#canisstella

[moonshunned]

@canisstella asked: something very disturbing’s just happened. it’s horrific, really. for the second time, i’ve been thrown out of a woman’s house. (from Sirius at canisstella)

There was immediate concern in Remus’ voice. “Oh dear, what happened?” He remembered how traumatising it had been for Sirius when his own mother had disowned him and had thrown him out. By extension Remus had suffered with him. He was glad Sirius was happy at the Potter’s place. And now he was thrown out again? But not by Euphemia for sure? Hopefully it was something far more harmless, maybe a date gone awry? 

[thewrongsorts]

‘  even monsters are welcome when your home feels empty.  ’(from Sirius at canisstella)

asw starters // accepting!

“You get depressing when you get philosophical, y’know that?”

James held out a tumbler for him, anyhow, its twin and a fresh bottle of firewhiskey held loosely in his other hand. “Korma needs a bit longer on the stove, but I figure we might as well break into this while we wait,” he added distractedly, sitting heavily on the sofa next to Sirius.

His eyes scanned his friend’s expression for a long, considering pause before he twisted the bottle open to pour. “...You know you’d be welcome to stay here long as you like, right? ’F finding a place of your own isn’t working out yet. Mum and Dad would be happy to have you.”

[thebloodychampion]

Sharleen Siemens & Sirius Black

@canisstella

Burning the bridge that keeps us I'm here and I'm feeling fearless Exaggerated that's what you assume The stories over now I must conclude I am conflicted Watching where I step Still, hanging in the balance Not the life I want to live I want to take it all, standing tall Fear outweighed the person you are (Oh-Ohh)

[unabletoforget]

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     His words were harsh, and part of her didn’t blame him for that. He was an innocent man who had been convicted of a crime he didn’t commit, a crime that had led to the death of their best friends, a crime that was the true fault of someone they had once considered family. She knew he must have felt pain at knowing he was blamed for it all and a large part of her felt for him in that regard. But just as strong of a part of her was enraged. Why did Remus get to be forgiven and she didn’t when Remus had believed Sirius to have betrayed them just as she did? In fact, he had believed it quicker. 

     Remus and Sirius had been at odds with each other for months before James and Lily ever even died, both of them suspicious of the other. They had been at each other’s throats worse than they ever had been in school until they were both silently accusing the other of being a traitor behind their backs, something Jillian had to try to deal with because she refused to choose sides between one of her best friends and the man she loved. He had believed Sirius to have betrayed James and Lily without a second though, where as Jillian was in denial for several months before she ever let herself admit to what had happened. Why didn’t she deserve to be forgiven but Remus did?

     “No, you can fuck yourself, Sirius. I’m not leaving. We need to talk and we need to talk now. You can’t keep avoiding me at Order meetings and making snide remarks behind my back and thinking I am just going to take it. So either you can let me in or I will force my way in-your choice.”

[lostxndbroken]

@canisstella

"What else is there to say?" Sirius told him, his voice so quiet and soft as he stared at the wall opposite, his body supported by the warmth of Buckbeak who'd been one of the best friend's Sirius had ever had. At least Buckbeak let him get shit mixed in peace. "I'm not the man I was before and whatever happened between us; it's gone."

The atmosphere was to die for and not in a good way. He couldn’t remember ever feeling so tense while he was around Sirius, but now it was killing him. Remus took a step closer, but Buckbeak wasn’t having it and lifted his head and snapping his beak at the werewolf, which made Remus take a few steps back.

“None of us are the same as we were before. That’s a useless statement to try to get your way. A lot has happened. Everyone was blaming someone else. I wasn’t told about the switch of secret keepers, because I was a suspect, also in your eyes. Who would have thought that weak little Peter would be the roots of all the agony?”

It ached Remus’s heart to hear Sirius say that whatever they had was gone. Remus didn’t want to believe it was gone. He cared for Sirius, more than anything, even after all these years apart and after everything that happened. He just couldn’t say it now, because what if it would make everything worse?

Remus slowly sunk through his knees, keeping a close eye on Buckbeak, staying at a safe distance while he sat down on the floor. “Just don’t say it’s gone.” Remus shook his head. “I don’t--.” He paused, taking a deep breath. “Don’t say it’s gone.”

