#caitlynnstrashhole

[gureishi]

OMG GRACE UPDATED HER BLOG HELLO??????

it's a relief to see that you've been doing well these past months that we've missed you, i imagine that i can't have been the only one who was worried about you haha

congrats on getting through your first year of grad school and of course congratulations on your wedding! really happy for you!

it's really amazing to see you back on this platform if even just to pop in and say hi after so long again, anything from you is always smile worthy

honestly best of wishes to you in everything you do, it's good to see you on tumblr again!

Omg Caitlynn! Wow! Hi hi hi!

Ooooh, I'm really happy to hear from you! You're so sweet to worry (and also I'm sorry to have worried you) ❤️ It's actually been the best couple months I've had in a long time (even if it's been busy, too). Thank you so much for the congratulations! My wedding was really excellent, if I do say so myself.

You always say the kindest things to me. This message made me grin. It's worth being back on here—for all of tumblr's difficulties and eccentricities—to hear things like this. How are you?! How have things been going for you lately? I really hope you've been well, sweet friend!

[saeyoungs-sunflower]

hey there! hope you've been keeping up well! just another person who dropped by and found your blog recently and read A Piece Of You and I loved it so much!!!! I love your writing so much, the way in which you write feels so precious and powerful and your delving into zen as a character is just perfect!

read all the way up to chapter 4 and I was a bit sad to see that chapter 5 hadn't been up yet (no pressure!) I was just wondering if you'd be willing to spill the beans on how the story progresses and in which direction you were planning on taking it in and ofc if our babies end up together in the end!

sorry I was just so captivated by this story and couldn't help but inquire about it, your writing is incredible and such a delight to read!

thanks for writing for us :)

hello hello!!! first off, i am SO sorry it has taken me this long to reply!! thank you for your patience <33

secondly, i seriously seriously appreciate your kind words and your love for APOY🥺 it's my little baby and seeing somebody enjoying it absolutely makes my heart soar. i appreciate your words so much you have no idea!!💛

so...to answer your question...it's kinda complicated hahaha! i wish i had the kind of brain that could dedicate itself to more than one project at a time but it can't unfortunately. once something else comes along that needs doing first, writing takes a back burner, and when you're at uni those things don't stop coming hahah, which is why there are such huge gaps of time between chapters. also to be completely honest, lack of motivation plays a huge role too. i go through short bursts of motivation and it's just hard for me to keep momentum going on things. so short answer - yes i will finish it. long answer - i can't say for sure when that will be but i am determined to finish it at some point, but school has to come first! however, i do have the story planned out (have done for like 5 years hahah) so if you didn't want to wait, i can send you the general gist of what will happen!! i am happy to do that if you wanna know :)

that being said though...this particular ask has taken me so long to reply to because i didn't want to leave you empty handed. so...stay tuned for an update tonight☺️

it makes me sad that you guys who send these kind of asks or send me love will never see just how much joy they bring me (message for my fbi agent - if you could send me the footage of me squealing and grinning when i read one of these messages that would be great) but i hope it comes across just how grateful i am!!! i appreciate your kindness soooo much thank you thank you!!

i hope you have an amazing day!! thank you again for your support!!🥰🌻

(also i'm not sure if it's a typo but chapter 5 has been up for a while!! before you sent this ask for sure. i'll double check the links now but chapter 6 is going up tonight! unless you're coming from ao3 which numbers the chapters differently lol. but yeah check if you've seen chapter 5 yet, and if not then waheyyy you get two chapters tonight instead of one hahaha :'))

[wingedwhitelioness]

Thank you for tagging me 😊🌻 @iaknaide

Rules: List 10 songs you really like, each by a different artist, and then tag 10 people to do the same.

Here’s my list:

A sky full of stars - Coldplay

Everything I wanted - Billie Eilish

1973 - James Blunt

Hello - Adelle

The sun is rising - Britt Nicole

Broken strings - James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado

Forever is over - Elvana Gjata

Lost on you-Lp

For once in my life - MelB

Call you mine - The chainsmokers

I’m new to both tumblr and levihan fandom so I’m gonna choose 10 nice people who liked & reblogged my recent posts 😇 I appreciate that alot ❤️

Tagging:

@yuukinnya @nagyreka @donttossgrannyinthebegonias @djmarinizelablog @ourmondobongo @abcdefgrs @elmundodeflor @caitlynnstrashhole @justlevihan @danimjrart

[gureishi]

cmon, we'd all love see this!

