#compared to dream n 127

[sunmisbf]

i dont know who this is n he better hope i don’t find out bc i will start killing

[junjiie]

⠀♪ . ⠀ JJ’s FAVE KPOP RELEASES OF 2023 !!! ★

ᶻ (ゝ。∂) ☆ ⠀ im unemployed on a sunday at 4pm quite literally what did you expect. anw everyone’s doing it on twt but my list is 30 songs long & i’m not fucking around embedding 30 videos on my iphone 8 bc that would probably make it explode. Thanks x. this is in no particular order, boygroup-heavy (getting into more ggs is on my new years resolution list trust!!!) and all my opinion. im just here to give my faves their 10s ♡

› ⠀ GO ⠀ ☆ ⠀ !

OO1 ASAP, NEWJEANS ⠀ saw this on a couple people’s worst releases lists ouhhh.. anyway i love this!!! me when it’s just for a minute.. Yeah. AND THE TICK-TOCKS don’t even they’re so fun.

OO2 ETA, NEWJEANS ⠀ yes them again. THE TRUMPETS GOT MEE like they Did that actually!!! boys be always lyinnnn 😒😒 and ofc the iconic back n forth verses w that video.. u know the one don’t lie.

OO3 SOS, NCT DREAM ⠀ stop giving them siren-like noises they’ll make something RIDICULOUSLY cunty out of them (see 119 and fire alarm like what..). when jeno said “Drippin’ too much, I’ma make it rain” i felt the earth shake Not joking.

OO4 POISON, NCT DREAM ⠀ FUCK OFFF they’re whores. whores that make Real Music. me and lee donghyuck **** to this song i am NOT JOKING!!!! this ate down im in tears. and don’t get me started on renjun’s vocals i might actually throw a glass..

OO5 AY-YO, NCT 127 ⠀ textbook 127 excellence it’s true. they all looked so good in the mv (YUTA LEVITATING LMFAOO.. and ty w that spiky hair he DID that), markil ATE, and this j makes me want to like beat someone up idek.

OO6 SKYSCRAPER, NCT 127 ⠀ they sat hyuck in the studio, held a gun to his head, and told him to deliver one of the cuntiest verses like Ever at exactly 1:51. AND THANK FUCK HE DID!!! it makes me want to rob a bank and i start fizzing up like a coke w a mento dropped into it. johnil ate too like let’s be fr.

OO7 CREAM SODA, EXO ⠀ WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT 주체 못 할 APPETITE 내 모든 걸 뒤흔든 그 맛. old men of the year i need to absorb them into my bloodstream. and d.o. in the open shirt.. kyungsoo the glorious man that you are.

OO8 PRIVATE PARTY, EXO ⠀ and again. this album is UP there w my top cbs hello.. why are they allergic to making bad music im sick. sh + cy went hard and the “우리만의 private pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-party” was CRAZYYY i moved so bad.

OO9 PARADE, NCT 127 ⠀ HOLY FUCK????? i actually have no words. when i get my hands on mark lee.. ohh you don’t even want to know. WHY IS HE LIKE THISSSS he is genuinely incapable of not laying down the hardest verses in the history of the world. and i thank him for it. JOHNNY AND JAEHYUN TOO MY GODDD i was going insane. 10 OUT OF 10!!! if i had to rank this list this would be near the top no questions asked.

O1O LOVE IS A BEAUTY, NCT 127 ⠀ me when i hold moon taeil in my arms and slow-dance with him and then put him to bed wrapped in a soft blanket tucked up to his chin.. (he is 29). notoriously a slower/softer song disliker but THIS.. Yeah. if anyone speaks on it i fear i’ll have to shoot them.

O11 PADO, NCT U ⠀ HELP i swear the nct stops after this. but how can you hear this and not want to fuck sth up like it goes so crazy.. and do NOT mention the words “haechan pado 230826” to me otherwise i might have to jump off of a cliff. I HATEW IHM SO BAGFDD FUCK

O12 JUMP, P1HARMONY ⠀ MY BOYS WERE GETTING 0 NOISE ON TWT IT WAS SICKKK. they ate!!! the mv ate!!! this is so fun and silly and p1h excellence and fun!!! everyone get up and JUMP. NOW.

O13 MORE THAN WORDS, P1HARMONY ⠀ VOCAL KINGS I FEEL ILL. you ask the people who in 4th gen was doing it like keeho theo and jiung and i fear the people will be silent. and seobtak.. let’s not. they’re just Like That. and it’s the best we cheered!!!

O14 IN BLOOM, ZEROBASEONE ⠀ won the best 5th gen debut competition EASILY. clean sweep. it’s fresh and fun and funky what more could you literally ask for. AND THE PRE-CHORUSSS it makes me want to melt into the floor. no other 5th gen groups can compare imo. riize might b in competition when they ACTUALLY DROP SIREN ?

O15 NEW KIDZ ON THE BLOCK, ZEROBASEONE ⠀ SINGING TA-DA-RA-RA-RA FEELS LIKE NEW KIDZ ON THE BLOCK!!! just club beat fun like if you put me in the dj booth im bumping this. and matthew ATE his “That’s my role 뻔한 hero보다는 antihero” line let’s not lie.

O16 TAKE MY HAND, ZEROBASEONE ⠀ dethroned crush Ridiculously easily like what.. I WAS FEELING TS ITS CRAZYYYY how can you listen to this and NOT move are you insane. the way they kinda make their vocals go up and down (does that make sense) i Love it.

O17 HAPPILY EVER AFTER, TXT ⠀ gyu getting no lines is INSANE. but this does hit im dancing (just not the choreo.. i think i would break a limb i can’t do ts). taehyun ate and the pre-chorus goes crazy. we all cheered!!!!

O18 TINNITUS (WANNA BE A ROCK), TXT ⠀ was debating between this or srr but this is sm more fun so here it is. one thing taebin did here, you ask? ATE DOWN would be the answer. me when i cook them for dinner and serve them up on a platter. this is on the me and sb *** playlist it’s true..

O19 3D, JUNGKOOK ⠀ jk has phone sex CONFIRMED? also im sorry but jack’s verse lowk goes hard too like.. BUT THIS OUTSOLDD LIKE IM BEING SO SRS. saw someone say jk’s solo releases outdid bts’ whole discog and like.. Yeah. YOU KNOW HOW I LIKE IT GIRLLL... 3D!!!

O2O SPICY, AESPA ⠀ DON’T HURT ‘EM KARINA.. oh my gdo she did it anyway. and giselle ate too let’s not forget that!!! the mv is giving little mix but in a good way and also if little mix was x10 more cunt. LOVE THEM!!!

O21 HARD, SHINEE ⠀ THE MV HIT SO GOOD WHY’D THEY GO CRAZY LIKE THAT. and key looked so good i passed out actually.. this being on some people’s worst releases list was CRIMINAL ik everyone’s entitled to their own opinions but that’s just Wrong. if you don’t go hard like a criminal hard like the beat then idk what to tell you..

O22 SEOUL DRIFT, ONLYONEOF ⠀ rumoured to have broken the scale on the cuntmeter.. they should put this on the GTA6 soundtrack omg?! one thing these boys are gonna do is eat down in neon lights and hard fits. it’s true i checked!!

O23 SHOOTING STAR, XG ⠀ excellence i fear.. i need to kiss whoever made this beat on the lips like actually IT’S TOO GOODDD. and the matching blue hair in the mv omg they’re so cunty. IT’S SO FUNN AND EVERYTHING IN THE MV LOOKS AMAZING TOO?!? im ill.

O24 GOLDEN HOUR, MARK ⠀ not me lying.. oh well. it’s MARK LEE did u rly think he wasn’t gonna be on here. one word away from telling the whole world he’s packing oh i love this man so much. GORDON RAMSEY FOUND DEAD IN A DITCH AFTER RELEASE OF MARK’S GOLDEN HOUR!!! he’s topping my fave and fuck knows he can top me too. i dont know how to make eggs😭😭😭😭

O25 SHALALA, TAEYONG ⠀ cunt himself! the whole crowd collapsed, buildings exploded, sirens were blaring, fires broke out.. it was a whole situation. THE MV IS ACTUALLY ONE OF MY FAVOURITES EVERR he really Did That like im in shock. if you don’t got the bounce Wow, wow, wow, wow then that is ENITRELY your problem. because i do :P

O26 DO NOT TOUCH, MISAMO ⠀ it’s classy it’s mother it’s wonderful their outfits are giving their hair is giving the music is giving it just doesn’t get much better than this. everyone in the room cheered and danced and if you didn’t then there must be something a little wrong with you. BANGER!!

O27 ROVER, KAI ⠀ oh you know i had to include father himself.. had the whole industry dancing and RIGHTFULLY SO!!! GOOD FOR HIM!!! pre-chorus makes me want to die in the best way.. like oh im Moving!!!! just again not to the choreo. mayb i’ll learn it next year. OH and the mv is amazing too!!!

O28 CHACONNE, ENHYPEN ⠀ oh this is seriously cunty evil like i love it. HEESEUNG AND JUNGWON LIKE LET’S NOT??? they’re so good when they’re evil vampires or whatever they are idk i don’t keep up w the lore.

O29 SACRIFICE (EAT ME UP), ENHYPEN ⠀ ANOTHER DARK BLOOD HIT IKTR.. kind of went crazy w this one like let me sway and move Okayyy! olivia wilde nodding rn it’s so good. Wht do u even know ab But here you are 빛으로 가득한 너..

O3O POPPY, STAYC ⠀ last but not least!! NODDING AND CHEERING AND JUMPING UP AND DOWN!!! do NOT ask how many times i’ve watched jeno dance to this the answer is something horrific and may scare some people. a Hit actually i love the stayc girlies. asap is one of my fave kpop songs EVER no arguments.

ahh ok and thats my list complete!!! i do hv some honourable mentions.. god of music svt, misty nct 127, bouncy atz, break the brake xdh, and eve psyche & bluebeard's wife by le sserafim!!! this is so long bye 1thing ab me i am allergic to never shutting the fuck up. like who cares 😭 anw baii i love moon taeil

[ncther]

THROUGH THE DREAM ERAS

said to be one of her strongest debuts within the group, NCT HER debuted with CHEWING GUM in 2016. the fresh and cute concept suited y/n well and allowed her to blend into the group while still having a few moments to shine.

for the unit’s first comeback, y/n was once again able to blend in well for the title track MY FIRST AND LAST. with this comeback, y/n was able to show off some of her dancing. however this comeback didn’t last long for her due to scheduling conflicts.

WE YOUNG has been remarked as one of y/n's best dream eras for how well she looked and performed. y/n has also stated that this was her favorite comeback out of the unit as she enjoyed everything about it.

GO was a fan favorite era for many nctzens as it showed a new side to dream. many y/n stans also enjoyed this song, saying she actually looked like she enjoyed being on stage as compared to the boss and touch stages with nct u and nct 127. this actually sparked a lot of talk about whether she enjoyed being in 127 or not.

WE GO UP would be y/n's last comeback in dream before she and mark would graduate from the unit in 2019. netizens noted how much fun she seemed to have performing and how much effort she put into each performance. while she didn’t particularly stand out this era, many y/n stans deemed this a good era and the end of a chapter for the idol.

[peanutpinet]

My Plus One - Johnny Suh x Fem Reader | Idol Au

A/N: Herrow everyone!! How are you all? Johnfams, czennies, y'all alive after Johnny's Met Gala? I CLEARLY AM NOT FINE 🙃 MAN BE SERVING LOOKS AND IS OFFICIALLY MY BIAS WRECKER NOW. AND NCT 127 HAVEN'T EVEN MADE A COMEBACK T^T I'M DOOMED NEXT COMEBACK

Anyways, this is another story that I thought of a while ago but never really thought of "any specific neos" (let's be real, y'all probably know just by looking at my masterlist) and this is also gonna be mixed with a dream I had literally while the Met Gala was literally happening (timezone difficulties)

Summary: you were a staff of an SM in another country where you and Johnny became friends and eventually dated which is how your almost 2 year relationship was never caught. However, when you were transferred to the SM in Korea, someone within the company tried to sabotage your relationship

Warnings: angst, fluff, Johnny being aggressive compared to his normal self (aka slight yandere behaviour, the 'I'll kill you if you touch her'), your author trying yet another yandere fic and constantly simping over Johnny :D

It was painful. Moving to another country thinking that it would give you a fresh new start, better experiences, making happier memories and all. But in reality, it was just like a stain. When you stain your white T-shirt, all you could see and think of is the stain. No matter how hard you try to wash it, that white T-shirt will never be same ever again. So did your life in South Korea.

As much as you tried to suppress that unpleasing feeling when one matter pokes that bubble, everything explodes. You couldn't handle it. You wanted to be strong. You've always appeared to be strong and able to handle whatever was thrown at your way. But this, time, it was too much.

You loved Johnny, yes. You never once thought of leaching off of him, using him for your personal self-pleasure. Instead, those thoughts disgusted you. You were a fan of NCT before becoming a staff in SM, yes. But that doesn't mean that when you become a staff, you can be willy nilly and talk or even treat the idols you adore however you wanted. They weren't robots, they were not owned by anyone. They're human and they have their own lives.

That thought was most likely the reason why NCT trusted you in the first place despite you were a fan turned staff. You respected them as peers, you never saw them above nor below you. You respected their space and them as a person. You never forced anything upon them and instead you were the one that got out of your comfort zone to make sure that they were the ones that didn't have to.

Which is how Johnny first fell for you. You were a staff in an SM abroad. Meaning, your Korean was not as polished and you still had trouble speaking the language but you excelled in English, which is how you were able to communicate with the 'Foreign Swaggers', mainly Johnny.

You were the complete opposite of Johnny. Shy, introvert, listened rather than talk whereas Johnny was very much an extrovert, he talked a lot and was even the one that engaged in a conversation with you. Even if you only replied with a few words, worried that you might accidentally crossover the border or peers.

But as time passes during the boys' stay, you and the foreign swaggers, especially Johnny, got very close. Towards the end of the boys' stay did Johnny admit to you about his feelings. But because you never really had an actual relationship before, it took time to actually fully accept Johnny's confession. But not because you didn't like him back, but more so you were worried that it was all just a phase, especially when you both were going to be in a long-distance relationship.

But once again, Johnny proved you wrong and almost 2 years later, you guys were still going strong. With Johnny always finding a way to go and see you whenever he had a break and thanks to the company and nice fans, your relationship was never revealed to the public.

But it was also because of the company that your relationship was now a mess. All because of a group of jealous staff, your relationship was now on the edge of glass. Even if your face wasn't revealed, most of the fans and public most likely know who you are since you were practically featured in one of NCT's live and interview.

You didn't want to burden them, especially Johnny. So, you decided to take the blame and resigned back to your home country. Johnny was honestly heartbroken and distressed by your sudden departure. Especially when you didn't even tell him about it. But in all honesty, he wasn't really angry at you. He completely understood from your perspective because you weren't used to it like he was and he knows how nice you were and always sacrificing yourself for others.

Which is why this time, Johnny decided to take matters into his own hands. Literally. Johnny stormed into SM the day after he found out you left. He demanded for everyone who was involved to admit their doings. That day was the day that both NCT and the whole of SM saw a side of Johnny that they never knew existed.

While he was known to be the tall, strong member, his personality was the complete opposite of it. Not once did Johnny ever use violence or intentionally curse at anyone until that day. He was so pissed that even his members and security were scared to come close to him.

It wasn't until Lee Sooman himself come and tell Johnny off. Promising that he himself would help find the person that spread the false rumours. Only then did Johnny somewhat calm down but not without leaving a threat to everyone.

"I suggest that whoever you are, confess before I actually find out myself who did it. Because if I find out first, I promise you that I won't be so nice. I'll make sure that I get back for what you did to her that you wish you never step foot into our relationship" Johnny threatened, storming out of the staff room

After that day, no one. No. One. Dared to even look at Johnny straight in the eyes except for his members. Even so they were still a bit terrified. To the point where some members that were very close to you like the Dreamies and WayV (A/N: cause I feel dreamies would get along easily and WayV are all foreigners like you) had to update you on what happened, begging you to talk to Johnny. But you weren't ready to face him, not after you left him just like that.

But hey, when it's meant to be, life will find a way to make it happen. Which is what happen when you were having a high school reunion dinner that just so happen to be at a restaurant in the hotel that NCT 127 were staying for their concert.

Johnny who saw that a guy was trying to hit on you just lost it. Especially when you were clearly not interested and were uncomfortable. So, you can only imagine that guy and your whole high school friends' face when they saw Johnny, a whopping 187cm (this ain't confirmed but I'm 99% sure this is his height :D) suddenly appeared right behind you and pulled you softly behind him, towering the guy and practically shooting bullets at the guy.

Once they got the message, Johnny took your hand gently in his, pleading you to follow him and have a talk. Knowing that you can't run away forever, you agreed and bid your friends goodbye, giving them an apologetic smile as you told them you were sorry that the dinner was interrupted.

So talk you both did. You firstly apologised for everything. For the sudden leave without saying anything, for making Johnny and the other members worry and all. But Johnny ignored them all. Yes he did tell you how disappointed and heartbroken he was when he found out but he told you that he understands where you were coming from.