[progenyofprongs]

@canisstella​​​ asked :     ’ sometimes i watch you sleep, just to make sure you’re breathing. ’

Amelia found herself unable to hold back her yawn as it broke out of her. She hadn't meant to do so right in the middle of Sirius talking, but her tiredness was simply too much to try to hold back. The dreams she often had since arriving at Grimmauld Place - awful nightmares of deatheaters killing her adoptive family - didn’t do much to help aid Amelia to a peaceful nights sleep, nor was Kreacher helpful as he rummaged around outside of her room. She rubbed her eyes tiredly, only half hearing Sirius' as he spoke. "I don't think I'll be dying in my sleep anytime soon ..." Amelia mumbled, holding back another yawn and failing just as bad as before, "But I wouldn't complain if I did. Maybe then I'll sleep through the damn night."

[thestrongestmagic]

//Hello everyone. It’s Bee here. Some of you may know me as @theacerbicprince . This is my multimuse sideblog for the following characters from the Harry Potter universe. The following characters are present on this blog. 

Andromeda Tonks nee Black         Bellatrix Lestrange nee Black

Narcissa Malfoy nee Black            Hermione Granger     

Molly Weasley                               Nymphadora Lupin nee Tonks

Eileen Snape nee Prince               Pandora Lovegood

Minerva McGonogall                      Luna Lovegood

Astoria Malfoy nee Greengrass      Lavender Brown

 and my two OC’s; Christina Malfoy and Lyra Rosier.

I also have;

Sirius @canisstella

Lucius Malfoy @primpingpatriarch

Voldemort on request @thetruebloodofsalazar

Alice Cullen, Edward Cullen, Esme Cullen and Jasper Hale @thecullenfamily

Multi fandom multi muse on @collectionofvoices

Rules ----- Drabbles

I have an interest tracker here and I do operate this blog on a queue basis as I find it far easier to manage this blog and the others by doing that. As a result, roleplaying can be a little slower but I do get to things so please don’t worry.

[theacerbicprince]

𝐏𝐄𝐎𝐏𝐋𝐄 𝐈'𝐃 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 .

𝟎𝟏. 𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐒 / 𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄: Bee

𝟎𝟐. 𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐃𝐀𝐘: 30th October

𝟎𝟑. 𝐙𝐎𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐂  𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐍: Scorpio

𝟎𝟒. 𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓: 6"1, roughly. If I straighten up properly, I am more than that.

𝟎𝟓. 𝐇𝐎𝐁𝐁𝐈𝐄𝐒: writing (published poet here), RP, cosplaying, watching TV and films

𝟎𝟔. 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐑: It used to be blue but I'd probably say it's more along the lines of red and various shades within that now.

𝟎𝟕. 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊: Very, very difficult choice here so I'm just going with the one I've read the most times over and that's Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden (the HP books come very close, The Deathly Hallows destroyed me).

𝟎𝟖. 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐎𝐃: Eggs

𝟎𝟗. 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐌 / 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖:

The Batman

Rupauls Drag Race Down Under

𝟏𝟎. 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍: Anything and everything. I can't even look out the window without being inspired by that slightly bent twig in the skeleton of the tree.

𝟏𝟏. 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐁𝐄𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐃 𝐔𝐑𝐋: I am going to answer this for all my HP blogs. Severus is obviously the last surviving Prince as we know and was the Half Blood Prince but I didn't want his name to be too on the nose so I thought more about his nature and he very much is acerbic and so there we had it.

For the girls on thestrongestmagic, it's fairly selc explanatory; they are all gifted and strong in the various magics they use.

For Sirius; canisstella translates to the dog star which is obviously associated with him.

Tagged by: @narcissablackasnightmalfoy @littlebrotherblack

Tagging: @hamxrtiia @heartscfvalor @corda-comminuta @lovelylilyevcns and anyone else who wants to do it.

[doggedfather]

Me 🤝 @canisstella

Hating dumbledore

[twistedtangledfate]

//If you get a follow from @theacerbicprince that's me. That's my HP main, the following blogs are sides to that;

@thestrongestmagic

@canisstella

@primpingpatriarch

[thewrongsorts]

@canisstella from “When did everything get this weird?”

Sirius took a draw from his cigarette, nodding his head slowly before exhaling. They sat together, legs stretched out as though they were boys on the beach again except they weren’t. They were men and they were fighting a war and now this.

“You’ll be a great Dad mate, don’t worry about it. After all, you can’t get any worse than the fucker who raised me. The kid’s expectations are going to be pretty damned low too.”