Teehee I did three.

If you wanna, I’d love to see yours too, @caitlynnstrashhole (tumblr won’t let me tag you, for some reason)!

And I’ll also tag some other friends if you’d like to do this too 💕

@quirky-and-kind @truth-be-told-im-lying @space-kitten-606 @currentlyprocrastinating @shittylongcatposts @agent-bee @luxielle @askingthe-rfa @mammonprotectionsquad @dis-gorl @pamakali

[gureishi]

hey bae!!! I was wondering what your thoughts were on saerans eye colour, are they just altered after being drugged for so long during his stay at minteye or are they contacts he uses so as to set himself and his appearance as far apart from saeyoung as possible? what about his hair? lots of people in the fandom argue its natural from stress and trauma since the tips remain a pinkish colour (in their argument) implying his hair grew out white, although the most logical option would be to say he just dyed his hair during his time in minteye (since in tomato bbyboi saeyoungs secret ending it seems his hair has grown out to its original colour??) but lots of people also just argue that he dyed his hair red again and well I DON'T KNOW

so I'm honestly so curious, what are your little ideas and thoughts on saerans changing hair and eye colour?

Hiiii bae! Yesssss this is such a good question, and I love to talk about it.

Everyone's opinions on this are interesting and good and smart, and there are some fantastic posts about it out there. As for my personal headcanons?

I think he dyes his hair, but his eyes changed because of the elixir.

The hair thing is pretty much canon, after the AE: Jaehee confirms that it's dyed in her voicemail (and I suppose you could argue that she just says this to get everyone to leave her alone, but I trust every word that beautiful girl says). But even before the AE, I always figured it was dyed: those "pink" tips look like red hair showing through a crappy bleach job to me (and I'd know: I have red hair, and I've bleached it crappily before). And I can just see Ray (poor, dear Ray) panicking and covering his head in bleach so he can (almost) stand to look at himself in the mirror.

Because if the hair were a consequence of the elixir, then it would either be stuck like that forever or slowly change back after there's no more elixir. But both SE and GE Saeran stop taking the elixir, and different things happen to their hair: SE's grows out, and GE's doesn't. And this makes sense, of course: SE Saeran doesn't have the opportunity to re-dye his hair, even if he wanted to. Nobody's letting him near bleach—and he doesn't have the energy to stand and stare at his own reflection for long enough to do it, anyway. And GE Saeran continues to dye his hair because he wants to: because it's a choice he's made for himself, and it's the way he looked when you met him, and he likes it: you think it's cute, and he loves to see himself through your eyes.

Will GE Saeran ever let his hair grow out? Maybe. Or maybe he'll dye it another color entirely! He's free; he can do anything he wants.

As far as his eyes go, I think they're a consequence of the elixir for the very same reason: if they're contacts, why do we never see any Saeran without them?

And yes: in the real world, drinking a bunch of hallucinogens isn't going to change your eye color. But Mystic Messenger world isn't the real world—and in Mystic Messenger world, of course Rika would name her cult Mint Eye because she gives her followers a drug that literally turns their eyes mint-colored.

Ray and Suit and Unknown would wear contacts, of course: anything to look less like Saeyoung. But while GE Saeran continues to dye his hair because he likes the way it looks, I don't think he'd keep wearing the contacts. He's not afraid of looking like his twin anymore; he's comfortable with the person he is.

And SE Saeran probably wouldn't wear contacts, either. He's exhausted; he's healing; he's trying; he's struggling. We only get a tiny glimpse of him—but if those blue-green eyes weren't permanent, I think we'd see him with gold eyes in that CG from the secret ends.

But I have to wonder how long the effects of the elixir last. If his eyes really have changed color because of the drug that he took, will they stay that color forever? Will SE and GE Saeran's eyes eventually fade and fade till they match Saeyoung's again?

