#cause lets be real i dont think any of us ate our dead best friends

[lottieurl]

please ignore this if you disagree. this is just me thinking out loud but i keep coming back to this impulse shauna had to EAT the ear and of course there's been all this talk about how she wants to consume jackie. how it's wanting to destroy her how it's wanting to be as close to her as possible. but i'm interested in the physicality of it. like there is the metaphor of cannibalism and then there is the REALITY of it

i read about mortuary cannibalism in the past and i believe it wasn't even the close loved ones eating the dead usually because often it would be too hard for them and even those who weren't as close and were the ones to consume the dead would sometimes throw up while eating. like let's put aside for a moment everything this means narratively and metaphorically. there is the physical act of putting a real uncooked half frozen eat into your mouth and the fact that that's the ear of a person you LOVED. the ear you may have whispered secrets to during class and one you felt against your cheek when the two of you hugged. and shauna does that after gently caressing the ear in her pocket for an entire day

i think there's an interesting component to how she's interacting with dead-jackie. some part of her brain acknowledges that jackie is dead while a much larger part of her refuses to. and i think at least on some unconscious level she's aware of the way the cold preserves jackie's body. after the initial shock of finding jackie when we see her sit in the same room with her now she's keeping her distance. there's this feeling people usually get from seeing their dead loved ones especially if it's been a little while since they died - a feeling of alienation. the muscles are no longer animated, the skin no longer warm. a feeling of this person being foreign to you in some way suddenly. and so a part of me wonders if on some level she wanted to stop the ear from rotting now that it's not frozen, warmed by shauna's hand and safe in her pocket. i don't think it would be a conscious thought but it's just. walking around with that ear in your pocket. not wanting to part with any part of jackie. wanting to consume her yes but also wanting to preserve her in a very physical way in a sense

[guardians-of-blood]

More incorrect quotes! Hooray! (i will add the title later)

Ray: WHAT’S YOUR TYPE

Tsubasa: Anything, honestly, but nerds especially

Ray, desperately, as Tsubasa bleeds out: YOUR BLOOD TYPE

Tsubasa: Oh! B positive.

Ray: DONT TRY TO CHEER ME UP JUST TELL ME YOUR BLOOD TYPE

Tsubasa:

Mars: Don’t worry, I have a few knives up my sleeve.

Kuno: I think you mean cards.

Mars, pulling knives out of his sleeves: No, I do not.

Pluto: Remember when you didn't try to solve all your problems with attempted murder?

Mars: Stop romanticizing the past.

Ray: Where are you going?

Tsubasa: To get ice cream or commit a felony, I’ll decide on the way there

Kayda, in a meeting: My policy is if you see something, say something.

Vian: I saw a squirrel in a tree today!

Kayda, with the tone of someone who is used to Vian: Outstanding.

Kayda: This is what I’m talking about people.

Pyrrhus: Vian was banned from the chicken shack, so we had to go out of town to get some.

Vian: Well, they shouldn’t say “all you can eat” if they don’t mean it.

Pyrrhus: Vian, you ate a chair.

Tsubasa: Ok, maybe playing ‘whose family is most dysfunctional’ wasn’t the best idea we’ve had. Kuno's been crying in the bathroom for an hour. We can’t get him out...

Nina: What's wrong with you?

Celeste: Off the top of my head, I'd say low self-esteem, a lack of paternal affection, and a genetic predisposition for anxiety and depression.

Tsubasa, texting Ray: Roses are red, Tony Hawk is a skater…

Ray′s phone, auto-replying: I’m driving right now–I’ll get back to you later.

*Later*

Ray, texting back: Fuck you.

Celeste: There is no future. There is no past. Don't you see? Time is simultaneous, an intricately structured jewel that humans insist on viewing one edge at a time, when the whole design is visible in every fact.

Burnet: ...All I asked was if you wanted to cut your birthday cake first.

Celeste: I wish I was a dinosaur.

Valkyrie: Why? Cause they're big and scary?

Celeste: Because they're dead.

Ray: I failed my safety training course today.

Tsubasa: Why, what happened?

Ray: Well one of the questions was "In case of a fire, what steps would you take?"

Tsubasa: And?