“I’m not sure that’s as reassuring as you think it is,” James sighed melodramatically. But he was laughing, now, shaking his head and snorting.

“’Ve just... never been properly nervous to do a good job at something, you know?”

Yeah, he obviously knew he’d clear the hideously low bar set by the Blacks, but that didn’t mean he could come close to the standard his parents set— had set. A pang of loss curdled the laughter in his chest, and James ran a hand through his hair. Fuck.

“...Suppose with a godfather like you hanging around, I can’t help but look wonderful in comparison, though,” he added with a snarky half-smile, knocking his shoulder against Sirius’.

[moonshunned]

@canisstella asked: “too many songs about love. not enough songs about sword fights.” (from Sirius at canisstella)

After giving a hum of acknowledgement, Remus looked up from his book when he realised how philosophical Sirius’ statement was. “...Aren’t sword fights kinda like love too? There always a man fighting another man for a woman, or saving a princess, or stuff like that. Though I can imagine the sword fights you want to hear songs about are men fighting dragons or something,” he smirked. “I’d listen to that song.”

[unabletoforget]

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     Jillian didn’t usually allow herself to be vulnerable with others very often and when she did it was usually with Lily. But even when it came to Lily, she was careful not to let her feelings for Sirius slip up. There was something about him that she just couldn’t resist, even though she felt like a fool for it. Like he had stated, half the girls in their grade were after him. And hell, she was sure some of the boys were too. She didn’t want to be just another one of these foolish girls who trailed after Sirius Black but such a thought brought her back to something Lily once said to her while they were sitting under a tree by the lake together. 

     “It isn’t worth it,” Lily had said, crossing one leg over the other as Jillian began to tie up her brown locks in a high ponytail.

     “What isn’t? Finding out where it could go?” she had asked.

     “No. Being one of the dozens of girls chasing after James Potter like a groupie following the hot drummer from a rock band. It isn’t worth it to be just another skirt chasing him around and being no different than any of those other girls,” she had said, though there was something in her voice that she could tell this wasn’t like every other girl that had a crush on James. She wasn’t chasing him around for his family name or just for his looks, there was something there that wasn’t there with all those others girls. A spark.

     “You aren’t just a skirt to him, Lils,” Jillian had pointed out after tucking a lock of hair back that hadn’t made it into her ponytail. “You’ll never know if you don’t try.” She had helped them get together and she had proved Lily wrong. And now James and Lily were more in love than any other couple in the school and she had full belief that they would last forever. 

     She wondered if that was what this was, if she was just too blind to see that she was more than just a groupie. Being around Sirius sometimes felt like they were one flick of a cigarette away from a house fire, that if they were left alone for a minute too long they would drown in each other and never come back up for air. She couldn’t explain it. She had been raised as a pureblood, the kind of girl who believed passion was a myth and love was for muggles. So the idea that she had real feelings for Sirius was terrifying and it was a fate she continuously kept denying.

     “I know,” she said, still looking up at the sky. She hadn’t even looked at him when she had admitted she wanted to kiss him, and she hadn’t said it as if it was something she was asking for. She had said it while laying on her back in the grass with her hair splayed out around her and in the tone of a problem they needed to address, like a test they hadn’t studied for. “I can’t either,” she said, sighing heavily.

     “Our lives aren’t our own, not where we come from,” she said, referring to their families and their lack of real freedom. She was never taught how to love someone, but loving Lily and being devoted to their friendship was as close as she had ever come. “I fuck everything up too,” she admitted. “And this isn’t the kind of thing we can just hop on a bike and ride away from,” she said, locking her hands together over her stomach before finally turning her head to look at him.

     “It’s getting harder to be around you,” she admitted. As long as they were honest, they might as well figure out how to fix this now. “I like our friend group, I don’t want to lose that. You guys are all I have. But I...it's getting really hard for me to be around you with this...whatever it is, going on between us.”

[unabletoforget]

"Do not leave me, swear that you will never leave me." (from Sirius at canisstella)

@canisstella

     They had only just gotten back together the day before yesterday and it was easy to see that they both still felt terribly emotional and sensitive from it all. They had been broken up for months after she had made the foolish choice to dump him after her mother had informed her of the arrangements that had been made for her to marry Rabastan LeStrange after she graduated from Hogwarts. She thought it would be easier for him to hate her, easier for him to move on if his love for her died because the anger towards her took it’s place. Her heart had shattered when she lied to him, told him that January when they came back to school that she didn’t love him and that it hadn’t been real between them. But Lily wasn’t having it. 