There's no way to know, of course—and the game seems to imply that they won't. But maybe the color changes subtly over time; maybe those beautiful sea foam eyes eventually develop a subtle sheen of gold.

I like to imagine it. And I bet he wouldn't mind.

He's got nothing to hide, after all.

[gureishi]

hey there! was wondering if you'd ever think of making a recommendation list of your favourite mysme fics, maybe even a rec list of just tomato boy goodness? I feel like you know so many good fics plus I may or may not have read EVERYTHING on your blog and am now in panik :\

so like if you have any good fic recommendations nsfw or otherwise, would you mind telling us?

and also would you mind US sending you fic recommendations?

Hi hi hi! Oh my god, you’ve read everything? I’m in awe. You’re a true hero of our time. Thank you 😭😭😭Please have my undying love!! <3

Yessssss. I have some recommendations (tomato boy-specific), right off the bat! I made a post a long time ago where I listed all my favorite Saeyoung smut fics. You can find it here! And for those of you who enjoy the Choi sandwich pairing, I have recommendations for that too: right here.

And I have, saved on my computer, a list of SFW Saeyoung fic recommendations, which I’ll list below! FYI, these are all fics on AO3, because it’s just...easier to track your favorites on there. But there was a fantastic post going around a little while ago (by @space-kitten-606​, and added to by others), with some recommended blogs to follow for Mysme writing. That post is here!

On to the recs! 

These are my very favorite SFW Saeyoung fics on AO3:

Metamorphosis by Morveren

it was always going to be you: his side by sassamifrass 

Sun Paths by Chiharu  

All I Long For by PatchworkFelicity 

The Hours in Between by AilisCeana

With the Truth in Our Hands by AilisCeana  

The Ways You Said “I Love You” by tsukithewolf  

Memories of a Family by tsukithewolf  

Arms of the Ocean by calamaris 

☆*:.｡.o(≧▽≦)o.｡.:*☆

And ohhhhh yes yes yes, please do send me your recs! I would LOVE that.

[gureishi]

hey there Grace😏😏

lately I've been worried I'm more in love with you and your blog than the actual mysme characters (hahaha, WHAT?)

but!! outside of mysme what stuff do you enjoy doing??

what typa music do you listen to??

series you watch???

do you watch anime, and if so what?! (read some of your fruit baskets fics, and I loved them!)

besides writing what do you do for leisure????

I had so many questions but I'm drawing a blank right now, rest assured I'll be back with more questions soon!

Aaaaahhhh hi! Oh oh oh, I love you.

Whaaaat good questions. I'm so flattered that you're curious about the answers!

My music taste is a little all over the place. I listen to singer-songwriters and pop-y folk music and straight up pop music and motown and, like, classic rock. Some of my favorite contemporary artists are Ingrid Michaelson, Janelle Monae, Mika, The Avett Brothers, Delta Rae, Trampled by Turtles, and Made In Heights. I also love Stevie Wonder and Jimi Hendrix. But like also Kesha, you know?

My fave TV shows from the last couple years are The Good Place and Sex Education!

My knowledge of anime pretty much ends with Inuyasha and Fruits Basket, the series of my youth. Somewhere on the internet, the Inuyasha fanfiction I wrote when I was 13 still exists. Really.

I suck at leisure, which is why I got into fanfiction! Early in the pandemic I realized I really really needed a hobby, so I started writing again as a means of keeping myself entertained. I'm an extrovert and when I'm not working I mostly like to sit around with my friends and talk about our feelings. I also play the ukulele badly!

