ll come back one day and… And maybe we can drink together in your café like back then.” 

“And see Taroumaru?” He adds.

You chuckled, nodding in response. “Yeah. I’ll see him and feed him his favorite treats.” 

“I’ll take up your word on that. I’m sure he’d be ecstatic to see one of his favorite humans coming back.” Thoma says jokingly. 

The two of you giggle with one another from your conversation, before you finally decide to give him one last hug. 

“I really mean it though, thank you for everything.” You mumbled. You’re suddenly reminded of how the two of you bid each other farewell before you left for Liyue, and you couldn’t help but feel a little emotional from the fact that you won’t get to meet each other like this for a possibly long time. 

Thoma wraps his arms around you in return, his eyes softening. “Anything for you, ( Name ). You know I’d always have your back.” 

Eventually, the two of you parted ways from your hug, and when you did, you noticed a certain man standing a few feet away from you and Thoma, causing your smile to lessen a bit.

“Give me a moment.” You said to Thoma, before walking towards Diluc slowly. 

“Hey…” You greeted him with a small smile. 

“Hey.” He greeted you back with a nod. 

The two of you fell silent. This silence was much awkward in comparison to your silence with Thoma earlier. To be fair, you really didn’t know how to talk to Diluc since your feelings are still a little complicated. 

Still, you didn’t let it stop you from keeping the silence. 

“I didn’t expect you to come,” you confessed, “but I’m glad you did. How are you?” 

“I’ve been well. I came because I wanted to say goodbye.” He then shows you a small paper bag that contains a small long box. “I also want to give you a gift that I bought. It’s… not much but I thought it’d be nice for you to have it.” 

Your eyes slightly widen in surprise, slowly taking the paper bag from him before checking what’s inside out of curiosity. 

“I suggest that you open it when you’re in the plane.” He suggested with his lips slightly quirked up at the sight of your curious face. 

You nod in response, now holding the paper bag as you look back at him. “Thank you for this. I’ll treasure it since it’s from you.” 

The two of you fell silent again. Deep down, there was so much for the both of you to talk about, but there was little time to go through them all. 

Diluc eventually speaks up, “I wish you a safe trip out there, ( Name ). I’ll be happy to give you a proper tour around Mondstadt should you ever come back.” 

You look at him fondly, touched by his consideration. “Thank you. You’ve always been considerate to me. I wish you a happy wedding with Jean, she’s a wonderful woman.” You complimented him genuinely. 

Despite getting your heart broken, you didn’t wish bad things on Diluc and Jean. You genuinely mean it when you told him you wished for him to have a happy wedding and marriage – because for someone such as Diluc, he deserves it – and it was not your place to get your feelings the best of you and ruin anything between both of your relationship with Diluc and his relationship with Jean.

The tycoon nodded in response, grateful for your words. He didn’t have any words about his marriage with Jean, but nonetheless, he’s grateful for your well wishes. 

Suddenly, your conversation was interrupted by the PA system of the airport. “Good evening passengers. This is the pre-boarding announcement for flight 220B to Liyue. We are now inviting passengers  to begin boarding at this time. Please have your boarding pass and identification ready as boarding will begin in approximately ten minutes time. Thank you.”

You see how Ei, Miko, and Zhongli are getting ready with their things, causing your shoulders to slump slightly. Not yet. There’s still time.

You quickly look back at Diluc, unaware that he’s just as disappointed as you are. “...I-I’m a little embarrassed that I don’t have anything to give you as a gift for you. If I knew you had something for me, I would’ve done the same.” 

Diluc shakes his head in reassurance. “There is no need. Your company was already enough. Besides, we could always contact one another through our phones so we wouldn’t forget each other if that is what you’re worried about.” 

Ah right, the two of you had shared each other’s phone numbers. 

You nodded slowly, smiling sheepishly. “Right..” 

You then take your luggage in hand, putting the paper bag on top. “..I suppose it’s time for me to go.” You hesitated for a moment. “Thank you again for everything, Diluc. You’ve been truly a wonderful friend.”

And a wonderful experience. 

Diluc stays silent, staring at you as he tries to memorize every single of your features so he wouldn’t forget it for a long time, knowing that he wouldn’t see you for a long, long time. 

“...Thank you as well.” You’ve been everything. 

When Ei finally called your name, you finally decided to take your leave, turning away from Diluc as you walk away towards your friends, ready to come back to Liyue with a new change, new experiences, and a new day to start. 

You’re happy to say that this trip has been something that you’re eternally grateful about, and you’re glad that you took a leap and accepted the invitation that broke your heart. 

Now that you’ve settled with Ayato, reunited with old friends, made new friends, and bid farewell to those you care for, you can finally go back to Liyue with fresh air with Ei, Miko, and Zhongli by your side. 

You didn’t think to look back to where Diluc and Thoma are, unaware that they’re still watching you leave until you can no longer be seen in their vision. 

It’s time to go. 

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As you settle down on your seat waiting for the plane to fly, you decide to open the gift that Diluc gave you, curious to see what he bought for you.

When you bring out the small long box, you’re not surprised to see that it was luxurious-looking, especially knowing that Diluc is a rather wealthy man.

As you open the box, you’re greeted by the sight of a luxury pen that has your name ingrained on it, alongside a neatly folded note beside it that turns out to be a letter from Diluc. 

You took out the note from the pen case before keeping the gift aside, wanting to read what the tycoon had written for you.

“Dear ( Name ), I hope that you’re reading this privately. Don’t get me wrong, it just makes it all the more meaningful if you read this on your own. 

I have debated long and hard whether or not I should write a letter to you, but I decided to do so just to seal our farewell. For the entire time that I hung out with you, you have been nothing but a pleasant company for me. You’ve been a good friend and introduced me to things I wasn’t able to appreciate as much as I am now, and I’m all the more grateful for your welcoming presence in my life. 

All I can say is to always keep that spark you have. If there is one thing admirable about you, it’s your love and joy to things big and small. Though it may not be obvious, your joy is infectious. Keep that up and you’ll continue to go far with where you are now. 

I may not know your troubles and sorrows, but whatever you’re going through at this moment and in the future, I am always willing to lend a helping hand and an ear if you need it. 

My only advice as both a wine tycoon and your friend is that you follow what your heart tells you, for I fail to do such a thing in my life, and I’m sure there are others who feel the same.

Overall, you have been a wonderful person for the past week. We may not be each other’s plus ones, but we are each other’s company, and I hope our friendship is ever-lasting and blossoms more.

I hope that someday, you’ll be able to come and visit Inazuma once more. Perhaps one day, if we ever get the chance to see each other in Inazuma, I’ll take your offer of touring me around to your homeland.

As for the wedding invitation, I’ve placed it in your paper bag for you to take. Feel free to bring anyone with you – your flight and hotel is on me.

I hope I’ll see you again soon, dear friend.

Sincerely, Diluc Ragnvindr.”

You find yourself staring at the letter with a speechless look, your heart soaring from the tycoon’s sweet words and heartwarming writing. If he was around at this very moment, you would’ve asked if you could hug him.

You had never thought that he’d do so much as to write a personal letter for you given that he’s too busy for such a thing, and yet here he was, writing a letter for you to read when you’re alone. 

You folded the paper back and placed it inside the paper bag, now finally noticing the invitation that’s underneath the luxury pen’s case before sitting back to your seat, looking at the airplane window with a longing sigh.

I hope I’ll see you again soon, dear friend.

DAN’S NOTE. Thank you all so much for taking this lengthy hellride of a journey with me and for your love for my series! I think it’s clear that I owe you guys an apology for the sudden hiatus with no announcement, and I sincerely apologize from the bottom of my heart. Without any details, I have a problem that I needed to deal with, and I had to get help from a professional so it wouldn’t affect my life anymore. This means that I have to take a break from writing for a really really long time. Now that I’ve recovered (but not completely), it’s safe to say that I was able to complete chapter fifteen and end the series at last!

In comparison to the previous chapters, this one was quite short, so I apologize again that you guys had to wait for so long for such a small chapter. 

For a long time, I wanted the last chapter to be short but not in a way that’s rushed – hence why I made sure that most of the conflicts are cleared. Now that the reader has finally settled with their relationship with Ayato, they need to settle with their feelings to Diluc, and their farewell with him is a way for them to finally let go of their feelings and accept their relationship as what it had always been: a meaningful friendship. 

Not to worry, your curiosity as to who the reader will end up with will be fulfilled in the epilogue! The epilogue will also contain my explanation of this series’ progress (and a few fun facts), answers to the Q&A from my evermore survey, as well as more situations that’ll clear up the things that wasn’t covered in this chapter. 

Explanations aside, I genuinely couldn’t thank you guys enough for what you did for this series! Your messages both positive and negative is something I take seriously, and it always kept me going with writing it until the end. And I hope you guys enjoyed this last chapter!

I honestly didn’t think this series would get so much attention, so this has been really overwhelming (in a good way) for me because wow, who knew so many people love my hard work? 

Overall, I thank you all once again for the love you have for this series, and I hope that all of you have been doing well when I was gone! 

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EPILOGUE || FOREVERMORE

SYNOPSIS (of chapter). in which it's been three months since your trip to mondstadt.

SYNOPSIS (of series). breaking up with your first love was heartbreaking, but not as heartbreaking as getting invited to his wedding after years of not seeing him. that is, until things seem to be easier when you encounter a certain guest, who could end up becoming more than just a blooming friend to you (or not).

CHARACTERS. diluc ragnvindr, kamisato ayato, and thoma (w/ gn!reader)

CONTENT. fluff/slight-angst, grammar errors (?), cheesy scenes, second-hand embarrassment (?), possible errors in general.

WORD COUNT. 3.5k words

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POST-SCRIPT. the end is finally here!! hopefully the ending is satisfying and fulfilling, i've done all i can to make sure it brings the entire series together and give reader the happiness they deserve. if you wish to know fun facts about the series, stay until the end!!

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3 MONTHS LATER AFTER THE WEDDING.

DECEMBER 11, 2022

It’s been a while since you’ve last visited Mondstadt. 

You find yourself sitting on a bar stool with your drink in hand, wearing a formal outfit suited for an occasion that can happen to someone for once-in-a-lifetime: a wedding. 

True to both you and Diluc’s words, you kept in touch with one another as you two remained friends after your departure from Mondstadt. Though you’re both busy from your work schedules, the two of you make the most of your conversations through sending pictures of food, places, and even your friends – your particular favorite being a picture of his pet bird, Vanessa – in your messages. 

It’s safe to say things are well, and you’re more than happy with the couple’s wedding despite your heartbreak before. 

You mindlessly look around the reception venue with a smile on your face, paying no mind to the conversations between loud guests who are either talking about 1) the newly wedded couple, or 2) the recent buzz of the continent regarding a certain corrupted CEO.

Two months after the wedding of Ayato and Chisato, Shinsuke was suddenly arrested thanks to the newly-wedded couple, who exposed him with numerous charges that shocked the entire public and media.

“Did you hear? Hiiragi Shinsuke has been arrested for his crimes!”

“I know! It’s shocking to hear that it took him this long to be behind bars, and to think that it’s all thanks to his daughter and her husband...” 

“Didn’t they work with that young detective that’s been the buzz of Inazuma’s police force? What’s that detective’s name again?”

“I believe it’s Shikanoin. Apparently he’s been investigating Hiiragi for a long time now!” 

You muted out people’s chattering about Shinsuke, taking a sip of your drink. You’re honestly just glad that he’s finally behind bars now, and you won’t have to worry about him for a long, long tim–

“( Name )! How are you?” You flinch when you hear a particular voice that you haven’t heard for a few months now. When you turn around, you spot Venti coming towards you happily with a skip of his steps.

“Venti!” You greeted him happily, putting your glass down before standing up to come towards him, spreading your arms for a friendly hug. “I’ve been well, thank you. How about you? It’s been a while!” 

Venti giggles, wrapping his arms around you for a warm friendly hug. “I’m doing well, especially with free drinks and free food around!” He cheers. His flushed cheeks and drowsy look is enough for you to know that he’s as drunk as can be. Classic Venti…

“I can tell.” You respond with a laugh, before helping him sit on one of the bar stools that’s next to yours on the left. “You should take a break from all that drinking, your hangover will be the death of you tomorrow.” 

“You’re right.. I should be ready for later..!” Venti hiccups. “How’s Zhongli, by the way? Did he go with you as your plus one again?” 

You shake your head in response. “He’s okay, but no, he’s not with me for this trip.” You replied. “I didn’t bring anyone with me since it wasn’t mentioned in the wedding card.”

“Well then, I guess you’re stuck with me!” He giggles, before ordering the bartender another glass once again, much to both your dismay and the bartender’s. 

As Venti indulges himself with the free drinks while sharing interesting things about Mondstadt, you couldn’t help but glance at the direction of where Diluc and Jean are, who are both chatting quietly to one another as they eat their meals at their table.

It didn’t take long before Diluc felt your stare, and noticed your presence. 

You couldn’t help but smile at him with a wave, to which he responds with an acknowledged nod, slightly smiling towards you before his attention is taken by another guest who came to congratulate the newly-wedded couple.

Your attention is eventually taken as well by another person, who suddenly seated himself right next to you on your right. 

“Thoma!” You gasp in surprise, not expecting to see the blonde-haired man.

Thoma flashes you a smile as he chuckles. “Hello to you too as well, ( Name ). Guess you didn’t expect me to be here, huh?” 

“Of course not, you gave me a heart attack! I didn’t know you were invited!” You exclaim with a smile. You couldn’t help but take note of how neat he looks, wearing a tuxedo with his hair fixed instead of his usual messy hairdo that you’ve grown used to. 

“I didn’t think I’d be invited either until Ayato persuaded me to come to the wedding on his behalf. I’m sure you know how busy Inazuma has been since the… arrest.” He explains, scratching the back of his head with a cheeky grin. 

You nod in understanding, your smile becoming a little strained at the mention of the arrest of Shinsuke. “I’m very aware. Almost everyone’s talking about it here, surprisingly.” 

The blonde man takes note of your strained smile, and he decides to quickly change topics in a jiffy. “How’s your trip here? Did you bring anyone with you?” He asks curiously. 

You lean on the bar counter, though your drink (as well as Venti, who’s still busy with his drinks) is left forgotten. “My trip’s been amazing. I didn’t bring anyone with me though. How about you?” 

Thoma shrugs. “I didn’t bring anyone either. Though if I could, I would’ve brought Taroumaru.” 

“Aw, I miss Taroumaru!” You cooed. You immediately thought about Inazuma once again, becoming more homesick than you thought you’d be. “How’s the little guy? I heard he’s been the talk of the town. He’s getting really famous on the Internet, isn’t he?” 

Thoma chuckles in response, his cheeks turning slightly red. “Yeah.. I honestly didn’t think he’d get famous. There was an idol who came to visit the café and took a picture of him, which was how he got everyone’s love.” 

You nodded slowly, still smiling. “So I suppose business is booming then? I’m sure a lot of people must be wanting to meet Taroumaru.” 

“Oh if only you see how busy it’s been. If it weren’t for the staff my mom and I hired, I wouldn’t be able to come to the wedding in the first place!” He comments.

As you continue to listen to Thoma talking about people in Inazuma, you couldn’t help but miss Inazuma even more. You honestly couldn’t wait to come back. 

“How about you? How’s Liyue been lately after your trip?” Your friend suddenly asks, causing you to wake up from your thoughts. 

You cleared your throat. “Oh, same as always. Though,” You straighten your posture, clearing your throat, “I’ve thought about coming back to Inazuma after what happened.” 

Thoma was taken back by surprise from your words, his eyes brightened. “R-Really?” 

You hummed, your smile growing from his excitement. “Really.” 

The man before you didn’t know what to say, stunned from such good news. “This..." He couldn’t help but let out a laugh, obviously ecstatic from the news as his eyes brightens instantly. "This is amazing news! You have to let me know when your flight is then. I can pick you up from the airport and we can go wherever you want and–”

“Woah, woah, slow down!” You couldn’t help but laugh as well, finding his excitement infectious and amusing. “I haven’t even booked anything yet, let alone ask for a transfer in my job.”  

“O-Oh!” His cheeks turn red instantly in embarrassment. “R-Right.. My bad, I-I was getting too excited.” He stammers, clearing his throat as he fixes his suit tie. “When do you think you’ll come back?” 

You shrug in response. “I’m thinking of.. Maybe after New Year’s Day. It’ll take a while since well.. It’s hard to move to another country, you know?”

He nodded quickly. “Ah yes, of course. I totally understand! You should take your time.” He says in agreement. “Just… Let me know when you’re coming back. I missed you, you know?” 

You couldn’t help but feel your cheeks warming up from his words. Thoma was never the type to confess something so affectionate, but perhaps the drinks are getting the best of both of you…

The blonde man was quick to realize what he said though, as he instantly stiffens and starts stumbling on his words. “I-I mean, I-I’m not the only one who misses you– since everyone misses you, i-including me..!” 

“Y-Yeah, I get it. E-Especially since it’s been a long time since I’ve left Inazuma.” You stumbled as well, your cheeks warming even more from the awkward situation that the both of you brought yourself into. “I-If anything, I missed you guys too..!” 

Yeah, the drinks are definitely getting the best of both of you. 

The two of you couldn’t help but laugh once again from the embarrassment, causing the tense and awkward atmosphere to dissipate. 

“Well that was awkward.” He commented, smiling from ear-to-ear.

“No doubt.” You responded, still laughing as you held your stomach. 

As the both of you try to catch your breaths after laughing, Thoma decides to get himself a drink as well as another one for you. “Let’s drink to celebrate your upcoming return then. On me, of course.” 

You snorted. “Thoma, the drinks are free. We’re in a wedding, remember?” 

He blushes once again. “A-Ah.. Right.” 

–

As you walk out of the elevator, you head towards your hotel room with Thoma in tow. 

Long after the wedding finally ended, you decided to take your leave and hit the bed to sleep for the night, wanting nothing more than to lie down on the comfortable sheets of the bed as you snore away. 

To your surprise, Thoma decides to make sure you come back to your room in one piece and escort you back to your room given that the both of you are a little intoxicated.

“You know, you don’t have to come with me. I can go back to the room on my own.” You said reassuringly, noticing how close your hotel room is getting.

“We’re here anyway, so you’re stuck with me now.” He comments, insisting even more as he walks by your side. “Besides, I’m actually staying in the same hotel as you. Though, I’m three floors above.” 

You relax instantly from his words, no longer finding the energy to say otherwise. “Oh, that’s good then.” You stumble around and try to find your keycard, pulling it out from your pocket as the two of you arrive to your room.

“Thanks again, Thoma. I’m glad you had kept me company at the wedding– and for helping me taking care of Venti.” You chuckled, letting your door scan your keycard. 

He smiles, nodding in acknowledgement. “Of course. It’s the least I can do since you’ve given me a good time at the wedding.” 

You smiled in response, and turned around to enter your room that's now opened, but before you could enter, he stopped you for a moment. 

“Wait.” 

“Hm?” You turn to look at him in confusion and in curiosity. “Is something wrong?” 

He shakes his head. “N-No, of course not. It’s just…”

The two of you fell awkwardly silent. 

“...I won’t be here tomorrow, so you won’t see me until you return to Inazuma.” He confesses. “So… If you ever decide on whether you’d visit, move in, or whatever, I’m one call away. Just let me know when you come and visit.” So I can be the first to greet you.

You smiled cheekily. “So you really did miss me, huh?”

He blushes once again. “Can you blame me..?” There’s no one I love but you. 

You then pat his shoulder. “...I’ll call you as soon as I get the date. Just promise me you’ll be by the airport with some cardboard that has my name.” You teased. 

He nodded eagerly. “I’ll make sure it’ll have ‘Welcome back from the Asylum’ on it.” He says, teasing you back. 

“Oh I’d like to see you try!” You laugh, lightly slapping his shoulder as he grins.

“...See you next time, ( Name ).” 

“See you next time, Thoma.” 

You took a few steps to your room and finally closed the door, the last face you saw was Thoma’s flushed face. 

As soon as he’s alone in the quiet hallways of the hotel floor, he lets out a sigh. 

This time.. This time I’ll shoot my shot.

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“What are you thinking about, Thoma?” 

The blonde-haired man blinks a few times as he finds himself back in the familiar surroundings of Komore Cafe. 

“Ah, sorry.. I-I was just thinking about something.” Thoma says with a cheeky grin, looking at your direction as you sit by the stools that’s by the counter. “How long have you been watching me?” He asks. 

You smiled cheekily. “Long enough for me to be reminded of how handsome you look.” You responded teasingly with a chuckle.

“Oh really? Am I really that dashing?” He asks, jokingly posing like a model as it causes you to laugh. 

“Very much, but not as much as my guy Taroumaru here.” You pet the Shiba Inu, who makes a “woof!” noise as he happily encourages your affection. 

Thoma dramatically puts a hand on his chest. “You wound me. I’d never thought my own spouse would choose Taroumaru over me! Where is the loyalty?” 

The two of you broke into laughter, amused by each other’s antics.

It’s been almost two years since the time when you two visited Diluc and Jean’s wedding. True to your word, you return to Inazuma a few months after your trip to Mondstadt, officially residing in your homeland instead of Liyue. Thoma has been with you since you returned, and he has been nothing but helpful to you as the two of you make up for the lost time.

It took a while before you eventually started gaining feelings for him, which then eventually led to the two of you in a committed and happy relationship for the past three months. It’s safe to say that you’ve never been happier than ever, and you’re grateful for someone like Thoma to be by your side for so long. 

And he’s grateful that his dream finally came true, happy that he has the honor of being yours, and you being his. He couldn’t imagine anything better than what he has now. 

Unfortunately, the sweet moment between you both ended abruptly when your watch started ringing, reminding you of the time. 

“Ah shoot, I gotta go. Miko’s going to kill me if I end up late.” You said, grabbing your bag and drink before kissing Thoma’s cheek and pet Taroumaru one last time. “Thanks for the drink, by the way.” 

“Anything for you. Stay safe!” Your boyfriend tells you, watching as you run out of the cafe like the wind, leaving him alone with Taroumaru.

As soon as you’re gone, he lets out a dreamy sigh. 

“Come, Taroumaru, it’s time to work.” He spoke to the Shiba Inu, petting his head before heading towards the sign of his café to flip it. 

There’s nothing more to life than spending the rest of his days with you, and he’s more than content with the life he has with you.

It’s safe to say that the same goes with you. 

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DAN'S NOTE.

Thank you guys so much for reading Evermore! I honestly have never thought I’d finished this from the very start, and yet here I am, and it’s all thanks to all of you who have spread your love and opinions on this series.

It was truly an honor to write this piece. It really makes me happy to see a lot of you guys commenting on each chapter, sending asks about how much you love Evermore and spit on Ayato as well as Shinsuke, and overall just you guys being interested in something I put my heart and soul to! 

As someone who never once experienced having a lover nor went through a breakup, it’s quite tough for me to write about it in this series since I want the experiences to feel somewhat real, or better yet, not too cliche than it already is. 

Of course, I also want this series to be somewhat a lesson to my dear readers, to those who need to let it all out, to those whose hearts are broken, to those who just need an escape from reality once in a while, and overall to everyone. I hope that whatever you guys are going through, you will get through it! If you can go through a breakup and deal with Shinsuke’s existence in this fic, then you can surely go through anything!

Since I’ve already expressed what I need to express in the previous chapter, I decided to drop some fun facts and trivia here!

This series was made out of spite because of how I lost the 50/50 to Keqing in Ayato’s first released banner on my first 10 pulls and wanted to make him suffer. Fortunately enough, writing this series seems enough to make him come home 80 pulls later b4 his banner ended! 

I also wanted to write a story that’s based on my number one favorite Taylor Swift song from one of my favorite albums of hers: right where you left me! This song is one of the most relatable songs I’ve ever listened to ever since I first heard it in 2021, and it’s been stuck with me to this day as of 2024 (can you believe it? It’s been almost 4 years!) 

And fun fact, I found out that the evermore album was released on my birthday (December 11), so it feels right that I made the series inspired by the album <3 !

The following are some fun facts from my drafts:

Diluc's arranged spouse was supposed to be Donna, but I unfortunately didn’t make that happen since the way Donna would treat the situation wouldn’t be the same way as what Jean would do. 

Thoma wasn’t actually supposed to be a male lead until I started planning for the no body no crime part. I don’t know what made me assign Thoma as the second male lead, but when I did, I didn’t like how my series will be another “second male lead who has no chance with the main lead” so I made him the person the reader actually ends up with in the epilogue soon after!

– below are things that i’ve scraped from this series ! –

Before I started planning each chapter, Diluc was originally supposed to be the reader's plus one. The plot involves how the reader asks Diluc, reader’s friend since college, to be their plus one since he lives in Mondstadt and he reluctantly agrees, and throughout the wedding trip, they slowly fall in love with each other. 

It was such a good plot too if you saw the details I wrote for it ! But I scrapped it off because the plot would’ve been really long, and I want the series to focus on the story of reader finally and properly moving on from their breakup with their first love, Ayato. I’m aware that I could’ve followed this plot while reader moves on with Ayato, but again, I feel like it just wasn't it for me. though who knows, i might make a one-shot fic of it ;)

Another fun fact is there was supposed to be a second part series after Evermore that’s called Folklore and it ends with you dating Kaeya. 

in this series, you first meet Kaeya during Diluc’s wedding and spend time with him. Sure enough, you hate that guy, but you had no choice but to spend time with him throughout your stay in Mondstadt since he’s such a great tour guide. 

You were glad that you’re finally back to Liyue and not be able to see that playboy anymore, so consider yourself shocked when you waltzed into your office and saw him. 

Turns out, the reason why he’s always spending time with you in Mondstadt is not because of how he wants to guide you around mondstadt, but because he wants to get to know the person he’ll be working with in Liyue! 

So yes, this is somewhat an enemies to lovers + office romance story, and unlike Diluc and Ayato, this guy has no chance in getting into arranged marriages and immediately shoots his shot with you ;> !

Extra note: Dainsleif was supposed to be in folklore series as the second male lead hehe 

I was really looking forward to writing this series until chapter thirteen happened. If I have to be real honest, I was disappointed with myself for what happened, and I was afraid that you guys will be even more disappointed with me if i make another series, so i immediately scrapped it off :(( 

But to clarify more, even if chapter thirteen went well, I would’ve still scrapped it off since – as you know, I have a health issue that caused my big hiatus – and I’m afraid that I wouldn’t be able to finish the second series at all, let alone start it.

Instead of that, I decided to just make it into one of the epilogues of what could’ve been! Feel free to check the folklore epilogue once it’s out! 

I think I can reveal more information with the Q&A from my evermore survey, so while I’m compiling your questions, feel free to ask more right away! 

That's all for this series. Once again, thank you so so so much for giving me the pleasure of writing this fic. I might not make a series soon, but if I ever have the luxury of time, I hope you guys will be there to read it.

Thank you!

Sincerely, your penpal, Dan xoxo

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CHAPTER FOURTEEN || EVERMORE

SYPNOSIS (of chapter). in which a certain ragnvindr struggles with his fate and the complications in his life.

SYPNOSIS (of series). breaking up with your first love was heartbreaking, but not as heartbreaking as getting invited to his wedding after years of not seeing him. that is, until things seem to be easier when you encounter a certain guest, who could end up being more than just a blooming friend to you.

CHARACTERS. kamisato ayato, diluc ragnvindr, and thoma (w/ gn!reader)

CONTENT. angst/comfort(?), grammar errors (?), mentions of violence, sh1nsuke 🤥🤥, minor character death, car accident, mentions of threats, mentions of jeanluc, terribly written crime case (lost my brain after exams, sorry lads), spoilers to diluc’s canon story, possibly terribly written chapter overall (lost it after chap 13, sorry lads)

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WORD COUNT. 14.6k words

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POST-SCRIPT. once again i have finally finished this godforsaken chapter after many weeks of my disappearance — ill try to finish chapter 15 before new year’s or so :,)) please take note to not expect too much from this chapter but it’ll help clear up the truth about diluc and his thoughts (but it wont clear your disappointment towards chapter 13)

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A few things Diluc has lost were the bright hopes and future he once had when he was but a teen who’s ready to fulfill as many achievements and dreams as he can. 

He could still remember how happy he was with the life he had back then, how he dedicated himself to being faithful with his duties as a detective in the Favonius, Mondstadt’s police department, and used to follow his father around, listening to every word he says as he learns the ways of running the business. 

He remembers all the lessons Crepus taught. He remembers his first time making a drink with the ingredients his father provided on a long table. He remembers his first time serving drinks to customers in Angel’s Share. He remembers his first time attending a business event with his father. 

He remembers his past too much. A price to pay for dwelling too much in the past. 

That Diluc is long gone. All that remains is his shell that’s swallowed by guilt, pain, and helplessness. 