Ray: Well apparently "FUCKING LARGE ONES" isn't an acceptable answer.

Tsubasa: We all have our demons.

Tsubasa, grabbing Ray: This one’s mine.

"I’ve been sleeping so little the past few nights that when I go to the alarm app, I click on the “power nap” button. I don’t set up alarms, I set up timers, Ray."

- Tsubasa Amanogawa

Tsubasa: I have an idea.

Ray: A good idea?

Tsubasa: Let's not get ahead of ourselves.

"You know what’s funny about Ray? He's my best friend, and anyone who’d hurt him is someone I’d murder, probably."

- Tsubasa Amanogawa

Tsubasa: Alright, listen up you little shits.

Tsubasa: Not you Ray. You’re an angel and we’re thrilled you’re here.

Ray: I have no fears.

Kuno: What if one day you woke up and Tsubasa was taller than you?

Ray: I have one fear. 

*on Ellen*

Ellen: So I hear you tweet about wanting to die

Celeste: haha yeah, I do

*Death comes out, creeps up behind her*

Celeste: omg Ellen you didn't 

Kayda: Weird. All my shirts are disappearing.

Noir and Pyrrhus: *wearing Kayda’s shirts for the 5th time in a row* Spooky. 

Celeste: Does anyone have any questions?

Basil: *Stands up* Okay, well I’m sure you’ve noticed that I’ve been going through a lot lately.

Celeste: That’s not a question.

Basil: And I know you’ve often wondered: “Who is Basil, really?”

Noir: Nope, never.

Tsubasa: Until February, I thought your name was Jasper.

Basil: You know, there are times when I look out these windows, and I know you’re all thinking, “What makes the measure of this man?”

Mars: Oh my god, you’d better be dying!

Basil: Look, I’m telling you all, with pride and excitement… and a lot of pride, about the new and improved Basil. Noir, give me a beat!

Noir: Sorry, what?

Basil: When somebody asks for a beat you just, you don't ask a lot of questions. You just get down on it.

Noir: Oh, you want, like, a syncopated thing or, like, a vibey thing?

Basil: Just do it. Hmm? *Basil sings '80s pop rock song about being Bisexual*

*All the Dreamseekers stare at him*

Basil: Oh, come on. You guys aren’t weirded out because I’m bisexual, are you?

Pyrrhus: No, we’re weirded out by the fact that you interrupted the meeting to tell us that.

Celeste: Anyone have questions? Besides Basil, who seems to think that every Dreamseeker meeting is about him for some reason. 

Noir: *Having an existential crisis* Do you know… what it’s like to be afraid of yourself?

Vian, thinking about that time he ate an entire family sized bag of doritos in one evening: God dude I sure do. 

Feliks: Shit, I’m late for school!

Feliks: Oh wait, I’m 20.

Feliks: I’M A TEACHER!!! 

Vian: A spoonful of Nutella counts as lunch, right?

Pyrrhus: Vian, that will kill you.

Vian: I'm only allergic to like four things in it.

Pyrrhus: VIAN!!!!

*somewhere else*

Noir, terrified: What was that?!

Kayda: That was the call of someone who is very pissed and on a mission to fuck someone up.

Basil: So, how’d you convince all of them to betray me? What’d you offer them?

Chalcedony: I asked them if they wanted to embarrass you, and they instantly said yes.

"bitches b like “im baby” but have childhood trauma and neglect like wtf do u know about being baby u were forced to grow up from an early age anyways I’m bitches"

- Kuno Aurich

"So apparently the 'bad vibes' I’ve been feeling are actually severe psychological distress"

- Raymond 'Ray' Seidel

Vian: Yum, thanks!

Kidnapper: *puts more tape over his mouth* I said stop eating it.

Tsubasa: *writing a letter*

Tsubasa: Dear Santa,

I'm writing to let you know I've been naughty...

And it was worth it you fat, judgemental bastard.

Ray: I think you're still suffering the effects of your party last night.

Tsubasa: All I drank was Redbull!

Ray: How many?

Tsubasa: Eighteen

Tsubasa: Hey, are you okay?

Ray: Yeah.

Tsubasa: You don't look okay...

Ray: Then stop looking.

Mars: Fight me!