"I'm sorry. For leaving so sudden. For not telling you what happened. For going without saying a word, especially to you" you apologised, looking down to your feet

"I'm not going to lie, I'm disappointed but I don't blame you. You were hurting and I didn't even know about it nor did I realise it. I was just so happy that we were finally with each other, no more distance separating us that I neglected how you might've felt" Johnny replied back, caressing your knuckles

However, Johnny also told you that he wasn't going to let you go that easily and wants to try again. To actually be there for you and protect you from all the harm for dating him. In addition, he told you that he wants to make the relationship public. That he wants everyone to finally know that he has found his plus one. It took some time to think and all but you agreed. Saying that it's time and even added on that Johnny should be honest with his fans first and foremost.

Which is how Johnny ended up handwriting a wholeass letter to his fans about your relationship without actually revealing you and thankfully everyone was very supportive and gave both of you their blessings, wishing nothing but happiness for both you and Johnny.

But that wasn't the only surprise that were coming for fans because Johnny was invited for a fashion event whilst being on tour and he wants you to be his plus one. Heck, he already had a dress, hairdresser and makeup artist ready before you even agreed to come.

So here you both were, linking your arms together as you walked into the event, all cameras and eyes were both on you. But clearly, there was nothing more for either of you to say. It was clear that day that you both were each other's plus one.

Once the night was over, both of you went back to your room and let out a huge sigh of relief. Especially Johnny. He suddenly sat on the bed, holding your hands in his and he just suddenly broke down. Telling you how grateful he was for you.

"You have no idea how much this means to me. How much you mean to me. That 6 months of not knowing how you were, only able to see through your Instagram stories, not being able to hear your voice or even touch you like now was torture. But even then, you kept trying to be strong, sacrificing yourself for me. I can't explain to you how damn grateful I am for you. I promise that I'll be here until the end. Because I choose you to be my plus one" Johnny broke down, hugging your waist as he cried on your chest while you stroked his hair

"You mean just as much to me too, Johnny. Thank you for being strong and keep on going. And even waiting for me. For even chasing me and making sure that I was alright. Thank you for being my plus one too" you softly cooed, kissing his forehead and just enjoying being in each other's embrace

A/N: goodness, this was a long fic to write :D I had no idea it would turn out this long and I hope that it makes sense. If it doesn't, well, sorry about that ahahha. I might do a more yandere/mafia type of story with the amount of pics we got of Johnny from the Met. Honestly am so damn happy and proud of him T^T Like literally, that last 2-3 paragraphs were inspired by my dream of him. Anyways, I stayed up till 2am writing this fic so I hope that you enjoy it as much as I did writing it and I hope that it would warm your hearts. See y'all in the next one! Stay safe and always be happy :] xoxo Vinet

[averyfromzero]

Rival or Crush?

pairing: mark lee x male reader

summary: reader replaces mark in nct dream, which causes a feud within the fandom. a rivalry from mark’s side turns into an unexpected crush that leads mark to act jealous on national tv.

words: 2226

note: mostly fluff? i think? maybe a bit of angst too?

Right after Mark graduated from NCT Dream, (y/n) was introduced as the brand new member of the unit, entering the team as the new leader. With fans upset about Mark’s graduation and (y/n) taking his place as a leader, a rivalry between the two ensued within the fandom. Some fans started hating on (y/n) for “taking Mark’s place” and others defended him from the comments. The two weren’t aware of the feud, but their lack of closeness fueled the quarrel further. Mark lived with part of the 127 members while (y/n) was housed with Jeno, Jaemin and Jisung at the Dream’s dorm. The two boys never got to spend time together so they never had the chance to build a friendship, keeping their relationship as mere acquaintances.

(y/n) and Jeno, on the other hand, quickly grew closer, becoming each other’s best friend in no time. A few months after (y/n)’s debut, the two would often be seen chatting, cuddling and playing together. Nothing weird for a couple of best friends, right? That is until Mark starts seeing (y/n) with other eyes.

See, Mark was never intrigued by the new NCT member until he was scrolling through his secret Twitter account and noticed the two were being put against each other by the fans. Mark thought it was weird that they were being seen as rivals as he never really thought of (y/n) like that. He barely ever thought of (y/n) in the first place. After that point, Mark started worrying that his skills as an idol were no match for the brand new addition to NCT. He started comparing himself to (y/n), being too into his own head when wondering if the boy was a better leader or a better main dancer than he was in NCT Dream. With that, he unconsciously started acting even colder towards the younger. Avoiding talking to him a lot whenever he visited the Dream’s dorm or when (y/n) came to visit Taeil and Jaehyun at the 127’s dorm.

This behavior just made their “rivalry” even worse among fans. Mark avoiding (y/n)’s gaze when they were seen in public just made it clear to the fandom that the two not only were rivals, but they also hated each other behind the scenes. (y/n) always acted normal though, never thinking of Mark as a rival or thinking of him as a friend either, just neutral, so he never really noticed Mark’s cold shoulder or the fans' conspiracy about the two of them. He just minded his own business while Mark grew anxious about supposedly “losing his place to (y/n)”.

As time went by, Mark continued to think of (y/n), but his worry became endearment as he started observing the younger from afar, convincing himself he was doing it so he could keep up with the other boy. But soon Mark started noticing how (y/n) did or said things in a way he found cute or even attractive. And just like that, (y/n) became a crush.

Whenever he was invited to watch movies at the Dream’s dorm, Mark would constantly look over to (y/n) and Jeno cuddling, jealous that he wasn’t in Jeno’s position. Or when (y/n) became an MC on M Countdown and many other idols started flirting with him. Mark’s blood would boil. But what could he do? He never told anyone he had a crush on (y/n), and he certainly knew he didn’t have the right to feel jealous when he didn’t even make his feelings known to the other boy.

That just made things worse. When NCT 127 and STRAY KIDS were nominated for 1st place on M!COUNTDOWN and (y/n) was still the program’s MC, Mark couldn’t handle anymore. Bang Chan started flirting with (y/n) backstage, and it only continued on stage before the winner of the week was announced. Please, let it be us, Mark would chant in his own head. He didn’t want to see (y/n) personally give that trophy to the other group’s leader. If he saw Bang Chan flirting with his crush again he would lose it. Yes, he felt insecure. Bang Chan was a very attractive man, handsome face, nice body, and on top of that, one hell of a sexy accent. There was no way Mark could compete with him, is what he thought.

And then it was time to announce the winner. As the screen split to show both groups side by side and their scores just below them, Mark was anxious. The numbers went up. They won the first category. Yes. They lost the second. Fuck. They won the third. C’mon, we got this. And then they lost the fourth. Goddammit. As the final numbers started going up, Mark started squeezing Jaehyun’s hand in nervousness. "C’mon c’mon c’mon", he whispered to himself, which made his bandmate very confused. Mark was never this nervous during music shows, Jaehyun thought.

8001 vs. 7999.

They lost by two points. Fucking hell. He dropped Jaehyun’s hand in disappointment and exasperated. “Man, put yourself together, we’re still live”, Jung whispered to him. Mark had completely forgotten to behave. “Sorry”, he responded in a small voice. And then he looked to his right.

(y/n) had a smile plastered on his face as he turned to give Bang Chan the trophy. Mark saw as the Korean leaned down to whisper something in (y/n)’s ear. Fucking hell. His blood was boiling. He didn’t notice he was eyeing the other two so badly until Jaehyun snapped him out of it. “Dude, what’s up with you? Stop with that face. Again, we’re still on TV!”. That made Mark turn his head to the front again, but he couldn’t hide his feelings, he kept biting his lips and silently begging for the other group to end their speech so they could leave.

Bang Chan soon finished his speech. Thank God. Mark rolled his eyes. (y/n) and the other MC were now closing with their final lines. As they bid their thanks to the audience, the winning song started playing in the background and Mark was the first to walk off the stage, ignoring his bandmates that were greeting the MCs and the other group. Before he exited the studio, Mark saw as Bang Chan once again pulled (y/n) in so he could flirt with him a bit more. Son of a bitch.

As NCT 127 entered their changing room, Jaehyun promptly went up to Mark. “Man, you’re eating that boy up, eyeing him like that. Why don’t you ask him out already?” Mark froze. Has he been that obvious? “What? I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about”, he answered impatiently as he tried to go change his clothes. But Jaehyun stopped him, grabbing his arm. “You know what I’m talking about. Come on, man, it’s getting ridiculous. Look at how you behaved up there! This has to stop. You either ask him out or just stop with that face altogether. Deal with it”, and then he let go of the younger’s arm to go change. Mark just stood there. He knew Jaehyun was right. He’s gotta do something about it. But not right now.

The next day Twitter was blowing up with screenshots of Mark eyeing (y/n) during M Countdown. “He’s MAD mad, look at that. He hates (y/n) so much lmao”, said one of the tweets with a picture of his angry face attached to it. “Poor (y/n), what did he do for Mark to look at him like that?”, said another one. I fucked up, Mark thought as he scrolled through his timeline.

As he exited his room and walked towards the living room, Mark was faced with Johnny, Jaehyun and Taeyong at the table eating breakfast silently with their phones in their hands.

“Mornin’, guys”, Mark tried. Jaehyun simply looked up and then went back to stare at his phone while Johnny responded with a hum without even taking his eyes off his screen. Taeyong, on the other hand, locked his phone and actually paid attention to Mark.

“Good morning, Mark. Have you seen Twitter lately?”, he asked as if everything was fine. “Yes…”, Mark answered in a shy voice. “You do realize even the company wants to know what the hell is up between you and (y/n), right?” Mark was silent. “Or worse, you do realize that (y/n) himself saw it, right?” Fuck. “Mark, please tell me what the hell is going on.” Taeyong pleaded with worry all over his voice.

“I don’t know…”, Mark tried saying. Jaehyun then finally broke his silence. “Dude, (y/n) woke up CRYING this morning and you’re here saying you don’t know why you looked like you wanted to murder him yesterday?!”, Jaehyun sounded furious. “He what?!”, Mark said. “I told you to figure it out and look at what already happened! The whole fandom is going nuts because there are two people that apparently hate each other in the group. The company is going crazy because of it too. WE are going nuts because of it. You have GOT to get over yourself and just sort this whole thing out before something even worse happens.”

Mark felt numb. He and his own little head made all of this mess. Now even (y/n) thought he hated him. Fuck. He rushed to the door without saying a word to the other three in the room and got out of the dorm. He didn’t even wait for the elevator before deciding to walk down the stairs until he reached the Dream’s dorm. He knocked on the door three times before Jeno opened it.

“What do you want?”, the younger one said with an angry face. Everyone was mad at him, even Jeno. Oh, God. “I wanna talk to (y/n), is he here?”, Mark asked, looking anxious and worried. “He doesn’t want to see you. Goodbye”, Jeno responded as he started closing the door. “Wait! Please, Jeno, I wanna apologize”, Mark pleaded, stopping the door from closing with his hand. Jeno huffed, impatient. “Fine. He's in our room. Don’t do anything stupid”, Jeno answered, still with an angry expression on his face, and let the boy in. Mark didn’t say anything else as he ran to (y/n)’s room.

Knocking softly on the door before opening, Mark entered the room slowly as he saw a ball of blankets in one of the beds in the room.

“(y/n)?”, his voice seemed to startle the boy as he flinched under the many layers of thick fabric. Mark continued. “Hey, can we talk? I wanna apologize for yesterday. It’s not what you think it was”, he said as he approached the boy.

“What did I do?”, he heard (y/n) mumble in the smallest of voices under all those blankets. He sounded so defenseless. Mark felt awful.

“Nothing! You didn’t do anything, I promise. I was just being stupid…” he said as he sat at the very end of the bed, trying not to invade the other’s space. He sighed before continuing. “I was jealous, I’m sorry…” And that’s when (y/n) finally pulled the blanket off his face.

“What?”, he looked at Mark confusedly.

“I…I have a crush on you, ok? That’s why I got jealous. I saw Bang Chan flirting with you on stage and it made me a bit jealous.” Mark confessed timidly. (y/n), who looked puffy due to his previously non-stopping crying, had now an amused expression on his face.

“You have a crush on me?”, he couldn’t help chuckle at that. Mark looked so shy at the other’s smirk. Cute. “Why didn’t you just tell me? I don’t bite, you know?”, (y/n) looked more comfortable now, letting his legs stretch on the mattress as they were curled up against his chest before.

“I don’t know, I was scared. There was that whole rivalry thing between us online and that made me self-conscious, and then I started having a crush on you, and then it was all just too much for me to handle, so I just kind of lost it…”, he explained with his gaze fixed on the fabric of the blanket he was playing with fingers nervously. “…I’m sorry, (y/n)”. He sounded very genuine.

“It’s okay”, the other responded. “I’m just glad you cleared it up. I got so anxious thinking you hated me for some reason”, he tried lightening the mood with a chuckle at the end.

“Yeah. So… want me to leave now that everything’s cleared up?”, Mark asked, finally directing his eyes towards the other boy while standing up.

“Wait!”, (y/n) grabbed him by the arm. “Isn’t there anything else you wanna ask me?”.

Mark just stood there, confused.

“Like, if I like you too or…” Oh, that. Mark was now even more timid. But he asked anyway.

“Well… do you?”

Instead of answering, (y/n) pulled him by the arm, making him sit right in front of him, way closer than before. Silent, the two boys looked at each for a moment before (y/n) leaned in to place a deep but quick kiss to Mark’s lips.

“Does that answer your question?”

[a3r3n]

BABYLON (ACT III) // MARK LEE

Pairing: Mark × girl!reader (+ Johnny, Yuta, Jaemin, and Karina)

Genre: exes to lovers!AU, fluff, angst, suggestive? but not really, arranged marriage!AU

Word Count: 5.6k+

⚠️Warnings: the end gets a bit heated but it’s just making out and some touching

A/N: This is the last part of Mark's fic, but it can be read as a one-shot as the story is completely understandable without having read the previous ones. I also want to apologize if there are some mistakes, above all related to the verbs tenses since their usage is different in English (compared to my first language) and I get confused sometimes :(

🌼Nct 127 Arranged Marriages!AUs Masterlist

🌼Act I - Act II - Act III

Summary: even though your marriage has been arranged by your parents, you should be happy you're going to get married to the man you love the most, but you aren't. You're convinced he doesn't love you anymore since he was the one to break up with you more than a year prior. Little do you know, he's holding something unexpected in store for you, something that will make you both mad but above all happy.

«Wait a minute… you’re telling me you’ve dreamt the same thing that happened when Mark broke up with you?» Jaemin asks for the third time, all shook up after hearing you talk about the dream that ruined your sleep.

«Exactly, and it looked so real!» you reply, dipping a cookie in the huge jar of Nutella you stole from his hands.

Sitting at your sides, your best friend and your roommate look at each other with deep concern. They both know how much you’ve suffered because of your ex-boyfriend, and they also know you still love him, despite the excruciating pain he gave you. After a year and four months from your break-up, you’re still in love with him.

«I was this close to finally forgetting him,» you then add to break the silence. It’s true: during the past year, you spent all your time and energies trying to forget him and, even if you’re afraid you’ll always feel something for him, you’re finally feeling a little bit better.

You started focusing on your studies more, getting excellent grades in every class you attend. You let your friends drag you out of your apartment to hang out with them and get distracted, and you also started to take better care of yourself, following a healthy diet and joining the gym. You could finally say you’ve begun to live again, after several months spent locked in your bedroom, refusing to see anyone, only holding your breath in hopes your ex-boyfriend would come back.

It was hard because you had to see him almost every day on campus, surrounded by a bunch of girls who wanted nothing but to end up in his bed. The thought of him with another girl made your stomach turn, but the only thing you could do was to ignore it.

As if that weren’t enough, however, you also had to see him every time you came back home, since his father is your parents’ boss and they often organize events together. It was hard, but you managed to overcome almost every obstacle somehow.

«You know you’ll never forget him,» Karina says, taking the jar of Nutella away from your hands and ignoring your complaints. «Last night, you told me you still love him.»

«I said that because I had just woken up from that dream. I was too upset,» you reply, looking for the box of cookies, but Karina takes that away too, putting it on the highest shelf in your kitchen to prevent you from finishing them all. You’ve overcome your sweets-eating phase once, and she doesn’t want you to fall back into it.

«As if,» Jaemin scoffs, remembering all the nights he spent in your room after your break-up, comforting you and trying to calm you down. According to him, the kind of love you and Mark shared could never be forgotten. A thousand years could go by, but a piece of you would still remember him and all the things he made you feel. Unfortunately, that piece was your heart. Deep down your soul, even you know that your heart will always belong to him, but you had to at least try to stitch the pieces he’d broken to live again. And it was working: your heart was almost fully mended.

Everything was going perfectly fine until, on a cold night of December, Mark’s father announced his son’s engagement with the daughter of his most loyal and trustworthy employees.

You.

After that night, the balance you’d managed to find in your life started to fall apart again.