He does not live for himself, but lives for his family’s business to continue thriving and succeed like what his father wanted him to do. He lives to fulfill his father’s wishes written on an old piece of paper. He lives to make sure his land is safe from the corrupted and from harm. 

He lives to deal with the burdens that he gained from his birthday. A special, cruel gift from fate.

Wine is something he didn’t like much, which is ironic for someone who specializes in making them. His father actually planned to let him try some of their famous wines that people loved once he’s allowed to, until something happened. 

Wine.. reminds him too much of what happened. 

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INTERLUDE || NO BODY NO CRIME

SYPNOSIS (of chapter). in which he wanted it to be you and no one else.

SYPNOSIS (of series). breaking up with your first love was heartbreaking, but not as heartbreaking as getting invited to his wedding after years of not seeing him. that is, until things seem to be easier when you encounter a certain guest, who could end up being more than just a blooming friend to you.

CHARACTERS. kamisato ayato, diluc ragnvindr ( w/ gn!reader )

CONTENT. fluff/angst/comfort, modern!au, ooc (?), mentions of breakups, unrequited love

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WORD COUNT. 6.8k words

SPECIAL NOTE. we finally arrived at a special chapter of this series ! take note that this is a bit considered as a side-story since this is an interlude, however it is an important chapter as well so enjoy <3 !

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For the longest time, Thoma had always seen you as someone he wants to spend his future with. 

As a foreigner who came to Inazuma, it was clear to Thoma that his classmates don’t like him because of how he’s different from the rest. Unfortunately, he slowly became a victim for bullies, who often bully him for not only not belonging to Inazuma, but also how he doesn’t have a father, who he couldn’t find when he and his mother traveled to Inazuma. 

He felt scared, disappointed even. He misses his home so much, he wished his father didn’t have to disappear so suddenly, and he wished the kids at his age would’ve been nicer. If it weren’t for Ayato, his first ever friend, he would’ve felt so terribly lonely. 

Of course, Ayato could’ve prevented the bullying with just a small chat with the bullies thanks to his background and family name, but Thoma was too kind-hearted and didn’t want to burden his best friend with such matters. 

And then, you came to his life. 

He’s heard of your name before thanks to his mother, who once mentioned how she knew a person who also studies in the same school as him and frequently visits her shop at lunch as well as how their mother is a close friend of hers. He didn’t think much of it since you’re not his classmate.

When he met you however, he fell for you hard. 

He met you one day when he was on his way towards the school gate, only to be blocked by his bullies once again. 

However, for the first time since he came here, someone stood up for Thoma. 

“Hey! Leave him alone, you trolls!” His eyes widened when he saw someone standing in front of him with their back facing him as though they were on defense. What are they doing? He thought in confusion. 

One of the bullies didn’t seem to feel threatened by you. “Or what? You don’t even have the guts to– OW!” 

He gasps when he sees you grabbing a small pebble from the ground nearby and doesn't hesitate to throw it at one of the bullies, causing the bully to let out a yelp when the pebble manages to hit them by the head. 

“What the hell?! Are you trying to kill us?” 

“Killing’s a strong word,” You said with a huff before grabbing another pebble. “But I will do it again if I see you bullying him next time!” 

“Are you alright?” You ask, turning around to see the blonde-haired man as the bullies ran off in embarrassment and in fear. 

Wow. 

He could feel his breath hitch when he saw you, staring at you in awe. “I-I’m alright,” He immediately replied in embarrassment, looking away from you when he realized he'd been staring. “Thank you for uh.. For uh…” 

You paid no mind to how he didn’t finish his sentence, letting out a small laugh. “It’s no problem! You’re…. Thoma right?”  

The child was even more surprised, not expecting you to know his name. “U-Uhm, yea! How do you know my name?” 

“Your mom. Your family owns Komore Cafe, right?” You asked, eyes brightening.

He nodded, eyes brightening from you mentioning his mother’s cafe. “Oh uh.. Yeah! Are you a regular customer there?” 

You nodded eagerly. “Yes, I’m obsessed with your drinks! Are you on your way there?” 

“Yeah, actually. I just finished cleaning my classroom so–”

“Great, mind if we go there together?” 

Thoma almost chokes on his words, his heart instantly races from your request. “Sorry, what did you say?” He asks, unsure if he heard you right.

“Is it okay if you and I walk there together?” You repeated. “I-It’s fine if you don’t want to! I was thinking it’d be great if we go to the same bus together, at least I have a buddy to come with since I was used to going to your cafe with one of my friends.” 

Usually, Thoma preferred to walk towards the cafe on his own, but he found himself agreeing to your request, excusing it as a way for him to pay you back for saving him. “Sure, I don’t mind! I’m sure my mom would be delighted to hear that I got to see one of her regular customers and had someone who defended me from those bullies.” 

You smile widely, immediately standing beside him. “Alright then, lead the way, Thoma!”

At that moment, Thoma finally found something, or someone rather, to think about in his own little world.

From then on, you and Thoma started going to the Komore Cafe together whenever you can. 

Your conversations were surprisingly not that awkward despite Thoma being so flustered from his feelings towards you at first. He supposes it’s because of how you weren’t bothered with his flusteredness, which he’s glad of. For someone who’s supposedly great at socializing with anyone, he sure wouldn’t seem like one if people knew how he acted around you at first. 

Not to mention the bus rides – oh the bus rides – his moments with you are always precious there. Besides the games you two played while waiting for the bus to stop by the cafe along with the conversations you had, there was especially one time when you fell asleep on his shoulder from exhaustion in your p.e. class. He wasn’t sure how long he was able to hold in the urge to scream until he was finally in his room alone. 

When it comes to visiting Komore Cafe, you always go to one certain seat you’d sit in. Much to his delight, you’d also invite him to sit and chat with you about anything that comes to your mind. It’s those moments when he wished it could last forever. 

In a blink of an eye, a few years had passed and the two of you became best friends in high school. 

By the time Thoma was in high school, he started to help out more in the cafe as people eventually got used to the foreigner. To your delight, he even became more sociable with others! You felt like a proud mother whenever you’d see your schoolmates interacting with him happily.  

You also order the same thing everyday to the point where Thoma can make your order in auto-pilot. If you feel like it, you’d even sometimes order other things, which is none other than his favorite order. If only you knew how it sets his heart ablaze the moment you told him you’d like to try it. 

Sometimes, you’d even try to help in serving drinks in the cafe, to which Thoma insists you don’t need to do that until his mother told him you’ve helped her handle the cafe often whenever he’s busy with school activities that made him stay. Ah, it made him have all the more reasons to love you than he should. 

By the time you and Thoma became second-year students, everything changed. 

As much as Thoma didn’t want to admit, he was so sure Ayato was catching on to his secretive feelings. It honestly felt like the man could read him like an open book.  

No amount of words could tell how shocked Thoma was when he encountered Ayato in the cafe, the blonde-haired man was staring at his dear friend like a deer caught in headlights as you stood beside him in confusion from why he stopped his tracks. 

He thought this was it, this is when Ayato will tease me 24/7!

However, the dreadful moment Thoma has been waiting for did not come. Even when he introduced you to Ayato, even when he left you two off to chat so he could prepare his and your drinks, and even when you left early to do your homework in your home. It honestly made Thoma feel nervous the entire day. Just what is on Ayato’s mind? He wonders to himself as he continues to serve his customers in the cafe, eyeing towards the blue-haired man’s direction suspiciously. 

It wasn’t until Thoma took a break and sat across to his best friend, who continued to drink his boba silently. 

“...That person…” Ayato spoke up, staring at where you left.

The blonde-haired man chuckles nervously, dreading the teases. “You mean ( Name )? What about them?” 

He finally looks at Thoma with an expression he had never seen before. “I… I’d like to get to know them more.” 

Oh. 

Oh. 

Thoma felt like time froze when he realized what was going on. 

As someone who was in love for so long, Thoma knew what love looks like. 

And it was all over Ayato's face.

At first, the blonde haired man thought nothing of it, telling himself that maybe he was just overthinking things. He’s sure Ayato is just interested in getting to know someone as interesting as you since he never heard of you around the school, in a way that one would become interested to have the other as their friend.

Then the blue-haired man started asking about you a lot whenever the two of them are in class. Be it your favorite hobbies, favorite subject, what club you’re in, and so on and so forth to the point where Thoma couldn’t deny the fact that Ayato is absolutely whipped for you. 

He wasn’t sure if the same goes to you. 

Unlike Thoma, Ayato doesn’t need to use the public bus since he has a driver who can come and pick him up to take him home. So when you and Thoma encountered the blue haired man by the school gate despite the fact that he should’ve been home an hour ago, it was safe to say the blonde-haired man was surprised. 

“Oh, are you two on your way to the cafe?” Ayato asks with a smile on his face.

“Yep, are you going there too?” You responded, not noticing the hesitant look on Thoma’s face. 

The blue-haired man nodded in response. “Yes, actually–”

“Great! Why not come with us? Me and Thoma are on our way to the bus stop.” You invited with a smile, your offer got both Thoma and Ayato look at you in surprise. Did you really  just invite Kamisato Ayato to go ride a public bus?

However, before Thoma could tell you that Ayato has to do something else, the blue-haired man chuckles in amusement and beats him to it. “I suppose it won’t hurt to try. You may lead the way.” 

As you eagerly agreed and walked towards the school gate with Ayato following, Thoma stood there, wondering what on earth just happened.

Ayato, who never takes detours and always urgently go to the car that’ll take him home just to study and deal matters with his family’s business, not to mention he only goes to places with said car, and only visits the cafe when he actually had time, accepted to go with you despite knowing that he has an exam to study tomorrow with Thoma – who he clearly remembers how Ayato wasn’t planning on going to the cafe to study with him this week – and even agreed with going there by bus?

The blonde-haired looks down at his bag, the bag that holds a note that he was planning to put inside your locker, for you to know the time and place for him to confess his undying feelings for you. 

Thoma gulps a lump in his throat and slowly starts catching up with you and Ayato, forming a stiff smile on his face. Perhaps it’s for the best if I keep this to myself, he thought to himself. If no one knows, it didn’t happen. 

“What took you so long, Thoma?” You ask with a worried look on your face once you see your best friend standing behind you as the three of you now wait for the bus to arrive. “Did you forget something again in the classroom?” 

He lets out a small laugh in response, ignoring the way Ayato looks at you with different eyes. “Yeah, sorry about that.” 

“It’s alright, you made me worry for a second.” You comment, your worries fade away. “Me and Ayato were talking about drinks that he should try in your cafe – I can’t believe he’s missing out your favorite one!” 

The blue-haired man chuckles in response. “With how you explained it so enthusiastically, who am I to say no and not try it out?” 

Suddenly, it all felt like Thoma is watching a romance movie, his eyes darting between you and then at Ayato as his stiff smile threatens to fall apart when he sees the way you start to become shy with his best friend.

He supposes he should be grateful for not putting the note in your locker and not getting rejected. 

For the rest of the school year, it was clear to Thoma that you could never be with someone like him, not when you have someone like Ayato, who Thoma knows would be the better option. Ayato’s rich, powerful, dedicated, and could make you gush than anyone you ever fallen for – unlike Thoma, who’s just… himself. 

So he stands by and watches you and Ayato become together, as though he’s just a background character in a romance movie with you two being the main characters. 

Thoma even helped Ayato out in many ways he can to make him have progress with being connected with you more. Whether it’d be him backing out from your table with an excuse of working  so it would just be you and Ayato, him lying that he doesn’t know a certain topic that he obviously knows just so Ayato could help you study himself during study sessions, and even help his best friend plan his promposal to you– all those moments in which Thoma tells himself that this is his way of repaying Ayato for being his dearest friend since childhood. 

It hurts when you and Ayato officially become a couple. 

It hurts to go to his bed, no longer giggling or flustered from his shared moments with you as he stares at the ceiling with an empty look on his face. It hurts to work in his beloved cafe, trying to ignore how you and Ayato love each other as some of his customers would gush about how you two look like the perfect couple. It hurts to walk around the school campus as he hears whispers and hushed voices in both envy and admiration about how you and Ayato are such high school sweethearts.

He was glad that he never told anyone about his closed feelings towards you, the pity people would give could make the feeling worse than now. If no one knows, then nothing happened.

As years go by, so did the pain. 

Although Thoma had long accepted the fact that he’ll never get to be with you by the end of senior year, the pain didn’t go away that fast. How could one give up their feelings that they’ve felt for so many years just like that?

He couldn’t, and he hated himself for that. 

He watched as your relationship with Ayato grew throughout high school and college – it was evident that the two of you would never break up at all from how much the both of you love each other, and he envied it. Yet he didn’t do anything with his envy and heartbreak, he only continued to pursue in supporting your relationship. As long as you’re happy, that’s all that matters to Thoma. 

When it comes to you and Ayato fighting, you’d often come to Thoma for advice. He could’ve declined it, but he didn’t. He listened to you and comforted you in every way he could. He knows Ayato just as much as he knows you, so it wasn’t difficult to reassure you that yes, everything will be okay in the end. 

So when he watched Ayato leaving you one day with you sitting on your favorite spot of the cafe dumbfounded, he knew everything was not okay. 

When he saw you following Ayato and left your things, he felt worried. Did something bad happen between you and Ayato that made him leave?

Thoma continued to wait for what felt like an hour, when in reality it was only a few minutes before he saw you coming back. 

His heart broke at the sight of the empty look on your face.

From spending so much time with you, Thoma knew you were holding your tears in. You’re someone who never wanted to cry in public, and you’d probably even won’t tell anybody about it in fear of being a burden to them. 

But you’re never a burden to him.

He decided to slowly come up to you, watching you pack your stuff in a quick manner, as though you wanted to get out as soon as you can. Suddenly, you accidentally made one of your books fall, and he noticed how you flinched from the loud sound. 

The blonde-haired man quickly looked around, and to his relief, none of the customers were bothered by the sudden sound. 

Before you could try to get it, Thoma beat you to it and grabbed it for you.  

“Here you go, ( Name ).” The blonde-haired man said with a sweet smile.

“...Thanks, Thoma.” You spoke in a soft tone, and it hurts Thoma to hear how devastated it sounded. What on earth did Ayato do to you?

Just when he was about to ask if you needed anything, you shut your bag when you shoved the book inside and turned around towards the exit. “See you next time, Thoma.” 

Understanding that you needed space, he nodded slowly. “See.. you next time, ( Name ).” He said, watching you walk towards the door and leave the cafe.

As soon as you left and disappeared from his view, Thoma’s smile dropped. 

If only he knew at that moment how this would be the last time he’d see you. 

It didn’t take long before he quickly noticed how you and Ayato no longer meet each other the next day. It’s sometimes like this if your fights with Ayato were serious and led you to avoid the man, but this was different. 

It was as though the two of you had finally broken up. 

His concern further increases when he sees how you started to avoid people – specifically those who are also close friends with Ayato – as well as how you’re now found alone in school or with Ei and Miko if they aren’t busy from tasks as the student council officers. Although you still looked okay to others, Thoma knew you weren’t.

Despite the fact that you never talked to him since the incident, he didn’t come up to you either, thinking that it’s best that you need some space. The moment you call him, you can guarantee that he’ll instantly try to do everything he can to get to where you are. 

As for Ayato, he acts as if you never existed, acting the same as always. Whenever Thoma tries to bring you up in his conversations, the blue-haired man instantly changes topic with an unexplainable look on his face. He isn’t sure if Ayato’s truly alright, but the blue-haired man has always lied that he’s okay whenever the blonde-haired man asks.

For the first time since elementary school, Thoma felt helpless.

He felt sick to his stomach whenever you and Ayato’s mutual friends expressed their concerns about the two of you since none of you had any longer met up with them in the cafeteria. He’s just as concerned as they are, but he couldn’t do anything about it. 

It wasn’t until a few weeks had passed since his interaction with you in the cafe when Ei and Miko – the two people Thoma’s not the closest to – came up to him while he was on cleaning duty in class when he finally got the chance to talk to you. 

“They’re not doing good..” Ei spoke softly, frowning at the thought of you. “Miko and I did everything we could to comfort them for the past weeks, but ( Name ) wants to talk to you.” 

His eyes widened. 

The pink-haired woman then added, “I know you haven’t talked to them for the past few weeks – but we can tell that they need you now. They kept asking us how you were and if you’re still safe from being bullied whenever we visited them.” 

Thoma couldn’t help but feel touched. Even when you’re at your lowest, you still wonder about his well-being. 

Ei gestures to the man to come with them towards your dorm. “I’ll ask someone to handle the classroom. We need you to go to them now.” 

The student council president didn’t have to say it to him twice.

Thoma did everything he could to come to where you are as fast as his feet can take him, the only thing that runs in his mind is regret that he didn’t come to you sooner and ask if you’re alright. You must’ve thought he was avoiding you too. 

How could I be so stupid? He thought to himself, running faster when he’s closer to your dorm. 

By the time he arrived, it felt like he wasn’t in your dorm at all.

There was no liveliness that helped him feel welcomed, no music that you often listen to playing in the speaker, nor is there any furniture that isn’t dusty from being used.

He slowly took quiet steps towards your bedroom, taking note of how some pictures that had you and Ayato were missing as well as a few items that belonged to Ayato’s. 

He tried not to crumble when he saw you in your bedroom, staring at the window with eyes that no longer sparks life. It’s almost like Thoma’s just staring at an empty shell of what you used to be. 

When you noticed someone’s presence, you slowly turned away from the window to look at Thoma’s direction, only to lightly gasp when you found out who it was. He didn’t fail to notice how your eyes were swollen.

“...Hey ( Name ),” He spoke softly with a sad smile. “How have you been?” 

The both of you fell silent, and you continued to stare at him in shock.

A few seconds was all you needed before you felt your tears forming again, your shoulders began to shake. 

“He… He said he doesn’t love me anymore…” You sobbed, lifting your hands up to cover your face from your best friend, whose heart shattered at the sight of you. “He broke up with me and left me! A-And he keeps on ignoring me whenever I try to talk to him and I… I thought you didn’t want to hang out with me anymore and I don’t know how to face everyone else when Ayato and I are–” 

You gasped once more when you felt his arms wrapped around you into a comforting hug. “I would never want to stop hanging out with you, ( Name ). You won’t lose me.” He said in a reassuring tone, rubbing your back. “It must’ve been rough for you to go through so much, I’m sorry for not coming up to you sooner.” 

You slowly hug him back and close your eyes, sniffing as tears continue to come out. “I missed you, Thoma. I want to go to the cafe everyday like before but.. But I’m scared that I… I might see him again and breakdown and look like a fool in your cafe and–” 

“Hey, hey, it’s alright, don’t worry,” He spoke softly, “I can visit here everyday with your favorites. I’ll make sure you won’t see him if that’s what you want. Plus, the cafe’s trying out delivery now and I can just deliver it to you.” 

He feels your shoulders relaxing in response. “...Thank you, Thoma.” You whispered, still hugging him with no intentions of letting go just yet. 

“Anything for you, ( Name ).” He mumbles, closing his eyes. At this moment, all of his loyalty towards Ayato was forgotten, the only thing he prioritizes the most right now is to make sure you’re happy. 

“Anything for you.” 

It was a long journey, Thoma admits. He couldn’t blame you for having a hard time moving on since you were with Ayato for so many years and because you still don’t know the proper explanation as to why he broke up with you in the first place. 

Nevertheless, he was proud that you can face Ayato without crying anymore, and fully supported your decision in avoiding Ayato instead of continuing to try and talk to him. 

When Thoma saw Ayato entering the cafe, he was ecstatic – only for his face to drop when he saw a woman hugging his arm with a loving smile. 

It wasn’t until he overhears the conversation when Ayato asks the woman out on a date when he felt upset – rightfully so. How could he move on so fast and even find love with someone else? He was disappointed, really. 

Fortunately, you didn’t go back to square one when Ayato announced his official relationship with Chisato. However, that didn’t mean you weren’t hurt from the news. 

Thoma, alongside your dear friends who immediately visited you after finding out what happened, made sure to always be there by your side when you needed it. He respects everyone with how dedicated they are in cheering you up – especially Ei and Miko, who was by your side from the very beginning. 

He watched the way the two women insulted Ayato for breaking your heart whilst soothing you with words, bringing you light novels that Miko got her hands on from her family’s business as well as foods that Ei bought on her way to your place, and so much more.

Thoma was relieved that there’s people out there who are by your side just as much as he is with you.

He still continued to hang out with Ayato of course– however, it felt as though the tension between them was a bit stiff since the incident.

Thoma was glad Ayato’s current girlfriend, Hiiragi Chisato, wasn’t someone that’s malicious and greedy. Not when she was kind, considerate, and hardworking just as much as Ayato. She’s definitely someone Ayato’s parents would be glad to have as their daughter-in-law with how successful and wealthy her family is, unlike you – who unfortunately got disapproved by Ayato’s parents as soon as they found out that you weren’t particularly as wealthy as they are and don’t have a successful family business when Ayato told them after your first visit. 

Though, it’s safe to say that he felt bad whenever he and the others – Yoimiya, Itto, Sara, Kokomi, Gorou, and even Ayaka –  avoid the topic whenever Chisato mentions you. It’s clear that they didn’t want her to know about you, knowing that she would want to try and meet you unaware about your past relationship with Ayato. She’s in a completely different department in the university, so it’s no surprise that she doesn’t know you are Ayato’s past lover.

Even when you’re trying to move on, you still miss and love Ayato. Thoma could understand, since he has been through it when he found out that you love Ayato back, so he always reassures you that you shouldn’t stress that you’re taking too long to move on. 

It wasn’t until something happened in the after-finals party.

Thoma didn’t know what happened, but he did see you following Ayato outside and walked back in an hour later with an angry look on your face. 

“Are you alright, ( Name )?” Thoma asks as you stand beside him by the kitchen with your eyes narrowed.

“I’m done with him.” You mumbled, glaring at where Thoma assumes Ayato is in. “I’m sick and tired of him.”

The blonde-haired was surprised, but then he grabs an alcoholic bottle before pouring it on a new cup, handing it over to you as an offer. “Care to drink with me and tell me about it then?” 

Without hesitation, you grabbed the cup he poured and took a quick sip, unbothered by the burning sensation in your throat. “Gladly.” 

Just as you said so, you stopped crying for Ayato ever since that night. 

No one besides Thoma knew what happened between you and your ex in the party, but none dared to question it – even Miko herself. Nevertheless, what matters is that you’re moving on from Ayato, and they’re proud of you for that. 

However, there was still one thing Thoma wondered.

His best friend’s side. 

It just didn’t make sense, if he had to be honest. Why would Ayato, who’s always dedicated and committed to you and your relationship, suddenly fall out of love? 

Ayaka wondered the same thing when Thoma reached out to her about Ayato, saying how her brother went home one night acting strange and out of his mind, only for him to reassure her that he’s alright and acted normal the next day, pretending that nothing happened. 

Now that he thinks about it, how long has his dear friend continued to be like this?

Ever since you and Ayato separated, the blue-haired man grew busier, more silent, and more distant from everyone. It concerned Thoma, but what can he do when the blue-haired man always reassures him that he’s alright?

The same could go for everyone else – the ones who are friends with both you and Ayato – they’re deeply worried for Ayato just as much as they’re worried for you back when they didn’t know what was going on. 

By the time Ayato started dating Chisato, Thoma didn’t bother asking anymore, thinking that he definitely fell out of love with you since he fell in love with someone so quickly.

You started to visit the cafe as soon as your last year of college began, with you ordering new things while playing with Taroumaru, who’s now grown up into a strong puppy who now entertains customers as they await for someone to serve their orders, and enjoyed your time in the place despite it being the place where your heart got broken by Ayato.

Sometimes you’d go alone, and Thoma would keep you company whenever the cafe was quiet, either by studying with you or just chatting with you – just like good times. Sometimes you’d go with someone else, be it a groupmate for a project, your friend, or even your pet so that they can play with Taroumaru. He adored that you still go to your favorite spot.

Then time flew by, with everyone getting jobs after graduating, with Ayato finally getting assigned as the CEO of his family’s business, with the cafe growing famous in Inazuma thanks to social media, 

And with him still in love with you.

He honestly forgot about his feelings when he was by your side comforting you from your heartbreak. He only remembered as soon as Ayaka asked him if he had fallen in love with someone after gushing about the person she had a crush on one day while they were preparing for Ayato’s birthday.

Yes, he’s still in love, but he wouldn’t tell Ayaka that. 

If no one knows, it didn't happen. 

As for you, you found a job. Apparently someone reached out to you about a job that’s under the business that Ei’s family works in, so you’re ecstatic that you’re going to see Ei – who’s more than happy that you’re going to work for her. Thoma was glad that you found a good job that you love, so he was happy for you. 

However, there was something about the job that conflicted you.

“Though… I’m sad,” You said with a sigh, your wide smile turned into a sad one as you looked down at your drink that Thoma prepared for you. “I… I’ll have to go to Liyue in two weeks later to start my job.” 

The blonde-haired man froze, eyes slightly widening. Liyue was far from Inazuma, and it’s obvious that you’re trying to say that you’ll have to stay in the prosperous country for your job. 

“...Oh,” He spoke. “...Did you accept the job?” 

You shrugged. “I’m still thinking. I don’t want to leave this place – let alone leave you and the others. But then again, everything reminded me of him, and this job is my shot in–”

“Then do it.”

You stumbled on your words, looking up at the blonde-haired man in shock. “Wh-What?”

Thoma shoots you an encouraging look. “You should go for it if you want it. Don’t worry about me and the others, we can still be in touch even when you’re away.” 

You blinked a few times. “Should I..?” 

He nodded eagerly. “Follow what your heart wants. You still have Ei and Miko in there, and I’m sure you’d make friends with people who are just as good as everyone here.” He then places his hand on yours in a reassuring grip, something that became a habit of his as a way to comfort you back then. “You’ll never lose me. Call me whenever you’re free to chat, alright? We’re best friends, after all.”

You put your other hand on top of his as well, your smile no longer sad. “..Yeah, you’re right… Thanks, Thoma.”

A few days after that, you finally decided to accept the job, much to Thoma’s delight. He knew you needed to go away and get a fresh start, and your job is worth accepting for. 

He soon helped you pack your things, whilst playing games and watching movies together afterwards. Those nights are when Thoma dreams that it’s just him helping you move into his place, causing him to sleep with a happy heart at the thought. 

The day before you left, everyone decided to hang out in the cafe for your farewell party, giving you gifts to bring with you as well as speeches – with Itto beatboxing for you causing you to laugh – even Ayaka came by and gave you a gift, wishing you well and happy future. 

It’s safe to say that the party was the reason why your worries about leaving your friends ended, you couldn’t help but tear up with how much everyone was proud and happy for your new job.

Thoma was happy that he’s the one who’ll take you to the airport, wanting to be the last person to give you a farewell before you officially leave the country and live in Liyue. 

“I guess this is it.” You said as you stood by the terminal gate that’ll take you to your plane. “I’ll miss you and your cafe, Thoma. Please tell your mom that I’ll miss her too.” 

Thoma nodded. “Of course. You better call me when you arrive at your apartment!”

“Only if you include Taroumaru in your video call!” You teased, the both of you laughing. 

You then pulled him in for a hug. “I honestly don’t know if I’ll be able to chat with you often since Miko and Ei told me working under the Tenryou business will make me a busy person, but I’ll make sure to chat whenever I can.”

“It’s fine, ( Name ).” He reassures you, hugging you back with a soft sigh. “I’ll miss you as well.” 

 “I hope you’ll find someone that will make you happy, Thoma.” You spoke softly. 

“Why would I when I found you?” The blonde-haired man wanted to punch himself for spilling those words from his mouth, until you giggled in response.

“That’s not what I meant Thoma,” You clarified, thinking that he didn’t understand your words. “I meant I hope you’ll be able to find someone who you’ll fall in love with and date. I’m sure you’ll make them as happy as how you made me happy.” 

He stays silent, watching you let go of him and take your luggage from him. “I gotta go now, see you next time, Thoma.” 

Thoma then waves, still frozen from what you said.

There’s no one who I love but you.

– 

“So, they left huh?” Ayato asks, sipping his boba as Thoma sits across from his best friend with a shocked look on his face. 

The blonde-haired man was entering the cafe from the airport when he immediately spotted his best friend inside the establishment for the first time since his visit with Chisato. 

The blonde-haired gulps the lump in his throat, smiling stiffly. “Yeah…” 

Ayato smiles at that response, and he looks as if he’s relieved. “I’m glad… They deserve to go there, that job will make them happier than I can.” 

Thoma then realized what Ayato was doing. He’s finally opening up to the blonde-haired man about you. 

“I do apologize for… being distant.” He spoke. “I know you must be disappointed in me for what I did with ( Name ). I’m disappointed in myself as well.” 