[gureishi]

ok so your girl caity just finished DAY 2 of AS, and it's going goooooood so far (also aww thanks for wanting to know updates of how things go along as I move through the game, really seeing that gave me a big fat ugly typa smile)

I was thinking that in an irl situation no one would (at least me anyway) fall for Ray's obvious trick here, what do you mean you have to blindfold me??? why cant I see where we're going HUH RAY?? just everything, the fact that you also can't move around the building besides the floor your on and the way Ray speaks about the 'AIs' is so very suspicious (well ofc your character does begin to have some suspicions too) also how can a person just decide to up and leave their life for an undefined amount of time because someone wants you to test their way too realistic game?? what about your JOB, your FRIENDS or idk FAMILY, just a very unlikely situation to find yourself in if that makes sense

though despite all that ranting I must admit, I DONT CARE, Ray is the BEST BOY EVER, it does kinda hurt to be mean and suspicious of the RFA (I love them all so much cmon) and also of V! am kinda worried I accidentally end up on his route somehow :/

also Saeyoung Choi is still my one true love in this game, I can't help but mess around and joke with him whenever he appears in a chat room, and whenever Ray asks I can't help but tell him tomato boy is my favourite (sorry I love him, what can I say???)

ALSO I LOVE ZEN IN THIS TIMELINE?? love how his still finding himself as an actor and look his selfies are too gorgeous for us mere mortals, how blessed we are to even know that a presence such as his exists!

okay I'm finally done, thanks for probably reading through this, and also thanks for the guide recommendation! Will still probably only get like 3 hours of sleep a night (I really don't wanna miss out on any chats, obsessed much???) , but I'll try to use it!

OOOOOOH, thank you so much for the update!!! It made me really happy to read this! You're on like day four now, right?? I worked for a gazillion hours yesterday so now I'm behind, but I'm dying to know whose route you end up on!

I one hundred percent agree: it's so difficult to imagine being in a situation or emotional state where you'd go along with Ray's plan. Personally, I rationalize it by thinking about times in my life when I've been really lost—times when I might've gone along with something clearly dangerous just because I didn't know what else to do. In my mind, it's not that the another story MC believes Ray, necessarily—but perhaps they don't have anywhere else to turn at that point in their lives, and so they think why not? There's just something about him that draws them in.

That's just my rationale, though—I personally don't think I'd trust him, but I can envision feeling so hopeless that going with him seems like my only option. I'm super curious how you think about it!

It sounds like you're having the same kind of experience with AS that I did: I was so sure I was going to get a bad end because I just had so many red hearts. I was getting them in chatrooms he wasn't even in! And I was like, uh...what happens here if I still just only love my boy?

But I did okay, and I think you will too! <3

And yes, AS Zen is wonderful. @quirky-and-kind has some awesome posts about this (check her #my adventures with zen in another story tag)!

Keeeeeeep me updated!!! ❤️ And please try and get some sleep!!!

[gureishi]

hey there Oh Gracious Grace! been a while since I've popped in your asks, and I just wanted to reiterate once more how much I love you and your blog!

life has sucked for me lately and it hit its peak yesterday when my dad passed away from his ongoing battle with cancer. funeral arrangements and family drama have been stressing the hell out of me (sorry for bothering you with this?)

well i wanted to know if you could write a small little something of saeran comforting his s/o after they've lost a parent? you dont have to if your uncomfortable ofc, i appreciate you just seeing this all the same!

TW: death

Oh, darling. I am so, so sorry for your loss.

I know those words can feel kind of empty, when you're grieving. What I mean is that I'm thinking of you and your family and sending warmth and light and love your way.

I have not lost a parent, but I've lost people I've loved dearly. I'm certainly no expert on grief—but the people who are experts say that there's no one way to experience it. The way you are is exactly right.

If you ever find that you need somebody to chat with about anything at all (even if what you're looking for is just a distraction), don't hesitate to send me another ask or a DM or whatever you'd like.

Saeran knows you like he knows the inside of his own mind. Even so, he can't predict what you'll need—not now; not at a time like this.

He has lost so much, too. He would never try to talk you out of how you're feeling: you have been through something earth-shattering, and he wishes he could hold you till all the pain goes away.

It's not so simple, though. He watches you through those big, bright eyes as you speak to your family members and try to move forward in a world that might feel a little bit emptier than before.

Saeran will be your silent source of strength. He'll fill your bedroom with flowers—beautiful ones that remind you of faraway places—and he'll cook for you even if you don't feel like eating. The people around you might want you to talk (and talk, and talk), but maybe you're not ready to yet.

Maybe you just need to be. He'll be with you.