«Could it be possible that your engagement is the reason why you’re always dreaming of him these nights?» Karina asks. When you’d told her about it, she went furious. She’s always been a free spirit, never letting anyone make decisions for her nor judging her choices. That’s why she finds disgusting the engagement system of your world, and you can’t help but agree.

You’ve always argued with your parents about that hypocritical, fake system, hoping they would understand and wouldn’t let you end up in such an unpleasant situation. Apparently, your essay-like speeches on the absurdity of the existence of arranged marriages in the 21st century didn’t work. Not only: to add insult to injury, you now find yourself engaged with your ex-boyfriend whom you still love, but who probably doesn’t reciprocate that feeling anymore. After all, he’s the one who broke up with you.

«It’s obviously because of that!» Jaemin answers instead of you. «You should have seen her face during the announcement at the Annual Party! She looked like a ghost!»

«I wouldn’t laugh so much if I were you,» you scold him, trying not to think about the night when both your and Mark’s parents announced your engagement. «It’ll be your turn too, sooner or later.»

«I hate this so much, and I truly don’t understand you rich people. You’re already loaded with money: why would you need to increase your net worth? And above all: why do that through arranged marriages?» Karina says, sounding even more frustrated than you at that thought. «I’d never be able to marry someone I don’t love.»

«But she does love Mark,» Jaemin adds, and they both turn their heads at you, looking at your face for a reaction of any kind.

But you’re distracted. You’re thinking about Mark, again. You should be happy to marry him since you still have feelings for him, but you can’t be this selfish. He probably doesn’t love you anymore, maybe he’s even found another girl, and that’s why, as much as you try, you aren’t able to feel any good emotion at the thought of your wedding. «I do,» you whisper. «That’s why I stopped arguing with my parents about the engagement. After all, I love Mark.»

«But you don’t look so happy to marry him,» Jaemin notices.

«Because I’m not. How could I be when I know he doesn’t love me?»

«You don’t know this. You told me he’s the one who convinced you to agree to the engagement without making a fuss,» Karina says, moving closer to hug you, immediately followed by Jaemin, who can’t stand the idea of someone stealing his best friend.

«Well, of course he did. He had to! You know how he is, always willing to do what his parents tell him only to please them…»

«I don’t know. If he didn’t wanna marry you, he would’ve made it clear somehow. But if I have to be honest, he looked kinda… relieved after the engagement announcement.»

«Jaemin, please, don’t put such ideas in my head!» you beg him, standing up in a rush and leaving your two friends sitting next to each other on the couch. «I don’t wanna give myself false hopes. I’d rather think I’m gonna get married to someone who doesn’t love me. This way, the truth will be less painful since I already expected it. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I need to go to the bathroom.»

As you storm out of the living room, your roommate and your best friend look at each other and shake their heads.

«She’s a lost cause.»

«Indeed.»

«In all honesty, Mark, let me tell you: you’re such an idiot,» Yuta says, looking at his friend disapprovingly while standing close to the fireplace.

It snowed all night, and now the whole city looks like it’s covered by a soft blanket, while the Christmas lights adorning every building sprinkle with red and green that pure white expanse of snow. It’s a breathtaking landscape, but the freezing temperature and the thick tension in the room ruin it a little.

At first, Mark was happy that Johnny and Yuta, two of his closest friends, had decided to spend the holiday season in Seoul instead of flying back to Tokyo. They each had their reasons, of course: Yuta’s parents had convinced him to celebrate Christmas with his fiancée’s family in the Korean capital, while Johnny was too worried for his pregnant wife to let her hop on a plane again. That’s how they found themselves at Mark’s place, after quite some time of not seeing each other, for an all-boys reunion. That made Mark extremely happy, at first. He needed to tell his older and hopefully wiser friends everything that’d happened during their absence and, above all, to get a huge weight off his chest.

Of course, they already knew about his break-up, which happened a year prior. What they didn’t know, though, was the real reason behind it and his actual feelings about it. As soon as they found out those things, they didn’t waste any time bashing Mark without end. And that’s why now he isn’t happy anymore.

«Seriously, you’re a complete idiot. How could you let your ‘friends’ ruin your relationship like that?» Yuta asks in disbelief.

«I don’t know. I guess I thought they were right back then. None of them had a girlfriend, and they were so excited about starting college after all the stories they’d heard about it. You know it: frat parties, sorority girls, sleeping around without commitment. They were so enthusiastic about their new life, and I started feeling uncomfortable around them because I was the only one who wouldn't have done any of that since I had a girlfriend.»

«And have you ever thought that, maybe, you should have found new friends who made you feel comfortable instead of breaking up with your girlfriend of four years?» Johnny asks in a tone that sounded way too sarcastic.

«Besides, it’s Haechan and Jeno we’re talking about. I get that they’re your friends, but you know you should take everything they say with a grain of salt,» Yuta adds, rolling his eyes. «Those guys are unbelievable.»

«At least, did you have fun and sleep around as you expected to?» Johnny asks, skeptical and fully aware he doesn’t even need his friend to answer: the look on his face says it all.

«I didn’t,» the younger one admits. «I tried, at first. Haechan and Jeno attended every party and dragged me with them. I met many girls, but every time I tried to do something with them, something more than a simple flirt, my mind went back to her.»

«You couldn’t even kiss them?»

Mark shakes his head to answer Yuta’s question, then fixes his gaze on the fireplace in front of him, trying to focus on the dancing flames inside it to avoid thinking about you. But in his head, your face is all he can see.

«You’re a fucking idiot,» Johnny spits out. «Why didn’t you go back to her when you realized you still had feelings for her?»

«How could I?» Mark cries, his eyes still fixed on the burning flames. «I told her awful things when we broke up. After four years of relationship, I couldn’t even look at her in the eyes while we were talking.» He holds his head in his hands, rubbing his forehead and taking deep breaths. «I knew I’d been a jerk. I couldn’t go back to her: I felt too ashamed. I didn’t wanna hurt her anymore.»

«There are a million reasons why this is the stupidest decision you've ever made, but I don’t wanna twist the knife in the wound,» Johnny says, opening the bottle of liquor Mark had placed on the coffee table a couple of hours earlier, and filling three glasses for him and his friends. «What I’d like to know is: what are your feelings towards her now?» he asks, handing one glass to Mark, who’s sitting next to him on the couch, while Yuta moves closer to take his own.

«Isn’t it clear?»

«Let him speak, Yuta. I wanna hear him say it.» Johnny shoots a glare to his friend who’s now back at his warm spot near the fireplace, then they both look at Mark, who’s sipping his drink to take a little more time to carefully choose his words.

‘No more lies,’ he thinks, gathering all his courage to admit something he’s denied for too long. «I still love her,» he finally says, choosing the most common yet powerful words. «I still fucking love her so much. I think about her every day, wondering what she’s doing, how she’s feeling, who she’s with. I’ve spent the past year regretting my choice and wishing I could turn back time and avoid making that mistake.»

«Well, you can’t go back to the past, but you still have the future. You can always fix everything,» Yuta says.

«How can I? It’s too late now…»

«Do I need to remind you she’s the girl your parents want you to marry?» Johnny asks sarcastically. «I’ve always hated this arranged marriage system, but you’ve been lucky enough to end up marrying the love of your life! You’ll be able to…»

«You’re one to talk,» Yuta interrupts him, scoffing. «You and your wife are the real-life representation of true love, despite yours being an arranged marriage as well!»

«You’ve been both lucky,» Mark says, interrupting their little bickering. «You both ended up falling in love with the women you were forced to marry, but most importantly, they reciprocate the feeling.» He makes a brief pause to take another deep breath. «But she doesn’t. She hates me now.»

«How can you be so sure?»

«Yuta, you were there when my dad announced our engagement. You saw her reaction.»

«Actually, he didn’t,» Johnny says, mockingly. «He was busy making out with his fiancée in…»

«Enough!» Yuta interrupts him, apparently annoyed but actually amused. «Sorry, Mark, what were you saying? What was her reaction?»

«She was terrified, to say the least. And I was heartbroken since it was clear she didn’t wanna marry me.» He sighs. «That’s why I’m pretty sure she hates me.»

«You forgot to tell him an important detail,» Johnny adds. «Yuta, you must know that, after the announcement, Mark took her away to talk and, well… he convinced her to accept everything without making a scene, as she was about to do.»

«Johnny…»

«No, Mark, let me finish. Yuta, you must also know that she finally got convinced after this idiot right here called her ‘baby’!»

«You what?!»

«It was an accident! I didn’t mean to say it!»

«But you still did!» Johnny exclaimed. «And after that, she magically changed her mind!»

«That doesn’t mean anything! I said other things to convince her!»

«As if!» Mark’s two friends shouted simultaneously, but before they could say anything else, a maid entered the room, interrupting the conversation.

«Excuse me, Mr. Lee. A letter for you has arrived. It’s from Mr. Kim,» she says, passing him an envelope and leaving immediately after.

«It’s from Doyoung,» Mark says, pulling out a finely decorated piece of paper. «It’s an invitation to his wedding.»

The other two men look pretty surprised. Doyoung, another one of their circle, would get married on New Year’s Eve, and he’d already sent the invitations many months earlier. «Why did he send it just now?» Johnny asks, confused.

«Because it’s not for me,» Mark answers, making his friends even more confused. «It’s for my girl- fiancée. He probably decided to invite her after our engagement.»

He lets out another sigh. This means he’d have to text or even call to inform you about it. You would have to attend the wedding as a couple and spend the whole day together, pretending to be happy and excited when people would ask about your wedding. Mark isn’t ready to face all of this, but his friends think otherwise.

«Mark, this is a sign for you to clear everything up and tell her the truth!» Johnny says, feeling proud of his idea.

«Johnny, are you okay? I’m not gonna tell her how I feel: I don’t want her to hate me even more! Besides, it’s Doyoung wedding, and I don’t wanna ruin it!»

«I’m not saying you have to talk to her at the wedding; I’m just saying you should take this as a sign to tell her everything. She deserves to know, after all, and since you’re going to get married, you better do it before it happens!»

«I agree with him,» Yuta adds after a deep thinking session. «If I hadn’t decided to talk to my fiancée about our situation, she would have never confessed her feelings for me, and we would be still living in denial now. Mark, believe me: talk to her. This is always the best option.»

Mark doesn’t look fully convinced, but the idea slowly sets in his mind. His friends are right: you deserve to know the truth. You might hate him afterward, but he’s got nothing to lose at this point.

December 31st.

It’s so cold outside every car in the parking lot is covered by a thin layer of ice. It snowed the night before, and the usually green hills are now painted in white. Doyoung and his bride-to-be chose an idyllic place to get married, away from the chaotic noises of Seoul and surrounded by nature. Moreover, it looks like one of those magical places in fairy tales, covered by so much snow. It gives you a slight sense of peace, and you keep staring at that dreamlike landscape, hoping it can infuse you with enough calm and strength to survive the day.

You didn’t expect to be invited to Doyoung’s wedding since you barely knew him, but you should have, above all after your engagement to Mark, one of his closest friends.

Your parents were happy to let you go on a two-day trip with your fiancé, and you couldn’t dissuade them in any way. They didn’t change their mind even when you told them you would have to share the same hotel room with him. «You’re engaged now,» they simply said, and they were technically correct. But you were frightened by the idea of spending two days with your ex-boyfriend-now-fiancé, above all because you would have been alone with him most of the time.

The four-hour car ride was extremely uncomfortable. Mark tried to talk a little bit, even telling some jokes, but it was impossible to not feel the tension between the two of you. Much to your relief, he then decided to turn the radio on and let the music hide all the embarrassment.

Now you’re both standing on the parvis outside a small yet elegant church, smiling and nodding while two of tour parents’ friends congratulate you for your engagement. Mark unconsciously wraps his arm around your waist while thanking the couple in front of you, and you find yourself holding your breath at that sudden contact. His presence only makes you shiver, and feeling him so close doesn’t make the situation any better.

Luckily – or not? - for you, Johnny Suh draws everyone’s attention to him, telling all the guests to head inside and take a seat since the bride would arrive soon. Mark’s arm leaves your waist, and his hand grabs yours and leads you to a pew in the last row. The temperature inside the church is a bit warmer, but that’s not the reason why you suddenly feel your skin burning.

Mark keeps his hand on yours even after you sit down, and you don’t understand why you don’t say anything to stop him. You know you should because his touch is waking all the feelings you had buried deep inside your heart, threatening to tear it apart once again. You’re so absorbed in your thoughts and feelings you don’t even bother questioning why he’s doing all of that.

The sound of the wedding march distracts you and makes you focus on the woman who’s now entering the aisle. She looks beautiful, you think, and her eyes are shining more than the hundreds of candles scattered all over the place. When her gaze meets Doyoung’s, she smiles brightly, and you wonder whether she’s pretending or if her feelings are real. And then you can’t help wondering how you would feel at your wedding.

The service starts, but the priest’s words sound muffled and distant to your ears, too focused on Mark’s hand that’s now leaving yours to reach your thigh. When you turn your head to look at him, you notice he’s biting his lower lip so hard that you fear it might bleed.

You wish you had enough strength and will to at least ask him why he’s doing that, but the moment your eyes meet his, the world around you disappears, and every voice becomes nothing more than a barely audible echo.

Mark calls your name, and the way it sounds coming from his mouth makes your heart jump right out of your chest. «I need to talk to you,» he whispers.

«Not now, Mark,» you reply with a trembling voice.

«Please…» You feel him tighten his grip on your thigh. «If I don’t, I’m afraid I might explode.»

You sigh and already begin to hate yourself for giving up with that much ease. «And do you wanna talk here?»

«No, let’s go outside,» he suggests, then grabs your hand and leads you back to the wide parvis covered by the snow, without even waiting for an answer.

This time, the white landscape isn’t able to calm your heartbeat down, and you feel a grasp on your stomach at the thought of what he might tell you. «Couldn’t you wait for the service to be over?» you ask sarcastically, trying to hide the growing anxiety.

«No, I couldn't. I actually wanted to talk to you while we were coming here, but… I found the courage just now. So either I say this now or never.» You wonder what’s this important thing he has to tell you and why he needs so much courage. «I made an awful mistake,» he starts, looking down at his hands. «I…»

That morning, he had thought of a hundred different ways to explain everything. He had even faked a conversation in front of the mirror, trying to choose the right words to say. Right now, however, his mind can’t think of any of that and goes blank, and the only thing he manages to let out from the confusion in his mind is: «I love you.»

You feel the ground crumbling down under your feet.

«You… what?» you whisper-ask, out of breath.

At the very first moment, he seems to regret saying those words without a proper warning, but then decides it’s too late now to go back and chooses to follow his friends' advice: tell her the truth. So he starts talking like he’d never done before, and the more he speaks, the more you feel your head spinning.

He explains why he’d broken up with you. «I was an idiot. I didn’t know what I was doing. I was confused and let my friends influence me.»

He confesses everything he’d felt after the break-up. «At first, I thought I could live a fun college experience. But after a very few weeks, I realized nothing would be fun without you. I spent every single day regretting my decision, living with the pain caused by your absence. I knew very well it was all my fault, that’s why I couldn’t stop blaming myself. Seeing you at our family gatherings, then, with Jaemin never leaving your side, didn’t help either.»

Lastly, he tells you about his current feelings. «And even now, after almost a year and a half, I can’t stop thinking about you. I can’t stop… I can’t stop being in love with you.»

You don’t know what to say. You don’t even know what to feel. Your whole body is a mess of different emotions: from surprise to relief to anger. Of course, you also feel happy because you love him too, but you can’t help feeling upset. He broke your heart, and as much as you love him, you can’t just let this go as if nothing ever happened. «Why didn’t you tell me all of this as soon as you realized it? Why did you wait so much?» you ask him, crossing your arms on your chest to protect your heart from running away.

«I… thought it was already too late. I hurt you, and I thought you hated me and couldn’t forgive me. And I understand if you still do, I mean… I told you horrible things that day.»

He looks like a lost puppy, and part of you wants to hug him and kiss him until you’re both out of breath. But the other part of you, the rational one, knows it’s not fair for you to forgive him so easily. You’re still hurt, after all, and it makes you furious that he’s waited for so long to tell you, making you live several months in pain and loneliness. «Then why now? Why did you think this was the right time to tell me?»

«Well, because we will get married soon. If we hadn’t seen each other ever again, I would have never told you all of this. I truly think you deserve the best, someone who would never hurt you as I did. I would have never dared interfere in your life, ruining your happiness again.» He sighs deeply, avoiding your eyes at all costs. «But we’re getting married instead. You’re going to be my wife, so I thought… I thought you needed to know the truth. You need to know you’ll marry someone who still loves you with his whole heart. And I know that the night of the engagement announcement, I told you we should do it for our parents, but the real reason why I insisted was that I was being selfish. I was being fucking selfish, and I felt relieved to know that you were the girl I’d marry.» He takes another deep breath and then finally looks at you, noticing that your eyes are red and wet.

«Do you have any idea of how much you hurt me?» you say with a broken voice. «Do you have any idea of how much pain you made me go through?»

«I do. And I understand if you don’t even want to see me now. I just… I needed to get this off my chest. It’s okay if you don’t wanna forgive me or if you decide to spend the rest of your life hating me. I just needed to let you know the truth.»