Pluto, standing behind him and holding a knife: *mouths* Do not.

Tsubasa: I'm going to fight the next person who insults Ray.

Ray: I hate myself.

Tsubasa: Alright, square up.

Pluto: Know why I called you in here?

Mars: Because I accidentally sent you a dick pic.

Pluto: *Stops pouring two glasses of wine.* Accidentally?

Pluto: When's the last time you slept?

Mars: Uh... a few days ago, I think.

Pluto: A few- how many?!

Mars: Uh... *starts counting on fingers* I need more fingers...

Pluto: What you need is sleep!

Kuno: When you’re gay in your house with nobody else, you’re homolone

Ray: When you’re bi and there’s nobody else around, you’re biyourself

Basil: Please stop

Feliks: Top 30 reasons Feliks is sorry. Number 5 will surprise you.

Mikael: TOP 30 ANIME DEATHS. NUMBER 1, YOUR FUCKING ASS RIGHT NOW!

Leni: Ray, are you high?

Ray: Am I what?

Leni: High.

Ray: Hi.

Pluto: So what’s for dinner?

Mars, staring at the food he just burnt: Regret.

Pluto: Am I in trouble?

Mars: Take a guess.

Pluto: No?

Mars: Take another guess.

Pluto, standing with his back turned: I’ve been expecting you, Mars.

Mars: How did you do that without turning around?

Pluto: ... To be perfectly honest, the first couple of people I did that to were not you.

Pluto: I learned some very valuable lessons from this.

Mars: I’m guessing they are all horrible distortions on the lessons you actually should’ve taken away.

Pluto: Death isn’t real, and I’m basically God.

Mars: In light of what you did for me, you can hug me for four to five seconds.

Pluto: FORTY FIVE SECONDS?!?

Mars: No! Four to five seconds!

Pluto: Too late!!!

Pluto: I was arrested for being too cool.

Mars: The charges were dropped due to a lack of supporting evidence.

Pluto: You often use humor to deflect trauma

Mars: Thank you

Pluto: I didn't say that was a good thing

Mars: What I'm hearing is, you think I'm funny

Pluto: Okay, truth or dare?

Mars: Truth

Pluto: How many hours have you slept this week?

Mars:

Mars: ...Dare

Pluto: Go to bed.

Mars: I don’t like this game.

Mars: I’m going to take you out

Pluto: great, it’s a date!

Mars: I meant that as a threat.

Pluto: See you at five!

Mars: You're the love of my life and my best friend, I would do anything for you.

Pluto: I want you to eat three meals a day and have a decent sleep schedule.

Mars: Absolutely not.

Pluto: Please, I'm begging you go to a doctor.

Mars: I'm sorry is this OUR stab wound? Stay out of it.

Pluto: Okay, help me please!

Mars: Got two words for you.

Pluto: I bet they won't be helpful.

Mars: Your problem.

Pluto: I was right

Kuno: Why did you give Luth a knife?

Tsubasa: He felt unsafe.

Kuno: Now I feel unsafe.

Tsubasa: Sorry.

Tsubasa: Want a knife?

[bubblywimp-blog]

25 July 2017

24 July 2017 10:30 pm

“We should better sleep didi!” said Devi. She calls me ‘didi’ because i am her elder sister.My family has made it a habit that if anyone is elder than you then you gotta call the person ‘didi’ or ‘bhaiya’.Its in the Hindu tradition,though nowadays these practices are not practiced.It is mostly done to convey respect(not like Devi super-respects me)

“Just this film..only 30 mins of it is left” said me!

“huh! i am feeling sleepy..”

(no response from me--this works you know,you just dont respond to her and then if she is in the mood of listening, she will if not then may god be with me..cause if Devi wants she gets it)

“well i think i can play this game for 30 mins more..) said Devi

We were alone in our house..dad was at the hospital with mom though he was gonna arrive..but that was late.

You know its the best experience ever- Having the house all to yourself..and when you have gadgets and a person next to you(just so your mind decides to think of monsters and the most scariest horror scenes you have seen) the experience is the bestest!