If you feel like holding hands, he'll clutch yours to his heart. If you'd like it, he'll play with your hair: brush it or braid it or simply weave it round and round his fingers.

If you need time by yourself, he'll guard the door to your room like a watchdog. He's soft, most of the time—but if you need him to keep the world out, he'll be impenetrable.

He knows that these things take time. He understands that sometimes you'll need to cry and other times you might even want to laugh—and that talking through what you feel or being held or yelling or being comforted won't be enough.

He'll stay through it all.

He wants to hear stories: happy ones and sad ones and the ones that that are most special to you. He'll ask questions about the past, if you'd like him to—or he'll stay quiet and press his lips to your temple, if that's what you'd prefer.

In him, you have a partner for life. His devotion is steadfast, unwavering, diligent—and he will pet your hair and remind you how loved you are till you can find a way to rest.

Time will pass. It will.

You're never all alone.

[gureishi]

so... today I finished off Rays route with the GOOD ENDING (thank god) and my sleep schedule is officially non existent! :D

lemme start off with Day 8, because that must've been the creepiest the game has ever gotten for me. I MEAN LOOK AT THIS:

EVERYONE IS LITERALLY GONE, SOMEONE PLS SEND HELP! T_T

I never knew there was a part of Saerans route in which he quite literally cuts off your contact with the RFA????? wish someone warned me, but the surprise was quite welcome too I suppose?? the glitches and the distorted music definitely amplified that scary and hopeless feel I got after being cut off from the rest of the members (especially bby Saeyoung, god I love that boy). OH AND THE WAY THE CHATROOMS WOULD GLITCH BEFORE LOADING?? THAT CREEPED ME TF OUT THANKS!! Although I was in a way also happy that I was able to talk to Saeran more! (it is his route after all).

The chats with Rika always left me feeling frustrated. I could see where she came from and understood her motivations for the way she acted and behaved, but it hurt to see the way in which she believed she was loving and caring for Saeran, and how Saeran internalized everything she told him, idk that just left me feeling a new typa broken.

It was very tempting to lash out and get angry or even just to submit to Saeran and his horrible tormenting, but I held on to get that sweet delectable good ending! (gotta get that cute kiss CG after all)

Also I was worried about Saeyoung and his safety ALL THE TIME, I knew there was a part in the game in which he'd be kidnapped but when it finally happened I honestly wanted to stop playing lmao, also Saejoong Choi can take a piss somewhere, I hate him and I wish they revealed more of his crimes in Saeran's route :(

Saeran's route also honestly made me love Jumin so much more, his so endearing, honest and caring. Love that we get to see more of his relationship with V here, you can actually see that they're best friends and that makes my heart smile.

and AWW THE END WHERE WE SEE V WITH RIKA? That really played with my emotions, and has got me considering jumping straight into his route, because I for one know his life doesn't get any better in Saeran's AE unfortunately. (and of course I won't jump straight in again, since everyone around me has been saying getting two hours of sleep every night just to play an otome game is not healthy at all)

I love the calls we get with Saeran after he finally comes to and realizes his worth, the drugs finally out his system. His so adorable and soft and even goofy at times that it makes me question whether I actually see Saeyoung as my fav (though I'll have to think alot more about that T_T, I swear tomato boy I definitely still luv u lmao)

Also love that Saeran has the most kiss CGs out of all the routes, like yes we love to see it ^^

Oh and the guests for Another Story are just such a treat from Cheritz. I mean we literally invite a dragon?? (a shame Saeyoung couldn't see his dragon buddy) and a coding language??? cmon you can't tell me that's not cool.

even though you gave me the sleep friendly guide, I still ended up getting 100% for nearly everyday (except for 2 of them which was 90%) and I must say I'm quite drained and tired but also happy that I was FINALLY able to experience Another Story, something I only really read about online before without knowing too much detail of what specifically happened. It has quite honestly given me a bigger appreciation of the game as a whole :)

I would love to play Saeran's AE but am so scared of getting a bad end, and also there's like no guides for it anywhere? so there's that to worry about too i guess.