«I don’t hate you,» you whisper. Dozens of shivers make your legs shake, and you don’t know if it’s because of the cold or because of him. Probably both.

«You don’t?» Mark sounds incredulous, and you shake your head.

«I could never hate you. But I’m mad at you. I spent the past year trying to get over you, to forget you, waiting for all the pain in my chest to disappear, hoping to stop crying every time I thought about you. I put a lot of effort into it, and now you come back, saying that you still love me and expect me to act as if nothing happened?»

«I don’t! I just… do you… if you don’t hate me… what do you think? What do you… feel?» he stutters. «I mean, I already know you don’t wanna get married, but you… me…»

«I already told you. I’m mad at you.»

«Just… mad?»

«Well, what else? I’m mad! You hurt me, then you came back and… I can’t just forgive and forget!»

«But do you think you’ll forgive me, sooner or later?» he asks, with hope in both his eyes and his voice.

Of course, you already know the answer to his question. Your heart still belongs to him, and after his confession, how could you not forgive him? Just… not now. «I don’t know. Like you said: we’re gonna get married, and I can’t sulk forever.»

«But you… do you…» He looks at you straight in the eyes. You didn’t have the reaction he’d expected. You didn’t yell at him and even told him you didn’t hate him. But above all, you didn’t reject him nor push him away. That’s why he needs to know one last thing. «Do you still have feelings for me?»

You didn’t expect that question. At all. And even though you don’t say a word and choose to look away, there’s something that speaks for you. Your irregular breath, perhaps, or the pout on your face. Whatever it is, Mark is quick to notice it and understands everything. Although your conversation gets interrupted by some guests leaving the church to wait outside, he doesn’t insist on keeping talking. He doesn’t need an answer anymore.

The wedding was fun. You and Mark didn’t talk much, but you got to know some of his friends, and that distracted you for a while. You met the ‘Power Couple’ -Johnny and his wife- and Yuta and his fiancée. You must admit you had fun eating delicious food, dancing and having interesting conversations with equally interesting people. You wished the evening would never be over, both because everyone and everything was lovely and because you didn’t want to be left alone with Mark in a hotel room.

But time eventually passed, and now here you are, at 3 am, fresh and clean from the shower, hesitant in front of the mirror of the bathroom, considering the idea of sleeping there.

After some more minutes of intense thinking, you finally decide to go back to the room, where you find a half-naked Mark lying on the double bed. « I already had to accept the fact that we have to share the same bed,» you say, trying not to look at his perfect, attractive body. «I don’t wanna see you naked, too.»

«But you already have,» he replies with an innocent look, then chuckles a little, seeing your pout. «I’m kidding. I’m gonna get changed now, maybe.»

You let out a deep, exasperated sigh and sit on the bed, right next to him, looking at your phone screen without actually doing anything. While a weirdly comfortable silence fills the room, your body begins to slowly slide down until you’ve entirely lain down on the mattress.

«Did you have fun today?» Mark asks, breaking the silence, and when you look at him, you notice he’s still half-naked.

«I did. Your friends are so nice! How come didn’t you introduce them to me when we… well, when we were together?»

«Because they both live in Japan, and I remind you the only time I asked you to go there with me, you spent a whole hour explaining why you don’t trust planes.»

You chuckle. «You know I’m afraid of flying.»

«I do.»

You exchange another look, and you suddenly feel light. Your head, your heart, your body… they’re all light. You missed Mark so much you had almost forgotten how good he made you feel.

«I should kill you,» you suddenly say.

«Oh, thanks! Now that I know it, I won’t be able to sleep a wink tonight!»

«No, but seriously, I’m livid.»

«Because of me?»

«Yes. You make me so furious.»

«You don’t sound furious.»

«But I am. So so much.»

«I can’t blame you, tho. I’ve been an asshole,» he says after some minutes of silence.

«Indeed.» You look at him for the umpteenth time, and his relaxed yet slightly ashamed expression gives you the courage to keep talking. «Do you really need an answer?» you ask.

«To what question?»

«To that question. The one you asked me earlier, outside the church.»

«Oh, that one.» He smirks. «Only if you want to answer it.»

«I’m not ready to completely forgive you yet.»

«I know, and you don’t have to. I’d wait a lifetime for you.»

«I’m scared.»

«Of what?»

«Of getting my heart broken again,» you admit.

He turns his whole body to you, cupping your cheek with his hand and turning your face so that you can look at him. «I understand. I understand everything. We both got hurt by my stupid actions, but it won’t happen again. Just tell me what you want me to do, ask me anything… I’ll do whatever it takes to earn your trust again. I promise.»

It all feels so unreal to you like you’re dreaming again. Feeling him so close to you… you thought it’d never happen. You need to know it’s all real, to feel him closer, but you’re unable to move under his touch.

«I’ll give you all the time you need, even after we get married. I don’t wanna lose you again, baby, I don’t.» Hearing him calling you that again, and this time not by accident, made your heart leap out of your chest, and you’re not sure you can think clearly anymore.

You'd missed him too much.

Neither of you utters a word, lost in each other’s gaze, but you can feel his hand moving down your body, caressing your neck, then your arm, and then your hips. Your faces are dangerously close, and you know there’s only one way the night will end. You try to fight the impulse to give in, thinking you should make him wait much more, but it’s all useless: you want him, and he wants you.

«Mark,» you whisper, letting your bodies touch. «I’ll make you go through hell.»

This said you glue your lips to his, and he kisses you back with the same passion like he wanted to make up for all the months you didn’t spend together. He then pushes your body so that your back hits the mattress, and gets on top of you, never stopping kissing you and with his hands all over your skin.

«I missed you,» he whispers between the kisses. «And I love you.»

You hate the way your body reacts to his touch. You wish you could be more rational, but you’re letting your feelings prevail. And the way you reply to him is as natural as ever. «I love you too.»

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[tastyykpop]

nct dream and wayv dating head cannon! saw u did one for 127 i wanna see what the other members would b like 🙇🏻‍♂️

Here's the wayv headcannon😌

And dreams under the cut :D

Renjun

aight so renjun isnt even a different person with you

so how he is with the members is basically how he is with you

other than the occasional ‘i love yous’

which he legit cannot say around the members unless he wants to be clowned

"Thats disgusting. Get a room."

"All I said was I love you to her??"

"Exactly."

Says it very randomly too

You'll be ready to take a shower and before you close the door hes like 'i love you' then walks away

anything you guys do, renjuns gotta be a smartass about it too

“you’re performing beyond live today?”

“no im just getting dressed and getting my makeup done to go to the bathroom.”

youve slapped him once (like in a friendly ish way😌)

but who hasnt

renjun takes you on almost every dream trip even if you didnt know the members well

Its a whole mess

Either you and renjun are chilling in the car, head on top of one's shoulder

Or you're trying to annoy each other and see who could break first while chenle cheers you on

In all seriousness tho renjuns always looking after you

Unless you trip or something then he's gonna step to the side and watch you fall while laughing

Jk jk but hes literally the kindest

Feeds you even if your full

Gets you clothes randomly

Makes sure your okay

If you aren't, he'll stop whatever he's doing to make sure you're at your best

Even if it takes a long time

Cuz ✨patience✨ is key

Jeno

ahhhh omg the SWEETEST MF

if you think anyone else would be youre wrong

No I don't take criticism

But shhehshjejs

Literally would walk to the end of the world for you

Mans is crazy in love😩

Cannot take his hands off of you

Has to kiss you at least 347 times a day or its not love🙄🚫

Yes he counts who do you think he is

Aight fr tho hes like a mom

Lowkey a mini doyoung minus the nagging 😌

Is he funny in a relationship?

No </3

Im kidding hes your normal everyday jeno

He can crack jokes and its pretty funny but you try not to laugh

Will actually wrestle you if you let out a dry 'haha'

Fr tho

Hes even whipped a pillow at your face for that

And everyone watched like 👁👁🍵

Omg prepare for the eye smiles

Especially if its something cute cuz he just goes (◜◡◝)

Even does it when you're frustrated

Highkey has to stop himself if you guys are in public

But fails miserably

Jaemin

This man right here officer

mf makes you feel so freaking special and sexy everyday

Cuz you are shut up

Any chance he gets (which is every other second) he'll always bring up how pretty you are

Then continues flirting like yall aren't dating

"Youre so pretty, I just wanna take you out and show you off to everyone."

You: ✨blushes✨

Its just me falling in love with a man bye

Random kisses throughout the day

Plus back hugs and neck kisses 😤

Hes a sucker for just being able to hold you

Will not let go if you have to leave for work

Always makes dumb excuses for you to stay

"I called and told your boss that our dog was sick and we have to take him to the vet"

"We don't have a dog..."

"Your boss doesn't know that"

The amount of times he's gotten you out of work is insane

But can you blame him?

You would do the same if you could cuz ffs is na jaemin

On his day off he loves spending the day cuddling and watching shows

Or go cafe hopping cuz he hasn't gotten his 5 shots of espresso that day☕

"Wanna try my coffee?"

"Does it look like I have a death wish?"

Chenle

To sum this relationship up

Its basically you both laughing at the members or making stupid jokes

The majority of your relationship is you and chenle with jisung because bff tings💅

No like jisungs basically your child now

Back off jaemin

Aight frfr chenles a pretty chill bf

Hahaha sike

Nah its always loud

Theres never quiet convos with he two of you

And if there is, something up🤚

You guys are like best friends tho

But too close to be best friends

Its still pretty awkward

So there's barely any kisses or hugs

Rip

Whenever he actually kisses you he just kinda steps back and blanks out

And you're like 😳

He makes up for it tho

Whenever he has the chance he'll take you out to a restaurant

Or for a walk

Omg bro 🤭

If you go for walks hes always trying to hold your hand

Does he succeed?

Only if you grab it yourself cuz he's too shy

It will probably take him a few more months before he's less shy with pda

Then he's gonna be on top of you 😀

Jisung

Oh man

Hes so shy❗❗

Mostly because this is probably his first real relationship so hes just first experiencing this stuff

If you're not very experienced with relationships either ooooo lordddd its gonna be that awkward kind of love

The members literally have to make you guys hug

Like its painful to watch you both just stand there like🧍‍♂️

But like????

Yall are so cute??

And for what 😳

Jisungs very gentle tho

Basically whenever he touches you its very soft, feathery touches

Its quick for jisung to overcome his shyness with you

So once hes done being a baby🥺

he actually will give you plenty of kisses

Holds your hand almost everyday

Def compliments your hands because they're so small compared to his

Likes looking at the size difference

Absolutely adores when hes laying on your lap and you start playing with his hair

Starts whining if you stop and will grab your hand and force it back onto his head

"Imma go get a drink."

"No you're gonna stay here and play with my hand whether you like it or not😐"

There's plenty of times where he subtly shows you off to the members because he's that in love

"Y/n is sooo cool. She let's me have coke after 11pm."

Jeno just blinks at him then walks away

[mojwisungie]

hc | meeting his members (ft. shy/innocent! reader)

req (from: anon) ➥ : could i request a shy/innocent! reader x donghyuk where she meets the 127 or dream boys and they’re shocked bc of how pure she is, especially compared to him?

☄︎ summary: just nct being that one pikachu meme upon meeting haechan’s s/o, you, and thinking: how in the world do you manage to be the complete opposite of him? ☄︎ pairing: lee haechan x reader ☄︎ lou.note: couldn’t decide between 127 or the dreamies bc tbh i think theyre all going to want to meet his allegedly innocent gf and plot to make her somehow tell him to take his ideas and doings down a notch lol I HOPE YOU ENJOY ANONIE ILY thank you for requesting 💙

ever since, you were always oblivious

naive to many stuff that exists

and its not that you dont want to grow

its just that you just dont know about a lot of things

and haechan definitely turned your world upside down

he was actually an enemy of yours

boy didnt let you breathe 25/8

but that’s actually one of what he like about you

actually,, LOVES

so he really taught you everything he thinks you need to know

EVEN SO you’re still an innocent babie

his innocent babie

he actually believes that you’re the cutest and purest in the world and HE is your s/o

lee haechan: feeling blessed wbu?

hyuck first brought you to a lunch with the 127 members

thought it would just be alright if you meet them

theyre his hyungs after all

as conversations flow

they are really ........ taken a back

at one point, johnny says, “i bet you take a lot of aspirin from being with him, huh y/n?”

and you immediately reply with

“i dont... actually? i dont get sick often since haechan reminds me of everything i need to do to take care of myself heh :)”

mark CHUCKLES at how pure your answer is

jungwoo joins him at that

the rest of just gushes

haechan beside you is all:  (o˘◡˘o)

yeah that’s right yall wont hear anything bad from his s/o

his hyungs notice the way you tug shyly at his sleeve and ask him quietly as jokes are thrown

after that, they see hyuck’s smile as he whispers to you what they meant too

and that’s just how they know even though you’re not like him

you are what he needs in his life

they also expose him for being a little devil in the dorms which ended up in you telling him he shouldnt treat his hyungs like that but moving on,,

overall,,, they like you

then soon lunch ended and they all insist to drive you home

the moment the car door closes and you enter your apartment building

127: HAECHAN? THATS YOUR S/O? HOW?

✨ next up is meeting the dreamies! ✨

theyve been politely asking him to let them meet you but he always say “what’s the rush? you’ll meet my S/O soon 😌”

and thats just bc hes so smug about having an s/o while they dont

eventually he agrees since he missed being with them as well

dream boys got a heads up from their hyungs about what youre like, actually

but they didnt expect you to be more innocent than what they thought

haechan set you two up for a dinner with them

and it went from talking about who you are, where youre from, where you met, etc., to how you deal with someone like him on a daily basis

wanting to shift the topic, you managed to get them talk about their experiences with each other

and the way your face went confused at a lot of them

they knew you’re his total opposite

you often only smiled 

your meeting with them isnt like the one with his hyungs

this one was short, but all of them didnt question how you two ended up together- not one bit

all of them had this telepathic understanding that

you are his match, his soulmate

since they got a tip from the older ones, they also tell you about haechan’s pranks

and this ended up with you telling him he should be nicer to his members

dreamies told the 127 members and treated this as their first collective win against him and his antics 😜

[daeguzen]

NCT 127 + Dream - Being the Maknae in NCT and Ignoring Them because of Sasaengs

NCT 127 / NCT Dream x Reader

Genre: Angst Fluff

Word Count: 2.5k

Summary: You’re the female maknae and you start ignoring them because you’re afraid of sasaeng threats.

Requested by Anon

- NCT 127 -

Taeyong

Taeyong would be the type of person to get really soft and upset. Like, you two got along so well. Even though you were the youngest, you were good at taking charge. You even matched Haechan’s witty personality. It was natural for you to take up most of the responsibilities of cooking and cleaning although the boys always pitched in. They liked to take care of you too and Taeyong was always cuddling up on your side asking to play Animal Crossing. It’s been about a week and Taeyong had noticed how painfully obviously you had been avoiding him. He felt hurt so he came to your room, knocked, and when you gave him permission he walked in. He asked you if you were avoiding him and at first you denied it. But after the constant whining you gave in and told him that you were afraid about how the sasaengs would try to attack you for being so close to him. Taeyong would be upset but he’d comfort you and tell you not to listen to them because he’d protect you.

Doyoung

Doyoung wasn’t one to shy away. If he saw something wrong with his relationship with you he’d talk about it. It wasn’t a surprise when Doyoung knocked on your door a bit harshly and walked in asking why the hell you were avoiding him. You’d look at him startled and he’d soften his voice. Why are you avoiding me? Did I say or do something wrong to upset you? Of course you’d tell him it wasn’t his fault. It was the sasaengs that threatened you. You were afraid they’d hurt you because, well you were so close to Doyoung. You really appreciated his company. Whenever he was attacked by Haechan you’d stand up for him. If you were to have a deep conversation and Johnny would drop by the three of you could go for hours. Doyoung would assure you not to worry. He would protect you just as the other boys would and that you shouldn’t ignore him anymore over some rude sasaengs. They didn’t know him and had nothing to do with your friendship. 

Johnny

Johnny was always a happy guy. He liked joking around. He’d pick you up all the time because you were just so tiny compared to him. You were like a plushie and Johnny was like...you’re go to teddy bear. Literally. Johnny could just be sitting on the couch joking around with the guys and you’d come by to ask if you could cuddle. Johnny knew there was something wrong because it’s been a week and you haven’t asked to cuddle or watch a movie. Not even to have a Harry Potter marathon. Like. . . what the heck? You love the movies, why do you no wanna watch??? One day you’re just sitting on the couch watching a movie and Johnny comes by to sit next to you. Before you could leave Johnny holds you and cuddles you. Why are you avoiding me? Johnny. Tell me. You’d hesitate for a second but eventually reply. Cuz of the sasaengs. Because of that? Don’t worry about them. If they try anything it’s okay I have a team of 22 other guys to take care of it. You’d just laugh and he’d smile at seeing you get comfortable around him.