The blonde-haired man frowns, not speaking up as he listens to what the man has to say intently. 

“I never told… anyone about this, so you’re the first one.” Ayato confesses. “Yes, I had to push them away. I know they would fight for our relationship, and I love them for that, but I cannot let them do it.”

“Did you… really fall out of love with them?” Thoma wonders, his heart ponders in suspension. 

The man pauses, and smiles in sadness. “I did not.” 

He gasps in response. “Then.. Then why? Why did you do it?” 

The two of them fell silent for at least a minute until Ayato gave in.

“...The thing I have between me and Chisato,”

He hesitates for a moment. “What we have is simply an arranged marriage.” 

Thoma’s heart dropped. 

Ayato looks out at one of the windows with a longing gaze. “I.. I couldn’t afford to let my sister go in an arranged marriage, I knew it would happen to her. So I decided to take one for her when Chisato’s father offered my parents an arranged marriage.” He explains. “I knew that ( Name ) would be disappointed in me and would try to make me stop it, so I.. I did what I had to do.” 

He then looks back at Thoma. “It’s better this way, don’t you think?” 

“Even if they hate you now?” Thoma asks. 

Ayato nodded. “..I don’t mind. I just want them to be happier now, and that is enough for me. We both know I don’t deserve their love,” He then chuckles to himself, as if disappointed. “I even pushed their relationship with me aside for the sake of my family.” 

Thoma didn’t reply to that, mentally agreeing that Ayato’s right. “What about Chisato?”

The blue-haired man sighs. “She’s aware of this being an arranged marriage. But she isn’t aware that I still long for someone else.” He inhales sharply. “Her father forced me to make sure to charm her before proposing to her so that she’d be more than willing to be in this arranged marriage, so I can’t do anything about it with the fact that she’s in love with me.”

Ayato then notices the familiar sight of his driver coming out from the car outside the cafe, gesturing Ayato to the time. 

“.. I’ll apologize to ( Name ) someday. Then maybe we can be friends again – even if that will take years or even if they potentially won’t allow us to.” He then stands up, grabbing his cloak and his drink. “Thank you for taking care of ( Name ), Thoma. Never speak of this conversation with anyone, alright?”

If no one knows, it didn’t happen. 

As Ayato leaves the cafe after giving both Thoma and his mother farewell, Thoma finds himself sitting in your favorite spot, only this time, he was alone.

–

You couldn’t help but feel amazed by Liyue’s airport as you head over towards the exit, looking around the place as if you’re in a whole new world–

You suddenly bumped into someone, muttering out an apology in embarrassment. Great, first day and you aren’t paying attention to your surroundings!

You paused when you realized the stranger, who also muttered an apology and left, dropped a pocket watch on the ground.

Quickly grabbing the pocket watch, you instantly rush over to the stranger who’s walking side by side with another man, memorizing what words to say in your head. 

“Sir!” You called, and the stranger turned around in confusion. 

“You dropped this,” You said, showing him the pocket watch. “Sorry again for bumping into you, by the way.” 

The man’s eyes slightly widen, slowly grabbing the watch from you. “Thank you.” 

You nodded with a smile. “It’s no problem.” 

Without another word, you immediately ran off from the two men, not realizing how a few people, particularly the paparazzi, were staring at you with wide eyes. 

“My, I’m surprised they didn’t know about us two, Diluc.” Kaeya spoke in amusement, watching you go away. “You’re lucky they gave you that pocket watch. I’m not sure what would happen to you if you lost your father's watch after he just died.”

Diluc, the man you came up to, glared at Kaeya. “Watch your mouth before I make sure you’re not going to my private plane on our way back to Mondstadt.” 

The other laughed. “I’m rich too, Diluc.”

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CHAPTER SIX || HAPPINESS

SYPNOSIS (of chapter). in which there’s no happiness in both sides.

SYPNOSIS (of series). breaking up with your first love was heartbreaking, but not as heartbreaking as getting invited to his wedding after years of not seeing him. that is, until things seem to be easier when you encounter a certain guest, who could end up being more than just a blooming friend to you.

CHARACTERS. kamisato ayato, diluc ragnvindr (w/ gn!reader)

CONTENT. angst/no-comfort, modern!au, ooc ayato (?), mentions of breakup, no tw as far as ik of

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Ayato is always prepared. 

For all his life, he was prepared to become the best of the best, to ensure that his  family’s business is as prosperous as always, and to face many obstacles and those who dare to threaten the Yashiro Company. 

For all his life, he never wished that his life would go different, that his life had never revolved around handling the Yashiro Company and could’ve lived freely. He never expected anything from school, the one thing that at least made him feel like he’s normal like his peers, and only thought the only important thing is the future that awaits. 

You weren’t someone he considered important back then. 

He’s heard of your name before, from Thoma’s lips as he happily chats away with the blue-haired man, from some student council officers who wondered if you’d be free to hang out with them, and from certain events in school that involved you in it. 

You weren’t someone important, until you did. 

Ayato always visits Komore Cafe whenever he can or when he needs something refreshing after a tiring day. However, the particular reason why he visited is because of Thoma’s absence. For the past weeks, the blonde-haired man has been spacing out often, causing Ayato to grow concerned for his dear friend. He thought it was because of how his family’s business started to blossom more than ever and was just exhausted from working, but when the blue-haired man visited, he later found out from Thoma’s mother that Thoma had recently gone home late.

Thoma never goes home late, as far as he knew at least.

It took perhaps thirty minutes after Ayato sat on his seat when his best friend arrived, but to his surprise, Thoma brought company.

The moment you entered inside the cafe, he felt like the world had grown brighter.

You brought his attention, strangely more than how most people that Thoma’s with. He wasn’t sure if it’s the way the sunlight made you exceptionally breathtaking, the way you lightly laughed at Thoma’s clumsiness and stumbled words (a side that Ayato never saw from his best friend), or the way you feel like you’re going to be more than just someone who has the same friend as he. 

Whatever it is that made Ayato interested, he just knew he wanted you in his life, be it as a friend or–

No, that won’t happen. 

But then it did. 

One simple conversation and Ayato was curious. Two more conversations and Ayao wanted more. More conversations and Ayato is hooked. 

Whenever he’s with you, it feels like he’s a whole different person. Instead of the disciplined and refined Kamisato Ayato, he’s just the mischievous and sickeningly sweet Ayato. Whenever he’s with you, it felt like you could see through him and read him like an open book, not because you’re a great observant person, but because he allowed you to – even if he sometimes didn’t mean to. 

Whenever he’s with you, he falls even more in love. 

He never planned for this to happen. 

Romance was something he had never considered in his life, knowing that one day he’ll be in an arranged marriage should his father accept such an offer. However, now that he has you, he thought his father wouldn’t make him pursue arranged marriage – besides, his family loved you, how could there possibly be a chance he would be separated from the person he holds dear to his heart? 

Yet here he is, getting ready for a wedding with the person who isn’t you. 

The biggest regret of Ayato’s life was the inability to fight hard enough for you, choosing to follow his family instead of following the desires of his heart. The world went back to being bland, monotone even. How did he manage to live through his past without you? How can he go back to being the disciplined and refined Kamisato Ayato without the side that was often brought out because of you? 

He wanted to cast his heart aside, but seeing your devastating face every single day in college was enough for him to be reminded that his heart still and always will be longing for you. 

There was not a day where he wondered what could’ve been if he had decided to let the name and reputation of the Kamisato family go tarnished and chose to be with you, what could’ve been if he had ignored his blooming feelings for you back then and not be your boyfriend in the first place, or what could’ve been if fate was not so cruel to him. 

Perhaps he should’ve ignored his feelings, then none of this would have happened. 

If he ignored it, he wouldn’t have broken up with you and become cold towards you, ignored you for the rest of the days in college, spend sleepless nights in devastation and regret, made you despise him for the words he lied about, nor would he become a desperate soul longing for a forgiveness he can’t reach. 

One of the things he didn’t exactly plan is inviting you to his wedding.

It was one thought at first, what if he’d invite you to the wedding and apologize? But then again, it would cause quite a ruckus if anyone, especially the Hiiragi family,  found out about his first love visiting the wedding. 

That one thought turned to countless thoughts. 

There’s nothing Ayato wants more than to have you as his lover. He’s no cruel man, he would never lash out the despair he holds on someone like Chisato – who’s only dragged to this as well and had no part in starting this marriage arrangement – but there were times when he wished he didn’t want to see her. What’s the point of waking up if you’re not the one who he sees? 

He then decided no, he won’t invite you to the wedding. You most likely have moved on, maybe even met someone new, and maybe that someone is…

Foolish, Ayato thought to himself. You have no right to be jealous. Not when they’re no longer yours. 

It took one conversation occurred between him and Thoma, who’s chosen as his best man for the wedding, that made the CEO think otherwise. 

“Why don’t we invite Ei, Miko, and ( Name )? I think it would be a great reunion with our friends if they came.” Thoma brought up as he checks the guest list for Ayato.

The blue-haired man instantly looks at the blonde-haired man when he mentions your name. “Oh?” 

He nods. “I’m sure they’ll accept it, especially since ( Name ) haven’t seen the others for so long, and besides, maybe you might… make up with them?” 

Ayato chuckles, now understanding Thoma’s motives. “Ah, so you’re just here to suggest ( Name ), huh?” 

The blonde-haired man’s cheeks turns red in embarrassment – or is it from thinking about you? “P-Partially.. I just think it’s best if you and ( Name ) finally settle things between you properly. They deserve to know–”

“Then it’s settled.” 

“Huh?” 

Ayato’s lips twitch upward. “I just needed someone to suggest the same thing as I, so let’s add them on the list, make sure that no one slips a single word about the… past relationship.” 

Thoma’s eyes slightly widened, not expecting the man to easily accept the suggestion. “You.. You have my word. I’ll add them to the guest list and add three more invitations.” 

The CEO hums in response, looking down to continue his work. “You’re dismissed then if that’s all.” 

Thoma bows and walks out from the office, his mind has nothing but the thought of the way his boss, his best friend for so many years, looks exceptionally bright for the first time since forever.

Another thing he didn’t plan was to be speechless when he first sees you. 

He still remembers your conversation about how you wanted your wedding to be in Mondstadt like it was yesterday. 

To you, marriage was something you fantasized whenever the both of you talked about your shared future. To him, marriage was something he wanted whenever the both of you talked about your shared future. 

“Ooh, perhaps we should pick Mondstadt as our location! Won’t it be sweet if you and I get married in Mondstadt? I hear they have romantic sceneries that are a wonderful sight.” You said, and Ayato watches you scrolling down your phone with a smile on his face. You look so cute when you’re so focused and fixated on your phone, he just can’t help but decide to hold you close to him!

He lets out a chuckle, the color pink dusted his cheeks from how close the both of you are. “Whatever makes you happy, love. It’d be great if the cathedral is available by the time we’re ready. I hear that it can make the wedding altar sceneric with how the sun reflects through the windows.” He spoke up, imagining the way the sunlight would shine on you, causing you to look more radiant than ever. 

He could sense your smile. “It seems I’m not the only one who has researched.” You teased, and he couldn’t help but place his lips on your temple. 

“Of course. You’re not the only one who’s looking forward to our future together.” He retorts, holding you closer as he relishes your presence with a happy sigh. “Nevertheless, even if things do not go our way, I’m sure we’ll be prepared for everything.”

But I wasn’t prepared for these circumstances. He thought at the back of his mind as he and Chisato continued to greet their guests.. How silly of me to even think I would be able to be with the person I want… His eyes darken slightly, the polite smile on his face was on the verge of disappearing. 

Just as you said, the hotel was truly a magnificent place to stay in – the pictures you showed him didn’t give the hotel justice, in fact. If only you were here as his spouse instead, then perhaps the place would be vibrant��

The bored look on his face instantly disappears when his eyes land on familiar ones. 

Not too far away from where he is stood the person who he wanted to be with for the rest of his life, looking as breathtaking as always as you continue to be unaware of his staring. You look happier than before when you were heartbroken from his breakup with you, and although you look older now, you're still the same person he fell in love with. 

It felt like he was back to being the mischievous and sickeningly sweet student whose heart was taken by someone who loved him back. 

Reality suddenly washes over him when you noticed him staring at you, his heart ached at the way your smile wasn’t seen on your features – you looked hesitant, as if you’re meeting the infamous CEO of the Yashiro business and not the man you once loved. 

It felt like you now see him as a stranger. 

“Dear?” Chisato calls. 

He immediately looks away from your direction to look at his future bride, and he realizes that the guests he has been greeting have now left. “Are you alright, Ayato?” Chisato asks with a worried look on her face.

The blue-haired man smiles reassuringly. “I’m alright, I just spotted a long time old friend. Shall we get going and greet them?” 

Chisato looks at where Ayato was staring, her eyes brightens at the sight of you. “Oh, it’s ( Name )! We should get going then, I’m sure you have a lot to talk about with them.” 

Without hesitation, the couple went towards you, and Ayato sees the way your lips went upwards when you started talking to your plus one – who seems to look familiar for some reasons he couldn’t point out.

By the time he stands completely near to you, he instantly calls your name – something that he hasn’t spoken for such a long time. 

“( Name ).” 

You slowly turned around, causing him to see you clearly now that he’s closer to you. “It’s… been a while.” He spoke, letting out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. “I’m glad you took the time to come here, I hope your trip to Mondstadt was alright.”

He didn’t mean to be so formal, but he knows people are watching. 

“It’s been a while as well, Kamisato.” You replied, not noticing how hurt flashes through his eyes from how you called him by his surname as you look at Chisato, who gave you a polite smile. “You must be the lucky bride, I’m–” 

“( Name ), right?” The woman interrupts, and despite being so close to you, Ayato felt so distant. “I’ve heard so much about you! Ayato here told me how you two were best friends for such a long time! I’m honored to meet you, I’m Hiiragi Chisato.” 

He wanted more than just best friends. 

Ayato sees the way you looked confused despite your attempts to hide it. Even after years of not seeing you, you’re still so easy to read like a book – or his favorite book, rather. 

You then spoke. “Yes. I’m honored to meet you as well, Miss Chisato. I hope you’ll enjoy your stay here – Mondstadt’s a beautiful place for a wedding.” 

A wedding that should’ve been yours and I, Ayato thought solemnly as Chisato giggled. “Oh I know. Ayato couldn’t stop telling me about how he had always wanted to get married in Mondstadt,” She suddenly wraps her arms around his, and he feels the urge to disappear from the look on your face. He felt so suffocated. “And how could I say no to this man? I’m glad I didn’t, the hotel surely made me amazed.” She adds.

The look you have on your face instantly washes away, letting out a light laugh. “Ah I see. Oh, I forgot to mention!” He watched as you gestured to the man standing beside you.  “This is my plus one, Zhongli. He’s my close friend and neighbor in Liyue.” You explained as Zhongli lightly bows at the couple, and Ayato couldn’t help but have his suspicions grow now that the man is closer. Where have I seen this man before? He wonders.

“Pleased to meet you both. I’d like to send my congratulations on your wedding.” Zhongli spoke smoothly. 

Ayato dares not to show his suspicion, humming in acknowledgement. “You have our gratitude, Mr. Zhongli. Though, I can’t help but point out how you look… familiar. Have we perhaps met before?” 

He pays no mind to the way you raised an eyebrow at his words as Zhongli clears his throat with a polite smile. “Ah well, I don’t think I recall. You must’ve mistaken me for another.” The brown-haired man spoke. 

Liar, Ayato thought, but before he could persist, he was instantly interrupted by Chisato, who got excited at the sight of other familiar faces nearby. 

“Oh Ayato, look! Your parents have arrived at last, we should greet them!” She said excitedly, not noticing the way her future husband’s breath hitches. “Excuse me for a moment. I hope you guys will enjoy your stay!”

“Likewise, Miss Chisato. We’ll be going to our room then.” You said with a smile, and Ayato could tell it was tense – probably due to the worries of getting possibly called out by them that you’re his ex. 

He couldn’t help but wonder what could’ve been if you were the one who’s getting married to him.

“...I’ll be going now as well,” The blue haired man spoke, his polite smile threatening to falter as thoughts of you plague his mind like always. “It’s nice seeing you again… ( Name).” 

Without another word, he left to follow Chisato, leaving you and your plus one alone together.

He wasn’t sure if there would ever be the day when you’d call him by his name from now on.

For the next few days, Ayato’s encounters with you are far from pleasant. They’re more-so tense, as if you two are strangers who are forced to get along with one another, as if you two are people with no chemistry. 

It hurts, but this is on him. 

He wanted to talk to you right away and come clean, but with the tasks he had to do for the wedding, it seems he won’t be able to talk to you any time soon much to his dismay. 

By the time he did have the time to come up to your room one afternoon, he felt hesitant. 

It took him perhaps 30 minutes as he stands in front of your hotel room, reciting the words in his head that will soon escape from his lips once he sees your face. It honestly made him remember the old days when he used to stand in front of your class trying to find the right words to use to invite you out for lunch with him – that’s how much you affect the so-called perfect Kamisato heir, leaving him at a loss for words at your waking moment. 

When he gains the courage to ring the doorbell, the person who opens the door is not the one he’s looking for.

“...Good afternoon, Mister Kamisato.” Zhongli greeted, and Ayato felt disappointed that it wasn’t you who he saw. “May I help you?” 

Ayato smiles politely. Oh well, you’re probably doing something in the room. “...Is ( Name ) here?” He asks. 

His heart sank when Zhongli shook his head in response. “Unfortunately not. They’re outside hanging out with Miss Miko and Miss Shogun.” 

They must’ve explored around the city after their lunch, Ayato assumes, regaining his facade once more when he realizes that his smile slightly dropped. “Oh.. I see.. I was hoping I was going to talk to them about something..” Ayato supposes he can talk to you another time. 

As if reading his mind, Zhongli then spoke. “You can visit again tomorrow. From what I remember, ( Name ) won’t be having any plans in mind on that day.” 

The blue haired man nods slowly. “I understand, thank you for telling me.” 

Despite planning on walking away, Ayato’s feet are glued to the floor, debating whether or not he should continue talking to your dear friend. 

“If… I may be bold to ask, what’s your relationship with ( Name )?” He asks. 

Zhongli tilts his head. Although you have already spoken about him being your close friend, Ayato couldn’t help but feel the urge to ask about his relationship with you – mainly because of how the other man seems to be more than what meets the eye. “...( Name ) and I are neighbors. We’ve been friends ever since they traveled to Liyue.”

“I see,” Ayato murmured, shoulders slowly relaxed when he thought of how you became friends with someone as soon as you arrived in Liyue. “...I take it that they’re doing well in Liyue?” 

“Why don’t you ask ( Name ) that when you try to talk to them tomorrow?” Zhongli retorts. “I’m sure they’re willing to tell you. That is.. If you have good intentions when you come up to them.” 

Ayato felt surprised. How bold, he thought. It’s reasonable though, especially when he had hurt you enough. “You’re a good friend, Mister Zhongli. Rest assured that I don’t have any ill intentions towards ( Name ).” Nor do I intend to, he thought. “I shall not waste your time any longer, thank you for providing some answers for me. I just want to..” He hesitates for a moment. “...know how they’ve been.” 

“It’s no problem, Mr. Kamisato.” Zhongli nods. “Have a good day.”

The next day, Ayato had plenty of encounters with you. 

However, said encounters didn’t involve him talking to you. Not when he often sees the infamous Diluc Ragnvindr with you. 

How on earth did you two know each other? He questioned. It isn’t out of jealousy, of course, but out of curiosity. Seeing how awkward the both of you look with one another, it seems that you have only known each other recently. 

He always sees the both of you by the dining room of the hotel, the convenience store where he saw you snatch the last grape juice away in front of the tycoon while he was waiting for his boba to be served, the gym,

And by the lobby, where everything just went wrong.

Ayato managed to see you walking towards the elevator alone, and he was debating on whether or not right now is the best time to talk to you. 

When he notices you catching him staring, he doesn't feel any shame or embarrassment, just agonized when he sees the way your face drops and looks away from his direction. 

He then decides to walk towards you, thinking that if he won’t confront you now, then when? 

But today was not his day, it seems. 

As you try to walk away, you accidentally bump into someone, causing Ayato to instantly rush over and hold you back from falling to the floor, your back facing him. He ignores how the person that bumped into you walked away, too distracted from the fact that he has you in his hold. 

How long has it been since he held you?

“...Mr. Kamisato.” You spoke, and without hesitation you took a few steps away from him with a small frown, something he didn’t fail to notice. 

He dares not to look hurt. “..Are you alright?” He asks, glancing behind him to try and look for the person who bumped into you, only to be dismayed when he sees no one among the crowd. How dare they bump into you and not apologize? 

“It’s a good thing I managed to catch up, it’d be a shame if my guest became injured during such a special occasion–”

“Thank you,” You interrupted, and he quickly shut his mouth. It’s as clear as the day that you’re uninterested to talk, but he couldn’t find himself to leave you again. “I apologize for disturbing you with my recklessness, I’ll be going no–”

He stops you just as you try to take another step to walk away. “Do you mind if…” He hesitates. “If you and I could talk for a while?” 

You turned around to look at him. “..Talk about.. What?”

Ayato felt a bit taken back. Of course you wouldn’t assume he’s going to talk about the past, not when he had avoided it back then. “About… us back then. I would like to apologize for what I did to you.” He explains slowly. He’s here to apologize, not to tell you how much he misses you. 

Even when forgiveness is out of his reach, he still wants you to know that he regrets it and would never forget it. 

“...Why now…?” You spoke. 

His eyes widened. “...Pardon?”

You move your hand away from his grip right away, and his heart sank. He remembers how much he suffers in silence back then in college, how much he wanted nothing more but to run to your arms every time you tried to come up to him, how much he always wanted you to be the one who has his ring and no one else, how much he want to see you again even when he could’ve go to Liyue with the snap of his fingers, and to remove the pained look that your eyes hold that he caused.

Why did it have to be like this?

It was evident that he has to face the fact that he still refuses to move on.

“Did… Did you expect me to easily forgive you, Mr. Kamisato?” You spoke shakily, your eyes refusing to meet his. His face drops from your explanation, leaving him speechless. 

However, before he could try to reply, someone suddenly interrupts the conversation.

“Ayato, my son!” 

Ayato shuts up when he hears his father’s voice, the words that were stuck in his throat disappear at once. Why did he have to appear now?

As Mr. Kamisato chats with you, the thoughts that ran through Ayato’s head was nothing but how much he wants to take you somewhere private as he watches the way you look even more overwhelmed.

He isn’t sure which one he despises, the way he holds a little despise towards his own parents or the way he knows that you’ll start avoiding him more now that you know his intentions – as if this is his punishment for avoiding you for so long during college.

Either way, he knows he doesn’t deserve you. 

The rest of the conversation you have with his father was all a blur, it only stopped when he realizes you’re trying to stop the conversation with his father. 

“Indeed they did, I should uhm.. I should get along now, I forgot that I have an appointment that’s due.” You spoke, not noticing how Ayato sees the way your hands started to get fidgety. 

He’ll help you, his apology can wait. 

Before his father could say a word, Ayato finally talked. “I can escort you if you’d like. I’m on my way towards the elevator as well.” 

“Ah, let’s not bother Mx. ( Last Name ), son.” Mr. Kamisato spoke immediately, eyeing at your direction with a concerned look. “I’m sure Mx. ( Last Name ) can go to where they need to be without you. We wouldn’t want people to misunderstand the situation if they ever see you two together, right?” 

Ayato shoots his father a frown. Of course his father prioritizes reputation, but why can’t he just realize that you’d rather be somewhere else than here?

Before the CEO could protest, he realizes someone is now standing behind you. 

“...Mx. ( Last Name ).” 

His eyes widen when he hears a familiar voice. 

“...Mr. Ragnvindr.” You breathe out, turning around to see the red-haired man. Ayato couldn’t help but wonder about Diluc's motives – it’s unusual for the aloof tycoon like this – especially with the way he looks at you differently. 

“Oh? It seems you know Mx. ( Last Name ), Mr. Ragnvindr.” Ayato’s father spoke up, his shoulders relaxed. “How unexpected, if I may be so bold to comment.”

Diluc hums in response. “Indeed we have. We actually just met a few days ago outside the hotel. We’re planning on visiting the.. Restaurant upstairs to get to know each other more.” 

Ayato’s eyes slightly widens – Wait, are they– 

The red-haired man clears his throat immediately. “As friends, of course.”

The CEO looks in your direction to see if you’re uncomfortable with Diluc’s presence, only to see you laugh lightly.  “Uhm, yes.. I was actually going upstairs to meet up with Mr; Ragnvindr there! B-But it seems I must’ve taken quite a while from how.. I was carried away with the conversation I had with you guys.” You explained. From the way you talked, it’s no lie that you’re definitely making it up, and you now have someone who can take you to your room.

As long as you’re alright, then who is he to try and ruin your chance?

A stiff smile grew on his face. “I see.. I shouldn’t take your time too long then,” He then gives Diluc an acknowledged nod. “I hope you have fun. Shall we take our leave now, father?”

Ayato’s father nodded right away. “Of course. I had a pleasant time with you, Mx. ( Last Name ).” 

You nodded in response with a small smile. “I had a… pleasant time as well, Mr. Kamisato, as well as Mr. Ayato Kamisato.” 

Without another word, the four of you went away to the opposite directions. 

As soon as Ayato and his father went to a less crowded area, he felt his father’s eyes bore on him with a warning look on his face.

“Be careful next time, Ayato.” He whispers, eyeing around the room cautiously. “If one of them finds out about ( Last Name ), who knows what they’ll do. So if you’re trying to talk to them, find a better way and a private place.”

The light in Ayato’s eyes dims, remembering the reason why all of this is happening in the first place. “...I apologize, father.” 

His father lets out a sigh, looking at where you had left with Diluc. “It’s… alright. Just make sure to be more careful – for both their sake and our family’s.” 

With his father’s words taken to heart, Ayato indeed found a way to talk to you in private.

Today is September 27, the day before the joint bachelor and bachelorette party, and the groom decides to use the opportunity to talk to you while everyone else is scrambling to prepare for the upcoming event.

Just like before, there were multiple times when he encountered you. 

He meets you in the morning whereas he spots you taking a stroll in the hotel’s garden area peacefully. His stomach flips at the sound of your light laughter from something your friend is saying, whose smile is as wide as yours.

He feels grateful that you have someone like Zhongli to hang out with, but he still felt a bit suspicious of the man. 

Not wanting to ruin your peaceful time, he decided to just try and talk to you when he meets you again next time. 

Said next time happened in the buffet room. While Ayato was eating lunch with Thoma, he noticed you walking by with your meal. He was about to excuse himself and try to come up to you until his best man started bringing up questions regarding the party tomorrow while not noticing your presence, leaving the groom no choice but to keep his excuse silent and answer all of the blonde-haired man’s questions. 

When Ayato finished answering, he tried to excuse himself again, only this time he stopped when he saw you talking to some of your friends with a huge smile on your face, something he never sees when you talk to him this week, as you take a bite of your favorite food (that was somehow available in the buffet)

Nevertheless, he feels happy to see that you still like to eat your favorite food, but he wanted Itto, who’s with you by the table, to stop snatching some of your food away to eat it.

Not wanting to ruin your conversation with your old friends, he decided to try and talk to you when he meets you again next time.  

The next time he sees you, the both of you are in a cafe called Cat’s Tail. While he’s sitting by the corner of the cafe alone, he notices you entering the cafe alone, making a beeline towards the cash register to get your order.

He observes you without you noticing his presence. He thought to himself that if you end up staying in the cafe, he’ll try to come up to you and sit across from you to come clean.

Much to his relief, you went towards one of the tables and sat there. 

He feels a bit nostalgic that the table you went to is similar to your favorite spot back in Komore’s Cafe from Inazuma, he could still remember back when he always sat across from you as you try to study for upcoming quizzes and exams. For the past years since you had left, he simply stays by your favorite spot every time he visits the cafe, hoping that one day if faith isn’t cruel, he gets to see you instead of an empty chair in front of him. 

Before Ayato could stand up to come up to you, he stops himself when he sees an employee walking towards him with his order. He’s grateful that his name wasn’t called, given that it’d make you become aware that he’s in the same room as you. 

Reluctantly, he decided to not go to you just yet, not wanting to be seen as rude to the server who’s completely oblivious.

By the time the server was finished and took her leave, Ayato instantly looks at where you are, only to see you walking out from the cafe with your order in hand. 

Not wanting to ruin your small break, he decides to try and talk to you when he meets you again next time. 

The next time he meets you, it’s now in the elevator. 

He was on his way up to your hotel room when you suddenly entered the floor, all the words he had in his mind went on the verge to disappear – this time, he made sure not to forget. 

This time, Ayato made sure to no longer push this aside for “next time” and finally talk to you.