I did decide I'd perhaps take a break from playing this game for a while since unfortunately life continues and its back to work for me, but perhaps sometime soon I'll see myself playing through the alluring and mysterious photographers route instead? ;)

also this route got me thinking alot more why Cheritz didn't give the MC eyes?? Like what purpose does the MC not having eyes provide?? idk Cheritz just give her eyes please, I think that way there'd be alot less questions floating around my bloated and overfilled mind, thanks.

Also thanks for coming along with me and listening about my journey of playing through this Another Story, I really appreciated it! :))) <3

I have been so eagerly waiting for this update!!!! Congrats on getting that good end! I'm really impressed with your dedication—and also, like, please get some sleep 😭❤️

He really is such a sweetheart, isn't he? I totally relate to that feeling of like I LOVE YOU wait I wanna MARRY YOUR BROTHER wait I love you uhhhhhh help, both of you come here and give me a hug.

I am so excited to hear how you feel when you play V's route and, eventually, the AE! And I'll recommend another of Seeme's guides, hehe. I used it last time I replayed the AE and it was great. Here! There's a sleep schedule-friendly one too (though you are clearly a completionist when you play these routes and I feel that—I'm the same way).

Those kiss CGs! Are! Amazing. He honestly needs a lot of kisses.

As far as the eyes thing goes, it sure is weird, huh? Apparently it used to be pretty popular for otome game MCs not to have eyes so it's easier for players to self-insert. Lots of newer games seem to have MCs with more specific appearances (and personalities), though.

I do like to self-insert when I'm playing otome games but also...I look nothing like this MC anyway, so her being eyeless does nothing for me, lol.

Would you prefer an MC with eyes even if she's more clearly not you? I think I would.

Also this route ending man it kills me literally just thinking about it. But just! Remember! That our boy is fine in the end. He's okay!!! He's safe and he's happy and he's got a boat ❤️

Thank you for sharing this Saeran route journey with me, my dear. I enjoyed every second of it!

[gureishi]

heyhiho!! just started with another story last night and I am not prepared to stay awake like this every single night for like 9 days to wait for chat rooms to open plsss someone helppp (it's literally 1:07am for me rn)

really hoping I land on our softy-but-not-so-softy boy Ray! already fallen in love with his character (sorry V next time, this boy is just too precious)

it's funny how everyone in game (especially jumin) tries to warn and caution me about bad sleeping habits and insomnia, when they're literally the sole and only reason I'm staying up 😐

irdk how I'm going to manage to achieve 100% everyday on the chats BUT I SHALL PREVAIL.

basically just came to rant about useless stuff, thanks for interacting with this ask in one way or the other I guess?

Eeeeee wait wait are you playing it for the first time?!??

If so, please keep me updated!!!! If not, keep me updated anyway!!!

Dude, the sleeping schedule is so hard. I don't know if you like to follow guides or play by ear, but @sensetenou has a very good sleep friendly guide (here!) if you want to try that!

It is exhausting trying to get all of the chats. Especially in AS, because the chatrooms are so much longer. I'm cheering for you, friend!!! You can do it!

I wanna hear all about your playthrough 🥰

[gureishi]

ok so I'm back with some smooches + cuddles and updates on my experience with another story so far!

currently 1:19am as of writing this meaning I'm on day 7 of guess who's route?? it's RAY'S!!! our fav soft self depreciating good boy <333

aiming for the good ending and just got the Ray kiss I never knew I'd been waiting for my entire life! >_< my heart breaks for saeran and all the manipulation and abuse he has been going through at the hands of everyone in his life, he said in one of the chats how his willing to let us as the MC abuse and use him as a punching bag so long as we stay by his side, and can I just say that broke me. </3

playing through Rays route does make me despise Rika more and more each time I see her very toxic and abusive interactions with Saeran. though my heart does bleed for her and what she's been through, her actions thereafter are inexcusable in my opinion. everyone in this game needs some intense therapy and HEALING in the their lives, godsakes.