Yuta

Yuta was like Doyoung. Man lives for confrontation. Brave boy. The moment he sees you shy away from his hugs and jokes he’ll be like. . . tf. Why are you ignoring me? And you’d be like Yuta don’t worry about it. But he be like no no what the heck is going? So you explain the situation and feel kinda dumb about it afterwards when he gives you the biggest wtf kind of look. But he’ll see the tears welling your eyes and bring his hands up to your face to wipe them away. Honey, you don’t have to worry about that. We’ll take care of you. Just stay close to me and if they say or do anything they’ll have it coming. Don’t ever ignore me because of them. You would nod and melt into his hug.

Taeil

Taeil is a mellow person but he’s very funny. His personality was just extremely nice to be around so you always tried to find his company. Mans would be chilling to some music and you’d come by to listen with him. You guys go from chilling to jumping on the sofa and throwing pillows. However, it’s been quite awhile since you two had a jam session and Taeil was wondering why. Taeil doesn’t come to you to ask what’s wrong. It’s actually you who goes up to him and explains the situation. You felt so sad and guilty so Taeil comforts you telling you not to worry. You guys were going to be okay. He’d ask if you wanna just listen to some music and would order some comfort food for you. You guys would spend the rest of the time chilling and talking and you’d feel the weight of your burdens lighten up a lot.

Jaehyun

Jaehyun is weird. He’s like the cool chill guy but he’s dorky and weird. You love it. You’re always laughing at his jokes no matter how weird or random they are. You guys have long conversations on what parenthood would be like and the responsibilities of little mini Jaehyuns. He doesn’t talk about mini you’s, you’re still a baby. He’s a sweet guy and likes to sing either for you or with you. So when you start telling him that you don’t want him to sing and that you just want to go to sleep he knows something is off. You would never be like that with him no matter how off your day was. He would be serious but concerned. When you’d tell him the situation, Jaehyun would have a serious talk and reassure you that he will protect you. You were the maknae, how could 127 not protect their little maknae? 

Jungwoo

People think Jungwoo is soft. They aren’t wrong. Jungwoo is witty and sassy. When he’s with you he’s just a little ball of fluff. You two are like the cutest pair of 127. You guys would watch Snoopy videos and make a bunch of jokes and it was just aegyo cringe inducing moments. So when you started hanging out less and less with him he’d confront you with a really sad look in his eyes. You’d coo at him and call him by his nickname, Snoopy. You’d feel bad so you’d talk it out with him and he’d try to bring your mood up. You’re his favorite person and no one will ruin his friendship with you. That’s just illegal in Jungwoo’s world.

Haechan 

Haechan would be whiny. He wouldn’t stop bugging or trying to get to talk to you. One day he comes by as you’re playing on your phone and he hugs you. You’re surprised because you know Haechan is affectionate but he’s never this quiet or intimate. You hear sadness in his voice as he tries to talk to you. He asks why you have been ignoring him and you’re silent for a little while when you decide to talk to him. It might sound stupid but the sasaengs have been threatning me because of our friendship and it really scares me. You’d start crying and Haechan’s heart would break. Y/N, they won’t do anything to you. I’ll sue them and fight them if they even think of touching one little hair on my baby’s head. You’re going to be okay because I’m here to protect you just as the rest of 127 will. Never ignore me for that reason. You would nod through your crying and he’d hold you close.

Mark

Mark would be confused. He’d joke around with you a lot and talk about music and a bunch of other stuff. But even under that quirky and dorky boy he was a serious and gentle soul. So he comes by and he starts talking to you quite gently and you wanna tear up because you know that this was your doing. If Mark Lee can avoid an extremely emotional moment he’ll do it. Not in a rude way but he was just a bit awkward when it came to feelings. But you see him looking at you sadly and fidgeting in his seat so you come up and hug him. You let everything spill out and apologize for ignoring him but he tells you not to feel that way. You're his best friend, the maknae of the group, he’ll do everything in his power to watch over you. I can’t believe you actually came to me with this. I thought you were going to cry, Mark. He’d whine because he was shy and embarrassed but you laughed through your tears and asked yourself how you ever got lucky with having him as a friend.

- NCT Dream -

Renjun

Boy was ready to square up with his cute little fists. And if a fist fight wouldn’t work he’d get a car to hunt down those sasaengs. It would be easy to tell how you avoided him and it got to the point where he got irritated and called you out on it. He’d regret his harsh tone as he’d see how sad and guilty you looked. He’d hear you sniffling and apologize, explaining to you why he was upset. You’d shake your head saying that he shouldn’t apologize. It was your fault because the sasaengs were scaring and threatening you because of your friendship with him. Y/N no, they won’t do anything to you I promise. If you ever have a problem like this don’t avoid me. Talk to me, that's why  we’re friends. 

Jeno

Jeno would be very sentimental. Like yeah he can look stoic but this is the boy who adopted 3 cats because he loves them even though he’s allergic. The boy who likes to hold hands, yeah go watch those vlives. He’s just so sweet and adorable. He would be confused as to why you were avoiding him and would come to the conclusion that he did something wrong. He would decide to face you about it but immediately break down in tears asking you why you were ignoring him. Your heart would break apart at the sight of a crying Jeno like no, it’s not your fault honey don’t cry. You guys would just end up crying together and you’d tell him your fears. He’d cuddle the life out of you and tell you to never do something like that again. He’s had enough of crying over Mark coming back to Dream he can’t take another emotional break down. 

Jaemin

...NA JAEMIN PEOPLE. Na to the flippin Jaemin. He’s introverted around big crowds. It just takes too much of his energy to be that hyper. But when it’s with his Dream members he will be the most boisterous cutie in the galaxy. Have you noticed I’m Jaemin biased yet? (their all bias wreckers tho) ANYWAY, so you two are the biggest duo of all Dream. You play games, having the inhumanely longest cuddle sessions possible, actually like doing aegyo, cook like the good parents you are, and just are the dictionary definition of best friends. Like nojaem. The first time you reject Jaemin’s idea of watching a movie he assumes you’re tired. The second makes him feel a little iffy. The third time is just too much already for him. He sees you scrolling aimlessly on your phone while lying on the edge of the bed and sits right in front of you. He’d poke your cheek and ask why THE HELL ARE YOU IGNORING ME? Jk he’d be soft and gentle about it. And when you finally open up to him about it he’d caress your head and tell you that you shouldn’t worry, Nana would take care of his little maknae. 

Chenle

The next biggest sassiest boy of all Dream. He’s probably almost as dangerous as Haechan. Said that one time in weekly idol how jeno was jealous because of jaemin. 0_0 like wow he really enjoys exposing and teasing the members. He is such a gamer boy. They're all gamers actually...and so are YOU. You game like there is no tomorrow. And you can bet your life savings that you're the top ranking gamer. League? You carry them all lol what losers. Jkjk. Playing games with Chenle is such a frequent thing that happens that it’s practically part of your routine. When Chenle realizes you haven’t been playing with and instead with the other members he gets upset and frustrated. He catches you playing on your phone in the living room and immediately makes his way to sit down next to you. He can see you’re uncomfortable and starts asking questions. You tell him it's nothing but then he takes away your phone and looks at you with that pouty look. You finally give in and tell him what’s been going on and he takes it all in. Y/N, you’re my best friend, don’t hide these types of things. You should have told me sooner, I am President Chenle after all I practically own all of South Korea. Lele stop being such a dork. 

Jisung

Jisung would be such a confused soul and you’d see that. It would hurt seeing him look like a lost puppy after rejecting his offer of playing a game together. And then you said you didn’t want to watch a movie and you saw how his lips made a silent “oh” and you just wanted to cry. The last straw was when you overheard Jisung crying softly and telling Jaemin that he thinks he did something wrong. You stood outside the door until Jaemin came out. Jaemin saw your puffy eyes and how your lips trembled. He didn’t look angry but concerned instead and suggested that you’d go and talk to Jisung. And you did. You walked into the room and saw how Jisung had wrapped himself in a blanket. You walked over to him and nudged him gently on the shoulder. When he saw you he covered his face with the blanket and started crying even more. After he calmed down you explained what was happening and he practically attacked you with a hug. You should have said something I thought I had hurt you or you were mad at me. I’m sorry Sungie, I didn’t mean to hurt you like that. Jisung would put out his pinkie, something you two did often, and made you promise to always talk to him if there’s something going and you promised you would because he was your best friend.

[henderistic]

NCT 127 - Their S/O Calls Him ‘Bro’

anonymous request: Nct 127 reaction to gf calling him bro 🤓

genres: crack, that’s it

a/n: nothing can compare with pure level of fuckery that nct dream as dteam post is but this sure is up there

warnings: i refuse to proofread this, it doesn’t deserve it

»»————- ♡ ————-««

Taeil: smiles awkwardly. doesn’t hate the name but isn’t overly fond of it either. probably hopes you’ll drop it in a few days. you don’t.

“bro, i made us dinner,” you call out to him, only getting a sigh in response.

Johnny: you’re telling me you’re dating him and don’t regularly use bro? yeah sure whatever i totally believe you. you would end up having “bro wars” to see who could hold the ‘o’ for the longest.

“broooooooooo, did you just bro me?” he asked, trying really hard to bite back a smile. “broooooooooooooo, only because you bro-ed me,” you replied.

Taeyong: pout-central. wants you to see him as your boyfriend, not a bro. you’ll have to reassure him that you can be both bro and boyfriend at the same the time. he ends up liking it and starts to use it on you too.

“bro!! come watch this video with me!” he yelled to you.

Yuta: secretly likes the nickname. will only want you to use it in private though since he doesn’t want the boys to hear you say it to him due to some weird pride reason.

“bro, come cuddle with me,” you whined. yuta came running towards you and jumped onto the bed, nearly knocking you off.

Doyoung: “no.” he flat out just says no. you’re his s/o and he doesn’t want to be bro-ed by you. makes you repeat the sentence without the bro to get a response from him.

Jaehyun: taken aback. it’s not like he doesn’t like the name, it’s just not something he’s used to his s/o calling him. used it with his friends so he doesn’t see why he shouldn’t use it with you.

“bro, seriously?” he teased, “can’t believe you’re calling me bro now.”

Winwin: as soon as you use it on him he starts using it on everybody when speaking english. even the animals. thinks it’s funny and sometimes he’ll be speaking mandarin and accidentally throw it in.

“bro 谢谢*，” he said to you after you handed him his drink.

*xiè xiè, mandarin for thank you

Jungwoo: “but i’m not your brother~” he jokes. likes it when you use it since to him it’s a sign of how close you too are. eventually picks up on it and starts calling you bro too.

“bro,” he nodded, acknowledging your presence without looking up from his phone. “bro,” you replied.

Mark: you’re telling me you’re dating him and don’t regularly use bro? pt 2. you practically use it to call each other instead of your names at this point.

“bro!” you greeted him. “dude!” he replied right back

Haechan: acts like he’s been shot even though he regularly calls you it himself. ends up jokingly giving you the cold shoulder for a maximum of five minutes before his attention is entirely back on you.

“you shot me through the heart y/n! through the heart!” he says before proceeding to fall off his chair dramatically.

[eeunoia]

An Idol’s Girl | l.ty

Okay, first of all, thank you to those who liked the part one. Here’s the part two hehe! Enjoy!!!

Summary: Y/N’s and Taeyong’s relationship is on a rocky road.

Part 2

Y/N

Saturdays should be relaxing for me. It used to be my favorite day of the week since that is the day that we won't have training. But today wasn't just happy for me.Things between me and Taeyong are slowly breaking. It wasn't really great specially that one of his members told me that he maybe cheating behind my back

It was already late at night but my annoying ass craved for food so I have to get out of the dorm and buy some snacks. Since I don't have anything else to do, I gave in from my cravings and decided to go.

After successfully buying all the snacks that will satisfy my cravings, I started walking back to our dorm. I was about to turn at the corner to our street when something caught my attention. It was a familiar built of a person. I tilted my head trying to shaken up my thoughts. That won't be true! He can't be outside at this hour since he have schedule tomorrow.

"That can't be Taeyong. I heard from their manager that they have a schedule tomorrow morning." I muttered convincing myself and was already ready to push forward when I heard the person talk.

He's actually not alone. I can see another figure with him and I can pinpoint that its a girl because of its long hair and mini-skirt. They were at the other corner. That street were usually quiet but it wasn't a scary one. It's just, people living around that area usually sleeps earlier than other people.

"Yah! You're so unfair, baby." He sounded so like Taeyong.

I'm slightly far away from them. A safe distance enough for me to see and heard both of them without getting myself caught. I crouched myself hiding behind some post and stared at the two figures.

I grabbed my phone then dialed Taeyong's number. I took a sneak over the guy and saw how he pulled his phone from the pocket of his jacket.

Wtf? So it is Taeyong? But I was even more shock when he answered my call!

"What?"

Wow! And he even sounded pissed at me for calling! Shouldn't I be the one to be pissed? I sighed heavily and quickly composed myself. I need to act normal or he'll think weirdly at me.

"W-where are you?"

"I'm at the dorm. I need to sleep now since I'll be early tomorrow."

Great. What a great liar. I gulped trying to lose the lump slowly building up inside my throat. I even tried hard to stop tears running down from my eyes. Why am I crying? I already expected this! Why does it still hurt as hell?

I turn my heels at the direction of our dorm but I stopped my tracks. I decided do one thing I think I should have done before.

I marched myself towards the two of them and now it was clear to me. I saw him holding one of the hands of the girl in front of him. She was familiar since she's a new trainee in our company. Probably why she's together with Taeyong now.

I pushed the girl hard that shook both of them. They looked towards my direction and I saw how Taeyong's reaction changed. He looked stunned seeing me right in front of him and the girl looked annoyed that I pushed her.

"How dare you cheat over me when all I do is to be loyal to you? How can you do this to me Taeyong? What did I ever do to you? What did I do to deserve this?" It was too late to stop the tears. It was way too painful to prevent them so I let them all out. I let my emotions take over me. 

The girl looked like as if it was her first time to be betrayed.

"Is that true?" she sounded hurt as well but I'm sure that's nothing compare to what I'm feeling right now. Taeyong just looked at her not saying even a single word.

I didn't flinched when the girl slapped Taeyong.

"I hate you! Cheater!" she didn't waste a time to leave.

Soon Taeyong's glaring eyes were on me. How can he be mad at me when he's the one caught cheating? He's really unbelievable.

"Happy now?" he asked, voice full of sarcasm. I shook my head.

"Not yet." his brows furrowed at what I said and there I slapped his face without a warning.I heard his soft grunt from pain but I don't mind. I think he deserves it.

"This will be the last time I'll let you hurt me. Let's break up, Taeyong." 

And after that, I left. My heart was broken but at least I think I saved myself from a toxic relationship.

After 2 weeks

"Hi Y/n!" I saw one of the staffs greeted me so I waved at her.

I'm so excited for us to debut. We really prepared for it and the management said that we'll shoot our music video next week. That made us really really excited and everything felt real now.

"Hey, Y/n! What time will you go home?" I turned my head at her then chugged to my water bottle before answering.We have finished practicing our choreo and dismissed early since they said we did great for today.

"Maybe later. You can go ahead first, unnie." I said to Jiguem unnie. She nodded her head and heads out.

I've been dreaming for our debut so I really want everything to be perfect. I decided to stay for a little more so I can practice. Being a trainee for only a short period of time surely burdens me since other people may think I don’t deserve to debut right away if I don’t achieve their standards. 

After tiring myself down, I started fixing my things so I can leave already. I was finishing tidying up when I heard the practice room's door opened.

I looked over and didn't expect to see all the members of NCT 127 were here except from Taeyong. Why are they here?

"Y/n..." Yuta oppa called me. I smiled at them.

They walked inside and Haechan quickly walked his way to me. I pursed my lips and smiled again when he soon hugged me. Aww this clingy baby. I hugged him back as he snuggled closer.

"What are you doing here oppa?" I asked curious why they're here.They have their schedules thats why I was wondering what they're doing right here.

"It's because we missed you, Y/n. Why aren't you visiting us in our practice room? In our showcases? Our shows? Our dorm?" Doyoung oppa fired questions at me and I was slightly taken a back. They still don't know?

"Doyoung hyung's right noona! We miss you cooking for us!" Haechan complained still giving me a hug.

I tried smiling at them. Alright, I think Taeyong's having a hard time admitting to his members that we broke up since I was close to them. He doesn't want to upset them I guess. I should just wait for him to tell himself. For now, I'll pretend.

"Mianhe~ I was just busy these past few weeks so I c-couldn't visit." I said almost choking up with my own voice. If theres anything I hate the most, it would be lying.

They sighed and I felt Jaehyun's stare at me. I'm close to him since he's the same age as me. He was the first one to know about how I feel about Taeyong. He also updates me about him before and we somehow grew bond from it.

"You lose a lot of weight, Y/n. I don't like it. Are they pressuring you for your debut?" Jaehyun asked softly. He's just beside me so he was staring at me. I felt a little uncomfortable so I just gave him a chuckle.

"Jaehyun's right, Y/n. You don't have to lose so much weight. You already look amazing for us." Johnny oppa.

Ah jinjja, this boys are sent from heaven. Ever since that I became close to them, they cared for me like their very own sister.