I was watching Twilight-Breaking Dawn part 1..and as you all know,it has some ‘scenes’..well most of you would say that Twilight’s a romance,and that it has ‘scenes’ all over..but well this is not true..the other movies dont have that much of ‘scenes’ in them.This whole movie is based on Edward and Bella’s honeymoon so yeah..

anyway when i finished watching the movie..the phone rang and i went to pick it up.It was mom telling us to sleep and usual talk.The thing is i saw a lizard in my room! like seriously A F-ING LIZARD! IN MY ROOM!

See before you misunderstanding the whole situation..let me tell you i am not one of those girls who would run away from a roach or one of them who would scream when they see an insect..no..well unless and until the insect is doing some harm to me..but lizards! i hate them! i hate lizards!!..i used to not like them but the moment i saw The Amazing Spiderman i was like ‘i hate lizards and they ARE disgusting!’

when we went to bed, i was not feeling like sleeping in my room cause it terrified me that when we go to sleep the lizards may be above or heads onto the ceiling,or on the wall beside us..ugh!! I can recall the feeling! it was terrible and i was feeling(dont take it the wrong way) dirty.

So i asked Devi if we could sleep in our parents room(well basically i shouted and demanded that-cause we had a slight argument before)

and then we were sleeping-kinda.when i heard dad come in.and then well i asked him that maybe we could sleep in his room hoping that he would go and sleep in our room but then he just offered to put down mattress on the  floor..so i just went to my room saying that "okay for me sleeping there but i dont want Devi with me,i wanna sleep alone”

and so LaraAngel drifted off to a neverending sleep in neverland(also know as my room)

25 July 2017

“do you want to sleep more?” asked a really familiar male voice.Dad.Maybe its him..who else could it be? my boyfriend? no i think not.Why?.CAUSE HE BLOODY DOES NOT EXIST!!!

Me and Devi werent going to school because dad had to set things up a bit.mom was in hospital

see- i am NOT playing the ‘pity me’ game..(makes a sickly sing song voice) ohh! pity me my moms in hospital! i dont go to school because dad has to set things up! and morely(which is not obviously a word) we did not want too..

I probably missed a lot of things..as in Footballer was absent yesterday but maybe he will be there today,we  had our Bio practicals today and were doing the cheek cell experiment..i bloody missed that thing! damn! i was looking forward to it! like from weeks! anyway whats gone is long gone!

anyway back to my day

I grunted-my response to dad’s question

anyway when i got up dad was getting ready to go to the hospital. and i spent the rest of the day like this:

Me and Devi cleaned up the house.

Then i watched Breaking Dawn part 2 and Easy A..This Easy A movie is kinda good..if you are looking for the teenage girl in whose life everything turns  bad and then she makes it right and then at last   she gets the guy of her dreams-i recommend it for some strength(not like i am gonna get the guy of my dreams and anything like that)..but it is that type of movie from which you know that it will be okay

anyway i watched these and then started play games online(i know this is childish but i was playing papa’s sushiria ) and then i got bored of it and then started playing other games(like papas cupcakeria or say papas freezaria etc-etc)

and then soon papa returned..we talked about how we were gonna go about after this..cause i had to go to tution and this timing clashed with the chef. unfortunately i had to go..i even wanted to cause i think its irresponsible of me to bunk tutions so much..and i thought mam was gonna teach Euclids Geomectry to us and if i am not there maybe she would delay it because of me and the whole class would suffer.So i went and guess? mam did not teach Euclids Geomectry. wow! but the good thing was i got to sit next to Rom..not like i have a crush on him or something but he is good to fool around.meaning i like to tease him and retorts nicely too! and you know i kinda ship him with every girl he talks to! like with aura(even though i think Rom is also scared of talking to Aura),and there’s this rebel bitchy type girl in out science tution named Miksha. I ship him with her too!

anyway we were starting Congruency. we had learnt it in 7th grade but then i was total zero in mathematics back in 7th grade..to be honest i didnt even open the books back then.So well just say i started revising(thanks for the guidelines from the book) but then mam asked me what i was doing and i had to embarrass myself and tell her that i had not paid attention during my 7th grade maths class..

embarrassing it was!

anyway we were then allowed to disperse and then i was walking back home along with Ishti,Aura and another girl named Nya. It is a routine of ours,Every maths tution we walk with each other and have a small chit-chat.and during science tution, it depends whether i choose to stay with Aanya or go straightway towards my house.