Meanwhile, your mind goes blank as soon as you realize who was in front of you, not expecting Ayato out of all people to be in the same elevator as you. 

There’s no going back now, you thought to yourself before awkwardly entering the platform, and the blue-haired man took a few steps on the side to give you space.

If there was another person in the same elevator as the both of you, then the tense atmosphere would surely be as clear as glass. 

“...I apologize if our encounter last time made you uncomfortable, ( Name ).” He broke the silence a few seconds after the elevator closed. “I only wanted to discuss important matters with you, but… it seems that I should have known my boundaries and try harder in taking my father away before he could bother you more.” 

You slightly get tense as your mind calculates your response, refusing to look at your ex. “...It’s alright.. I’m guessing you still want to talk about us back then..?”

Ayato nods slowly, swallowing the lump in his throat. “I do.” 

He sees the way your shoulders slumps, and he immediately wants to take his word back. “But seeing how I’m too late for that, it’s understandable if you don’t want to.” 

You became quiet for a few seconds. He would be lying if he said he wasn’t nervous– did he take it too far? Did he do it at a bad time? Would you hear him out?

“This is… late.” You comment carefully. “I don’t know what even made you think today out of all the years you could’ve talked to me is the best time to do it, but if it helps you with your wedding, then do as you please. Just don’t assume I’d forgive you now..” 

He hesitated for a moment and let out a light sigh. 

“What Chisato and I have is… an arranged marriage.” What she and I have is nothing compared to what you and I had, he thought. 

.

.

.

You stayed silent after that. Even when you had a few seconds before a “ding!” is heard, even when the elevator opens and displays the number of your floor, even when Ayato stares at you with a desperate look on his face – wanting you to at least give a reaction instead of this – you didn’t say anything no matter what. 

It was only when you turned around to face him after walking out from the elevator, and he couldn’t recognize you with that look on your face, not when he hasn’t seen it for so long since college.

“I don’t want your apology.” You said, your voice grew soft. “Letting you go was the hardest thing I’ve ever done… and I want to move on now.” Pain flashes through your eyes as Ayato’s heart shatters at this moment, the elevator suddenly starts closing.

You suddenly stopped it from closing, wanting to say more as the elevator reopens itself. “That woman you’re getting married to loves you – she looks at you the way I do and I’m sure you will be happier with her than with me.” 

He opens his mouth, only for you to silent him by shaking your head in dismay. “Whether or not you disagree with me, it doesn’t matter. It’s too late for you and I to even consider going back to the way we used to be, so you might as well just try to be happier in your wedding instead.” 

You noticed how the elevator starts closing, causing you to take it as your cue to leave. “Be happy, Kamisato Ayato. That’s the only thing I ask from you.” 

Just like that, the elevator was close shut, leaving the CEO alone with his thoughts and shattered heart filled with regret. 

The look on your face that will haunt his mind from now on has reminded him of a certain incident before, specifically the day that made you finally come to terms and stop talking to your ex. 

“This is different,” He interrupts. “You are different.” 

You scoffed. “What does she have that I don’t? Is it the money? Her reputation? Her company?!” 

He stays silent for a moment, and despite being with him for so many years, his expression right now is something you have never seen before. 

“My love.” 

Those words are enough to make your eyes widen as your breath hitches.

“...What do you mean?” You breathe out, watching as something flashes through his eyes when he realizes what he said. It must’ve been a regret for confessing what he said. 

“Unlike you,” He hesitates for a moment before letting out a sigh of defeat, “she has my love.” 

It took a few minutes for you to process what he had just said, when it did, you felt like the whole world – your own world –  was crashing down around you. 

That was all a lie, ( Name ). Ayato thought, his head hung low as the elevator started moving towards his floor. You’re different from her or anyone else. You have my love.

He suddenly clutches to his chest, the aching in his heart was something he knew he will have to get used to. And it seems it’ll be like this forever.

Ayato is always prepared. 

But the two things he didn’t prepare for was you coming to his life

and letting you go.

As the elevator closed shut, you felt like your knees became jelly, overwhelmed by your discovery as you tried to hold it all together. 

You knew you should’ve stayed in Liyue. 

You stayed there for what felt like an hour, when in reality you’re just there for a few minutes, staring down at the elevator in helplessness. 

For some odd reason, you feel like a burden – big or small, it doesn't matter anymore – has been lifted off from your shoulders. Could this be because you now know what you wished to know for so long? Or the fact that you now know that Ayato isn’t who you thought he was and is on the same page as you all along?

Whatever it may be, you could only wish that he will be a happy man,

Because if his marriage goes downhill, then all the pain and heartbreak you went through would’ve been a waste. 

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CHAPTER EIGHT || CONEY ISLAND

SYPNOSIS (of chapter). in which you try to move on from something you thought lasts forever.

SYPNOSIS (of series). breaking up with your first love was heartbreaking, but not as heartbreaking as getting invited to his wedding after years of not seeing him. that is, until things seem to be easier when you encounter a certain guest, who could end up being more than just a blooming friend to you.

CHARACTERS. kamisato ayato, diluc ragnvindr (w/ gn!reader)

CONTENT. angst/comfort, modern!au, ooc (?), breakup, lots of crying, reader makes themselves suffer a lot, self deprivation (?), mild swearing

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POST-SCRIPT. super sorry for the delay on this chapter but here it is <333 ill try to start posting the next chapters once a week since my school is finally over, hope you enjoy the longest chapter of this series so far !! (ik i said i was done by the time the word count was 9.7k but i added some scenes and here we are)

4 YEARS AGO, SPRING.

One of the things that came up on your mind back when Ayato was busy for two weeks before he broke up with you was the thought of him planning to break up with you. 

It was subtle at first, the anxious thought waiting to come out in the open, and your doubts made sure to keep the key. That was when you kept convincing yourself that he’s just as busy as always and will come back as always. 

Then a week had passed. 

The padlock was cracking, on the urge to just explode, and a little stream of that anxious thought sneakily went through a crack and went to your mind, but your optimism overcame said thought and put it back to its place. That was when Ei and Miko reassured you that maybe he’s planning something good.

Then it happened. 

The padlock is destroyed, the door is too wide and everything went out, leaving nothing but so many questions, so many wonders, so much sadness, so much pity, and so much pain. 

You were left with nothing but questions, disbelief, and a broken heart. 

It honestly felt as if Ayato took two weeks thinking if he wanted to break up with you or not, and he made his decision. 

One of the things that you thought of as soon as Ayato walked away towards his car after the breakup was when was the first time you’ve seen such an emotionless face from the man you loved?

You’ve seen almost everything from your lover, the one who showed you his most lovable and clingy self, the one who showed you his mischievous and playful self, the one who showed you his anger and disappointment, and the one who showed you his exhausted and sleepy self. 

But never have you seen the one who showed you his emotionless and blank self. 

You see him smiling when you first saw him since the breakup, and deep down you knew it was nothing but fake. A mask that hides his true self. 

It made you think he didn’t want your relationship to end too, if it weren’t for the fact that you knew long enough that he never had regrets on his decisions. 

And so, a part of you had long given up on hope and optimism.

One of the things that changed majorly ever since the breakup was how you don’t often see most of your friends anymore in college for so many weeks.

Most of your friends are mutually friends with your ex, so the chances of encountering him is big. However, encountering your ex isn’t the main reason as to why you want to avoid them all–

It was the fact that you couldn’t face them with your current state.

Whether or not you’re a great liar, your friends will still see through it otherwise. The last thing you want is to ruin the mood with them thanks to your misery from Ayato. So you decided that it’s best to avoid them for now – with an excuse about how you just need some space and focus on your piled up projects despite already being finished with them.

In reality, you just needed space to go through a break-up that no one even knows about. 

It was frustrating to go to different routes on your destination around the area for the sake of avoiding both your friends and ex – who’s already avoiding you to begin with – but you often told yourself it was worth the hassle. 

There were times when you had the urge to come to your friends when you’d catch sight of them hanging out together, only to stop yourself from doing so because you thought they’re better off without your miserable self. 

So you find yourself spending the rest of your days being alone, your mind clouded with worries and insecurities all because of the fact your ex didn’t want to tell you why he fell out of love. It’s obvious to some people that you’re going through something, be it because of the eyebags in your eyes, the way you solemnly space out in the open air instead of listening to the lectures, the way you walk around the university like a zombie, or even the fact that you’re always found alone.

It feels like you’ve lost something you had for a long time, and it hurts that you know you’ll never find it. How can you relearn how to live a life that he’s no longer in?

You sometimes find yourself making way more food that’s for more than one person until you realize you’re the only one in the dorm. You sometimes expect something to happen, as if someone has something in store for you, only to realize that Ayato will no longer throw pebbles at your window to take you out somewhere. You sometimes reach out for a warm hand to hold, only to feel nothing but the cold air and nothingness. 

You found yourself studying way more than you should be. 

You frequently open your notes and read them all whenever you have nothing to do in your class, memorize everything in your reviewers despite the fact that your tests are nowhere near, and even make a beeline towards your study to start studying yet another topic whenever you enter your dorm to the point where you often forgot to eat or do chores, something that puts you at a disadvantage since your roommate is away for emergencies the whole time throughout what you’re going through. 

Eventually, music became your new lover. 

You don’t usually bring your headphones to the university, solely because you’re always with your friends or your ex, giving you no reason to bring your music and listen to it in classes. Now that you have no one to talk to, you decided to bring it back and start listening to songs everyday, causing you to go deeper into your own little world.

Deep down, you knew both studying and music won’t keep your burdening thoughts away forever.

Lying down on your bed to sleep is one of the things you hate doing. The moment you put your weight on the soft mattress, all your thoughts flooded as if a dam broke, making you spend sleepless nights overthinking. 

Why were you not enough? Was it because you don’t have a company like him? Or the fact that you couldn’t understand a single word that comes out of his lips about businesses? Or… Does he have someone else? 

The thought hurts your heart. To tell the truth, you thought Ayato wouldn’t do such a thing, but you used to think he’d never break up with you as well, so what are the odds that he found someone, who’s possibly better than you?

You start to try and exhaust yourself more. 

Everyday, you decide to walk towards the dormitory from the university through the longest routes instead of the shortest ones, ignoring the way your legs are aching so much from how long you’ve walked. It worked a couple of times much to your relief, so you continued doing such things. You’ve also tried to use sleeping pills every once in a while when sleep couldn’t catch you despite how exhausted your body is from how much you’ve been walking. 

Unfortunately, walking too much led your muscles to ache a lot. 

Since both Ayato and your friends always eat by the cafeteria during breaks, the university’s rooftop became your safe haven in the university. Not only does the area not contain many students, the cold temperature and peaceful atmosphere makes it all the more better for you. The most hassle thing about it is the amount of stairs you had to climb up, which was something you didn’t mind back then. However, since you started to drastically walk so much, your legs ache even more. 

Hence how you now found yourself sitting by one of the benches in the rooftop, wincing in pain from your aching lower body as music continues to play through your headphones.

Why did you have to do this to yourself? You thought, massaging your legs in hopes of making the pain lessen. 

Suddenly, you see a hand giving you an ice pack, causing you to flinch and notice a man standing in front of you.

He gestures to you to remove your headphones, a smile forms on his face when you reluctantly remove your headphones away and look at the man questioningly. You’ve seen him around the area every now and then, but never around other places in the university, is he a freshman in a different department perhaps? 

“Take this ice pack, it’ll help you with your leg cramps.” He explains, gesturing to you to take the ice pack.

You look at both the man and at the ice pack, unsure if you should take any chances in getting an ice pack from a stranger.

He then proceeds to clarify himself in hopes of making you take the ice pack. “I visit the rooftop everyday before you and I couldn’t help but notice how you always look like you’re in pain from your legs. I uhm.. I thought that maybe it would be good if I gave you an ice pack from the infirmary the next time you came up.” 

You look away from his eyes, still hesitating. It took you a minute to think about it before you gave in and grab the ice pack from the man. 

“...Thanks.” You spoke quietly, applying the ice on your aching legs. “If you don’t mind me asking, what’s your name?”

You didn’t notice the way his eyes light up, delighted that he can possibly have a new friend. 

“My name is Kaedehara Kazuha, and you?” 

Since then, you no longer find yourself being alone. 

You’ve started seeing more of that seemingly freshman everyday during break times, with him lending you things from the infirmary that could help your aching legs and talking about whatever goes on in his head. 

Kazuha is polite and open-minded, something that made him quite likable. He prefers to go outside than stay indoors all day, hence why he likes to spend time around the outskirts of the campus and the rooftop. 

You later found out that he loves to make haikus and even recited some to you. He also has a good understanding of music, something that the both of you first bonded about when you mentioned how you like to listen to music more these days. Overall, he’s a great guy to get along with. 

The one thing that’s strange to you about Kazuha is how you’ve never once seen him around the campus besides the rooftop, even more so when he made you promise to not tell anyone about your encounters with him. You assumed that maybe it’s because he has a reputation that could affect you, or maybe his reason is something personal, so you didn’t see any reason why you shouldn’t oblige to his small request. 

The two of you would mostly talk about things that aren’t related to your personal lives, so neither of you know each other’s past nor do any of you even know what you both do in your lives besides coming to the rooftop during break and your likes and dislikes. Yet despite that, it felt like you knew him for so long.

It’s safe to say that he felt the same.

You slowly stopped hurting yourself in the process. This time, you had an easier time falling asleep – though the overthinking is still there, but it’s better than what you went through back then. Although you still study, you made sure it wasn’t enough to make you forget to take care of yourself and your dorm. 

Although there’s progress, it still didn’t stop you from avoiding the people you care about. 

Thanks to Kazuha, you also decided to just go back to walking in your usual routes, but at a certain time that your friends nor Ayato wouldn’t be at, which is an hour or more before and after classes end.

When Kazuha heard of this, he was willing to offer to walk with you in the morning and at night, much to your relief and dismay. 

“I don’t want you to go home late because of me. I’ll be fine, there’ll be guards patrolling around the routes and maybe some students too.” You spoke with a frown. 

He didn’t fail to let his guard down, already making up his mind. “I insist. The dormitory is quite far and I wouldn’t know what to do if something were to happen to you.” He insists. “And besides, my dorm is actually near yours.” 

His words didn’t exactly persuade you to let him go with you. “You’re not doing this out of courtesy, are you?”

“Would you believe me if I said no?” 

You roll your eyes. You might as well accept his stubborn offer. “Alright, fine. But if you change your mind, you can tell me, alright?” 

A victorious smile appears on his face. “Who said I’ll change my mind?” 

And so began your strolls with Kazuha.

It didn’t hit you that the university at night is scary until you walked out of the campus, the skies were already dark and there wasn't a single student around the area. If it weren’t for Kazuha, you honestly would’ve thought about going back to the long routes the next day. 

Thankfully, you felt safe with Kazuha, who somehow seems to reassure you with his company and the conversations between the two of you. 

This went on for about a week, and slowly but surely, the both of you got closer. 

The both of you started talking about your lives, all of which you’re comfortable talking about. Kazuha talked about how his family owns a business just like some of your friends, though unlike theirs, his business isn’t as big and famous. He expressed how he doesn’t mind taking his family’s business and wanted to try and do something to make the business back to its prosperous state like how it was back then in his grandfather’s time, something that made you respect him more. 

In return, you talked about how you’re just a simple person with no business that your family owns and opened up about how you’re anxious of what the future has in store for you. You didn’t mention anything about your relationship with Ayato though, still unsure whether or not you’re ready to talk about it. 

It wasn’t until you encountered Ayato nearby while you and Kazuha were on your way back to your dormitory, causing you to feel overwhelmed. 

Fortunately, your ex lover didn’t seem to notice you, but it didn’t help you stop yourself from having the urge to cry right there, something that made your new friend worried and take you to a bench where Ayato wouldn’t be able to spot you both. 

“It’s alright, ( Name ). Take deep breaths.” He spoke in a soft tone as you clutched your chest and tried to calm yourself as soon as you sat down. It suddenly hit you that no matter what you progress in taking care of yourself, the heartbreak is still there. 

“I’m sorry,” You whispered as you covered your face to prevent him from seeing your pitiful state. “I’m sorry, I don’t want you to see me like this – I don’t want to bother you or anythin–”

“Shh, shhh. It’s alright. You don’t need to apologize for this.” Kazuha reassures you, sitting down next to you. “You’re not bothering me at all if anything. You don’t have to force yourself to tell me why you’re crying.”

“I.. I don’t want to be a burden.” 

“You’re not a burden, friend.” He spoke with a comforting smile. “But you have a burden, and sometimes, burdens are too heavy for one to carry on their own. It won’t hurt to talk to someone who’s willing to take the burden with you.” 

You look at the man to see if his face says otherwise and was doing it out of pity, only to see how genuine his sincere expression seems to be. 

So for the first time, you gave in and talked to someone about it. 

You talked about how your lover for countless years suddenly broke up with you for falling out of love with you and refused to tell you the reason, causing you to assume that the reason is terrible enough for him to be ashamed to say it. You also told him about your situation whereas you’re avoiding your friends for a while due to not being ready to face them after what happened to you and your ex.

By the time you finished, Kazuha was processing everything in deep thought. 

“It’s understandable that you can’t bear to face your friends after what happened, you need space to process your unfortunate breakup. But your way of spending time with your space back then only ended up hurting you and your legs, so it’s a good thing you’re trying to feel better now.” He comments. 

He then frowned. “However, it didn’t completely do anything to your heartbreak, did it?” 

You shook your head slowly, shoulders now relaxed. “It didn’t..” 

“No worries, what matters is that you’re trying to move on from him.” He reassures you, leaning back on the bench. “You don’t have to rush on moving on, and I’m sure that when you’re ready, your friends are willing to lend an ear and help you go through with it.”  

You look at him. “How… How can I face him?” 

“You don’t have to.” He spoke, crossing his arms. “If he refuses to tell you, that’s not your fault and not something you should force yourself to find out about. I’m sure that at some point, he’ll have no choice but to tell you as it is your right.” 

You stayed silent for a few seconds, thinking of what to say.

“...Thank you for listening, Kazuha.”

“Anything I can to help a friend in need.” He replied, standing up from his seat. “Would you like to go back to your dorm now? I’m sure that he’s no longer around to see us.” He lends you his hand for you to grab. 

You slowly grab his hand. “...Alright.” 

By the time you get to bed at the same night, you thought about coming back to your dear friends after not interacting with them for weeks.

The first people you wanted to go to are Ei and Miko, who you’re sure misses you more than most of your friends in the group. When you told them about how you’ll be busy with your tasks, they were tempted to offer you help just so you would be able to hang out with them, only for you to reject them because you wanted the space you need to process your breakup. 

You’d be lying if you said you didn’t miss them. 

For as long as you could remember, you’ve been friends with the two since childhood – way back then before Thoma even – it’s a wonder for most people how someone like you is considered the best friend of the two most mysterious and intimidating women in school. 

Just thinking about them makes your heart’s longing grow stronger. 

You hug your pillow closer to you, wishing that they’d come visit your dorm someday when you finally get yourself together.

It seems whoever heard you wanted the same thing, because the next day, you received a visitor. 

Or visitors, rather.

As soon as you opened the door, you immediately saw Ei and Miko standing in front of you with a basket filled with items, taken back by surprise from their sudden visit.

“...Ei?... Miko…?” You called in confusion.

Without another word, Miko immediately wraps her arms around you, causing you to let out a yelp in surprise.

“This whole time… You didn’t need space to do your projects, did you?” She asks.

…

You blinked a few times, processing what your friend just said. How did they find out?... Did everyone find out already..?

You couldn’t find the words to speak, unsure if you want to push Miko away and lock yourself in your dorm, or hug her back and tell her and Ei how much you missed them. 

You felt her pulling you closer to her. “You’re always dealing with everything on your own.. Were you planning to avoid everyone until that foolish brute tells everyone about your breakup?!” 

Your heart sinks from the confirmation, thoughts of who else knows about the breakup swirl around your head as–

Suddenly, you felt Ei join in on the hug. “We missed you, ( Name ).” She told you, her gentle voice didn’t fail to soothe you as a mother’s comforting voice would to a crying child. “I… I overheard a conversation from Ayato’s father and mine about Ayato being… single, so we just had to come and check up on you. We’re sorry if we’re disturbing you–”

“I missed you too,” You confessed, hugging them back. “I… I don’t know how to tell you about it – i-it was just so sudden and I was taken back and–”

“It’s alright.” Miko reassures you. “We can’t imagine how alone you must’ve been – don’t deal with this on your own forever, you know you have us, we wouldn’t hesitate to drop our things and come to your aid.” 

“Miko’s right, you’re not a burden to us as we aren’t to you. Even if we… Even if we can’t help you, we can cry with you and listen to your feelings.” Ei adds, unsure if her choice of words are okay for you. “But if you still need space, we understand and leave you alone–”

You shook your head, not wanting to let go of the hug you didn’t know you needed. “No, no. I… I think I already had enough space.” You slowly close your eyes shut. “I just need this hug right now.” 

Those words were enough for them to stay on their ground, not wanting to let go of your hug either. 

After so long, you finally felt the comfort and warmth of a loved one’s hug.

Since that fateful moment, music is nothing but the past. 

Instead of walking around the campus alone with music being your company, you found yourself walking with Ei and Miko by your side, who are both happy to finally spend time with you after so many weeks. 

Though, despite how you now have them, you still spend your breaks on the rooftop and continue walking back to the dorm at a late hour with Kazuha, who was delighted to hear the progress of your situation with your friends. 

As much as you’re delighted as well, there was still more to deal with.

Specifically…. A certain man. 

Thoma is another case in your situation. 

A part of you couldn’t face the man who’s considered as both you and Ayato’s best friend, not when you knew he’d have a hard time dealing with you and your ex’s break up. Yet a part of you wanted to face your dearest friend who’s always there for you and not make you feel as alone as you were when Kazuha wasn’t around.

You just want everything to go back to the way it was. 

But you knew everything will not be the same as it was.

You find yourself getting ready to visit Thoma’s cafe, wondering how your dear friend has been. Did anyone bully him again? Is he eating alright? Is his cafe business going smoothly as always? Your heart anticipates meeting him again, missing the comfort of his presence and the atmosphere of the cafe. 

It only takes a few steps to cross the road and reach the cafe. A few more steps to open the door and go to Thoma. It only takes a few words to talk to your friend. A few more words to tell him you’re back and you’re ready to explain everything. 

Yet, it felt so long and so much. 

You felt hesitant, the feeling that crawled up on your spine the moment you decided to visit the place you’ve longed to come to but couldn't. 

“Just take a few deep breaths and think nothing but how much you want to go there.” Kazuha told you the day before, fully supporting you on your decision to visit Thoma and the cafe. “If you hesitate for once, ignore it and just do it, or else you’ll never be completely ready for it.” 

You took a few deep breaths and took a step forward, reaching out towards the knob of your door–

Only to stop when someone started knocking on your door. 

Has your roommate come back already? 

In confusion, you turned the doorknob and opened the door slowly, and the hesitation that crept on you was soon replaced by surprise.

“..Ayaka?” You called. 

Ayaka smiles at you as she stands in front of your door. “...Hi, ( Name ). How have you been?” She asks. 

You weren’t surprised that your ex’s sister is one of the few people who knows about your breakup with Ayato, but it hurts to know that he didn’t show up at your doorstep to get his things. Does he really not love you to the point where he doesn’t want to face you?

You smiled back, but it didn’t reach your eyes. “I’ve been… doing fine, I suppose… What brings you here, if you don’t mind me asking?” 

Her smile slightly drops, now avoiding your gaze. “I’m uh.. Here to pick up my brother's things.” 

Suddenly the atmosphere became awkward. 

You tried to keep your smile up, opening the door wide for her to come through. “Sure thing, I can take you to where most of his things are and help you out.” 

She gives you a grateful smile, entering the dorm. “Thank you, I hope I’m not bothering you and your day.” 

“Ah it’s fine, I wasn’t planning to do anything today.” You reassure her as you close the door and walk towards your bedroom. “If you don’t mind, could you wait here while I find his items in my bedroom? It’s not… tidy per say since I didn’t expect your visit.” 

Ayaka nodded. “Of course, of course. Take your time as much as you need.” 

You let out a small “thank you” before entering the room and close the door.

You let out a breath you didn't know you’ve been holding. 

You glance around your room, and it doesn't hit you how chaotic it was. It didn’t look as if you’ve turned it upside down, but it’s certainly no longer as tidy and organized as before. Scratch that, your entire dorm wasn’t as tidy and organized as before thanks to how you used to not take care of both yourself and your place.

Let’s just get to work, I can clean everything up later and visit Thoma. You thought to yourself.

You started looking for items that belonged to Ayato, specifically his clothes, stationary items, pictures, his extra toothbrush, even the things that he gifted to you,  and all have hit you with memories that your heart wanted to shut off ever since the breakup happened. 

You felt sick by the time you finished. 

When you placed all of his items together, you placed them inside a box that you grabbed under your bed, thinking that Ayaka will definitely need it from how many items Ayato brought to your dorm throughout the years of your relationship together. 

By the time you opened the door, your eyes landed on Ayaka, who was standing in front of a certain picture that you forgot to put down from your wall. 

“...Here are his items in my room.” You spoke, watching as the woman woke up from her daze and looked towards you with wide eyes. 

“O-Oh, thank you, ( Name ).” She spoke, walking towards you and grabbed the box from your hands. “Are these the only items he has here?” 

You shook your head, looking around the area. “I’m going to find some around here now, you can help me if you’d like.” 

Ayaka nodded in response. “Allow me to help then.”

That was the last time the both of you talked. 

It’s safe to say that it was awkward between you two throughout the whole thing.

Every time a minute passes, the awkwardness grows. You aren’t sure if it’s because of how the woman’s embarrassed of getting caught by you staring at the picture of you and Ayato, or if it’s because of how the both of you could no longer face each other after what happened with you and her brother. 

Meanwhile, it’s a different case for Ayaka.

“Forgive me if I’m stepping over the line but I…” You stopped finding more of the items when you heard her starting to talk. “I lied about coming here just to pick my brother’s items.” She confessed. 

You look around to face her, surprised by her words. 

“I… I look up to you a lot just as how I look up to my brother, you see.” She explains, looking down at the ground. “I’ve never seen someone who could make my brother so happy, I really admired you for bringing out a side even my family didn’t see of Ayato. I honestly didn’t expect him to break up with you.” 

There was a flash of sadness in her eyes, fiddling with her fingers. “When he did… I was worried for you. So when I heard from Thoma and a lot of people talking about how much they miss you and haven’t seen you around, I just.. I couldn’t help but want to check up on you. So I told Ayato I was willing to get his items from your place when I overheard him talking to one of the staff about it.” 

Her words caused your eyes to widen. Is this why she came over with no box? Because she’s worried for you? And the others miss you?

“I-I’m sorry if it seems like I’m not minding my business and I have no right to lie to you!” She quickly bows in apology, reaching out towards the box to head her way out. “I can leave out from your sight if you want–”

Without a thought, you immediately stopped her from grabbing the box, not intending to let her leave. “...I don’t want our friendship to end just because of what happened to me and Ayato.” You spoke up, a pained smile forms on your face. “I… I’m touched that you really came all this way from where you are to check up on me, I really am.” 

She turns around to face you in shock, and her shoulders start to shake.. “I… I don’t want our friendship to end either.” She breathed out with a relieved look, holding your hands together.  “I wish you happiness and luck in your future from now on, ( Name ). Please don’t be sad for the rest of your life over someone like Ayato.” 

You nodded, squeezing her hands a bit as an assurance. “..I will, thank you, Ayaka.” 

You didn’t come over to Thoma’s cafe in the end.

Instead, you’ve spent the whole day catching up with Ayaka while grabbing every single item that belongs to Ayato. The woman is a pleasant company you like to admit. 

To your surprise, the woman was accepted in your university and will start next year, causing you to congratulate her happily. You also took the opportunity to ask her about Thoma and the others, causing her to quickly explain how they all often talk about you, especially the blonde-haired man – who never once didn’t talk about him being concerned about you whenever he spends time with her, causing you to feel bad for avoiding them.

You felt even more bad when you heard of Ei and Miko. 

Apparently, the two women started spending more time with  your friends everyday to see if you decided to come around from your projects and always expressed how they wanted to visit your dormitory to help you out, only to stop themselves because they knew you needed space “to focus.” 

Eventually, Ayaka had to leave before sundown, causing the both of you to share farewells before the women left with Ayato’s items and gifts he gave to you. 

By the end of the day, you decided that you’re not ready to come to Thoma just yet. 

Thinking of how Ayaka knew already about your breakup made you wonder if the blonde haired man knew about it as well, and you’re honestly worried that he wouldn’t talk to you anymore simply because of how Ayato doesn’t.