"You should eat more, noona. You'll be tired because of the debut. You should take care of your health even more." Mark then followed up with his worried looking face.I pouted almost tearing up. I'm so thankful for all of them.

"Make sure to eat at the right time, Y/n-ah." Taeil oppa

."They're right, noona!" Jungwoo. 

Oh this cutie!I chuckled, "Yeah I'll make sure to eat." I said trying to make them feel assured.

"You should." Jaehyun said again.

We all looked at the door again when we saw their manager. "There you are, we need to go." He said then gave me a smile.

They all nodded their head and told him they'll follow. He then left and the boys soon gave me hugs before leaving.

"We know theres something wrong with you and Taeyong because he's not himself lately as well." Johnny oppa said when it was just him and Jaehyun that are left. I laughed bitterly.

"You should go, oppa." I said convincing both of them. They nodded then Johnny oppa headed towards the door.

"What?" I asked Jaehyun when I caught him staring.

"You better take care of yourself, Y/n." he warned me. I chuckled then just gave him a nod before tilting my head to motion him to leave.

He rolled his eyes before messing my hair before finally leaving me alone.Wtf? Taeyong's not himself lately? Why? Is it because we broke up?

Ey~ Y/n, pabo-yah! Of course not! Its surely not because of me. Maybe because of the other girl? Hmmm, right. That's probably it.

Why is he still bothering me after the break up? Aish.I sighed heavily and just tried to shrug the thought off. I should get him out of my system.While I was heading towards the building's halls, somebody called my name.

"Y/n." My head snapped towards him when I heard his voice. I hated myself for reacting so fast.And my heart! Why is it beating so damn fast for a cheater like him?

Despite of the hatred, I kind of feel worried when I saw how stressed he looked like right now. I wanted to scream and nag at him to take good care of himself. But who am I? I should stay away from him and just mind my own business.But my heart slightly ache at how lifeless he looks like. It reminds of me weeks ago. That was how I look like during my miserable state.

"Why didn't you told your members that we already broke up?" I asked him straight-forward when I remembered about it.It still hurt me honestly but I should just get used to with the pain. Maybe that'll make me stronger.

"I d-don't know how to say it." He said in a low voice. I saw how he licked his lips then ran his hand over his hair.

Alright. I admit it.I still have this small hope that he'll tell me he still wants me. That he couldn't tell his members because he's regretting what he've done to me. That he wanted to fix us.

"Ahh." that was all that came out from my mouth. I was disappointed and I didn't even bother to hide it from him. So what if he saw that he still affects me? That he still hurt me? That's the truth!The moment I turned away from him, my tears fell like crazy. All the tears that I'm preventing to fall poured out the moment I turned my heels.I thought the moment I stayed away from him it will lessen the pain. I thought my feelings will slowly subdue because of the awful things he made me feel.

But I was wrong. It only made me miss him.

1 week later

It's been a week since the day I met Taeyong. I tried even hard to avoid him. I even avoid his members so it will be a little chance of meeting him. I felt bad since I'm also close to them already but it did help a little.

"Y/n!" I looked at one of my members when she called out my name. We're at the practice room.

"Hmm?" I asked.

"NCT's manager is looking for you." I felt nervous at what I heard.I went out without wasting a time and I did see Manager oppa outside. He looked serious but still he managed to give me a small smile.

"Oppa." I said as I greeting.

"Can we talk, Y/n?" he asked using a low yet calm voice.I was hesitating but nodded my head afterwards. We both went to the cafe just inside the company and settled ourselves in. He even ordered a drink for me so I thanked him.

"Okay, I want to be straight-forward." Manager oppa. I looked at him still feeling nervous

."I think you and Taeyong needs a break from each other, Y/n. The President and I noticed that he's not doing well lately and we're worried its because you're affecting him."

I wasn't expecting what he's saying right now. My tears unconsciously fell without me even realizing it. I saw him getting aware of it and looking worried for me.

"You've got to be kidding me, Manager oppa." I said sounding a little amused.

"No. I mean---" I cut what he's saying."We're already over, oppa. It's been almost a month since we broken up." I said coldly.

Taeyong still didn't told them about us? What is he thinking?

"W-What? Why didn't he told us? Why didn't y-you told us? Is that the reason why he's not okay right now?"

"I don't know oppa. But the last time we talked he told me that he doesn't know how to say it. I'm pretty sure he's perfectly fine when we broke up." I said then wiped off my tears. I stood up and bowed once again before walking off but stopped mid-way.

I sighed then look back."Please take good care of him, oppa."

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3rd Person's

Their manager still can't process what he figured out. Taeyong and Y/n have broken up and he's keeping it from them. He knew something was already wrong but he didn't knew that they broke up.

He sure find it odd that Y/n don't come and visit him oftenly like before. He thought she was just busy because of her upcoming debut.He sighed heavily and went back to where the NCT are.

"Taeyong..." All the boys were exhausted because of the hardcore dance choreo but they still manage to look over him.

"We need to talk." He said seriously and the members can't help but to look over their leader wondering what's going on.

Taeyong gave him a lazy nod before following him."I talked to Y/n." he started and just enough to caught his full attention.They boy were full of sweat and now looking nervous as he saw him bite his lip and ran his hand over his now covered with sweat hair.

"W-what did you say to her?"I told her to break up with you." Taeyong gulped at what he heard.He felt like as if all of his strength just flew away from his already weak body. He can't believe how he copes up even though he don't sleep that well. He's not getting any sleep this past weeks. Every since she left him, it wasn't the same anymore. Everything's a mess.

"And what did she told you?"

"She told me the truth, Taeyong. Why didn't you tell me? Why are you keeping it to yourself?" He was actually sad to found out the two ended up like this. He always thought they look perfect for each other.

He saw how they both loved each other. He didn't know they'll end up breaking up. He even supported them.

"I was just waiting for the right time to tell you." Taeyong said coldly. He doesn't want to talk about it anymore. It'll just worsen his feeling. It will just give him more sleepless nights.

"Right time? Taeyong, theres obviously something wrong with you! You look miserable! Y/n's doing fine! Why are you like this?"

Taeyong looked away.

"I regret hurting her, hyung. I was a jerk for cheating over her. I was an asshole because I took her for granted. I don't know what else to do. I just... want her back." he said using a low voice before walking away.

Their manager almost didn't recognize the Taeyong he talked to. It wasn't him at all. The Taeyong he knew is always determined over things and very lively.

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Y/N

I entered their dorm and I found them all gathered up in their living room. All of them looked so worried.

"Where is he?" I asked them. But even before they can give me an answer, I heard a loud crash from his room.I looked at his room. I walked towards it and I felt some of the members followed behind me.

"Taeyong! Open the door!" I shouted then knocked at his door.I got no response from him and my heart can't help but to thump even louder. I'm worried for him! I was just having a peaceful night at our dorm and they just called me out of nowhere because he locked himself inside and didn't come out all day.

"Do you guys have a spare key of his room?" I asked them. They all nodded.

"Why didn't you open it and just talk to him?"

"He won't listen to us, Y/n. W-We don't know what to do anymore." Taeil oppa said completely worried. I sighed then told them to get the key and hand it to me.

I opened his room's door and broken things were all over. Beers in cans are scattered over the concrete floor of his room. Even the broken bottle of some liquors.

I found Taeyong sitting on the side of his bed with his hands clenching his hair.I felt like my heart was broken once again at the sight of him. He don't look like Taeyong at all. What happened to him?I slowly went closer to him as I saw the members silently shutting the door to give us privacy. I crouched in front of him so we can be at the same level.

"Y/n?"  

He sounded so shock to see him in front of him. I tried my best to smile at him.

"Yes, its me." I said then slowly held his hands and take it off his hair.He did but I was shock when he embraced me tightly.

"I'm a jerk for hurting you, Y/n. I was a fool to think you cheated on me over Jaehyun! I confronted him when I couldn't take it anymore and he told me that you guys were just friends and it was just a misunderstanding." Taeyong said sobbing.

I was heartbroken at what I heard from him. He cheated on me because he thought I cheated on him with Jaehyun? That's why he became cold suddenly!

"Taeyong, you need to lay down at your bed." I said when I felt that he's slightly burning up. He have a fever.

"P-Please take me back. I was wrong. I'm sorry, Y/n. Please, I love you. I can't take it anymore. I'm in so much pain. Please save me." he said continuously that made me cry too.

"Shh, enough. Can you stand up?" I asked him softly.He didn't answer but I supported him and luckily he cooperated. I managed to make him sit over his bed.

I wiped away his tears and sweats as well. He's still staring at me and I really need to change his clothes because it's soaked. I don't want to get sick even more.I stood up to go and get some clothes but he took a grip at my wrist.

"Please don't leave me." I was taken a back at what he said. He sounded so scared.I smiled then dropped a kiss over his hot forehead, "I'll just get some clothes so you can change." I said.

He was hesitating to let go I but I managed to convince him. I made it quick. I just grabbed a t-shirt and a face towel. I damp it with warm water so I can clean him before I change his clothes.

When I went back over his bed, his eyes were following me.

"Clothes off." I said. He was a little weak so I assist him.I changed him into new clothes and even clean him. I made him lay down and he did obey. He probably feel really bad right now since he doesn't complain.

"You have to eat so you can take medicine." I said and was about to walk towards the door to tell the members but he grabbed my hands once again.He still looked weak but you can tell he doesn't want to let go of his grip of me.

"Where are you going? Please don't leave me." I felt bad hearing him beg. I smiled at him warmly.

"I'll just tell the members to cook for you. I'll be back, okay?" I said softly at him.I saw fear over his eyes.

"B-Be back." I smiled then nodded.

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T A E Y O N G

I was woken up by the beam of sun-lights that is touching my face. I quickly sat up at the fear that what happened yesterday was all a dream.

A towel fell from my forehead and I feel a lot better now. I think I have gain enough strength again.I'm not dreaming? She's really here? Y/n's here? She came back? I stood up even though I still feel a little bit dizy.

I roamed my eyes around my room and felt nervous when I saw that my room was clean. Theres also no sign of her.I went outside of my room and I saw them at our living room. They all looked over at me.

"Where's Y/n? Did she really came here last night? I w-wasn't dreaming right?"

"Chill hyung! Y/n noona's at the kitchen cooking for us." Mark answered with a smile over his lips.

I think I sighed heavily at what I heard. I walked towards the kitchen to check for her.My heart raced at the sight of her back. She's really here. I wasn't dreaming! I was just starring at her and since she's busy cooking she didn't noticed.I enjoyed looking at her. I missed her. I so fucking missed everything about her.

She turned around and her eyes grew big when she saw me standing at the entrance of the kitchen.

"Taeyong! Why did you left your bed? Are you feeling okay now?" she said sounded so worried and rushed herself towards me.She placed the back of her hand at my forehead to check if I still have a fever but I pulled her into a hug. I buried my face in her neck and I felt her stiffened.

"I'm sorry baby. Please take me back."I started and I felt her stood still because of what I said.

"I saw Jaehyun and you went out one time and me being the jealous boyfriend jumped into conclusions that you cheated behind my back."

"Why would you think I will cheat on you? Don't you trust me? And besides, Jaehyun's your friend! He won't do that to you!" she said.I pouted and inhaled her scent. I loved her scent and I missed it so much. I almost buy the perfume she's using so I can spray it all over my room to ease the longing feeling I've felt for her.

"I've always thought you liked him first before me. You two clicked the first time we met each other." I admit for the first time.

"That's because I'm nervous around you! I felt completely okay when I'm around your members but when it's you, I'm very conscious of myself. It's you who I liked first, Taeyong." she said. I pulled of the hug and looked at her with a pouty face.

"I'm sorry. Please forgive me for what I've done." I said and I saw how she stares at me.

"I really love you, Y/n. I was stupid to do that to you. Please, forgive me and give me another chance to prove my love for you."

I was very nervous actually that she'll never forgive me. After what I've done, I understand her.We were both silent and I'm slowly losing my hope when she suddenly held my hand.

"I love you too, Taeyong and yes. I'll forgive you. Let's start again." she said.

I leaned over and kissed her over her cheeks. I stopped myself from kissing her over her lips because I'm afraid I'll get her sick too.

"You have no idea how happy you made me." I said then hugged her once again."I love you so much, Y/n."

The End

Hi! Thank you for reading!!! 

[neverforgetkpop]

Not Alone | Pt. 04

Summary: Hayoon has never had an easy life. From a very early age she learned that if she wanted to be a known designer, she would have to work harder than most. After years of working odd jobs since high school trying to take care of her family, at the age of 29 she has finally been offered the opportunity to become a stylist for one of the top entertainment companies in South Korea: SM Entertainment. Little does she know that working there will change her life forever.

Fashion, idols and love all in one. Will she be able to handle it, or will the pressure of it all make her give up on her dreams?  

Rating: M

Pairing: Jaehyun & Hayoon/Reader

Genre & Warning:  Strangers to lovers. Angst, eventual fluff and maybe smut. Talk about depression and abandonment.

A/N: My first NCT fanfic. I named the female character Hayoon. Though I wrote her a bit more mature, you can change her name to yours if you want. It’s written in 3rd person. I feel like I should add the (obvious) disclaimer that the story is not real, and though the characters are inspired by the members of NCT, they are not the members.  

PS. The name of the story is inspired by NCT 127’s Not Alone.

PT. 01 / PT. 02  / PT. 03

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“Did you hear? They hired a new girl without any experience.”

“Yes, I even saw her interrupt Sang-Hee’s session.” The girl had a long braid down her back, her expression annoyed as she was surrounded by two other girls. “She even got here late. The audacity of her thinking she can have her way her first day.”

Hearing that conversation gave Hayoon flashbacks of high school. She was bullied and looked down upon because her mother abandoned them and her father was unable to work so she would sometimes see her classmates across a coffee shop counter after taking their order. She was old enough not to let things like that bother her, but she did find it ridiculous how there were people already talking about her, her first day.

Hayoon watched the girls walk out of the elevator in front of her before following out into the lobby.

“Hayoon!” she looked up at Sungho waiting for her. He smiled brightly at her as always.

Sungho had been the kid she used to fight with at lunch over dessert. They eventually decided to split the dessert and slowly they became friends. Since then on they had simply become part of each other’s lives. It was partly because of him that Hayoon had applied at SM. Sungho worked in SM as a photographer and made a few questions here and there before letting Hayoon know that there was a possible job opening.

“You didn’t have to wait for me.” Hayoon smiled falling into step next to him.

“You’re still new. You might get lost on your way down.”

“Right, cause I don’t know how to get to the lobby I came in through in the first place.”

After traffic, they made it to the bar close to her apartment where Minsuh and Yeona were already waiting with their first round of soju and beer.

“So? How was it?” Yeona asked serving them another round.

“Did you see any naked idols?” Minsuh raised her brows suggestively.

“Is that really your first question?” Sungho rolled his eyes.

“I bet she’ll see someone naked before you do.” Yeona said pointedly.

“I see idols shirtless from time to time,” he paused and rubbed his temple. “What am I even saying?” he drank from his glass.

“She probably saw someone shirtless today so your awesomeness has been greatly reduced.” Minsuh shrugged.

“And here I was thinking you’d want to listen to how much designer brands I saw in one rack alone.” Hayoon laughed more to herself.

“You can ignore them. I’ll listen to your day unlike them as always.” Sungho turned to her.

“You say that but where were you last week when she was having a meltdown?” Minsuh shot feigning innocence.

“It was not a meltdown thank you very much.”

“I was pulling an all-nighter.”

They both answered at the same time.

“Ok. For real now, how was it?” Yeona asked.

“My boss is obviously a woman who’s made a name for herself. The people seem nice. Tomorrow I have to get to the office at five am though.”

“Five am?” Minsuh looked shocked.

“I’m part of tomorrow’s morning team so I’ll be going to the bathroom before calling it a night,” she grabbed her bag and made her way to the bathroom.

“Did you really have to throw me under the buss?” Sungho shot Minsuh a deadly look.

“I mean we all know you work like crazy and if you didn’t you’d be with us so there was no harm in the comment. The real problem here is you still being this slow. It’s been over ten years. When will you make your move already?”

Sungho looked at Yeona for support. “Don’t look at me. If you don’t tell her how you feel you might never find out if you have a chance or not.”

Sungho sighed looking at his half-empty glass. He had been next to Hayoon for so long. He had seen her sort of date but never stick with anyone. She was always working, she was always taking care of her family and he was always there but she had never hinted at maybe liking him like he liked her.

-

“Good morning Hayoon.” Sang-Hee greeted her with a  bright smile. “I’m going to ask you to help with the setup for Johnny, Doyoung and Jaehyun’s racks before the members come in in an hour. I want you to meet them before we head out.”

“Head out?”

“Oh, we’re sending you with the team heading for Jaehyun’s shoot today. We want you to have the experience of working with the members when they need to perform as soon as possible. We have an hour so let’s get to it.”

Hayoon stood in the corner of the studio Jaehyun was shooting in finishing the notes she had taken of Jungwoo, Yuta, Taeil and Mark. She could immediately understand on another level what Sang-Hee meant when she said that she would see a lot of sides to the members. They were all extremely energetic at times, kind and professional too. She was starting to picture outfits for the seven members she had officially met. She hadn’t looked them up even after knowing she would work with them knowing that meeting them in person would be more helpful. Seeing how the person moved and held themself was always something she wanted to consider when making designs for specific people.