Anyway since mom wasn’t home, i had to but a few things that is food items like maggi and a stack of bread.

When i returned home with Aura,well aura is the only person who knows of my true identity and is reading these posts..so she wanted to read some of my posts and i offered her to stay since our exams were over too..so we spent a few hours watching and talking and then she went home meanwhile i had to make dinner..i did not do much just made few garlic breads(devi’s idea) and pizza..i need to tell you that the pizza was dead delicious! like really good! seeing we did not have enough topping,just onions,tomato,and cheese..lots of cheese!..

so we ate it along with each other, i gotta tell you..i would enjoy staying alone!..so we ate and then started doing our work again..that is i started writing this post and Devi started completing her homework.Anyway we are going to school tomorrow!..i wanna stay home as much as i want to go to school,meet Iomhara and see my Footballer! that guy isn’t even on any social media ‘cept his father has posted a video of him singing live on a comptition or somethoing

FLASHBACK

ugh! i dont want to study this bloody subject.Geography!! its sooo irritating! i dont bloody care about the f-ing land forms!

and what is this term geo-syn-cline?

hell! now i need to watch a youtube video to understand this thing better..the definition in the book looks like a combination of latin and greek along with some spanish maybe(guys this is purely exaggeration! not like my text book really has all these languages in it)

wild thought- man! i cant stop thinking about Footballer! he is just so hot! and cute! and not to forget incredibly sexy! let me type his name on youtube first just to find no result and to get disappointed(i am making fun of myself-seriously i am not that mad to think like this)

and this is the story of how i could find my crush on youtube when  none of my friends found it on any kind of social media.

FLASHBACK END so i watched this vid like 5 times! he was in 10th grade at that time! and wore a red shirt..maybe he likes red..i like red! and he looks so cute in it!..his voice, its like a drug!..and puberty did hit him!..hard!..like really hard!

anyway, the next day i made a youtube account and asked ‘if it was Footballer from NorthHigh?’ (NorthHigh is’nt a real school..i made it up)

and his father(most probably- it looked like it was him) replied yes

and then after that i made a new account UpAll Night and commented- aww..he is so cute! and talented too!

and guess what happened?..he deleted the comment! like really people!

anyway i am really tired now and have to go to school ! so bye!

LaraAngel

[courtky]