ALSO RAY'S SELF DEPRECIATING. please I don't know how much more I can take of this, it hurts to see how lowly he sees himself and how he genuinely believes he has no right to think for himself because his an "airhead". Ray you are precious and you deserve the world, please stop tormenting yourself like this!

also I love how Saeyoung is able to see when Saeran as the other hacker's mannerisms change. also love how he cares and worries for the MC whenever she brings up her concerns for the other hacker, instead of being cynical and distrusting. also I would love if Saeyoung was romanceable in this AS time period instead pls I love him, and his still the loml in this game!!!

and I honestly feel so terrible for V, his literally carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders trying to protect everyone. and this is what further confuses me about his behavior in Saerans after ending, I'm only on day 7 so maybe his character does really develop to the point his at in the AE but it's just jarring to see how V is in Rays route and then to kinda have that switch in the AE. I really am in need of understanding of his character change pls, idc about spoilers (already have everything in AS spoiled for myself T_T)

also dark emo and "lame" yoosung needs some love and affection too! someond take care of that bby pls!!!!

also somebody give jaehee a break, she's literally working the ENTIRE day and finishing off at midnight??? cmon

also Saejoong (if that's how you spell it cos idc) Choi can go stick his head where the sun don't shine, STAY AWAY FROM TOMATO BOY PLS GOD.

at this point I'm just waiting for suit to show up, and it's honestly making me anxious, heard the game gets a bit tough to get through when he comes in..

well anyways those are my useless thoughts while playing through this, thanks for reading!! also here's your cuddles and smooches for reading through all this crap :333 <333

Smoothes and cuddles????!!!? You're spoiling me! I send back many many kisses and hugs to youuuu.

OH SO YOU'RE ON DAY EIGHT NOW HUH. AHAHAHA. AHHHHH. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW HOW THIS GOES FOR YOU. I don't know what timezone you're in but uhhhhh just get ready ahhhh.

I totally wish we could be with Saeyoung in this timeline too. I mean, like, I wrote a whole fic about it. He just is so good and so sad and so shattered and so deserving of love.

And I have quite a lot of thoughts on V in the AE! The thing is that V loves us in this timeline. He loves us a lot. And by the end of the route, he's really broken. Like, he's spent his whole life believing that he's not deserving of love; he's sought out people who will need him, because he's convinced himself that that's the only way he can escape from his own mind. You are the first person who makes him believe that he deserves more than that—and without you, he has nowhere to turn. He stays with Rika because he doesn't know what else to do—because she's the only person who's made him feel like he has a purpose in life—because he's convinced that allowing himself to wither away for the sake of someone else is the only option for him.

It's not your fault for choosing Ray, of course. It's never your fault that V suffers—but oh, he does suffer. He's broken and empty. He's in the dark and he can't see a way out.

Now, I do believe that it's possible for him to recover after the events of the AE. I think with time—and therapy—and some distance from his previous life—he has the potential to find himself again in this ending. I think there's hope for him (I really do)—but still: it's so hard to watch him fall apart.

Thank you so much for keeping me updated, my dear! I simply cannot wait to hear how you feel about day eight.

[gureishi]

hey there Grace!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 supposed to have my head buried in work at the moment but something possessed me to go look through your recent posts in your blog and there is now yet another thing I adore about you! >_<

YOUR TAGS ARE ALWAYS SO CUTE AND THEY GIVE ME LIFE OK. (I'd argue they're sometimes even better than the actual posts??? don't quote me on that one though)

love reading your interactions with literally anything as well, they're so cute and adorable and precious and if I don't stop now I don't think I ever will. T_T

anyways now that I've gotten those feelings off my chest it's time i go bury myself in my cute piles of work again, ciao! <3

OH HI whenever I see you in my inbox I get excited! Ahhhh!

Omg thank you. I think my tags pretty much range from silly to moderately weird to "ASKDGJAHSDLG" and I feel incredibly validated to hear that you enjoy them.

Basically I just love to be called cute and so you've managed to make me VERY happy while taking a break from your work.

I'm cheering for you! Go go go! Destroy those piles of work! You! can! do! it!

[gureishi]

literally just sent through an ask filled with gureishi blog appreciation and Tumblr ate it up T_T

basically me = sad

anyways really love you and your blog!!!!

Eeeeeeeeeee I am endlessly appreciative of you! Every time I see you in my inbox it makes me smile.