“You’re lucky you didn’t get Haechan with Jungwoo and Doyoung the same day.” Jaehyun laughed standing next to her. Hayoon suddenly jumped closing the notebook with her notes. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to startle you.

They both bowed politely at each other.

“Good morning.” Hayoon greeted him.

“I hope the members weren’t too much this morning.”

“Oh, not at all. They were very polite.” Hayoon tried to hold back a smile remembering Jungwoo doing aegyo at Mark while Yuta wrapped an arm around Mark’s neck pulling him away from Jungwoo all while Taeil stood as  a bystander. “How does the jacket feel?” she quickly remembered why she was there.

Jaehyun had hair and makeup done, he had dressed as well and now stood in front of her like a full fledge idol compared to when they had met first.

“It’s good.”

“Want me to check the neck, seems like it might be digging into your neck,” she quickly noticed. Jaehyun nodded politely standing in front of a mirror. Hayoon moved around him. She tried to reach his neck but couldn’t find an angle where she could actually reach. Jaehyun suddenly crouched down a bit. “I have a better idea,” she said reaching for a stool close by. She quickly stepped onto it. Jaehyun smiled, his dimples present as always. He watched her work through the mirror, her hands brushing his neck briefly. He watched her brow furrow in concentration. “Ok, now turn around.”

He did as asked and faced her. They stood face to face thanks to the stool. Before either could do anything, Hayoon slipped from the stool onto Jaehyun’s arms. He held onto her steadying them both. Hayoon could feel his arms around her waist, her chest against his chest and suddenly her neck was warm. He gently put her down and let her go.

“Are you ok?” he cleared his throat asking nicely hoping his ears weren’t red.

“Yes. Thank you. I’m sorry.”

“No need to apologize.”

“Jaehyun they need you on stage.”

“Does it feel better?” Hayoon asked.

Jaehyun looked at himself in the mirror one last time moving the jacket around. “Yes. Much better thank you.”

“Oh, before you go I need to take a picture of the outfit,” she remembered Sang-Hee had asked her to do so before leaving the dressing room. Jaehyun stood against the door and posed. Hayoon realized not for the first time how attractive he was. “Thank you.”

“Thank you,” he smiled before leaving the room.

Hayoon looked around the room feeling self-conscious suddenly, she could still feel Jaehyun’s arms around her waist. She wanted to hit herself for so many reasons in that moment. She started to question if she was truly that deprived of any physical contact with an attractive man when she remembered how deprived she actually was. She pushed the thoughts away. She was working, she shouldn’t be thinking about her personal needs during work, especially because of a young idol that was clearly off limits not only because of the obvious fact of him being an idol, but because she could clearly hear Eun Sook’s warning. Her needs would have to be silent, she wasn’t going to risk getting into trouble because she found an idol attractive. She was there to work and that was it.

[kpopmusiclyricsalbums]

WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT....

Kenzie 

The hidden goddess of songs in SM Entertainment. 

The brilliant lyricist that is behind some of the most iconic songs in SM’s history. 

A graduate from the Berklee College of music, yes, that Berklee she has written 10 songs to hit number 1 on the gaon chart, and her B-sides are dreams.  

The thing that I love about Kenzie is that she knows how to twist a song into making it mean something while saying something else.  It’s kind of hidden meanings within a song that I don’t see all that much from writers.  It’s one of the reason I love Taylor Swift’s music is because I love learning something new every time I hear the same song over and over again.  The hidden depths and meaning more.  

3 Examples:

Obsession - EXO 

At first glance, the song could meaning the obsession with one’s fans/Idols, or being obsessed over someone and seeing the toxicity in it.  When I heard it, I thought it was a dig at sasaengs and fans that go to far.  Then the line at the end came in and it completely startled me.  

거울 속의 나를 보고 있는 나 / It’s me looking at myself in the mirror

It’s can simply change the entire meaning behind the song without even thinking about it.  It’s a double meaning that also is about ego, and self reflection.  Sometimes you get so caught up in everything, In yourself, you never realize the toxic part could also be from one’s own self-reflection.  The lines that follow are all of plea’s to get away, to disappear.  It’s the last line of substance in the song that flips it on it’s head.  A cry for help because sometimes your worst enemy, the thing that goes bump in your nightmares isn’t someone else, but you.  It turns the song into a dialogue with one person fighting with their own demons.  

Power Up - Red Velvet 

Power up is one of those Red song’s that people either hate or love.  (I personally loved it)  It’s one of those songs that is great for summer and is about having fun.  But it also is about recharging yourself and going for your dreams that seem so out there.  It’s also points out that maybe the reason we haven’t gotten our dreams yet is because we just need to have fun.  

It starts off with someone who hasn’t moved since they got up, and ends with them being recharged and ready to take on the world.  It’s about changing your mindset on things.  Yeah school is boring and sucks, but you could also think of it is school is learning and you are evolving as a human being.  It’s about changing the mindset. 

선생님은 내게 말씀하셨죠 / Teacher told me 

놀 때도 일할 때도 즐겁게 해 / To have fun whether I’m playing or working

그래 난 유달리 반짝거렸죠 /Yes, I shined even more

뜨거움도 새로움도 It’s mine / This hotness, this newness, it’s mine

It’s  a song to help those who need it be pumped and to get out of bed.  To go forth into the world and achieve their goals.  

Go go airplane 태양 위로 날아라/ Go, go, airplane, fly above the sun

Diving to the sky 완전 소름 돋았어 / Diving to the sky, I’m getting goosebumps

Let’s power up!

까맣게 다 타버릴 거예요/ We're gonna burn up

Doesn’t it make you enjoy Power up just a little bit more?

Into the New World - Girls Generation

Into the New World is certified Kpop Gold.  It’s the golden standard and a must for every new girl group to learn, and to be compared to.  The song is upbeat and high energy with just as much air needed to belt out the lyrics.  It’s a timeless song that has been turned into a rallying cry for protesters and Women empowerment.  Into the New World is what Girls’ Generation ended up doing for the Kpop industry as a whole for female groups, by going the tough route always working hard, facing the darkness that comes.  

사랑해 널 이 느낌 이대로 / I love you, just like this

그려 왔던 헤매임의 끝 / The longed end of wandering

이 세상 속에서 반복되는/ I leave behind This world’s

슬픔 이젠 안녕 / Unending sadness

수많은 알 수 없는 길 속에 / In the many unknowable paths

희미한 빛을 난 쫓아가 / I follow a dim light

언제까지라도 함께하는 거야 / It’s something we’ll do together to the end

다시 만난 나의 세계 / Into my new world

특별한 기적을 기다리지 마 / Don’t wait for a special miracle

눈앞에선 우리의 거친 길은 / There’s a rough road in front of us

알 수 없는 미래와 벽 바꾸지 않아 / With unknowable future and obstacles, I won’t change

포기할 수 없어 / I can’t give up

The lyrics in the chorus are talking about struggle and paths not yet traveled.  To a better place where even though the light is dim, we have to work towards it together, because that’s how things change.  It’s a rallying cry for hope, for endurance in tough times, and to make sure that people keep fighting for what they believe in.  That they know, they are not alone.  

To sum it all up, Kenzie is the secret hidden goddess of Kpop song writing.  If Kenzie releases a song, I know its going to be good.  So here a list of songs she has written the lyrics for and the links so you can listen and enjoy! 

BoA

DOTCH 

Garden in the Air 

I Kiss 

Lollipop 

M.E.P. (My Electronic Piano) 

Milky Way

Moto 

My Name 

On December 27th 

People Say…

Spring Rain 

Time to Begin 

EXO 

24/7 

Baby

For Life

Forever  

Monster 

Obsession 

Sing for You 

Transformer 

The First Snow  

What U Do?

Wolf 

Ya Ya Ya 

EXO-K 

Overdose 

EXO - CBX 

Playdate 

Rhythm After Summer 

EXO - Baekhyun 

Betcha 

EXO - Chen 

Love Words

Shall We?

F(x) 

Cash Me Out 

Danger 

Jet 

Lachata (Intro) & La Cha Ta 

MILK 

Mr. Boogie

Papi 

Red Light 

Signal  

Vacance 

Gain

Kiss or Kill 

Girls’ Generation 

All Night 

Diamond 

Europa 

Express 999 

FAN 

Fire Alarm 

Girlfriend 

HaHaHa

Haptic Motion 

Into the New World

Light Up the Sky 

Merry-Go-round 

Oh!

Oscar 

Way to Go!

Girls’ Generation-TTS 

OMG (Oh My God) 

Girls’ Generation - Seohyun 

Don’t Say No 

Girls’ Generation - Taeyeon 

All Night Long (& NCT Lucas) 

Close 

Four seasons 

I Got Love 

Lonely Night

Love You Like Crazy 

Spark  

Sweet Love 

Isak N Jiyeon 

The Sign 

NCT 127 

Limitless 

NCT Dream 

We Go Up 

Red Velvet 

Attaboy 

First Time 

Lady’s Room 

Lucky GIrl

Mr. E

Peek-a-Boo 

Power Up 

Psycho 

Really Bad Boy (RBB) 

Red Flavor 

Sassy Me 

Some Love 

SHINee 

All Day All Night 

Evil 

Graze

Green Rain  

Jo Jo 

Life

LOVE 

Love Sick 

Queen of New York 

Our Page 

Real

Rescue 

Savior

SHIFT  

Stranger  

Trigger 

Why So Serious?

SHINee - Key 

One of Those Nights 

SHINee - Onew 

Blue 

SHINee - Taemin 

Sexuality 

Want 

SMTOWN

Hotmail 

Red Sun 

Snowflake 

Super Junior 

첫눈이 와

A Day 

Angela 

Bittersweet 

Devil 

Good Love 

Hate U, Love U 

Lo Siento (& Leslie Grace) 

Storm 

The Girl is Mine 

Your Eyes 

Super Junior - Happy 

Sunny 

Super Junior - K.R.Y. 

Just You 

Super Junior - M 

Me 

Only U 

Super Junior - Kyuhyun 

At Gwanghwamun 

A Million Pieces 

SuperM

I Can’t Stand the Rain 

Let’s Go Everywhere 

The Grace 

한번 더, Ok?

One More Chance 

Sweet Emotion 

TVXQ 

하구달 

Humanoids

Like Now 

Oasis 

One 

Phantom 

Rainbow 

Remember

When We’ll Be Together  

Your Man 

TVXQ & Super Junior 

Show Me Your Love

Masterlist

[markofjaehyun]

KPOP A-Z

A - ANS

So I found ANS a little after they debuted and was pretty interested in their music, so I did some research. ANS has a concept (so far) where they add a member each comeback.

Favorite Songs: "Boom Boom" and "Say My Name"

Bias: Bian

B - Brown Eyed Girls

Legends. Fun fact, Brown Eyed Girls are the longest running K-Pop girl group. Their music is captivating and meaningful, and pulls you in.

Favorite Songs: "Abracadabra" and "Warm Hole"

Bias: Miryo

C - Chungha

QUEEN. Chungha and her whole discography are a work of art. Formerly known as a member of IOI, Chungha debuted as a soloist in 2017 with the EP "Hands on Me" and has become a force to be reckoned with in the soloist game, being compared to the likes of BoA and Sunmi.

Favorite Songs: "Gotta Go" and "Stay Tonight"

D - Day6

Probably the only band I listen to, the first time I heard "Sweet Chaos", I was like "Wow, stan". I don't really enjoy band music that much but Day6 is definitely an exception!

Favorite Songs: "Sweet Chaos" and "Shoot Me"

Bias: Jae

E - EXID

The best thing my sister ever did for me was introduce me to EXID. These girls quickly shot up my bias list, becoming my second favorite group. Their songs are unique and different from the "you break my heart but I still love you" songs that were popular around their prime. I could write a 5 page essay on why I love EXID but I'm gonna stop myself here.

Favorite Songs: "Lady" and "Todak Todak"

Bias: LE

F - N/A

G - Girls' Generation

SNSD are queens who will never be forgotten by the K-pop industry. They've influenced many popular idols today, giving young boys and girls idol fever. Their songs may be a little cutesy and lovey dovey, but I love their entire discography.

Favorite Songs: "Catch Me If You Can" and "Genie"

Bias: Jessica

H - Hwasa

The living definition of slim thicc. Hwasa has an amazing sound and great potential to be successful on her own should she ever go solo (Stan Mamamoo). I love Hwasa's voice and just her style and confidence.

Favorite Songs: "Twit" and "Maria"

I - Itzy

The leader's of the self love revolution. I've been a Midzy for a while now and I don't regret stanning one bit. Itzy have a unique sound so early on in their career and that definitely gives them a headstart on the road to superstardom.

Favorite Songs: "Wannabe" and "Ting Ting Ting"

Bias: Yeji

J - N/A

K - KARD

KARD is a rare sight in the K-pop world, a co-ed group. KARD has a hip-hop/Latin sound when it comes to music, and four goofballs when it comes to members. KARD, in my opinion, is quite underrated.

Favorite Songs: "Red Moon" and "Dumb Litty"

Bias: Jiwoo

L - Loona

Loona has 12 members who debuted separately, with solos and then in 3 sub-units. I personally enjoy the story behind Loona, aka The Loonaverse. It's long and a little confusing but very interesting.

Favorite Songs: "Heart Attack" and "Love4eva"

Bias: Yves

M - Mamamoo

Mamamoo is probably one of the most vocally talented groups I stan. I found Mamamoo through Gogobebe and was hooked. I love their older songs and their newer songs alike.

Favorite Songs: "Hip" and "Décalcomanie"

Bias: Hwasa

N - NCT

If it wasn't obvious, NCT is my ult boy group. I love their music and how goofy and unique all of the members are. Just like EXID, I could go on and on about NCT.

Favorite Songs: "Boom" and "Superhuman"

Bias: Mark (127), Jisung (Dream), Hendery (WayV)

O - OnlyOneOf

I'm still relatively new to OnlyOneOf, so I can't really tell you much about them, but I'd reccomend checking them out!

Favorite Songs: N/A

Bias: Love

P - N/A

R - Red Velvet

My ult group. My first kpop group. When I heard Red Flavor, I was ready to stan. I literally got up at 3am just to watch Psycho as soon as it came out. Love them with all my heart.

Favorite Songs: "Mosquito" and "Russian Roulette"

Bias: Wendy

S - S.E.S

The OG girl group. They literally paved the way for girl groups today. They have amazing pop R&B songs and are still best friends to this day.

Favorite Songs: "Be Natural" and "Paradise"

Bias: Bada

T - Twice

My 3rd favorite girl group. Who doesn't love Twice ? If you don't...well....let's move on. Twice has cute and mature songs so they can be quite versatile and every single member is extremely talented.

Favorite Songs: "Do It Again" and "Stuck In My Head"

Bias: Dahyun

U - N/A

W - N/A

X - N/A

Y - N/A

Z - N/A

If anyone else wants to do this, just tag me! I'd love to read them!

Tagging: @1love1houseofcards @chocolvte @ultimate-kpop-trash-scenarios @incorrect-idarui-sonyeo @baby-bumblebean and anyone else!!

[erattum]

The Night is still Young

(Antipode PART 3)

Characters: Tsundere!Dong Sicheng x Y/N & NCT/WAYV

Genre: NCT College AU | NCT Heirs AU

Warnings: angst, fluff

Summary:

With two glasses of milk, bowl of fruits, papers scattered on the floor and his blue backpack, Y/N found the way to know the contents of Jisung’s heart on their supposed to be study night that turns out to be a late night conversation.

(This is for the Anon who requested for Y/N to have a moment with Jisung. Thank you for inspiring me.)

“Which part of the brain controls the heart rate?”

“Uhmm…” Jisung took his time on thinking but he scratched his head and look at them apologetically.

“Seriously? We’ve been reviewing this since last week.” Chenle was laying his head at Y/N’s lap while glaring at his friend who was now pouting when he received scolding from his older brothers.

“You should limit your game time. We need to focus on the upcoming exams.” Renjun complained, shaking his head then he adjusted his glasses from his nose and look again to his own notes.

The younger boys, or what do they called themselves, the Dreamies we’re currently gathered in Jisung’s room to prepare for their upcoming major exam. Renjun and Jaemin was lying down at Jisung’s bed, Jeno was lying on his stomach at the floor, Y/N was sitting on the floor with Chenle’s head laying on her lap and they all have their attention to Jisung who was sitting at the floor facing them, They convinced Y/N to help them review their notes because they knew it that if there was no one who will push them to study, they will play games all the time until the day before the exam when they will cram.

It was a month after the emergency meeting in the kitchen and they noticed a great improvement since Y/N have gotten close with them. Y/N was strict but unlike Doyoung who nags them all the time. She was softer than Kun and less scarier than Taeyong. Sometimes, when they are too busy from their studies/work/trainings, she help them or give them something to eat.

Their attention diverted at Haechan who swing the door open and lay on his stomach between Jaemin and Renjun at the bed.