It’s a silly thought, you’d admit, knowing that Thoma would never do such a thing. But you no longer know what to expect anymore. 

You’ve expressed your thoughts towards Ei and Miko about how you miss Thoma dearly, asking them how he’s been while you were gone, to which they reply with honesty and tell you how he misses you too.

Surely, with their words, you would start planning on visiting him and the cafe again, right…?

So what’s stopping you?

You aren’t sure. Perhaps it’s how you often overthink about how Thoma is completely fine without you and you didn’t want to ruin it for your feelings, or maybe it’s how you doubt and hesitate in coming over after avoiding him and the others for so long. 

Throughout your internal struggle, your progress just… stops. 

You stopped doing everything you want, all you do is go on auto-pilot and immediately head towards your bed as soon as you arrive at your dorm.

Somehow, everything is just tiring. To the point where you just want to cry all. It’s probably because now that you're back with your closest friends that it made you come back to thinking about Ayato, who you’re sure has long moved on from your relationship. 

You didn’t realize how Ei, Miko, and Kazuha noticed your sudden change of demeanor, nor did you realize that when they said they’re gonna get something while you were spacing out by the window, they meant they’re gonna get a certain man who you’ve been longing to see. 

You immediately catch his presence when he first enters the room, causing you to slowly turn around to face him. 

“...Hey ( Name ).” Thoma spoke with a smile on his face. “How have you been?” 

You stare at him in shock. Is this a dream of yours? Are you finally losing it?

You felt tears forming in your eyes again, your shoulders shaking from the overwhelming feeling of finally being able to see your best friend again. 

You hid that fact by saying another reason. “He… He said he doesn’t love me anymore…” You sobbed, covering your face from Thoma, not wanting to let him see such a state from you. “He broke up with me and left me! A-And he keeps on ignoring me whenever I try to talk to him and I… I thought you didn’t want to hang out with me anymore and I don’t know how to face everyone else when Ayato and I are–” 

You softly gasped once more when you felt Thoma’s arms wrapped around you into a comforting hug. 

“I would never want to stop hanging out with you, ( Name ). You won’t lose me.” He said in a reassuring tone, rubbing your back (something that he often does whenever you hug the man). “It must’ve been rough for you to go through so much, I’m sorry for not coming up to you sooner.” 

You slowly hug him back and close your eyes, sniffing as tears continue to come out. “I missed you, Thoma. I want to go to the cafe everyday like before but.. But I’m scared that I… I might see him again and breakdown and look like a fool in your cafe and–” 

“Hey, hey, it’s alright, don’t worry,” He spoke softly, “I can visit here everyday with your favorites. I’ll make sure you won’t see him if that’s what you want. Plus, the cafe’s trying out delivery now and I can just deliver it to you.” 

Your heart warms from his thoughtful words, shoulders relaxed from his assurance. “...Thank you, Thoma.” You whispered, still hugging him with no intentions of letting go just yet. 

“Anything for you, ( Name ).” He mumbles. At this moment, you could care less of the fact that he still hangs out with Ayato, not when he’s still the man you consider as your best friend. The only thing you prioritize the most right now is to continue being friends with him till the end of your life. 

“Anything for you.”

And just so you realized, even when you no longer have the person who was by your side for so many years and feel as if a half of you is gone, you are still you. 

With Thoma, Ei, Miko, and Kazuha, your progress slowly but surely continued. This time, you actually have hope that you can move on from Ayato and forget about him.

You eventually came back to talking to all of your friends in the end, and they’ve all welcomed you back with open arms. 

“I really missed you, ( Name )!” Itto said as he hugs you. “You should’ve told us it would take this long – I would’ve offered to help you and your projects! You’d definitely be finished early if I was there to help!” 

Sara scoffs from his words. “You don’t even know what their projects are about, you’d probably fall asleep throughout the whole thing.” 

“Hey, that’s not true! I would never do that!” 

You laughed, patting Itto’s back as you hugged him back. “I appreciate that Itto but what matters is that I’m done now.” 

“( Name ), you should go with us to the upcoming school festival!” Yoimiya said. 

Your eyes brighten at the mention of the event. “Oh, I’d be glad to join! Did they move it to an earlier date?” 

“Yep, the student council decided to celebrate it by the end of spring.” Kokomi explains, joining in on the conversation. “We were planning to visit your dorm to invite you next week.” 

“Yeah, we missed having you here!” Gorou adds. 

Your heart warms from his words. “I missed you guys too.”

As you continue to spend time with everyone, you couldn’t help but think about talking to Kazuha about going with you and your friends to the festival, thinking that he’d get along well with everyone if he’s okay with it. 

Unfortunately, your friend has other plans in mind.

You quickly noticed a change when you entered the rooftop, something that struck your curiosity that’ll turn to disbelief.

“I’m sorry, ( Name ).” Kazuha apologized, watching as you stare at him with dread upon hearing those words from him. “I… I don’t think we’ll be able to see each other anymore.” 

…What?

Your heart sinks to your stomach. Was your situation… overwhelming him? “...Why?” 

He gives you an apologetic look. “I’m afraid my stay here is long overdue. I’m requested by my family to come back to my home that’s unfortunately far away, so you won’t see me anytime soon.”

“We can just chat online.” You quickly spoke, gesturing to your phone. “I don’t mind if you won’t be studying in this university anymore if–”

You stopped talking when you saw him shaking his head.

“As much as I want to, there’s no other way for us to interact .”

Your shoulders slumps, saddened from the fact that your newfound friend, who is nothing but understandable and supportive, is going to go away and won’t come back. “...So this is it?” 

“I’m just as sad as you are.” He commented softly. “If anything… You’re the only person I could talk to for a long time. I’m honored to be able to somewhat help you with your situation just as how you helped me with my loneliness.” 

You then open your arms slightly wide, a gesture if you could hug the man. 

It took a few seconds for him to nod in acceptance, and instantly wrap his arms around you as you hug him. 

“...Thank you as well, Kazuha.” You spoke softly. He was cold, but it was oddly comforting. “I’m glad to have you when I was at my lowest point.” 

“I wish you happiness, ( Name ).”

And I hope we meet again someday, if there even is one for us. 

A FEW MONTHS LATER, SUMMER.

Hiiragi Chisato is a familiar name. 

Her family is just as famous as Ayato’s, if not as famous as Ei’s and Miko’s, but unlike the rest, she isn’t a part of your friend group due to how she’s in a completely different department of the university that’s far from everyone’s.

You never expected her to come to your life like this. 

It didn’t hit you just how perfect their relationship is until you see them often. They’re like prince charming with his true love and have a happily ever after, unlike you and Ayato. His parents would definitely accept her to the family given how her family owns a successful business, unlike you. 

It’s honestly like Chisato is showing off that she now has Ayato from the way you kept seeing her in her own little world with him, giving each other affection or laughing along as if her lover’s ex isn’t a few meters away.

What’s worse is how you couldn’t bring yourself to hate her at all. 

Just like her beauty, her kindness and thoughtfulness is just as sincere. Chisato helped you carry stacks of papers towards the professor’s office back then before she dated Ayato and even greeted you when she saw you while entering the student council room once. Ayato’s lucky to have a lovely woman such as Chisato as his new lover. 

But that was it, you’re nothing but a stranger to her, and she to you. 

The only thing you have in common is your love for Ayato, something that she isn’t aware of thanks to Thoma.

Often, you wonder what goes on in Ayato’s head. 

How did he move on so quickly? Could you do the same as well and be just as happy as he seems to be now? Or… Did you take your relationship too seriously and he didn’t?

If Kazuha was here, he'd be sure to clear your thoughts off with his haikus and wise words. 

You sigh heavily at the thought of your friend. 

Maybe a walk to the newest restaurant near the dormitory wouldn’t hurt to try and push your thoughts away. 

Until it started raining out of nowhere, that is. 

Thankfully, you brought a compact umbrella with you given that the clouds looked cloudy today, so you see no reason to not continue to go to the restaurant. Though, you decided that going to the bus is better for you during these circumstances, hence how you find yourself standing by the bus stop waiting for the next bus to come.

It felt like an hour had passed. You sat on the bench in boredom, looking around the road to see if you’ll see the sight of a bus that can take you to your destination, only to see a small figure, a kid perhaps, walking his way towards the bus stop, causing you to slightly furrowed eyebrows from the fact that he doesn’t have any umbrella and how he looks strangely familiar. 

“Ack, great, just great.” The boy – or man? You thought he was a kid until you heard his voice – mumbled under his breath as soon as he arrives to the bus stop. “Should’ve gotten that stupid umbrella before I left.”

Indeed he should’ve, given that he’s literally dripping wet from the rain pouring on him. Fortunately, the bus stop has a roof, but it didn’t do anything with his now wet clothes. 

You look down at the bag you brought with you that had a hand towel, something you brought with you should you underestimate the distance of the restaurant and sweat from the walk. Should you give it to him…?

When you slowly look at the guy beside you, you realize just why he looked so familiar now that you have a closer look on him. You could recognize those eyes and purple hair anywhere! 

“...Scaramouche?” You called, watching as Ei’s brother quickly looks at you with the same expression you have. 

“....Shit.” He spoke aloud, taking you back by surprise from his cuss. 

And so began your journey with the mysterious and strangely amusing Scaramouche, the brother of one of your best friends. 

You offered your hand towel now that you know it’ll be returned, to which the man quickly took with a small “thanks” before trying to dry himself. You were delighted to hear that he’s actually going to the same destination out of curiosity for what the new restaurant has to offer, causing you to invite him to eat with you on the same table.

He agreed to your relief, but on the condition that you’ll be the one to pay much to your dismay, but agreed nonetheless. Better than eating alone miserably, you thought now that you considered the possibility of the place having lots of people and maybe having your ex around. 

Despite the differences between the two of you, you’re surprised that you got along with him in a way that you and Kazuha did. Though unlike Kazuha, Scaramouche is far from nice and gentle, but not cruel really, especially when he instantly apologizes when he asks about your relationship with Ayato. 

Perhaps it’s because of your kindness in lending him your hand towel that made him become less rude to you, or from the fact that you scolded him every time he shoots you a rude comment, but either way, you’re glad the man is tolerable to talk to. 

Overall, it was.. An interesting experience. 

By the time the bus drops you two off to your destination, you let Scaramouche share your umbrella together as you enter the place. You eventually find yourself sitting in an exquisite reservation room that Scaramouche reserved for himself beforehand, making you remember just how rich Ei’s family is.

Over the delicious foods that the restaurant made, you and the man bonded a lot, to the point where it seems as if you’re talking to an old friend catching up. You were grateful that you decided to go out, it surely made your almost overwhelming thoughts away at bay. 

By the time the fun had ended, the both of you went towards the bus stop (you wanted to ask why he uses the bus stop unlike Ei, who has her own personal driver and all, but decided to keep your mouth shut about it) and waited for the next bus to arrive. 

“Are you going to the after-finals in a few weeks?” He asks curiously, causing you to look at him in surprise. 

“O-Oh, uh… I’m still not sure… I don’t know if I wanna go there.” You spoke with a light laugh. 

Scaramouche didn’t look surprised. “It’s not because of… Him, is it?”

You looked away from his gaze, and that was enough for him as an answer. “You shouldn’t stop yourself from trying to have fun because of him. That donkey doesn’t even deserve to be thought about if he’s that shitty.” He commented.

“I know, I know. I just.. Can’t help it. I feel like I’d feel miserable and ruin everyone’s fun.” You replied with a soft sigh. 

“And what will being miserable do? He’ll be like Dora and won't see how he’s making you suffer.” He inhales sharply when he realizes he sounded as if he was irritated. Well to be frank, he is irritated, just not towards you of course. “Personally? I wouldn’t let whatever that he did to you slide.” 

Those words made you look at him. 

“If anything, you should use this party as an opportunity to do something – make a change or whatever those live-laugh-love people would say. If you’re doing nothing and stay the same, nothing will happen.” He explains nonchalantly. “But if you really don’t wanna go to the party then be my guest–”

“When’s the party again?”

You didn’t know what on earth just happened, but whatever Scaramouche just told you, it hit you like a train. 

He’s right, if I just continue to do the same thing with my progress, how can I change and move on? You thought. 

You don’t usually attend the after-finals party that your batchmates throw since you spend time with Ayato in the cafe, so it’s technically your first time attending one. 

You found yourself standing in front of the location that Scaramouche gave you, surprised to see how many people had attended the occasion. 

There’s no doubt that your ex would be here too. 

“( Name ), you made it!” Thoma says as he walks out from the front door with a smile on his face. “I was waiting for you! Come, come, the others are waiting for us.” 

You let your best friend grab your hand and drag you to the party, smiling at the sight of him ranting about the party. 

The party is honestly decent to say the least. People were around the place either playing games provided by the host, dancing to the music the DJ’s playing, having conversations with one another, and even drinking everything in one-go.

By the time you arrived in the kitchen, you were instantly swarmed by your friends. 

“( Name ), what a pleasant surprise!”

“Do you want some drinks, ( Name )?”

“You’re just in time for my next eating competition with Yae!” 

“Who told you I accepted the challenge?!” 

You couldn’t help but laugh, trying to hug every single of your friends who came up towards you to greet you. “It’s nice to see you guys too.” 

You’ve underestimated just how great the party is. 

You find yourself having fun with everyone, with Miko, Kokomi, and Ei talking about the latest light novel they’ve been obsessing with you, with Itto dragging you to where the games are held and made you play with him and his gang, with Gorou and Sara playing board games against each other as everyone cheers them on, with Yoimiya letting you use sparklers and play with other people in the backyard and so much more. 

There was not one thought about Ayato that came to you throughout the night.

Right now, you find yourself sitting by the counter taking a long rest, sipping a cup of juice as Scaramouche and Thoma sit next to you. 

“I gotta say, Scaramouche, I really wanna thank you for convincing me to come here.” You confessed happily. 

Scaramouche nods in acknowledgement. “It’s no problem. Take it as my payment for that hand towel you gave me.”

“How did you guys meet, if I may ask?” Thoma chimes in.

You stayed silent as soon as Scaramouche started talking to Thoma, your attention somewhere else than your two friends. 

Not too far from where you are is Ayato, who was busy talking to his other friends with a drink in hand. 

You held your breath when you saw how he noticed your gaze, exhaling when he instantly looked away and excused himself from his friends. 

Isn’t this the best opportunity to confront him…?

You slowly put your empty drink on top of the counter when you see him heading outside of the house. “Excuse me for a moment, I’ll uh… Be back.” You said to Thoma and Scaramouche, who both stopped their conversation from your words. 

“Where are you going?” Scaramouche asks, watching you stand up from your seat. 

You hesitated for a moment. “I… I want to confront someone.” 

The look on your face was enough for Thoma to know who you’re talking about. “...We’ll be here when you need us then.” 

That was enough for you to immediately head out towards Ayato, who now realizes you’re following him. 

“Ayato!” You called despite the loud music blaring in the background, watching as he passed through the crowded room trying to lose you.

“Ayato, please.” You call him as you try to follow him outside the house, desperate to finally make amends and understand him. “You still haven’t given me an explanation! Why can’t you do this one simple thing? Don’t I deserve to know why you left?”

“I’ve told you already, I’ve fallen out of love with you–”

“But why?”

“Isn’t it obvious already?” He snaps, stopping his tracks and turns around to look at you. The both of you are now outside, with everyone being too busy to notice the commotion. You couldn’t help but flinch at his attitude. Since when has he been this mad? “I have too much on my plate. You know how much the Yashiro Company depends on me, and I cannot let something such as you burden me–”

“What about Chisato?! The last time I checked–”

“This is different,” He interrupts. “You are different.” 

You scoffed, furrowing your eyebrows at his words. “What does she have that I don’t? Is it the money? Her reputation? Her company?!” 

He stays silent for a moment, and despite being with him for so many years, his expression right now is something you have never seen before. 

“My love.” 

Those words made the world stop. 

His love…?

“...What do you mean?” You breathe out, watching as something flashes through his eyes when he realizes what he said. It must’ve been regret for confessing what he said. 

“Unlike you,” He hesitates for a moment before letting out a sigh of defeat, “she has my love.” 

It took a few minutes for you to process what he had just said, when it did, you felt like the whole world – your own world –  was crashing down around you. Your heart ached in a million ways you’ve never felt before. Does this mean that all this time… All this time he didn’t–!

Ayato didn’t even let you speak, he continued talking more, 

“For the past months ever since I’ve broken up with you, I have tolerated every single time you try to come up to me in the university and outside.” He explains. “I thought you’d stop when you get the hint that we’ll never get back together, but you just had to be this desperate for me to say it again and again.” 

“Stop it.” You whispered, shrinking yourself as you held back a sob. Was everything meaningless? Did you really waste so many years with him for him to think it’s nothing?

He didn’t stop. “No, you stop this. This will be the last day you and I will talk to each other about this again. We’ve been officially over long ago and we’re nothing more than just friends–”

You just want everything to stop. 

“You’ve gone too far for me to even consider you as a friend,” You snapped, lips trembling as you feel like you want to bury yourself down to the ground. “I can’t believe it took you this long to tell me the reason why you left me!” 

You took a step forward towards the man, who was taken back by surprise from your sudden change of attitude. “From now on, this will be the last day I’ll ever talk to you or see you again.” 

Just when he opens his mouth to speak up, you place your index finger against his chest. “Whether you like it or not, it no longer matters to me. You can tolerate it, right?” You asked.

You exhaled sharply, moving your finger away as you looked away from his gaze. “Even if… Even if I really didn’t have your love from the beginning like what you said.. You had mine.” You whispered in defeat. “But now? I think I’m done with you from how you keep on running away from this.”

You then turned out. “...I hope you’ll be happy with Hiiragi.” Because I’m not the happiness you needed. 

As you walked away from the man, you never dared to look back. 

You spent almost an hour in one of the bathrooms, trying to stop yourself from crying more as you keep washing the tears away in frustration. You’re done wasting your time crying over him, you’re done wondering what-ifs and why over him, you’re done thinking about him and everything about him–

You inhaled sharply, closing your eyes shut. 

…I need a drink, you thought. 

It took a long minute before you walked out of the door, causing everything around you to become louder, not that it mattered to you. You find yourself making a beeline towards the kitchen, spotting Thoma being at the same spot while Scaramouche is nowhere to be found as well as the seats – which were all taken by people who are participating in the musical chairs game by the backyard.

“Are you alright, ( Name )?” Thoma asks as you stand beside him by the kitchen with your eyes narrowed.

“I’m done with him.” You mumbled, glaring at where Ayato was. “I’m sick and tired of him.”

You didn’t notice how he grabs an alcoholic bottle before pouring it on a new cup until he nudges you. When you looked at him, you saw him handing the cup over to you as an offer. 

“Care to drink with me and tell me about it then?” 

Without hesitation, you grabbed the cup he poured and took a quick sip, unbothered by the burning sensation in your throat. “Gladly.” 

Since that night, you have never cried. 

By the time your senior year started, you’ve long moved on from Ayato (or so you thought). Sure, thinking about it still makes your heart sting, but you’re better than ever. You focused more on your studies, and love was pushed away to the back of your mind for the next few years. 

But that doesn’t mean you’re alone. 

You have your dear friends by your side. There wasn’t a single moment when you felt like you’re alone, not when Ei and Miko often visited your dorm to spend time or study together, not when you and Yoimiya started walking towards the university together when you two found out you go to your destination by walking, not when you spend time in the cafeteria with your group, and certainly not when you spend time in the cafe with Thoma after classes.

With them, you feel complete. But not completely moved on. 

Not when you’re scared to take the first step to finding love again. 

FOUR YEARS LATER, AUTUMN.

As everyone started to head their way outside from the venue once the joint bachelor party ended, you hesitated to stand up from your seat and leave as well. 

You may not know it, but Diluc feels the same way. 

“We had a good talk, Mr. Ragnvindr.” You spoke with a smile as you slowly got out of your seat. “I enjoyed our conversation a lot, I hope we’ll chat again like this the next time we meet.” 

“Likewise, Mx. ( Last Name ).” He replies, giving you an acknowledged bow. “And please, Call me Diluc.” 

Your eyes slightly widen, pleasantly surprised. “Oh? First name basis already?” 

He instantly clears his throat, embarrassed. “Is… that fine with you? I could always call by your last name if you feel like we’re not on that–”

“It’s fine, no worries!” You quickly reassured him with a laugh. “You can call me by my first name as well in return.” 

Diluc opens his mouth to say something else, but decides to nod from your words. “Very well. It’s nice talking to you, Mx. – I mean, ( Name ).” 

You beamed. “It’s nice talking to you too, Diluc.” 

And then you let go and walked away. 

As soon as you walk side-by-side with Zhongli who’s busy talking to Tartaglia about businesses, you couldn’t help but mouth the bartender’s name once more, trying to be familiar with it. 

You couldn’t help but think when was the last time you had a good conversation like this with someone, only to remember a certain white-haired man who you haven’t seen forever. 

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You hoped that just as you are now, Kazuha is alright somewhere out there.

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CHAPTER NINE || IVY

SYPNOSIS (of chapter). in which secrets are now out of the light as the other side of one's story is now told.

SYPNOSIS (of series). breaking up with your first love was heartbreaking, but not as heartbreaking as getting invited to his wedding after years of not seeing him. that is, until things seem to be easier when you encounter a certain guest, who could end up being more than just a blooming friend to you.

CHARACTERS. kamisato ayato, diluc ragnvindr (w/ gn!reader)

CONTENT. angst/no-fluff, arranged marriage, minor character deaths, mentions of murder, mentions of corruption, mentions of car accident, lots of sadness but its from ayato so enjoy seeing him suffer <3

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POST-SCRIPT. at last we’ve reached the last chapter before the wedding chapter as well as the last chapter of you and ayato !! chapter 10 will be a sweet beginning that’ll now revolve around you and diluc until the end of this series ! this was honestly a tough chapter to write but enjoy ig 😭😭😭

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4 YEARS AGO, SPRING.

One of the things Ayato loves about you is how there’s no one he can imagine spending the rest of his life with but you. 

You’re not only his lover, but his person. Someone who can understand him, tolerate him, comfort him, love him, see him for who he is without intentions of taking advantage of his family’s name and business. 

Despite the differences you both have, you two managed to make things work together as a couple. Despite the fights you both have, you two managed to fix it under communication and clearing up everything. Despite everything, the both of you are still here together. 

Because of you, Ayato understands why people love movies so much. Because of you, Ayato understands why people love playing games with friends rather than studying all day and preparing for the future. Because of you, Ayato understands why people love. 

Because of you, Ayato understands himself more than before. 

So who could blame him for wanting to spend his future with someone who made him happier than anyone can?

Sure, you may be like everyone else, but there’s no one else who could make him feel so in love but you. 

Just seeing you sleeping beside him on days when he’d sleep over at your dorm makes him want to wake up beside you everyday. Just seeing you laughing and smiling at his words while walking with him to the university or to the dormitory makes him want to go wherever you go. Just seeing you being embarrassed whenever you can’t find the answer to a homework makes him want to go through all your obstacles in life with you. 

Just seeing you looking at him the way he looks at you makes him want to love you again and again. 

Just seeing you, he couldn’t imagine his life to turn out like this.

One of the things that Ayato feels burdened with about the Yashiro Company is its past.

It’s long forgotten for how long ago it was, but it will remain haunting to those who are aware of it and will never be at peace with the information they’re burdened with. 

Those include his great-father, grandfather, father, perhaps the current CEOs of the two other businesses that are a part of the tri-business, and unfortunately Ayato himself.

He was shocked when his father told him back then that the Yashiro Company was involved with the fall of the Kaedehara Company, a well-known company in the past that was respected by everyone until an incident occurred. 

The Shogun Company, now called Tenryou Company, is the biggest business known in Inazuma back then, so when they accused the Kaedehara Company for fraud, everything went down for the Kaedehara family.

The CEO of the Tenryou Company caught Kaedehara Yoshinori, the CEO of Kaedehara Company back then, tampering with important documents red-handed, and despite the protests and excuses, Yoshinori was faced with the court trial and the dire consequences.

Not only did the Kaedehara Company face bankruptcy, they also faced backlash by the media for doing such a thing, leading Yoshinori and the Kaedehara family to go into hiding for good until they’ve been long forgotten many years later. 

However, there was one thing everyone didn’t know about.

There were two more businesses that were involved in the incident. One is the Hiiragi Company – who was actually the one behind the fraud but managed to frame Yoshinori for it – and the Yashiro Company – who was the reason why Yoshinori was involved with the scene in the first place. 

Ayato’s great grandfather didn’t mean to let this happen. All he wanted was for Yoshinori to obtain the tampered documents while he was distracting the CEO of Shogun Company, only for the CEO to catch Yoshinori at a bad time and ruin the Kaedehara business for good. 

As much as Ayato felt saddened from the tragedy of the Kaedehara family, he couldn’t help but resent it so much. After all–

It was the main reason why he ended up marrying the person he doesn’t love.

Ayato found out one night, he went back home from your dormitory to see Hiiragi’s current CEO, Hiiragi Shinsuke, having a quiet conversation with his parents as they failed to notice Ayato hiding nearby listening to it. 

In all honesty, Ayato never liked the Hiiragi Company’s CEO. There was always something about him that made the young man feel… uneasy. 

At this moment, the uneasiness grew ten times more. 

“...Mr. Hiiragi, what’s the meaning of this?” Ayato’s father asks, a frown is evident on his face. 

The man across the table smiles in response, as if he didn’t ask the most absurd thing. 

“I’m offering you a chance, Mr. Kamisato.” Shinsuke Hiiragi explains. “You can let your son marry my daughter and I’ll destroy all evidences regarding your… grandfather being involved with the infamous Kaedehara incident as well as the evidence that your father’s involved with the car accident that the heir of one of Tenryou Company’s branches, Kujou Kamaji, died in.” 

Ayato’s eyes widen, his breath hitches. 

“But… Mr. Hiiragi,” Ayato’s father hesitates for a moment, “I would have agreed on this arrangement had it not been the fact that my son is with another. I simply cannot accept that I have to force my son to leave the person he loves–!”

“If you refuse my offer, then I have no choice but to release all the evidence, Mr. Kamisato.” Shinsuke interrupts in a taunting manner. “Would you rather see your ancestors’ entire work into ruins and let your family face backlash from the media, or would you rather let your company continue its successful years without any worries and burdens?” 

The young man watches as his parents look at each other in deep thought. It’s obvious they didn’t want to sacrifice their son, but neither did they want to face cruel consequences that their children will face. 

However, it’s also obvious which option is the best. 

Which is why Ayato walks away from the dining area without listening to another word from the three, his heart heavy and aching on the thought of what happens next. 

He couldn’t sleep that night. 

He couldn’t stop thinking about every single possible way he could do to prevent this, and all of them led to one thing. 

Even if Ayato did find a way to reject Shinsuke without the dire consequences, what if the cruel CEO decided to hurt you to make him say yes to the marriage?

Ayato couldn’t let that happen. 

If breaking up with you and marrying someone he doesn’t love is the only way to protect both you and his family from harm, then so be it. 

Knowing you, you’d definitely try to find a way to do something about Shinsuke, and Ayato certainly cannot let you do it – not when Shinsuke is perhaps one of the most dangerous person who won’t hesitate to kill you.

There's no doubt that the Hiiragi family was also the one behind the death of Kujou Kamaji. 

If there’s one thing that’s strange about the car accident, it was the fact that the cause of it was Kamaji being seen falling unconscious while driving before hitting another car and causing an explosion, leading the Tenryou Company and the police to investigate what made the passing heir to do such a thing, only to find nothing that could help them.

It’s obvious that Shinsuke would be the first person who’d be out for Kamaji’s head given that he’s the one marrying his daughter, something the CEO disapproves due to how Shinsuke isn’t fond of the Kujou family. 

However, what most people didn’t know about the infamous accident was how Ayato’s grandfather is the last person Kamaji talked to before his death. 

His grandfather was seen by the CCTVs of the Yashiro building talking to Kamaji and led the younger man to run away to his car before the accident occurred, leading the old man to delete the CCTV tapes in fear of people thinking that he was possibly behind the accident. This soon became one of the Kamisato family’s biggest secrets as it was a risk to the business’s reputation. 

Knowing this fact, Shinsuke probably got his hands on the tapes and will use it as one of the pieces of evidence that the Kamisato family was involved with the death of Kamaji despite it being far from the truth. 

It didn’t matter to Shinsuke it seems, not when the CEO can forge all of the evidence with the help of whoever has the Hiiragi’s family’s back and make it look as if the Kamisato family was behind all of it.

Knowing this, the heir knows Shinsuke won’t hesitate to go after you if he could get away from the two incidents. 

Ayato’s heart felt heavy from the thought of what he’s going to do. 

