#cillian.txt

[robbiefischer]

No seriously but why does my dog insist on bringing mouthfuls of food onto the couch so she can then drop kibble on it and eat it off the velvet?

[busterbeaver]

Kind of loving what realpokemon is doing and I think it would be kind of fun to do a blog like that myself oops 😭

[cryptidssss]

HHHHH SLEEPY BITCH DISEASE!!!! ><

[robbiefischer]

My neighbor decorated their giant skeleton for Christmas and I'm utterly delighted.

[robbiefischer]

el? are you... you're back??

Maaaaaybe (yes - sort of). Not sure how it'll work out and I know it's been ages, but I missed the writing inspiration/prompts and community and was feeling a bit nostalgic, I guess, so... here I am. How've you been?

[robbiefischer]

i promise i am getting to your lovely asks and working on a couple of fic requests, y'all! i'm so sorry, i know they've been sitting for a while which i did not intend at all but life has felt weirdly overwhelming lately. i think i am back on track though 🖤 i really appreciate your patience with me and hope things are good with y'all.

[robbiefischer]

this is incredibly dumb but i'm still exhausted from hosting thanksgiving like... dear body can you please get it tf together? it's been almost a week.

[robbiefischer]

not a prompt but just wanted to say tysm for shutting down that covid ask earlier. that’s been the kind of sickfic/whump i’ve been dreading since 2020 (actually could not read, write, or even imagine sick characters for at least the first two years of the pandemic, which was kinda sad when i wanted comfort stuff) and it’s so nice to know other people have that hard line too! so thank you for being so clear & firm about it

Oh anon, I'm so sorry. It's so awful when your comfort thing is suddenly a source of anxiety for you, especially because of something you can't control. I get that, and I really hope you're able to find some joy and comfort in it again.

I promise, there will never be anything c//ovid on my blog. It does not exist in my OC 'verse and that will not change. I will not write fic about it. I will not reblog it. I will not like it. Frankly, if I come across it being written, that's an auto-block from me - I know I can't control what other people do, but I don't want to see it. I do not think it is okay to use it for whump in any way, shape or form and I will die on this hill.

[robbiefischer]

omg hi i just found out you’re back today and !!!! the shriek i let out!! not to be dramatic but i mourned your blog for a long long time because your writing was such a comfort read for me. just peak gentle comfort! i’m usually a lurker around these parts but i wanted to let you know that you and your lovely ocs were sorely missed and i’m so glad you’re here again! <3

❤️❤️❤️ If you only had any idea how happy you made my heart this morning! I really missed being here.

I'm sorry for disappearing the way I did. While I really did need to get away for my mental health for a bit and work on myself and my life, it was not even close to the right way to handle it and I hate that I pulled away something comforting from you or anyone else or let anyone down. While I haven't managed to recover much of my old writing yet (it's trapped on an old Macbook that desperately needs updates but is fighting me on them), I'm hopeful I'll be able to get at least some of it back soon and am really looking forward to writing some new stuff for them (and would love to write you a little something if you'd ever like)!

It's really nice to be back. And I hope you're having a lovely day!

[robbiefischer]

it's snowing here (it's been ages since i've lived someplace with snow) and i'm absolutely, utterly delighted by it all. we might get up to a foot and it's just so gorgeous, i'd... i'd forgotten how much i love winter and snow and the beautiful, cozy stillness that comes with a freshly fallen blanket of soft, white flakes.

(also hi, sorry i've been absent, these last couple of weeks have been super hectic but i hope y'all had a wonderful holiday and i will have OC answers for some of you very soon!)

[robbiefischer]

possibly unpopular opinion but cramps are not utilized anywhere near often enough in whump. i will die on this hill.

[robbiefischer]

playing coral island is not curing my depression but it's definitely making my depressive episode about 1000000% softer and cuter. i guess that's something.

[robbiefischer]

having a weird day emotionally. really not looking forward to tomorrow. rationally i know things will probably go just fine. but hospitals freak me out and it's my dad and all i can think about is when he needed the last surgery on an emergent basis during the early days of the p//andemic and how things almost *didn't* go right bc c//ovid protocols. and i won't even be able to sit there and let myself dissociate or distract myself with ocs because i'll be there as my mom's support person.

it'll probably be fine but just... ugh. if it weren't so dark and wet i'd go for a run to try to get all of this anxious energy out. hopefully i'll at least be able to talk my mom into running out to get coffee or something for a couple of hours so we're not just stuck in the waiting room, trying not to think of the worst.

[robbiefischer]

i so wish my dog could understand that actually, i don't control the weather and no, i can't just turn the rain and wind off.

[robbiefischer]

could you write something for julian where they think he's had the flu and it's getting worse so niko makes him go to the er and he has covid and it gets really bad and niko's just so worried?

Hhhhhhhh sorry (but not really sorry) anon, I hate saying no to people but... no. Just no. This is not something I am even remotely comfortable writing or willing to write for so many reasons including that c//ovid is still out there, actively killing people and permanently disabling others. I have friends who've lost multiple family members, even partners to it. I'm sorry if this sounds harsh but it just feels... incredibly insensitive and inappropriate to use it as whump fodder. This is a hard line for me, and I will not cross it.

[robbiefischer]

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR FOOD (we're at my fiancé's parents for dinner and i love them but.... yuck)

Oh noooooo that's the worst? Like wtf even IS Thanksgiving other than food???? Our menu was kind of ridiculous because I did my first hosting for six (me, my partner, our housemate, my cousin and my parents) so...

TW: Food

Apps:

- Pumpkin hummus

- Cranberry salsa over a log of goat cheese

- Fancy farmer's market salami

Mains:

- Roast turkey slathered in herb butter

- Herbed butternut squash and ricotta stuffed manicotti with a spiced pumpkin sauce

Sides:

- Air fried brussels sprouts in a tahini sauce

- Spicy baked sweet potato cubes

- Cheddar bay biscuits

- Mashed potatoes and two types of gravy (turkey and mushroom because my cousin's vegetarian)

- Vanilla orange cranberry sauce

- Hazelnut, cranberry and apple dressing

Dessert:

- Apple raspberry crisp with a pistachio crumb topping and vanilla ice cream

Plus blackberry apple cider, champagne and several bottles of wine.

Yes, I know we're ridiculous. No, I don't care. I didn't go through intensive ED recovery to not love the hell out of food.