“The review meeting at 127 was so boring that I wanted to whack my brain. This atmosphere right here made it much bearable. “ Donghyuck pouted while turning the page of the module in his hand.

“ That’s what you got form sticking with 127 hyungs.” Renjun casually said while reading his book.

“ Mark Lee’s life wouldn’t be miserable without me. I need to give him something to live in this lifetime that he was wasting because he was so boring.” Donghyuck have a habit of annoying the shit out of Mark so even if he was part of the Dreamies, he tags along with the 127 too. The 127 are the group of the older boys who was more serious on preparing to take over the NCT-med. They most likely to do the case study compared to the Dreamies who was the group of college students.

The door swung open for the second time and Mark walks inside and sit beside Y/N, relief was evident in his face.

“The hyungs are getting pretty serious. I couldn’t take the pressure. I want to read peacefully.” Mark lead his head on Y/N shoulder and he pouted like a child while looking at the report on his hand. He was currently assigned by Taeyong to review some medical cases as part of his training. Mark may be still young but he got the greatest potential to be leading doctor of NCT-med. He was hardworking, talented and dedicated with the very young age so he got himself the sure spot as the leader of the Dreamies while also taking part of the 127.

It was strange because Mark was an awkward guy especially to girls. But he could not pinpoint why he was so comfortable on Y/N. Maybe it was because she was at the same age as him or maybe she reminds him of home. Whenever he misses his family, he tried to talk to Y/N until they fall asleep in his bed.

The boys doesn’t mind Y/N to sleep in their room because all of them have a platonic relationship with her. They saw her as someone close to be their sister, a fragile human glass with a kind personality and they don’t have a heart to hurt her.

One of the members who cling to her mostly was Chenle, Haechan and surprisingly, Yuta. Chenle have this personality that you would think he will be a child forever. He was carefree and you couldn’t help but to protect him. He was the one who always pleaded Y/N to have a sleepover to his room. He always want Y/N to comb his hair while he was sleeping.

Haechan was the second one who craves Y/N attention. He clings to her a lot and was the first one who hug her. He was the first one to initiate skinship and clinginess with her the moment they are done agreeing to accept her as someone whom they could trust. Haechan was playful and always want to annoy everyone but he was so loving to Y/N.

Yuta, on the other hand, became the older brother Y/N doesn’t have. The was protective and caring towards her. He help her adjust and always give her pat on her head whenever she done something even if it was a little thing. Y/N once found out Yuta had been crying in his dreams one time when she went to Haechan’s room to give him his books. She wake him up and talk to him to calm him down when he confessed he miss his family in Osaka. He was her talk buddy about something emotional. She sometimes cried when she talk about why Sicheng didn’t talk or even glance at her direction. Their talks in Yuta’s room was something that only been shared between them. It was their secrets like bestfriends.

“Baby, are you done?” The door opened to reveal a stress Jaehyun. He pop his head at the door to look for Y/N. Y/N got used to the boys calling her anything they want. Jaehyun called her ‘Baby’ as someone who was very affectionate and soft despite of him having a black belt in Taekwondo. Taeyong call her ‘princess’ since he said that she’s the only girl in the house. Haechan called her ‘My Noona” and recently Johnny was calling her ‘sunshine’.

“What is it Jae?”

“Come to my room after you’re done here.” She nodded her head and he left the room.

-

Y/N was stretching her neck while walking to Jaehyun’s room. When the boys are stress about their exams, she was also getting stressed too because she help them review their notes. She knock three times and opened his bedroom door.

Y/N saw how chaotic Jaehyun’s room far from its usual clean and relaxing environment. There are two laptops on top of his study table, stacks of papers and pencils were laid out. Lucas was sitting in Jaehyun’s bed, papers scattered everywhere. She picked up the papers on the floor and put it on the bed where Lucas was focused on trying to rearrange it.

“How can I help?” She ask the two men who was busy doing their part.

“I want you to help Lucas separate the papers based on their diagnosis. After that, we will review it until we memorize it. Please, baby?” Jaehyun answered while typing something on his laptop. She uttered ‘ok’ and then proceed to help the two as much as she can.

Y/N think that she’ll gonna be so busy on the following days.

-

It was 4am when Sicheng left his study table for the first time this day. He only felt the stiffness of his neck when he was walking toward Jaehyun’s bedroom to get the files he ask for him when he was out of the country. Jaehyun is his bestfriend and they have the habit of not knocking on each other’s room.

“Jaehyun wher—-“ when Sicheng speak right after he opened the door thinking that Jaehyun was still awake, he was cut off by the snores he immediately recognizes that belonged to Lucas.

Sleeping on the bed was Lucas with his limbs lying everywhere, Jaehyun holding some papers on his chest while his hand was reaching on Y/N’s head. She was sleeping between them, comforter draped on her body. The room was messy with papers scattered on the floor, the desk and from the bed.

Sicheng heard that she was getting along with his friends, happy that someone was taking care of them. All of them ask for his permission when they want her to sleepover to their rooms for movie marathon or anything and swear by their hearts that they will never hurt her or do something that would harm her. Sicheng doesn’t mind and he told them that it was her approval that they need to ask for and not his, but he appreciated that they respect him as he was her soulmate.

He was back from his thoughts when Lucas moved and hug Y/N. Sicheng didn’t know how long he stared at Lucas’ hand on Y/N’s back. He suddenly remembered the facts he read on Mark’s report that based on their studies about the soulmates, when you found the one for you, there are lots of unexplainable feelings and things you do conscious or unconsciously. They are mostly noticed by the people around them but the two.

So when Sicheng removed Lucas’ hand and caged Y/N with pillows from the two, he blamed it to the names written on their neck.

-

“Noona.” Y/N look at the person who called her. She was greeted by the tall but boy who was wearing a mouse pajamas. She immediately smiled at the youngest, it was rare for him to call her because of his extremely shy personality.

“Hello Jisung, you need anything?” She was pouring the milk when Jisung walked closer to her, hand fidgeting the hem of his pajama shirt.

“C-could you help me reviewing m-my notes?” Jisung, looking at the glass of milk avoiding her eyes.

“Sure, why not? Give me 10 and I’ll be at your room.” She almost didn’t heard his little ’thank you’ if the kitchen was not quiet. She smiled at how he immediately walked away.

-

Y/N opened Jisung’s bedroom door and found him sitting at the floor, looking up at her with an innocent shocked face. Jisung was always like that, easily startled, shy and always stuttering. She put down the glasses of milk and fruits on his study table to sit in front of him on the floor.

“Where should we start?” She ask him softly, suddenly being so careful. She was aware that all of the members treated him like the baby he is as he is the youngest of them. Jisung looked for his blue backpack and to the papers on the floor for the notes he made as the ‘things-that-my-hyungs-scold-me-for-because-I-always-forgot-it’.

“Jisung, are you ok?” He immediately stopped at her question. His head stopped working for a second thinking about her question. ‘Am I okay?’

Jisung looked at her, concerned look was written on her face.

He was stressed. By the things he never think of deeply. He should be spending his youth with his same age friends but he couldn’t do it, he was one of the heir and he grew up being protected by men and women in suits, monitoring his every actions. He felt pressured to be the best in his school, he was the heir of their family, heir of the business existed even before he was born, heir of the dreams he didn’t ask and want for, just handed to him while being told that there was no one who can have it except him.

He was stressed out when he was being scolded by his hyungs, but he think of it as a reminder that they are teaching him something that would help him. They are only concerned at him, maybe because they’ve been hurt before and they don’t want him to do the mistakes they made. He did everything to run with his brothers even though he didn’t know what they are running for.

“Doest it really be this painful when you are at this age?” Jisung ask, to her but more to himself. Emotions swelled in his chest. Suddenly, there’s a lump in his throat, like the air wanted to pump out of his lungs.

Y/N held Jisung’s shoulder and lay his head on her lap when she saw the tears swelled up in his eyes. She soothed his back when he continued to sobbed, body was trembling at the pent up emotions.

Jisung never noticed that he was keeping this feelings inside him for who knows how long. He even didn’t remember the last time he cried in front of anyone, being always told that he should put his heart under his sleeves and show no weakness in front of anyone. But is it really be this painful to be like that?

“I am trying my best. But I am still too young, right? When I want to do anything, they told me I am too young to do it. When I couldn’t do anything, they told me I am too you to understand it so they are disappointed. What should I do?” He speak between his sobs and Y/N couldn’t help but to cry.

Even though they didn’t grew up in the same environment with the same problems, somehow, she understand his pain. They are both stuck on something they didn’t ask for, taking the blame of it and they couldn’t do anything but to get the best out of it.

“I didn’t knew you felt this way, Jisung-ah.” She told him and now she was silently crying, feeling sorry for the younger.

“You manage to kept all of this and think what they felt first before yours. How could someone do that with that young age?” She smiled at him even though he was not looking at her.

“You are this so young but you manage to be as good as them. Isn’t that amazing? “ Jisung smiled at her words, it was rare for him to heard people praising his efforts, it was always people comparing him to his brothers.

“I think you’ll be fine. But you should speak for your own sake too so that they could understand you. I guess your brothers are as confused as you because they didn’t know your heart so they resorted at scolding you and telling you what to do.” She carded her fingers in his hair to calm him down. Jisung found himself closing his eyes at the gestures she’s making.

“I wish I have an older sister like you” Jisung whispered, battling between staying awake and sleeping.

“But I am your sister now.” Jisung smiled before he closed his eyes and warmth enveloped him to his sleep.

-

( I am thinking of not continuing this but now I changed my mind. Your comments, suggestions are must needed for me to continue writing so don’t be shy and talk to me to my ask box. Thank you so much my loves.)

[thecrenellations]

Thick as Thieves Undead-Blog, Part One | when your liveblog falls in a well then climbs out covered in flour | my notes from reading the book for the first time, Spring 2017

Expect yelling, lines that stuck out to me, and references that might only make sense in my head! Do not expect any meaningful analysis; I was simply reading this book, losing my mind, and feeling like I was falling in love. (Context provided in italics.)

Part Two

Chapters 1-5:

Ch. 1 - Kamet meets Costis and finds out about Nahuseresh’s “death” 

1. similar start to KoA and ACoK? and Thief?? feeling stupid

2. smashed bottle of remchik (amphora motif?)

RUSTICATE

oh no Nahuseresh why you’re married!

3. a new character! (Laela)

5. u look like a pomegranate

6. how old is Kamet?

8. “crooked men assume others are crooked as well” like thieves and philanderers...

10. Laela thinks Attolia is doomed?

ORNON????

“nature of world” is that what you really think?

trained as a child

11. poor eyesight

PAH COSTIS IS BACK i’m emotional

A VERY LARGE ATTOLIAN

12. THANK THE ETERNAL GODS HE WAS A CHATTY ATTOLIAN THAT’S WHAT YOU THINK

13. everyone is smart

a deep well of spite, low cunning

14. physical description of Costis?!?

he says he has so much power but he ... hides in alcoves? behind urns?

15. backward Attolia

a match made in hell (Kamet’s assessment of Gen and Irene)

K’s backstory

what does he like? does he WANT wealth and power?

16. *****“There is freedom and power” ***** (this quote was featured in some of the promotion before publication, I think, so it stuck out to me as especially important, though it probably would have anyway because it says a whole lot about Kamet’s perspective!)

oh no well there goes my wish for insight into Nahuseresh RIP (I didn’t LIKE Nahuseresh and particularly want to get to know him better, but I did go into this book hoping we’d get a more nuanced view of some of the Mede court ... turns out we absolutely DID get some serious insight into Nahuseresh despite him not appearing in person ... oof. I do still hope that RotT gives us even more Mede characters or fleshes out the other ambassadors - Akretenesh and Melheret (though we we just see them through the eyes of people like Sophos who vehemently oppose them) still seem less unique/complex/human compared to other antagonist-types like Ambiades, Sejanus, reader’s choice of baron.)

17. tears ... not for him though

 21. Shesmegah = Philia?

22. Rabbit and Lion!!!

23. Bear ... thx mwt <3 plz don’t be foreshadowing (Gen compares himself to a dancing bear ... so “there had been a white bear once, a gift from the Braelings in the north, but it had died in the heat” is pretty ominous, especially considering the animal allusions to another character on the previous page!)

24. he’s leaving the gates an enemy of king!

Ch. 2 - Kamet bumps into Immakuk and then Costis, the Anet’s Dream burns

28. how do they know who’s a slave?

clothes, chain

it’s Odin (listen. Odin and Immakuk both have one eye and show up a lot! I was totally on the right track. Shoutout to The Saga of the Volsungs ;) )

Enforcers of Imperial Peace give me a break! (i mean, in the US police are often officially called “peace officers” so, fair)

is he a god? srsly

32. the first of my many lies (“you said after noon”)

is this post-annuxing? no?

We went to the theater

34. I am a good judge of men

35. “i could evade the attolian far more easily than the palace guard” he is a palace guard <3

36. HIS ACCENT IS STILL HORRIBLE also your god’s favor

37. uhhh omg

38. omg OMG OMGOMG OMG (this was me generally losing it at Kamet’s assessment of Costis and at “he told me his name, as if he expected me to use it” I still cannot get over that line)

that��s one way to get Ornon out of your hair

39. Has C picked up the mind-reading habit

“take a seat” ... parallel to first KoA scene with Costis and Gen?

40. so certain of my place in the world

DIVESTED himself of his shirt

41. soooooooo bad bad institution (Kamet is thinking about the other slaves being executed)

42. Mercy buds (Kamet and Costis/Shesmegah and Philia)

44. more retrospect/depth in narration than Sophos, even (“I should have had more respect for his quick thinking” etc)

"i wanted to believe i steered the course of my future” no it’s Gen aka the gods

47. Story time!

friends

53. Ziggurat vs tower?

54. Costis is good in a crisis

55. what is this (Kamet’s swimming struggles)

“cooped up”

Ch. 3 - Kamet and Costis stay in Sherguz, then leave by caravan

62. making excuses to hang w Costis 4eva

who set the boat on fire?

who was the merchant on it?

68. know my secret??

wtf Costis you put a rock in your breastplate?

73. holy shit “eloquent”

lol this scene! (Costis negotiating with Roamanj)

“you are asking this because i look like your generous old uncle” his uncle is NOT generous tho

75. what is palm grease? :o 

does C really not know N is dead? what if he isn’t ....? (lol don’t give me too much credit for this thought, I quickly dismissed it)

76. sign of the idiot!

78. Aris! <3 Wish I hadn’t been spoiled for this! (by the character list absolutely crammed full of spoilers in all the new paperbacks)

79. Are these like the large caravans Eddis took?

85. around the fire interesting education vibes + romance?

I’m so proud of Costis!

Ch. 4 - Contains lions and backstory

89. Yes! (Namreen attack. I don’t know what in particular I was excited about. Possibly Costis’s comment that the guy who stabbed Kamet didn’t have his guard up? Or just everything.)

90. Wow! When u get over it, compare to Costis w/ Gen hurt!

93. “why namreen” OMG Kamet tell him!!! it’s important!

94. no one knows what my king knows

95. a herd of cats!

damn yeah issues

A LION!!! wtf 

I would LOVE to hear Costis hiss

OMG COSTIS NO

96. prayers ouch ... oxe harbrea?

98. oh my god

101. Costis is kind

105. Costis is accustomed to passing the day in silence - but he fills the silence here w/ Kamet w/ horrible jokes!

god what was K’s childhood

106. OMG sand in food

107. OMG so cute (Costis telling stories about Gen)

108. So so so! :)

110. I am aghast I continue to be aghast I’m surprised This Incident wasn’t common knowledge tho (How did you come to Ianna-Ir? I punched the king in the face.)

112. well that was a long and slightly weird story (abt Costis’s story of the above. I was channelling something Martin says in the Cabin Pressure episode “Fitton” about the sauce?)

116. Attolian slang omg

literally the main suspense/climax is when is Kamet going to call Costis by his name?!?!!!

117. [doodle of caggi conversation, see photo at top of post]

126. omg they were both in Attolia but not together

if Kamet was in the kitchen then does he know Sandy? (LJ fandom name for Brinna before we knew who she was)

127. OMG nutcakes vs Irene (“She was as beautiful as the Queen of the Night, but the Attolian nutcakes ... were even more beautiful -- and they wouldn’t kill you.”)

looks like a nutcake is actually a nutcake

looks like a nutcake could actually kill u? (I THINK ABOUT THIS CONCEPT A LOT. someday I will make a post about it)

Ch. 5 - Road trip continues, Ne Malia/Koadester

131. So proud of Costis’s acting! (losing money to sell the chain)

136. the truth? (Kamet’s backstory)

we’re just getting more (as readers)

140. IT’S ODIN (onion farmer)

143. fastener?

144. wooo (thoughts about “new authority as a free man”)

151. crack in china cup returns

153. Costis you’re sharing your king’s confidence!

154. Eugenides here to break up your empire!

lol Melheret Gen why

156. “squabbles” wars all reduced to reliable trade route!

apparently I became too engrossed to take notes as their pursuers caught up to them, because that’s all for this chapter! The journey will continue when I’ve typed up more ... let me know if anything is incomprehensible. Thanks for reading!