     Lily had gotten tired of seeing her friends miserable, couldn’t take the fact that everything felt broken because they weren’t together anymore. The six of them were a family and their break up had started to break that little family apart until she noticed Jillian didn’t feel comfortable around the other Marauders anymore. She couldn’t take seeing her best friend isolate herself like that, especially when she could see the truth. Though Lily may not have known about the engagement with the youngest LeStrange brother, she would have to be blind to not see that Jillian wasn’t herself without Sirius.

     The fight between them that Friday in the halls of Hogwarts had been so loud and so intense that she was surprised none of the teachers had heard them, or more so, that none of the paintings had gone to get someone to break them up. Perhaps they thought the fight too juicy, she had no idea if any of them had stayed for the fight or if they had left their frames to give them some semblance of privacy. She couldn’t remember anything but Sirius from that day. Now it was Sunday and the boys had gone with Lily down to Black Lake so that Jillian and Sirius could be alone, the status of their relationship still extremely complicated. 

     They couldn’t be as open as they once were, not when the purebloods in this place spread gossip like a disease. If her mother or the LeStrange family found out she was with Sirius again, her mother would tear her to shreds. And god only knew what would happen to Sirius. When he spoke about wanting her to swear she would never leave him, she had been laying on his bare chest, listening to the steady beat of his heart. Their lower bodies had been covered by his blanket but the room was warm so they were naked from the waist up. And as he spoke, her heart began to ache. This was all her fault. 

     She still felt so guilty because she had hurt him, had made the wrong choice when she was trying to make the right one. She lifted her head from his chest, her eyes burning before filling with tears. “I won’t,” she said, shaking her head as if trying to get the point across. She had no idea how they were going to make it with the purebloods trying to tear them apart but she knew they would come up with something. They loved each other too much to let go again. “I won’t leave again, I promise,” she said, moving up a bit so her face was hovering over his, she moved her hair over one shoulder so it wasn’t in his face, looking down at him as her lower lip trembled. “I never should have left to begin with. I-I know that now,” she said, sniffling as she looked down at him. 

     “I’m so sorry baby…” she whispered, one hand coming up to caress his cheek. “I’ll never leave you, I swear. I’m not going anywhere. I-I know things are about to get messy and we don’t have a plan yet but I...we are gonna come up with something, I know we are. Because it killed me last time and I can’t do that again, I don’t want to be without you anymore. I can’t do it again,” she whispered in a shaky voice. She still wasn’t healed all the way.

[thebloodychampion]

Sharleen and Sirius Incorrect Quotes

Bonus ones with Remus and Snape included:

Sharleen: Where are you going? Sirius: To get ice cream or commit a felony, I’ll decide on the way there 

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Sharleen: You know, I'm starting to regret showing you how that blender works. Sirius, drinking toast: Why do you say that? 

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Sharleen: Sirius and I have the kind of easy chemistry where we finish each other's- Sirius: Sentences. Sharleen: Don't interrupt me. 

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Sharleen: In light of what you did for me, you can hug me for four to five seconds. Sirius: FORTY FIVE SECONDS?!? Sharleen: No! Four to five seconds! Sirius: Too late!!! 

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*The squad is having dinner together* Sharleen: Sirius, can you pass the salt? Sirius: *Throws Remus across the table* 

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Sharleen: We need to get through this locked door. Sirius, give me your credit card. Sirius: Here. Sharleen, pocketing it: Thanks. Remus, kick down the door. 

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Sharleen, to Sirius: My life is in the hands of an idiot! Sirius, motioning to themself and Remus: No no no no no, TWO idiots! 

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Sharleen: You have to apologize to Sirius Snape: Fine. Snape: 'Unfuck you' or whatever. 

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Sharleen: Dammit, Sirius! Sirius: What?! It wasn’t me! Sharleen: Sorry, force of habit. Dammit, James! James: Not me either. Sharleen: Oh...Then who set the house on fire? Remus: *whistles* 

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Cop: You’re receiving a ticket for having three people on one motorcycle. Sharleen: Shit. Sirius: Wait, three? Cop: Yeah? James: OH MY GOD REMUS FELL OFF!!!

[thebloodychampion]

@canisstella

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“I always hit close to home, comes with being part werewolf. You don’t give a crap.”