What is your man’s name? - steve How long have you known each other?
- year and some months What color are his eyes?
- brown Where did you first meet your man?
- online or irl in cincinnati What was the first thing you said to each other upon meeting?
- i was nervous af i just remember saying DONT TOUCH ME and hiding cause he was really cute lol Who else was around when ya’ll met?
- airport ppl idk Were you friends before you dated?
- basically. Where did you go on your 1st date?
- uhhh well he came to visit me for my birthday and he stayed for the weekend so that whole weekend was basically our first date lol.. we got a hotel together and went to an amusement park (which was funny af because it was halloween themed and he gets scared easily LOL) and we went to texas roadhouse for steak and ya basically we stayed in the hotel and drank and played drunk mario kart lmao Do you remember what you wore or he wore on your 1st date?
- uh he wore a yellowish flannel with skinny jeans and i wore my dumb dress lol and i had these stupid uncomfortable shoes on that i ended up tossin so i was basically barefoot Most fun date you two have been on?
- man idk we've honestly have had a lot... probably when we spontaneously decided to go to myrtle beach for spring break ((which i rly needed i was stressed af from everything)).. it was so cool cus we had an oceanfront hotel and we got to go go karting and we ate at some cool restaurants and stuff and it was also the furthest ive ever drove by myself.. 8 hrs non stop.... !!!! even though we stopped on the way there at some ghetto ass motel omg LOL... they had advertised a breakfast bar.. when we checked in THE BREAKFAST BAR WAS LITERALLY JUST A PANCAKE MAKER THING ON THE COUNTER AND LMAO IT WAS SO FUNNY i couldnt sleep at all i felt like we were gonna die :(((((( omg and this was up in the virginia mountains so it was rly pretty scenery Do you go on more alone or group dates?
- alone duh Who usually pays for the date?
- he does usually or we split.. i pay whenever i can but lol hes the bread winner What does your man do to make money? - he works at a grocery store atm How many years apart are you?
- four Do you normally date older or younger guys?
- most of my exes were within a few months apart from me How did ya’ll first kiss?
- i was driving us from the airport to the hotel and we were listening to the radio and we were awkward af and we were talking and i got to a red light and he did somethin to get my attention and i looked over at him and the next thing i know we are kissin n shit LOL.. i remember cold play playing too and im like ru srs did u plaN THIS SHIT... then he kept tryin to kiss me while i was drivin at 70mph surprised we didnt die tbh Did he use any cheesy lines?
- hes a cheese factory lets be real How long have ya’ll been together?
- a year a five months almost When did you meet his parents?
- havent and prob wont Who said, “I love you” first?
- i think he did cause i usually dont lol.. we said it jokingly a lot when we were friends though so idk What was the first thing he gave you?
- gift wise????... his bracelet, we swapped bracelets.. like those rubber ones, so we could have somethin from each other since we were gonna be long distance for awhile.. he still wears mine and i wear his lol What’s the most expensive thing he’s given you?
- idk??? a hotel to the beach? even though we split that.. maybe my necklace? What’s the cutest thing he does?
- idk he does so much wHY DO I HAVE TO PICK ONE??? he grabs my hand and holds it while we are drivin and it makes me melt tbh What does he call you?
- A TON OF STUPID SHIT LMAO we both say stupid nicknames.. booboo is probably the worst How well does he know you?
- way too well How well do you know him?
- fuck if i know.. id like to say a lot Do you know any of his ex’s?
- no, just stories Is he friends with any of his ex’s?
- hope not :o)))))) will kill them :o)))))) What is his favorite thing to do?
- watch youtube vids prob or play dead by daylight LATELY What is one thing that really annoys him?
- probably when i harass him when hes trying to sleep 0:) Are you happy?
- with him??????? yes Do your parents like him?
- yepyepyep Is he the best kisser out of all that you’ve kissed? - yessss he has very kissable lips ugh What does he do that gives you butterflies?
- god him looking over at me gives me butterflies :((( or when he says cute things n stuff Have you ever gotten into a fight?
- OH DEFINITELY If so what was it over?
- >:( How many kids does he want to have?
- idk never really said a number but we do want some, prob 2-3 Have you ever loved anyone else?
- well yeah, but this is probably way different What is your best memory together?
- first memory to pop in my head: playing pokemon go in some forest in columbus and litERALLY RUNNING FOR CHARMANDERS Have you talked about a future together?
- yup Do you think you two will get married?
- im hoping if all goES WELL When you first met, did you think it would end up the way it is?: 
- no not at all after all the disappointments ive had?????? LOL... esp when he said he would come visit me i was like yea ok.... now we live together w t f Is he what you ‘normally go for’?: 
- no tbh but im so glad i went for it Do/did your friends approve of him?:
- yea Are you friends with his mates?: 
- idk any of his friends personally since theyre in texas, although i did msg one on facebook If it came to it, would he rescue you at 3am if needed?:
- definitely i THINK :-) How many times a day does he tell you he loves you?: 
- a lot Do you trust each other?: 
- :-/ yeah i try Ever layed in bed together in each others arms?: 
- every night I SLEEP ON HIS CHEST Would you trust him if you left the town for a month with no contact?: 
- yea i think Does it bother you if he doesnt say ‘I love you’ when he leaves?: - no lol Does he pull you aside to kiss goodbye or do it there and then?: 
- umm depends??? usually there and then? Has he ever asked you if his outfit looks okay?: 
- yes lmao Does he own a lot of shoes?: - not really no Ever been in a drunken state and said some things you wish you didnt to him:
- yeS LOL What colour eyes would your child have?:
- probably POOP BROWN Does he greet you with a hug each time you see him?: 
- basically or kisses Has he ever bought you a gift for no reason but his love?:
- ya he brought me flowers and when i was sick he got me tissues and ramen and medicine :o) Ever stayed up chatting til stupid oclock on the phone?: 
- yES Do you text a lot?: 
- yes!!!