#creamer nation

[badluvkii]

I NEARLY ACCIDENTALLY SENT THE GIRK IN TALKING TO A VIDEO ABOUT A BUNK BED STYLE DOUBLE TOILET AND SAID “WE SHOULD GET ONE” . I MEANT TO SEND IT TO MY BSF

[badluvki]

i have made it a jokey habit of having one tiny bite of my friends food for the bit and they feel bad bc i used to have an ed and my brainrot dumbass said “fanum tax”

they didn’t even know what i was talking ab so i sat there like

[fantafrys]

LETS GOOOO!!!! # CREAMERNATION!!!!!!

[fuckedamygdala]

atp idk how i feel ab sex , with all my csa trauma i became hypersexual and use sex as a form of sh , which also is perpetuated by my bpd but some days i think sex is terrifying and others i am hypersexual , i’ve had many consensual experiences but also a lot of non . when i had my second to last ex i had to break up w just bc she lived the other side of the country , i had sex obviously but also i feel like i did it to take back what i was stolen of when i was a kid . i’ve done that a lot to have sex just to take back the truama . but i’ve never fell in love really , it’s just my bpd making me connect to them and think they’re the best person ever , not real romance and i don’t think i’ve been sexually attracted to any of my partners either , even ones i’ve had experiences w . i just tjink i had it to take back the truama

im not even saying this bc i hare my exes . i mean i do despise most my exes , but my most recent two i am still friends with and i talk a lot to both of them were basically very good friends we text a lot still . all the rest i despise but that’s not why i’m saying i haven’t been romantically or sexually attracted , i genuinely aren’t , bc i haven’t found attraction i think all positive obsessive emotions are love , but it’s just my bpd

like im sexually attracted to some like famous ppl bc yk they’re fine af but whenever it comes to relationships i am never attracted in that way i just yearn for the sexual aspects bc of my truama . i yearn for sex but not sexual attraction . i feel like once i have a chance to fuck someone the attraction isn’t there . like people around me that are in my life not halfway across the globe and celebrities , they don’t sexually appeal me and i’ve only realised it now

but i do wanan be in a romantic sexual relationship even if i don’t feel the attraction , i will love them and be there for them nonetheless also who knows i might start getting romantic attraction , i don’t think k will with sexual attraction but i obviously still want sex

[cyzber]

sup

[1starqi]

i am

[piercethemeow]

[badluvkii]

in actually obsessed w high and low

[panurei-derogatory]

But what if I DO use the hashtag creamer nation

[badluvkii]

someone call a ufo from space to get me RIGHT NOW

im a germaphobe and so i suddenly felt the urge to sanitise my hands when i was in bed , i stood up to get my sanitizer and i accidentally flashed my ass to 4 men opposite my house while they were fixing a car , rn it’s 11:21 at night so it’s dark so i stood in the fixed postition looking to see if it’s ppl or just a new object in the area . they stood froze too , just staring at me not moving , talking or anything , so i stood w my ass out looking dead at strangers with my FLASHLIGHT ON , so they could see me better than i saw them . i actually migjt leave this planet , hook me up w ur favorite martian bc i swear to god i’m gonna go on a 7 yr long space trip after this

[badluvkii]

BYEEEE I WAS STANDING OUT MY SHOWER FOR AGESSSSS TRYING TO FIGURE IF SOMWOWN PUT ACID IN MY SHOWER I WAS SUREEEE SOMEONE PUT ACUD IN MY SHOWER SO I WAS SCARED TO GET IN

im a germaphobe so it’s saying a lot to be afraid of showers for the day but here we are , still wanted to be perfectly clean sm i still showered despite the fear

i lovw showers i shower too much theyre the best so idk

[badluvkii]

“but you’re so quiet”

,,,,

nah but i broke sound barriers w that

[cyzber]

haii :3 dis is me >.<

okey cee ya :P