Just thinking about not being able to wake up beside you everyday makes him feel hopeless. Just thinking about not being able to be there for you when you cry or be upset over something makes him feel as if he’s separated from you by a wall made of bedrocks. Just thinking about you looking at him as if he’s the worst person to live on Earth makes him feel suffocated. 

Just thinking about not being with you is enough for him to feel like he’s nothing. 

The only way to keep you safe is by making you avoid him, so he has no choice but to… but to…

“No, I can’t hesitate right now.” He whispered to himself, putting his hands on the sides of his head in frustration. I have to do this for my family��� For Ayaka. He thought to himself, closing his eyes shut with a shaky sigh.

Even if he has to make himself become someone you despise with all your heart, even if he has to force himself to lose the future he dreamt of that has you, even when his body feels like it's on fire as his heart weighs as much as the burdens on his shoulders at the thought of not being able to be the person you’ll spend with for the rest of your lives, even when he doesn’t to go back to his bland life before he met you, he knows he has no choice. 

As the future heir of the Yashiro Company, he must choose the best choice for everyone. 

By the end of the night, Ayato had made up his mind.

In order to make the breakup look sincere to you, he must avoid you for weeks. 

He remembers watching romance movies to learn and understand how he can possibly win your heart, but he also learned how he can possibly break your heart. 

Now that he thinks about it, this can be a practice for the both of you to live without the other.

He goes back to riding his family’s car towards the university instead of walking with you there, trying to focus on anything that won’t make him regret and run off to where you are (he doesn’t notice the way Ayaka looks at him in concern at the sight of her brother clenching his hands as if he’s holding himself back from something).

He goes back to being holed up in his bedroom studying instead of running off to Komore Cafe to study with you, trying to be busy to stop himself from thinking about you and wonder how you are (he doesn’t notice how his desperate attempts never work. Not until he finds himself staring at the wallpaper of his phone that has you in it). 

He goes back to spending time with the Student Council for the rest of the day instead of spending time with you in the university, trying to distance himself from you in order to get used to what the rest of his life will be (he doesn’t notice how Student Council officers, particularly the president and the vice president, wonder what made him look as if he’s been through hell with those now dull eyes of his). 

He goes back to being his old self before he met you.

All of this with an excuse of simply “forgetting” about your plans and being too busy to be able to be with you (when he’s always ready to drop everything for you).

The amount of time he had isn’t enough to prepare him for this moment.

By the time he deems it’s time to tell you, you both agreed to meet up with each other in the cafe after not seeing you for the past weeks. It felt like he hadn't seen you for years if he had to be honest. 

His mind instantly went numb when he entered the doors of the cafe that his best friend owns, his heart weighing him down from what’s about to happen. 

“Ayato! You came!” You spoke up excitedly when you spotted your lover, standing up from your seat and rushing towards him for a hug.

He finds himself spreading his arms wide, knowing that this will be the last time he’ll ever hug you like this. 

He closes his eyes shut the moment he feels your arms wrapped around him, shoulders relaxed from your familiar scent and warmth that you have whenever you hug him, clinging into you closer to him as he cherishes the hug. 

Ayato had to stop himself from hugging you again the moment you let go of him. 

“Come, I already asked Thoma to order the usual. I need your help with a certain topic that I think you might know about.” You explained, holding your lover’s hand as you drag him towards the table you always go to. 

He’ll just indulge himself first before letting go. 

Just once, and he’ll do it. 

…

He can’t do it.

Why can’t he say it? 

Ayato was silent the whole time for the past hour, something he thinks you don’t notice since you’re too distracted by your homework that he helped you with. He couldn’t find the words to end the relationship he loved and devoted himself to for the past years, not when he feels so content from just being here with you. 

It was only until you’re almost done answering your last homework when he finally spoke up.

“I cannot do this anymore, ( Name ).” He said suddenly, looking up at you from his drink after staring for a concerning amount of time. “Let’s… break up.” 

This is it.

He sees the way you stopped moving your pen from his words, and it felt as though the world had gone quiet from how silent the both of you are. 

“...You’re kidding… right?” You asked, looking up from your homework to look at your boyfriend with wide eyes. “Surely.. You’re just doing this to make me pay attention to you, right?” You let out a light chuckle, hoping to the gods above that your assumption is correct. 

He couldn’t say it. Not when his mind is flooded with dread, heartache, and misery.

Regardless, it was enough for you to stop chuckling, your nervous smile slowly disappearing from your face. “...You’re not kidding?” 

Ayato nodded with an apologetic look on his face, trying to hold himself back from taking everything back and lying that all of this is a prank. “You know me well lo– ( Name ). I apologize for the sudden… proposal.” 

No. This isn’t a proposal. This is him breaking off the one thing that made him feel complete and he can’t do anything to stop himself for the sake of his family. You drop your pen slowly. “What… Wait, I don’t understand. What went wrong?” 

He lets out a shaky breath, something you mistaken as a soft sigh, and he stares back at your upset eyes. “Nothing went wrong ( Name ). It’s not you.”

It’s me. I’m the one who’s wrong. I need to do this to keep you and everyone safe. He thought to himself.

“Then what is it?” You asked in a hurt tone. 

The man pauses for a moment. The next thing he’ll say will forever be engraved in his mind, knowing that it’s the biggest lie he had ever told in his entire life. 

He inhales deeply and responds to your question. “Unfortunately I’ve… fallen out of love with you.” 

Ayato feels as if his heart went on a flatline from those words, he couldn’t breathe properly as he has the urge to curl up in misery that he had to lose you this way. He just needs to get away from you for good, tell his parents that he has broken up with you, and pray that Shinsuke won’t go after you. 

He had never expected for this to end either.

“How long, Ayato–”

“I truly apologize, ( Name ).” Ayato said as he started to pack his items on the table, trying to look as unfazed as possible. “I.. I know this might be too cruel of me to say this but.. I’d like you to stop hanging out with me anymore.” He adds. 

You stayed silent, something that made him want to kneel down in front of you and reassure you that everything will turn out okay for you in the end, knowing fully well that this will be a rough time for you and him.

He can’t answer your question. Not when all of this isn’t even true in the first place.

“It was nice knowing you, ( Name ).” 

He hopes that this will be the last time he’ll see you, for he isn’t sure if he’ll be able to hold himself back from being in your arms the next time you and him meet again.

As he continues to walk away from the cafe, he sends a text to his driver that he’s ready to go, not noticing how you’re walking towards him until he hears you.

“Ayato, please! Just tell me what went wrong!” You exclaimed loudly as you followed your now ex boyfriend down the streets, ignoring how some people passing by looked at your direction strangely. 

“Don’t bother following me, ( Name ).” Ayato spoke, glancing at your direction with a warning look on his face as he continued to walk. For the sake of you, please don’t come after me. He thought.

He stops his tracks when you feel him tugging his clothes, not wanting to drag you and accidentally hurt you from walking with you holding onto him. 

“Please Ayato, I deserve to know what made you no longer love me!” You begged in a desperate tone.

He sighs in defeat, his shoulders slumps. 

Ayato turns around in your direction, a dull look plastered on his face. “Is it really necessary to have a reason why? I suddenly just don’t. Don’t make this harder for yourself than it is for me.” He lied. He still loves you, there’s nothing that will make him feel otherwise.

“Of course it’s necessary! You can’t just not love me anymore–”

“And yet here we are.” 

Words die instantly in your throat and you stare at him in bewilderment, your hand still holds onto his clothing. He wants to punch himself for making you hurt. 

“...Do you really not love me anymore?” 

He stares at your eyes, thinking of what to say before letting out a breath that he didn’t know he was holding. 

“Would you believe me if I said yes?” 

Your breath hitches. 

Your long silence was enough for Ayato to completely turn around and continue walking towards the bus stop, leaving you standing there dumbfounded and in disbelief. If only you knew how much he wanted to run to you and make it up to you, how desperate he is to find a way to not let the situation end like this, 

He couldn’t. 

For someone who doesn’t regret his choices, this is perhaps Ayato’s first time regretting a decision. 

What can he do about it? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. 

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By the time he comes home, he looks at his parents with a sad smile on his face.

“Mother, father,” He called them, slowly dropping his bag from his shoulder. “I have.. News for you.” 

From the way he looks, his parents immediately became concerned for what he has to say. “...What is it, Ayato?” His father asks. The three didn’t notice how a certain person was somewhere nearby listening to the conversation in curiosity and confusion.

“I know about… Mr. Hiiragi’s offer and the consequences. So I decided to break up with ( Name ).” Ayato explains, unfazed by the sounds of his mother letting out a shocked gasp as his father stares at him in disbelief.

“Ayato you what…?” 

“It’s alright. I know this is for the best of our family.” Ayato reassures them, walking towards the hallway nearby. “You may call Mr. Hiiragi about the news and I’ll listen to what he has in mind about the arranged marriage. I’ll be in my room for the rest of the day, I don’t think I have the appetite to ea–”

Suddenly, he felt warm arms wrapped around him.

“Ayato…” Ayato realizes his mother is the one who’s hugging him in such a vulnerable matter. “I’m so sorry you had to go through this.. I wish there’s a way for you to not push ( Name ) away, you deserve to be with them so much and I can’t believe you had to do this for us–!” 

“Mother, please.. Don’t cry..” The heir spoke softly, trying not to show his devastation. “I’ll be fine. ( Name ) will be fine too.” 

“We.. have to make up a lie that we disapprove of ( Name ) due to the fact that they’re not like us.” Ayato’s father spoke. “It will give those who know about it all the more believable reasons why you’ve broken up with them.” 

Hearing that made Ayato’s heart sink even further. “...I understand.” 

It took a long while before Ayato is finally allowed to go to his room after a long conversation between him and his parents, who both never fail to remind him that they’re sorry for him to experience this. 

As soon as he closed the door shut behind him, Ayato finally broke his facade. The rest of the day was filled with him being devastated at losing the only person he loves, his heart aching nonstop from the heartbreak he endured after breaking things off with you. 

“I’m sorry ( Name ), I’m so sorry my love.” He whispered, not noticing how his bedroom door was opened slightly by a certain person he holds dear, whose heart breaks at the sight of her dear brother being miserable for the first time all because of a sacrifice.

That day was the day Ayato died, all that was left was what remained: the heir of Yashiro Company.

And the day after his death was just as painful as yesterday. 

Even when he broke your heart and left, you still come up to him to try and ask him why on Earth he broke up with you, only for him to push you away and avoid you despite wanting nothing more than to tell you. It hurts to try and get used to ignoring you instead of letting you come to his arms every time you come up to him. 

It’s for the best. He’d rather tell you years later than tell you when you’re in potential danger now. 

It’s ironic how he’s experiencing miscommunication when it’s his least favorite thing in romance movies. 

By the time you stopped, he could only hope that you understood that some things can’t be out in the open. 

Until he finds out that you’re now avoiding everyone.

It’s a habit of his to check a certain street that his car passes by to see you, so when he couldn’t see a sight of you for the next few days, he was confused (and worried). Not to mention how whenever he spots your friend group, you were never there with them at all. 

When he discovered that you’ve stopped hanging out with your friends for “projects” from Thoma, he felt even more worried. 

Why are you going through your heartbreak alone? 

Ayato couldn’t sleep well after finding that out – scratch that, he wasn’t able to sleep well at all ever since he found out about the damn arranged marriage. All he could think about is your well-being and whatever on Earth you’re doing. 

He wonders how you’re going through your heartbreak, if you’re not beating yourself up thinking that it’s your fault he left, if you’re blaming yourself for the breakup, and so many more thoughts that just breaks his heart further.

It frustrated him to no end that he can’t do anything about it, not when he has to avoid you in the first place. The only thing he could do at this moment is to just hope you’re not pushing yourself too far.

Sometimes, his mind trails off to what could’ve been if you and him weren’t together. 

If he hadn’t fallen in love with you, then you would’ve been happier without any worries besides your assignments instead of suffering from his mistake alone. If he hadn’t fallen in love with you, his life would’ve still been as bland and busy as ever and accept the arranged marriage without regrets. If he hadn’t fallen in love with you, then he wouldn’t have experienced what it’s like to love and to be the so-called mischievous and playful Ayato that you grew to love. 

He knew he didn’t deserve someone like you, who’s better off with someone who doesn’t have a secretive family past, someone who doesn’t have the chance of getting forced to an arranged marriage, someone who would never break your heart even if the circumstances are dire.

You’re better off with someone like Thoma. 

Ayato doesn’t want to admit it, but he’s quite envious of his best friend. Not only does Thoma know you since you were kids, but he has always been one of the first people you’d go to for advice and comfort should Ayato be unavailable to do that for you. Unlike him, Thoma’s never as busy as he is and, if he dare say, knows your interests more than Ayato does. 

Unlike him, Thoma would never give up on your relationship. 

Which is why if there’s a possibility that you’ll move on and fall in love with someone else, then he wouldn’t mind if the person is Thoma, who would surely treat you well. 

“Kamisato.” One of Ayato’s security guards knocks at his bedroom door, causing the man to wake up from his thoughts. 

Ah right, he has things to tend to.

“You may come in.” Ayato spoke up, turning around to see the door opening. “I’d like you to do a favor for me while I’m off tending to my studies.” 

“What would you like me to do, sir?” 

“You’re aware of the dormitory of my university, yes?” 

“Yes, sir.” 

“Then… Could you visit there and pick my items in my… friend’s dorm, perhaps?” 

Before the security guard could reply, someone else suddenly knocks on the door, causing Ayato to look at his door in confusion. 

“Brother,” Ayaka’s voice is heard from the other side of the door, “may I come in?” 

His shoulders relaxed knowing that it’s simply his dear sibling. “You may, what brings you here?” 

Ayaka shyly opens the door, smiling apologetically. “I uh… I couldn’t help but overhear your conversation and… I’d like to pick your items from your friend’s dorm if that’s alright.”

His eyes widened in surprise. “Are… Are you sure, Ayaka? What made you want to come visit the dormitory?” 

“I’m actually planning on visiting there for my friend, Yoimiya. I wouldn’t mind picking the items up for you while I’m at it.” She explains. “Is it alright, brother?”

Ayato thinks about it for a while. Is it really a good choice to let Ayaka come visit your dorm? 

As though the younger woman could read his mind, she instantly adds, “If I may be blunt.. I think ( Name ) wouldn’t mind seeing a familiar face by their door. I’m sure they wouldn’t mind seeing me.”

“How did you know it’s ( Name ) you’re going to?” 

“...Their dorm is the only dorm you visit, is it not..?” 

“...” 

Ayato couldn’t help but smile. “Alright, fine, I see no harm in letting you visit ( Name ) for my items. Thank you for offering, Ayaka.”

The woman nods in acknowledgement with a smile before she looks at the security guard and gestures to him to be dismissed, who didn’t hesitate to leave the room seeing how he’s no longer needed. 

“I shall leave as well, thank you for letting me do this, brother.” 

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By the time Ayaka comes home, it’s already dinner, and Ayato instantly notices the relieved look on Ayaka’s face.

He couldn’t help but be curious if something good had happened between his sister and ex lover. 

“...How are they…?” Ayato asks.

The woman stays silent for a moment, looking down at the box that contains Ayato’s items and gifts he gifted for you in deep thought. 

She then smiles gently. “They’re better than before to be honest.” 

Those words were enough to make him feel relaxed. 

“That’s good.. Let me pick that up for you, I’ll take it to my room while you go to the dining room and eat.” 

Ayaka nods in response, lending her sibling the box. “I will wait for you there then.”

As Ayato starts walking towards his room, he looks down at the box to see the items that were once in your dormitory that he loves to visit. 

Ah, so many memories. It’s as if the man is going down the memory lane.

He could recall every single joyful moments the items – especially the gifts he gotten for you – brought, like the time when he won a game booth during a school event and got you the prize you wanted, the time when you both made bracelets to match one another, the time when he made an exceptional origami that he gifted to you, the time when you both celebrated your one-year relationship anniversary in Komore’s Cafe, and surprisingly, the time when you both confessed your feelings to one another. 

Unfortunately, just like how he deals with the memories he has with you, he has no idea what to do with his items. He couldn’t throw it all away, nor can he just simply ignore it. 

Perhaps.. It wouldn’t hurt to display these in his room, where he’s the only one who would stare at it as he remembers the value it holds in his closed heart alone until the day comes when time finally follows his memories and precious things. 

Just thinking about the memories made Ayato realize that even when he has a future spouse to marry, he will never be able to experience the things in a way he did with you, and will never feel whole again.

It didn’t take long before Ayato eventually met his future spouse. 

Shinsuke was more than ecstatic when he heard news that Ayato’s now single and accepted his offer of the arranged marriage, causing the CEO to instantly come to visit the Kamisato Estate a few days later to discuss certain things about his daughter, Hiiragi Chisato. 

The first thing Ayato needs to do is to win his daughter’s heart, then when Chisato wishes so, the CEO will start the wedding arrangements immediately, all the while Ayato wonders what the woman he’s going to marry is like. 

Ayato imagined Chisato to be some cruel and vicious woman who probably saw him in those parties and suggested the marriage to her father, and he felt even more miserable from just thinking about the fact that he’d possibly marry a terrible person and have Shinsuke, a potential murderer and a cruel man overall, as his father-in-law. 

But his thoughts instantly changed when he saw her by the balcony. 

Shinsuke emphasized the fact that Ayato must attend the upcoming party that both Hiiragi family and Kamisato family would be attending, wanting the man to come up to his daughter and get to know one another, so the blue-haired man had no choice but to attend the party despite being someone who prefers to not be in public’s eye. 

Hiiragi Chisato was a lonely soul, if he had to put it. She didn’t look like someone who’d plan evil doings nor someone who’d be the daughter of some cruel man. She just looks like a woman who longs for something in her life. 

He knows not to judge a book by its cover, but sometimes, a cover has to be interesting enough to make a person be curious and look at what's inside. 

So he finds himself heading over to her, already knowing what to say in his head.

“And what brings such a lovely lady such as you being so lonely for an exquisite party, if I may ask?” Ayato spoke smoothly, watching as the woman looked at him in surprise.

Chisato couldn’t bring herself to look him in the eyes, her words stumbling. “I-I uhm.. I just feel a bit overwhelmed from so many people attending here. I thought it would be best if I took a breath of fresh air.” She explains, her fingers fidgeting.

A fake small chuckle comes out from his mouth, though his shoulders slightly untenses from how nice the woman seems to be.  “That I can understand. Not to mention how I have to make some small talk with half of the attendees, which bore me a lot.” He comments, leaning against the railway and looks at the view in front of the two lonely souls. “Your name is Hiiragi Chisato, correct?” 

She lets out a small squeak. “You… You know my name?” 

“I know everyone’s names at the party.” He spoke. “My name is Kamisato Ayato, I am delighted to make an acquaintance, Miss Hiiragi.” 

“O-Oh you don’t have to.. Call me that!” She said immediately. “You can just call me Chisato, Mr. Kamisato.” 

Ayato pauses for a moment from her words, taken back from how she’s so casual around him. 

A small smile appears on his face. “If that’s the case, then you may call me Ayato, Chisato.” 

That night, the both of them talked about a few things about themselves, be it what they do in their free time, their favorite food, favorite events that are held every year, and so on and so forth. If it weren’t for the marriage, the blue-haired man would’ve been happy that he made friends with someone who’ll surely be willing to be a good help to the Yashiro business in the future.

Eventually, the two of them started talking about the arranged marriage.

When Ayato brought it up when the opportunity arose, he was surprised to see how the look on Chisato’s face was anything but excitement.

If their genuine conversation earlier wasn’t enough to convince Ayato that she didn’t want this marriage either, then it’s the way she looks right now that does the trick.

“...I’m not sure what to feel about this marriage,” Chisato spoke honestly with an apologetic smile. “I was.. surprised when my father brought up that he’ll set me up with you, especially when I’m still moving on from my lover’s.. death.” 

Ah, so she doesn’t know that he had broken up with his lover.

The man tries to prevent himself from asking Chisato if she could change her father’s mind about the marriage, knowing that it will only be a helpless move given that the woman would have definitely asked from the start. 

“My condolences, may he rest in peace.” Ayato said with a sad frown. “If it makes you feel better, the marriage is a shock for me as well, and I’m not sure how this will go for us.” 

The woman feels relieved from hearing those words. “I’m glad we’re on the same page then.”

It took a minute before Chisato spoke up again. “Even though we don’t have feelings for each other, I’d like to put in some effort in this marriage at least. We will be spending time together for the rest of our lives as soon as we graduate, after all.” 

Ayato feels his heart sink, now remembering that fact. 

“...I understand. I shall try to do the… same.” was the only thing he could muster, knowing that he’s still not ready to even accept this cruel fate of his.

That was the last time he saw the woman, and there’s no guarantee that the Hiiragi won’t be at the next party that the Kamisato family will also be attending. 

What can he do about it? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. 

As days grew by, Ayato felt more restless to the point where he didn't want to go home early and study. All he wants to do is something that could make him forget. Forget about the ridiculous marriage, forget about the heartbreak, and forget about you.

Although he looks like he hasn’t been through hell at all on the outside, the inside is like an ocean during a stormy night. Only time could tell how long it’ll take before he snaps. 

Even when he hasn’t seen you for weeks, you’re still haunting him. Even when he closes his eyes and sleeps, you’re still there in his dreams – the one where he wants to be forever because it’s the only place where he has you in his arms with no worries.

Out of hopes of keeping his thoughts at bay, Ayato volunteers to stay on campus after classes to help with some more Student Council activities. 

Thanks to this, it was the reason why he saw you again. 

He was on his way out of the university an hour after he finished his extended activities when he noticed your familiar figure nearby. Seeing how you didn’t notice him, he decided to try and go to another direction to hide himself away from you, only for you to notice him and be surprised. 

Thankfully, he instantly looked away when your eyes landed on him, causing him to act like he didn’t notice you and went in another direction to go away from you. 

His heart sank when he heard you letting out a sob as soon as he was out of your view. 

Just hearing such a sound would’ve made him run up to you and comfort you to the end of time, but now that he has no right to do such then there’s nothing he can do than to be out of your way and out of your life. 

The next day after the incident, Ayato quickly backed out from his extended stay in the campus for the Student Council much to his comrades’ confusion. 

He decides to go back to being occupied with both of his duties as the heir and studying hard. Although it doesn’t exactly help shoving his thoughts away, it’s better than bothering you. 

Sooner or later, the reminder of his marriage eventually comes. 

It started when Ayato encountered Chisato once more at the university, specifically the place where all the buildings connect to one another, and the man dreaded the thought that people will start being curious about their relationship and spread rumors about it, which could lead to you hearing them all and be even more heartbroken. 

What can he do about it? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. 

When Chisato said she’d put effort in the marriage, Ayato didn’t think she meant she’s going to start now when they haven’t even been officially engaged yet.

Not a week even passed when the young man received letters from the woman. Each note was nothing but wishes that his day would go well, something that made him couldn’t help but scoff. 

His day will never go well when he has just left the only love of his life. 

Just when Ayato thought the letters were the only thing he’ll get from Chisato, the woman had also started to occasionally give him foods that she accidentally cooked too much, something that made his smile even more strained around her. 

There’s no food that could make him feel happier than the ones you make for him. 

Eventually, Chisato squeezed into his dull life no matter how much he didn’t want to.

She became his partner in events that both of their families are invited to, not noticing how much he wanted to tell that he’s not dating her to people who went into conclusion that they’re both dating. 

She then became his new studymate and visits his estate every now and then, not noticing how he prefers to do things alone ever since the breakup. 

She became a part of his friend group, not noticing how his friends are hiding something that she doesn’t know about Ayato. 

Not to mention how she’s also the person he walks with towards the university, not noticing how he sometimes stares at a certain street and locations that reminded him all too well of someone who’s special to him. 

At this point, Chisato truly became a part of Ayato’s life.

What can he do about it? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. 

But, if he had to be honest, he appreciates Chisato’s efforts. He always reassures himself that at least the woman isn’t so cruel than he thought she would be. He feels bad that he couldn’t tell her about you, not when he knows she’ll try to convince her father once again and possibly make Shinsuke believe that Ayato put her up to it—

“Ayato? Are you alright?” His thoughts were instantly cut off by the sound of his best friend’s voice calling him, causing the blue-haired man to wake up from reality and look at Thoma in confusion. 

The blonde-haired man frowns at the sight of his friend spacing out. “Is something… wrong?”

Ayato hesitates for a moment before a stiff smile slowly forms on his face. 

“Everything’s alright. Thank you for your concern, Thoma.”

If anything, Ayato is glad that no one batted an eye at the fact that he and Chisato started hanging out with one another, thinking that they’re both close friends thanks to their families. So that has to mean something, right?

Apparently not. Not when he could feel the intense glares of two certain women who are considered one of your best friends ever since he entered the cafeteria with Chisato.

Now that he thinks about it… How would things turn out when he and Chisato started dating?

He found that one out very quickly. 

It was during another typical visit from Shinsuke when he told Ayato the one thing he dreaded to hear. 

“I heard from my dearest daughter of mine that there will be an upcoming school festival for your university by the end of spring.” Shinsuke said, stirring the cup of tea that one of the servants provided. “It’s been a long time since I’ve experienced one in my school… How long was that?” 

Ayato couldn’t help but have a bad feeling down his stomach. Usually, Shinsuke is a man who goes straight to the point, so seeing him talking about… things that he should be talking with an old friend about, is getting on his nerves. 

“If you’d like to experience it again, the festival is open to everyone outside the school as long as they know a student there.”

Shinsuke smiles. “That’s good, but a CEO like me is too busy to do such indulgence. I’m quite afraid that my dearest daughter will be alone throughout the festival…” 

Ah there it is. 

“If you could, Kamisato Ayato, would you accompany Chisato the whole time and perhaps make it official?” 

Ayato’s strained smile almost falters. 

The silence fell upon the room. All that was heard are hushed footsteps from those who reside in the estate as well as noises from the beautiful yard that’s just outside of the lounge both Ayato and Shinsuke are in. 

It took a few seconds for Ayato to finally speak up. “...I’d be delighted, Mr. Hiiragi.”

“Thank you, Kamisato.” The elder man then stands up. “I shall take my leave knowing that my daughter will be in good hands for such an occasion. I will come back soon to discuss certain matters with you regarding your relationship, specifically how long the both of you will keep your relationship a secret.”

Ayato stands up as well. “Very well, Mr. Hiiragi. Would you like me to accompany you to the exit..?”

Shinsuke shrugs him off with a laugh. “Oh don’t worry about me, thank you for your kind hospitality, Mr. Kamisato.” 

Just after the CEO slides the door open, he stops for a moment. “Or should I call you son-in-law now? I can imagine you and my daughter getting married already, haha!” 

The younger man tries not to clench his fists.

“...I’m fine with any… Mr. Hiiragi.” 

Just to get this over with, Ayato decides to ask Chisato out on the day before the festival in Komore Cafe.

In a way, it’s like he’s reliving the time when he asked you out on a date in Komore Cafe. Though, that didn’t make things better for him – if anything, he feels like this is so… wrong. He doesn’t want to see Chisato as a replacement of you nor does he want to replace the memories he cherished with the ones that have Chisato in it. 

Chisato was, at the very least, delighted and enthusiastic when Ayato asked her out, giving the man a sign that she now has feelings for him much to his dismay. 

What can he do about it? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. 

He could feel Thoma’s eyes on his back, causing him to feel even more guilty that he’s doing it here. 

If only Thoma could understand once he finds out.

DAY 1 - START OF FESTIVAL

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DAY 5 - END OF FESTIVAL

The festival was all but a blur. 

The whole time, Chisato was taking Ayato all over the festival, wanting to try a lot of things to which he had to oblige. Although he wasn’t looking forward to this occasion, it didn’t mean Ayato wasn’t enjoying the festival. Fortunately, Chisato is a pleasant company to be with, and he knows he has to make efforts in this marriage as it is fair to the woman who also didn’t want it. 

However… If he had to be honest, the only thing that made the festival a bit better is the fact that he hasn’t seen you for the past week, and he wonders whether or not you’re having fun now that you’re back to spending time with your friends (an information that he found out from Thoma himself).

He finds out that question when he hears a familiar laugh that he hasn’t heard for so long. 

While Chisato was busy talking to one of her friends who found her, Ayato instantly turns around to look for the source of the voice. Just once, he wants to see you again to see if you’re alright than before.

To his relief, you are having fun.

You’re a few steps away from where he is, it’s enough for you to not realize that he’s in the same area as you, laughing along with Ei and Miko, who are enjoying the festival just as you are. 

Ayato smiles genuinely at the sight, relieved that you look better than the last time he saw you.

It’s at that moment when Ayato realizes that even when he’s suffering from Shinsuke taking advantage of him, he knows that you’re somewhere out there safe and now happy, then that’s enough for him to go on with his dull life that he didn’t wish to come back to. 

4 YEARS LATER, SPRING .

As Thoma left Ayato’s office after their agreement about inviting you to the wedding, Ayato couldn’t help but feel nervous. 

Surely if he’s careful enough, then Shinsuke won’t find out about you being his ex and will simply think you’re just an old friend of Ayato’s in college just like his other friends. He just needs to make sure that he’s alone with you when he tells you the truth, but won’t risk telling you about Shinsuke given that you’d probably be anxious for the rest of your life. 

Suddenly he remembers something. 

Ah right… Tomorrow’s the day. 

He supposes it won’t hurt to come visit tomorrow, it’s the least he can do as a member of the Kamisato family. 

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After Ayato places the flowers on top of Kamaji’s grave, he starts to pay respect as the Kujou family stands idly by in silence. Although the supposedly heir isn’t considered as a close friend of Ayato’s, Kamaji is still a friend who didn’t deserve such cruel fate. 

It’s truly unfortunate that this day was the day when he lost two of his friends.

As soon as Ayato says his condolences and farewell to the Kujou family, he heads towards two certain graves that’s quite a bit far away from where Kamaji’s is.

Another thing that the public doesn’t know about Kamaji’s car accident was the people who were in the scene.

There were three deaths who were involved from the accident. The first was of course Kamaji, but no one knew who the two other people that died from the accident besides the Kamisato family once again. 

The two innocent people who were hit by Kamaji were associated with the Kamisato family, Tomo and the last member of the Kaedehara family, Kaedehara Kazuha. 

Kazuha was a dear friend of the Kamisato siblings who died too soon. 

They weren’t close as far as Ayato was aware of, but that didn’t mean his death made the heir’s grief go away so easily. Kazuha was kind, and a close friend of Ayaka’s due to how they’re batchmates in their school. 

So when the two Kamisato siblings heard from their father that the two unknown innocent people who died was one of the people they’re friends with, they were distraught. 

He sometimes wonders if Kazuha would’ve been great friends with you. 

MONTHS LATER, AUTUMN.

The day after the joint bachelor party, Ayato received a surprise visit from a familiar guest of his in his hotel suite. 

“...( Name ).” He spoke in disbelief, watching as your face fell at the sight of your ex. 

“...Ka…Kamisato..” You replied. “I apologize, am I.. bothering you and Chisato right now?” 

Ayato blinks a few times before he immediately shakes his head. “No, don’t worry. Unfortunately, Chisato is not here at the moment since she’s currently going out with her friends right now.” 

“Oh…” You spoke softly, looking away from his gaze. You honestly hoped you’d see Chisato, that way you’d get along with her more and become friends. “...I uh.. I just came to visit because I forgot to give you two a wedding gift.” 

Ayato looks down at the box you’re holding and he manages to read the brand. Ah, champagne flutes..?

You then add, “And… I want to talk to you about what you told me before.”

The blue-haired man’s eyes lit up, opening the door wide for you to come in. “Of course, please come in.” 

The both of you stayed silent as you entered their hotel suite, unsure what to say to one another. 

“You can put the gift there on the table and sit down by the sofa. I can fetch us some drinks since I’m sure it must be exhausting for you to come all this way here.” Ayato spoke up, heading towards the kitchen without letting you protest that he didn’t have to do it. 

By the time he comes back, he places a glass of water in front of you before sitting somewhere nearby. He would be lying if he said he’s not nervous about this situation. 

You slowly took a sip of the drink, avoiding eye contact with Ayato. 

It’s only a matter of time before the both of you have to talk about it. 

Ayato decides to be the first one to speak about it. “I… I really do apologize for everything, ( Name ).”

You sighed. “...I know. I think you and I are thinking the same thing, we want to get this settled with, don’t we?” 

“Correct.” He responds. 

You nodded slowly. “I do wish you told me this before when you had the chance. I would’ve understood more as to why you did it and maybe this wouldn’t have been so painful for me.” You put the glass down on the table, still refusing to keep eye contact with him. “However, I suppose you have your own reasons for why you didn’t tell me.” 

Ayato nodded sadly. “I did.”

You took a deep breath, staying silent for a couple of minutes. “I’ve thought about it at night ever since you told me.” You confessed. “I didn’t know what to feel. Should I be mad? Upset? Sad? Distraught? I didn’t even know if I wanted to pity you or not.”  

You then look at where Ayato is. “I still can’t forgive you for what you’ve done to me of course, and.. Honestly almost three days isn’t enough for me to process this whole thing you and I have — and I doubt I’d be able to make up my mind by the end of the trip — so I think it’s best for you and I to go our separate ways for now.”

The blue-haired man nods slowly, smiling sadly. “I understand. I know it’s too much for me to ask if we could be friends again after so long so I’ll respect your wishes.”

You look at him with a grateful look. “Thank you, Kamisato.” 

“Anything for you, ( Last Name ).” 

You then decided to take your leave. “It was nice talking to you. Congratulations on your wedding again.” 

Ayato slowly follows you as you head towards the exit of his suite, wanting to escort you out. “It’s no problem, ( Last Name ). Thank you for the gift as well.” 

“Goodbye, Kamisato.” 

“Goodbye, ( Last Name ).” 

And just like that, the door closes shut behind you as you start to walk away from the room. 

Ayato lets out the breath he didn’t know he was holding as soon as you’re gone, and for the first time, he feels as if a weight on his shoulder has disappeared.

Although he isn't considered your friend, he knows it's enough for him knowing that the both of you have settled the one thing that's eating you both alive.

When he decides to return to the living area and picks up your glass, he couldn’t help but notice the gift-card you wrote on top of the gift you gave him.

“Congrats on your wedding, Mr. Kamisato and Ms. Hiiragi! 

– Sincerely, ( Name ) ( Last Name ) and Diluc Ragnvindr” 

The last two words made Ayato raise an eyebrow in confusion at the sight of another name besides yours. 

Since when did someone like Diluc Ragnvindr himself be allowed to share a gift with someone he doesn’t know well? 

Unless…?

“No.. He doesn’t see them like that.” He mumbled to himself, walking away from the box to wash the glass as he tried to push his thoughts away. 

He could only hope you don’t see Diluc that way either, if you found out about his true self, then only Celestia can tell how you would react. 

DAN’S NOTES !

To simply put, Kazuha was long dead before meeting you. His death as well as him being a part of your life as a mysterious friend whose motive is to push you to move on are honestly one of the plans I’m going for before I begin to write the prologue of evermore. 

The reason why he’s with you and wants to help you is because he knows how much Ayato is so fond of you based on countless times when the blue-haired man talked to Kazuha about you as well as how Kazuha feels like he owes Ayato a lot. So the least he can do is to be there for you when you’re alone. 

Of course, by the time you start to no longer be alone, Kazuha starts to fade away, and he knows that as soon as you come back to your friends once again, he can finally go to the afterlife knowing that you’ll be okay.

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CHAPTER TEN || COWBOY LIKE ME

SYPNOSIS (of chapter). in which today is a day for a beautiful wedding, with secrets and fears hidden underneath the naked eye.

SYPNOSIS (of series). breaking up with your first love was heartbreaking, but not as heartbreaking as getting invited to his wedding after years of not seeing him. that is, until things seem to be easier when you encounter a certain guest, who could end up being more than just a blooming friend to you.

CHARACTERS. kamisato ayato and diluc ragnvindr (w/ gn!reader)

CONTENT. angst/fluff/comfort(?), modern au, slight physical violence (slap), mentions of family problems, hints of murder, and lots of crying and anxiousness

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POST-SCRIPT. 6 more chapters before evermore reaches its end !! i'm very excited to work on the next chapters as they're the ones i'm excited to write <33 id also like to shoutout to that one anon whose birthday is today, this is my gift to you, anon <33 !!

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The day of the wedding has finally come.

It’s strange, you admit. After you and Ayato talked it out together properly yesterday, the lingering thoughts about the past was.. Quiet for the first time. It’s a good thing of course, but it’s just so new to you.

Zhongli could tell something good happened to you from just the way you’re acting today.

“Good morning to you, ( Name ).” He greeted you from his seat as he poured hot tea on his cup. “I take it that you slept well?”

You hummed happily in response, sitting down across the man with a cup of your drink. “I did. Remember when I went to visit the couple because of the wedding gift?” 

Zhongli nodded in response, causing you to add, “Ayato and I talked it out. We both settled the situation and decided that it’s fair that we go our separate ways. I’m glad we properly made up, if it weren’t for you persuading me to go up there, I would’ve not been able to talk to Ayato at all for the next few days.” 

“That’s good, I’m happy you finally made up with Mr. Kamisato.” Zhongli comments with a proud smile. It was definitely difficult to convince you to come visit the wedding couple to give them their gifts because of the fact you’re afraid of bothering them and not wanting to see Ayato, so he was glad to hear it went well for you just like he hoped it would be. “Why don’t we go to a place to celebrate before the wedding? I was meaning to visit a place that my friend’s been insisting on visiting and I think it’d be great if I could tag you along with Venti.” 

Seeing how you have nothing else to do for the rest of the day before the wedding, you don’t see why you shouldn’t refuse his offer – and besides, it’s been a few days since you’ve spent time with your dear friend. “I’d love to go!” 

–

You learned that Zhongli’s dear friend certainly knows where alcohol is. 

Unlike before when you three got lost around the city thanks to Venti, your journey to Angel’s Share was nothing but a breeze. The young man was delighted to tell you everything about the place as you’re on your way there. 

“It’s definitely a cool place! Not only do they sell the finest wines Mondstadt has to offer, they also sell lots of delicious foods and nonalcoholic beverages, you’ll love it!” Venit said enthusiastically. “I recommend you trying out Dandelion Wine or their Misty Garden – Zhongli is a fan of that one.” 

You look at Zhongli in surprise. “You went there before?” 

He nodded with a smile. “Yes I have. Though, it was perhaps a few years since I last visited.” He clarified. 

“We’re here!” Venti spoke, causing you to stop your tracks and look at the location that’s on your left, only for your eyes to widen at the sight of the name of the place. Angel’s Share…? Isn’t that where…?

“Come, come! I want to introduce you to someone before we go sit somewhere.” He spoke, dragging you and Zhongli towards the entrance.

As the three of you enter Angel’s Share, Venti takes you both to the bar area nearby, and your eyes widen at the sight of a certain familiar man who’s serving drinks for the servers to snatch away and serve it to the customers. 

It was only when you’re now face to face with him when the bartender realizes your presence.

“...”

“...”

“...Mr. – I mean, Diluc.” You spoke. 

“...( Name )...” Diluc greeted you back, surprised as well. “I didn’t know you’d be visiting here today, I thought the wedding was today?” 

“Ah, the wedding will start in a few hours, so we decided to visit here before getting ready.” You respond. “...Will you be there too?” 

He nodded. “Mr. Kamisato was delighted that everyone was pleased with the drinks I’ve served, so he and his fiancée were happy to invite me to the wedding and reception.” 

Your eyes brighten, now looking forward to the wedding more than ever. “That’s good! I’ll see you there then!” 

“I’ll see you there as well,” Diluc then looks at where Zhongli and Venti are. “It’s nice to see you again, Mr. Zhongli…. Venti.” 

“Took you long enough to realize we exist!” Venti spoke with a laugh. “We’ll be going to our table now, we better expect to see your finest wine on the table!”

“Only if you pay up.” Diluc narrows his eyes. “Might I remind you about your bill from last night?” 

The younger man pretends to not hear any word the bartender was saying, giggling as he takes your arm and walks to the nearest empty table with Zhongli following.

As the three of you shared a conversation while waiting for your orders to be served, you couldn’t help but steal some glances towards Diluc nearby, who you’d sometimes caught glancing at your direction too before you quickly looked away in embarrassment. 

You’d be lying if you said you’re not looking forward to talking to him during the reception. Could you blame yourself? There was still so much to talk about with the man, who certainly knows more than what meets the eye, but unfortunately your long conversation had to be stopped due to the venue being over already. 

Your small glances towards each other did not go unnoticed by a certain nosy young man. 

“So,” Venti suddenly spoke with a smug look on his face. “Care to tell us the juicy details between you and Mr. Diluc over there?” 

Your mouth opens in surprise, your glances towards the bartender finally stop. “E-Excuse me?” 

“Oh, I meant that I was wondering if you could tell us about you and that guy over there. I honestly didn’t expect you two to become friends because of the shop back then! I can’t help but feel curious since that man rarely makes friends.” Venti clarifies quickly with a giggle. 

You hesitantly look down at the table, fingers tapping in deep thought. “Well… I could say the both of us kept seeing each other by accident a few times after that. We got to know each other during the joint bachelor party so I guess we’re considered friends now.” You explained shyly.

“No way! Diluc tells you about himself?!” Venti exclaims. “What has this world turned into?!”

You couldn’t help but laugh at his exaggeration. “I wouldn’t exactly say that. We don’t tell each other our personal lives, just our preferences and such.” 

“Tell us more! I’m dying to know if it’s actually true that he despises alcohol–”

“Here are your orders!” The waiter interrupted the conversation, serving all of your meals from the tray as you thank the waiter internally for saving yourself from revealing too much. “Enjoy your meals.” 

“Thank you, good sir!” Venti cheerfully replied, watching the waiter walk away before looking at you. “Now, what did we talk about again?”

Before you could speak, Zhongli beat you to it. “We were talking about where to go next when we’re able to hang out again next time.” Thank you Zhongli! 

Thankfully, Venti fell for it. “Ah, really…? Oh well, I was thinking about you guys visiting my place next time so I could introduce you to Dvalin – He’s a cute bird of mine, ehe!”

By the time you finished your meal while continuing your conversation with Venti and Zhongli, the three of you agreed to call it a day given that you and Zhongli only have two hours to get ready before the wedding, much to Venti’s disappointment, wanting to talk more with you two. 

“Aww it’s a shame that we have to end this way, we still have so much to talk about!” The young man pouted, watching as the two of you started packing your things once you settled your bill. “I hope we get to meet up again once you two are done with that wedding fiasco.” 

You nodded in agreement. “I hope so too, we’ll see what we can do. See you next time, Venti!” 

As you and Zhongli walk away towards the exit of the establishment, you slowly find yourself gazing towards where Diluc is, who notices you’re leaving. Once your eyes contacted each other, you gave the bartender an acknowledged nod with a smile, causing Diluc to nod back. 

And then you left the establishment, smiling to yourself at the thought of coming back to that pleasant place.

—

“Welcome, welcome! Feel free to explore the venue for a bit while waiting for the wedding ceremony to start.” One of the staff greeted you as you and Zhongli stepped foot into the wedding venue, wearing your finest outfits that won’t outshine the wedding couple as it should be.

People weren’t lying when they said Goth Grand Hotel has the largest venue in all of Mondstadt, and whoever arranged the place did an amazing job making a huge empty room into a place that’s perfect for a wedding, with some intricate designs and fabrics draped on the ceilings as well as music playing in the background that originates from Inazuma, and flower arrangements with some colors around the room that symbolizes Mondstadt. The whole wedding is entirely filled with Inazuma and Mondstadt combined in a good way. 

“I’m impressed with this place.” Zhongli comments with a hum, the two of you walking around the area. “Goth Grand Hotel has outdone themselves with the venue for sure.” 

You smile in amusement at the sight of Zhongli’s way of being in awe. The way his eyes sparkle as he looks around his surroundings with his eyes is enough for you to know just how impressed he is. 

“I agree. It feels like you’re not in a hotel anymore.” You replied, entering the aisle. You find yourself letting out a sad sigh when you haven’t seen a familiar red-haired man around. You were looking forward to having a quick chat with him before the ceremony starts, but talking to your other friends will just have to do. 

Your slumped look didn’t go unnoticed by Zhongli, who can’t help but glance at you in curiosity. 

Are they thinking about that red-haired man perhaps? He thought to himself in amusement. It seems Venti wasn’t the only one who noticed your quick glances and interactions with your new friend.

It took perhaps thirty minutes chatting with your other friends who managed to arrive early before you and Zhongli decided to come to your seats as soon as it was announced the wedding would come shortly. 

A few seconds turned to minutes, you thought there was nothing wrong as far as you know. A few minutes turned to thirty minutes, and you thought there’s just a minor inconvenience as the music begins. Thirty minutes turned into an hour, and you knew something was wrong with Chisato, not when Ayato was already standing in his position waiting for the bride to come. 

The bride never came. 

Today is going to be a lovely day, Chisato thought with a small smile. 

After so many years of anticipation and dread, the day of the wedding has finally arrived. The woman was prepared for this moment ever since her father deemed it so, and she can guarantee that she’ll try her best for the occasion.

The woman starts the day off with breakfast served in her suite by the hotel staff. She can tell her father’s the one who ordered them to serve it given that her breakfast today is her favorite Inazuma dishes, something that she hasn’t eaten for the past week. 

It’s a shame that she can’t spend such breakfast with her soon-to-be-husband, who’s now in another suite in order for the couple to not see each other before the wedding, but nevertheless, it was fine since she’ll see him later on and eat dinner with him at the reception. Now that she thinks about it, it’s quite silent and lonely here..

Perhaps listening to her favorite songs won’t hurt a bit while eating breakfast.

She instantly grabs her phone nearby and plays her playlist before grabbing her schedule as she dines in on her breakfast.

First, she has a lot of free time for the next two hours – which she’ll use to take a stroll through the garden, have some spa, check with her wedding planner and Thoma regarding the preparations of the wedding, then afterwards she can proceed to the bridal room and start getting ready for the wedding at last. 

Simple and lovely, just the way she likes it. She can’t think of anything that can make this day go wrong,

By the time she finishes her breakfast, she washes the dishes off by the kitchen sink and goes to her room to change her attire. 

As the woman strolls around the garden happily, she admires the flowers and plants displayed. The place is truly one of the things she likes about the Grand Goth Hotel, and the pictures certainly didn’t give enough justice for how ethereal the garden looked. 

She leans towards one of Mondstadt’s special flowers – windwheel asters are what they called – and looks at one of them in fascination. They really do spin!

Chisato could recall talking to Thoma about Mondstadt before the trip. The man was surely fond of his hometown from how he has so many things to talk about the lands, and one of those things are particularly windwheel asters. 

Next to the plentiful flowers are cecilias, the one she personally chose for her bouquet besides her favorite ones that have been sent straight from Inazuma, and just as Thoma said, they’re as lovely as “true love”, a quote he recited as a reference of a certain song written by Mondstadt’s most famous idol, Barbara.

Everywhere Chisato goes, her surroundings are filled with various flowers hailed from Mondstadt and even from certain neighboring lands. 

It would be lovely if she could have a garden as similar as this for her new home that she and Ayato will stay in after the wedding, then maybe she can have a safe haven to come to whenever she wants to clear her mind. 

If she’s lucky enough, maybe said safe haven would be enough to clear some of her guilt off for not working hard enough to stop her wedding for you and Ayato.

It still hurts, knowing that it took her this long to realize that she was right about this wedding being a mistake from the start. Not only is she getting married to someone who loves someone else and had the audacity to act so loving to him with the person he loves around, but was also totally clueless that her fiance was suffering from something she could’ve tried her best to prevent. 

She knew what it was like to lose someone she loves dearly – though her experience was much different unlike Ayato’s, whereas his someone is still alive – and it made everything worse for her knowing that she’s the reason that he’s going through it. 

That’s why she feels like the best thing she can do for you, Ayato, and herself is to keep everything under wraps. Which leads her to be… more conscious about herself and those around her. 

The feeling as if everyone’s eyes are on Chisato began to dawn on the woman, causing her posture to stiffen. Everyone would be disappointed, especially those who never understood the sacrifices of arranged marriages, they’d call her a snake for stealing someone’s man and feel sad for Ayato’s tragic love life, or call Ayato a shameless man for inviting the person he still loves to the wedding and they’d pity Chisato. 

Either way, the result would be too dire should anyone find out about this. 

It scares her, knowing there’s nothing she could do if this spreads like wildfire. She was just following her father’s orders, he didn’t know any better. She thought Ayato was alright with it too since he accepted it–

With a shaky breath, Chisato decides to go back inside from the garden that she no longer enjoys, her thoughts flooding with what-ifs and overwhelming guilt as she tries to reassure herself that the feeling of being watched by everyone is nothing but in her head. It’s okay, they’re not looking at me. They’re just going about their day, no one knows.

She feels sick when she makes eye-contact with a few passerbys while heading inside, not helping her reassurances at all.

She hopes a long spa session with her friends can make her feel better. 

If it weren’t for her dear friends, she would’ve canceled her spa appointment and stayed in her suite for the next hour until she visits her wedding planner and Thoma. 

“This is truly divine, Chisato.” Hanachirusato, one of the bridesmaids, commented. “Both the Kamisato family and your family are truly generous – not only did you provide free trips to Mondstadt for everyone, you also gave us a free spa treatment!” 

Chisato shyly laughed. “You’re too kind, Hana… It’s the least I can do for you guys since you’ve been here for me since college.” 

“You being our friend is enough. If anything, us treating you out to shopping and eating in Good Hunter yesterday isn’t enough to show us our gratitude.” Sakuya chimes. “By the way, I’ve checked the flowers that you’ll be carrying, and thankfully they’re all well.” 

“That’s good to hear, I was worried about that last night before I went to sleep. But yesterday was enough for me, I’ve had lots of fun thanks to you guys.” The bride replies quietly.

“Are you excited for the wedding later?” Aoi asks curiously.

“Of course, I am.” Chisato responded. “I’m just nervous… But I believe that everything will go well thanks to Ayato’s best man and Asagiri.”

“Aww, you’re too sweet, Chisato! And no worries, the wedding is almost done with the venue, we just need a few more roundchecks with Thoma and check on the guests before the wedding starts – I also made sure your photographer arrived early to take pictures before the reception.” Asagiri said. 

“I already feel relieved from just hearing that, thank you again Asagiri.” 

“By the way, speaking of guests… Consider me curious, but who was that person you were talking to during the bachelor party, Chisato?” Fushizome asks curiously.

Chisato was taken back by surprise. “Which person?”

“You know, the one who you were talking to when you walked back to the party from the bathroom! From what I remember, they have ( Hair Color ) and a cute outfit.” 

The woman’s breath hitches. 

They now know you. 

She couldn’t help but feel scared, what if they realized you’re Ayato’s ex? What would they do if they found out about your situation? Or worse, what if they think Chisato forced Ayato to marry her knowing about you–?!

“Ma’am, try to relax.” Chisato’s thoughts were cut off by the hushed tone of her masseuse, causing the bride to blink a few times and wake up in reality.

“Chisato..? Are you okay?” One of the bridesmaids asked in concern.

“..” Chisato lets out a deep breath before smiling once again. “Ah, I’m alright, sorry. I was dozing off..” 

“Again..? Are you thinking about the wedding?” 

“Yeah,” The bride lets out a fake laugh. “I’m alright, don’t worry about me. I was just recalling everything I needed to do for the wedding.”

The women look at each other with a flash of concern for Chisato before giving in to her reassurance. “..If you insist, Chisato.” 

By then, everything was a blur. 

The discussion between Thoma and the wedding planner in her suite went as smoothly as Chisato hoped, it was only until they left the room when the woman encountered a surprise visitor.

“Father? What brings you here?” The bride exclaims in surprise, not expecting to see her father visiting her. 

“Well I’ve come to visit my sweet little girl before she goes to the wedding! Is it wrong of me to visit you?” 

Chisato shakes her head, opening the door wide for him to enter. “O-Of course not, father. Please come in.” 

As Shinsuke enters the room, the woman instantly rushes over to the kitchen after closing the door shut, preparing her father’s favorite tea. 

He then decides to speak. “I’m quite proud of you, sweetheart. I hope you and Ayato will have a prosperous marriage as I hoped it would be. Carrying both the Hiiragi and Kamisato titles is no easy feat, so I hope you’re ready for it all once the wedding is over.” 

“I’m more than ready, father.” She responded, walking over towards her father with the tea set. It was fortunate the man didn’t notice the way her hands started shaking. “You’ve prepared me for it.” 

Prepared, that’s what Shinsuke thought he was. Prepared for anything, prepared for dangers to come, prepared for dealing with someone who threatens his status, prepared for removing evidence, prepared for everything, everywhere.

Prepared for all except having a daughter. 

Even though her father didn’t say anything, Chisato knew he despised the fact that he only has a daughter who will inherit everything in the Hiiragi business instead of a son. She appreciated his efforts in hiding it to not hurt her feelings – a sign that he at least cares about her – but it hurts to see the way his jaws sometimes clench at the sight of her. 

Perhaps one of the reasons why she didn’t exactly protest against the marriage back then was because of the fact it could make her father proud of her for once. 

Even if she won medals in school, knew every single thing she needed to know to handle a business,  became top 1 in her classes, won many achievements, and a truly breadwinner that’s worth being proud of by parents overall, the bride knew it wasn’t enough for her father. Not when he wanted a boy instead of a girl as his child and for his wife to come back from the dead after dying from childbirth. 

It was only when she learned that he has other ways in dealing with people who oppose him that she lost all the admiration she had for her father and didn’t bother to try and get his attention, who’s nothing but a corrupted prick. All that’s left are fear and misery. 

“Of course, I didn’t raise you well for nothing, dear.” Shinsuke responded with a laugh, bringing up the cup to his lips before taking a sip. “That’s why I better expect nothing to go wrong with the wedding and between you and Ayato.” 

Chisato feels her heart sinking, slowly realizing that the elder man has another reason for visiting here. “Nothing’s going on that should concern you, father. So you don’t have to–”

“Don’t bother lying to me, Chisato.” 

…

What?

Chisato felt her heart drop. Does he know about the bachelor party? Did he realize who you are? What will he do to you and Ayato if he does–!

The woman tries to contain her smile, keeping her act together. “Father, what do you mean? I’m telling you the tru–”

“Do you happen to know ( Name ) ( Last Name )?” 

Chisato felt her breath hitch, trying not to look shocked. “..Wh..What about them… Father?” She breathed out, trying not to panic. How did he find out about you? Did he manage to catch you with Ayato? Or was there someone who managed to tell him about your relationship with him–?!

“I’m disappointed in you, Hiiragi Chisato.” She tenses up from the way he brought up her full name. “What did I tell you about not showing vulnerability for this wedding?! What if that vile person makes rumors about how you’re miserable in this marriage?!” 

Oh thank Celestia..

“I.. I’m sorry, father. I just couldn’t help it, I was crying out of excitement that I’m getting married to th-the man I love and I didn’t notice ( Name ) until it was too late – b-but I can reassure you father, they certainly won’t do such a thing! I promise! Please don’t do anything to them!” She begged, hoping her acting was enough to convince her foolish father. 

“I won’t risk it.” Shinsuke hissed. “It’s best if we kick them out now before they try to ruin this damned wedding by spreading rumors!” 

Chisato shook her head in dismay. “Please don’t, father! I know them well enough, they haven’t spoken about this to anyone–”

“HOW DARE YOU QUESTION ME!?” Chisato shrieks when she feels her father slap her face, causing her to instantly back away in fear. “Have you forgotten who raised you? Who fed you? Who gave you all of this,” He gestures around the suite, “and who helped you get to where you are now?! You’re getting married to one of the most powerful and richest men in Inazuma and it's all thanks to me!” 

The woman hyperventilates in panic, shocked from her father’s sudden violence. Never did he lay a hand on her violently for all her life – was it because she kept protesting instead of staying silent and playing along? 

Realizing his actions, Shinsuke lets out a huff. “I will go get ready for the wedding. If I ever hear a word from everyone about you and Ayato negatively, I will do whatever I want with that disgraceful friend of yours.” 

She watched in fear as he walked away towards the exit, her hand still on top of where he slapped her face.

By the time he left, she broke down in tears. 

“I’m sorry ( Name )..” She whispered. “I don’t know if I’ve done enough..” Just like how she doesn’t know if she’s done enough for her and her ex lover, Kamaji. 

– 

Chisato felt suffocated with her wedding dress. 

“You look absolutely gorgeous, Chisato!” Nana cooed as she and the other ladies stared at Chisato’s stunning figure in awe, not noticing the way the woman looked miserable. “If Kamisato didn’t fall in love with you before, he’ll surely fall in love with you now!” 

Just as Chisato wished, she’s wearing a wedding dress that those such as Mondstadt would wear on their weddings instead of a traditional wedding dress that Inazuma women would wear. The wedding dress was slim, enough to hug her figures in a comfortable way, with designs that her stylist made by hand herself that resembles her homeland, Inazuma. There was also a petal train by the end of her dress, with designs of sakura petals instead of the ordinary flower petals. 

She would’ve felt emotional on how gorgeous she truly looked, if it weren’t for the fact that her mind is elsewhere. 

“...Thanks, ladies.” She whispered, a strain smile appeared on her face. “I couldn’t have done this all without you guys, thanks again for being my bridesmaids and maid of honor.” 

“It’s no problem, Chisato. We’re truly happy for you, I wish you a happy marriage with Kamisato Ayato.” Asagiri responds, fixing Chisato’s dress a little bit before gesturing to one of the stylists in the room to put the veil on the bride. 

The bride shuffles a bit, adjusting the dress that’s suffocating her so much– or was it just her imagination? 

Hanachirusato lets out a dreamy sigh. “Ah, I can’t wait for you to come out of the entrance and walk through the aisle, you’d certainly look ethereal, people would admire you, adore you, and even envy you–”

Chisato couldn’t help but deafen Hanachirusato’s words, her palms begin to sweat as she tries not to give in to the urge to get rid of her dress from how suffocating it is. 

“What would Ayato think when he sees his beautiful bride?” Aoi asks aloud in curiosity. 

The bridesmaid’s question only made her feel even more suffocated. He’ll only wish that ( Name )’s the one who’s marrying him instead of me.. 

She slowly remembers what Shinsuke told her about you. 

The bride lets out a shaky breath. 

“I apologize, I need to go to the bathroom alone.” The bride spoke before walking towards the bathroom without letting anyone talk. 

Seeing how there’s nothing wrong with it, the bridesmaids decided to continue with their finishing touches on their outfits while waiting for Chisato.

It felt a little strange to hear nothing from Chisato in the bathroom. As far as anyone knows, this hotel was loud enough for at least the sounds of the water to be heard, signaling that there’s someone in there, so hearing nothing is strange. But since it was simply none of their concern yet, everyone decided to continue their day. 

It wasn’t until a long time had passed when the bridesmaids realized there was something wrong. 

“Chisato, are you alright?” Fushizome asks as she knocks on the bathroom door. “What happened? Do you need our hel–” 

“I’m sorry, I don’t think I want to continue the wedding.” The bride spoke as she continued to kneel down against the wall in the bathroom, crying softly in fear for her future and in fear for what her father will do to you and Ayato. “This.. All of this is wrong.” 

Everyone’s eyes widened from her sudden decision. “What do you mean? You didn’t do anything wrong, Chisato, you’re just nervous–”

“No, no. You don’t understand!” Chisato spoke hysterically, not caring about the fact that her makeup is now getting ruined from her tears. “Please just.. Just leave me alone!” 

“But Chisato, how can we leave you alone? We’re worried for you!” It’s for your own good, Chisato thought, breath shaking. If my father can go after anyone like ( Name ), my newest friend, then he can go after you guys too. “I can’t… I can’t talk about it…” 

“Please Chisato, let us in!” 

“Just leave me alone!” Just leave me alone, so father won’t hurt anyone I care, so he won’t hurt anyone’s lives like what he did Ayato and ( Name ) and others who were affected by him–

“Chisato?”

Her thoughts stopped when she heard his voice. 

“...” She slowly looks up at the door. “...Ayato?” 

“Yes, it’s me.” Ayato confirms, knocking on the bathroom door softly. “Care to let me in?” 

Chisato hesitates, thinking deeply for a while before standing up from the cold floor and placing her hand on the doorknob. 

With a deep breath, the bride opens the door slightly, enough for Ayato to see her and for the other people in the room to not see her. 

“...Come.” 

As soon as the groom steps foot to the bathroom, Chisato immediately closes the door, her shoulders slumped. 

The two of them stayed silent. It’s a habit between the two of them to stay silent with one another sometimes, especially at parties whereas they’d retreat to a secluded place and enjoy the peacefulness with no words exchanged. 

This time, they retreat to a secluded place for a different reason. 

 “I’m.. sorry.” She apologized softly, interrupting the silence. “I.. I know what happened between you and ( Name ). I feel ashamed that I didn’t even try hard enough–”

“You did more than enough.” Ayato interrupts. “I appreciate all your efforts you’ve done for me.. and I’m guessing for ( Name ) as well since it looks as if you two have met already.” He chuckles softly at the sight of pink in Chisato’s cheeks as confirmation of his assumption. “...If anything, it should be me who should apologize.” 

Chisato’s eyes widened, and before she could protest, Ayato quickly explained. “I apologize for not telling you anything about my situation with ( Name ) back then. I thought it was better to be quiet about it, knowing you couldn’t do anything to stop this marriage since… your father is a man who can’t be convinced.”

The bride looks away from his gaze. Although it’s true that she still couldn’t do anything about the marriage, she feels as if she still had a part in this marriage in the first place and feels guilty about it despite not being the one to suggest it to her father.

“I wanted to tell you before the wedding.” Ayato adds, smiling in sadness. “But I didn’t want to hurt your feelings and.. I was afraid that you would react badly, I don’t want to risk anything.” 

“I understand,” Chisato spoke. “I… I just feel so sorry that you have to break up with your lover for this.” 

“You don’t have to. ( Name ) and I have come to accept our fate.” He then looks at the door behind Chisato. “The one who was behind all of this is your father.” 

“I know,” she whispered. “I… I don’t know what I can do to make him pay for everything. I’m scared that if I stand up against him, he’ll…”

“Hurt everyone you love?” He finishes her sentence. 

“...”

“You’re not the only one who knows his dirty methods.” Ayato says softly, his heart aching at the thought of the Kaedehara family and Kamaji, who have fallen by the hands of the corrupted CEO. “That’s why it’s best that you and I are on the same side in this marriage. We can somehow… Somehow find a way to stop your father and bring him to jail together, even if it’ll take years to get that opportunity.” 

She feels speechless from his bold proposal. “..I’m scared.” She admits, feeling chills down her spine from the memory of Shinsuke slapping her. “I just don’t know what to do if he hurts one of my friends – or even you.” 

“He won’t. We just need to be careful and have each other.” Ayato reassures her. “If you stop this marriage now, he won’t hold back anymore and hurt everyone.”

Chisato clenches her teeth at the thought. As much as she doesn’t want to admit it, the groom is right about what Shinsuke would do. “...Alright…” 

He then places a hand on her shoulder, something that’d make her shudder in fear if this was done by her father. 

But said hand isn’t her father’s, but her soon-to-be-husband’s. 

“I feel sad that I can’t love you as much as you do with me,” Ayato confesses, “I’m still not ready to fall in love, but.. But all of this doesn’t change the fact that I see you as someone I trust.”

She slowly places her hand on his. “I.. I trust you too. I want to be here for you.” 

The two of them stay silent, until Ayato decides it’s time for them to get out of the bathroom for Chisato to get ready once again. “Let’s go back and get you ready for the wedding. We can talk more about this when we’re out of here.” 

The woman nodded with a smile that’s no longer strained, and she no longer finds herself being suffocated by her dress that she loved when she first wore it. 

–

As you await for the wedding couple to come back, you couldn’t help but be curious about what’s going on behind the scenes as everyone continues chatting away. 

You flinched when you felt someone sitting down next to you, causing you to look to your right and see the man you were looking for the entire time. 

“You… You actually came.” You spoke up in pleasant surprise. 

“I’m not late, aren’t I?” Diluc asks. 

You shook your head in response, smiling. “The wedding hasn’t started yet due to some inconveniences, so you’re just right in time.” 

“That’s good.” 

As if on cue, the music started playing once more, causing everyone to instantly look behind to where the wedding couple will walk down the aisle. 

You can’t find yourself paying attention to the scene, not when you find Diluc so attractive with his outfit and hairdo. Instead of having a low ponytail with his usual polo outfit that he wears in the hotel or his usual outfit when serving drinks, he had his hair on a high ponytail instead with a neat tuxedo.

Is it just you or is the room getting hot?

When you realized you’re not hiding the fact that you’re checking the Diluc Ragnvindr out so shamelessly in a wedding ceremony, you quickly looked away and watch the ceremony in embarrassment. 

As soon as Chisato walked out of the doors, everyone stood up, all in awe at the sight of the bride at her most beautiful self. With the lights and colors around the aisle, she truly looked as if she’s glowing like a shining star in an empty night sky. 

You watched in awe as well, watching her walk towards where Ayato is, whose smile is as genuine as his love once was with you. 

You could only hope his future with Chisato is just as genuine.

By the time the bride stands next to the groom, everyone sat back down and watched the couple exchange their vows and promises. 

You never thought you’d feel so happy and relieved on their wedding day instead of dread and sorrow like you always felt about Ayato. But now that you have come to an end with Ayato and Chisato, you can happily say you’re free from the clutches of being stuck in the past after years of longing and wondering. 

“Are you alright?” Diluc suddenly asks softly towards you. 

You look back at the red-haired man in surprise, before relaxing with a smile. 

“I’ve never been better.” 

“You may now kiss the bride.” The priest announces, causing the wedding couple to lean in and kiss to seal their marriage. 

As everyone, including you, clap for the wedding couple, you fail to notice a certain man whose been eyeing your direction menacingly. 

But someone did notice.

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CHAPTER 5 // TOLERATE IT

SYPNOSIS (of chapter). in which things are not what it seems to be as you decided to go shopping after finding out that you have forgotten to pack a formal outfit for the upcoming joint bachelor party and encounter a familiar face once more.

SYPNOSIS (of series). breaking up with your first love was heartbreaking, but not as heartbreaking as getting invited to his wedding after years of not seeing him. that is, until things seem to be easier when you encounter a certain guest, who could end up being more than just a blooming friend to you.

CHARACTERS. kamisato ayato, diluc ragnvindr ( w/ gn!reader )

CONTENT. fluff/angst/comfort, modern!au, ooc (?), mentions of breakups, childe slander,

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For the longest time, Hiiragi still couldn’t believe that she ended up with Kamisato Ayato. 

There are two reasons, one that is unspoken to almost everyone, and one that is reasonable. 

Ayato is an unreachable man, someone who she could never find herself to be with because well.. He’s Ayato! The infamous heir to one of the most infamous and successful companies that everyone knows. How could someone like her catch his attention besides the fact that she’s also an heir to her father’s company, who’s surely not as famous and successful as Kamisato’s?

She could still remember when the blue-haired man approached her one night during a charity party that she and her father have to attend, with her eyes so wide in shock that the highly-accomplished Kamisato heir is even paying attention to her whilst her cheeks were flushed from the alcohol she drank. 

“And what brings such a lovely lady such as you being so lonely for an exquisite party, if I may ask?” He spoke smoothly, if not teasingly. 

The woman couldn’t bring herself to look him in the eyes, her words stumbling. “I-I uhm.. I just feel a bit overwhelmed from so many people attending here. I thought it would be best if I took a breath of fresh air.” She explained. 

A small chuckle comes out from his mouth. “That I can understand. Not to mention how I have to make some small talk with half of the attendees, which bore me a lot.” He comments, leaning against the terrace and looks at the view. “Your name is Hiiragi Chisato, correct?” 

She lets out a small squeak. “You… You know my name?” 

“I know everyone’s names at the party.” He responded. “My name is Kamisato Ayato, I am delighted to make an acquaintance, Miss Chisato.” 

“O-Oh you don’t have to.. Call me that!” She said immediately. “You can just call me Hiiragi, Mr. Kamisato.” 

He pauses for a moment before a small smile appears on his face. “If that’s the case, then you may call me Ayato, Hiiragi.” 

And the rest is history. 

Since then, the woman finds herself enjoying her time with the blue-haired man. Every moment shared between them has all made her smile so wide, her cheeks start to hurt from it. 

As expected, Ayato is a lovely man. Not only does he respect her opinions, what she stands for, has a lot of things in common, and cares about his family as much as she does with her father, but he has also understood her more than she could understand herself. It honestly felt like she was Cinderella who met her Prince Charming. 

Not to mention how she and Ayato are in the same college, much to her delight. The universe must be trying to make them be together!

With this in mind, she went through a lot of effort in trying to gain her crush’s attention. Whether it’d be giving him a short love letter that wishes him well for his day, giving him snacks that she “accidentally” brought too much of, walking with him from the dormitory to the university, and so on and so forth. 

She felt like she didn't deserve to even be considered as Ayato’s spouse, but it doesn’t hurt to be selfish and try, right? Besides, he tolerated all of the things she does for him, so that has to mean something!

So when Ayato took her to one of his favorite places, a cafe that his best friend, Thoma, is working in, and asked her out on a date, she did not hesitate to say yes. 

And now, after a few arrangements and patience here and there, she’s finally getting married to the love of her life. 

What a happily ever after, she’d thought while dreamily staring at the engagement ring Ayato put on her ring finger. 

That’s what she thought of at least. 

It happened one night, both were exhausted from greeting all the guests that had arrived in Mondstadt for the wedding and are currently lying down on their shared bed facing each other, when Hiiragi heard something she had never heard often from her fiancé.

“( Name ).” He whispered in his sleep, his eyebrows starting to furrow as the woman beside him felt her breath hitch, as if the wind had knocked out of her breath.

It was only one whisper and one time, 

But it was enough for Hiiragi to wake up from her stupid fantasy.

To Hiiragi, you’re someone special to Ayato. 

When Thoma accidentally brought up your name when he and Ayato were conversing in the cafe with Hiiragi, the both of them stayed silent – it was a long silence that made her incredibly concerned – until Ayato immediately explained to her about how you’re just someone he and Thoma consider as their best friend due to how you three have been friends for a long time.

The woman didn’t persist in knowing more about you, but from the look on Ayato’s face, it was enough for her to think that you’re someone he holds dear.

It was truly unfortunate that the blue-haired man never got the chance to introduce her to you during college, and she excused it as him being too busy or you being unavailable to meet her due to your classes. 

However, she did see you often around the school grounds. 

Sometimes, she’d see you walking around the hallway talking with your friends, helping out a person picking up the things they dropped from tripping, holding your laughter with your friends while studying in the library, and even walking back to your dormitory from the university sometimes alone. 

Hiiragi would be lying if she said she didn’t want to be friends with you. She could see why you’d easily get along well with Ayato and Thoma. 

When Ayato suggested inviting you to the invitation, Hiiragi didn’t think much of it, assuming that he’s only inviting you to have a reunion with your friend group and because she’s looking forward to meeting you at last.

But now, it all makes sense. 

The way her fiancé didn’t get the chance to let her meet you, the way his friends would look away from her if she ever mentions your name, and the whispers that lingered whenever she and Ayato walk down the school hallways together whilst holding hands – 

Something happened between the two of you and Ayato took the chance to invite you to his wedding and fix it. 

The thing is, what happened between the two of you anyway? 

Surely.. It’s not that, right?

Hiiragi stares down at Ayato’s sleeping face before turning around and having her back facing him, conflict flashes her eyes. 

Did… Ayato ever mentioned to her about having an ex?

The woman inhales sharply. 

“Don’t be affected by this,” She mumbles to herself, raising the blankets higher to her shoulders to warm her from the cold room. “Maybe they just had a fight and are truly best friends.. Nothing more.” 

She doesn’t even know if she’s trying to convince or lie to herself.

–

You find yourself staring down at the bubbles in the bathtub as you sit motionlessly, your thoughts occupied with the events that had occurred hours ago. 

“Do you mind if…” Ayato pauses for a second. “If you and I could talk for a while?” 

You slightly furrowed your eyebrows, looking at the man. 

“..Talk about… What?” 

He looked as if he was taken back by surprise. “About… us back then. I would like to apologize for what I did to you.” He explains slowly, talking as if he’s reminding himself. 

You frowned even more. Why now of all times? Did he think that just because it’s all in the past means that you’ll easily forgive him unlike before?

“...Why now….?” You spoke. 

You held back your breath when you felt on the verge to cry, not wanting to sob again. The last time you cried was in front of a literal stranger – you can’t afford to let Zhongli of all people to hear you cry in the bathroom and then ask you about it– not when you don’t want to bother anyone with your burdened feelings that never seems to fade away.

Ever since your last encounter with Ayato, you couldn’t find yourself to stop thinking about it. How is he even going to explain himself? Why now? Why not when you’ve been trying to get his attention throughout the rest of the year in college like a fool? 

You clench your fists in anger. Angry that your ex has the guts to think he could apologize, angry that you are so helpless when facing him, and angry that you haven’t moved on from your foolish relationship even after how much time has passed. 

What was the point of going here?

You let out a sigh. It’s only been four days since I’ve arrived and yet here I am being stressed out instead of relaxing like how I wanted to. You thought.

You lean further back and lay down in the bathtub as you try to relax. You’re honestly grateful that Goth Grand Hotel provides bubble bath products for you to use since you could really use something to help you relax.

It was only when a few moments later had passed when you realized one important thing.

“Crap… Do I have an outfit for the joint bachelor party?” You mumbled, sitting up from your position as you thought of whether or not you brought another formal outfit that suits the upcoming party. 

When you can't recall anything, you scratch the back of your neck with a sigh. 

You suppose it won’t hurt to do a little shopping. 

–

“I’ll be going out to buy some clothes for the joint bachelor party,” You spoke to Zhongli as you fixed your clothing in front of the mirror that’s outside the bathroom, “would you like to come with me and help me out?” 

When you turned around to look at Zhongli, he looked agitated, as though he’s bothered by something. 

“As much as I’m interested in shopping with you today, I unfortunately have some things to do.” He explains with an apologetic look on his face. “Remember that… rascal…?” 

“...Who?” You asked, taken back by surprise from the fact that Zhongli has said a word that you haven’t heard him saying until now. 

A stiff smile forms on his face. “...The ginger.” 

His response instantly clicked in your head, letting out an “ah” sound as you recall Tartaglia and his antics in trying to befriend your plus one. Even now, you still don’t even know why the man is so desperate to be friends with the gentleman. Did Zhongli really catch his eye that much?

You then let out a snort. “You call him a rascal?”

“Is he not?” He responded nonchalantly. 

“What are you going to do with him again?” 

“He has invited me for dinner.” Zhongli responds, letting out a sigh. “I thought I shouldn’t reject such an offer since he mentioned going to a 5-star restaurant and booked a table for us before I could even reject it. It would be a waste of opportunity to try it out, correct?”

You chuckled, grabbing your items before heading towards the door. “Alright, whatever you say. I’ll be back before 21:00 if I manage to find a good outfit for the party.” 

He waved you goodbye. “Very well, stay safe, ( Name ).” He then gestures to your phone. “Call me if you ever get in trouble or need my help. If I could recall, the restaurant I’ll be going to is not too far from where the mall is, which is not too far from here as well.” 

You nodded in understanding. “I’ll remember that. See you later, Zhongli.”

Without another word, you left the room, thinking of what to do for tomorrow since you have no plans for that day either. Maybe going to the spa isn’t so bad, or go around the city to find some souvenirs to bring home to, but resting the whole day sounds tempting as well–

Your thoughts of your schedule for tomorrow had all instantly gone silent when you suddenly thought of one thing. 

Would Ayato try to confront me at the party? 

You clutch your phone tightly, anxious from the thought of the man trying to talk to you about the past in a public place. 

You honestly still couldn’t understand why he’s even trying. 

Did he not remember what you had told him back then?

It took one month before you finally got to talk to Ayato again, 

When you did, it was perhaps the last time you ever swore to go to him for the rest of your life. 

“Ayato, please.” You call him as you try to follow him outside the place where everyone’s celebrating an after-exams party. “You still haven’t given me an explanation! Why can’t you do this one simple thing? Don’t I deserve to know why you left?”

“I’ve told you already, I’ve fallen out of love with you–”

“But why?”

“Isn’t it obvious already?” He snaps, stopping his tracks and turns around to look at you. “I have too much on my plate. You know how much the Yashiro Company  (1)  depends on me, and I cannot let something such as you burden me–”

“What about Chisato?! The last time I checked–”

“This is different,” He interrupts. “You are different.” 

You scoffed. “What does she have that I don’t? Is it the money? Her reputation? Her company?!” 

He stays silent for a moment, and despite being with him for so many years, his expression right now is something you have never seen before. 

“My love.” 

Those words are enough to make your eyes widen as your breath hitches.

“...What do you mean?” You breathe out, watching as something flashes through his eyes when he realizes what he said. It must’ve been a regret for confessing what he said. 

“Unlike you,” He hesitates for a moment before letting out a sigh of defeat, “she has my love.” 

It took a few minutes for you to process what he had just said, when it did, you felt like the whole world – your own world –  was crashing down around you. 

Ayato didn’t even let you speak, he continued talking more, 

“For the past months ever since I’ve broken up with you, I have tolerated every single time you try to come up to me in the university and outside.” He explains. “I thought you’d stop when you get the hint that we’ll never get back together, but you just had to be this desperate for me to say it again and again.” 

“Stop it.” You whispered.

He didn’t stop. “No, you stop this. This will be the last day you and I will talk to each other about this again. We’ve been officially over long ago and we’re nothing more than just friends–”

“You’ve gone too far for me to even consider you as a friend,” You snapped, lips trembling as you feel like your heart is burning in devastation. “I can’t believe it took you this long to tell me the reason why you left me!” 

You took a step forward towards the man, who was taken back by surprise from your sudden change of attitude. “From now on, this will be the last day I’ll ever talk to you or see you again.” 

Just when he opens his mouth to speak up, you place your index finger against his chest. “Whether you like it or not, it no longer matters to me. You can tolerate it, right?” 

–

Zhongli was definitely not wrong when he said the mall wasn’t too far from where the hotel is, so you only decided to go there by foot. When you arrive, there’s a lot of clothing stores you could choose from, all containing fashionable outfits displayed by the windows. However, you decided to go to a certain clothing store that you frequently go to back when you’re in Liyue since the clothes there are comfortable and suit your taste in outfits.

Hence how you find yourself strolling all around the store looking for another good outfit whilst holding other clothes to try on later.

You’ve thought deeply of the possible outfits you could wear despite having already a lot of clothes to try on on your hands. A matching outfit with your plus one isn’t too bad, so is an outfit that doesn’t stand out much and won’t catch anyone’s eyes, but an outfit that makes you feel confident doesn’t sound bad either. 

Ah, so many choices. You thought with a frown. If only I have a companion with me, then maybe I wouldn’t look weird walking around the place like a hawk.

It seems the universe had heard your wish, because as soon as you went to a certain area of the store, a familiar voice called out your name.

“( Name ) ?” Thoma spoke in a surprised tone, causing you to turn around and see the blonde-haired man standing not too far away from where you are with a tuxedo on his hand, your eyes brightening at the sight of him. 

Finally, a companion!

“Thoma!” You greeted enthusiastically, walking towards the man. “What a lovely surprise, I didn’t expect to encounter you here!” 

“So did I! Are you here to shop for the bachelor party as well?” 

You nodded, your smile grew wider. “You too?” 

He showed you a tuxedo suit, copying your smile. “My suit got destroyed when my roommate accidentally spilled coffee on it, so I decided to go and buy a new one since I don’t think the suit will be clean when the party starts.” He explains. “What about you?”

You then look down at your hands, feeling your cheeks warm in embarrassment from the amount of clothes you’re holding. “Well… I wouldn’t say I have one for the party since I forgot it at home, so I came to visit the shop.” 

Being the sweetheart Thoma is, he didn’t mind the amount of clothes on your hands. “I see… Do you need some help in choosing your outfit?”

A part of you thought about accepting his offer instantly, but another part of you also thought about not wanting to bother your dear friend with something such as this. 

You let out a polite laugh. “I wouldn’t want to bother you, I’m sure you have matters to do for the bachelor party–”

“Nonsense! I’m actually free for the rest of the night, so I’m willing to take my time to help out, especially if it’s you.” 

You felt relieved from hearing his words. “Oh thank goodness. I honestly can’t decide which one I want – you can purchase your clothes first, I’ll head over to the changing room and start changing.” 

He nodded in response, giving you a thumbs up. “Will do. I won’t be long!”

–

For the next hour, it was all a blur. 

Thoma definitely didn’t disappoint you when he finally chose which outfit suits you best, you agreed with his choice and it basically hit the criteria you needed for the bachelor party, so you went to the cashier register and bought it. 

When the both of you walked out from the store, Thoma asked if you could spend dinner with him, to which you agreed willingly, wanting to properly catch up with your best friend after years of not seeing him since you left to go to Liyue. 

When you accepted, he instantly took you to one of Mondstadt’s infamous restaurants and said how he had always wanted to try it out ever since he arrived in his homeland. You’d be lying if you said the excited look on Thoma’s face isn’t endearing and infectious. 

Right now, the two of you were eating your meals in the exquisite restaurant, enjoying each other’s company. 

“No way, Itto won an eating competition against Miss Miko?!” Thoma exclaims, his eyes scream fascination. “What was the reason?” 

You laughed at his reaction in amusement. “Yep, they had a competition over a seat in Uyuu Restaurant – I honestly couldn’t believe he won since the foods have beans in them.” You explained, your cheeks started to hurt from smiling so much. 

The blonde-haired man gasps. “And he ate 32 bowls of it?!” 

“Yes!” 

The two of you laughed, ignoring how you received a few looks from people around you. 

“You know, this reminds me of back when we used to chat like this in the cafe.” He spoke honestly, slowly calming down from laughing. “How long has it been since we last talked to each other like this?” 

Now that you think about it, you do miss the times when you’d visit Thoma’s cafe to talk to him about anything. With all that has happened in college, you actually couldn’t remember the last time you actually talked to Thoma like this. Was it 2 years ago? Or 3?

You shrugged in response. “Perhaps 3 or less years ago.” 

“That long, huh?” 

You hummed. 

Suddenly, Thoma’s face lights up when he remembers something. “Oh right! Before I forgot to ask, would you like to get some desserts afterwards? I heard that there’s one certain store that sells lovely desserts that are to die for!” 

You nodded eagerly with a small smile, taking a bite of your food that was almost forgotten for a moment. “Sure.” 

Just like that, the both of you continued talking happily for the rest of the night. By the time you had left the restaurant with full stomachs, the two of you tried to find the store that Thoma was talking about. When you did, you felt like your mouth started watering at the sight of the delicious delicacies. 

“...This might sound a bit out of nowhere, but I’m glad I got to see you again.” He confessed, causing your thoughts to be cut off as you look up at the man in surprise. The two of you sat next to each other by the stools in the dessert shop, eating the desserts you bought together. “I always wondered how you’ve been – even though we chatted every now and then in messages – so when I saw you for the first time in years and seeing you being so happy, it made me feel at ease.” 

Your mouth was slightly open agape, unsure how to respond to his words. 

If only you knew I'm only this happy because of our time together. You thought to yourself, suddenly remembering the incident with Ayato earlier. 

But then again, there were other things that had happened besides the incident. 

You remembered the time when Diluc comforted you after taking you away from Ayato. 

“Why… Why does he get to be happy and I don’t?” You whimpered. 

He suddenly walked towards you, his steps were careful and cautious. “I’m sorry that this is happening to you.” He spoke, his voice unsure if he’s using the right words or not.

A black handkerchief is suddenly in your still blurry vision. It dawns on you that Diluc is offering his clean handkerchief to you in order to wipe your tears away. 

You hesitantly grabbed the cloth from him and wiped all of your tears. “Thank you… Mr. Ragnvindr.” You whispered. 

“It’s the least I can do.” He spoke softly. “There’s no need to thank me.” 

“...I am happy,” You said, your eyes softened at the thought of Diluc’s heartwarming actions towards you. “I can’t say I’ve completely moved on but… I suppose it’s better than my disastrous self back then.” Because I have people who care about me. You thought to yourself, smiling at the thought of your friends. 

“That’s good to hear.” Thoma responds. “Oh and uhm.. Rest assured that I’ll make sure to help you if you ever feel uncomfortable at the joint party, alright?”

“Oh you don’t have to do that, Thoma.” You spoke with a shake of your head. “I’ll be fine.”

“I insist.” He reassures you. “Never forget that you and I are friends, so don’t hesitate to call me if you need me, ok?” 

You try to protest about it, only to find yourself not being able to say anything and sigh in defeat. “...Alright. But you don’t have to check up on me at the party, I have Zhongli with me the whole time.” You added. 

“Can’t promise you that,” He said, “as the host of the party, it’s only my duty to make sure my guests are accommodated.” 

You laughed at the way he talked so formally. “Sure, sure. Whatever you say.” 

Despite reassuring Thoma you’ll be okay, his words surely did make you feel comfortable and at ease for the upcoming party. Perhaps this hangout was the one thing you needed to forget about your worries about Ayato.

If only you could truly see how Thoma looks at you.

A look that others would give to someone they truly treasure and love. 

With this in mind, has Thoma ever taken his eyes off of you the whole night you’ve spent with him?

DAN'S NOTES !

"You know how much the Yashiro Company  (1)"

in the previous chapter, ayato's mother referred the company as "yashiro business" so this may have confused a few readers here. "yashiro company" is the name of ayato's business, so his mother mentioned "yashiro business" in a way that refers to the entire business that includes the company itself.

extra: i do not ship hiiragi chisato and ayato together, i only paired them up together in this series for the sake of the plot !